i decided to post my art on here cuz why not

on the new Iron Fist series

So after binge watching a ton of Marvel’s new Iron Fist series, I went onto tumblr, wondering what the fandom was up to now, what with all these new gifs and stuff to make. ‘Maybe I would find some fan art or something’ I thought innocently to myself,

BUT BOY WAS I WRONG

instead, I was greeted with SO MUCH DISCOURSE on how Iron Fist ‘needs a chinese-american actor’ or ‘has terrible dialogue and is slow’.

the best part is when I found out that some of y’all are trying to get this show boycotted like ‘????’

Now as a Chinese-speaking Asian female, living in Asia, with an Asian background and a good know-how of Chinese history, as well as a decent knowledge of comic books, (although I confess I got into the animated series first) I’m here to end the discussion before y’all get your full rage on and start fighting fans of the show like it’s Lord of the Flies up in here

So keep reading if you want to be educated or if you just want to fight me before you know what you’re even talking about

“THE SHOW INSULTS CHINESE CULTURE”

Uhhhh…no? I’ve seen a few episodes and I mean so far there isn’t really anything that screams ‘insult’ or even offensive in the slightest. Besides maybe the fact that they take the beliefs and twist them a little bit but honestly even that ain’t that bad as to what I’ve seen elsewhere.

I’ve read the boycott post and let me say that yea, they dressed him with an eye for Asian elements, but maybe that’s because it’s supposed to be resembling Asian clothing? I mean how is that offensive? Is it the part that it looks Asian? Or that you simply feel that white people that direct these shows should not be using Asian stuff for entertainment? Because I hate to break it to you but it’s still not offensive. Even the dragon tattoo is totally fine because it’s supposed to resemble Asian elements yea but also have y’all read the comics? Because he punched through a dragon and basically took it’s heart. So I mean a dragon tattoo kinda matches the theme.

I mean in the first episode they speak almost flawless Chinese for Pete’s sake! Hell, I was surprised that they even had it in them to have a non-Google translated line. Sure the accent was a little overdoing it cuz not even I have that thick a Chinese accent but I’ll excuse it since he was apparently learning and speaking 15 years. (I speak it maybe a few times a day for like the last 14 years or so only)

So no, the show doesn’t really insult Chinese culture, sure they might be ignorant, but you must understand that after generations of stereotypes and misconceptions that that can’t just go away with one show

“Danny Rand should be played by an Asian guy/be a Chinese-American”

I can’t even begin to tell you my frustration about this.

Y’all do know this show is based on the comics right?

You know, the one with the white guy.

I know Marvel is infamous for not including enough representation in their shows but seriously? This is like the Harry Potter thing all over again with Hermione being black, it’s not that we don’t want representation or anything, but it’s the fact that this hero that us comic fans have come to already love has been replaced. Or at least it feels like it. Like when a movie is made from a book and people go crazy because character XYZ suddenly has different traits or isn’t quite what was described as compared to the book.

Frankly, it sucks.

So even though yes, Marvel should have more Asians in their shows, don’t expect them to completely give the main character a makeover, even if the makeover was supposed to provide representation. And honestly? I don’t want them to change him because I really freaking love Iron Fist, just as he is.

“This show just villainizes Asians”

So you tell me that my race is being made villains because Marvel decided that most of their Asians on their shows are evil ninjas (aka the Hand) and at most there are like 3 sorta good Asians. Oh and I’m sorry, you want more Asian men that are good guys? You want a balance of Asian heroes?

Well I guess that would be kind of hard to fit into the story since, oh, I don’t know, everything happens in the USA?

If you want more Asian characters well then look no further because you do have them. Daisy Johnson from Agents of Shield? What about her extremely brave mom? Or maybe Colleen in Iron Fist? Everyone seems to be blatantly ignoring her badassery and only seeing the part where she’s a sorta love interest.

Facts are, there are Asian characters, you’re really just looking hard enough. I agree wholeheartedly when you say that more Asian men need to be in the Marvel universe that aren’t part of the bad guy team but you gotta say that they are still awesome.

Does anyone even remember the Japanese ninja yakuza guy from Daredevil? Dude got set on fire and STILL came back to kick ass. That’s a plus in my book because even though he’s considered bad, he’s been proven to be cunning, smart, and overall awesome.

“The show has terrible stunts/acting/dialogue/fight scenes”

From here on out it’s mostly just me trying to explain why the directors and writers of the show made decisions in the show to make it what it is, so let’s dive right into it.

  • STUNTS

Actually the stunts weren’t half-bad. If you’ve seen other shows or movies that are heavily reliant on stunts and action, and compare it to this show, they really aren’t that much different. Sure it might seem a little unbelievable sometimes like they’re breaking physics or something, but he already has a glowing fist. I think we’ve crossed the line of believable long ago.

