i cry every time i look at that picture

Sometimes I look at old pictures and I think- who was that girl? That girl on the left was sad. I used to lay in bed and cry.. I wanted so much more out of my life and my weight was truly holding me back from being happy. I never imagined being where I am today. I used to make every excuse as to why I was over weight- you know the “I’m big boned” or “my body was meant to be this size” all of which is total bullshit- but at the time I totally believed it! I had no idea what my body really looked like under all those pounds- 130 to be exact! Now it’s hard for me to look I the mirror and see what the rest of the world sees. Obviously I know I’m no longer “fat” but I also don’t see myself as “thin.” Sometimes I feel like a whale- how is that even possible? Extreme weight loss is a total mind fuck. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I just hope you know- if you’re that girl on the left- you are brave, you are capable, you are significant- and you can accomplish anything 💕

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anonymous asked:

idk if this has been done but how about mc lyric pranking the rfa+v+saeran? can be sfw or nsfw!

Saeran: Little Did You Know by Alex and Sierra 

You: Little did you know...

Saeran: Don’t tell me you ate my ice cream. 

You: How I’m breaking while you fall asleep, Little did you know… 

Saeran: Muffin, what are you talking about? Tell me, please remember no secrets between us 

You: Im still haunted by the memories…. Little did you know I’m trying to pick myself up piece by piece…

Saeran: Look I know I don’t deserve you okay but please tell me how can I help you because (y/n) you helped me pick up my pieces please babe please let me know how to help you… your scaring me…

You: Underneath it all, I’m held captive by the hole inside, Ive been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind…. 

Saeran: Please.. don’t tell my.. my biggest fear is coming true… please.. noo.. lets talk about this when I get home… please..

You: Im ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight 

Saeran: NO PLEASE NO IM SORRY PLEASE (Y/N) IM SORRY PLEA-

You: COOKIE IM SORRY ITS JUST A SONG I LOVE YOU… I ATE YOUR ICE CREAM IM SORRY… 

Saeran: @$#%! HDFGJQN GD^!*@ 

Jumin: Ego by Beyonce 

You: Aw, baby, how you doing? You know I’m gonna cut right to the chase, huh? Some women were made But me, myself? I like to think that I was created For a special purpose, You know? What’s more special than YOU? You feel me?

Jumin: Continue Kitten

You: It’s on, baby let’s get lost, You don’t need to call in to work ‘cause you’re the boss, For real, want you to show me how you feel, I consider myself lucky, that’s a big deal, Why

You: Well, you got the key to my heart, But you ain’t gonna need it, I’d rather you open up my body, And show me secrets you didn’t know was inside, No need for me to lie

Jumin: Keep going my love, you have my full attention *he exits the limo* 

You: It’s too big, Its too wide, its too strong, it won’t fit, its too much, it’s too tough, You got a big ego, such a huge ego, I Love your big ego..

*you hear the door open and then you felt your back lightly hit the couch* 

*You see jumin licking his lips and suddenly you felt his hot breath tickling your neck* 

Now now my kitten, lets see you stroke *grabs your hand and puts it on his crotch* this ego and lets make it fit shall we? 

Seven: Acquainted by The Weekend 

You: Baby you’re no good, caused they warned me bout your type, got me ducking left and right

Seven: You got that right ;)

You: You got me touchin on your body, to say that were in love is dangerous, but seven I’m glad we’re acquainted 

Seven: Really having my d**k in your mouth means that we are just acquainted.. WE ARE NOT EVEN FRIENDS. I THOUGHT WE WERE DATING. FINE IF YOU DONT APPRECIATE ME.. ILL FIND SOMEONE WHO DOES!! I AM HURT THAT YOU DEGRADED EVERYTHING WE HAVE TOGETHER 

Seven: Oh and if I was you, I would pick a song that we didn’t fuck to :) love you see you in 10 mins!! 

V: Gotta Catch em All - Pokemon Theme Song 

You: I want to be the very best, like no one ever was 

V: Hello my precious angel :) I hope you can accomplish your dreams and be the best in your field! Know I love and support you always! 

You: To catch them is my real test, to train them is my cause! 

V:  …… 

You: I will travel across the land, searching far and wide!

V: Teach Pokemon to understand!!!! The power that’s inside!!!! Pokemon, (gotta catch them all) its you and me!!!!!!! I know its my destiny!!!!

You: Pokemon, (gotta catch them all) its you and me, I know its my destiny
Pokemon, oh, you’re my best friend!!!!! In a world we must defend, Pokemon, (gotta catch them all) a heart so true!!!Our courage will pull us through

V: YOU TEACH ME 

YOU: AND I TEACH YOU!! 

V: POKEEMOOONN

YOU: POKEEEMOOOON !! I never would of that the amazing, carefree, would know the Pokemon theme song! I never knew you liked those stuff :

V: I like to be a bit mysterious… it goes with me.. Me and Jumin use to battle each other all the time..We still do…. I started with popplio.. he started with Rowlet… 

You: Dont fuck with my litten.

Yoosung: Burn by Usher 

You:  Its going to burn for me to say this but its coming from my heart 

You: It’s been a long time coming, we da been fall apart 

Yoosung: Baby do you need me to call an ambulance!! ARE YOU AT THE APARTMENT A HEART BURN SOUNDS SERIOUS 

You: I really want to work this out but I don’t think you’re gonna change

Yoosung: Have I done something wrong? :( I know you are out of my league, I hear my classmates whispering how can a pathetic guy like me have someone so beautiful as you :( 

You: I think its best we go our separate ways… 

Yoosung: I always dreamed of this day coming.. first… sally left… then Rika… and now you… I… respect your wishes (y/n).. can you please.. just wait till my last class is over? May I have permission to buy you your favorite flowers and food because if this is going to be my last time seeing you, I want to have a good memory of you….

You: *dies* *guilt* *his heart shattered* *your heart is shattering* YOOSUNG IM SORRY IT WAS A JOKE A LYRIC PRANK IM SORRY!!! YOU KNOW IM IN LOVE WITH YOU!!!! IM SORRRY 

Yoosung: WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO PLAY WITH MY HEART WHEN YOU KNOW ITS YOURS *SENDS CRYING EMOJI*

Zen: Pullin me Back by Chingy 

You: Every time I try to leave….something keeps pulling me back, Telling me I need you in my life

Zen: What do you mean ‘leave’. Define it and use it in a sentence. 

You: It was meant to be, You were meant for me, So that means we gotta make it work

Zen: I am legit confused. This is worse than an unpolished script. So you want to break my heart but then you want to make it work. We are talking about this when I get home. Im leaving practice right now. Just look at a picture of me and just remember all the good times we have. Please. 

You: It was all good at first, Spending money, going shopping, Eating at the finest restaurants,And then from club hopping

Zen:  So when you think and see a picture of me, all you think is materialistic things! REALLY! Wow, Jaehee was right about you, you were just using me. I’ll help pack your things when I get to my house. Thanks for breaking my heart. 

