i did this a while ago but i was busy~


Here is a thing I did a while ago.
Sorry I haven’t updated in forever… I’ve been abit busy with everything.

Duty before pleasure

“I’ve been inside you. I know what a weak, duty-bound, pleasureless dullard you are.”

Like many of you, this line has been lingering in my mind since the episode. ‘Dullard’ didn’t really bug me, though - that’s just Lucifer being Lucifer. I kept specifically focusing on “duty-bound” and “pleasureless,” because it just sounded familiar… specifically in that order.

I don’t know why it took so long to hit me. (It finally did hit me while enjoying some wine in a bath earlier tonight, after several days of some pretty hard days at work. This is only tangentially relevant. It’s also funny to me because I only started doing the whole “wine and bath” thing about a month ago. Late bloomer.)

“Duty before pleasure” is an old idiom that has a ton of different forms in dozens of languages. The one we probably hear the most in the English language is “business before pleasure” or “work before pleasure,” but they all come down to the same thing:

Finish your work before you have fun.

This got me to thinking that Lucifer, while often an ass, is often right. He’s got this messed up, awful version of the truth that’s only from his twisted point of view, but that’s what he does – he rips band-aids off and pours salt in the wounds (although on a much grander scale because he is literally THE DEVIL). And when it comes to Cas, yeah - he’s kind of right.

Cas has been bound by duty for as long as we’ve known him, and we’ve never seen him go out and do something that would actually bring him joy. (The closest we probably got was “crazy Cas” and his bee-ventures in S7, but I’m not even sure if that was truly bringing him joy or if that was just one long mushroom trip for him.) We might have occasionally seen him smile, or happy, but it’s never really been something he’s sought out. He always has a job to do first.

  • In S4, he had a duty to heaven.
  • In S5, he had a duty to stop the apocalypse which he helped bring about due to his duty to heaven.
  • In S6, he had a duty to stop the civil war in heaven, which was brought about by the apocalypse-that-wasn’t, which he helped stop.
  • In S7, he had a duty to help stop the Leviathans, which he helped bring about in his efforts to stop the civil war in heaven.
  • In S8, he had a  duty to repair the damage he had caused on heaven and earth in his efforts to stop the civil war in heaven.  
  • In S9, he had a duty to help get his brothers and sisters back home after they fell as a result of his efforts to repair the damage he had caused to heaven.
  • In S10, it… gets a little widespread, but nonetheless: he had a duty to hunt his ‘rogue’ brothers and sisters down. In the process of hunting the rogue angels, one of his sisters opened his eyes to the damage they cause by taking human vessels, and he then had a duty to his vessel’s family, making sure they were okay and cared for. While he was trying to ensure they were okay, Dean, influenced by the Mark of Cain, made the situation worse, and Cas’s focus shifted 100% to saving Dean from himself.
  • In S11, he had a duty to help stop the Darkness, which he helped bring about in his efforts to save Dean.
  • In S12, his duty is now to stop Lucifer, whom he helped bring about in his effort to stop the Darkness.  

With Cas, there is always something. He always feels responsible for something. But at the same time, he is taking that responsibility as a “duty” because he feels personally responsible for nearly everything he’s attempted to fix.

So here’s my question: can Cas fix the Lucifer problem with a consequence-free solution?  Or is there going to continue to be a next thing, and another next thing, and another?

Or when Cas has succeeded in putting Lucifer away (however that winds up happening), will he finally get to have some fun?

Duty before pleasure.

Or - my greatest wish - could this actually just be a wonderful line of foreshadowing?

let's just cuddle

authors note: i just hit 500 followers! i can’t even believe how quickly i’m gaining followers, i started this blog like two weeks ago lol! so thank u all sm ily. anyway, i feel like lately my imagines aren’t that great and that’s bc i’m rushing while i write them bc i’ve been incredibly busy and i’m sorry. but i hope u guys can bear with me and enjoy this requested imagine :)

requested: “what if you did like a shawn saves the day. y/n is sleepy and just sad so she texts shawn and tells him she is sad, and doesn’t feel good and is going to bed and what if she wakes up and shawn is there.”