  • ACTING

I have nothing to say about this except that go and take some acting or drama classes before coming and criticizing these awesome men and women who did indeed try their best

  • DIALOGUE

Now I get the dialogue might be a little weird at times and what not, but you must understand that this show was partially written with the Defenders series in mind. So almost everything that was said in the show is meant to lead to something more. Thus, you must take it as a bigger picture. Sorta like how everyone said that Fantastic Beast and Where to Find Them wasn’t as good as they thought it would be, that movie was also meant to lead on to a bigger story so you might want to excuse the weird speech and cryptic lines at times.

  • FIGHT SCENES & ACTION

Okay seriously people, please read the comics. Danny Rand is supposed to be an accidental hero, one that doesn’t want to fight unless he really has zero choice in the matter. So yea, the fight scenes won’t be that interesting, but only because the character in question is more interested in ending the fight than anything.

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So there you have it, my whole slightly angry info-dump on Iron Fist and Marvel’s representation problem in general. If you want to correct me or scold me even then by all means message me or shoot me an ask. But just keep in mind that Marvel can’t make all your problems go away in one show, and please for the love of all that is good read the comics before coming to rant okay?

mordsek  asked:

Hi, just swinging by to see how you were doing! Also, wondering if you still have the comic strip advertising commissions (it's more for reference rather than actually commissioning you, sorry!) floating around somewhere? It was a while back and I was thinking of passing it along to a friend for study.

Hey!! I’m doing much better than a few weeks ago, feeling great and dandy, thank you for asking!

I KNOW THE COMIC STRIP THAT YOU ARE REFERRING TO AND it’s probably floating around on other people’s blogs, but I deleted it off of mine because I am no longer taking commissions. But since I had an interesting experience with regards to that specific post and commission period, I’m gonna repost the four pages here and leave some commentary about it.

I’m also going to go ahead and answer this ask, too, since it’s in the same vein:

Hey there Anon, I usually charged $35 for sketchpage commissions! I fluctuated the amount that I charged for them between $35-$55, and $35 seemed to be where the amount of interest peaked, though that is very much underselling. If I open up commissions again in the future, I will definitely charge much more, since they take a lot of time and involve a lot of drawing. As for the second question, see below for advice and tips/observations I’ve discovered while doing commissions monthly to make rent for the last year and a half, haha!

**DISCLAIMER: I’M NOT OPEN FOR COMMISSIONS THIS IS NOT A COMMISSIONS ADVERTISEMENT POST**

ALSO THIS IS GOING TO BE A REALLY LONG POST SORRY I DECIDED TO TURN THIS INTO A GENERAL “COMMISSION ADVICE” POST CUZ I’VE HAD A LOT OF PEOPLE ASK ME FOR TIPS FOR FIRST-TIMERS

This particular commission advertisement absolutely exploded, which was completely unexpected to me, and exciting! I guess since people don’t usually present commission prices in this sort of pseudo-narrative style, it was eye-catching.

HOWEVER

I didn’t get any business!! This post originally broke at least 1k notes if I remember correctly (it was last year, and my memory is not the greatest), but I managed to attract less business inquiries than I did on my usual, straight-forward commission pages! Which was a huge bummer!! The problem with this advertisement is that it read more as a narrative to be consumed than as a serious call to action, which is interesting, but, again, a bummer.

Most of the reblogs and sharing that happened with this commission advertisement ended up consisting of tags and commentary saying “oh this is sweet” “wow this is really clever” “I’m going to do something like this for my next commission sheet” “I can’t commission this person but this is too cool not to reblog” etc. etc. etc. etc. I mean, I thought it was a cool idea, and I guess it was from how well it gained traction, but it was probably one of the singularly most frustrating experiences of my freelance life, haha!

So my advice would be: don’t make your commissions posts like this if you want to get serious business inquiries. Make your prices and examples as quick to digest as possible. The more simple the page, the more people will jump at it.

I’ve ALSO found that if you’re going to do commissions, you should limit the type of work you’re willing to do and limit the options that commissioners have to consider. That sounds a little backwards when you consider what the average commission post you see looks like, but hear me out on this one.

If someone sees a commission sheet with strong, solid examples of a single type of commission like fullbody sketches, that’s an easy decision to make. Base price of $30 for a fullbody colored sketch? I can afford that! I’ll message them right now!

But if you have separate prices listed out for Headshots, Bustshots, Waistshots, Fullbody shots, and then on TOP of those types you have listed different art styles such as Sketch, Ink, Flats, Full Shading, and Full Illustrations, that’s a LOT of information to process and a LOT of decisions to make on the part of casual browsers. I have found in my own personal experience AS a buyer that I’m less likely to jump on commissioning someone if they have a billion options listed. If I see a post that’s like “hey I’m doing sketches that look like [example] hit me up if you want one they’re $20″ I’ll be a lot more likely to seriously consider it.

