i did something it worked look how shitty this is i'm so proud though

anonymous asked:

hey there!! congrats on the new blog, i hope it flourishes and i know you'll do great! could i have a request for the tfp bots reaction to their s/o who is super passionate about their education and a straight A student, but is hella stressed out from school work and just flooded with AP classes and exam prep and projects etc please?? thank you! <3

awww, thank you mate <3 that’s so sweet of you!! thank you for being supportive!! i hope you don’t mind that i’ve chosen Ratchet and Bumblebee for this. i’m a bit too tired to do all of them :’>

Ratchet ( TFP )

  • Okay, he gets wanting to be the best and wanting to become intelligent (though he already knows that you’re that and more), but there comes a line to be drawn.
  • Ratchet takes away your homework for a bit going “Ap, pap, pap! There will be time for that later! Just look at the state of you! You are in need of some rest and relaxation stat. And I shall help you with it. Doctor’s orders.”
  • And though he feels bad for the worry, desperation, and unwillingness he sees on your face, he knows that’s the exact reason you need a break. He forces you to take a break and just drive around with him or at least lay a bit with him while he works (or just laying on his chasis in his room).
  • He hums songs to you as he works– anything to get you to calm down and rest a bit.
  • At the same time, he lectures you. While being passionate about education and getting good grades is important, none of that is worth anything or possible without you and your wellbeing. You have to come first. You come first to him and now he wants you to come first to you.

Bumblebee ( TFP )

  • Oh the poor bot is chirping over your stressed form, frantically hovering over you like a mother hen. Oh, how can he help you? What’s going on? What’s happened? Are you okay?
  • Once you confess why you’re so stressed about projects and exam preps, he calms a bit. Only a bit (he had jumped to worst case scenario tbh). But of course he gives you that adorable, determined look. “Stop working now! You and I are going to have fun now!
  • The idea of slacking off horrifies you and you immediately move to deny him. But Bumblebee shakes his helm and looks you dead in the eye. It’s not slacking off if you’re constantly working without break. Taking a little time off to just do something that wasn’t school centered was especially important. 
  • And that’s how he drags you to get shitty gas station food and come back to the base to play a video game.
  • Once you’re more visibly relaxed he’s so happy and relieved! You deserve this! You actually pass out from exhaustion, but he doesn’t mind. He gently picks you up and takes you to his room to snooze on his warm chasis.
  • You did great and are doing great, honey. I’m so proud of you!

anonymous asked:

I was wondering if you could give me some... advice. I see you struggle with anxiety and depression too, yet you manage to write so much. I haven't written in a long while though I really, urgently want to. Except every time I try to, I... panic. It triggers self-loathing attacks, breakdowns etc. (Because I'm not good enough for myself.) Do you know how I can try to get over this or work around it? It really gets me even more depressed, being unable to write because I want it so much :[ 1-2

2-2 I am also on medication and have lots of therapy behind me and am on the path to treat myself better - but the writing is something I just don’t know how to handle, and it makes me so sad and angry. I NEED to write, I really need to, but I completely. Just. I just can’t. I don’t know. Any advice you could give would be amazing… but ignore this if you don’t want or can’t respond just now! Thank you either way x

Heyo! I’m sorry you are dealing with these things but glad to hear that you are getting the help you need :D tbh I’m also struggling with my anxiety about writing lately so this can be a pep talk for the both of us.

1) there’s no wrong way to do writing. break all the rules! fuck the rules. spag? toss it. context? who cares. it doesn’t have to be true or real or smart. they don’t have to be real sentences even. if you have a word, write it down. if something seems like it’s niggling at your mind, write it down. i don’t mean Sit and Write™. i mean literally just write it down. with your fingers. then when you get to the end, stop. don’t sit there and figure out what you need to say next. just. stop. save the doc, close the notebook, whatever. when you’re done, stop. walk away. you can come back to it the next day or whatever and see if there’s anything in it. sometimes there is. sometimes there isn’t. it’s not a loss if there isn’t; it’s just not for you right now. it was for you when you wrote it down. that’s enough.