It’s been the longest week. Ever. You were incredibly tired emotionally and physically just from living life. Between work, and school, everything was hitting you hard at once and you just weren’t in the best place. You were letting the stress get to you and it was getting worse. Each time you tried to relax, there was always a thought in the back of your mind of something you forgot to do, or an assignment you have to finish. You felt like you couldn’t get a break. To top it all off, you were painfully missing your boyfriend, and you just felt alone. Recently you moved out to LA to be closer to Shawn but it felt like nothing really changed considering how busy you both were. You were having trouble finding roommates too, so you were just alone in your apartment all the time until whenever Shawn had a free moment. You were currently exhausted, cuddled up to your pillows in bed listening to music. You hated bothering Shawn when he was busy, but you needed him now. You texted him, telling him you missed him and that you just weren’t feeling that great and that you knew he was busy, but you wanted to talk to someone. You waited several minutes for him to respond but you knew a response wouldn’t come quick, so you put down your phone and closed your eyes. Soon enough, the warmth of your bed helped you to fall asleep soundly.


There was something odd in the air and it smelled like something was burning. You opened your eyes, worrying. Did you leave a hair straightener on? A candle? You jumped out of bed, pillows falling to the ground as you got up. You ran into the kitchen to see your loving boyfriend fanning away smoke from the stove.

“Shawn???” You yelled confused, but also happy to see him.

“You’re awake!” Shawn turned around and smiled wide, running to hug you. He smelled like smoke but you were thrilled to be touching him at all.

“What are you doing here? And what happened?” You rested your chin on his chest as you looked up at him.

“I got your texts, and I thought I would come over since you weren’t responding. I didn’t want to wake you up and I thought I would make some food, but it didn’t exactly turn out the way I wanted. We can always order pizza. How are you feeling?” Shawn rambled adorably as he always does. You just stared at him, unable to imagine your life without him. He must’ve told the guys in the studio that you needed him, and he stopped work just for you. You have never been more in love with anyone in your entire life.

“I feel better. Much better.” You said and hugged Shawn tighter. He hugged back just as tight, and kissed the top of your head.

“I brought some movies if you wanna watch them. Or we could try and fix the food I attempted to make if you’re feeling better. We could also just cuddle and you could go back to sleep, I don’t know, it’s really up to you.” Shawn continued to ramble and you just laughed.

You cut him off, “I love you Shawn. Thank you. Let’s just, cuddle, is that okay?”

“Absolutely. I love you more Y/N.”

Anna Visits

“But you promised!” Anna whines lightly, following behind Jack as he moves around his flat, gathering his items.

“I know I did,” He replies, half distracted, “But these meetings got rescheduled. And they..AH! There it is!” He grabs his wallet, looking over at Anna, “What was I saying?”

“That you are the worst big brother ever.”

“Fairly sure that’s Conor.” Jack teases, “Look, I’m sorry. These meetings were supposed to be done a few days ago so I’d be free while you were here. But then stuff got shuffled. There’s not much I can do.”

“I know,” She sighs, falling into the couch. “What am I supposed to do while you’re busy though?”

“Hi, babe!” Joe calls out as he walks in to the flat, tossing his keys onto the counter.

“Joe!” Jack says to Anna. “There’s your answer!”

“Huh?” Joe looks confused, as Jack walks over, kissing him quickly in greeting.

“Meetings to go to. I’ll text you later about dinner. Bye, love you. Bye Anna!” The younger man rattles off, coat and bag in hand as he hurries out the door.

“What just happened…” Joe mutters, blinking over at Anna.

“Jack’s proving to be a worse brother than Conor, that’s what.”

