i did this gifset only cause of the moves he's doing with his head

best friend!chanyeol
  • yo i am back again with these bullet things because i think they r fucking easy to write and this was i can avoid writing my requests
  • ok so yall this is lowkey fking dirty but idgaf
  • inpired by this gifset by @chanshine
  • so best friend chanyeol, you practically live with him, he’s 100% fine with that though
  • like you even have a key to his apartment
  • every time you come over and there falls an awkward silence there is this sexual tension between you too but none of you mentions it
  • so it would be very often where you show up at his house in his shirt and you’d ask him to drive with you around town
  • and ofc he would he’d love it 
  • as he drove out of town with you in the passenger seat he rested his hand on your thigh
  • you didnt mind at all, like he did this at times but it was yesterday that he was slowly moving his hand up towards your private parts
  • acting like you didnt notice you shifted in your seat causing him to pull away his hand
  • you would turn up the volume and chanyeol had opened the windows
  • it was getting very late and you were driving at a 4 hour distance 
  • “maybe we should head home?” you spoke
  • “nah lets stop at a Mc Donalds” chanyeol took the next road exit and drove onto the parking lot from the restaurant
  • when he came back with something to eat and drink for the both of you you started eating
  • “I love these nights with you yn” chanyeol said with his mouth full
  • “I don’t love them” you said
  • “because we always get home late and it is always a night where I have to fukcing work the next day” you chuckled “I hate you”
  • he chuckled too
  • ok so you two were finished eating you said “now hurry heading home because I need to be at work in six hours and it’ll take four hours to get home asshole” you tapped the dashboard signaling him to start the motor
  • you’ve had two hours of your ride and you were staring at chanyeol
  • his amazing features, the way he held the steering wheel and the way he looked at the road
  • just then he licked his dry lips, you made a moaning sound
  • his gaze immediately turned to you and he smirked
  • “please tell me you didn’t do it on purpose” he’d say “because I’ll have to punish you baby”
  • you shook your head as he rested his hand on your thigh again
  • heading up for you entrance he drove to the side of the road where a small parking lot was changed
  • OKAY IM TOO YOUNG FOR THIS UHM LETS JUST SAY AFTER WHAT HAPPENED AT THE PARKING LOT YOU FELL ASLEEP
  • you woke up in chanyeol his bed you wore a big big white blouse
  • you grabbed your phone from the nightstand to see it was two am, “where’s chanyeol” you thought
  • just as you sent a commando he walked into the room with only a towel around his waist and wet hair
  • you immediately got turned on as he walked towards you and seductively asking you if you were a bit rested
  • you nodded and he leaned in to kiss you “you don’t know how long I’ve waited to do this” he murmured
  • “yeol” you pushed him a bit away, enough to talk properly, “can we do this another time? I have to work in a few hours”
  • “you’re not going to work you’ll be spending time with me,” chanyeol started kissing you roughly and well let’s just say you were in for a long night
  • OKAY SO THAT WAS IT, I MEAN IF I COULD WRITE SMUT I WOULDVE ADDED THAT PART BUT NOPE SORRY
  • it’s not my fault I’m only fifteen
  • SEND ME FEEDBACK AFTER YOU READ THIS pls
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Red Light, Green Light.

A/N: There was a tie in the voting! Cavill will come next, but being as I’ve never posted for Chris Pine this one goes to him. Hope you like this one. The gifset is not mine, but it seems fitting

Summary: Chris gets jealous when his girlfriend decides to flirt with his co-star once he leaves her alone at a party

Words: 1978

Why is it red lights always seem to take the longest to pass?

You find this question running through your mind as you reach down to slip out of your heels for the evening. You are too lazy to shift in your seat to properly dispose of them. Your exhaustion from a full day of work, followed by an elaborate dinner party, prompts you to drop them over the back of your seat not caring where they land.

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Unfinished Symphony

Suits100 prompt #71 - Harvey finds a letter from his father.

(Main) Pairing / Character - Mike Ross/Harvey Specter

Gifset by @loyalty2waystreet

Writing by @novemberhush

Word count - 3,654

Thanks to the amazingly talented, wonderfully supportive and endlessly caring @loyalty2waystreet for surprising me with this gorgeous gifset at a time when my motivation was waning. I absolutely love it! It really inspired me to keep going and I’m sure you will all agree with me when I say how beautiful it is.

Thanks also to Aqua and Erin for undertaking to organise the Suits100 event in the first place, and to whoever originally submitted this particular prompt. I hope what I’ve done with it doesn’t disappoint you too much!


He had first found the letter when he’d went to clear out his father’s place in the weeks after his death. It was a rented apartment, the family home having been sold off following the divorce and the proceeds divided between Gordon and Lily. Harvey could easily have kept the place on, but it had never meant anything more to Gordon than a place to hang his hat and rest his head. It had never been ‘home’ to either him or his eldest son and Harvey therefore held no attachment to it. All he cared about was the parts of his father it housed.

The record collection that had inspired Harvey’s own and which was even more extensive. His saxophone and other varied instruments. All the memorabilia commemorating a life soaked in music. Photos, ticket stubs, posters. The hat his father swore had been given to him by Thelonius Monk himself. These were the things Harvey cared about. Not the four walls that surrounded them.

Gordon’s will had been straightforward enough. All his money was split evenly between Harvey and Marcus, except for a few small bequests here and there to a handful of old friends and charities close to his heart. As for everything else, well, there were some items of sentimental value left to Marcus. Their grandfather’s watch, for example. (Harvey didn’t mind in the slightest. It wasn’t to his taste and he’d always hated the old buzzard anyway.)

There were a few other things, but the bulk of it, mostly musical in nature, went to Harvey. Marcus raised no objections, never having shared his father and brother’s love of music.

And so Harvey had found himself spending a weekend packing up his late father’s belongings, all his worldly goods, the mementos of a life, tucked away safely in boxes to be transported to Harvey’s condo. Donna had offered to help, Marcus and Jessica too, but this was something Harvey had felt he needed to do alone. Which meant there was no one there to witness him stumbling across the envelope in the desk drawer, addressed to himself in his father’s flowing handwriting. No one to hear the way his breath caught in his throat or see how his hand shook. To glimpse the tears he blinked back.

He sat there for a full half hour, just staring at it as if he could divine its contents without actually opening it, but eventually he’d carefully peeled it open and extracted the letter inside. The letter that began:-

To my dear son, Harvey,

Hey, kid. If you’re reading this then you’ve either been snooping in my desk or I’ve gone to the great Blue Note Café in the sky without telling you all the things I should have told you when I still had the chance, all the things I’ve put in this letter. And as you were never much one for snooping I’m guessing it’s not looking too good for your old man right about now…

And that was as far as he got before the tears refused to be blinked back any longer and the dam broke. The letter was put back in its envelope, never read beyond the first paragraph, once he was all cried out. Whatever his father wanted to tell him, Harvey wasn’t ready to hear. He wasn’t ready to hear what he felt sure was his father’s final goodbye to him.

