i did bad i know but i tried ok

SKAM S04E04 Clip 4 - The Best Of Islam

NOORA: What is this again? We’re here for my sake?
SANA: Yes, of course we’re here for your sake.
NOORA: Just to look at muslim boys and stuff.
SANA: Aren’t you tired of white boys now? I thought we had to get out, meet new types of people, see that there’s plenty of fish in the sea. You know what I mean?
NOORA: But you said muslim boys just use Norwegian girls.
SANA: It’s good that you’re converting to Islam, then.
NOORA: Don’t turn around now, okay? But are those boys looking at us?
SANA: How shouldl I see if they’re looking at us if I can’t turn around?
NOORA: Oh my God, they’re coming over!
SANA: Stay cool.
NOORA: Stay cool? I’m really fuckign cool! Hi there!
SANA: Hi!
NOORA: Hi.
BOY1: Can we sit here?
SANA AND NOORA: Yes, of course.
JONAS: It’s okay? Great!
SANA: Sit down!
NOORA: Hi! Yes, hi.
ALI: Ali.
NOORA: Noora.
ALI: Nice to meet you.
NOORA: Noora, it’s a pleasure.
SANA: Sana, it’s a pleasure.
ALI: Ali, it’s a pleasure.
JONAS: Jonas. It was sana?
SANA: Yes.

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anonymous asked:

Bts Mafia AU reaction to their gf being the little sister of their rival gang leader and when her brother tries to hurt the member their gf shoots and kills her brother pls? If don't do it it's ok 😊 thx in advanced✨

Namjoon:

“I wish you’d learn to control your recklessness…”

Originally posted by ygnj

Jin:

“He didn’t hurt you, did he?!”

Originally posted by fawnave

Yoongi:

“I could’ve handled that myself.”

Originally posted by beui

Hobi:

“You didn’t have to kill him.”

Originally posted by hobiswife

Jimin:

“You just saved my life…”

Originally posted by whyparkjimin

Tae:

“Are you okay?!”

Originally posted by cmtae

Jungkook:

“Come here, baby. Shh shh it’s okay. I’m okay.”

Originally posted by theking-or-thekid

I know this is bad, sorry. - admin nicole 💕

2x08 “Love is A Devil”

Trigger Warning /// Some mention of self harm and s***ide attempt.

ALSO SPOILER ALERT.

Some thoughts.

- Alec standing up for Magnus and their relationship was honestly a giant breath of fresh air even to go as far as to point out the “ignorance” in some shadowhunter traditions, I was 100000000% here for that. And it’s a step in the right direction to Alec recognizing the giant flaws in the system and even within himself.

- Luke standing up for himself & the downworld. IM SO SAD there was only one Luke scene this episode it sucked so fucking much but I’m glad it was a scene of him cussing out Clary and Jace atleast. But Luke is such an important character. Honestly, Luke Garroway is the backbone of this show, so I fucking hope they know that and know that we wont settle for one luke scene a fucking episode -_-

- The way Max acted around Magnus on the balcony was not what I pictured, it was kind of rude but this also goes to show that IGNORANCE IS TAUGHT, Max probably thinks that Magnus is the reason his parents fight so much because he doesn’t hear the other stuff, the way Alec looked at Max and then Maryse in the balcony scene, it’s like he was catching on to what was being taught to the young shadowhunter, I hope we get a Magnus/Max redemption scene one day after he’s learned more. 

- Magnus’ cat eyes reveal to Alec and Max, not what I pictured again. But at least we got to see Alecs peak of curiousity when he showed them, sad about Max’s reaction again hopefully we get a redemption scene. But the way his facial expression changes when he drops the glamour he even clenches his jaw, it’s the little things.

- I also loved Jace sticking up for Magnus in that scene “We don’t talk to our friends like that, apologize to Magnus.” it was a nice touch. I didnt really see the whole point of the way he treated Magnus earlier in the episode like for some reason he thought Alec was just a fling for him??? hello? have you seen the way Magnus acts around Alec? He would probably die for him only having known him maybe 2 months now?? Like I said didnt see the point but I’m glad Magnus cleared that up and the smile they shared at the end was very pure, they bonded over their mutual dis taste for Maryse for a moment. 

- Raphaels back story (a little bit of it) was nice to hear. He’s a very important character and there’s so much to know about him. 

- Izzy & Raphael, not here for it at all. We’re not even gonna talk about the self harm to get Raphael to drink her bood because I am very sad. This entire storyline has just felt so misplaced to me including the yin fen, like it’s just weird. But hopefully next week is a sign that people are gonna finally notice and help her or maybe she’ll ask for it? I don;t know. 

- Clary & Simon, no. Hard pass. This made everything so weird. They’re best friends?? like Clary didn’t even notice him in that way until an episode ago? This was forced for book fans and it’s very obvious, let’s hope it doesn’t last long.

- Alecs storyline this season has been very sad for the most part he’s self harmed to make emotional pain go away by not healing himself, and now this he was brought to the edge because the things he’s been thinking inside his own head became reality for him and that scares the living hell out of me. Because even at the end when Clary finally reassured him that she didn’t blame him. The look at the end, he doesn’t forgive himself, he literally attempted suicide on top of Magnus’ apartment building, I hope with all my heart this is a storyline they follow through with by not brushing wth just happened under the rug, Magnus needs to say something or Jace even like it’s not ok and Alec is not ok.

- Jace saying “mom” when Magnus took the spell away, my heart shattered into 10 million pieces on the ground. 

- Magnus’ badassery. YES THANK YOU!! Magnus owned this episode seeing how powerful his magic is even just by simply putting up his wards not even breaking a sweat to fighting with Iris, she was literally running from him because she knew how powerful he really is. And that’s what i’ve been waiting for, it revived this episode aLOT for me, I sooooo look forward to more Magnus fight scenes, I T WAS SO BADASS. I love love love how theyve deepend Magnus made him more emotional and real and vulnerable but I also want people to realize that you can be all of those things and still be powerful AF. It was nice to see the high warlock of brooklyn kick some ass and once again save the shadowhunters, nothing new to see there.

- Little Max got runed and i’m proud of him but we need to teach him a thing or two man cause he wasn’t the sweet max I remember.

