i did not know she was such a shitty person

anonymous asked:

Why are you using holland roden as Amelia? Do you know what she did?

Holland is such a problematic and shitty person and I legit cannot stand her as a human being. With requesting her as Amelia’s faceclaim, I fully acknowledge her problematic behavior head on and I am not interested in making excuses for her. 

With that said, when I was writing out my entire application, literally the only one I envisioned as her, was Holland. I tried to try out various other redheaded faceclaims. Such as: Molly Quinn, Sophie Turner, Ciara Baxendale, ect and literally every redhead faceclaims I could think of. I even went through masterlists and I honestly did try… but Holland is Amelia to me. Its not even her gifs or her resources, its her. Its her messy hair in that one music video, its her smile that she has, its her frown that she does when shes upset. I wrote and I poured my entire soul into Amelia… so much and Holland was the only one that I could see working for her. She’s my Amelia and yes, I know how shitty that sounds. I know that, by choosing her It looks like I am saying ‘oh lets just ignore her racist comments and every other shitty thing that she’s said’ but honestly, that’s not what I’m trying to do! I tried to force myself to not choose her. I tried to very hard but in the end, I have to go with my gut. I connect to Amelia in such a way that I can’t even describe and I know how pathetic that sounds, but its the truth. & by connecting so deeply, I had to give her the face that I see when I think of her. I had to use Holland because she just captures my version of Amelia.

I sincerely apologize for how problematic this is and how messy this entire answer is but I really hope that you don’t hate me for my choices. 

RANT about ex, sorry, it's my blog, not sorry.

So I’ve literally been awake for 30 minutes, I made the awful decision of looking at her blog. And hardly scrolling very far I wanted to rip my eyes out of anger.
First off she makes me sound like a fucking monster. Like I was some horrible person in our relationship. When in reality she was the monster, she tormented me. She made me feel like complete shit. I’m not saying that towards the end I didn’t do some shitty things. But honestly I gave her unconditional love throughout our relationship till the end. And you know what she did with it? She tossed it and me away like trash. She fucked around on me 6 times as far as I know. I forgave her every time because I was so blinded. She once said she wanted to be with someone else because she wanted to feel “normal”. That’s rung through my head forever. Like why the fuck is loving me abnormal!? We never ever had sex, maybe once every three months. And if we ever did it was all about her because she never wanted to touch me because I don’t have a penis. She’s told me that she’d rather not touch me, because it’s gross or I’m gross?? Idk. She would never want me, in our relationship but she would fuck other guys or tell other guys how she wants to fuck them, IM FUCKING FEMALE TO MALE TRANSGENDER WOULDN’T YOU CONSIDER HOW DISGUSTING YOU MADE ME FEEL!?!?!? Like the amount of Dysphoria this girl gave me was fucking amazing. Now she’s off having enough sex to almost get pregnant by her new boyfriend. Yeah, what happen to being so convinced you’re Asexual? Or was that only for people with out “real” dicks? Yeah thought so. She said I never gave emotional support ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID? Really I was literally her fucking punching bag, so much so IM IN THERAPY EVERY WEEK, just to try and undo the mess she made me. And to top it off she was awful when I needed emotional support, she has literally turned around while I was crying my eyes out and has said “I’m too tired to deal with you crying” WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT?!? Are you serious? That’s some bull shit.. Like I’m sorry, I’ve been nothing but nice, and I just had to finally fucking vent or ill probably explode.

Rant end.

anonymous asked:

I really like this guy and he's so fucking hot and we are pretty close but he has a girlfriend and she treats him like trash like she literally did not care that he was depressed. They have fights all the time and I'm so confused. he has said that we should get high and drunk and fuck when they brake up but then he says that he only stays with her because she's the only thing stopping him from killing himself and I don't even know, he's such a good person and I don't know what to do to help him.

to be honest it seems a bit shitty of him to say yeh lets get high and fuck when i break up with my girlfriend but then he makes up an excuse for staying with her. you can always help him by talking out his relationship with his girlfriend and say that you’re concerned about how she’s treating him, but if he’s gonna keep teasing you like that i don’t think he’s worth it

send me anonymous confessions

anonymous asked:

Yeah personal reasons meaning you have no actual reason. If she's so shitty of a person that you hate her you'd tell people what she does wrong so that they know if she's a hypocrite or not. You not saying anything just shows you're being a pathetic little baby.