Life went on. Harvey’s career flourished even as his personal life became one long string of meaningless encounters with anonymous strangers and the occasional hook-up with Scottie whenever she was in town. The firm was his unit, Jessica his general and Donna his trusted second-in-command. Louis was Forrest Gump. With less gumption. Harvey didn’t see what more he could need.

And then one day another anonymous stranger walked into a hotel suite, dropped a briefcase full of weed at his feet and soon Harvey didn’t know how he’d survived this long without him.

Now, six years later, that blue-eyed stranger was no longer a stranger, but Harvey’s loyal lieutenant and junior partner in the firm. Mike Ross, ex-con, attorney at law and all-round bleeding heart. He’d also just taken it upon himself to pack up Harvey’s old office and transfer everything into his new one, recently vacated by Jessica, apparently. Or at least that was the only explanation Harvey could come up with for why he came to be standing in what he could have sworn was still his office, looking around and wondering just what in the hell had happened to it and all his things.

“Mike, what the fuc-”

“Relax, Harvey, your stuff is fine. I just moved it all into your new office, seeing as you were never gonna get around to it, so I could take possession of mine.”

“If there’s so much as one scratch on any of my records, rookie…”

“I know, I know, you’ll feed me to the fishes, yadda yadda yadda,” Mike said, rolling his eyes with a smirk and leaving Harvey nostalgic for the good old days when he could intimidate the kid with a single look.

Before he could try out any more threats, though, Mike reached into his inside jacket pocket and produced an envelope.

“By the way, I found this when I was packing up your records. It fell out of the sleeve of one of them. Thought it might be important.”

He held the envelope out for Harvey to inspect, but he didn’t need to look to know what it was. His father’s letter. Hidden away inside one of his favourite records, never forgotten, but pushed to the back of Harvey’s mind along with all the other things he didn’t want to deal with. Like his feelings for the man sitting in front of him. The engaged to someone else man sitting in front of him, Harvey reminded himself. But one emotional crisis at a time, right?

“It is important,” Harvey croaked, voice suddenly thick. When he didn’t elaborate further Mike cocked an eyebrow at him as if to say Go on, I’m listening.

With a sigh, Harvey gingerly took the letter, staring down once again at the familiar handwriting.

“It’s a letter my father left for me,” he murmured. “I found it among his things after he died.”

Mike’s eyebrows shot up. “Jesus. That must’ve … Christ, I mean, I bawled my eyes out when Father Walker gave me one of my old childhood books that my parents had written a message in for me, but this … he left you this, knowing he’d be gone when you read it. That must’ve been pretty intense, finding it like that.”

“Yeah,” Harvey agreed.

“Yeah.”

Silence fell between them then, but Harvey knew Mike well enough to know that mind of his was far from silent.

“Spit it out, Mike. I know you’re dying to know. It’s okay, you can ask.”

Mike hesitated for a second, an aborted denial hovering on his lips, before giving in to his innate curiosity.

“What’s it say?”

“I don’t know. I didn’t get beyond the first paragraph,” Harvey replied, a wry smile on his own lips.

“What?? Why not? Come on, it can’t have been that bad. Loving parents - and by all accounts that’s what your dad was - don’t leave their kids letters telling them how disappointed they were in them or how they never wanted them to begin with. They tell you how much they love you and how proud they are of you. Why wouldn’t you want to read that?”

Harvey shrugged. “I didn’t always give him reason to be proud of me.”

“Bullshit!” The vehemence in Mike’s voice startled Harvey, causing him to jerk his head up and stare at Mike as intently as he’d been staring at the envelope.

“You can’t seriously think your dad left you a list of all your faults and misdemeanours, Harvey, come on.”

“No, I know, you’re right, it’s stupid. I guess I … I …”

“You weren’t ready to say goodbye.”

As usual Mike had cut straight to the heart of him in a way only he could.

“Yeah.”

“Are you ready now?”

“I don’t know. I don’t know if I’ll ever be ready. I know it’s a letter, but this feels like the last conversation I’ll ever have with him.”

“Maybe. But I’d lay odds on it being one you’ll feel better for having.”

“You think so?”

“I do. And you wanna know something else? I’m jealous of you right now.”

Harvey’s forehead creased in confusion. “Jealous? Why the hell would you be jealous?”

“Because I’d give almost anything for one more conversation with my mom or my dad or Grammy. This is a gift, Harvey. Open it.”

Nodding, Harvey did just that, but stopped as Mike got up and began to walk away.

“Where are you going? Aren’t you going to stay? Don’t you want to know what it says?”

“Yeah, and you can tell me when you’re ready. If you want to, that is. But this is a conversation between you and your father and it should be a private one. I’ll be at McGinty’s nursing a whiskey. There’ll be a glass waiting for you if you want to talk afterwards. Or not. We can just sit and drink. But right now it’s father/son time and I don’t want to intrude on that.” He strolled towards the door, turning before he left to add with a smirk, “Besides, I’m pretty sure your pride can’t handle me seeing you cry like Louis after sex.”

Harvey returned the smirk with one of us own. “And how do you know Louis cries after sex, rookie?”

“Please. It’s Louis. Of course he cries after sex. And before. And durin-”

“Okay, okay,” Harvey interrupted, rolling his eyes. “Just have the scotch ready, wiseass.”

“Aye, aye, Captain,” Mike retorted, standing to attention and saluting.

Harvey huffed a laugh before a thought struck him. “Hey, not that I don’t appreciate it, but it’s late enough as it is. Won’t Rachel mind you dragging me to some faux Irish bar to sit around drinking cheap scotch all night while the patrons get misty-eyed and sing songs about the homeland while you try to get me to spill my guts?”

Mike stilled, the smile faltering on his face before falling away completely.

“No, Rachel won’t mind. She won’t even know. She’s staying at her parents’ place for a while. We, ah … we’ve decided to take some time out from our relationship.”

“What?? Since when?”

“Since I suggested we postpone the wedding. Again.”

“Mike, I … I don’t know what to say.” Well, that wasn’t strictly true. His heart had a few suggestions. Like, Please tell me it’s over for good. And, Tell me you don’t love her. Or, Am I the reason you keep postponing the wedding? Please say yes. But something stopped him from saying any of that. Harvey told himself it was his honour, because wishing the end of someone’s relationship was almost as bad as physically interfering in it, but he suspected at least part of it was cowardice. He didn’t want to hurt Rachel, true, but he didn’t want to risk Mike’s rejection either.

“You don’t have to say anything, Harvey. It’s on me. I’m the one who can’t commit to her.”

