i did a better thing

anonymous asked:

I love Mitsun's latest ES (ok tbh I love anything with Mitsun in it) but I really like how MC gives Mitsun space but he trusts MC enough to let her into his world!

I’ll be honest, I actually quite liked it, but one thing that rubbed me the wrong way was like… while MC gives him space in that ES, she ends up jumping to a lot of conclusions and assuming quite a bit about Mitsunari’s problems without being upfront about it? In Mitsunari’s MS, MC is always making it very clear to Mitsunari that she is there to be a support for him, but she never assumes anything about his life with as little information as she initially has. MC is just straight up and lets him take his time, while also never trying to to think up random ideas as to what could be the problem–she waits for him and keeps herself open, and Mitsunari does because in the MS, he trusts her. 

In this ES, MC keeps prying without actually thinking about the issue at hand–she doesn’t question why he lashes out so violently about it or why he refuses to talk about it. Each time the issue is brought up, he shuts it down, and at some point MC just assumes he’s lost someone like she has. I was a little bothered by the fact that it all just kind of worked out because MC happened to think the letter was important and then Mitsunari happened to come back for it–and MC still never learned anything new. 

But! I will say that most of MC’s stories with Mitsunari really show her in what I think are some of her best moments, because she’s always patient as she understands that Mitsunari finds it very, very difficult to talk about himself and express his feelings–and it works in Mitsunari’s case too because he is aware that he shouldn’t be lashing out at her when he’s frustrated with how he expresses himself clumsily, and learns to start apologizing for it as he figures out how to communicate more properly with her. It’s probably why I think they’re the best pair in the game! But I think this ES kind of fell a little short with how MC’s thought process went, so I do have to say that I was a little disappointed in that regard :(

Stop it.

I’ve been getting a lot of asks from people about Jazzy aka Elder-Jeremiah and I acknowledge them. I will not post them. They are a breach of her privacy and very childish to send me these things. Stop sending me things that may upset her. Stop it. I will not apologize for calling specific people out because you may deserve it at this point- you call yourselves her friends and yet you betray her trust like this? She obviously told you things she trusts you to keep a secret- and you go and share it? Disgusting. My tone implies I am very upset- that is not the case. I am mildly disappointed at best; but either way- Do not betray your friends trust. She trusted you and she may not be upset- but you still betrayed that trust. I will not put up with it. Approximately 430 people follow this blog and by sending that to me in a ask- That is asking me to either share it or delete it. I will delete it. Congratulations, You just tried to share a friends secret to four hundred people.

things i did that forced me to be a better artist:

  • used a reference for everything
  • thinner line art (you think thats thin? go thinner….)
  • sketch, then do a cleaner sketch, THEN start finalizing
  • THUMBNAILS
  • color research, picking a set palette or light/dark for each work
  • you like that pose? redo it one more time
  • USE A DAMN REFERENCE
  • do not rely on stylization as an excuse for anatomy
  • draw the goddamn background you coward
  • just draw the hand- a bad hand is better than a hidden hand
  • the rule of thirds WORKS
  • take a considerable break between sketch and lines/paint
  • know that art takes longer as you get better at it
  • draw the seams on clothes
  • stop aiming for accuracy and focus on fluidity and motion, accuracy will come with practice of those two concepts
  • just…do the chiaroscuro. just DO IT. no excuses it always works
  • stop making excuses, make yourself an art schedule/set weekly(or daily) art goals and just DO IT.

Originally posted by dadgan

Rick Riordan won a Stonewall award today

for his second Magnus Chase book, due to the inclusion of the character Alex Fierro who is gender fluid. This was the speech he gave, and it really distills why I love this author and his works so much, and why I will always recommend his works to anyone and everyone.

“Thank you for inviting me here today. As I told the Stonewall Award Committee, this is an honor both humbling and unexpected.

So, what is an old cis straight white male doing up here? Where did I get the nerve to write Alex Fierro, a transgender, gender fluid child of Loki in The Hammer of Thor, and why should I get cookies for that?

