i decided that it's not that bad

So, I’m thinking about dying my hair a pastel color, but I’m not sure what color (because I’m indecisive af (like, I can’t even choose where to eat, guys, it’s bad)). I’m not saying that I will, but I’m just thinking about it. Also, it will piss off my family, and I kind of want to see what happens there??

Today, I decided to put lavender in my roots and titanium on the rest, and it came out mostly periwinkle (which is A OKAY with me, because that’s my favorite color). Oh, the impulse decisions I make!

Anyways, since I’m super indecisive, I thought I would ask for some input and ideas of pastel colors (but no green based colors please. I have dealt with green hair enough #SwimmingPoolsAreWeird)!

anonymous asked:

You are very attractive. Good on you for not letting rude anons bring you down.

y’know it actually made me upset for a minute because I thought it was an.. old friend who I miss a lot but then im like.. there’s no way he would do that so then i decided to dig up old photos of me and there’s this one pic of me posing by a tree and i look absolutely stunning ill post it in the afternoon lmao

I think we can all agree that Yuuri’s speech was a central scene this episode, and although I’ve seen a lot of people giving great explanations about Yuuri’s use of 「愛」 in his speech and the difference between 「愛」(ai) and 「恋」(koi) there aren’t many people who go further into his speech than that.


Firstly I’ll just briefly gloss over 「愛」 and 「恋」because what they each connotate in the Japanese language is important to the Yuri!!! on Ice plot

「恋」is kind of like a physical love. It describes one’s longing for someone, but lacks a deeper emotional bond. Used for boyfriend/girlfriend/partner.

「愛」 is a deep love, it encompasses 恋 but also describes emotional love. While it does mean you long for someone, it kind of implies that you’re willing to do, give, or change something to be with them. Used for family/spouse.

***note: on the contrary, while「恋」does imply a physical romance/love, 「恋人」refers to you’re true love, you’d call your fiancé or spouse that, and「愛人」implies someone you’ve had an affair with. So when Victor uses the word 「恋人」…. ;)))


So when Yuuri says
「僕の愛、それは分かり易い愛や恋ではなくて、ヴィクトルとの絆や、家族や、地元に対する微妙な気持ち」
He’s saying his「愛」is not just the physical and emotional love he has for others, his love is literally his relationship with Victor, it is literally his family, and that it is the complicated/abstract feelings he has for others around him (aka Yuuko, Minako, Nishigori). It is a tangible THING such as actions and words as implied by Yuuri’s use of 「物」 instead of 「事」which would describe an idea or a concept.

Another interesting thing to note is when Yuuri says he has “no name for this emotion”
「その感情に名前はない」
At first I thought Yuuri might have been downplaying his emotions but then I realised it wasn’t that, it was that Yuuri really just doesn’t know exactly what 「愛」is just yet despite describing it briefly before because he’s still exploring what it truly means for him.
Before Victor, we all know Yuuri had a big crush on Yuuko, hell, he was going to confess in the first episode. But that’s all it was, a crush, which would take neither 「愛」nor「恋」, but 「好き」(suki).

Now I’m sure you know the difference between 「愛する」and「好きです」but just in case
「好きです」refers to a wide range of types of “like”. You use it for objects, hobbies, and topics, or people-wise, friends and crushes.


Through Yuuri’s speech, we are witnessing his growth and exploration of what 「愛」is, what it means to him, and who the word applies to. Most prominent are his developing feelings of 「愛」towards Victor. The phrase
「繋ぎ止める」
Does mean “to hold on to”, but it also means “to fasten” or “to tie”, and this implies that while Yuuri does not want to let go of Victor, neither does he want Victor to let go of him. Yuuri wants to create a mutual bond with Victor, and he has decided to call this bond 「愛」.