You: NO HYUN PLEASE IT WAS JUST A PRANK YOU KNOW I WOULD NEVER DO THAT PLEASE HYUN FUCK BABY PLEASE IM SORRY LOOK UP THE LYRICS AND YOU WILL SEE THAT ITS FROM A SONG AND AND BABY PLEASE 

Zen: *sends winks face selfie* Cute how my acting skills even work on you ;) I love you too baby, don’t ever think about messing with me ;) 

Jaehee: Come and Get It by Selena Gomez 

You: You ain’t gotta worry, its an open invitation 
Jaehee: Did you open my mail? 
You: I’ll be seating right here, real patient, All day all night, I be waiting standby 
Jaehee: Please (y/n) don’t stay up for me, Mr. DickHead has me working over time :( I don’t want you to sacrifice yourself for me :( 
You: Can’t stop because I love it, hate the way I love you, All day, all night, maybe I’m addicted for life, no lie.
Jaehee: You speak beautiful words hehe *3* thank you for making hell more bearable :) 
You: I’m not too shy to show I love you, I got no regrets. I love you much, too much to hide you, this love ain’t finished yet.
Jaehee:  What do you mean show me……. 
You: *sends nude* 
*jaehee in the office* 

Originally posted by kaaatana

Tsundere Jungkook in Bon Voyage

…when Jimin lost his bags.
I know, another throwback and random rant. I’m so sorry :D -.- But every time I remember moments like this it makes me smile, so maybe it will make someone else smile, too :)

Yesterday I mentioned how Jungkook keeps his ‚pokerface‘ sometimes on camera. This is really alike in a way. I was inspired by that lovely gifset of Jungkook in Bon Voyage, first all about pranking Jimin who lost his phone. But the second sad Jimin appeared, Jungkook gave him his phone, his plans to prank him flying out of the window. (♥♥)

The beginning of Bon Voyage where Jimin forgot his suitcase on the bus is very similar situation. We have foolish, cute and panicked Jimin over his bag, dad Namjoon and mom Jin dealing with it, rest of the members shook… and then we have Jungkook. Who is not even on camera as much, but when he is, there’s just footage of him, being very nervous. We all know he has lots of things he does when he’s nervous/not comfortable, among others, there are these „mouth-movements“ (yep, there’s also Jeonlous tongue thing :D ^^). So while Namjoon calls the consulate, Jungkook is quiet but his expression is screaming once again.

One of the staff members goes to him and asks him on camera how he feels about this whole „Jimin-lost-his-bags“ situation. Jungkook is casual af, even goes through his hair – totally chill – and says: „Oh, you just have to let it go!“. Pretending he doesn’t care. Yeah, sure you don’t, that’s why you almost ate your face from the inside earlier. (His face reminds me of that in AHL when they kidnapped them. I don’t know till this day if he bit his lips so he wouldn’t cry or he bit his lips so he would cry and kidnappers took mercy upon him, but sure as heck he wasn’t feeling cool about that situation, either.)

Anyway they go to their apartment, then they grab some food, he still pretends he’s casual about everything, even takes pictures of some flowers :D (I laugh so hard at that part every time :D)
Well, Jimin then goes to pick up his bags from the airport bus and as he’s coming back, guess who we see in the window of the restaurant, full with his „you have to let it go“ attitude, looking over if Jimin has his things now?

…I bet you’re all surprised. It’s Jungkook. Only one of the other six members that paces by the window, probably nervous if his hyung found his belongings.

So, same as yesterday, I’m not sure what I was trying to do here. But I’m just gonna say Jungkook likes to act all tsundere on Bon Voyage, when it’s obvious he’s soft for Jimin-hyung. And once again, I think that’s cute :D ^^

K, bye ~

THEORIES/JUST SCREAMING?

OKAY SO WE’RE ALL SHOOK AS HECK FROM THE NEW TEASER AND ALL OF THE VOLTRON STUFF WE’VE RECEIVED WITHIN THE LAST LIKE 24 HOURS, BUT LET’S GO OVER SOME OF THAT STUFF SHALL WE?

1) FEMALE HALF GALRA SOILDERS WORKING FOR/WITH LOTOR; A FEW THINGS:

Okay so I keep looking at the main girl in front and I can’t help but notice that each girl has a slightly different uniform from each other. Some are right down to small orange lines going across their sides to different shoulder pads. Another thing is that we know these girls work for Lotor, so my question is, why did he send one out to go get scultrite? Girl whatchu doin? Just spitballing here but wHAT IF IT HAS TO DO WITH LOTOR’S OWN TELEDUV OR THE WHITE LION. NOT PROBABLE BUT POSSIBLE. But then another thought hit me when it was confirmed these girl’s were HALFLINGS.  Since Lotor is most likely half galran and half altean, DID HE RECRUIT THESE BABES BECAUSE HE RELATES TO THEM OR WANTS PEOPLE TO KNOW HALFLINGS ARE NOT TO BE MESSED WITH? Conclusion: gOD DAMN THEY’RE ALL GOOD LOOKIN. CANT WAIT TO SEE THESE BABES IN ACTION.

2) NEW BADASS SHIP THAT GOTTA BELONG TO EITHER LOTOR OR ONE OF THE FEMALE GENERALS

3) SPACE AZULA

Okay so many people have been saying that this girl is actually Keith’s mom and I HOPE TO ZARKON SHE IS. THE RESEMBELANCE IS UNCANNY. But, remember how the producers said that all the female generals/warriors are HALFLINGS? But what could she be if she is a Halfling? Half galra/human? OR THE SAME AS LOTOR (HALF GALRA AND HALF ALTEAN?) I’m just randomly saying thoughts that come to mind and I’m just judging by the eyes and the ears. But if she is Keith’s mom I will scream because I love her so much already. But if she were the same as Lotor, I can picture her being VERY CLOSE WITH LOTOR and probably important to the plot, since she is most certainly the weblum girl due to the outfit she wears. bUT ANOTHER THING: I keep looking at the shocked Galra in the back and her angry expression and I can’t help but think that this must be the scene where that “who’s this little fellow?” calls out Lotor. And this is her and the crowd’s reaction to it. Shes gotta be looking at that guy here. Because obviously if her and Lotor are close or just acquainted, she wouldn’t like people being mean to her man.

4) LOTOR’S SHIP AND ALLURA’S REACTION

Okay so every time I look at this frame, I can’t help but feel like the ship Allura is staring at is Lotor’s. I mean it’s big and all of the fighter crafts are flying out from it, the same we see the in trailers and teasers obviously serving under Lotor. I am just tRYING TO PICTURE ALLURA’S REACTION TO SEEING THIS. I can imagine her being either completely shook or like, ready to cry. Because we still don’t know what Allura’s relationship was to Lotor in the past. But since we’ve basically confirmed that Alfor and Zarkon were best buds, there’s no doubt they would have brought their kids together and they were most likely friends. But the biggest thing I cannot wait for to see in season three is LOTOR AND ALLURA’S MEETING/REUNION(?). Will she try to persuade him into fighting along side them? Will Lotor experience some inner conflict? Will Allura hate him? Will we see a battle or a sentimental moment between these two? OR JUST ALL OF THE ABOVE WOULD BE GREAT THANKS.

5) IS THAT ZARKON? WHO’S BESIDE IS HE LAYING BY?!

oKAY THIS FRAME GOT ME SHOOK. Who in the world is Zarkon by in this photo, if it’s even him? This could be 1 of 4 things I’m theorizing:

i) Zarkon’s Wife?

ii) King Alfor?

iii) Lotor?

iv) A Family Member or Close Friend?