So, take for example the above four page commission advertisement comic I did. I offered way too many options, and presented them in a hard-to-digest format. For viewers, it wasn’t clear whether I was making a joke about starving artists, or if I was seriously looking to do work for people.

After that particular commission period, I changed my advertisements to look like this:

Straightforward and to the point. I realized that I really enjoyed doing sketchpage commissions because they let me be flexible with how I drew the character, and they were also my most popular commission option. So I changed my business to ONLY offering sketchpage commissions, so it would be easier for me to keep track of what everyone was getting, and easy for potential clients to know what they were going to get if they commissioned me.

And it worked! I consistently got between 20-30 commissions every single month, and it’s why I was able to survive that first year of living on my own out in the big adult world.

Phew, okay, my fingers are tired, I think that’s all the information I have to share on the subject??! Hopefully that’s helpful for someone out there. Sorry it was so long.

anonymous asked:

What are ways to get popular on Tumblr as an artist?

I’m gonna be honest with you: I have no idea.

My experience has been when I wanted to have more acknowledgments for my art/writing, I never received a lot. And when I didn’t care either way, that’s when my stuff blew up. I personally have no idea how artists get popular on this website. I was a wallflower type artist for years before I created an ask blog in the Hetalia community to get more involved with viewers. Then SaM happened and that almost sent me into cardiac arrest because? I had just doodled something stupid to add to that period post, and decided I wanted to doodle more of that and made a blog the same day, with no real intention or belief people would really follow it.

And then I did “Here it Comes” as a way to explore how to draw better fight scenes that I could use as experience for SaM, and that took off on Tapas more than I ever thought, just because it was a project I was just doing for me.

SaM is 100% an anomaly. I get asked a lot how I got successful and have a following for it for someone to apply it to their own work. And I always feel really weird when I see those messages only because I don’t know what to say? SaM was an anomaly, and I believe a big portion of why it took off was because it was free advertising.

My dumb doodle post and the link to this blog was on a popular post circulating tumblr at the time. It gave me free exposure that, while I didn’t expect that to happen, gave SaM a wider audience before it was even a few updates in. My experience with “Here it Comes” after the fact does show how big an impact that free circulation had, because even though “Here it Comes” has maybe a 25,000 following on Tapas, it’s tumblr follower number is nowhere near SaM’s is. For perspective, SaM has almost 100,000 on tumblr alone and maybe like 250 updates. “Here it Comes” has almost 6,000 tumblr follows and almost 30 updates. When SaM had 2 updates on the blog by sun down the blog had over 20,000 followers.

So that free circulating post had a lot to do with it. People stayed after for artwork or story I suppose.

I’m no expert on giving advice to get popular on tumblr. Tbh I just do my own thing without expecting responses, because if I based all my work on how much followers I get, I’d never do anything. I don’t care that “Here it Comes” has 5,000 on tumblr or that my fanart on my personal blog gets like 30 notes. I just do it cuz it’s fun, regardless of the outcome attention wise. I would say 25% of people staying for your art is style, and 75% is content based. Look at One Punch Man. The original artstyle wasn’t very eye catching but the content was funny and engaging. Keep that in mind if you’re going to do any sort of interactive art, like comics or ask blogs.

If you’re just an artist drawing OCs or fanart, IDK, man. I think a lot of that is going to be based on if someone is enticed by your style. 

All in all, I get that we all crave feedback and stuff. And I’m not getting down on anyone for that, but art becomes a lot more enjoyable when you stop worrying about the numbers. 

Tl;dr: sorry I’m not super helpful on this. I don’t really think there’s a formula, but if there is I really don’t know it. My stuff was blind luck that fell out of the sky one day. (My guess would be engaging work, developing a catchy style, and frequent art updates if I had to have an idea for more “popularity” on this site).

art trade with the fabulous @funsexydragonball! :D

She asked me if I could draw something with Gogeta, with the option of pairing him up with either Bulma or Chi-Chi (or both X3). I got the go-ahead to do a lady Gogeta, so I decided to draw her with both lovely ladies o3o I drew Bulma and Chi-Chi more well-endowed here than I would if I had just drawn this on my own, because I know how much Miss funsexy loves her db ladies curvy ;D (lady Gogeta would be drawn the same regardless if this was a trade or not lol XP)