2) write shitty. seriously. stop trying to write good. give yourself permission to suck. give yourself permission to sound bad on the page. sometimes, the point is not to write something you can be proud of. sometimes the point is just to write anything at all. i feel ya! you want to write the thing you have in your head, right? you want to write it down in a way that means we can all understand. well, stop trying to do that. that’s hard!! that’s fucking hard!! so free yourself from that expectation. chill with yourself a little bit. get low key. 

you can always build on it later and find your truth it in a little bit at a time. you can always change everything later. you are never trapped in your writing. you can write something down specifically to delete it if you want. start little. start sparse. start rough. there’s no such thing as a perfect start, so let your starts be shitty. you know what the thing about shit is though? it’s fertilizer. so plant the seed in your shitty start and then later if you think ok well maybe this seed is bad but possibly it could be good if i did x to it. which is what we call a sprout. and then you think oh, what about y? and what about z? and pretty soon you have built a flower from that shit, and then you can start a garden. but you gotta start in the shit. get into it. fall in love with it. then grow.

3) read. if you can’t write, read. read things you like and read things you don’t like. read things everyone says you should like and try not to like it. and then read something no one has ever heard of. fiction, nonfiction, fanfiction. read read read read read read. 

idk if this is really the sort of advice you were looking for bb but I hope it helps speak to you a little bit!! I started writing at just, you know, like the absolutely worst fucking time in my life, and I thought, damn. ok. I took all the shit things that were happening to me and then gave them to a character. and it was in the end, super cathartic. and i stopped worrying about whether anybody else would get it. i got it. I knew where I was coming from, where I wanted to get to, because that’s where I wanted to be for myself. It didn’t fucking matter whether it made sense, ya know? I was dreaming. I was using tropes just cause they made me happy a little bit. and you know, I fell in love with it again. and now I know that I have some anxiety coming back again and I just have to start broad, sketch out the outline, think: what do IIIIIIIII want. what do i want. forget what everyone else wants from this chapter. what are the five words i want this chapter to feel like. and then build. and then i’ll read the previous chapters and see if it flows. and then i’ll cut. and then i’ll cut again. and then i’ll write more. i can do it. you can do it. 

listen. writing is hard. writing is putting your soul out there. your soul is always good enough. you are the only one who can write you. that’s special. that’s important. that’s worthwhile. don’t give up on yourself or your writing. <3

I’ve probably made this post before but honestly I think about it every couple weeks guys can we talk about how the cow chop fanbase has some fucking amazing artists? Like?? What??? Where did all you art gods come from?? The paintings/video and picture edits/drawings etc. that are in the cow chop tags on every site are all so mind blowing I could honestly sit here for hours and just look at the art people make. And I know that there are parts of the fanbase that are shitty and judgemental and make people want to hide their art and I know it makes it really hard to be an artist in this fanbase but AHHHH.

Real talk though, despite the dipshits who make it really hard for fanbase artists to have their moment, I really REALLY admire you artists. You guys probably work your asses off to make the stuff you do and I’m proud of you. I think it’s amazing. I also wanna say thank you because I know that there are artists who don’t just do it for the boys but who take requests and do commissions for other fans who have these dream ideas and they’re willing to sit for hours and draw what people ask them to draw even if it’s something that seems impossible, they do it. I’ve seen so many requests on here for different colors, styles, positions, situations, etc. of the boys and y'all DO THAT. Amazing. You go artists, I see you out here, I luv u.

anonymous asked:

if u can, plsplspls write bout the first time eggsy is on a mission as an offical kingsman and every agent thats in the mansion turns up and r completely fucking astounded as eggsy rips the baddies to pieces using his gymnastic skills and roxy is going tHATS MY BEST MATE and merlin has this proud dad look and basically everyone knows not to mess with eggsy bc holy shIT DID U SEE THAT HE SNAPPED A GUYS NECK WITH HIS THIGHS

HAHA YES everyone thinking “alright well yeah this kid saved the world BUT i bet i coulda done it if i had the chance pft he isn’t that great” 

and then seeing this and going “oh shit fuck i hope he didn’t hear me say that” 

YES I HAVE PLANS FOR THIS (also i hope you don’t mind the bit of merwin at the end i couldn’t help myself. it’s very light i swear don’t worry) 

Immediately after V-Day, Kingsman goes into a pseudo-lockdown. Merlin more or less takes over and calls everyone to homebase to regroup. No one is sent out on missions, no one has any assignments–Everyone, though, has to have a psych eval. 