As a side note, here’s further meta on Yuuri and Victor’s developing relationship, shown through the episode preview. It’s very short but 
I do think it’s a cute example of them becoming closer to each other.

there are two settings. the first is success, a crushing perfection that simmers below the surface, a gritted-teeth force that breaks down more often than it runs. it is relying on panic to wake you up, it is nightmares about numbers, it is being unable to stop shaking when the test comes back, it is empty scores, no flaws found but still feels sore. it is the appearance of self-assurance, top-of-the-class, always-in-yoga. nobody gets into the room when you’re sobbing over your gpa. they only smell the candles and not the burning.

the second is failure. it comes in the wake of the smallest thing. a shrug and “you could have done better” rather than a smile. that’s it. and then it’s time to destroy everything. she frowned at me once, we aren’t really her friend and we must never speak to her again. he didn’t want to get dinner, not only is he not interested but he finds us repulsive. it is realizing you are sixteen minutes late and just skipping class rather than showing up late. it’s refusing to study because you understand nothing. it’s taking something down before someone can rip it down for you. it’s isolating yourself so nothing can hurt you and it’s hurting because you’re isolated. it’s missed calls, never-at-work, always-too-drunk. 

that’s it. all or nothing.

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✨❤️️💛💚💙💜✨

I haven’t seen one of these yet so I decided to make one!! Feel free to use! Please don’t reblog if you’re a cg/l or dd/lg blog

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@ishida can u give him a break???? its his birthday ffs

Hogwarts Houses as Fantastic Beasts

Gryffindor: Niffler

Originally posted by mage-marquise

A bit of a show off. Most likely to break rules of all the beasts and is also likely to refer to itself as a #beast. Will unintentionally get you into trouble, but will stand by what they did while apologizing. Proud of its abilities and unwilling to submit to others. 

Ravenclaw: Demiguise

Originally posted by mejshad

Uses its brain to solve problems. Knows exactly what you’re up to. May get you in trouble, but so smart that it’ll avoid capture even if it was their fault. Adapts based on changing situations. Approaches bad times with a calm head and helps others in need.

Hufflepuff: Bowtruckle

Originally posted by sweetly87

Loyal. Generally underestimated. Unlikely to get into trouble unless it’s particularly prone. Decides where it will be happiest at an early stage and will hold onto that decision forever. Uses its abilities to solve problems. Generally peaceful but if you hurt it or one of its few close friends it will mess you up.

And finally (the whole reason I made this post)…

Slytherin: Swooping Evil

Originally posted by hardyness

Given a bad rap. Default is offensive rather than defensive. Extremely loyal if you put in the time. Looks like it could kill you but is actually a cinnamon roll. Will not get into trouble ever at all because it knows when to take risks and when to stay out of it. Highly skilled and will do whatever it can to help a close friend.

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I’ve been wanting to draw, but haven’t been able to draw any of the other R!kids (or robots lel), so i decided to do this R!human Mondatta??? Insofar as there’d be a reverse!Mondatta at all haha

He and Zenyatta have a weirdly strong family resemblance (despite not being biological brothers). He’s very down to earth while retaining the same natural charisma as Zenyatta, but if Zenyatta’s charm is like refined sugar then Mondatta’s is like just-cut sugar cane.

Then pair are almost never in each other’s vicinity, but when they are, Zenyatta starts to feel distinctly forged beside his brother’s authenticity (though they used to be more complementary when they were younger). Mondatta still cares a lot about his little bro and is a perennial worry wart when it comes to him. Tends to flip between this and incessant teasing whenever they come in contact (or the doubly irritating tease-worry combo).

Because some asked why I needed Truthwitch to break out...

Some people have asked me what I meant by a statement in my postmortem – about WHY I needed Truthwitch to break out (because if it didn’t, my career was over). I’m not sure how in-depth I’ve been in my newsletter, so here’s an answer for you:

Basically, my first series tanked. I mean…tanked. We’re talking, Truthwitch sold more copies in its first two weeks than the entire SS&D series COMBINED.

Bad sales hurt an author – you’re way better off as an untested debut than an author with shitty sales. So I was at a crossroads in my career, where the plan was to change my name. That way, I could be a “debut” again. (Sadly, this happens a LOT in the industry. Which is why please do not pirate our books!)