Keep reading

DEFINITELY UNEXPECTED: KILLING MONICA BY CANDACE BUSHNELL

1/5

Okay.

So.

Well, I hate to do this. Candace Bushnell, I love you. You’re awesome. The Carrie Diaries is a YA prequel like no other, and the show honestly did it no justice. But this…please.

Sex and The City this ain’t, that’s for sure. Well, you know what? Since we’re on the topic, lemme clear some things up for y'all. Personally, I was never a big fan of Carrie. Yes, she dressed nice. Yes, she said some quirky, occasionally humorous things, but most of the time she was a judgmental bitch. She cheated on Aiden, had the biggest, fattest superiority complex, and was a shitty friend. My favorite, by far, was Samantha. She liked having sex and wasn’t afraid to admit it. Also, SMITH. I wasn’t too fond of how they ended her off in SACT2, but that’s another story.

So in Killing Monica, Pandy - full name: Pandemonia J. Wallis - is a very-famous, very-rich writer. She has created a series of books with the title character, Monica, living it up in good ol NYC with her drunk gal pals. It’s all semi-biographical for Pandy. The books are soon given television and movie-spinoffs. Naturally, the people are obsessed, and Pandy is showered in wealth and fame, but she glowers under it. Everyone pressures her for another Monica book, but she feels she’s done with that. She wants to try her hand at something new. But the moment she offers up a new idea, it’s declined. The only possible way to get rid of Monica is to kill her.

But Pandy’s plans are quickly thwarted by the actress who plays Monica, SondaBeth Schwonzer. SondraBeth and Pandy were once friends until SondraBeth stole a guy Pandy liked. (Yeah, long story.) SondraBeth, though, feels “connected” to Monica. She feels that she is Monica. And many times during this novel, Monica is referred to as though a real person. So when Pandy says she wants to “kill” Monica, everyone is totes flabbergasted.

To me, Pandy is a lot like Carrie. She overreacted to everything, cried over everything, and was a writer, too…so, you know. Even their past lives were somewhat similar. Listen, I usually have no problem with an author re-using certain things, or a crying MC, but Carrie 2.0. over here drained me. I tried to like her, but I found myself unable to. Her friends were no Samantha/Miranda/Charlotte either. They only came around to get drunk and gossip. The romance was mediocre. Pandy and her husband’s divorce argument was more entertaining than their whole marriage.

And Henry, Pandy’s publicist, the only decent character in this wretched tale, just so happened to be her long-lost sister, Hellenor, which is the grand twist. I accidentally myself by reading others’ reviews, but I probably should’ve seen it coming. During the end, Pandy continues to make jabs and just be an outright bitch toward Henry, even though he’d done nothing but supported her from the beginning. You would think she would do the same. Nope! Probably one of the worst reads of the years.

Unfortunately, I can’t recommend this. But I do recommend The Carrie Diaries. Definitely a cute read before we meet this.

Things I forgot to add. Final words.

You were the one “seeking independence” yet I’m the one who gained it and you’re right back at square one, quite ironic. You keep saying your mistakes but no they aren’t mistakes they were your choices and decisions. And your choices and how you go about then do define your character as a person. I’m just glad I know my worth and I hope you realize that you lost something great. You are the hollow shell of what used to be a good person. Honestly I don’t know who or what you are anymore. You always talked about how horrible Morgan was to me and how shitty of a person she was, but honestly what you did is, if not the same, maybe even worse what she did to me and at least she was able to call me on her own to apologize for her actions. Not once have you done so. You care about no one else but your self. And I hope you do realize that just how you two entered each other’s lives is exactly how you two will exit another’s.

tonight was a mess

like i felt SO disconnected in our improv show and did awful, and feel SO shitty about it. i looked at my period tracker and yup its pms time, hurrah. got home and asked my roommate to feed the cat dinner this weekend, and SHE’S so depressed that she’s flying to her parents in seattle for an unspecified amount of time. every person i know is going to be at the marathon and i have no idea what to do. friday i literally will not be able to go home once all day, i wont be home til like 9am saturday, and then will be gone til like 5am sunday. ?????

fireinmyfists replied to your post:[4:11:03 P Scooter Summers: my biggest regret in…