I hope you enjoy! :3

NO ONE HAS PERMISSION TO USE/REPOST MY ART

(the reason why I’ve been putting this message in my art posts recently is cuz I’ve been experiencing art theft over the last few months =^=)

thank you

So back in April I never got the chance to celebrate my one year for this blog. There ain’t much to celebrate tho since this blog is trash and all I do is worship Wonho’s ass and talk about D 24/7 (I’m so sorry I’m shameless) but I really really wanted to make a post for all the amazing people I’ve met on here, and how much you all mean to me even though I never express any form of compassion or love and majority of the time mask it with insults hahaha

But to those who know me by now should know I do it because I like you and you have a special place in my hitlist ok

Before I start I just want to throw in how much I greatly appreciate everyone that follows my blog. I know I haven’t been active in so long and I haven’t posted a fic in ages and I’m so sorry for that. There’s been some little things here and there that have piled up and it’s taken a toll on me but hey, everyone has some rough bumps in the road and I know this and I know there will be better days, and it has gotten way better. 

For anyone that has dealt with any anxiety or depression or any sense of feeling as though it’s hopeless, I hope you know that you’re strong and you are important and here for a reason and somewhere out there, either near or far there is someone out there who wants you here and who also loves you for who you are. And if at any time you feel alone or find yourself in a tough situation, I want you to know you can always come and talk to me. And I’m not saying that just to say it, I seriously mean it. I do work and I do go to school so it may take some time for me to respond, but don’t ever feel like you can’t talk to me. One thing I actually hoped for in this blog when I made it was to help people, because I know that some (but not all) people think of Tumblr as a safe haven, and I could say I made it myself for the sake of running away from my own problems.

And here I am now, drowning myself with pictures of hot kpop guys but also meeting probably the best people I couldn’t have possibly lived without. I know we’re online friends and don’t even know each other in real life, but just know that you’ve all made a huge impact on my life and I really thank you guys. There are people I haven’t talked to much or at all, but I hope at some point in our lives we can talk about something as small as what we had for lunch today or to how big we think Jungkook’s schlong is cuz come on I know we’re all wondering the same fucking thing and I need answers too girl and it could turn out to be a beautiful friendship

Anyways, thank you thank you THANK YOU all so much for following me, giving me a chance, liking my fics, sending a sweet ask, talking to me, thank you all so much. I appreciate every little thing I get on here and I just love everyone and hope you stick around while I’m still glorifying Wonho’s ass every day. 

I’m so sorry for already making it so long but it’s about to get way longer and personal so I’m just going to cut it here so the post won’t get so annoying on everyone’s dash lol

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Songs of Ssael Prayerbook

Wanted to talk about my newest prop for Duane real quick. Was waiting to get the new photos up first, but I do not have time to edit them at the moment and needed a quick break from sewing my next costume.

Wish I had a before shot to share because it used to be blue.  Materials I used: a book, scrapbooking paper in green, gold, black velvet, and a fun design (you’ll see that one later), green and black fabric paint, tan, white, black, and brown acrylic paint, twine, gold ballpoint pen, a hot glue gun, and a lot of Modge Podge.

I was really picky about the base book I chose. It had to be the right size in my hand…not too thick as to look bulky but not so thin as I couldn’t do a little something fun with it.  I also ended up choosing this one because it left the ends of the pages raw and I liked the rough look of it! I had to sand the top of the book though, since the pages were dyed orange.

Here you can see where I tore off half of the spine. That was my first step, before I even started painting. You can also see where I glued down the twine bindings on the spine and the pieces that hang from the top of the book. I also used hot glue to seal the raw end of the twine so it wouldn’t unravel.

The designs I traced a vector for from the art and used that to print a stencil of sorts I could use to cut the pieces out with an exacto knife. It’s all glued down with Modge Podge.

All of the weathering with black and white I tried to keep as close to the illustrations of the book as possible.

Here is the rarely seen back! This is where the tan paint really came in. I used it to color the blue so I could save that slightly leathery texture of the original cover.  The green paper I glued on to re-do the cover I purposely left loose on that corner and tore the edge around to make it uneven.  I also spritzed it with water to get it extra floppy.

One of my personal touches was the old bloody handprint on the back. The space was partially covered in the art, and on its own it felt empty. I figured, Duane must have picked up the book after accidentally eating somebody at least once right.  I just painted my fingers brown and slammed them down on the back of the book.

Here is a detail shot where you can really see the textures in the papers I chose. I like the randomness of the gold, and the elegance the velvet added.  The green had a linen look to it that I thought fit well wishing the comic’s aesthetic.

I also want to talk about the letters here. Finding simple gold letter stickers was, oddly enough, impossible. I ended up buying purple glitter ones instead. I had to scrape off all the glitter, resurface it with Modge Podge, and color it with my gold leafing pen.  The ‘f’ I had to extend as well…placing a piece of another sticker under it before applying the Modge Podge.