“That’s quite the statement.” Joe chuckles, moving to sit beside her on the couch. “Why do you say that?”

“He and I were supposed to hang out today, but now he’s off to meetings. All day. So I’m stuck here. Bored.”

“Ah,” He nods, looking over at the youngest Maynard. “Well, maybe Jack was right about one thing.”

“Like that’s possible,” She scoffs.

“It does happen on a rare occasion.” He smiles, “But if you want, I’m free today. We could go explore London.”

“You don’t want to do that.” Anna mumbles, glancing shyly over at Joe.

“I wouldn’t offer it if I didn’t want to. Besides, we need to get to know each other better. I see too much of the other two Maynards.”

“You’ve been neglected of the best one, then.”

“One way to find out.” He grins, “Want to spend the day with me?”

“I’d love too.”

The two spend the rest of the day exploring different parts of London, chatting easily as they get to know each other.

It doesn’t take long for Anna to forget that she was let down by Jack, too busy laughing at Joe’s corny jokes and impressions.

When they eventually make it back to Jack’s flat, after grabbing dinner since he had to cancel his plan’s with Joe, they’re exhausted but happy.

“Thanks for hanging out with me today.” Anna tells Joe as he puts their left overs in the fridge.

“Thank you for laughing at my shit jokes all day.” He replies, running a hand through his hair. “Nice to have someone laugh at them again.”

They both look towards the front door as it opens, and a tired looking Jack stumbles through. Greeting them with an incoherent noise, he makes his way towards his bedroom, dropping his stuff on the counter along the way.

“Someone looks tired…” Anna shakes her head, “Doesn’t he rest?”

“He does. Just busy. Do you need anything else?”

“No, I’m good. Go tend to your boyfriend.” She waves at Joe, who laughs but bids her goodnight, following the path Jack had just taken.

The next couple days of her visit end up falling in the same pattern.

Jack’s meetings drag out, forcing him to cancel his plans with both her and Joe, so the two end up spending time together instead.

And when the morning comes for her to head back to Brighton, Anna finds her mood much brighter compared to when she first arrived and discovered that she wouldn’t be seeing her brothers.

“Sorry this was a shit visit,” Jack tells her in the car as they head for the train station. “I promise that next time you visit, we’ll spend time together. We can do whatever you like.”

“It wasn’t a shit visit.” Anna says, “I had a good time.”

“Hanging with Joe?”

“He’s nice. And funny.”

“Yeah,” Jack’s smile turns soft, “He is, isn’t he?”

“I like him, Jack. And he clearly likes you. He talked about you a lot.” She watches her brother, smiling as he blushes at her words. “I like that he takes care of you as well, I don’t have to worry, knowing you have Joe. I’m glad you finally found someone like him. He’s good for you.”

“Good to know you approve.” Jack laughs, parking the car at the station. “But you really like him?” He turns in his seat to look at her. “You aren’t just saying that?”

“I mean it,” Anna assures him, “He’s great. I think you need to introduce him to mum and dad, they’ll adore him too.”

“Maybe I will.” Jack says, and that’s when Anna knows how serious he is about Joe. Because she’s never seen her older brother bring anyone home to their parents.

“You’re happy.” She comments, “I like it. I’ll see you soon!” She leans over, pecking him on the cheek before grabbing her back and hopping out of the car. “Bye, Jack! Love you!”

“Love you too!” He calls back, watching as she disappears into the station. When his phone buzzes with a new text, he looks down at him, smiling at the words from Joe.

Did Anna get to her train okay? xx

His sister was right, Joe was good for him. Because none of his past partners had ever worried about his sibling before.

Just dropped her off. Be home soon. xx

Can’t wait :)


These are some commissions I did for Nanothingie a while ago! I had tons of fun drawing these squidkids. They’re created by Nanothingie and Lazorchef for their Splatoon webcomic: Squidzkrieg!! The comic is slowly updating cause of the creators’ busy schedule but I’m really enjoying what I read so far. xD

PS: Their names are Juno, Mako, Tess and Zumi in order.