- Maryse was just awful to Magnus and so racist towards downworlders it makes me sick??? How she treated Magnus was NOT ok and the end of this episode better mean a redemption storyline on her part. I tried realllllllllly hard not to feel bad for her but I honestly did, maybe i’m just soft but Nicola DID THAT SCENE and I felt for her. But it doesnt change the facts that she and her shadowhunter friends have A LOT to learn. 

Now let’s talk the 2x09 promo.

- Alec is blaming Magnus for him not saying something about Izzy, why am I not suprised??? He didn’t fucking know what the fuck, why are we doing this??? They’re gonna fight and then WATCH they wont make ammends til ep 10 probably when Alec gets locked in the institute.

- Also Alec’s gonna hit Raphael possibly IN FRONT Of Magnus and I can’t imagine that’s going to be good because Raphael is like Magnus’ son so 

- Maia may or may not be after Clary but she will transform next episode, i’m excited for more Maia she’s one of my favorite characters this season!!! But I just hope she’s not trying to kill Clary, I know she’s gonna be scared though :(

- Clary jfc cant catch a break, she has all these downworlders probably after her when and if they find out about her blood but the end with Simon holding her, IM SAD but good things stills exist and we know she makes it through, 

Oh man. Well, let me know thoughts and stuff.  

Accident

Originally posted by brightlyeverlasting

Requested: YES

Requested by anonymous: imagine with dylan obrien when he got hurt on he set of the maze runner please???

WORDS: 763

WARNING:

A/N: I hope u like it!

Y/N’s P.O.V.

I was almost finishing my book when I heard my phone, I looked and I saw “Kaya” on my screen.

“Hey, K!”

“Hi, Y/N, where are you?”

“I’m home. Why?”

“Look, you need to go to the hospital right now, something happened to Dylan, Thomas told me to call you.”

“What? What happened to him?” I got up, grabbing my bag.

“I don’t have any details yet, but I think it’s bad. I’ll send you the address, ok?”

“Ok. Thank you, Kaya.”

I hang up and I got my keys, I got a text from Kaya, telling me where he was, I got into my car and drove as fast as I could. I tried to focus on the road but all I could think about was Dylan.

I parked and ran into the hospital, I saw Thomas and Ki Hong, they hugged me.

“What happened? Is he ok?”

“He fell pretty bad doing one of the scenes, we don’t know yet, looks like he broke some bones, he’s on surgery right now.” Thomas said.

“Oh my God.” I tear up.

“Wes was talking to the doctor, we are waiting for news.”

“I’m sure he’s going to be ok. He’s a tough one.” Ki Hong said.

I nod and I sat, Thomas gets me some water and I see Wes, he gave me a small smile and I wanted to cry again.

“He’s still in surgery. I’m sorry, Y/N, you know he’s the best for these things; it was a technical problem with the cables. But well, it was pretty bad, I think he broke some bones and hurt his eye, but I think he’s going to be fine.”

“I-I don’t know what to do.”

“It’s ok, calm down, breathe, let’s just wait here ok?” Wes said and I nodded.

I drank the water and tried to keep myself from crying, but I couldn’t, Thomas and Ki Hong sat next to me to wait. I grabbed my phone to see the hour and I cried more when I saw his picture on my wallpaper.

“D-Did you called his parents?”

“Yes. They’re on a flight; they’ll probably be here by the morning.” Wes said.

“Ok.”

“The doctor.” Wes got up when he saw the doctor and I followed him.

“Hello, you’re here for Dylan O’Brien, right?”

“Yes, how is he?” Wes said.

“The surgery is over and they taking him to a room. I need a family member or someone close to him to fill these papers for me.”

“I’m his girlfriend.”

He handed me the papers and after a minute or two I gave it back to him.

“Ok, you can see him. But just you. We will wait for his parents, and then I’ll let more people see him.” I nod.

I followed the doctor to the elevator.

“C-can you tell me how he is?”

“Well, he broke three bones in his face, he impact was violent and he also has some bruises, but he’s going to be ok. He needs to rest.”

“Ok.”

The doctor opened the door and I got in.

“He will wake up soon, feel free, you can call a nurse if you need anything.” He said and left.

I looked at him, he had a bandage on his face, I sat next to him and held his hand, I was crying again.

“Dyl, oh God, you scared me.”

I kissed his hand, I caressed his hair and drank more water, I looked around and I saw the clothes he was using and his documents on a bag, I sigh and hold his hand again.

I noticed some cuts on his hand and arms; I laid my head on the bed, still holding his hand, I’m so happy to know he’s going to be ok. I felt something, I looked at our hands and I saw his fingers moving, I looked at him and he was opening his eyes.

“Dyl.” He looks at me. “Hey.” I smiled.

He tried to say but he groaned.

“No, no, it’s ok. Don’t say anything. You’re ok now. Y-You were in a surgery, but you’re going to be ok. I promise.” I smile and he squeezes my hand.

He moved his and to my cheeks, trying to wipe my tears, I smiled.

“I’m fine. I was just really worried about you. I love you.” I kissed his hand.

I saw him blinking really fast, almost closing his eyes.

“You’re tired, get some rest, you can sleep, I’ll be right here when you wake up.” He squeezes my hand again. “I promise.”

My deepest apologies

it has certainly been a long while since the last time I typed something in this website. It feels weird.

I’m really sorry but, I’m not coming back to tumblr, this will be my last post here, and I really need it to be for something important.

You have seen my many suicide attempts, my depressive and anxious behaviours, and you have also seen me doing things that werent the best to do. The things I drew/reblogged in my old enciowhy porn blog were things I saw other people draw, and liked, but didnt think too much about how it is seen by the majority of people (AKA, the bestiality porn, fin///nxjak////e, also the pe////wey fanart I drew in my old main floredoodler) I dont remember what else I did.. it was a lot of time ago.. on 2015 . I shouldnt have been so childish when replying to what people told me i was doing wrong, I should have been more responsible and I should have aknowledged what I did.. I didnt do these thought because I didnt know how, and i might have made excuses once, twice or more times. I realize I tried to run away from problems by remaking my blog. I did that twice i think.

I’d like to tell you that I have changed. Back in the day I didnt really have clear what is bad and what is good. Now I know. I will not draw certain things, because they’re not ok..