//Okay I have seen this joke but what even did they say

( LMAO OK SO a while back, like, a way way way while back, i got this anon that didn’t know illyana is a canon character. so they told me that my “oc” was “too bitchy” and had a “shitty personality” and that her abilities were “too overpowered” and insulted my “shoehorned relationship” with Kitty Pryde. I WANNA SAY THEY SAID SOMETHING ELSE TOO??? but i can’t remember off the top of my head rn but every single day of my life i regret not posting that anon lmao. i’ve gotten a LOT of stupid anons but that one takes the cake honestly, i hope they’re ashamed of themselves for that disaster. )

anonymous asked:

Did u know: being mentally ill doesn't give u a pass to be a shitty person and let your reactions go unchecked

I went to a mental institution for a week and was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, which is very very rare for someone as young as I am. Mental illness is very real.
But regardless, my friends and I pulled a prank at a sleepover. This is classic overdramatized behavior, something Savannah is famous for amid her peers. She just wants attention. She didn’t even get my mental illness correct. It’s funny how this is reflecting badly on me. Who gives a damn? It’s all over and I never used my illness as a shield. Savannah brought it up. It’s not my motherfucking problem if she decides to throw a pity part for herself as she always does. And if you can’t muster up the courage to come off of anon I don’t want you on my page at all. Fuck off. I have better things to do than pander to cowards and dramatic queens.

Lemme tell you all a story on my first Internet friend.

She was hella Christian right, no not good Christian that say that everybody gon’ be loved. /That/ kinda Christian that says you gon burn in hell but eats shrimp and wears different kinda fabrics.

I didn’t know this right, until I wrote my first gay fan fiction. T'was Style (Stan Marsh x Kyle Broflovski)

And imma tell you now a person has never dropped from 10 to 0 in an instant like this girl did.

I mean gay bashing consistently every new chapter, and like hell it was a shitty ass fanfic you coulda been trashing on my absolute lack of knowledge of where the fuck Colorado even was. (Cut me some slack tho I was like only 12-13). But the gays?

Well.
You know how to stomp on a bitch like this?

She came back to me all like ‘I’m sorry but God says its wrong please remove it or we can’t talk it’s sickening you support this’

And I’m like, 'Honey I was lesbian for you. You already tainted’

That is how you ruin a homophobes life in a sentence.


Next time I’ll tell you about how my second friend was a fucking My Little Pony Pedophile off deviantart with a 2 inch dick and looked like that bitch Grumpy from Snow White

Shout out to my dad for still talking to my ex-bestfriend. Someone I made it very clear that I didn’t like and I did not want in my life anymore because she caused way to much drama and we hand grown apart. I just love it when he takes her side, tries to convince me she’s such a good person because she admitted she was wrong, and that I should become her friend again.

Fuck you. Do you know what I did literally the day before? I apologized profusely to someone that I hurt horribly, even though we’re on good terms. I wanted her to know that I was still sorry for what I did and that I wasn’t trying to erase it and pretend like it never happened.

So don’t get on your high horse just because you liked her. You also liked the shitty misogynist I briefly dated because he’s conventionally attractive and religious. UGH FUCK YOU!! Stop acting like your are so supportive of me when all you do is lecture me and try to convince me that your opinion is the right one.

anonymous asked:

Amen to that hahaha. And they actually had the guts to bring in more newbies when all they had was 13 episodes. They can't even fucking give storylines for the originals in 3 seasons and they fucking gave the fandom more newbies. My god, stupidity at its finest hahaha. my.xfinity(.)com/blogs/tv/2012/03/29/glee-inside-actors-studio-ryan-murphy/ Read the statement at the bottom, Ryan's Royal Assholeness was confirmed by Jane Lynch. God, what an immature, insensitive douche he is.

LINK

Cit. “And I know when he’s mad at somebody. I can tell by reading the script.”

My God I wonder what horrible thing Dianna did to him for having the worst storyline known to mankind…maybe one time she told him that she didn’t like his sweater or something like that XD…anyway I’m convinced that professional and personal life need to be two separate things, whatever Dianna and the people in the cast who had a shitty storyline did to him wasn’t an exuse to ruin a character development and the show in general, he’s just an umprofessional and butthurt dumbass that can’t take criticism like the grown man that he should be

I did another shitty thing. So my friend really likes this guy I’m interested in. But I know him well enough to know he’s not looking for a girlfriend. So I told him to let her down easy because she probably thinks he wants to date her. Then like an hour later I asked him if he wanted to hang out. I mean to hang out in a friend way but I feel like I kinda screwed her over.