All of the options are still up in the air but I’m really torn through a few choices. Because we see sunlight coming in through the window (which must imply this is a peaceful day) judging by the rays. However a part of me thinks it may be Alfor due to this frame:

See how everything is on fire and is emitting a golden ray? We don’t know for sure who Zarkon is killing here but it seems to be someone dressed in white, which may be Alfor (due to the light armour we have seen him in). Now I highly doubt that Zarkon would take the time to tuck in his best friend who he had just murdered but one can dream.

ANYWAY those were my random theories/thoughts that I had come up with at 1 am so go ahead and let me know what you think and if I’ve missed anything! I love seeing when you guys message me or leave anon comments! Until next time, adios.

anonymous asked:

How BTS Reacts to You Crying Because They're About to Leave For Tour

Sure thing ~ I’m having a lot of fun writing these so please keep requesting! And if I can’t get to it right away I apologize, I-sadly-have a life outside of tumblr.

BTS: Reaction to you crying bc they’re leaving for tour

•Jin: He knew how sensitive you were, especially when it came to him leaving. So he was gentle with his words and actions. As soon as your tears started, he cradled you and kissed you all over, trying not to chuckle.

“I’m doing my best for you so you have to say strong and wait for me ok?”

•Yoongi: He was really insensitive when it came to certain things. He’d say things so nonchalant. 

“I’m going on tour.” And almost immediately you started to cry. He’d instantly feel bad but he’d stay tough. “Stop crying…” he said, but he, himself started to get choked up. He hugged you and kissed you repeatedly until you got tired from crying and end up falling asleep. “Such a crybaby…”

•Namjoon: When he saw your tears forming in your eyes, he couldn’t help but smile. He knew how much you cared about him and he loved that feeling. He grabbed onto your shoulders gently and kissed your head. 

“Baby look at me.” He chuckled softly and trailed his hands down your sides.“Don’t worry, I’ll make it feel like I never left your side”

•Hoseok: It was just as hard for him to tell you as it was for you to hear it. He hated watching you cry because of him. 

“I promise I’ll be home soon.” He whined and showered you in kisses. He made funny noises and faces to make you smile.“Smile, smile! I don’t wanna leave you when you’re looking all sad!”

•Jimin: He called you late at night to tell you he’d be leaving soon on tour and he wouldn’t be able to see you before then. He felt awful, and the sad cries you let out made him tear up. He started to lecture you, telling you to be careful while he was gone.

“Don’t look at any other boys… and stay off the streets at night!”

•Taehyung: Don’t get him wrong, he hated to see you cry! But he loved to know you’d miss him. He started pinching your cheeks and mocking your whining, kissing you every once in a while. He was just trying to make you smile even though he felt just as sad.

“I promise I’ll take tons of pictures, and I’ll tell you where I am at all times. When I get to a certain place, when I leave…”

•Jungkook: He was a little nervous to tell you at first since he knew you were a sensitive person, and as soon as he saw those tears he started kicking himself. Maybe he could’ve put it differently? He cuddled with you and sang for you to help you stop crying. He played with your hair, something you absolutely adored.

“I’ll call you everyday to sing to you.”

BTS Reacting to Their S/O Being Almost 9 Months Pregnant and Being Insecure

Request by Anon:  BTS reacting to their s/o being almost 9months pregnant & him thinking that she’s even more beautiful because she’s carrying their child??


I love this scenario! Honestly, it was kinda challenging to write something different for each one beacause the boys would love you so much if you’re carrying their child and think you are always beautiful so I decided to make it a mix of a dabble and a reaction. I love this reaction so much and giggled the whole time to myself while writing this that my parents had to check up on me three times! Anyways enjoy you guys!


Taehyung: This guy… (sigh). He is the perfect definition of an over worrying expecting father. This guy will follow each step you make thinking even stepping too hard might you and your baby. He would ask you what you’re craving until he will be the reason you lose your appetite. JK ( not Jungkook. See what I did there). Seriously though he will do anything you ask of him and tell you how beautiful you are and that you guys should have more babies to keep that bright glow on your face. (You know he wants to have a lot of kids). You wouldn’t even have the thought of having any insecurities because he will erase them before you even have them (by flowering you with kisses). Overall, this guy is going make an amazing father and a husband. (Is it obvious that he’s my bias?)

Him grabbing your face randomly to show you how much he loves you. 

Jungkook: This guy being the maknae, he will most likely have a child after at least some of his hyungs have their own families. He would take that as an advantage and ask his hyungs everything he has to do while his S/O is pregnant. The rest of BTS who have faced the various mood swings, cravings, and morning sickness will tell him the most important thing was to make sure she still feels beautiful in his eyes. Then he would be like, “But she’s always beautiful to me.” The rest of BTS will be like, “Yeah, but she needs to hear it from you idiot!” He would tell you you’re beautiful at least 10 times a day after that. He would say it to the point you would be creeped out, but he just wants to make sure he does everything right. (This nervous bunny. He acts confident, but we all know him that he’s a cute little bunny on the inside)

Originally posted by sugataecups

When Jimin tells him to never come empty handed when his S/O is craving something, and Taehyung’s like oh yeah I totally forgot about that, and Jungkook is like “wow seriously?”

J-Hope: Another follower. This guy would have a smile plastered on his face the minute he heard you were pregnant with his baby. He would comfort you whenever you have morning sickness and make sure you ate healthily. If you start having any doubts about how you look to him because you have a baby bump? You are in for it. He will go on for at least an hour on how much he loves you no matter how you look. In fact seeing your baby bump makes him fall more in love with you. This sweetheart will make you cry from how much he loves you.

Originally posted by myloveseokjin

His excited face every time you go get an ultrasound. 

Namjoon: I don’t know why, but I’m picturing him with glasses the whole time (I have a weird interest towards guys with glasses- you know the ones that idols wear a lot). He would be writing some lyrics (about you) as you sigh and rub your belly. At first, he wouldn’t notice, but as you seem to smile less and less as the months went, he would understand that you’re feeling insecure (with the help of the other boys and the internet). I think he would be the most direct about how he feels from all the boys. He would straight out tell you how amazing you are, and he loved the fact that there’s going to be a half Namjoon and half you running around the house. He would then show you the new songs he wrote to serenade you. (I don’t know why but I’m imagining this in a study room)

Originally posted by taetaehyungs

He looks so good with glasses!

Jin:J I can imagine it. You suddenly not eating because you think it will add to the weight you gained from the baby bump. He would notice immediately because you normally eat his food in one mouthful. You wouldn’t even have to tell him he would just know. He would kneel in front of you, make you face him, and hold your hand. “I love you. Thank you for taking care of our baby. He/she is so lucky to have a wonderful mother, and I’m so lucky to have such a beautiful woman to call mine. Now, what are you craving for? ” He would say it in a way that you wouldn’t feel he said it because he noticed your insecurities, which is even better.