“The world’s gone to shit, most of you killed civilians without conscious control, we’ve lost two agents in the past six months, and we were betrayed by our leader,” Merlin recites whenever one of them tries to argue with his decision. “Until you’ve been cleared, you won’t have a mission. So suck it up, go to your assigned meetings, and pass the evaluation before the world is back to its normal level of shittiness.” 

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The Neighbourhood sentence starters
  • "I'd like to be proud, but somehow I'm ashamed."
  • "Everybody's talking, but what's anybody saying?"
  • "Put me in the dirt, let me dream with the stars."
  • "I was naive and hopeful and lost."
  • "R.I.P. to my youth."
  • "If I told you that I loved you, tell me, what would you say?"
  • "If I told you that I hated you, would you go away?"
  • "Now I need your help with everything that I do."
  • "I don't want to lie, I've been relying on you."
  • "You can throw me shade, all it does is just cool me off."
  • "First it just threw me off, now I'm just moving on."
  • "I've been callin' you 'friend', I might need to give it up."
  • "I can admit, I am not fireproof."
  • "I hope I don't burden you."
  • "I tried to be someone."
  • "If I had done something a little bit differently, we would've moved in a better direction than this."
  • "You say that you love me, but you act like you don't."
  • "You used to adore me."
  • "You put me in harm's way."
  • "When we had our first kiss it was your favorite thing."
  • "You weren't lying when you said it would sting."
  • "Imagine our children; how fucked would they be?"
  • "Mommy's a psycho, daddy lives in a dream."
  • "Don't take this the wrong way."
  • "I thought that I loved you, but we weren't in love."
  • "You were my dream."
  • "So sorry, but your lady's with me."
  • "So shitty to be you right now, soon you will see pictures of us kissing on the mouth."
  • "I hate her new boyfriend."
  • "I don't wanna be forgotten."
  • "I'm fake and I don't get offended."
  • "You ended up with gold, but it started as a dream."
  • "I used to be broke, now there's money in my jeans."
  • "I want you to touch me there."
  • "Darling, your looks can kill, so now you’re dead."
  • "If I made it too hard for you maybe you should've changed it."
  • "I hope you find a way to be yourself someday."
  • "Change can be amazing."
  • "I pray for the best for you."
  • "Why’d you stick around, why’d you stay with me?"
  • "I couldn’t save it."
  • "I wish you could be honest with me."
  • "I am the chosen one."
  • "I could change all your minds."
  • "This is the one they won't forget."
  • "I want to be bad, I want to destroy you."
  • "I want the attention, I want all the cash, I want all the ass; is it too much to ask?"
  • "I get what I want."
  • "You think I'm a fake and I know you're a fraud."
  • "I'll fucking digest you, one kiss at a time."
  • "You wish I was yours and I hope that you're mine."
  • "You need to get off my mind."
  • "I'm never satisfied, it's never good enough."
  • "I knew it was wrong, but I thought about you still."
  • "I'm paranoid, I hate to sleep alone."
  • "I try my best, no matter what it's like I'm always wrong."
  • "I just need some peace of mind."
  • "I'm never the same, I change every week."
  • "I would ask for advice, but I just do what I like."
  • "I smoke cause I'm stressed, I try to get high, but it gets me depressed, I'm just tryna get by."
  • "I've got no man to follow."
  • "And I know that I'm shallow, but why shouldn't I be?"
  • "Trouble being alone, I've been losing my mind."
  • "I don't want any trouble, it just chooses to find me."
  • "I feel like you're worth it."
  • "We're made to love, but you're dangerous."
  • "I'll tell my friends about my fast life because they know me from my past life."
  • "I can't wait 'till you're back to California."
  • "I know a couple girls like you."
  • "I hope we can go round two, 'cause you know I wanna do it again."
  • "Being away from her, it makes me hurt, it makes me sad."
  • "I'll try to find another way, to make it work."
  • "I know what to say that will make you hurt."
  • "I can't even believe what you did to me."
  • "You can't even say I'm overreacting."
  • "Did I even ever cross your mind?"
  • "What the fuck am I supposed to do about you and I?"
  • "Fuck that guy, happy I don't know his name."
  • "My love never seems to come out right."
  • "I still love you even though you’re a fucking cunt douchebag."
  • "I’m sure you feel the same about me but, whatever, that’s it."
  • "I've seen it a million times."
  • "Everybody else so basic, stop tryin', please stay home."
  • "We got signed to a label and we infected the internet."
  • "I'm my own worst enemy."
  • "You were crazy, but I miss you."
  • "Now we're a little bit famous and I think I might hate it."
  • "I think I found hell."
  • "Don't tell them anything."
  • "You fooled me from the start when you let me start to love you."
  • "I'm leaving tonight, I'll be gone in the morning."
  • "I can't love her no more."
  • "She had all my trust, and I guess that was never enough."
  • "I want the world in my hands."
  • "Let's have an adventure."
  • "I don't mind if there's not much to say."
  • "We talked about making it - I'm sorry that you never made it."
  • "You knew the game and played it."
  • "Mr. know it all, had his reign and his fall."
  • "I'm having trouble in believing."
  • "How could you tell me that I'm great when they chew me up, spit me out, pissed on me?"
  • "When I wake up I’m afraid, somebody else might take my place."
  • "All my friends always lie to me."
  • "You’re too mean, I don’t like you, fuck you anyway."
  • "You make me wanna scream at the top of my lungs."
  • "I’m afraid somebody else might end up being me."
  • "I told you I would tell you everything you want to know."
  • "Everybody's watching me."
  • "I try to be as subtle as I can."
  • "It looks like you were right again."
  • "I'm from a little city with expensive taste."
  • "Shouldn't try to fix it if it keeps getting better."
  • "I wasn't listening at all."
  • "We were young, skinny dipping, having fun, I remember."
  • "And we all grew up, shit got tough."
  • "What a mistake, saying the way I felt."
  • "I was scared as fuck and out of touch, and I was still testing my luck."
  • "I guess there's something wrong inside."
  • "Maybe you're right, maybe this is all that I can be."
  • "But what if it's you, and it wasn't me?"
  • "What do you want from me?"
  • "She planned ahead for a year."
  • "I fell in love today."
  • "There aren't any words that you can say that could ever get my mind to change."
  • "You're a doll, you are flawless."
  • "I just can't wait for love to destroy us."
  • "You better not leave me."
  • "No food to eat, all the money's been wasted from last week."
  • "Some part of me feels a little bit naked and empty."
  • "I still believe something is out there."
  • "All I'll ever be is partly settled in."
  • "They show you how to swim, then they throw you in the deep end."
  • "Float away, then come right back to me."