Did this really invalidate everything? I don’t understand.

Like a month ago, Aaron lost his bloody mind because he was so afraid that he was going to lose Robert. Everything has been about losing Robert. This all still is. Has anyone thought that maybe Aaron is preparing himself not to be with Robert for an extended amount of time? 

They avoid stuff like no one’s business. They have been avoiding looking into that void that is Aaron in prison for a long time. Robert has been all positivity while not wanting to face the possible truth. Aaron has been avoidance of everything because he won’t have it for long and thinking the worst.

They haven’t talked because it’s scary as hell and they won’t until they are forced to do it. 

I honestly can’t believe suddenly this wedding means NOTHING? Like are you fucking shitting me right now? AFTER EVERYTHING. BECAUSE of one episode that isn’t even THAT terrible, it means nothing? 

They don’t have intimacy now? The fact that this incredibly popular couple is getting married FOR LOVE means nothing at all? That we are being slighted somehow?

It’s not amazing or important that Robert Sugden has become THAT character? The one that is literally doing EVERYTHING for love? THAT isn’t valid? The fact is that I want to cry because this is all about love. FROM EVERYONE’S END. 

Literally what the fuck is happening in this fandom right now? 

I think I need to step away because it’s coming not just from the anti’s but now from the people that I’m supposed to be excited about this with and I really don’t want this wedding to be ruined for me. I really don’t. 

Apparently my 10 year high school reunion is this weekend. While too busy to go, it did prompt me to do a deep dive through some old art from a decade ago during my last semester of Walton high school (as well as some truly harrowing photos of me as an angsty teenager). At that point I didn’t even know that I wanted to be an artist (or if that was even a real job) – but a deep fear of any career relating to math, an obsessive desire for self-improvement, and 10 years of drawing shitty drawing after shitty drawing, it eventually clicked enough that I understood that human faces didn’t look like … that. 

Now, I don’t wanna sell the whole generic motivational idea of: “SEE anyone can make it, just work really hard, look at me” line of thinking as I had/have numerous advantages that others do not – with what I look like, where I come from, what I believe, or what I was told I can reach for, never being an impedance. That being said, for any young person reading this that hasn’t been lost to cynicism yet: Man I hope you get the chance to try to do something you love. I hope you have the opportunities you should and people that tell you that you can. I hope that the only barriers for your success are talent and hard work – because that shit can be built even when everything else seems broken. And if the barriers you face are bigger than that, I hope you overcome them against the odds, working harder than I had to even when you shouldn’t have to, just so that the world gets to see what you can do too.

I got a request some time ago to draw Junkrat, Dva and their daughter but I became so busy, the damn request collected dust…until now!! My weekend is cleared up (for now), so while taking breaks from various projects, I quickly doodled this.

I honestly like them together. (Going to call this trash ship Dvarat for now) And doodling their daughter, whom I named Nari, was a lot of fun (It means Lily flower and the person who requested this did not specify her name, so hope this is OK!!) XD

skyrim and skybuckets

Did I ever tell you the beautiful story about the time my brother was playing Skyrim and a bucket dropped out of the sky?  Because this story is really important to me and I need to do it justice.

So my brother was in a town, minding his own business, when the fight music cued up, signalling a villain in the area.  He started scanning the skies for a dragon, kind of confused because the town had just had a dragon attack a little while ago, and then this bucket.  just.  falls out of the sky.  This bucket falls out of the clear blue sky on a normal day in Skyrim and attacks him by which I mean it rolled away and the fight music stopped.  He was assaulted by a falling bucket from the sky.  No explanation.

But that’s not the end of the story!  Because, you see, my brother went into amateur detective mode and a few streets away towards the edge of the town, he found a dead wolf.  And that’s when he remembered that he had the exploding chickens mod on.  It’s a great mod, everyone should use it, because it’s very lowkey and understated.  It has no particular effects on gameplay except every now and then when you forget and let harm come to a chicken. And then they explode.  As chickens are wont to do.