Originally posted by allforbts

Imagine him doing this while he cooks for you. (I’m cringing, but happy just thinking about it)

Yoongi: He would totally take you to his studio and play music for you and your baby to listen. He would want his baby to know his passion towards music and want his child to share the same passion. If he feels that you feel bad about your pregnant self, he would write songs about how beautiful you are to him no matter what. He would be upset that he thinks that of yourself, especially with your child approaching. Although he’s not a guy that expresses himself externally, he will make sure you know how much he loves you and your unborn child. (This guy… he’s a romantic underneath all that sarcastic layers).

Originally posted by exoticmaknae

Imagine Tae was your child. (I just love this gif. Yoongi looks like he’s so used this that he gave up being annoyed. Well if you can beat em, smile at their cuteness) 

Jimin: If you’re pregnant with his child, I’m sure your relationship with him would be public. He would want to take walks with you to take a break from life and low-key (more like high-key) show off his wife carrying his child (because you’re so beautiful and he wants others after you to get the hint). You would refuse because you’re self-conscious about your weight and that it would embarrass him. He’d start laughing when he hears that. “You’re kidding me right? I think we need to take you for an eye check up,” he’d lift your chin with one hand and place his other hand on your belly, ”because all I see is a radiant goddess standing in front of me”

Originally posted by bangtanboyvines

His smile (Swoon!!!!). You’re one lucky person if you end up with this fluff ball. 

A-Z Pregnancy for Barry Allen

BARRY ALLEN:
A= Aftercare After Birth

Barry knew through that carrying your half meta human offspring was quite the toll on you. You’d do it all over again though in a heartbeat. You slept for a long time, almost 12 straight hours. To be fair, it was a 4 hour labor. Barry didn’t object as he spent the whole time with the baby. After you woke up he treated you like you were glass. Helping you walk making sure nothing happened. 

B= Baby

The baby was a good mixture of you two. They had Barry’s eyes and thick, full lashes. They had your nose, his mouth. You claimed that the baby looked more like Barry than they did you, Barry says the baby looks just like you more than it does him. Either was they were the cutest baby anybody in Central City had laid eyes on. 

C= Care Taking

Barry’s favorite thing was taking care of the baby. Even diaper duty. He always did it with a smile. Even if it was late at night and you hear the familiar cry of your baby he’d speed out of the room and took care of it. His favorite thing was laying the baby on his chest. He hated to be away when he had to protect the city however. 

D= Delivery

Delivery of a baby half meta human is the worst. The whole pregnancy was tough considering that the baby had picked up his appetite. You were constantly overeating. But the moment your water broke you were at the hospital. Barry held your hand the entire time though. He never left and despite almost breaking his hand, he was okay. He whispered encouraging words from the moment you were told to push to the shrill cry of your newborn baby.

E= Emergencies

You had been passing out a lot lately. Just collapsing and finally Barry insisted you go to Caitlin and Julian. They explained that the baby was taking all the food and that you could be having an at risk pregnancy. Eventually you got your diet settled out and got to be healthy again. 

F= Falling

You were pregnant how were you suppose to watch where you were going?! It was hard enough with swollen limbs to walk. Barry always seemed to speed over and catch you before you could make contact with the dangerous floor. You couldn’t complain. 

G= Gender (s)

Your first baby was a little boy. You later had another little girl when your boy was about three. You had twins after them. One girl and one boy. 

H= Hair Color

All of them have Barry’s brown hair….all of them. 

I= Illness

Like aforementioned, the babies all picked up Barry’s appetite in the womb. Mostly taking the food you had taken in. So once yo figured out just the right portion sizes, the rest of the pregnancy was a breeze, but before you were so frail from lack of food. 

J= Jumping

When you were in labor Barry was jumping with excitement. He was so ready to be a dad. He jumped the moment you told him you were pregnant, the first time he heard they’re heartbeat. Jumpy man. 

K= Keeping the Baby?

Of course!

L= Love

Barry’s love for your bump and baby(ies) was so huge. He was there for almost everything (he is a superhero remember) but he was there for everything he had control over. He was one of the best fathers ever. And with advice from Joe he was even better than perfect. 

M= Movement

Barry loved to feel the baby kicking. He loved to poke your bump with a vibrating finger, because they always kicked back in response. Despite some annoyance when it was late at night and he woke you up with a poke and a childish giggle. 

N= Normal Cravings

With your boy you craved Chinese food. With your girl you craved blueberries and strawberries. But with your twins you craved ice cream. 

O= On Time

All your kids were on time…except for the twins. The twins were two weeks late and you had to be induced. Not fun at all. 

P= Pain

Barry hated every delivery, he almost lost you every time. You would scream even with an epidural. He let you clutch his hand as tight as you needed. 

Q= Questions

“What does breastfeeding feel like?”
“What does the baby kicking feel like?”

“When are they going to get here?!”

R= Resting

You took a lot of naps. Normally you were curled into Barry’s side with half eaten food on your lap. Barry had pictures of you. 

S= Singing to the Baby

Barry sings sweet sings like “Apple of my eye.” “My sunshine” and “Light” by Sleeping at Last. And you cry every time because it’s just so beautiful and cute. 

T= Talking to the Baby

“Hello belly baby! It’s daddy here! You get bigger every day you know that…don’t grow too fast on me baby…daddy loves you so much…you look like your mom but she says you look just like me…I say you’re lucky either away. I love you so much little one. I’m going to make sure you’re always safe.”

U= Underneath the Man/Womans Heart

Barry likes to rest his head on your bump. He claims to hear the baby’s heartbeat but you know it’s a lie. 

V= Vision as in Supervision

You both keep your kids under close supervision. You make sure not to hover but sometimes it just happens. 

W= When the Baby is Born

The whole house is baby proofed and you have a welcoming committee waiting for you when you come too. Everyone is congratulating you and arguing over the title of god parent and who gets to hold them. You both simply shake your head and continue giving your attention to the baby. 

X= Xray or Ultrasound

Barry cried at almost ultrasounds. He just couldn’t believe it was happening. 

Y= Yawning

Barry loves when the baby yawns. When they’re beautiful eyes crack open as their little body rises. It makes him giggle at their cuteness.

Z= ZZZ

You and Barry both worship any time you get to sleep. You both take shifts. 

the life and times of ryan ross pt 8

.2015/2016

welcome all! make sure to thank @jen–ne–sais–quoi for the existence of these posts because the poor thing asked to know about ryan and now she probably knows more than she ever wanted to!

here in our final chapter, we shall see what ryan has been up to from where we left off in 2015 to as current as we can be as of today (feb 26, 2017) this is mostly links and pictures because he didn’t actually do a whole lot

alright, early 2015. pretty much all ryan ross does is spend time with friends, mostly dan keyes and ryland blackinton. he goes to coachella and looks lovely in his hawaiian shirt. 

he also posted some teasers about making music on instagram, but we saw no new music. 

the most important thing about 2015 is ryan’s beard. 

look at it. it’s glorious. 

in february/march of 2015 zayn has left one direction (this is a ryan ross post, why is she talking about one direction??? it’s relevant, i promise.) someone thought it would be funny to edit the 1d wikipedia page to day that ryan ross had joined the band. 1d fangirls lost their minds. ryan tweeted “ You guys got it all wrong, the four remaining members of One Direction are joining MY band” 

if you look at his twitter throughout 2015, some of the tweets are vastly different than others. it could’ve been him on drugs, it could’ve been shane morris. personally, i think it was more shane, but the other is a possibility. also in june 2015, he got super fucked up and crashed a PHASES show. there are pictures of it out there, but i don’t think it’s really appropriate to share them. i also vaguely remember someone (z maybe?) asking for them to not be shared because ryan was really embarrassed and upset about it. about the incident he said “Def was having too much fun at the Phases show tonight, I promise I’ll never do it again  again” so there’s that.