(I just noticed I might be sounding repetitive but its mostly because I still dont know how to fully express myself in words, but I do know how to express myself better than before.)

I’d really love to say sorry for doing the things I did. I apologize for making you cry whenever I posted suicide notes, and I want to apologize for drawing hurtful content.

I wish I could have a way to let you all see how sorry I am.. this is my only way to do it.

Also, for the ones who support me, I want to apologize for leaving tumblr. I dont feel comfortable being here. I will always be in a negative place in some people’s minds.. I will always be lesbophobic/transphobic/racist/pedophile for at least 1 person, and I cant change that.. I understand that if Someone becomes known, there will inevitably be people who hates them. I just am not used to hate (I grew up with it but Im not over it, and I dont consider myself strong enough to be around people who hates me)

Thank you for reading! I hope you understand that I never meant to harm anybody, ever. Its ok if you dont want to believe me tho, its up to you. I did what I had to do (accept my mistakes and learn from them)

If I excluded something you can point it out by commenting it and Ill to explain it and apologize too.

anonymous asked:

oh god tell us everything!

Ok so i snuck him over, and he was lowkey drunk, which made me really nervous cause i didnt know if he would respect my boundries drunk. But i had a knife in my bed in my room in case he did try to rape me.

So at first he tries to get me to go on a walk with him, and im like nah, a walk? At 3am? With random guy? Im cool, i just invite him upstairs.

So we get upstairs. And he starts kissing me.🙅🙅🙅🙅🙅 its soooo bad. To much tongue and spit and he starts nibbling on my neck and its so gross and he licks my ear? And I’m just like ugggh this sucks…..lets move on.

So im still completely not turned on, but he’s trying to get me there,which i appreciate, so he goes down on me and im all like 🙌🙌🙌 but then…when he starts….💀💀💀 it was so baddd, i told him straight up that it didnt feel good. So he whipped out his dick and i start giving him head.

At this point, seeing as how my vagina is still dryer than the sahra dessert, i decide im not gonna have sex with him, part of me wanted to kick him out entirely but since he came all the way out here i kinda figured l’d give him something.

So um giving him head and he goes, i saw you had a condom, can i put it on and we can have sex? And i said, were not having sex.

This happens multiple times.

He keeps trynna like put me in positions for him to accidently slide it in and it one point asks to put in just once, but,he didnt try anything beyond that.

(which i am grateful for)

He keept aslo sucking on my boobs to hard, fingering some imaginary place thats not the clit (and when i tried to help him actually reach the clit,he did not take the hint ) so i just gave up on me getting anything out the exchange.

Tiny tid bit but he asked me to finger ass, which i have no idea how to do, so i said no.

And then by the end, after him putting me in all these weird dick sucking positions, he finally came on my face, and then left. And then i stayed up another 2 hours trying to decipher how i felt about it (cause tbh it didnt feel real) then decided im happy for the experience, even though it wasnt a good one (and happy he didnt kill and or rape me)Then i went to sleep

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YouTuber Confessional - Jack Maynard Imagine

A/N- hey love, can I pretty please have an imagine where you’re joe’s sister and you do a video for his channel like the youtuber confessional one he did with zoe, and he gets you to admit that you have feelings for jack. I hope you’re not overloaded with requests, but if you are, please take your time to write mine, theres no rush! x

Actually enjoyed writing this one! Enjoy :)

Joe called me last night saying he wanted to start a new YouTube video series and he wanted me to be in the first episode. I did question what i would be doing but he said all to be revealed. Being Joe’s sister i for sure knew this was going to be one of those weird but wonderful videos. 

Joe had been setting up in the bedroom for the past 20 minutes making sure everything was out correct and in position. I wasn’t allowed to see what was happening because apparently it would wreck the surprise. Touching up my make-up and finding a decent t-shirt to wear i waited for Joe to give me the all clear. When this happened i walked into the bedroom to see Joe sitting on a chair wearing a reverend/pastor costume. I sat down in the spare seat awaiting to hear what this was all about. 

“What the hell Joe?” I started to laugh, there was no way i was going to take this seriously. 

“Shhhh im going to start my video now” Joe said. I bit down on my lip trying to contain my laughter. 

“So today i thought i’d start a new series on my youtube channel and its called, i dont know what its called” So starting a new series and he doesnt even have a name for it yet, good one Joe!

“Call it youtube confessional” I suggested. 

“Youtuber confessional or the youtuber confessional?”

“The youtube confessional” Finally agreeing on what to call it, the video continued. 

“You look like you have a lot of confessionals stored in that pea shaped head” 

“I do” I nodded. 

“Now Y/N im giving you the opportunity to confess your sins” I nodded once again while pulling faces causing Joe to look down and laugh. 

“Stop it please im trying to be serious there” 

“Sorry” I looked down trying to look sad but failing. 

“Lets begin! What is your worst habit?” Joe asked first. 

“Oh god, I dont know. Erm, probably biting my nails” I openly admitted.

“Thats disgusting, what do you do with the nail you bit off?” Joe asked with a strange facial expression.

“I either spit them out or swallow them”

“What kind of human are you” We both laughed. 

“How much do you get paid?”

“Well that’s personal!, it varies every month. But i tell you this, the media have never got it right” I truthfully said. I don’t like when the media get involved making up stories just because they don’t have anything good to cover.

“Are you a millionaire?” 

“Joe! You tell me, am i?” 

“You probably have more than me” This was probably true, I was known as the saver in the family. 

“When was the last time you flew economy?” 

“Like 2 weeks ago when i came back from Italy” 

“I forgot you went there did you enjoy it?”

“I did thank you”

“Do you scrunch or fold toilet paper when you wipe your arse?” Where the hell do these questions come from.

“I fold unless im drunk then i scrunch so i can hurry off the toilet” Joe let out a little chuckle knowing what i was like when drunk. 

“Worst habit on social media” 

“Using the emojis too often or when they arent needed” 

“You should use Joemoji” Joe said winking at the camera. “Self branding there”

“Have you ever slept with a youtuber?”

“No” 

“Are you sure?” Joe re-questioned

“Of course”

“Do you dislike any of your brothers friends?” I let out a chuckle as Joe started referring to himself in third person. 

“No i like them all”

“Which one do you like the most?” 