siamonbonhon  asked:

Bokuto, Kuroo, Oiwaka, Iwaizumi and Tsukki cheering up their s/o after a really shitty day please! :3 I love you blog so much! And I'm so hyped to be able to request something! Please keep de great work up! (*´꒳`*)

I’mma do Bokuto and Tsukki okies? And ty <3

There’s nothing worse than having a bad day, one thing after another going wrong. For Bokuto Koutaro’s partner, it was simple things throughout the whole day. It started from forgetting to iron their uniform the night before, sleeping through the alarm, forgetting breakfast and being scolded by their teacher. Not only that, forgetting the wrong lunch and ending up eating their least favourite sandwich, then finding out they had left their phone at home. The last class was P.E. and they ended up scraping their knee badly and skipping out on the class to the nurse who wasn’t even in.

(Name) sighed as they opened the door to their house, letting their bag just fall off their shoulders and flop with a loud thud on the ground. Exhausted and utterly drained, they slipped their shoes off and trudged up the stairs.


Came a whisper from the living room.

It was barely audible.

(Name) turned white and instantly backtracked and stared into the living room.

They glared at their dorky boyfriend who had just given them heart palpitations and was on the verge of needing an ambulance.


Before (Name) could go any further, Koutaro launched himself on them in an embrace.


He cried, nuzzling his head into their neck.