then in july ryro got a girlfriend! he began dating model helena vestergaard and it seemed really good for him. it was certainly good for all of us fans because he posted so much while they were together. she also posted a lot about him. there were so many ryan pictures. it was glorious. here are some pics

then the next most important thing of 2015 happened. 

dorothy ross. 

ryan and helena got the cutest puppy in the world

from then on his instagram is pretty much dottie, but none of us mind because she’s precious. 

we also got this monstrosity

that’s all i’m gonna say about that. more helena and dottie pictures. then we get a picture where ryan tells us he’s taking vocal lessons!! and then he posted a teeny clip of a new song!!! more dottie & helena. a video of him learning to box?

don’t forget that this era of ryan likes hockey and baseball. he watches both and plays hockey too. 

halloween 2015. the fucking party. so. you thought we were done talking about brendon urie. we’re not. by 2015, he and ryan are not talking, at all. brendon usually avoids talking about ryan at all. then adam levine (yes, that one) has a halloween party. ryan’s invited because he’s best friends with mickey madden. he goes as a gremlin. well, a mogwai because he’s fuzzy and not scaly, but yeah. 

brendon, dressed as a skeleton and with sarah, was also there. as far as i’m aware, they basically didn’t even talk. brendon goes on to mention it a million times.

btw, by this point ryan doesn’t use his twitter anymore, it’s all just instagram links. there were some tweets earlier in the year that i’ll be talking about in my shane morris companion piece, but basically, shane likes to troll ryan’s fans by tweeting things or posting things on facebook then quickly deleting them.

also in 2015, ryan posts a picture of what seem to be song titles along with promises for making new music (the “shut the fuck up” was in response to someone telling him to go to bed btw) 

we’re now at the end of 2015. it seems like this is when ryan finally disconnects his twitter from his instagram because (except for one) his tweets stop and his instagram continues. he has also dropped shane morris as his manager (thank god)

near the beginning of 2016, ryan tells us that he has written a song for a band called agelast (sadly, that is pronounced ah-gel-ist, not age-last) he posted on both twitter and facebook about this. i’m inclined to believe both posts were actually him, not shane, but who knows. there was this comment on the facebook page that would be nice if it was from him. 

then, also early 2016, he and helena broke up. he was all set to fly to visit her in australia on a long term modeling job, and maybe he did, but that was that on helena vestergaard. she deleted all traces of him from her social media. he continued to play hockey and post pictures of dottie. 

he also bought 5 pounds of sour patch kids, causing all of us to fear for his health. then he starts to become a bit of a recluse. he posts a lot less frequently and it’s usually dottie pictures. 

then he goes to a renaissance fair and saves lives with his look 

easily the most important part of 2016 was when ryan did a surprise performance with dan keyes’ band cologne at emo nite la. it’s everything. EVERYTHING. watch it now. it felt like a nice comeback and he looked GOOD

we also got another tiny song clip. more pictures and videos of dottie. he also modeled some new PHASES merch with Z and Langley 

he went to the beach and we were blessed with this glorious image 

then he turned 30! and jeremy burke & alison harvard threw him a mini party at midnight with pizza! 

also sometime in august, his demo ep was deleted from soundcloud (his whole soundcloud was deleted) along with his site going down and his facebook page being deleted. the only thing we know is actually ryan is his instagram. 

then came halloween. with costumes in the past like et, a sloth, and a gremlin, we knew he would not disappoint. he was link from legend of zelda and he spent a good amount of the party (adam levine’s again, bden was not there) with victoria asher and gabe saporta from cobra starship. have some pics. 

(that’s gabe beside him)

then he “drank some blood” in this adorable video with his vocal coach

throughout 2016, a director named dan adams (glitterworldinc on insta) had been tagging ryan in a lot of pictures. i’m going to make a companion piece for him as well, but i’ll mention him here. he posts pictures of ryan, sometimes with strange captions, sometimes with rude captions. many pictures didn’t have ryan in them, but he was tagged. some pictures were of ryan’s house or around echo park. see more about that in the companion piece. lots of speculation went on about what he was doing with ryan. we’ll get to that in a minute. something more exciting now. the longest clip of new music that makes me cry every single time i listen to it, that callback line. (fun fact, z commented on it and called him space boi which is where i get one of my tags for him)

he looked beautifully goth for new years 

now we’re in 2017!

we found out this year that all the things glitterworldinc had been posting are because ryan’s going to be in his new movie!! he’s playing a character named Dewey Parsons in daniel adams’ new movie starmaker

the newest picture we have from ryan himself is this

and dan adams (glitterworldinc) has recently posted two! one was posted today! 

and that is basically everything i know about ryan ross’ life from the earliest facts i know to today! thank you for coming along on this crazy long ride with me and reading this giant mess. i’ll make those companion pieces here soon, so look out for those!

EDIT: Update!!!!! ryan posted this mere hours after i finished this because he likes to make my life harder (i’m mostly kidding, i love him so much)

his caption: “On all twos Makin tunes on toons”

EDIT NUMBER 2: i should have made an outline for these posts, jesus christ. i told you all in another post that the guitar ryan burned alive would be important later and then i never told you why. the why is because brendon still has it. yep, he has the guitar that ryan burned all the way back in the cabin/pretty. odd. era. how do we know this? oh, just because brendon put it in his literal house of memories. it’s fine, i’m not crying. (it’s not fine, i am crying) the house of memories is a vip thing for this tour where fans can go in and take pictures with a bunch of old panic! things, from the masks from fever era to stuff from the victorious video. i would kill to go. 

anonymous asked:

Tim, I have to confess something. Every night I go to bed, lay down, and cry myself to sleep whilst looking at pictures of you because of how beautiful you are. I recite everything you say on this blog so many times that its carved into my mind forever. Tim. I love you. Do you love me?

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An Aquarius rolled over and slowly wrapped an arm around me. Her eyes opened and she smiled, leans to kiss me. She then to trailed her finger on my chest and said, “Good morning..” in her sleepy tone. She wasn’t always like this. She wasn’t into the whole touching, or being too cuddly but I guess she brought her walls down.

An Aries messaged me the other night, writing a long paragraph about herself. She admitted to having BPD, Dyslexia and having the mood to just push everyone away. She then wrote, “I don’t think I can ever say this to anyone else, but I’m hoping you’ll accept me for me. It took me enough time to tell you this. I like you.” And I knew then she brought her walls down.

A Cancer appeared on my doorstep one night, and she was carrying a bottle of champagne and two red box DVDs and I knew they were going to be some sappy movies. She hurriedly placed herself on the couch and ordered me to sit down next to her. I knew she was going to cry and I loved spending time with her every Tuesday night.

A Capricorn placed her hands on my chest and slowly massaged her palms on me. She looked at me with her beautiful eyes, and leaned to kiss me. Slowly her hands search for mine and she played with them as we kissed. Her kisses were so soft and reassuring, and she took the lead in every kiss and every pause. She loved me with her heart.