But then Tor decided to take a chance on me. Because they’re a small (and amazing) house, they have more room to take on projects that they’re passionate about (instead of just commercially successful). HOWEVER, if Truthwitch didn’t sell well…. Then yeah. That was it. “Susan Dennard” would be dead, and I’d have to reinvent/start over my career.

There’s no shame in that. I was totally willing to reinvent! The problem was that I had this great audience for my writing advice – thousands upon thousands of people who were coming back for my blog and newsletter. Yet none of them were buying my books. Which is fine – I don’t give free writing help to sell copies. I do it because I love doing it.

BUT…if I reinvented myself, I would lose what little crossover I had between writing-advice-fans and book-readers – not to mention the handful of amazing fans who did like the SS&D trilogy (I will never ever forget my wonderful Misfits!).

So…I needed + desperately wanted Truthwitch to sell well. I wanted Tor to be happy. I wanted to keep my name. That led to me going “all in” on self-promo.

Full disclosure: I allocated $15,000 of my advance to promote Truthwitch. (Which, in case you’re wondering, was most of the advance.) I ended up going over that amount…by a lot. Costs ranged from travel to important events (this was really where the bulk got eaten up!) to running/maintaining my street team (swag, postage, hiring an assistant to help me keep it going) to learning how to + making my own book trailer.***

And like…I honestly don’t even know what kind of TIME I spent promoting. It was a lot more than I thought it would be. Literally most of 2015.

But…it paid off, right? At least in terms of “success.” I’m a New York Times Bestseller now!!

That said, I haven’t earned back the money I spent yet (“bestseller” doesn’t automatically mean “rich”), and I will never get back the time I spent. Plus, the nightmare that was 2016 as I tried to rush-create Windwitch

It begs the question: were the costs worth the rewards? I don’t know. I think so since, hopefully, the rewards will continue to pay forward for a long time – and my career is definitely growing!

Best of all, though, I CAN KEEP MY NAME. Susan Dennard. C’est moi pour toujours. ❤️

Edit:

I want to add two more things – because this post has opened up a lot of conversations I wasn’t expecting to have (but welcome!!).

First: I cannot emphasize enough just how important LUCK is in this equation. On top of the time, money, publisher-partnership, and salty desperation that I poured into Truthwitch, I ALSO GOT LUCKY. I had the Right Book at the Right Moment with the Right Cover in the Right Genre coming out in the Right Month.

A publisher can pour all the money in the world into a book, but nothing will make readers buy it. There is no predicting trends.

So a lot of the success of Truthwitch (which is still pretty small, relatively speaking. I’m not a Big Author by any means!!) boils down to that intangible, finicky sprite known as Lady Luck.

Second: This is just ROUND ONE of “reinvention.” I have no illusions or expectations that my success will remain. The Witchlands series has already exceeded my wildest hopes, but no author stays “on top” forever. It’s a constant up and down, and frankly, we’re all just really lucky to even be able to share our words in the first place.

Sure, I’d love to be successful forever, but it’s not my primary dream – and definitely not my expectation. Realism is key to longevity in this industry, and more than that: gratitude.

So on that note: thanks for reading, thanks for sharing, and thanks for being the reason I keep writing.


***Note: I need to also mention that, once it was clear my own self-promotion was starting to pick up momentum, Tor really stepped in and helped me. This was not a solo journey, and it NEVER is. I had/have an amazing team, and we’ve forged a real partnership while getting the Witchlands into readers’ hands.

NDRV3 cursors

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I decided to make some NDRV3 cursors uwu

here’s how to put them in your tumblr theme (its easy!) vvv

first, go into ‘‘Edit Theme” and click “Edit HTML”.

look for “<style> and </style>” in your HTML and paste this code up in between there vv

*, body, a, a:hover {cursor: url(Cursor URL Goes Here), auto;}

right click on the cursor you want and copy the URL
then you can replace “Cursor URL Goes Here” with that URL

click “Update Preview” and then “Save” and that’s it!