“Why not?” Harvey asked, the words out of his mouth before he could stop them. His heart applauded even as the rest of him quivered with fear. The question hung heavy in the air between them and Harvey fell back on his favourite fail-safe to defuse the tension - humour.

“What? You get a better offer or something?”

Mike didn’t crack a smile. He didn’t laugh. He didn’t even blink. He just stood there and looked at Harvey, long and hard, a searching, scrutinising look on his face that left Harvey feeling stripped bare.

“Not yet,” he finally replied, voice low and hoarse. And with that he was gone, leaving Harvey with more questions than answers. He suddenly wished he had that drink in his hand already. That thought reminded him that he already had something in his hand. His father’s letter. Foregoing the scotch for now, he sank into the nearest chair, took a deep breath, and began reading.

To my dear son, Harvey,

Hey, kid. If you’re reading this then you’ve either been snooping in my desk or I’ve gone to the great Blue Note Café in the sky without telling you all the things I should have told you when I still had the chance, all the things I’ve put in this letter. And as you were never much one for snooping I’m guessing it’s not looking too good for your old man right about now…

I’m sorry to do this to you, son. I should have told you all these things face to face, but somehow I never got around to it, and now the doc is telling me my old ticker ain’t doing too good and it feels like there’s so much to say that I don’t know where to begin.

First things first, I suppose, so let’s get the obvious out of the way. At least, I hope it’s obvious. I love you, Harvey. And I’m proud of you. I’m so, so proud of you. I think you know that. Jesus, I hope you know that. I hope I told you that enough when I was alive. I hoped it showed in everything I did and said when we were together. I think you know. I think you know.

Secondly, it wasn’t your fault, you know. You know what I’m talking about. Your mother’s infidelity. I know that as far as the rest of the world is concerned you appear to lay all the blame for the break-up of our marriage at your mother’s door, but you don’t fool me. I see the little boy, hiding behind his anger, using it as a shield to deflect attention away from the fact that he wonders if it was his fault, wonders if he did something to drive her to it. You didn’t. It. Wasn’t. Your. Fault. There was nothing you did to cause it and nothing you could have done to prevent it. You were a child when it started. Hell, for all I know it started before you were even born. But I do know this - it was not your fault. Okay? You didn’t make her cheat. Get that through that goddamn head of yours.

And stop beating yourself up about being the one to tell me about it, too. Truth is, I think I always knew, deep down. I just didn’t want to admit it. I knew your mother was unhappy and I turned away and pretended not to see. Because I was afraid of losing her. I loved her, and I wanted her to be happy, and she wasn’t. And that made me feel like a failure. But instead of letting her go, I clung on. I told myself it would be okay. If we could only make it to Thanksgiving we’d be okay. Or to Christmas. Or your birthday. Or our next anniversary. But I was kidding myself. When you love someone, and they don’t love you back, it’s never  okay. It’s soul destroying. But keeping someone tied to you when you know they’d rather be free, that’s killing the person you love, slowly but surely. A little part of your mother died with every passing year and I did nothing to stop it. I did nothing to help her.

I pretended that all she needed was a little space from time to time. So I agreed to tour with anyone who asked me. I told myself that she missed me as much as I missed her when I was on the road. But her voice on the other end of the line was always cold when I called. Except when we talked about you and Marcus. She always loved you two. Her beautiful boys, she called you. You remember that? Her beautiful boys. But you were mine, too. My beautiful, proud, stubborn, hard-headed boys.

But it’s that pride and stubbornness and hard-headedness that has me worried now. (Not about Marcus. I know he’ll be all right. He has Katie and your mom and if anything good came from him being sick before it was that it taught him it’s okay to reach out to people when you need them. You, though, I’m afraid the only thing you’ll reach for is the scotch.)

You see, I’ve been talking to your mother. Her and Bobby both. I should have told you that. I should have told you it was all right to forgive her. To love her. But I was scared. Scared you’d think me weak for forgiving her. Scared I’d lose your respect. But it wasn’t fair to either of you. Maybe nothing I said would have made a difference, but I could have tried. So much time you’ve lost. Time you could have spent repairing your relationship. And now I’m gone and you’re going to need someone, Harvey. And if not your mother, who?

I know you won’t lean on Marcus. You take your role of big brother far too seriously to allow you to do that. There’s Jessica and Donna, and even Louis, of course. But you won’t open up to them. You won’t let them see you weak, even though they’d never judge you for it. And you know I like Scottie, but you need someone who does more than just challenge you, Harvey. You need someone you can let yourself be weak around. Someone you don’t have to appear strong to all the time. But to do that you’d need to let someone in, and that doesn’t come easy to you, kid. I guess you can blame your mother and me for that. You heard me talk about our great love so many times, and you saw the truth of that love, how it only went one way, and now you doubt it could ever be any other way. But it can, Harvey. It can. You just have to be open to it.

And here’s the thing. If I had it to do all over again, I would. If I could go back in time to that first night we met, I wouldn’t change a thing. I would still ask her if I could take her home. I wouldn’t walk away. I wouldn’t know how to. Because I don’t regret your mother, I could never regret her. And not just because she gave me you boys (although, of course, I’d never give you up for the world). I’m not good with words, but I’ll try to explain.

Before Lily most people were just … white noise. There’d been other women before her, but they were nothing more than background music. Easy listening. Safe, comfortable, predictable. But Lily, oh, she was a blues song and a country ballad. Soul and jazz and gospel. She was rock and roll and she was Beethoven’s Fifth. She was ‘Ode to Joy’ sung by choirs of angels. My lullaby. My national anthem. My requiem. She was it all. She still is.

Some people are their own magnus opus. A great work in and off themselves. I think your mother is one of those people. But most of us are works in progress. Unfinished symphonies just waiting for the right one to come along and complete them. Your mother completed me. Unfortunately, I couldn’t return the favour. She didn’t need me to.

You pretend you’re one of the ones who truly don’t need anyone else to come along and help them compose their life’s song, Harvey, and maybe you even believe it. But I know better. I know you. You’re the sweetest tune I ever produced, kid, but you’re an unfinished symphony. And somewhere out there there’s someone with all the right notes. You just gotta find them, and when you do - let them in.

Maybe it’ll be love at first sight, like me with your mother. Maybe it’ll take a little longer. But you’ll know it’s them when you find yourself breaking every rule you ever made for yourself. I swore I’d never fall for a groupie, but five minutes with your mother and I was already planning the proposal.

I would have went anywhere with her, put her above everyone I’d ever known, given up my life for her. Hell, I’d have even given up music for her if she’d asked me to. When you find someone you’d give it all up for, you’ll know. And you’ll understand why I never stopped loving your mother. It was beyond my power to do so. But even if I could’ve, I wouldn’t. Because your mother was the most beautiful song I ever heard and no matter how it ended I wouldn’t have missed a single note for anything.

