Today I was reminded how my attempt to replay the past with familiar people fail miserably and how I came to disgust my best friend for that. It happened 4 months ago but, I would still wonder and wonder for reason, why did she do it? Was it because of me? Or was it because she did not value me as a friend?
I had brother but he’s no better than a stranger to me, so I feel really attached to my friend who is nice to me.
The very fact that the person you trust whole heartedly can betray you is the saddest thing, perhaps this is how RFA feel after knowing the truth about Rika?How can you describe this feeling? It cant even be comprehended by word, language is so useless, other advice seems unreasonable, and my mind replays painful memory like that all the time. Everytime I think back I feel like dying a little inside.
I’m just so tired. So very tired.