These are all fair and valid questions, which I have been asking myself a lot.

I think, to support young LGBTQ readers, the most important thing publishing can do is to publish and promote more stories by LGBTQ authors, authentic experiences by authentic voices. We have to keep pushing for this. The Stonewall committee’s work is a critical part of that effort. I can only accept the Stonewall Award in the sense that I accept a call to action – firstly, to do more myself to read and promote books by LGBTQ authors.

But also, it’s a call to do better in my own writing. As one of my genderqueer readers told me recently, “Hey, thanks for Alex. You didn’t do a terrible job!” I thought: Yes! Not doing a terrible job was my goal!

As important as it is to offer authentic voices and empower authors and role models from within LGBTQ community, it’s is also important that LGBTQ kids see themselves reflected and valued in the larger world of mass media, including my books. I know this because my non-heteronormative readers tell me so. They actively lobby to see characters like themselves in my books. They like the universe I’ve created. They want to be part of it. They deserve that opportunity. It’s important that I, as a mainstream author, say, “I see you. You matter. Your life experience may not be like mine, but it is no less valid and no less real. I will do whatever I can to understand and accurately include you in my stories, in my world. I will not erase you.”

People all over the political spectrum often ask me, “Why can’t you just stay silent on these issues? Just don’t include LGBTQ material and everybody will be happy.” This assumes that silence is the natural neutral position. But silence is not neutral. It’s an active choice. Silence is great when you are listening. Silence is not so great when you are using it to ignore or exclude.

But that’s all macro, ‘big picture’ stuff. Yes, I think the principles are important. Yes, in the abstract, I feel an obligation to write the world as I see it: beautiful because of its variations. Where I can’t draw on personal experience, I listen, I read a lot – in particular I want to credit Beyond Magenta and Gender Outlaws for helping me understand more about the perspective of my character Alex Fierro – and I trust that much of the human experience is universal. You can’t go too far wrong if you use empathy as your lens. But the reason I wrote Alex Fierro, or Nico di Angelo, or any of my characters, is much more personal.

I was a teacher for many years, in public and private school, California and Texas. During those years, I taught all kinds of kids. I want them all to know that I see them. They matter. I write characters to honor my students, and to make up for what I wished I could have done for them in the classroom.

I think about my former student Adrian (a pseudonym), back in the 90s in San Francisco. Adrian used the pronouns he and him, so I will call him that, but I suspect Adrian might have had more freedom and more options as to how he self-identified in school were he growing up today. His peers, his teachers, his family all understood that Adrian was female, despite his birth designation. Since kindergarten, he had self-selected to be among the girls – socially, athletically, academically. He was one of our girls. And although he got support and acceptance at the school, I don’t know that I helped him as much as I could, or that I tried to understand his needs and his journey. At that time in my life, I didn’t have the experience, the vocabulary, or frankly the emotional capacity to have that conversation. When we broke into social skills groups, for instance, boys apart from girls, he came into my group with the boys, I think because he felt it was required, but I feel like I missed the opportunity to sit with him and ask him what he wanted. And to assure him it was okay, whichever choice he made. I learned more from Adrian than I taught him. Twenty years later, Alex Fierro is for Adrian.

I think about Jane (pseudonym), another one of my students who was a straight cis-female with two fantastic moms. Again, for LGBTQ families, San Francisco was a pretty good place to live in the 90s, but as we know, prejudice has no geographical border. You cannot build a wall high enough to keep it out. I know Jane got flack about her family. I did what I could to support her, but I don’t think I did enough. I remember the day Jane’s drama class was happening in my classroom. The teacher was new – our first African American male teacher, which we were all really excited about – and this was only his third week. I was sitting at my desk, grading papers, while the teacher did a free association exercise. One of his examples was ‘fruit – gay.’ I think he did it because he thought it would be funny to middle schoolers. After the class, I asked to see the teacher one on one. I asked him to be aware of what he was saying and how that might be hurtful. I know. Me, a white guy, lecturing this Black teacher about hurtful words. He got defensive and quit, because he said he could not promise to not use that language again. At the time, I felt like I needed to do something, to stand up especially for Jane and her family. But did I make things better handling it as I did? I think I missed an opportunity to open a dialogue about how different people experience hurtful labels. Emmie and Josephine and their daughter Georgina, the family I introduce in The Dark Prophecy, are for Jane.