Here is another detail shot showing the fun rough edges of the book, as well as some of the weathering I did on the edge.  For the edge I tried to sand through the paper to the tan paint I had applied underneath…but I ended up sanding through the paint too fast to the original color of the book. So in the end I took a box cutter and carved away at all the edges, down to the cardboard cover itself.  I ran sandpaper over the carved edges to make it look more like it had worn down and had not been carved out.

This is probably the roughest part of the book, but still pretty  happy with it! In the art it’s so small it’s just scribbles so I had to improvise what to put up there.  Considering the book it had to be Tainish for sure. The phrase I had originally chosen was too long, so I ended up mashing two other ones together and hoping it makes sense.  Can’t say I’m too well versed in Tainish grammar after all. I had also wanted to draw it in the Tainish alphabet, but sadly that is not available, so I used cursive instead.

For those who may have trouble reading my sloppy penmanship it reads:
Ssael fhikemun rish ul a Llede Llaemasa

Which should, in theory, translate to:
Ssael reveals the way to his Lions of Mercy

The inner cover I also redid with a paper with a fun design.  The edges of the green showed and I wanted a nice clean look all around.  Also a little extra weathering just cuz.

And last but not least, the whole reason I decided to do this project in the first place! I needed a place to keep my ribbons at ALA.

I made this into a hollow book with a lot of Modge Podge and cutting of pages and more Modge Podge and some heavy things. This is why the book couldn’t be too thin.  I made sure to leave a number of pages at the front loose so I could also use it as a prop.

Dance Alone To The Tune Of Your Death

Pairing: Frank Iero x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Romance

Summary: Request fic for @chloethebinch.  “I was wondering if you could do a fic where the reader is Frank’s friend and he suggests that she could be Helena in the music video and he gets a huge crush on her in the Helena dress?”

The dance studio at your college’s fine arts building was empty, except for you. You weren’t surprised. It was past midnight. What other student besides you was crazy enough to be pirouetting at this hour? 

Maybe other people would think it was weird, but, when you were stressed, dancing always calmed you down. You slid on your ballet slippers, tying the ribbons tightly so they wouldn’t slip down your ankles. You put a CD onto the stereo and hit play. A normal ballerina would have used classical music. To be honest, you should probably be using the soundtrack to Swan Lake, since you were going to be performing in your school’s production of that ballet later this year. Instead, for some reason, all you wanted to dance to was your friend Frank’s post-hardcore band, My Chemical Romance. 

Frank had dropped out of college to be MCR’s rhythm guitarist full time. At the time, you were worried he was making a mistake (and, of course, sad that he wouldn’t be your classmate anymore). But, his decision seemed to have paid off. His band had been signed to a major label, and last summer, they’d traveled the country as part of Warped Tour. Part of you wondered if Frank was going to forget all about you now that he was getting rich and famous. 

Don’t worry about that right now, you told yourself. Just dance

You pointed your toes and began a spin as the opening notes of ‘Helena’, the first track on the CD, began to play. You did a demi-plie as you let the sound of Frank’s wild instrumentals wash over you. The vocalist, Gerard, was great, too, but when you listened to MCR, your focus was always on Frank. Maybe it was because you had a bit of a crush on him.

So do ten thousand other girls, at this point, you frowned, and threw yourself harder into the dance to distract yourself from your negative thoughts. You whirled and twirled across the floor to every song on the album, and by the time the last track concluded, you were panting, brow streaked with sweat. 

You froze, and gasped, when you heard the sound of someone clapping. 

Who the hell is in here?! you wondered, turning around in shock. Your jaw dropped when you saw Frank Iero standing there in the doorway, grinning at you. 

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anonymous asked:

So I donated to your kickstarter so long ago that I can't even remember when it was and you haven't been making updates about the progress of the album in a very long time. I know life happens and sometimes things get pushed back but I'm starting to wonder where my money went and if I will ever get the vinyl I paid for. It's been well over a year and it's making me think you just took everyone's money and don't really care how long they have to wait to see what they paid for come to life.

this mite be a long post! please for the love of god feel free to scroll beyond if u dont care, i truly hate when people fuck up my feed with their essays so ya. that is my disclaimer here. ok.

ok. deep breath.
i talk about this/my campaign/my project VERY often on twitter (it’s distracting and often harmful for me to use tumblr and facebook regularly. sorry if that’s inconvenient). i realize most people aren’t actively checking my shit & that my tweets get buried in the constant avalanche of my stupid thoughts, so i’ll summarize the past year or so. hopefully whoever left this anonymous message will check back to see the answer and if so, i IMPLORE u to read the entire thing instead of picking out details from the first 4 sentences and sending me another message about how i stole your fucking money.