So it turns out that he’d been close enough to the edge of the map that a wolf had wandered into the outskirts of the city from the forest and started attacking chickens, cuing the fight music.  And of course, the chicken had immediately exploded, killing a wolf and sending a nearby bucket flying skywards.

….I really, really love this game.

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Anonymous said:

Hey! Can I have a Peter Pan imagine based by the song ‘We Are Never getting Back Together’ by Taylor Swift? Thank you have a graet day!

Warning/s: sad


Summary: you break up for good

Character: Peter Pan

“I need a break. WE need a break.” Pan pointed at you then to himself.

“No, Peter. We can work this out. We always do!” you tried changing his mind but he’s too stubborn so you tried a different way,

“If you walk away from me now” you took a deep breath before continuing,

“I won’t take you back like I always do” you sighed, resisting the urge to cry.

Pan ignored your statement and said “I just need a break” before disappearing into thin air.

That was a month ago. You ignored each other after the break up. You avoided him while he busies himself away from you. When you need to work somewhere near him, he will rudely walk away. Not that you did mind it. He was giving you a reason to hate him even more by being a dickhead. Your feelings of hatred towards him changed though. It changed when he walked over to you with a sly smile. He stopped in front of you and grinned.

“Hey love” he greeted. You raised an eyebrow in response.

“I think I’m ready now” he smiled, reaching for your right hand which you jerked away.

“Ready for what?” you asked through gritted teeth.

“Getting back together, of course.” He said it like it was the most obvious thing.

“I didn’t know we were getting back together.” You chuckled bitterly.

Pan frowned at you. “Of course we are!” He cheered.

“Keep telling yourself that” you laughed at him and turned around to walk away. However, he grab a hold of your wrist and pulled you towards him.

“What’s wrong? Don’t you have feelings for me anymore?” he asked.

You pushed him away harshly.

“My feelings for you disappeared a long time ago when you walked away from me. I’m tired of being the only one who tries in this relationship. It’s over. We’re never getting back together. Ever.” You walked away, leaving a devastated Pan.

Your feelings for him DID change. It changed for the worse.

note: an old request. there’s more but i have lots of work to do. this one is short cuz im v lousy lloooll.. more(one) to come tho.

@timetophdail and i got so lit in our dms about seasonal mumen and we were gonna do a series of portraits for it. they were going to do summer and spring and i was going to do fall and winter, but eh, it never came to fruition because we’re both to busy with school and upcoming finals. so here’s the painting of winter i did a while ago based on their design (rip fall orz). of couse, thank you @cinensis and @sai-pop‘s for the eclipse! au


Some Sketch pages i did a while ago. I’ve posted Wonwoo’s sketch page to deviantart(hence why it is edited LOLL) but i didnt upload them here so i decided to upload all the one’s ive done last year. 

I’ll be posting a lot more of my realism and traditional art since im busy with studios, digital art will be hard to do atm.

I have a thing for Wonwoo’s sweater paws OTL or sweater paws in general OTL

Hope you guys dont mind my random kpop sketches of Seventeen and some other groups in a anim-ish style, or realism! ; v ; <3


There’s a set of doodles I did in my sketchbook a while ago that basically turned into a modern take on Star Wars. The basic premise is that a large organization is sucking the life and charm out of neighborhoods by replacing old business and restaurants with typical chain stores, and the only ones trying to stop them is a slightly nefarious ragtag group of city folk.

Anyway, I imagined Leia as like as a first year law student (you just know she’s listening to Serial) that makes a little side cash by working at a bakery and Luke is a college-dropout who has no idea how crazy good of a chef he could/is about to become.

I know. It’s weird. But I think it’s kinda funny. I have a few more doodles of other characters that I can share..