i didnt really do anything


I’m happy right now, so I’m nervous 
Because there’s always the calm before the storm
Because I don’t want to be set on fire and burn quickly
I’m cheering for love 

indiepunkloser  asked:

I think i'm asking a little early, I forgot the date but I just wanted to know if your surgery went well? I figure you'll make a post about it but I just wanted to know if you're doing okay. Anyways if this is pre-op good luck and if it's post op I hope things went well. much love I hope you get back to full health soon!!!

Tomorrow will be a week exactly since I went into surgery. The surgery finished almost an hour early, roughly 4 hours total. I lost almost a litre of blood but I didn’t need any blood transfusions, thank God. The tumor was also bigger than I thought it was, a bit bigger than my actual kidney. 

The first day was very rough; they tried to make me walk and I blacked out and threw up. The second day I was unable to urinate on my own for 6+ hours so I was stuck on a catheter for 2 days. Luckily by Sunday I was able to go on my own. They allowed me to go home on Sunday afternoon, but after removing my drainage tube from my side I got a fever that night of 101.5 degrees and couldn’t move/breathe well. There was fluid in my lungs too, but I think I fended off pneumonia for the most part by practicing the spiromiter thing. I was told to call the hospital if I had a fever or anything but I chose to sleep and drink water instead. My fever went away a couple days ago.

I can’t sleep long hours and still am in constant pain. My parents bought me a walker to walk to the bathroom when I need to, and I went to the hospital today to see my surgeon. He is giving me more pain meds and muscle relaxers to help me sleep at night. Luckily he told me the tumor was tested and wasn’t cancerous, though since I’m so young there’s a chance I’ll develop one on my liver or my kidney again in my lifetime. For now I’m not going to worry about it.

Thank you guys for all the prayers and kind thoughts. They helped a lot while I was in the hospital, and still help as I’m continuing to recover. Hopefully in a week I can move and get up by myself. For now I’m playing it by ear.


Benedict Cumberbatch as Shezza in Sherlock series 3

Staedtler Mars Lumograph Black (4B, 6B carbon pencils) and Prismacolor Verithin coloured pencils on 5 X 8 Strathmore toned tan paper. 


everything is just a dream



you must be prince charming, 

because when you smile flowers seem to grow

cr. / insp: i & ii

anonymous asked:

how can i use exo as an inspiration to lose weight?

listen to them while you work out, choose their more upbeat songs like love me right, lucky one, run, hey mama, and coming over! these are perfect for cardio and getting you pumped up and stuff! a good workout playlist is always helpful.

additionally here’s some advice exo members who lost weight/got fit gave:

“If you ask me how I ate [during my diet], listen well everyone, for 3 months, I cut out carbohydrates. I didn’t eat any rice, grains, or cereals. The thing about carbohydrates is, when you stop eating them, about 3 days after you stop, you don’t think about wanting to eat them anymore. They say your resolve falls through in 3 days. If you get through the 3 days, there’s nothing you can’t do.”

ft. his results:

also minseok:

What’s most important is to be active. For those who attend school, you must wake up early in the morning to exercise. The second most important thing is to have perseverance. You absolutely need perseverance. Diligence, effort, and positivity: you can succeed at your diet of you practice these three things.”

im not sure if this helped you or not, but i hope it does if you want to go for a healthy lifestyle and shed some extra weight and whatnot!

anonymous asked:

why do you hate hide so much?? i know his fans can be annoying but hide really didnt do anything wrong

Now, look here. I think people are getting me wrong.

I love Hideyoshi Nagachika, Ishida Sui’s character who was a huge moral support to Kaneki for a huge portion of his life, is probably the one of the shadiest characters in the series with a extremely dubious concept of morality, who on his own was able to fool a ghoul and place a tracker on him, ‘fought’ a ghoul using ketchup and firecrackers that led a bunch of ghoul investigators to actually eliminate said ghoul why he quietly snuck off, infiltrated the CCG so that he can obtain information and maybe find his best friend and ends up becoming a huge reason why Kaneki regained his reason to live. 

I hate the Hideyoshi Nagachika that was the fandom’s creation, who’s apparently the sole sunshine and cinnamon roll of this series, has done absolutely nothing wrong, will hurt nobody at all, who’s predicted to finally show up at some point in time and magically cure Kaneki’s depression and PTSD to return all happiness and sunshine to his life and whose biggest purpose right now is to come back like some prince on a white horse to rescue the damsel in distress Kaneki Ken from the raging and despicable demon otherwise known as Kirishima Touka. 