OK LISTEN UP RIGHT NOW I HAVE NO INTENDED AUDIENCE EXCEPT MY SHIT HEAD DAD BUT YOU KNOW WHAT

I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU SO GOD DAMN MUCH. YOU MAKE MY PRECIOUS MOTHER CRY BECAUSE YOURE A LAZY SHITTY ASSHOLE AND ALL SHE TRIES TO DO IS HELP YOU AND SHE DID YOU THE BIGGEST FAVOR OF YOUR LIFE WHICH WAS RAISE ME AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER BECAUSE YOU WERE ALWAYS GONE “WORKING” IM PRETTY SURE YOUVE CHEATED ON HER MORE THAN TWICE AND IM DISGUSTED. IM SO DISGUSTED IN YOU YOU SHITTY FUCKING ASSHOLE AND LAME EXCUSE FOR A MAN. YOU WANNA CLAIM YOURE THE MAN OF THW HOUSE? YOU WANT TO SAY THAT YOHRE THE ONE IN CONTROL? THEN FUCJING ACT LIKE IT AND BE A DECENT HUMAN BEING INSTEAD OF A SELFISH JERK IF YOURE GOING TO BE THE ONE IN CHARGE THEN DONT BE A PUSSY AND DONT BE DISRESPECTFUL. I HATE YOU SO GOD DAMN FUCJING MUCH I HATE UOU I HATE YOU I HATE THAT HALF OF ME IS YOU I HATE THAT I HAVE TO LIVE MY LIFE BEING APART OF YOU I HATE THAT I HAVE TO WAKE UP EVERYDAY AMD SEE YOU IN MY FACE. I HATE YOHR FAMILY I HATE YOU I HATE THE NOSE THAT I HAVE THATS YOURS I HATE EVERYRHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH YOU. I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOHRE RACIST. I HATE UOU BECAUSE YOURE SO DAMN SEXIST. I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU TO YOUR FEET TO YOUR BELIEFS. IF YOU AND MY MOTHER GET A DIVORCE, AND SO HELP ME GOD I HOPE YOU DO, I WILL ///////NEVER/////// SEE YOU AGAIN. YOU CAN BET YOUR SHIT I WONT. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU SO GOD DAMN MUCH ILL GET “I FUCKING HATE MY FATHER” TATTOOED ON MY FOREHEAD SO EVERYONE WILL KNOW JUST HOW SHITTY YOU ARE AND HOW MUCH YOUVE FAILEF ME AND MY MOTHER. SUCK A DICK BECAUSE I DONT CARE. DONT YOU DARE EVER SCREAM TO MY MOTHER AGAIN OR ILL SCREAM BACK. IM TIRED OF BEING SILENT. IM TIRED OR HOLDING MY TONGUE TO “TALK BACK” WHEN REALLY IM JUST TRYING TI DEFEND MY MOM FROM YOU, YOU PIECE OF SHIT. EHAT THE FUCKING SHIT. WHY ARE YOU SO SUCKY. UGH.

My mom says we’ve had such a shitty year because we haven’t gone to church in so long and strayed away from God. I’m not the most religious person but it did get me thinking and felt like it was true. She tells me to pray.. So I can learn to forgive and help me get through this, but I don’t. I don’t know why.

Is it bad that when a friend of mine talked about gender-neutral bathrooms and how much they wanted them and a teacher called them a pervert, I said it was probably because she was cis?
Like I’m not one to make judgements, but a cis person could go their entire lives without the need to think about the discomfort/marginalization of trans people. They don’t need to unless they choose to. That’s what I meant. Making judgements off of a fact about someone is generally shitty, but it’s not an unrealistic assumption that she never had to think about that before? Most cis people who I know haven’t had to until I (or some of my other friends) came along? Like??? Why is my friend mad that I did this???

People seriously disgust me

Don’t make a promise you can’t keep. Just so you know you’re not doing anything but proving me right(: it’s not my fault I fell out of love with you. you’re a shitty person. Always have been and always will be. I should’ve listen to everyone around me. I believe in karma and this will come back and bite you so hard in the ass.

You two are fucking perfect for each other….. Just remember all the shitty fucking things she did to you and remember who was there for you when you needed a shoulder to cry on. Remember who put up with that shit. I did. Every time.

Oh haha just kidding you were probably talking to her our entire relationship my bad…. So was I the side chick or was she? Hahahaha

I could keep this going for days.
Salty as fuck bro!