“I like them all equally” I started to get a little defensive. Obviously there was one i liked more but Joe shouldn’t know who it is. I’ve never dropped hints, i’ve never purely shown it. 

“Come on tell me, i know your hiding something” This was the worst part about it. With me and Joe being so close we knew each other inside out. I knew when he was hiding something or when he wasn’t his self and it seems he was the same way with me.

“Y/N this is called YouTube confessional, you’re meant to tell the truth” Joe smirked. 

“I am telling the truth” Well i wasn’t.

“Well i know it’s not Oli as you see him as a brother” 

“Correct”

“It’s not Josh or Mikey because you’ve friendzoned them a few times in conversations plus they wouldn’t try it on with you”

“Correct”

“It’s either Caspar Jack or Conor” Joe started to put his thinking hat on staring at me the whole time. Almost like he was trying to read my mind.

“It’s not Conor” 

“Right” I was so scared for him to figure out this secret of mine. I mean crushing on one of this friends is a bit weird right? But I did get on with them all, they were in my age range to which is a bonus. I blame Joe for having genuine good friends. 

“It’s Jack, you like Jack” He proudly smiled knowing he cracked it as i remained silent. How did he conclude to that. It’s quite scary actually. All i could think of was the heat rising to my cheeks. 

“Y/N you like Jack!” Joe kept shouting clapping his hands. 

“Ok ok calm down” 

“How long? How long have you liked him?” Ugh I hated talking about my feelings especially when it happens to be about one of my brothers best mate. 

“A few months now” I mumbled not exactly wanting to get into it. 

“I knew it! Every time i see you two together the looks you give each other is different. I’ve never seen you like it before and i’ve definitely not seen Jack like it before and I know what Jack is like” The heat reaching to my cheeks was for sure making them turn bright red. The lights in the room didn’t help either. It was like interrogation.  

I tried not to like Jack but he was just different, i knew his reputation but i didn’t see that. It’s like he changed. From the day Joe introduced me to him i got butterflies. I’m not a nervous person when it comes to meeting new people but meeting Jack. He was the first. The flirting between us happened every now and again but I didn’t actually realise it happened at times, it just came naturally. He made me happy. He made me smile. When looking across a room I would always see the blue eyes looking in my direction, the small compliments he would give me when no one else was around or listening, the brushing against each other when walking back one another. But i didn’t want to say anything in case it did something to Joe and Jacks friendship. Just being a good sister. 

“Why didn’t you say something?” Joe asked.

“Because i’m your little sister, i thought you may have thought it’s strange for me to be liking one of your friends. When a boy tries to flirt or make a move you’ve given them the death stare. Don’t say you dont or haven’t because you have”

“But have you noticed i never stopped Jack?” That was something to think about. “I know Jack has liked you for a while now, he confined in me. He also felt bad but i said it was ok as i saw the change in him” 

“Why didnt you tell me!!”

“Because i wasn’t sure if you liked him, i wanted to wait to see if i could get it out of you and now i have!” 

“You’re so sly” I folded my arms and left back in the chair letting out a small laugh. 

“You love me. Oh he’s coming around here later i invited him”

“Joe! You don’t even live here and you’re invited people around” 

“You’ll thank me later”

“Is the camera still filming?” We both looked towards it and laughed.

“For god sake i’m going to have so much editing to do” 

MBTI types as Girl Power Songs

ESTP: Trouble - Neon Jungle

I don’t look for trouble,
But trouble looks for me.
And it’s been waiting around corners,
Since I was seventeen.
They say “Here comes a hurricane,
Trouble is her middle name!”

ESFP: Worth it - Fifth Harmony

Show me what you got
‘Cause I don’t wanna waste my time
See me in the spotlight
“Ooh I love your style”
Show me what you got now
Come and make it worth my while

ESFJ: Young and Beautiful - Lana del Rey

Dear lord, when I get to heaven
Please let me bring my man
Oh that grace, oh that body
Oh that face makes me wanna party
He’s my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds
Will you still love me
When I’m no longer young and beautiful?

ESTJ: Roar - Katy Perry

You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up 
Get ready 'cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire

ISTP: I love me - Hailee Steinfeld

Feeling good on my own without you
Got me speaking in tongues
The beautiful, it comes without you, yeah
I’m gonna put my body first
And love me so hard 'til it hurts
I love me, gonna love myself. No, I don’t need anybody else

ISFP: I love it - Icona Pop

You’re on a different road, I’m in the Milky Way
You want me down on earth, but I am up in space
You’re so damn hard to please, we gotta kill this switch
You’re from the 70’s, but I’m a 90’s bitch
I don’t care, I love it!

ISFJ: Only girl - Rihanna

I want you to love me, like I’m a hot pie
Keep thinkin’ of me, doin’ what you like
So boy forget about the world cause it’s gon’ be me and you tonight
I wanna make you beg for it, then Imma make you swallow your pride
Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart 

ISTJ: Try - Pink

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy?
Even when it’s not right
But just because it burns
Doesn’t mean you’re gonna die
You’ve gotta get up and try, and try, and try

ENTP: Salute - Little Mix

Ladies all across the world
Listen up, we’re looking for recruits
If you’re with me, let me see your hands
Stand up and salute
Get your killer heels, sneakers, pumps or lace up your boots
Representing all the women, salute, salute!

ENTJ: New Americana - Halsey

Viral mess, turned dreams into an empire.
Self-made success now she rolls with Rockefellers.
Survival of the richest, the city’s ours until the fall.
They’re Monaco and Hamptons bound, but we don’t feel like outsiders at all.
We are the new Americana

ENFP: Wannabe - Spice Girls

If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends 
Make it last forever friendship never ends,
If you wanna be my lover, you have got to give,
Taking is too easy, but that’s the way it is.
I won’t be hasty, I’ll give you a try
If you really bug me then I’ll say goodbye.  