I’ve been talking to a few mutuals recently about Hide and we think Hide’s character has been warped by a huge portion of his fandom already. So when on Tumblr, I don’t really talk much about him? But if I am honest, while Hide isn’t as high up on my faves list as he used to be, I still really like him. His story in the novel is one of my favorites ever because he’s so sneaky and cool and I generally love characters with intelligence and insight (which is why I was attracted to Hide in the first place). I talk a lot about him with my friends irl as well. Anon, I don’t hate Hide and I don’t hate Hidekane. Don’t get me wrong. :P

I’ve seen a couple discussions on the conversation between Mutsuki and Saiko, and I really want to give my take on it. I have no clue if someone already explained it all, but I honestly LOVE this scene so much that I’m ok with just ranting about it to vent my feeeeels

Saiko is pretty intuitive, and I love her for that. You generally see her in the background when it comes to character interactions, observing their actions and expressions. As a result she’s in a good position to see the little details other people miss. Multiple times we’ve seen her have a deeper understanding of the people around her than anyone else.

So when Saiko said that she smelled blood,

specifically human blood, she wasn’t referencing menstruation. She even pointed out that she already knew Mutsuki was a girl way before this and that him bringing it up was utterly pointless. If you look at Saiko’s expressions throughout their conversion, it shifts from wary and uncomfortable,

to first shocked, disturbed, and then tearful.

That would be a pretty strange reaction for someone who was just told something they were already aware of. It was the type of reaction someone had when something horrifying they never wanted to hear was just confirmed. Mutsuki lying straight to Saiko’s face probably didn’t help his case either.

That’s because Mutsuki didn’t misunderstand the situation, he knew exactly what Saiko could have been referencing, and it definitely had nothing to do with his sex. He was most likely panicked over the fact that she may have been catching on to the smell of human blood on his body (probably more than once, considering she thought it was important to finally bring it up to him).

To get out of the situation the best way he could, he basically interrupted her train of thought and instantly told her that he was a girl. He was almost in a rush to get it out, which was pretty unlike him. Mutsuki decided that using the female card as a distraction, which would also imply that any smell of blood would be due to menstruation, was a good strategy. 

But considering Q and human blood smell differently (Saiko specifically taking the time to differentiate between the smell of just blood, and human blood), probably means Mutsuki knew his excuse was shaky, and that he’s now in a pretty bad situation. 

Now the current situation as a whole is something along the lines of: 

  • Saiko knows Mutsuki lied to her and that he’s doing some very disturbing things behind the Q’s and CCG’s backs. 
  • Saiko is crushed and disappointing that Mutsuki lied to her and is actually trying to hide it, which she’s probably taking it as him trying to hide the hobby the best he can so he can continue hurting/killing other people.
  • Mutsuki probably knows his excuse for the smell of blood was very weak and that he’s not in a good situation with Saiko right now. He’s shaken up, considering his nervous tick was immediately present and very obvious once he ran from ended the conversation.

The fact that it’s implying that he’s doing exactly what we think he’s doing to other people in private, shouldn’t be surprising as Ishida has been foreshadowing it a ton this last Arc. If it’s true, then Mutsuki has officially stopped restraining the sadistic part of his personality, (whether it’s natural to him or not) and decided to upgraded from animals to humans.

Where are you keeping your collection of tongues this time, Mutsuki?

TL;DR Mutsuki is probably killing/eating humans, and was scared Saiko was catching on, and as a result tried to use the ‘I’m female’/’I menstruate sometimes’ card as an explanation for the occasional smell of human blood on his body.

And honestly I’m a bit nervous about their relationship at the moment…
Hopefully Saiko won’t do anything drastic about the situation, as Mutsuki’s unpredictable in the fact that we have no clue how far he’d be willing to go to keep his tendencies a secret. Doesn’t help that Ishida has shown us he’s willing to attempt murder hurt a close friend (Akira) if that’s what the situation asks of him.