A Gemini took pictures of me every single day. She’d laugh at every picture of me and places it onto her shrine in her room. She used to take black and white photographs of things, but lately she’s been more vibrant and her photographs have more color and meaning. And she loved the feeling of being gone for a certain amount of time only to come back happier than ever.. She brought her walls down.

A Leo climbed ontop of me and settled herself on my chest, looking down at me. She started to make faces at me and busted out laughing. Laughed until tears rolled down her cheeks, and slowly she let out a soft smile and laid ontop of me. “I’m so sorry for being so silly. I got too comfortable..” She shouldn’t have apologized. I loved seeing her more open like that.

A Libra was browsing along some websites and brought her attention on some geek website thing. She looked over to me and gave me a smile, and then back at the screen. “You’re going to love me even more after you get this gift..” I was confused, and she just continued to browse the internet.

A Pisces and I left a diner one night, and took her home. I got a text from her and was surprised to see a long paragraph that said: “I can’t stop thinking about you. I can’t stop thinking about a possible future with you, and this. This right now I’m feeling is all too new to me. You make me happy, you do and my goodness. I’m so lost, alot of things are in my head right now. Arrgh..” and I laughed and smiled at her text, and I knew she brought her walls down for me.

A Sagittarius admitted to me on our 4th date that she thinks alot, and how slowly and slowly as we have been dating she has added me into her plans, and have already has a picture about the future. She laughed and said, “I’m stupid for that, huh? I’m so sorry. I overthink too much. I don’t know, forget it. Forget it. Just hold my hand and forget it..”

A Scorpio bit her lip, and slowly rests her head on my shoulder and we just stood there in silence. It was really peaceful. She was the kind of person that wouldn’t stay quiet and had a lot to say, but she just stayed there and held my hand in hers..

A Taurus hurried herself to me, carrying a bunch of music records and some books. She settled us on a nearby couch in the store, and explained everything she carried and how each item shows some importance for her. I noticed a book and picked it up, and she quickly pulled it from me and smiled. “This was the book I was reading, remember? I lost my copy but this was the book I was reading, and you asked me..” and she looked at me with softness in her eyes.

A Virgo watched as the rain hits the window. The sound of her favorite song is on, and a cup of tea in her hand. She hears me walk towards her and her body seems to relax and at the right moment leans herself to me. She tilted her head to the side to face me and said, “I don’t think I’d ever want to lose this moment. So, uh, you better marry me now or else..” She laughed. She wasn’t always like this. She was reserved and cool, she was afraid of human connections and at this moment I knew that she has let me in, and brought her walls down for me.

—  Open Doors.
True Colors

Group: BTS

Pairing: RAP MONSTER X READER

Requested: @dreaming-an-eternal-slumber said: Can I request a scenario based off of the song “True colors by The Weeknd” any member that you feel suits it best. If that’s okay? Love your writing ^.^!

Excerpt:Namjoon dipped his head down so his lips were next to your ear, “I want to see you true colours, don’t keep me in the dark.”

Genre: angst / fluff

Length: 0.9k

A/N: ive had quite a few song requests and I end up obsessed with the songs! Also thank you for requesting off anon! I usually get round to those faster! I hope you enjoy the drabble~

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

 “Tell me the truth, Y/N,” you looked across the bar at Namjoon, his arm had been lazily wrapped around your waist, but it tightened as he continued, but as he saw your nervous look his grip relaxed slightly, “Baby, we’ve been going out for a while, and we both have a dark past but as your current boyfriend; who else have you been with?”

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I’ve been so busy, I never got to post about some of the witchy things I got in NYC.

I visited Enchantments (it’s in manhattan and is listed as the oldest occult store in NYC @flower-morgue).

I couldn’t take pictures but it was filled with herbs and beautiful things and a precious angel of a cat.

I got more bay leaves than I will ever need. I was also called to by the hermetic tarot (and it is so detailed and beautiful. I cry every time I look at it). Plus I picked up this gorgeous tarot card bag (featured in the back).

I’m super happy and I look forward to the next time I’m in NYC.

The Alexander Family and Their Tragic Loss

Travis Alexander’s family were a fixture in court during the Jodi Arias trial. They had to sit and endure every graphic autopsy picture, hear read aloud every salacious text and listen to a sex tape recorded by Jodi Arias. It wasn’t until the end of trial that we got to hear from the Alexander family. What we heard was heart-wrenching.


Steven Alexander

Steven recalled during his victim impact statement the night his wife answered the fateful phone call that changed his life forever. His wife solemnly told him that his big brother had been murdered. Upon hearing the news, Steven said he walked out his back door and started screaming at the sky asking why. Steven then sank down in a corner and cried.

During the victim impact statements, Steven said he thought of his brother as bulletproof. “I thought he was stronger than anything, that he couldn’t be cut down or knocked down…He was unbreakable.”

This is the last picture Travis and Steven took together. This was taken the Christmas before Travis was murdered.


Tanisha Sorenson

When it came time for Travis’ sister Tanisha to give her statement, it was clear how emotionally destroyed she was by the loss of her big brother. Tanisha, reading from her prepared speech, said "When our parents died, Travis was our rock. When we found out Travis was dead we had nobody to comfort us. Our family has been through a living hell. There are not enough words to express what we’ve been going through. His murder tore the family apart.” She continued, "I’m obsessed with carrying out Travis’s legacy. I’ve lost myself in this. I’ve experienced so much depression that I’ve almost lost my husband. I started to lose my faith in God and my will to live. I am continually reminded of the death of brother - over - and over. The autopsy photos of my brother’s decomposing body and mummified face are the images I can’t get out of my head”

Tanisha had also mentioned that people were sending her pictures of Travis’ autopsy photo’s through email. Traumatizing her all over again.

Tanisha sitting at the grave site of her brother


Samantha Alexander

Samantha Alexander had been camping before she heard the news of her brothers death. She was about to start canoeing when she decided to check her voice messages. There was one message from her grandmother telling her to call her back immediately. Samantha recognized her grandmothers tone and knew that someone had died. When she called, her sister Tanisha answered sobbing, screaming “Travis is dead”.

During Samantha’s victim impact statement she said “Our minds are permanently stained with the images of our poor brother’s throat slit ear to ear. To have Travis taken so barbarically is beyond any words we can find to express our horrific loss.”

Samantha had last seen Travis weeks before his murder. They had been discussing the losses their family have had to endure over the years. They both agreed that neither would be able to handle another loss again. Before Travis left Samantha’s house that day, he pressured her into taking a photo together. She didn’t want to because she was in her pajama’s. But she reluctantly agreed. When viewing the picture during her statement she said "It makes me cry every time I look at it. I’m so glad he made me take this picture. I will cherish it for the rest of my life.”

The last picture Samantha took with Travis weeks before his murder.


Hillary Wilcox

Finally, the most heartbreaking statement was given by Travis’ little sister, Hillary Wilcox. Speaking to the judge she said “I don’t want to remember him anymore because it hurts too much to remember him alive.”