ENFJ: Oath - Cher Lloyd

Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
I know I drive you crazy, hmm, sometimes
I know I call you lazy, and that’s most times
But you complete me, and that’s no lie

INTP: Heart Attack - Demi Lovato

You make me glow, but I cover up, won’t let it show,
So I’m puttin’ my defenses up
'Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I’d have a heart attack

INTJ: The Wire - Haim

You know I’m bad at communication, it’s the hardest thing for me to do
And it’s said, it’s the most important part that relationships will go through
And I’d give it all away just so I could say that
I know I know I know I know that you’re gonna be OK anyway
Always keep your heart locked tight, don’t let your mind retire
But I just couldn’t take it, I tried hard not to fake it

INFP: Untouched -The Veronicas

Don’t even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you’re the only thing that’s making any sense to me
And I don’t give a damn what they say, what they think think
Cause you’re the only one who’s on my mind
I’ll never ever let you leave me
I’ll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye 

INFJ: Team - Lorde

Living in ruins of a palace within my dreams
And you know, we’re on each other’s team
I’m kind of over getting told to throw my hands up in the air, so there
So all the cups got broke shards beneath our feet but it wasn’t my fault
And everyone’s competing for a love they won’t receive
'Cause what this palace wants is release

bluemoonhound  asked:

ok so i did look it up but whats up with erika mo/en? like i know who she is bc i did look it up but why is she bad i guess

she has a SUPER obvious fetish for trans people but tries to frame it as being ~sex positive~ or whatever

like there’s a guest comic on her site that has nothing to do with sex education whatsoever it’s just straight up futa porn.

Not to mention this old comic, which she’s apologized for but her behavior hasn’t really changed at all:

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sorry for being bad ❤️

Do you ever look at romantic relationships from the outside and think that it looks nice… and kinda wonder if maybe you do want it after all? But you know there’s no one you feel that way about and there never has been, even though you tried so many times to convince yourself you did.

And some part of you thinks maybe it really IS that you haven’t met the right person yet, even though deep down you know it that’s not the case.

Just me? Ok

anonymous asked:

hhhh seeing all the hate on the ship rhack makes me feel rly bad cuz like...ik what he did to me ok??? i know he was shitty and abusive and screwed me over and tried to MURDER me more than once. i dont need all the guilt tripping ok. i get it. i know he sucked. but for once its nice to consider that MAYBE somewhere, soemtime, he didnt suck. that he would be nice to me. he was my hero for YEARS. i worshipped him. we all did. and to have him just destroy you like that does things ok?? im sorry.

A Mistaken Identity

A/N: This little piece is for @sdavid09 TaleTeller’s Winter Writing Day’s. I promise, I didn’t kill anyone off in this one. This fic is all fluff. I wrote this one a little differently. It’s basically the reader talking to her BFF and explaining how her and Sam met. Oh, and for all you Sam girls out there, this is my first Sam x Reader! (I totally feel like I have betrayed my Dean!) Anyways, hope I did it ok. Leave me some feedback if you want.

PAIRING: Sam x Reader

PROMPTS: Mistaken Identity AU, ‘Whatever You Do’ by Ivy Quainoo

WARNINGS: none.. all fluff

WORD COUNT: 2250

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Tags at the end. If you wanna be added or removed, just let me know! Enjoy and happy reading!!!!

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hey sorry i keep asking u poor guys questions but i legit need some help figuring out what to do,, so basically last weekend i got mad at my fp mostly abt things that aren’t his fault and then i got mad at myself for being mad at him and that just snowballed into rly bad self hatred and depression and i still feel bad?? i’m still upset????? even tho i probably shouldn’t be???????? and i tried kinda lowkey encouraging him to ask me what was happening and why i was upset but he just kept saying “ok u can talk to me about it if u want to” like YEA i DO i just don’t want to/can’t bring it up Please ask me but he Never Did,,, so i’m still upset and not over it and i’m p sure i’ll just keep feeling bad until we talk about it but i don’t know how to bring it up and i don’t want him to feel like i’m yelling at him or manipulating him into feeling bad for me or smth but idk how to do that without feeling stupid and petty for not being over it or feeling like i’m a jerk for bringing it up……..Please Help

But can we talk about this moment for a second. Because I know there were much more interesting scenes (just because this film was basically gold encrusted gold) but I just wanted to bring up how familiar this scene is. The fact that Yondu continues to demand thanks for something that should have been a non-issue in the first place, that he thinks the kindness he showed Peter is a huge deal because, as the audience sees, it’s not the norm for him. But more than that, when Peter finally calls his bullshit and tells Yondu how sick he is of hearing about how he should be grateful, and how he shouldn’t have to thank someone for not killing him, how it should be a given. It just felt so familiar, and then I realized why. The exchange just really reminded me of my relationship with my parents. How I could never do right by them, but when I tried to bring up anything about how they were wrong, it was all, “You’re ungrateful!” and “You think I’m bad? I’m definitely not as bad as I could be!” and “Toughen up!” And then I’d do what Peter did in the movie, and manipulate them into being ok with me again.

I know there was a lot more at stake during this scene, and the parent/child dynamic was a relatively small part of it, but it struck a chord with me. 

The Fight (Joe Sugg Imagine- Requested)

‘Uh oh’ you mumbled just loud enough for Joe to hear you.

‘What’s wrong?’ He asked peering over your shoulder so that he could see what you were looking at.

You were watching Alfie’s new vlog, it was from a couple of days ago when him and Zoe had come to London to visit everyone. You’d all gone out for lunch with Jim, Tanya, Marcus and Niomi and then continued to hit the shops before going back to Jim and Tanya’s for the evening.

You’d spotted yourself and Joe in the background of Alfie’s video having an argument.

‘Look’ you said to Joe as you turned the volume up and pointed to the two of you in the background.

You could just about hear what you were arguing about over Alfie’s vlog. The more you watched the more you began to wonder how Alfie hadn’t noticed it and you questioned why he hadn’t erased the footage.

'I can’t deal with this anymore!’ You heard yourself say whilst putting your head in your hands 'you always do this!’

'Don’t be stupid Y/N you know I can’t help it if I have to work!’ you could remember the argument vividly and although you and Joe had put it behind you it was now on YouTube for the world to see.

You’d been arguing about the fact that Joe had a meeting the next day and he’d forgotten about it, the two of you had made plans to spend the day together and he was bailing on you for the third time that week.

'It’s not you working that’s upsetting me Joe it’s the fact you always forget and then bail on me at the last minute. I can’t deal with it anymore, I don’t want a boyfriend that’s going to flake on me every other day, I’m sorry’ you told him as you disappeared from Alfie’s shot.