You’ve never been afraid of anything in your life, son. Don’t start now. Don’t be afraid of loving someone. Life’s too short, take it from me.

I love you, Harvey. Never doubt it.

All my love,

Dad

Harvey let the letter drop to the desk in front of him as the silent tears that had been threatening to fall all through his reading of it finally found release. For maybe the first time in his life he understood what people meant when they said crying could be cathartic.

When he had pulled himself together enough to talk he didn’t even hesitate as he reached for his phone and hit Mike’s number. His dad was right. He was Harvey goddamn Specter and he’d never been afraid of anything in his life. He wasn’t going to start now.

“Mike? Hey, listen - how soon can you get to my place? The scotch is better there and I have an offer I’d like to run by you…”

anon:answer part 2

EYO IM BACK this is part 2 of this 

Anyway since im calm rn, I’ll spare y’all from my rants (sorry for pouring my heart out in prev part), so this is gonna be only “theory”. No rants. No me nagging like a bitter ahjumma. Hope you enjoy (especially you, the anon who had asked me about this, once again sorry for keeping you wait, shit has been hectic ;__; don’t worry tho I will finish the quest you have given to me)

Note#1: this part will contain jelly!kaisoo (even tho this is supposed to be from “jongin’s perspective” only, as the asking anon has requested, but since there are other anons who have asked me about jelly!kaisoo, I’m gonna add jelly!soo here too)  

Note#2: as always, this is gonna be long, prepare ur eyes dear ship-mates, and sorry in advance for profanities, grammar mistake, typos (sorry if my English is weird sometimes, especially when I try to explain things) and ofc lots of delushit.

I will begin this ‘so-called-theory’ with the moment that had managed to intrigue me into this life path of a [kaisoo] shipper. anyway, prepare your

lets zoom in a little

of course, it had crossed my mind that jongin looked at luhan’s hand bc it was moving (bc usually someone’s eyes instinctively would move to the nearest moving object) and perhaps that was it, perhaps there was no jealousy intention at all, perhaps we all reading too much things in this

BUT, why his eyes instinctively looked down at the hand? Why he blinked and looked down while before he was staring at other direction (where other members were talking)? Why he didn’t just blink but still keep his eyes remaining in the same position as before? Why he casted his eyes down at that hand? If the true cause of this was indeed “the nearest moving object” like I have said, why his eyes looked down there tho? I mean he was staring at other direction, his eyes were looking straight at the left side (his head tilted to that way), I mean, the hand was far from his focus stare, why he just blinked down automatically there?

And I know there were some of you who think “he didn’t look at the exact direction of luhan’s hand, his eyes were slightly directed to the empty space beside ksoo ”, bc I thought like that too at first (I had to zoom this mothafucking gif and stared at it for few minutes), but ksoo wasn’t sitting exactly next to him; ksoo did sit beside him but ksoo’s body was leaned forward while he was leaned back (jongin rested his back on the sofa); from this camera angle we can see ksoo’s body covered/shielded his left shoulder from the camera and jongin’s head was tilted to the left side. Meaning he had some distance from ksoo’s back/luhan’s hand, imo that was why if u zoom this gif his eyes pupils looked like they were staring at the empty space beside soo (due to the distance and tilting head direction issues), while he was actually staring at luhan’s hand on ksoo’s shoulder.

Since this is a pict, and like someone had said, a pict only needs a right angle and moment to give us the magic /roll eyes/, I wouldn’t say much shit about this. ok maybe I would. Let me elaborate, the right angle of this pict: as you can see, the main subject of this pict is jongin (pretty obvious since chansoo was blurred), and the pict was taken from the front angle –the most honest angle of them all, it’s pretty hard to play trick and cast magic with this angle since you can see everything cuz there is no blind spot– so it’s pretty safe to declare that this angle doesn’t play its filthy trick on our eyes, dearest ladies and gentlemen. 

Now, the right moment of this pict: no matter in what angle, the right moment can do wonder to our eyes. maybe jongin didn’t stare with burning holes and piercing eyes when this moment happened, but he still did look at them soo – we didn’t know if he did stare or if he just glanced. yes I said he looked at soo, bc frankly I see his eyes were focusing at soo, but since im deluded, my eyesight cant be trusted

yes this gif is slowed, but what if I told you that the gifs often slowed so we could see dem goddamn moments easily (bc our red, tired and strained eyes couldn’t capture such things in normal speed yo) not bc we want to add sparkles and unicorns shit there – anyway, you could see his smile falter a little bit, it looks like he was annoyed/irritated seeing suho pulled that stunt (and looked at soo ducked his head and moved his head away from suho). Jongin was smiling, but then his smile stopped even tho perhaps only for a millisecond when suho ducked his head to be closer to soo, after that jongin smiled again at the crowds (idk what suho tried to do here, at first i tho he wanted soo to sing along w/ him but then i notice he pointed on soo’s tie? or did he point on his own wrist?), and let me remind you that jongin was behind them and if we were in his position we could have mistaken the sudo couple wanted to do a fake kiss

its pretty obvious that he looked at chen’s and soo’s fingers (he stared at their fingers then at chen)

soo looked at chen and then their interlaced fingers briefly, then it seems his stare was empty – like he didn’t really look at their fingers again, meanwhile jongin still darted his eyes back and forth at the fingers and chen

his eyes were moving down (to the fingers) and up (to chen)

it seems he inhaled a quite deep breath from his mouth then exhaled through his nose – usually when a person does this, it’s bc they are upset/angry and trying to calm themselves. And the way he fixed his jacket too, feelin a lil bit hot there jongin?

I don’t understand whats up with chen’s thirst for soo that day, anyway soo removed chen’s hand

then jongin did it and soo didn’t do shit (look at soo’s right shoulder just stilled)

actually, I feel there is another part before this part (just look at suho grabbed the water bottle, the loop doesnt fit with the prev gif, yeah? Or is it just me? the gifset aint completed ;___; ), it looked like jongin had slightly removed his palm off soo’s thigh? In prev gif it seems jongin just put his palm like he was softly slapping [like dropping his palm on soo’s thigh] the middle part of the thigh ((?) this is just assumption tho since we cant see shit from this angle) but in this gif his hand seemed had moved away slightly, but his hand was still rubbing at soo’s outer thigh? And is it just me but I see him looking at chen when he did this to soo?