(Name) couldn’t help but smile at him as he kissed them on the cheek and continued to snuggle into them.

“I’m sorry, I left my phone at home. It’s been a horrible day. I’ve missed you too. I’m… actually really glad you’re here, despite you giving me a heart attack. Up until now it’s been dreadful, I think I’ve got a massive spike of bad luck.”

Sighing, (Name) wrapped their arms around him and couldn’t help but feel relieved with Koutaro’s arms surrounding their waist. They listened to his heartbeat and felt the warmth from his body.

“That’s awful! I’ll make it up to you, let’s go have fun, shall we?”

“What do have in mind?”

“How about… We go to your favourite restaurant and I’ll treat you”

“You don’t have to treat me”





“Hey… (Name) go get changed and we’ll go”

“You’re such a dweeb”

Chuckling, Koutaro let them go and kissed them on the forehead. As (Name) went up the stairs, they felt a tug on their shirt.

“Hey. Although you’ve had a bad day, let me make it up to you, okay? I love you and I want you to be happy, and hey, let’s make today a better day”

Smiling and blushing, (Name) nodded and continued up the stairs, while Koutaro grinned and hummed to himself, proud that he made his partner smile.

(Name) walked into their room and had to stare for a moment. Their room was completely clean. From their books that were scattered on the floor to the windows sparkly clean. Blinking, (Name) cautiously walked into the tidied room and noticed a note on the bed.


He really was the best cure for bad days.

Tsukishima Kei:

After a seemingly long and horrid day, there was nothing worse to top it off with than a sudden torrential downpour of rain. (Name) groaned as they were soaked to the bone, they found a bus shelter and was currently hiding in it. They sighed and shivered lightly, going through the day they just had. There was a buzz in their pocket and they took their phone out. It was their boyfriend, the tsun tsun bean pole, Tsukishima Kei.


“Hello, (Name). Where are you?”

“Straight to the point, a simple hello then into the fray. Where’s those ‘how are you’ moments, I miss those.”


“I’m kidding! I’m currently under the bus stop near the park. I’m caught in the rain. I fear I may die out here.”


“Seriously though, I am so done with this day… The whole world has turned against me.”

(Name) talked about their day and their inconveniences. On the other line, there was no reply except for a bit of background noise. (Name) didn’t mind, this was what usually happened when they were on the phone together. Unless there was urgent news, Kei never talked the most, he preferred to hear (Name)’s voice.

After about 5 minutes of (Name) bringing him up to date on their misfortunes of the day, they sighed.

“So yeah. That’s my day. How’s yours so far?”

“Mm. Can’t complain. It’s not been as bad as yours”

“That’s good at least. So what are you doing?”

“I’m looking right at you”



Looking around, (Name) then spotted the familiar figure. He had came out with a large umbrella and a spare hoodie. He walked closer to him and smirked at their surprised face.

“Are you alright?”

The smirk went away when he noticed (Name) didn’t say anything. His eyes widened when tears began to form. (Name) reached forward and held him in an embrace. Their emotions overflowed as they couldn’t help but feel so grateful for Kei being in their life.

“T-thank you for coming out here for me”

They managed, tears beginning to fall.

“You’ve had a stressful day. It’s okay. Let it out”

He said, holding onto them with one arm. He squeezed a little tightly as (Name) just stood in silence just feeling like the whole day’s problems just vanished.


He said as (Name) stepped back a little, just to see his face.

A small embarrassed smile appeared on (Name)’s lips.


“Good. Now get off me, you’re wet”

Grinning, (Name) accepted the hoodie he had for them and slipped it on.

“Let’s go back to mine for a while, we’ll get you warm and we’ll watch that stupid TV show you like”

“You don’t like it though”

“But you do. I’ll watch it if it makes you feel better”

A smile couldn’t help but grace (Name)’s face as Kei entwined his fingers with theirs. He always knew what to do when they weren’t feeling good, he knew what to say and he knew how to make them happy.

“Thank you, Kei. Thanks for being with me”

They kissed him on the cheek and he averted his gaze. A light blush appearing on his face.