You’d gone to say goodbye to everyone as you didn’t want to stick around after the argument but Alfie’s vlog didn’t show the aftermath. You scrolled down to the comments looking at the thousands of people that were shocked by the argument.

'Joe and Y/N broke up!’

'As if Y/N ended it, they were perfect together!’

'Are they really over?’

'I can’t believe they’ve broken up, poor Joe and Y/N’

'Alfie’s such an idiot’ Joe mumbled pulling out his phone. 'And now Twitter is going mental about it’

'What are we going to do?’ You asked Joe biting your lip, you didn’t want everyone to hate you for the argument and you definitely didn’t want people to think you’d broken up over it.

'I have an idea’ Joe said taking your hand and leading you downstairs, he started to set up his filming equipment and you looked at him puzzled.

'Sit’ Joe told you nodding to the end of the bed as he pressed record.

'So recently Mr Alfie Deyes posted a certain vlog featuring a lovers tiff between me and my girlfriend Y/N. Don’t worry we are still together but I thought it would be a great idea to get a little bit of revenge, what do you say Y/N’

'Um ok’ you looked at him with a confused expression.

Joe pulled out his phone and rang Alfie putting the phone onto loudspeaker.

'Hey Joe what’s up’ Alfie greeted clearly oblivious to what he’d done with his video.

'How could you do that to me?’ Joe asked pretending to cry.

'Do what?’ Alfie asked 'what’s wrong?’

'That vlog you’ve just posted, did you not realise it had me and Y/N arguing in the background?’

'What? No, I’m sorry man I didn’t realise’ Alfie sounded worried.

'We had another argument about it, she finished with me’ Joe sniffed down the phone as if he was hysterically crying.

'What? Joe I’m sorry but Y/N’s a nice girl I’m sure she didn’t mean it, she wouldn’t end it over something like that would she?’

'She packed her stuff’ Joe sniffled and you tried to hold in your laughter.

'I don’t know what to say… I’m so sorry’ Alfie sounded genuinely concerned. You started to feel bad about the prank and nudged Joe slightly letting him know to wrap it up.

'It’s ok mate I’m just pranking you she’s sat with me right now’ Joe told him laughing.

'You’re an idiot! I actually felt really bad!’ Alfie complained.

'Yeah but seriously you did film our argument, the amount of tweets we both got was insane, have you not read the comments?’

'No I haven’t looked yet, sorry man I didn’t realise. I’m glad it didn’t break you two up though I was so worried!’

'Nah it’s fine she still loves me I think’ Joe said turning to you and you placed a light kiss on his cheek.

Joe ended the call and you leant into him.

'I’ll always love you Joe no matter how many times you annoy me’ You told him leaning in to kiss him.

'I’m sorry I forget about our plans sometimes but you know I’ll always make time for you when I can… Infact I think I can make time for you right now’ he winked pushing you back onto the bed playfully.

'I think you may have to edit this bit out’ you told him pointing at the camera, Joe laughed at your comment before leaning in to kiss you again.

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Request: Supernatural & Gossip Girl fanfic: where Reader is 21, Dean is 24 and they’ve been dating for 3 years but known each other for 7 years. Dean and reader are more inlove (more than Lisa and Dean). Blair&Sam are readers bestie. Her sister Madison is 15. Reader is rich as well and she’s been a hunter for 2 years. Nate and Reader were together for 1 year when they were 16 and a half. Nate one day kisses her and Sam sees & tells Dean. Dean gets protective. Lots of fluff, romantic smut, protective!dean

Word Count: 3,292 (sorrrrrryyyyy)

Warnings: Angst, some smut

A/N: Sorry if this was bad, I tried my best and I don’t watch Gossip Girl so I didn’t know who some of these people were or how their personality’s are or anything lol but I hope you like it, and I hope I did okay. I changed the reader being a hunter for 2 years to being a hunter since her and Dean met, hope thats okay.

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“Madison, Blair’s coming over to visit Sam, Dean, You and I so get ready.” You said, standing in her doorway. “Ok, sounds good I’ll meet you guys downstairs.” she smiled, and then you left. Blair has been your best friend for 4 years now, Sam and her are the reason how you and Dean got together. You two were to scared to tell each other your feelings, but not scared enough to hide them from the people you trusted.  Dean told Sam, Sam told Blair, Blair told you and that’s how it basically went around.

You and Dean have been together for 3 years now, but have been best friends for 7. You’ll never forget the day you met, he basically saved your life on a vampire hunt one night and you two just started from there. Sam was your best friend so was Blair. Madison was your little sister and Dean was the best damn boyfriend you’ve ever had, life is great not including you kill peoples nightmares for a living.

“Sam, Dean.. Blair’s coming over for a little while to visit hope it’s ok because she’s already on her way.” you chuckled, sitting on Deans lap and smiling at Sam. “Sounds good to me baby.” Dean smiled against your cheek, kissing it after making Sam make fake gagging noises in the back.

~

The doorbell goes off and you jump out of your seat, running to let her in. You opened the door and saw her with a worried, apologetic look on her face. “Blair, what’s wrong?” you asked nervously. “Uh.. I kind of brought someone with me.” before you could ask who you saw a head pop from the corner, Nate. The last person you’d ever want to see, your ex who was still madly in love with you.

“Nate? Seriously! Dean’s right in there!” you yell quietly, making sure the boys didn’t hear but of course Dean came behind you right after, making you jump. “Hey Blair, who’s this?” Dean asks, taking notice to Nate quickly. “Uh Dean, this is Nate.” You say awkwardly, looking at him with worry. “Yeah, her ex to be exact.” Nate said rudely with a mean smirk on his face, making Dean dislike him already.

“Well Nate you should know, I’m Dean..better known as Y/N’s boyfriend, and if you try ANYTHING-” Blair cut him off. “You two play nice ok, he just wanted to tag along he isn’t going to steal your lady, Dean.” Dean gave them both a glare, letting them know he meant business then decided to let them in.

“Hey Sam! This is Nate, my friend.” Blair smiled happily at Sam, giving him a hug after. “Yeah, Y/N’s ex also.” Dean said under his breath, looking at him with a “you know what to do if something happens” look. Sam nodded at Dean and turned his head to look at Nate, shaking his hand.