Also happened on the same day (not jelly!kaisoo)

I don’t think this gifs were slowed, look at the camera flash (so he did stare on soo - the rainbow-ness that we feel right now isnt created by some mere magic of slowmotion effect then)

Soo smiled at the end

jongin’s foot was under soo’s 

that smirk… now lets see non slowed gif

why soo put his hand in that position tho? as if it was a barrier between him and chen, it was a quite awkward position to be made right? and it seems the position was deliberately made, I remember I made this hand position at school bc I didn’t want my friends to see my doodles/or copy my answer (yes i was such a cheap bastard back then), and there was no wall/things for soo’s hand to lean on, so wasn’t this hand position was uncomfortable? why soo had his hand prop up like that? (btw jongin still had that smirk on his face)

it seems jongin was feeling their shaved hair part? Bc he patted/rubbed his palm on soo’s shaved part and then he did the same to his own

just one whisper from soo and look what happened to him

sure perhaps jongin’s forefinger was hurting and soo only wanted to relieve the pain, but judging from his face… idk man, idk… like yeah he scrunched his nose perhaps bc it was painful but then it seems he mouthed an ‘ah’, is this what guy friends do to each other? Bc quiet frankly ive never seen one do this to their friend, like ive never seen my male friends asked their other male friends to message the ‘boo boo’ away… or perhaps jongin’s finger wasn’t hurting? But then why he lifted (and then wiggled) his forefinger? Then why soo grabbed it? also in recent moment jongin showed soo’s his front tooth (it seems he did this cuz it hurt)…

so would soo make the ‘boo boo’ away then? cuz when jongin showed his forefinger, soo grabbed (messaged) it, so why not, right? lol

Idk if this is counted as jelly moment (since we cant see his expression here), but the way kaisoo clasped their hands together just intrigue me. perhaps this means nothing to some of you (warning this will sound like I read into things too much a.k.a overanalyzing a.k.a just another delushit in stronger dose)

ksoo was holding suho’s hand, and jongin did look at their direction, but his head was indicating that he looked at “the head” area, not “below head/shoulder” area, when ksoo’s hand was near his, he offered (opened) his palm for soo to grab – yet his head still didn’t move (look down), sure perhaps his eyes/peripheral vision made him acknowledged soo’s outstretching arm (perhaps his eyes were aware of the movement of ksoo’s shoulder, thus made him realize that soo was trying to reach him), but still, the way he offered his palm for soo to take was just adorable for me.

bc usually ‘the hand grabber’ would just grab the hand and the owner of the hand wouldn’t offer their hand to the hand grabber, like they would just let their hand limps to be taken (not doing offering whatsoever), especially if this thing is done between a pair who aren’t close to each other at all. Jongin didn’t look down at soo’s hand, yet he flipped open his palm so then his palm would fit with soo’s, I mean how did he know that soo’s hand was in “top” position while he kept his vision range above shoulder to head. also even tho ksoo was the one who stretched the arm first, it seems it was jongin who clasped their hands together. have I drown you in my leaking delulu-ness yet? HAVE I?? oh, I have? Good.

So idk perhaps bc my vision is flogged with so much deluluness, but in near the end of the gid I saw ksoo didn’t hold suho’s hand anymore… so when he held jongin’s hand, he let go of suho’s? hmmmmmmmm

jongin looked at soo (and manager’s hands on soo’s forehead)

why he did this? why? if he wanted to go through why he didn’t go through the noona that fixing the costume (look at prev gif), he could just say excuse me, then slipped through between the manager and the noona, then went through behind the manager… but he didn’t. another option was, why he didn’t wait for the manager to finish grooming ksoo? He didn’t even say anything when he did this (not ‘sorry’ nor ‘excuse me’, I mean look at his mouth, his lips were tight-sealed), was he mad? Also is it just me but I see the manager shook his head lightly after that, and the manager didn’t continue his work of grooming ksoo, I mean it looks like his grooming wasn’t actually finished, but as soon as jongin cut in, the manager was like “you know what? fuck this” /shake head and go away/

“I couldn’t look at jongin [when we were talking] bc I have astigmatism” this guy didn’t even blink when the host talking. jongin stared at soo

yeol looked at baek and jongin looked at the camera then at soo

yeol still looked at baek. jongin still looked at soo too

ksoo finally nodded and blinked. sehun bit his lower lip. jongin looked pissed off. Believe me, I was giggling while staring at this gif set, idk why but I find this hilarious

Then this happened

jongin looked at soo ft yeol

OMGHYUNGSOADORABLEWHENHEMAKESAHEARTSHAPEADgiggles

I cant believe this guy is 22 y.o, I mean just look at him so squishy

yeol seemed to want to attack ksoo back? (as a revenge of shocking him from behind) but jongin grabbed soo’s bicep as soon as yeol wanted to do that and manhandled soo to move forward and it seemed yeol looked at jongin for a sec and then yeol stopped to bother soo, Why he retreated ? wouldn’t he usually bother soo a lot on stage?  it was such a perfect opportunity to do so, bc soo attacked him first, but he just let it be after that… was it bc there was jongin? – speaking of this i once have watched a fancam – it was happened on the day when jongin had a towel on top of his head and whispered to soo [this happened in their concert in china, thanks to the awesome and informative anon for telling me that] – where soo chasing yeol but then jongin grabbed soo to stop him, also there was this gifs where baek annoyed soo, soo wanted to chase him but jongin stopped him, sadly I don’t have the gif, but I have the pict (I think)

Basically baek annoyed soo, soo wanted to chase him (baek was already circling the group to avoid soo and soo wanted to follow baek) but nini stopped soo. idk if this pict is the right one/match with the gifset I’ve seen ( `~`)

this is more like protective jongin than jealous one tbh… luhan was attacking ksoo with his coca cola bottle, ksoo didn’t like it when luhan was shoving the bottle to his face

nini to the rescue! He didn’t even smile when he was “playfully” shoving/punching luhan… and ksoo smiled at the end of the gif lmao

while the girl was mesmerized by yixing, jongin just casually passed by at the sight chen opened his arm for soo, jongin saw this first and decided to walk away, but then when ksoo nodded his head and went to chen’s embrace, jongin turned away and walked to them…

…and then he wanted to hit chen’s head but chen blocked the hit, chen retaliated by attacking jongin without any pillow (with his bare hands), yeol tried to help jongin by trying to hit chen’s back with the pillow (but I think his aid fail bc even tho the pillow did hit chen, it didn’t do much since chen was already moved a lil bit far to feel the impact), then yeol got distracted with ksoo’s swaying butt, and baek hit that butt with his pillow

Yeah, prob cuz of right angle and right moment and all that jazz, but it still means that jongin did look pissed off even tho for a few micro second when he saw chen back-hugged soo, right?