“… It’s nothing…”

Fukin tsundere bastard

anonymous asked:

Ok your TL5Y comments have made me curious :) If you haven't already and wouldn't mind doing so, I'd love to hear more about specifically what Cathy did that you feel put her at fault (partly). I've seen the stage show and heard from others before and I'm not really one-sided, but I'd like to hear your perspective, especially because I feel like the movie tipped me even further in Cathy's favor, seeing more of her at Jamie's events along with feeling neglected and misunderstood and worse off?

I would like to point out before I write all of this, because there’s going to be a lot, that I don’t entirely blame Cathy. Jamie also did horrible things. I just think it’s very easy to see Jamie’s faults. So, now that my discretion has been put up, shall we?

In my opinion, I think the movie really did make Jamie out to be the enemy. For example, every stage production I’ve seen has never had more than one girl with him in bed at the end, and viewing him as a serial cheater in the movie really makes it seem much worse. I also personally think they pushed A Miracle Would Happen a lot farther than it needed to go, especially with the alcohol. I think that Jamie has always been a very big story teller, he’s got a very creative mind so sometimes, as writers do, he exaggerates things. But the movie does things that the stage production never does: shows him eyeing SEVERAL girls at the bar, going to strip clubs with his friends, and imagining other girls in their underwear. We would never see these things in the stage production, and we usually laugh a lot during this song, just like we do during A Summer in Ohio. I also don’t personally agree with JerJor’s choices in If I Didn’t Believe in You to get as angry as he did, because once again, it makes Jamie seem very condescending. Usually when I listen to that song, I can barely hear it over my heart breaking for how much Jamie really loves Cathy.

Now, anyways, on to Cathy. Or rather, comparing Jamie and Cathy.

“Here’s a headshot guy and a new Backstage, where you’re right for something on every page.” -Jamie
“Isn’t he wonderful, just 28? The saviour of writing.” -Cathy (sarcastically)
“I am so proud of you, baby, you’re doing what you never got to do before” -Jamie
“Jamie needs his space to write since I’m obviously such a horrible, annoying distraction to him.” -Cathy
“If I didn’t believe in you, and all of the ten thousand women you are.” -Jamie

Jamie was always very supportive of Cathy in her career, or rather, her lack of it. Even when things weren’t going well, Jamie wanted nothing but to see her succeed in what she loved doing. Cathy, on the other hand, resented Jamie’s success. And I think Jamie’s line in Moving Too Fast, “Some people can’t get success with their art, some people never feel love in their heart, some people can’t tell the two things apart, but I keep rollin’ on” really portrays Cathy in that moment. I know you’ve all seen the gifsets of him singing this line and how it pertains to Cathy. Jamie found success in his art, and Cathy didn’t. Jamie very much loved Cathy, although I do think that Cathy very much loved Jamie too. The difference was, though, that Cathy couldn’t tell those things apart in him. She thought all he loved was his work, and not her. “I’m a part of that, aren’t I?” And her resentment of his success was a huge fault.

“I will not be the girl who gets asked how it feels to be trotting along at the genius’ heels” (Climbing Uphill) / “I tend to follow in his stride, instead of side by side, I take his cue.” (A Part of That)
“I want you, and you, and nothing but you.” (I Can Do Better Than That) / “You can’t spend a single day that’s not about you, and you, and nothing but you.” (See I’m Smiling)

We all know Cathy was very contradictory. We’ve seen gifset after gifset of her saying one thing at the start of the show, and something very different at the end. I think it was hard for her to know what she wanted, because she swore to wanting something only to hate it afterwards. Although I didn’t quote it, the one that made me personally very upset, is in See I’m Smiling, she has a very unsuspecting personality. She starts off saying that she’s happy that Jamie could come and they could work on their relationship. But, once Jamie says he can’t stay, she gets upset with him. Jamie attempts to comfort her, but she pushes him away, and then at the end sings “And see I’m crying, and not do anything at all.” because I don’t know about you guys, but if a girl is pushing me away when I try to physically comfort her, I will not continue to do so. I think it was unfair of Cathy to be upset that Jamie wasn’t doing anything when she had already shown signs of not being wanted to be comforted. Now, I know a lot of you point out that it was awful of Jamie to leave her on her birthday, but this is one thing that I will fully support Jamie on. I don’t think he wanted to abandon her on her birthday. No one wants to leave their s/o alone on their birthday, that’s just a shitty thing for both of you. Plus, as a pilot’s kid, I can tell you that sometimes flying can be tricky, and if Jamie couldn’t make it back to New York the next day, what else was he supposed to do? If he had missed that party, I’m sure it would have looked pretty bad on him.

