i didnt want to finish it but i made myself

Imagine 1# on the list.
Inspired by dont forget of Demi Lovato.

“What do you want me to do y/n? Tell me because i have no fuckinh clue!”

John screamed at you angry and possessed after he confronted you with jealousy when he saw you kissing your new man.

“Wait a minute! Hold up john!” You rise your hand in desbelief at his behavior and words.

“You and I are not a thing anymore because you wanted to! You left me broken when you endes everything between us and now that I’m happy again you are acting like I cheated you, are you fucking mad?!” You screamed with your face turning red.

John sighed and rubbed his face falling back on his couch while you stood still on your place with your arms crossed over your chest.

“ I told you that I wanted to keep you safe, you used to say to me I was your one and only and you couldnt love anyone beside me, we made promises about our future and shit got too much in my life and I didnt want to be selfish and bring you down with me but that doesnt mean I never stopped loving you”

John looked at you with a more sad expression and tears in his eyes, you werw taken back at his words and you felt a lump growing on your throat when we finished his rant.

“ you also promised me to never break my heart and you did, you are a man and you could say no to many things, fuck john I even looked the other side when people made comments about how you were with other women in my back, I turned myself against my family for you and then you just went and did exatcly what you said you would never do, I want you to be happy and I dont know if that can be with me so please forget about us, move with your life and let me go”

Your head dropped and you quickly cleaned the tears that fell on your face, you tooked a deep breath and liftes your head not wanting to see the man you never stopped loving infront of you broken like you were, yoy stood up and walked to the door while john stood up quickly calling for you.

“Y/n! Please dont say for me to forget about you, that is like asking for me not to breath, I will prove that i can be the man worth it enough of your love again, I will change and we will be together again, but please… dont forget about us…”

John voice broke in the last word and you smiled sadly turning away leaving his house has fast has you could not being able to hold back the tears any longer.

“ I wont Johnny, i wont forget”

You whispered to yourself while walking those lonely streets alone in the cold winter of birmingham.


i told myself id wait until i finished with finals to get the achhd but i cant resist a cute animal crossing game!!!

thanks nintendo lol

Out of Control (Stiles Stilinski Imagine)

Request:hi :) can I get an imagine where y/n killed someone to become an alpha, but never told her boyfriend Stiles, or her pack and y/n and Stiles get into an argument at a pack meeting and Stiles calls y/n a killer and she attacks him, but then he forgives her and fluff at the end? lol sorry if it’s confusing, I love your blog btw. I don’t know if you do personals, but if you do my name’s Destiny, but if you don’t then you’d obviously use y/n

 A/n:  the argument was lame so sorry for that and also i am very sorry that i’m so soooo soooo late. I literally had the worst writer block ever and i had zero motivation to write but i’m back now and yeah i hope you enjoy it!  @smokedluh

 When i was little i always wanted to be an Alpha with my own pack. I wanted to make decisions on my own without my “Alpha” knowing about it. My mother once told me to become an Alpha, a beta should kill his own Alpha or you can become a true alpha.

 What my mother told me always stuck around with me. I always look at my alpha with hatred. He thinks he can boss me around and yell at me whenever he pleases. Not with me. One night i got so fed up with him, i did the most unthinkable thing. I killed him. I stabbed my claws deep in his stomach, twisting it and kicking him before he passed out and soon died.

 That same night i could feel myself changing. I felt stronger and powerful and more in control. I was my own boss now, and i’ll have my own pack. This is what i wanted and this is what i was. A murderer, someone who gets what she wants even if it means getting blood on my hands. 

 But all of that changed when i moved to Beacon Hills. My parents decided Beacon Hills was a safe place for me to start fresh and it was. I have amazing friends, there were other werewolfs here. Scott and his friends accepted me with open arms. All they know is that i’m an Alpha on my own and not the whole story behind it. 

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Last night I dreamt that Patton decided I wasn’t taking good care of myself (which I guess is true) so he came into my room to get me out of bed and dragged me downstairs to the kitchen where he made me a shortstack of chocolate chip pancakes and told endless dad jokes until I had finished eating. Then he got more serious and asked why I hadn’t been eating or sleeping much lately and I didn’t want to tell him that the depression was getting bad again and the nightmares had come back, so i didnt answer and he just smiled this sad smile of understanding and gave me a hug. And it was an awesome hug, warm against my whole body without being too much and he just hung on for forever until I was okay enough to pull away. Then he lead me back to my room and tucked me into bed for a nap with my childhood teddy and a warm blanket and a kiss on my forehead and he read me Dr Seuss until I fell asleep and the last thing I hear was “I’m rooting for ya, kiddo” before I woke up for real this morning. And I don’t care that it was a figment of my subconscious, I just really really needed that after this past weekend and the idea that Patton cared enough to do that was so sweet and made me so happy and I just words can’t say how much I love and appreciate my happy pappy Patton okay?? That’s all.


The making of my new dress :

I was extremely excited for this dress, even more than i have been for my last 5 custom made Gavin dresses. This one was particularly important to me because i decided to design the dress completely myself. 

Picture #1 - The first picture in this is of my initial sketch of what i wanted in my dress. I sent this to Gavin along with a list of specific details such as the scoop down the body and the shoulder piece being all celtic knots (i can’t draw them for shit), the cross hatching to extend down the sleeves, and that i liked the new shoulder piece design. We then started to discuss colours.

Picture #2 - This was the initial sketch of the colours of the dress. Originally the dress was meant to be several different shades of blue with an orangey beige colour. As you can see by the dress, we obviously changed the idea. After speaking with my dance teachers and letting them know how the designing process was going they said they would really like the dress to be black, orange, green and white. Obviously i was perfectly fine with this idea because i got to show my irish roots :)

Picture #3 - This is first design proof Gavin sent me. I was so excited and happy that he followed my sketches and all my specific details i asked for and that the dress i dreamed of was becoming a reality. This was the last thing i got from Gavin until i received a message that the dress was left at the All Scotland’s for me to pick up (I didn’t go) regardless of the fact that we didnt even know it was finished.

Pictures #4,5,6 - These are all pictures from the day my dress arrived. I automatically fell in love with this dress because it was mine. It wasn’t just custom made for me, it had also been custom designed by me all by myself. 

Pictures # 7,8 - These pictures are from my dress’ world premiere at Worlds. I kept the dress very secret posting nothing but a sneak peak on instagram and not wearing it to shows/competitions, I wanted it to be a complete surprise at worlds and I’m so glad i did. Not only was the dress altered, over $500 worth of Swarovski crystals were added by, you guessed it me (and help from my lovely sister) and it felt absolutely amazing to finally wear it on stage at worlds. 

Yah so this dress means the absolute world to me, I can’t wait to wear it all around the world and show as many people as i can, Thanks for reading if you got this far :) if not thanks for looking