Hillary with her big brother Travis

A super quick midlink i did yesterday since I had a super stressful morning and I needed something to help decompress and since I couldn’t stop thinking about them all morning thanks to pixiv recommending me pictures of Midna I decided to use them (m*´∀`)m I MISS THEM SO MUCH every time I’m reminded of them I cry a little. 

I might neaten this up at some point but I also like it messy WE’LL SEE. It was fun either way tho ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡

Where’s My Love - Stiles Stilinski

listen to the song here ( I REALLY RECOMMEND THIS ONE GUYZ )

Cold bones

Yeah that’s my love

She hides away like a ghost

“You can’t catch me! You can’t catch me!” You sing songed, running all over the Stilinski’s back yard.

Your families were neighbors, and both you and Stiles were six, so you played together every day.  It was a fast and easy friendship to make.

“No fair! You’re faster than me!” The boy with messy hair panted.  You giggled, spinning around, your pigtails flying.  

“Come on Mitchy!”

“I said I wanna be Stiles!” You shook your head, running over to him and jumping onto his back.  He caught you with ease, and began running around again.  It was amazing how much energy kids could have.

“Well everyone else can call you Stiles, because I’m the only one who gets to know your real name” You said cheekily.

“Okay! It’ll be a special thing.  I’ll call you… uh… y/n/n!” You giggled at the silliness and nodded.

“Okay deal!” You agreed.

Ooh, does she know that we bleed the same?

Don’t wanna cry but I break that way

“It’s an emergency Stiles!” You whined through your bedroom door.  He stood in the hall on the other side.

“Is it? Because last time you told me something was an emergency, you were distracting me and you took my best pokemon card and my Mets hat!” he said back.  

“Please” You begged.

“Ugh” You heard him stomp his foot on the floor.  “Fine.  But only because somehow your puppy eyes work through the door” He said, and opened it.  “I don’t know how you-” Stiles stopped when he saw you, jaw dropping open at the sight.

Tonight was your first school dance, you were seventh graders.  It was low key, but still a milestone.  And… you’d never dressed up before.  Not even a skirt.  SO when Stiles saw you in a cream colored dress with a simple brown belt, his eyes had noticeably widened.

“Oh my god is it that bad?” Tears welled in your eyes and Stiles quickly shook his head, crossing his room to you.

“No no, it’s great, it’s um, it’s pretty” He’d never said anything that made him feel so awkward.  But he was telling the truth.  In fact he wanted to tell you that you looked beautiful, but he didn’t want to cross a line.  You looked down at your outfit unsurely, a few tears slipping from your eyes.  “No don’t cry y/n, don’t cry” He walked behind you, and zipped up the last two  inches, because you couldn’t reach it and gave up.  “I mean it you look really pretty, like, princess pretty”

“Thanks Mitchy” You mumbled, finally glancing up and taking in his button down and nice pants.  He even had a tie.  You smiled and grabbed onto his hand.  “Come on, be my prince charming for the night”

God his heart was like thunder in his chest.

Cold sheets, but where’s my love?

I am searching high, I’m searching low

In the night ooh

He was lying in bed, trying not to cry, if he was being honest.  But every time he looked over, there was that picture frame of him and y/n at the carnival.  A selfie he’d taken when they got to the top of the ferris wheel.  She had her arms wrapped loosely around his neck.  Her cheek was resting on his shoulder, his Mets cap on her head and his scarf tied around her neck.  She was smiling big at the camera.  He knew that she had the same frame next to her bed as well, but he also knew she wasn’t looking at it right now.

No, at this moment she was out on a date with Jackson Whittemore.  Yeah.  Jackass Whittemore of all people.  Stiles had been trying to come to terms of it, they were halfway through sophomore year and he’d asked her out the third week of school.  Stiles was there, and he just sat and watched her giddy answer of a yes.

He groaned, rolling over in bed, and slamming his pillow on top of the back of his head.  He begged for suffocation.

Five minutes later there was knocking on his door.

“Go away Dad, I’m not in the mood” More knocks.  Stiles groaned and got up, crossing the room and whipping it open.  “Dad I said-” He froze upon seeing you.  Quickly he wiped his face to hide that he’d been crying earlier.  Not very manly to cry.

“Your Dad let me in” You whispered.  He stepped aside, and you slowly walked into his room.

“I thought that uh.. I thought tonight you-”

“Jackson was fucking with Makayla” You said bluntly, but quietly as you pretended to admire the little things on his desk.  Though you’d been there millions of times before.  Stiles sat on the end of his bed, your back to him.

“He did?” He all but growled out.

“Don’t go picking a fight” You scolded immediately.  “But yep” You popped the p.  “Screwing her since we’ve been dating, probably still is” You shrugged, and walked around to the other side of the room.  Your eyes landed on his bedside table.

“Do you want to talk about it?” You shook your head, picking up the familiar picture frame.  You smiled at it, letting your fingers run over the glass gently.  You missed those days.  Stiles flopped back on the bed, and you walked back towards the door, turning off the lights and shutting the door..  “Are you going home?” Stiles asked.  You shrugged your jacket off, shaking your head again.  You kicked off your shoes, and made a pile of them and your coat by the door.  He watched as you crawled into his bed.

“I wanna stay here” You said, and your voice cracked.  Stiles reached out for you instantly, pulling you against him and cradling you.

“I’m so sorry y/n” He whispered as you cried silently into his shirt.

“I thought I loved him” You admitted, and a pang of hurt tapped into his heart.  “I guess I really am that typical teenage girl” You whispered.

“No… no y/n you’re so much more than that” He told you.  “You’re beautiful, and smart, and you’re going to achieve so much in your life, and Jackson will whither away with his herpes and probably end up dead in a ditch somewhere- not that Scott and I will have anything to do with that” You laughed quietly into his shirt, and it made Stiles smile.

“Well… maybe Scott can use some werewolf powers and give him a little scare…” You said, and Stiles laughed.  A few minutes of silence passed.  Stiles hand both arms wound around you, and you had your hands pressed against his chest, head resting on top of them.

“y/n I care so much about you… more than you know” He told you.  You didn’t respond.  “y/n?” No response.  The softest of snores left your lips, and Stiles bit the inside of his cheek.

Maybe the universe was telling him that you weren’t meant to know the truth.

I’ve got a fear

Oh in my blood

She was carried up

Into the clouds

High above ooh

You were giggling when your arms shot out for the small trash bucket, and you began hacking into it.

“Shh… Shh” He cooed, rubbing your back, and readjusting the blanket he had previously wrapped around you.

“I’m sorry I’m not much fun for movie night tonight” You sniffled.

So far your junior year was going alright.  It had just started, and there was no supernatural dilemma, and you and Stiles were back to being strong again.  Maybe… maybe too strong? Lately every time the boy looked at you or touched you, your heart would flutter and you knew what that meant.  But it confused you.  Stiles was your best friend, you couldn’t fall for him.  

Could you?

“It’s okay, we don’t have to watch anything y/n you’ve been sick all week maybe you should lay down”

“No I don’t want to get in your bed then you’ll get sick”

“Trust me you’ve already gotten me sick I’m sure” He replied, turning on the space heater and dragging it over to where you sat on the floor. He’d moved all the furniture in the living room out of the way so you could just be under a mountain of blankets and watched movies.  It had gone great for the first fifteen minutes, but then you puked into the popcorn bowl.