It seems suho told them to stop hugging “okay stop now before your husband gets jealous”

Jongin looked at soo for a sec

This was how jongin looked like when the hugging happened

And this how soo looked like after the hugging happened, this boy was so asking for it.

he looked at suho then soo then suho again

suho patted soo’s shoulder, then when jongin looked at him, he nodded and the patting stopped, jongin still looked at him, and when jongin gave him a small nod and a small smile suho nodded and looked down for a very brief moment… (staring is one of ways to assert dominance and it is not only applied for animals but human too – basically the one that looks away loses the dominance, and I didn’t make this shit out since this was in some sciene show, I don’t remember in what channel I watched it… yes in case u don’t know already im a sucker for shows like that – anyway, do you get my point by stating this fun fact? /wiggle eyebrow/),

…then jongin smiled widely and turned away from him. suho kept smiling, but how he smiled was… off for me, bc his smile was a tight-lipped one, (while before, when he did the thumb up, he had a broad smile on his face - with teeth showing), 

usually this tight-lipped smile would be given for a brief second and used for small greeting (like when you meet your neighbor/acquaintance, u don’t wanna stay for chat but u want to stay polite so u just give them this kind of smile), also this type of smile is often to be interpreted as secretive/dishonest smile, and some people say that this is also can be interpreted as nervousness?

also notice the way soo’s smile started to change when jongin gave suho small nod/smile, and then soo’s lips were sucked in (I read this thing indicates nervousness… Like something bad has happened? I do notice some of my friends – even me myself – would do this if ‘oh shit’ moment happens), also i do notice sehun did this too, but it seems he did this bc he wanted to moist his lips? like a habit (habit out of boredom since he seemed to be out of his mind in this gif), while soo’s sucked in lips movement was deliberate/slow, bc soo ‘let go’ his lips in slower movement, while sehun just ‘sucked in’ and then ‘popped out’ his lips back… IDK MAN MAYBE IM JUST DELUDED AF oh btw baek’s expression describes so many shippers when they see this gif so well

Idk this is so blurred I cant see much in this… soo and sehun were kinda hugging each other but then jongin hit soo’s arm so he could have soo’s attention? Idk perhaps he wanted to say something to soo, but I don’t have the rest of the gif so idk man idk

it seems he was looking at soo when he opened the bottle, yeol looked at him, idk what suho looked at (prob the host?), while soo smiled and looked at the host then looked at the bottle that in jongin’s hands

suho and soo looked at the host while smiling, yeol just looked, nini flicked his eyes at soo (when soo pointed the host) then at the floor(?) or maybe the table(?), imo he couldn’t see what the host was doing in that standing position (bc the host had his back facing him), why he didn’t step forward so he could look at what the host was doing? Why he looked at soo for a sec then flicked his eyes down?

when this happened (suho had his hand on soo’s neck/shoulder, from this angle, it seems he was kinda leaning on soo, even tho his nose tip wasn’t touching soo’s neck, but it seems their distance was quite close?)

this was how he looked like. he blinked twice, and he looked surprise when he saw suho did this to soo, and it looks like he said “mwo-ya” (뭐야) which is equivalent to “what the hell?” - idk maybe this just me - when he smiled (also his smile was a lil bit off for me, maybe this is me just being delulu trash like always, but his smile wasn’t wide [cheerful] when he said this, it was then when he was starting to face the crowd (why he looked away anyway? it was just a fanservice, some of their members had done this a lot on stage, this shouldnt be uncommon to see, right?), his smile grew to a grin, 

anyway my delushit state of mind interpret this as a ‘pissed off smile’, you know sometimes shit happens to you and all you do is smiling (and prob saying “what?” or “oh great” for the irony effect) bc you’re so fucking pissed off but there is nothing you can do to prevent/undo it), oh btw it seems when jongin said ‘mwoya’ that was when soo opened his eyes (look at prev gif)

Again prob bc of the right timing/angle but still im gonna put this here

Idk what happened here, since the gif’s loop is too short, but in this gif jongin did look pissed off when soo giggled at xiumin

I cant say he is jelly since the gif’s loop is too short, also while soo was singing he looked pretty happy/excited to be jelly, but hey like I’ve said even tho the moment was short-lived doesn’t mean it didn’t happen. Come to think about it again, he looked excited but then as soon as soo leaned to yeol he got quiet for a moment (like in this gif) ? But then he got excited again after that… idk maybe I got it wrong, just check/watch the show again on YT if you want to

[that chinese group thingy6, 1-2]

he looked excited and he pointed soo while turning to see other member (xiumin or prob someone next to xiumin); to tell them that soo was singing? But it doesn’t make sense then, like ofc the other members know it was soo (by soo’s voice), so doesnt that mean he pointed at soo while turning to the other member to tell them to pay attention to soo?

look at him clapping, yes other member clapped too (luhan and xiumin) but jongin lifted his arms high while he did the clapping

Also in this show [@37:19], when soo and yeol needed to compete in office chair race (on their last round), jongin (as the referee) out of nowhere came in and blew the whistle to told chanyeol to fix his stance/start position bc yeol had his feet placed over the yellow line, then he pointed his finger to yeol (and yeol looked offended at this) and then he walked to soo, then he fixed soo’s stance bc soo had his feet placed before the yellow line (the distance between soo’s feet and the line was prob 2-3 cm/ an inch), 

and let me remind you when he told yeol, he bent down and tapped yeol’s feet (to move back behind the line) but when he did it with soo, he grabbed soo’s right foot (to place it exactly behind the yellow line – no distance like before) and then soo’s left foot followed the movement  and then the ahjuma host (idk this lady’s name) and zhoumi were ‘YAH!’-ing him. and luhan was like lol, and chen had this ‘of course he would do that’ smile IDK IM SO BIASED MAYBE IT AINT MEANING ANYTHING BUT DAMN THIS MADE ME GIDDY YO

look at jongin in all these pictures… he stared at soo when soo whispered to yeol. Yes I said he stared, not just a mere glance/look bc he had different poses/position but his eyes still glued at soo, so this was staring.

Lets compared it with yeol’s reaction when soo whispered to jongin

look at jongin blinked fast and he looked at laysoo for a micro second

in the video, it was soo and jongin who played crotch grabbing war at first, but then lay came and barged in between them, soo wanted to stand next to jongin but lay told him no, and told soo that soo need to stand there [between him and sehun], then lay played crotch grabbing war with soo (while jongin continued playing with suho), when it was chanyeol’s turn to speak, soo added something [he commented] (Idk what he said but I think that was the cause of) lay [kissing] pecked soo’s cheek

tbh Idk if jongin was jelly when lay did this since after that he acted indifferent (?), like ‘nah its not a big deal’, but he blinked fast when this happened, but when I show the clip to my mom, she said “this one [point at jongin] looked pissed off [when the kissing happened]” lol (yes my mom knows that im a kaisoo trash)

also when this happened (@4:15), suho ducked his head bc of embarrassment, sehun was shocked (I think he wanted to smile/grin but he held himself back and tried to distract himself by speaking to yeol), chen xiumin baek snickered, yeol didn’t realize shit (bc he was talking), while tao looked so distracted from the beginning till the end of this interview, this interview is really hilarious for me Ive watched this more than 3 times even tho I don’t understand what were they saying

[Jelly nini ft insungi hyung full and 1-2]

this actually a revelation moment for me, since before I was in doubting state (“they’re prob just friends, prob this all just bromance, why am I wasting my time doing this? what am I doing with my life? /sobbing/”) then this thing happened. I would like to thank suho for this revelation of mine, bc his reaction was… very legit for me tbh. He was laughing/gasping “aahhhh” while covering the side of his mouth, then he looked back.