I think about Amy, and Mark, and Nicholas … All former students who have come out as gay since I taught them in middle school. All have gone on to have successful careers and happy families. When I taught them, I knew they were different. Their struggles were greater, their perspectives more divergent than some of my other students. I tried to provide a safe space for them, to model respect, but in retrospect I don’t think I supported them as well as I could have, or reached out as much as they might have needed. I was too busy preparing lessons on Shakespeare or adjectives, and not focusing enough on my students’ emotional health. Adjectives were a lot easier for me to reconcile than feelings. Would they have felt comfortable coming out earlier than college or high school if they had found more support in middle school? Would they have wanted to? I don’t know. But I don’t think they felt it was a safe option, which leaves me thinking that I did not do enough for them at that critical middle school time. I do not want any kid to feel alone, invisible, misunderstood. Nico di Angelo is for Amy, and Mark and Nicholas.

I am trying to do more. Percy Jackson started as a way to empower kids, in particular my son, who had learning differences. As my platform grew, I felt obliged to use it to empower all kids who are struggling through middle school for whatever reason. I don’t always do enough. I don’t always get it right. Good intentions are wonderful things, but at the end of a manuscript, the text has to stand on its own. What I meant ceases to matter. Kids just see what I wrote. But I have to keep trying. My kids are counting on me.

So thank you, above all, to my former students who taught me. Alex Fierro is for you.

To you, I pledge myself to do better – to apologize when I screw up, to learn from my mistakes, to be there for LGBTQ youth and make sure they know that in my books, they are included. They matter. I am going to stop talking now, but I promise you I won’t stop listening.”

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So instead of doing anything else, I got obsessed with the Howls Moving Castle AU.  

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“A little bit of squishy never hurt nobody.” – Probably Baekhyun.

Baeksoo for @baeksupreme 

anyway. idk how to eloquently explain this but. i love the fact that gilbert is so positive about anne’s quirks. everyone’s laughing at her because of the way she reads? he enjoys it. she can read well and she’s invested. anne thinks she’s ugly and skinny? he calls her cute to all his friends. anne’s weird because she’s an orphan and nobody should interact with her? he doesn’t care where she’s from, and he doesn’t see why he can’t walk with her. anne wants to be acknowledged for her intelligence, wants to be known as smart but is never given enough credit by most people (”he’s my brightest student” “we need a guy to show her she’s not so smart”)? he tells billy that she’s smart and he’s just gonna have to deal with it. he tells her if she’s gonna beat him in class, he wants it to be fair and square. because he knows she can, and he knows she wouldn’t have it any other way. and this isn’t even said to..idk win her over with compliments or smth like that. he says it while she’s not listening, mostly to other people who make fun of her. like yeah, he’ll tease her sometimes, but he never tries to make her feel like she’s not enough. he never tries to make her feel like she doesn’t belong. he talks to her when she’s outside alone, tries to give her an apple, always interferes when billy is bullying her. like at most, he’s a cheeky little shit, but he acknowledges these things about anne and isn’t afraid to say she’s smart or cute or invested or good

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You have to be honest about how bad it feels so you can move on

Another Klance 💜

huhuhh this was originally for a request for jasper leading a battle and then it sorta just ended up being jailbreak-y lol

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Flowers of Darkness

Port Mafia + Flowers 

(scans by @dazaiscans, art by Kafka Asagiri, edit by me)

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*fart noise*