my album is almost finished. i’ve said this multiple times over the course of the past year, but this time it’s like, legitimately fact. i’m feeling extra sensitive right now and reading this message felt like stepping on a rusty nail, so i’ll go ahead and give you as many details as possible to explain why it’s taken me over a year to complete my first full-length album. 

i am an independent artist, as you probably know. i am also an extreme perfectionist. when i began my kickstarter campaign in september of 2015, i had about 30 songs written that i’d poorly recorded in my shitty apartment, many of which i hoped to record professionally for my first proper (and physical) release. i could not fucking stand the thought of being contractually obligated to make music via label and figured kickstarter was my last hope. i honestly thought it would fail miserably and decided that when my campaign came to a humiliating end, i’d move on from music and do something else that wouldn’t make me feel so fucking horrible about myself. somehow, thanks to you and everyone else who made my dream come true, i made enough money to actually make a record.

two months later in january of 2016, i went home to florida from LA to visit my family for the holidays. thanks to my incredible fucking luck, some kind of crime ring was hitting licks on every major airline’s baggage claim at LAX post-holiday and my luggage containing 3 notebooks filled with all of my lyrics, 2 external hard drives and a bunch of little USB drives containing 2 years of my work were stolen. hmu if u want the police report for proof. 

i lost a lot of work (and learned the value of The Cloud- i hate to trust it after my nudes were leaked and my fucking whole bank account was emptied after someone hacked my shit in 2014, but here we are) and basically all morale but pieced together what i could from what i had left. i hired a producer i’ve admired for years to be the executive producer of my record and decided this fucking bullshit was an opportunity to make my shit better. due to unfortunate, unforgivable and honestly criminal circumstances, this fucking psycho wasted an upsetting amount of my time and decided to back out of my project. THAT particular situation keeps me up at night and i fucking live for the day i can tell that goddamn story, it truly shocks me that a human being could do me like that fool did me, yall will find out one day but ahem. anyway. 

after this incredible fucking scam, i decided to ONCE AGAIN start anew considering the legal and financial obligations of releasing music that had been co-written by this bad fucking person. i left my home in LA and went to stay at my dad’s house in florida, spent literally all of my time mastering production software and learning to play piano, and filled in all the shit i’d lost with new things i’d written and produced entirely on my own. then i got married, but that’s unimportant to this story. actually it is like, kind of important, but whatever.

i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in january 2016 and in march of 2016 i attempted suicide. i left an organized folder of songs, mockups for art, my bank account info and a note to my manager to make sure that my album was released because i literally could not comfortably die knowing that i let down the people who gave me money. im not tryna make anyone feel bad im just like saying cuz its part of the whole shit. anyway, i failed at killing myself and woke up in a bathtub of puke ready to go the fuck off. haven’t wanted to die since.

ahem. so. since i’m honestly 100% unable to trust a single fucking human being with my work and my thoughts after what happened up there ^^^^, i decided to set up a room in my new home for recording. i wrote, recorded, and produced (with some help, but like please bitch give me credit here) a fucking entire new album that i actually LIKED. im not shy about the fact that i think my music is stupid gimmicky- after trying to die and not dying and then getting help i realize i have like a little bit of talent i should actually appreciate. i finished recording and producing it, hired a person i trusted with a degree in music production to help me polish it and alas, he ran off without a single fucking word. thankfully i didn’t pay him a cent but like hey there u follow me on twitter and FUCK. YOU.

so now, as of about a month ago, i’ve absolutely perfected my songs (as much as i can- i still lose sleep over the imperfections im just not good enough to fix) and i’ve found the most trustworthy, hardworking team i’ve ever met to finish this shit. it’s demoralizing to recap the past year, mostly bc it was so fucking horrible for me, but i can promise you the last thing i would ever ever ever ever do is take a bunch of money and dip out with it. i do literally every single piece of this shit on my own, from the music to visuals to branding, and it’s hard. it’s time consuming. i have a job outside of music to provide for myself and for my family, and that takes up my time too. 

so i really apologize for the amount of time it’s taken for this record to be released. it fucking kills me to be waiting and i didn’t spend your money; god knows i would never in my fucking life just STEAL your money. the fact that anyone would ever accuse me of that makes me ILL.

i just want ya’ll to know there’s nothing easy about releasing music as an independent artist, especially one who refuses to accept anything less than perfection, and ESPECIALLY one who refuses to be disrespected and taken advantage of. i’m doing my best, and it took me a while. i feel like it’s worth it. it’ll be another 2 months or so. hit me up if you want a refund on your vinyl.