“Jamie is probably feeling just fine, and I’m still hurting.” -Cathy
“I’m not the only one who’s hurting here.” -Jamie
“Once the foundation’s cracked.” -Cathy
“You never saw how far the crack had opened.” -Jamie
“Maybe I’d see how you could be so certain that we had no chance at all.” -Cathy
“It’s not about another shrink, it’s not about another compromise” / “Some people analyze every detail, some people stall when they can’t see the trail, some people freeze out of fear that they’ll fail, but I keep rollin’ on” / “So we could fight, or I could wait, or I could go” / “You never saw I’d run out of rope.” -Jamie
(Just all of Still Hurting) -Cathy
“I made a promise and I took a vow. We wrote a story and I changed the ending, Cathy just look at me now.” -Jamie

I basically made these quotes in two. I gave Jamie a lot on the third one for a reason, but I’ll get to that as I go through these. First one I think is important. Jamie knew that this was going to hurt both of them, he was more than aware that this divorce would shatter Cathy’s heart. And of course, he was also breaking his own heart as he did it. I always say that I believe Cathy was very selfish, and I think that this is a prime example of it, in that she couldn’t see past her own hurt and pain to think for a moment that Jamie once loved her for five entire years, and that getting a divorce wouldn’t kill him. Alright, second one. I think this one just speaks for itself, that maybe Cathy wasn’t quite aware of just how broken everything was. She thought everything was going fine, that the foundation had just been cracked, but Jamie points out that the crack was open pretty far. Of course, they could be talking about different times, but remembering that Still Hurting and I Could Never Rescue You happen within 24 hours of each other, I think it’s important that these are the distinctions that are made. The third one, Cathy constantly believed that things could be fixed. She was a very hopeful girl when it came to the relationship, thinking that things could be fixed, but I gave Jamie all these quotes on this last one for a reason. The first quote states that it’s not like they’d never tried to fix things, they’d tried compromising and seeing shrinks, but as the last one says, Jamie just ran out of rope, and could no longer keep trying. The middle two sort of go hand in hand, although one might feel a little out of context seeing as it’s from Moving Too Fast, I think it’s important. Jamie couldn’t stick in a rut. He hated being caught standing still, and that’s probably how he felt at the end of the relationship. They could keep fighting and keep compromising and seeing more shrinks, but to him, they were standing still and running in circles, and he needed to move on in his life. In the end, I do think it was very mature of Jamie to leave Cathy, although I fully would agree in saying that it was awful of him to have to wait until AFTER he cheated on her to divorce her, I think it was smart of him to do so. Cathy would have never done that, because she kept wanting to try to fix something that never should have happened in the first place, to quote Jason Robert Brown here. Finally, with our last two, I think Cathy was very selfish. During all of Still Hurting, the entirety of the song is made up of “Jamie is ______”, constantly putting the focus on him and blaming him. He’s decided it’s time to move on, he thinks it was Cathy’s fault, when in reality, looking at the second quote, we might think different. Jamie also sings, “Facts are facts.” When he’s cheated on her, and he knows what he’s done is wrong, and he can tell that he’s done something awful by doing this. He made a vow to Cathy to always love her, and he changed it, and he lied.

I’m happy to write out other things, I guess. I will very much admit that it wasn’t all Cathy’s fault. Jamie was also a very faulted person. They were both faulted people who should have never been together. They ruined each other’s lives.

Sakura and feminism.

So, first of all, this is not something I usually do, getting involved in shipping wars, that is. What I usually do is just plain ignore all the shit that the Narusaku fandom says, cause is that, just shit, and I’m like sure cool this is all a genjustu but I’m still canon and you’re not, the leehina one had me laughing like for 10 min no kidding. But this has been bugging me so much during the last few days that I can’t help it.

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