“So what’s the plan, what should we do?” Madison asked, looking at everyone in the room hopping for an answer. “We could go play golf?” Sam suggested, knowing they couldn’t go to a bar because of Madison’s age. “What are you, 40?” Dean joked, taking a sip of his beer. “Hey, you’re closer to it than I am.” Sam laughed, making everyone else laugh too while Dean growled, knowing how true he was.

“Yeah, let’s play golf it’d be a lot of fun.” You added in, everyone nodding in agreement while Dean sat with his beer in his hands. “I don’t know..isn’t that kind of boring?” Dean asked. You walked over to him and sat on his lap, pressing your cheek against his head and wrapping your arms around his neck, making him smile and hug you tight around your waist. “Ohh pleeaasseee babe, it’ll be fun don’t worry.” you begged, making him smile because he always found it adorable when you begged. “Alright, let’s go.”

~

You all finally arrived to the golf course. You rode with Sam and Dean while Madison rode with Blair and Nate. “Hi, 6 people please.” Sam said politely to the man at the stand. He passed you 6 golf balls all different colors, and six clubs to go with it.

It was all going well and fun, Dean was still iffy with Nate but you didn’t blame him, he kept trying to talk to you and was always standing a little to close, making Dean step in every time. “Hey Y/N, remember that one time we went golfing and I wrote on your golf ball before you got it "Prom?” and everyone cheered for us?“ he smiled at the memory while you cringed, Dean doing the same.

"Yes, they had shitty food.” you snorted, trying to drop the subject before a fight started. “ah yeah, but you made it ok.” he winked, Dean stepped forward but you put your hand on his chest, trying to back him away. “Behave, you’ll get your reward tonight.” you whispered in his ear, kissing it softly after making him moan under his breath Sam interrupting after by calling Dean’s name for his turn.

Next up was you, you stood behind the ball and swung, missing it by a little bit. Nate came up behind you and place his fingers inbetween yours, making you give him an evil “back off” glare. You could basically hear Dean’s head boil with anger. “Just a friend helping a friend, right?” he whispered in your ear. “Fuck off Nate, we are not friends.” you said with a low tone, pulling away from his touch and hitting the ball harder than you should’ve out of anger. “Hey kid, only my hands are gonna be holding hers so back off.” Dean warned, and he was gone.

~

You all finally arrived back home, Madison went in her room like normal teenagers do while Blair, Nate, You, Dean and Sam all stayed in the living room carrying on having a good time, drinking a few beers and just having fun until someone had to ruin it.

You went outside to get some air, hearing footsteps come from the other side, making you panic. You grabbed your knife that you always keep in your pocket and had it ready to stab until you saw Nate coming from the corner, holding his hands up. “It’s just me kitten, relax.” he said quietly. “Don’t call me that.” “S-sorry, habit.” you laughed over how stupid of an excuse that was. “Habit?! We’ve been broken up for 6 years, get over it!” you yelled, taking him to surprise. It was quiet for awhile and all you could hear was the wind, and the leaves running against the ground until he spoke up.

“Have you ever wondered how I was, where I’ve been?” he asked with a sad tone. “Yeah for the first few months, than I grew a pair, realized you were an ass for leaving me and got over it-” he cut you off. “I left cause I was scared!” “You left me alone on a vampire hunt! and who saved me?! Dean! Twice he saved me on a vampire hunt and you didn’t do shit!” you yelled louder than expected, hopping nobody inside heard you. “I. Couldn’t. Watch. You. Get. KILLED!” he yelled, tears starting to stream down his cheeks. “And you think  Dean could?! Still!? I bet he couldn’t, and damn I can’t see him get killed either but that doesn’t mean we’re going to leave..cause… cause we’re "scared”“ he didn’t answer and instead took in every word you said, realizing how wrong he was for leaving.

"I’m sorry.” he sighed, looking at you with sadness. “I don’t believe you really are.” you shook your head, laughing in disbelief. “Fine, then I’ll show it.” before you could even ask what he meant he placed his palms over your cheeks and kissed you, hard. You pushed him away and wiped your mouth with your arm. “You idiot! I love Dean!” you yelled, sadly Sam didn’t catch that part and only catch the part where he kissed you, and you didn’t pull away in time before he ran in, not believing what he saw.

~

It was a few days after, Blair and Nate haven’t been over since that one night. You were at the store with Madison, leaving Sam and Dean alone spending quality brother time together without worrying about hunts since they just went on one yesterday. “Man, I gotta talk to you I can’t keep hiding this.” Sam sighed, looking at Dean with sadness and worry. He’s been replaying that night in his head over and over,  wondering if he should tell his brother who was madly in love with you more than any girl he’s been with, or brush it off and think you didn’t want it. But he had to tell him, it was eating him alive not to.

“Aw man don’t tell me you got a crush on Blair, she’s like a sister man-” Sam cut him off. “No-no, it’s something else..” he picked at his fingers nervously  and thought of the words to say, how can someone tell somebody this? “I’m not really sure who did who…but…” “spit it out Sam.” Dean said, clenching his jaw and staring deeply at Sam, terrified for what he was about to say.

“I saw Y/N and Nate outside, kissing on Sunday.” he sighed, feeling great to finally let it out but terrified for Dean’s reaction. Dean didn’t take his eyes off Sam, trying to see if he was pranking him or not but sadly, he knew it was true. But he also knew you didn’t do it, you couldn’t of. He knew you loved him just as much as he loved you, but he would always love you more. It was that kid, Nate who did it, he knew it.

“I’m going to kill that kid. I’m going to rip him apart!” Dean yelled with anger, getting up and pacing around the room, thinking of ways to destroy him, ways to make him stay away from you and let him know she’s his and only his.  "Now Dean, he’s just a kid-“ Dean cut him off "He’s the same age as me! Quit trying to take his side!” he yelled, shutting Sam up from saying anything else.

It’s been about 10 minutes since Sam told him about what happened. 10 awkward and long minutes without a word after until Dean spoke up again. “How’d you even mange to see?! Like, where was I?! Where were they!” he yelled running his hand through his hair and kicking stuff over. “Uh- they were arguing outside, I heard and went to go make sure everything was ok and then..yeah.” he sighed, looking down at his lap with his hands folded together in between.