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So I saw this post by @ravencacaww​ about punk Jumin and the next second I was doodling this lolol
I’ve started with just Jumin but then I though that this style would totally suit Zen with his smoking and motorbike and everything so in the end I’ve drawn them both as punks~ Well why not? xD
If someone could think of a proper AU or maybe even write a fanfic featuring them like that I would feel blessed lolol
(Also, if anyone’s curious: Zen is holding a cigarette in his left hand, that’s why there’s this barely visible on this background smoke; also, he’s holding a microphone in his other hand ‘cause this suits him and well Jumin is also holding one just ‘cuz I had no idea how to fill his background so well maybe they had a quarrel again and they decided to solve it by karaoke since both their voices are ideal for singing? Who knows~ XD)

More of my Mystic Messenger drawings: HERE

Ok guys real talk
This concerns a very small number of the 2000+ lovely followers that Cookie has, but anon won’t tell us who they are so this is a public message.

This:

and this:

and these:

Are not, in any way, shape, or form, polite requests. If you can’t tell why, lemme break it down for you.

It takes Cookie a couple hours to do a single person simple sketch. This sets the base for their commission prices, and also is why requests should only be one or two characters. Maximum. Cuz otherwise, they have to devote frankly too much time to doing a single project without being paid.

Cookie is an artist and has valuable time. They spent many years honing this skill and have put a lot of effort into it. They are making a game for free, in addition to going to school and dealing with stress at home (much like a lot of us). They cannot devote as much time as they would like to doing requests, to making art for free. They would LOVE to, but that’s just not the world we live in. SO when they have a couple free hours, they go to a doc I maintain, that has a list of all the requests that are actually doable, and they do some free art for you guys.

These requests, with 11 characters or more, or many incarnations of the same character, are not feasible. They’re just not. That being said, if you really really want the art, feel free to commission Cookie. I’ll even link their commission prices.

http://crazycookiemaniac.tumblr.com/post/162326457625/eeyy-heres-my-new-commission-chart-i-always

Now they can afford to spend time doing your request(s), and you get awesome art. Win/win.

And if it’s not good enough to pay for, why are you asking for it anyways?

ALL of this being said, thank you so much to the many people who ask questions, request characters, give compliments or critiques, share theories (I in particular really enjoy reading those, they’re fun and y’all are smart lil cookies), and generally just interact with this blog! You guys are awesome, and make Cookie’s life fun.

This post is mostly just explaining why Cookie can’t do some requests, and also asking those people who send in ridiculous ones to reconsider maybe commissioning them. Pay your artists guys, they need to eat too.

TLDR:
In no way stop sending requests, but please respect that they may take a while, Cookie can decide not to do any for whatever reason, and ridiculous ones (more than one or two characters) have a significant chance of never being done or being done very far in the future. It stresses Cookie out to get them and be unable to do them, so please respect that they don’t want to get the ask.

-Mochi

Callout Post: PETER LAPETINA

Cuz you know I’m done playing games with your whiny ass
Peter Lapetina AKA:
hellzombie136 on Tumblr.
Has been on my and @call-me-fantasy ass for a VERY long time.
Now before you start: Why don’t you just ignore him? or block him?
I honestly wouldn’t be doing this if I didn’t try that already AND NOT ONLY THAT
THIS is why im doing it:
Tumblr blogs:

Twitter Accounts:

Instagram:

(He had more instagram accounts but Im blocked or they are deleted)
He has been making new accounts EVERY time I blocked him. And honestly I didn’t care about blocking him every time, for realz I didn’t but this is where I draw the line:

Hateful videos towards me and Call-me-fantasy
Now let me take you to the start where it all started and and you will see the reason WHY this kid is a Douche bag who has nothing better to do with his time on life. oh and if you could go to his Youtube and flag his videos for hateful comments so we can get them down we will love you forever for it.
Now READ MORE~

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Hey! So I’ve seen a lot of people doing these, and I decided to do one for my 5,000th post, but I missed that so here it is now! This is a list of people who I consider to be my friends (I hope they all feel the same, otherwise this could be awkward lol) I highly recommend following all of them because I love them all very much.

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Now, here's a question I have... (read thoroughly before you disagree)

Do you remember when I “shaded”/called out a artist for drawing underaged child pornography of the Loud kids? Here’s my question: why was the person’s friends calling ME the bad guy for it? Why did they say that I was a pervert for calling someone out for CP? Why did the person decide to come back and repetitively interact with me even though I don’t feel safe with someone who drawing such things of minors? Why do they think that when we point out the actual U.S. law, stating that even fictional CP is in fact illegal, and giving evidence to prove it, they don’t take it seriously and just shrug it off as a “troll” just cuz it’s online? Why did they attack me for posting against the artist, when I just felt unsafe knowing that the person was still reblogging my posts with shitty excuses, and interacting with me when I didn’t like the idea of them harassing a minor when they’re a grown person drawing CP? Why are the adults who draws CP so immature? Why are they ruining a show made for kids? Why are grown ups in this fandom drawing CP of minors, in a fandom full of minors, of a kid’s show? Why aren’t the adults who draws this not seeing the harm of this and not acting like adults about this? Why do they think that there’s nothing wrong with drawing sexual interactions of a 4 yr old? Why do they think that the art won’t traumatize people?
Why does LC even a thing?
Does the thought of incest make them happy?
Why…. would you romanticize abuse?