(if you have any questions feel free to ask!)
- Mod Maki

Context: Return of the sensitive Knight and pretentious Rogue group! Our cleric worships a chaos god, and during a particularly trying battle, after being stuck in a hole for a few rounds- decides to pray to him.

Cleric: I pray to my god!

Me: Remember you have a 50/50 chance of it being something that makes it worse (last time he prayed, everyone lost their mouths for 3 turns).

Cleric: A chance I’m willing to take! *rolls nat 20*

Me: *rolls to see if it’ll be a good or bad happening- it’s good* Two burly and half dressed construction men appear, one picks you up out of the hole as the other starts to fill it in.

Cleric: Can he carry me the rest of this battle?

Me: Sure, enjoy your muscular men.

Cleric: SCORE! Thank you blessed god!!!

I’m gonna write a fic on it but guys Kenma is SO BAD when it comes to letting people know where he is.

Like on multiple occasions he’ll decide to just get on the train and go with only his phone, earbuds, and 3DS or somethings and he won’t let ANYONE know. ITS TERRIBLE BECAUSE WHERE ARE YOU GOING KENMA??? HE DonT KNOW! THERE GO DAT BOI!

one time when he just decided to get up and go for like the whole day he forgot that they had practice that morning so when kuroo appeared at his house he was giggity gone and he wasn’t answering any of his calls or texts and the only people who had access to the tracker on his phone was Kenma’s parents who were confidently in bora bora for the weekend so it took 37 phone calls 14 email and a Karasuno coach intervention to get through to the parents. Come to find that this doofus wasn’t even in Tokyo anymore. This dude was on the country side. In a whole nother prefecture??

Hinata and the caw crew caught up with him shortly after prompted by kuroo blowing their phones up and when Kenma got back to Tokyo he was in some deep doo doo

Like kuroo was blazing like he was livid

“sO WE JUST LEAVE NOW?? wE dONT ANSWER CALLS NOW??”

“Idk chill I was just going to the park-”

“iN MiYaGI??”

Long story short Kenma was grounded and now the Nekoma, and Karasuno have his tracker info. Tragic kid.

abstractingwords  asked:

If Laurens were an animal, would he be a ferret or a honey badger?

ok so like 6 different people have given me their varying opinions on Which Animal John Laurens Would Be and i dont really know so.. its time to

here are ALL OF THEM!!! with this new visual evidence the People can now decide on john laurens’s one true fursona

i forgot what john laurens looked like halfway through drawing these so. have some animals with little clothes and lil ponytails

abt the ovw new year event

id like to clear a few things up, just about i am both thrilled & angry about the execution of this event:

1. it’s not a bad thing that blizzard decided to create an even abt lunar new year. infact, i was ecstatic when they revealed mei & dva’s new year skins. its nice to have the lunar new year recognized & given the celebration it deserves, especially by a big game dev like blizz

2. it is bad, however, to celebrate a holiday such as lunar new year w/out respect and recognition of its origins. some things, like putting a qipao on a white woman (mercy) & “““““orient”“““-ifying the new skins, some in worse ways than others, just stink of ignorance !! we love that u recognize our holiday, but it’s OUR holiday, and many things w/ deep cultural significance, e.g., qipaos & (those things on junkr/ts chest that i cant remember the name of rn), can’t just be thrown around like a “fun, chinese-y decoration!”

3. i think blizz was on the right track when they did the journey to the west skins . those would not be considered cultural appropriation b/c they are fictional characters, at least from my perspective of an ABC, but they were a nice way to celebrate the festives / chinese culture w/out the mess that is some of the sprays & skins rn

tldr; there are good ways to celebrate a holiday that doesn’t culturally belong to u, and some of the things blizz did for lunar new years were bad and some of them were good

(note: i am 100% chinese & know very little abt korean traditions/cultures, so i dont claim to know or state any opinions about dvas skin or any korean symbols/designs used in the new yrs skins/sprays)