I assume he was originally looking at jongin even tho for a brief second, but then yeol started to laugh and say “insungie-hyung”  and that was when his head tilted slightly to the left (where yeol was), then his head went back to face xiusoo direction and then he held back his smile/giggle, just look at his mouth. Look at it. why he did that? Why he didn’t continue his snicker? Why he decided to clamp his mouth and hold back his smile?

And look at jongin. 

why the other members were all lols and giggles yet he only offered a very small smile? I mean the others were all OMGOMGINSUNGIEHYUNGLMAOLOLOL (they were so excited, just look at the feet of the person who sat beside yeol), but jongin was just quiet… I mean in other occasions where ksoo says/does something usually he would be the one who does the overhype, like that time when ksoo with the green doll (when yeol was told to re-enact exo next door scene), or when soo does aegyo ‘bbuing bbuing motherfucker’, or when soo sings, or when soo asked something about DNA in some show (I don’t remember what the show’s name), or when soo read that oranghae poem, heck even saying ksoo’s name repeatedly (in showtime, when they were inside the car) made him giggle, then why when soo was talking about his ‘new hyung’ he didn’t look so thrilled, hm? Also, perhaps this is just me and my delushit way of thinking but I see ksoo took a glance at jongin(‘s reflection on the monitor) when he was talking about his ‘insungie-hyung’

I think that’s it for jongin’s part, I don’t have any more stash of him being jelly, so let’s move on to soo

lets see another version

Honestly, soo did look pissed off, he looked so… restless? Idk as if something was bugging him, usually in radio interview he is pretty calm, I notice he would just stay still/quiet, he wouldn’t try to fix the mic (except when it’s his turn to speak/sing) but when he’s idle, he would just stay quiet prob reading the script, but he never does something like this (as far as I know), also he didn’t say goodbye to the caller noona…hmmmmmmmm also this was one of the revelation moment for me (since why would someone got jelly – to the point he acted rude [not saying goodbye] – if his veryplatonic-hommie-bro got a call from some chick? Shouldn’t that person be happy if they were just a pair of very close friend? but hey what do I know anyway… a trash’ mind is deluded after all

As soon as the noona wanted to hold jongin’s arm, soo’s smile fell. I don’t have long explanation about this bc this shit is pretty obvious

soo looked at jongin, who was looking (while biting lips) at taemin giving speech

after being hit for a few times, jongin finally tilted his head back to look at soo

tae let go of jongin

soo got his bae back

this pict was taken after taemin let go of jongin, look at taemin’s face. Look at his eyes, and it seems he held back a smile? Like he tried to contain his smile to break out, and look at jongin’s smile. and the smile Im talking about is not a cheerful kind of smile but smug smile/grin (for both of them, not only jongin), bc tbh that was what im seeing here (“pffftt, bro, it looks like ur man got jelly” “lol ikr, but that means he likes me, right?”—that’s how I imagine the situation here but since im deluded, sooooo yeah, don’t listen to me folks!)

I know this is not requested buttttttt… allow me this time

where was jongin? didn’t he see his hubby flirted with his bro

look at him immediately place his hand on soo’s waist then it did a small caress (up), honestly where was jongin? tbh whenever I see taesoo it reminds me of some ridiculous slogan I once saw on some ad, basically it says something like this “where would your ex be right now? in your bestfriend’s embrace” im sorryyyy 

… Ermm, anyway lets move on

The caption says it all, why soo looked at them? why jongin moved away when soo looked at them? why soo looked away when jongin finally moved away from the manager’s touch?

Again, what else need to be pointed out?

In this gif we can see that soo said “hajima” (means don’t, right?) while he pulled sehun’s arm, then jongin quickly undid/untied the gold ribbon by himself

Aww he looked like a kicked puppy

I think that’s it for jelly!soo, I don’t have anything left about dem being jelly in mah stash, so yeaaaahh, and originally I wanted to talk more stuff (not just about their jellyness) on this post, but this thing has gotten too long and im afraid it would crash again (like before) if I force all dem gifs + my delulu words in a single post, so yeah, ill continue on later part (prob the last part)

btw sorry for those who have asked me things but I haven’t replied since time is such a bitch to me right now

as always, this is not a fact, I do not know these boys personally, this is just how I perceive things, I could be wrong, they could be just friends /cackle sardonically/ …the point is this is just some post that is written by some faceless stranger on internet, there is no credibility on my words, I am not a an expert nor trained in human behavior/body language field and im a very biased trash shipper so shit I’ve said might have been influenced by my feels, so don’t take this seriously folks

and also gifs/picts aint mine, credit to the owners! 

The 100th Fic is here!

It is here, I have done it and I have tried to make it a particularly good one, but first I’d like to go a little mushy on you all and say something ;)

So I get a lot of peeps asking me how I write so much so fast and I’m going to clear that up right now by dedicating this fic, hell, this entire collection of fics to you lot on the Barduil trash heap.

Because cheesy as it sounds, you guys are the reason I can write so much so fast. Every single comment, every single tag, every reblog, every single kind word and note of encouragement, every time someone cheers me on in the askbox or comes especially to tell me they enjoyed something, every awesome prompt that hits my ask box and every time you guys say one nice thing about me - that is where my motivation comes from.

So for everyone who asks me to keep on writing barduil until I die? So long as you guys still want it and enjoy it and support me, I will literally never stop, you are all literally the source of my new found creativity and drive.

So this one is for every single one of you barduil trash bags out there.

Okay mush over, here it is, below the cut and as voted for by you a fic based on this gisfet

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On Others Knowing

This is a companion piece to On Octavia knowing, and it is inspired partially by this lovely gifset by illgivethattoyou. Thanks to jollyranchercube for the ask :) 

I think that besides Octavia, other characters also pick up on the feelings Bellamy and Clarke have for each other.  

Raven

The opening of 1x13, Raven, Finn, Clarke and Bellamy are in the dropship, trying to help Raven. We find that Raven is not allowed to move and Finn engages in a heated argument with Bellamy before leaving to get a stretcher for her.

The camera gets so close-up to the faces of Clarke and Bellamy that for a moment it seems like it’s just there in the room. Clarke gets right close to Bellamy’s face in a fierce bid to get him to join them, because she doesn’t want to leave without him.

