Did you ever consider becoming a monastic before going the path you're on? How did it affect you?
Only very briefly. I have always felt called to be a dad.
However, what I’ve learned is that there is very little difference, ultimately, between a monastic and married calling, when it comes to children and sex. Both must refrain from sex at specific times if they are to see others as humans and not an object to satisfy lusts. Both need to be concerned with raising within themselves and their children a Christian who is able to recognize and navigate their discovery of their own path to Christ.
Spiritual and biological parenting need to be concerned with this: recognizing the person before them as an individual with a unique relationship with Christ. They need to bring that out, help this individual discover just how to discover that relationship for themselves. Either can be too concerned with imposing a personal perspective on their child.
If I had known that, would I have acted differently? Who knows? Everyone is told only their own story ;)