“Thank god it was you there and not me cause if It was me? I would’ve killed him right there.” A voice caught both of their attentions and taking them to surprise, even more that it was your voice. “Who?” you asked, looking at Dean with worry. Did he know about the kiss? Did he think it was your fault?

“We’ll talk about it later tonight, I need to take a walk.” Dean sighed, running past you after nearly bumping into you. You looked at Sam with worry, he looked back at you with the same look and just walked past you also, leaving you to yourself.

~

It was 12 AM, everyone was asleep but You and Dean. He has barely said a word to you all day and you were just thankful it was finally time to talk, to figure out what was wrong even though you already had an idea. You sat on the end of your guys bed that you two shared and placed your elbows on your lap, burying your face in your hands after and taking a deep, long breath and sigh just hopping the talk goes well and things get better.

“We need to talk.” Dean said with a low tone, coming in and closing the door after. “I know we do, sit.” “I’d rather stand, you know how I pace.” he sighed, walking around the room, cracking his knuckles left and right. “Sammy told me something…that he saw-” you cut him off “Nate and I kissing, I know.” you sighed, shaking your head and trying to hold the tears back. You couldn’t even look into his eyes knowing they’d just show hurt and anger, cause of you.

“So you admit to it?” “Would you rather me lie and say we didn’t?” you snapped, taking him to surprise. He didn’t answer and just took everything in. “He did it though, we were arguing and I was telling him how stupid-how terrible he was for breaking my heart and almost getting me killed, he apologized, I didn’t believe him and he kissed me to "prove it”. I pushed him away I guess before Sam saw, and I told him he was an idiot because I. Love. You, Dean.“ you choked on your tears on the last few words, wondering if that was the last time you’d be able to say that.

He must’ve noticed your tears running down your face before you did. He got on his knees, looked into your eyes and wiped your tears away with his thumb, kissing the tear stains after making you smile for a split second. "I believe you honey, I always did. I just wanted to make sure.” he said softly, running his hand through your hair and giving you a soft smile, making you smile too. “How’d you know?” “Because I know you love me, just as much as I love you and I know you would believe me too.” you both smiled at each other and hugged, tightly. You buried your face in his neck and he held on tight, kissing your head.

“But babe, there’s one thing.” “what is it?” you asked, starting to get nervous again. “I’m going to remind you who REALLY, loves you. Who’s only going to be able to touch you, and who’s only going to be the one making you scream in pleasure.” he growled, slowly pushing you on the bed after. You laid on the bed, bringing him with you and kissing each other roughly. You ran your fingers in his hair and tugged, making him moan against your lips and just grip onto you more.

“I’m the only one who gets to grab this ass” he growled, grabbing your ass after, making you moan. “And I’m the only one who’s going to leave these trail marks down your body” he said, kissing, sucking, and biting on your neck and down your chest after, making you tug on his hair and moan more. He stuck his hand under your shirt and groped you, making you bite your lip from trying not to yell so Madison or Sam wouldn’t hear. He pulled off your shirt, and pulled off your pants with them, you doing the same for him. He looked at your body for a few seconds and smiled to himself.“You really have no clue how much I love you.” he whispered, kissing your stomach softly. You ran your fingers through his hair, feeling him smile against your stomach. god this man was amazing you didn’t know how you got so lucky.

“Are you ever going to see Nate again?” He growled into your thighs, nibbling on them. “N-no! Dean, please!” you begged. “You promise?” he asked, running his hand over the front. “Yes! F-fuck!” and that’s all it took, all he wanted was for you to beg and he got it, he won.

~

The day after You and Dean went to the bar for some drinks while Sam and Madison stayed at home, Sam helped her with homework because he was the smarts of the group, plus you and Dean needed some alone dates anyways that don’t involve killing monsters.

You two walked in, his hand on your butt and never leaving it for a second, letting everyone in the bar know your his, and that he don’t play around. It was all going well, you two shared lots of laughs, memories, and smiles until you went outside to leave, and someone stopped you..Nate.

“Heyyy! Look who it is! Y/N…and…that guy!” he was obviously drunk off his ass, but Dean didn’t care. He wasn’t going to let him get away this time, and you weren’t going to stop him. “Fuck off” Dean warned him, pushing him away with his left hand leaving him wobbly, but he wasn’t going down with a fight and that was a challenge Dean was willing to take.

“Aw what’s the matter Man, you mad cause I got some lip from your girl that night? To bad I didn’t get any hea-” he was cut off by Dean’s fist punching into his face, knocking him on the floor. “Aww, she didn’t tell you? She used to give it to me alll-” he cut him off again, kicking him in the ribs and bending down to his level. He picked him up by the collar of his shirt and punched him until his fists were covered in his blood, and his face was so swollen he couldn’t see a damn thing and all you could hear was mumbles.

“Dean, that’s enough!” you yelled, trying to pull him off but he moved away. He picked him up by the collar of his shirt and threw him against the wall, making him yelp in pain. “You go near my girl again you dick and I won’t stop next time do you hear me?!” “Yes-” he mumbled out, spitting out blood after. Dean kicked him in the shin, making him scream in pain. “What was that? Sorry bad ear!” “Yes!” he yelled, and Dean dropped him to the ground. He moaned in pain and laid there, taking in every last view of you knowing it was the last time he’d ever see you, for sure.

“Just cause you were to blind to see you should’ve treated her right, doesn’t mean I am. I love this girl more than life itself and I’ll be damned if I’m going to lose her to a bitch. Your luck.” and you two were gone.

You climbed into the impala, you were speechless. You never saw Dean act like that before, especially over you. “Sorry for going insane over there it’s just, I love you. So damn much, and I can’t lose you. There ain’t no me if there ain’t no you, Y/N. I’m sorry.” he sighed, feeling a tear slip down his cheek. “Kiss me you big dork.” you smiled, making him smile too realizing you weren’t mad. He pulled you in and kissed you deeply, like nothing else mattered but you…and him.

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anonymous asked:

I can't believe I'm admitting this but I actually had a dream with Ashroad in it, he was trying to assassinate me but he was doing a very bad job of it. He was trying to choke me with a belt and all he was doing was getting it wrapped around his hands. I don't know what I did to earn the displeasure of Imperial Intelligence but please, Ashroad, brush up on your strangulation techniques, you're embarrassing yourself

lmao
thank you for sharing anon