In case you haven’t realised Bellarke close-ups are my favourite thing because you literally cannot escape – the focus is so intensely on them. Plus Clarke’s face matching with the tone of her voice. And Bellamy’s expression

But the significance of this scene lies in that it contains the basic elements of what we can now easily identify as the Bellamy and Clarke communication style - Practical, honest, heartfelt and assuring. I know that Raven was in a lot of pain and I’m not sure how much a person in such a bad state could have concentrated on her surroundings. But I think she must’ve caught at least a fraction of what went on above her head. So I’m thinking, Raven got a chance to witness an intimate moment between those two leaders and she knows the result – Bellamy, despite being afraid, defeated and angry, walks out the confines of the camp with the rest.

While I’d never seen that as a particularly romantic scene, I think that can explain why she acts the way she does in 2x05. When she’s outside the tent with Clarke and Clarke spots Bellamy, Raven doesn’t even hesitate before encouraging Clarke to go on ahead. We can read Clarke’s apologetic expression (Raven did stay up the whole night for her), but Raven knows that it’s something that Clarke needs to do.

Then we get to 2x09, where she gets paired up together Octavia, the camera allowing us sufficient time to take in their looks. Raven eyes are trained on Bellamy before she glances over at Clarke. Her expression isn’t as blatant as Octavia’s, but her lips are pressed tightly together as if she’s running through everything in her mind, trying to figure out what exactly she’s witnessing.

Clarke turns and leaves the moment she hands Bellamy the map and I’ll say this only as a speculation – I think she had a hard time telling Bellamy to go. After all, this is the guy that she specifically asked to stay because she felt she couldn’t lose him. The camera closes up on Raven’s face as her lips move in surprise, the look of worry evident on her face as she looks up at Bellamy again. This is the moment that convinced me that Raven at least sensed feelings on Bellamy’s part, if not on Clarke’s as well.


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Can Another Canton Please Stand Up? (Or, Let’s See How Far We’ve Come)

A short meta on Canton Everett Delaware III, how he gave us a glimpse of a much better show, and why we need non-contemporary companions in Doctor Who.

Can I just talk about Canton Everett Delaware III for a second? I do it a lot.

I love him. I adore Canton. I adore his character, his story, his life, his actor, his portrayal and what I thought he could mean for Doctor Who.

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Defending Laurel Lance

A lot of you are going to see the title of this post and scroll right past. And that is totally okay. I’m not writing this to change anyone’s mind.

Some of you might find this because I wrote out Laurel Lance, instead of abbreviating. And if less than positive comments about her get your hackles up, I would encourage you to move along. I’m not interested in engaging with haters, and if I see hate, you will be blocked.

If you choose to click on Keep Reading, then what you’ll find are my burning thoughts and feelings in my heart for Laurel, whom I love. I’m writing this to get this off my chest and onto my blog.

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I have the heart of a shipper but...

To be honest, even though Claire is my favorite person for Matt, I can’t really find it in myself to ship him with anyone at the moment. He’s made a lot of unfortunate (unfortunate for his personal happiness, but not necessarily unfortunate for the story arc) decisions this season because of this internal conflict he’s struggling with.

Claire is so wonderful. My heart swells when I think of her (and honestly the chemistry between Claire and Matt makes my heart ache) but she deserves better than who Matt is right now. And I’m not saying that I didn’t like the writing this season, I’m saying if I knew Matt IRL id want to smack some sense into him (as a character arc it’s interesting though). I wish so badly that they were endgame though. Every time I see a gifset of them all the feels start again.

As for Karen and Elektra, at first it seemed like they set them up as conflicting love interests for Matt this season for a love triangle, which to me is lazy and so boring, but as it went along it became clear that Karen and Elektra were kind of a microcosmic representation of the two conflicting sides of Matt’s character. He’s drawn to Karen, she seems to be compared of the lighter parts of himself, the parts of him that seek justice and believe in humanity. He intentionally tries to keep her in the dark about the DD stuff because she represents normalcy and the call of purity and innocence (which is a fallacy caused by him not really knowing her and putting her on a pedestal … They do have a few uncomfortably honest moments when arguing about Frank, and Matt is noticeably surprised by her stance, because he doesn’t really know her yet).

And Elektra is on the exact opposite end of the spectrum. She represents what it would mean to fully give into this darkness that’s inside of him, she’s the only person who sees deep down into Matt, and knows that he’s not simply an altruistic altar boy, that he struggles with keeping a lid on the anger inside of him. The darkness is strong in Matt this season and his attempts to make Elektra realize she has the power to choose are actually attempts to reassure himself about his own morality. (the problem with this is, Karen and Elektra are people in their own right, neither good nor bad but human, and Matt’s biggest problem is frequently not seeing them as such) I guess what him saying in a particularly long winded way is that any hurt Matt causes this season by pushing people away is Matt’s fault alone, and I hate seeing fans lay blame at the feet of Elektra for a his poor decisions (Matt never tells her what his relationship with Karen is, and Elektra never asks anything of Matt that he doesn’t on some level want). I do look forward to seeing which direction Matt turns at the beginning of season 3. I kind of hope that Elektra’s death will be the “one bad day” that Frank so ominously warned him about (hence Matt throwing the man off the building), although I don’t know how her resurrection will play into that. I fear (and by fear I mean look forward to Bc I like it) daredevil has dark days ahead of him.

And then there’s Frank and Karen. (In the interest of full disclosure, I have to say, I ship the fuck out of these two, certified Kastle trash, and it pains me because it’s the first ship I’ve ever felt this passionately about that I’m fairly certain will never ever be canon) They are completely fascinating to me, because just as Matt is trying so desperately to assure himself that Elektra (and everyone else tbh) has the ability to choose the path of justice and light because he wants to know he can do it himself, Karen is trying desperately to prove to the world that Frank has humanity and goodness in him still because she’s fighting to find it in herself. I know this is partly because she killed Wesley, but that girl has some kind of real darkness in her past that she’s struggling with, and I feel like she wants to help Frank redeem himself because that means that no one is lost, including herself. She’s fighting just as hard for herself as she is for him.

I wish they would give Karen a story arc next season detached from any romantic entanglement with Matt, but I fear that’s too much to hope for.

Also, Her comic arc is just so unpleasant to me, it never fails to make sad. I would like maybe if they flipped her comic arc on its head. You know, maybe all that stuff is already in her past, the things she feels such shame and angst about… (Drugs or whatever) That moving to New York was her fresh start (I’m delusional I know).

I just see so much potential in this investigative reporter arc, and I feel like that’s what she’s been building to all along. Her work with Ben and the tirelessly dogged pursuit of truth have all felt like they were leading up to that. I’ll be so so so disappointed if they take what they’ve created and sacrifice it on the altar of comic canon (although her father from the comics is potentially fascinating). I just have so many feelings about Karen and don’t think the comics ever did her justice.