It all started with a tattoo

Originally posted by so-bangtastic

Originally posted on asianfanfics.com 

Since it’s a long story there will be many parts to it

Genre: Fluff/Smut

Characters: BTS: A South Korean boy band with seven members 

Rap monster: The leader of BTS, also known as dancing(?) machine

Jin: The oldest one who’s life is awkward

Suga: The guy who has tongue technology

J-hope (J-hoe): Also known as J-horse

V: The one who wants to be a sexy porn star (saxophone star).

Jimin: One word, Excuse me! 

Jungkook: The youngest mofo who thinks he’s better than his hyungs.

You: A tattoo artist that’s prettier than most of the superstars

Summary: When suddenly the mofo wanted a tattoo, so he came to your shop at midnight. 

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My friend  @cloud-kitsune and me were talking about how the male spell fencers had ugly costumes, but the girls had such cute ones. Then she said I should draw Tiz in the female spell fencer. And I decided to cuz why not. And I like Yew so I drew Yew as a spell fencer XDD She’s only played Bravely Default, so I drew her Bravely Default Tiz, not Bravely second tiz.

I know that I should draw Ringabel and Janne but *runs away*


Also to be nice to the followers of my blog, I’m making a side blog to scream and reblog Bravely Default stuff because i know ppl follow me for my adorable animal reblogs and MAYBE my ff7 art. Not to mention nobody on my follow list plays bravely default lol. You can find the blog at @braevleescreaming I’ll still post art here since this is my main art blog but I’ll keep reblogs about bravely default there I guess ><

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doodles to remind myself how to draw digitally cuz its been a day or two

cheerleader!izuru because….. i can…. 

Around noon on Monday I made the decision to face a biggest fear of mine in order to tackle the biggest demon in my life as soon as summer school’s over, cuz school comes first (sorry, body, I’d do it sooner if I could). I’m simultaneously excited to bring this bullshit to an end and finally be free of the greatest source of pain and self-loathing in my life, but trying to get real with myself in face of my excitement about how it’s going to be very, very, very hard and getting to freedom in the first place is gonna be really, really ugly. But I got this. It’ll be tough, and it’ll always be tough, but I got this. And I’m gonna get by with a lil help from my friends. (Actually, a LOT of help from my friends.)

Anyway, so I always make my scans with some random name and a number, and I usually start a new name folder as soon as my current one gets to around 30-40 scans because after that scrolling through them and figuring out which ones I haven’t posted yet is a pain in the ass. The batch I started last night is bennieandthejets. I’ve had “Bennie and the Jets” stuck in my head a lot the past few days, and, idk, I feel it’s the theme song for this. Slow, steady, trodding along, kind of like how I’m gonna have to take this one day at a time.

But it’s funny.


I know I got this, because, well, I of all fucking people have made it this far into earning a fucking physics degree. And then a math degree for good measure. Do you understand how insane that is? Me. Me of all people. Me, Caroline, who took honors instead of advanced honors classes in high school because I (well, we) weren’t convinced I could handle the workload because of my ADHD.  Me, who made straight C’s in high school math. Me, who decided that maybe geology (my first major after art) wouldn’t work out because I probably couldn’t handle calculus. I took my first physics class in fall 2011, genuinely convinced I wouldn’t pass, but I told myself I’d just keep retaking it until I did. The fact that I’ve made it this far, only lacking Quantum I and II, without actually having to retake things multiple times blows my mind. Still. THIS SHIT HAS NOT STOPPED BEING SURREAL.
And that is why I know I can do whatever the fuck I want if I put my mind to it, including this really vaguely described decision I’ve made. (Well, whatever I want short of being an olympic gymnast or professional jockey.)

“If you stop telling yourself what you can and can’t do for five fucking minutes, you’ll never believe what you’re capable of.” That’s the moral of my math/physics story as I’ve described it for a few years now.
It applies here, too. Even though vaguely described decision isn’t a school thing.

I got this. Come at me, bro. I’m finally gonna be the higher caliber version of myself I’ve been wishing I was for the past three years.

(All y’all do, too, whatever it is you’re fightin’ with. You got it.)