What will be up later ~~~

Bokuto showing off Akaashi vs. Oikawa showing off Iwa-chan (this one is almost done)

Yamaguchi + s/o with anxiety attacks

Tsukki + s/o who’s good at baking sweet things

Scenario with Yaku, Nishinoya, Hinata, Nishinoya, & Shirabu on first date with crush (some will be nsfw as requested)

Kuroo’s s/o is manager of Nekoma

Headcanons for Kuroo, Oikawa and Iwaizumi finding out their s/o smiles in their sleep

*Matchups will be saved for Sunday and Monday (a lot will be done by then), and I will be closing them soon

*I’m coming up with a new system of posting/inbox stuff once I get most of my requests done (which I hope will be by the end of June) I think I can get over 100 of them done by the end of June if I set my mind to it haha

*I will answer other asks later today, and a post about the chats will be up later since you guys seem to be comfortable with everything

*Thank you so much, and I hope you all are okay. Please take care of yourselves <3

sailor-weeb-gir-l  asked:

*Hugs* aaa! Your such a cutie~ Question! Which matsu is your favourite?

Thank you for the hug and the compliment, my dear! I really appreciate it! ʚ ɞ (ू•ᴗ•ू❁) ♡*ॱ˖•.•˖ॱ*♡

But for your question, I don’t really understand… (,,꒪꒫꒪,,) Favourite matsu

Well the only person I know with matsu in their name, is Jyushimatsu. 。(*^▽^*)ゞ He did mention once that he had brothers… Ah! Σ(○A○ ) I saw them when we were playing baseball in space, but I didn’t really get the chance to talk to them…

So I guess my answer would be Jyushimatsu! (ノ´ヮ´)ノ*:・゚✧

anonymous asked:

Y ppl are saying that DOB didn't put as much effort as Holland in the 6x10 kiss and after they kissed his expression are more like annoyed than emotional? P.S I don't think like this but after reading that analysis of kiss I couldn't help but wonder on DOB part. BUT FUCK DOB SUCKED HOLLAND'S LOWER LIP SO HARD😍😍😍😍

so fun story: i sent a snapchat of it to my sister when the kiss happened and she was like “it looks like shes doing a good job but i dont know about him” but then i made her watch it again in HD and she ended up doing an in depth analysis of it and she wanted me to record her and post her on tumblr

that actually didnt really have to do with anything i just wanted to share that LMAO

but NOooO i s2g i think its because you cant see stiles’ hands so it looks like hes just standing there. but when you watch it his face is literally just pure emotion hes so concentrated. shes more into it physically i think but he’s just all emotion like he’s so caught up in it he doesn’t even know whats happening. and thats kinda how i would picture them kissing anyway? lydia being all up in it and stiles just in disbelief. and the way he subconsciously chases her mouth when she takes a sec to sob WILL ALWAYS END ME :’)

nickbread  asked:

All of your characters are so simple but have SO MUCH character. They're all so addictive! I long to make OCs of mine that I'll actually be attached to and who's story and character will be revealed over time in doodles and short comics. Do you have tips into developing a character, both stylistically and in terms of character/personality? How do you make and come up with yours? How much happens before pen touches the paper? Thanks!!

first off thank u 4 compliment! wow. youre making me out to be some sort of genius or something. i really didnt do anything but be less of an ass to myself. 

ive been frustrated with all my original ideas for years. i kept having this reference point about what i wanted them to be like and i never had fun while thinking or drawing them. it was really discouraging. even when i was having fun id think “well what about this. a good story needs this to be good” and the truth was it didnt. because it wasnt fun anymore. 

i hardly have any answers for anyone whos trying to make lovable ocs. but if you are in anway in your own way as much as i usually am- just relax and try to make something you really love i think. even if deep down you know its cliche or something. 

“The three of us set out to stop criminals. We do good, we get paid, everybody wins. Ransom makes us no better than the guys we’re trying to take down!”

so i finally got around to doing one of those su redesigns that ive seen so much! i decided to do peridot because though shes pretty great, she does need some fixing. 

the biggest change i made was in color scheme. i made it more monochromatic and less saturated so it wasnt such an eyestrain. i also stuck with more yellow-green hues to better resemble the actual peridot stone shes based on. 

another thing is the hair. her current style looks more like some kind of helmet, so i gave her something more hair looking while still keeping the angular shape and feel. 

i didnt really do anything to her outfit other than give her the long anticipated crystal gem star. and yeah! thats it