“I’m sorry Stiles, I’m ruining your night” You frowned, and warmed your freezing hands up by the heater.  He shook his head, smiling softly and taking your hands between his, rubbing them together to generate more heat.

“Don’t be sorry, I’m just glad you’re here” You buried yourself more in the blanket so he couldn’t see your blush.  “And you’re not dying.  That’s what would ruin movie night.  But it’s just the flu” Stiles chuckled. “You want something to drink maybe? Orange juice? Hot chocolate?”

“Hot chocolate sounds nice” You said with a big sweet smile that asked him silently to go make it for you.  He nodded, and stood up, ruffling your hair before heading into the kitchen.  The second h was gone, you whipped out your phone.

To Lydia: SOS CODE RED

To y/n: shit i knew you were in love with him.  Alli owes me twenty and Kye owes me ten

If you bleed I’ll bleed the same

If you’re scared, I’m on my way

A shit storm of pain had come to you in a hurricane of long tan legs, and eight years experience of being a coyote.

It had been two months since you lost Allison, a girl you’d grown to become quite close with, almost as close as Lydia.  Lydia being your closest girl friend.  So when she died, you mourned just as much as the rest of them.  Stiles had seen you cry, but never that much.  He’d comforted you every second of the day for a solid three weeks.  You often spent the night wrapped up in his arms and blankets, sobbing as he cooed soft things to you and stroked your hair.

And it was time.  You knew it was time.  It was time for you to take control of your feelings, and tell him how you really felt.  That every second you’re around him, you want it to last forever.  That every time he spoke, you wanted to reach across the table and kiss him.  That when you rode next to him in the Jeep, you wanted to take his hand and intertwine your fingers together.  That every time he touched you, sparks ignited and danced along your skin.  That every time he looked at you, you just wanted to scream I love you.

You’d never power walked so quickly through the school hall.  As soon as Scott told you that he’d seen Stiles go into the chem lab, you’d spun around and made your way to the classroom.  It was the end of the day, every other student in the building was walking out towards the parking lot, eager to get home.  But not you.

You were a girl on a mission.  You neared the door, and quickly pulled out your phone to check your makeup.  Flawless, you heard Lydia say in your head.  Hell, you were even so confident that you winked at your reflection.  This.  Was.  It.

You smiled big and opened the door.

If you could go back in time, and change one thing, this would be it.  Because walking in on Stiles and Malia making out in the empty classroom, crushed everything you had left in you.  It took your happiness, your confidence, your dignity.  You felt utterly stupid.

Just as Stiles had caught your eye, you turned away and legitimately ran through the halls, suddenly you felt like you couldn’t get away fast enough.

Mission aborted.

Did you run away, did you run away

I don’t need to know

But if you ran away

If you ran away come back home

“Hey y/n, it’s Stiles again.  I’m not really sure if you’re ignoring me or not, I’ve called you twelve times now, but if you are please call me back I want to fix it… uh… I’ll see you later and I hope you’re alright” You closed your eyes tight, not wanting to hear these voicemails anymore.

You shut off your phone, tossing it onto your bed.

Two days ago, you walked in on Malia kissing the fuck out of Stiles.  She had her hands in his hair, hell, you could see her tongue.

Your eyes closed again, and you rubbed away your tears with the palms of your hands.  You hadn’t been back to school since it happened.  How could you? Show your face after complete shame? Not to mention how devastated you felt.  Even a little betrayed.  Lydia had pushed you to confess to Stiles, she’d told you that she saw the way he looked at you, that friends didn’t look at each other like that.

I guess I was too late, you thought to yourself.  You were always too late.


You woke up to your doorbell ringing, followed by pounding on your front door.  You groaned, knowing you were the only person in the house to answer.  The rain was dumping outside, and it was actually helping you get to sleep.  Which was now ruined thanks to whoever your visitor was.  You pulled on a jacket over your tee shirt and jeans, and padded down the stairs.  You checked the clock on the way.

“Who’s coming here at eleven o’clock on a Thursday night?” You mumbled to yourself.  Then opened the door.

“Tell me why you’re ignoring” You almost gasped aloud when Stiles spoke the second the door opened.

“I don’t know wha-”

“Don’t bullshit me y/n tell me right now why you’re ignoring me” His hair was so soaked it hung over his face.  His clothes stuck to him, and you could see his pained expression.  He’d been crying.

“Stiles I-I can’t”

“You have a mouth and you’re clearly able to speak, so you very well can, tell me”

“No Stiles, I can’t”

“Why the hell not? What happened y/n? Why do you hate me?”

“Hate you!?” You screamed, and shoved him on his shoulders, taking him by surprise, as he stumbled backwards.  You stepped outside towards him.  “You think I’m ignoring you because I hate you!?” You punched the sides of your fists against his chest.  “You fucking idiot I’m ignoring you because I fucking love you and there’s not a goddamn thing I can do about it!” You continued to attack him.  “Lydia told me oh no y/n, the way he looks at you and blah blah all that shit! And so after weeks I muster the courage to go tell you and what do I find Stiels!? You! Making out with- with Malia!” You screamed at the top of your lungs, getting soaked under the downpour.  He snatchde your wrists so you’d stop hitting him.

“Oh so you think it’s that fucking easy!?” Stiles yelled back, and you silenced yourself.  “I didn’t even have the slightest amount of bravery to just waltz up to you and tell you I was fucking in love with you! You know what happened that day y/n? In the lab!?” you didn’t say anything, just stood staring at him, silent tears rushing down your pink cheeks.  “Malia kissed me, and I pushed her off because I was in love with you”

“Key word was” You muttered under your breath.  Stiles grabbed your chin roughly between his forefinger and chin.  Forcing you too look up at him.  His eyes were so intense, you wanted to look away but you couldn’t.

“Am” He emphasized.  “I am in love with you, and you don’t get to say shit because I have been since we were six” Your chest rose and fell quickly, desperate to catch a full breath.  It was silent for a good four seconds.  Four seconds of starting at each other with such passion that it was too much.

How do you fix unresolved passion?

You both jumped forward, your lips colliding in a kiss that made you see stars behind your eyes.  Stiles’ hands were cupped around your cheeks, and yours ran up into his wet hair.  Everything was wet and you wanted to cry tears of joy, tears of relief.

“I love you” He breathed.

“I love you too” You responded, and wrapped your arms around his neck.  You hugged each other tight, standing outside in the rain, but not caring to move.

“I’ve always wanted to kiss you in the rain” Stiles mumbled.  “Kinda romantic”

“I was thinking sexy” You mused.  He hummed.

“Well then let’s go inside”

And when you nodded, it was the first time Stiles was ever faster than you.

Just come home

anonymous asked:

Mom!!! Your blog literally makes my day every time I read one of your posts whether I'm crying or not (which btw totally emo over 9 years with shinee wow). can you do shinee on picture day (like for high school or college or something idk) if you haven't already?? p.s. I LOVE YOU

i am still emo over 9 year old babies, join me and my tears baby ILY2

onew:

  • his mom called him in the morning to make sure he looks presentable (onew: mom i’m in college pls / key: stop wearing a sweater vest rn)  
  • slept with wet hair and now the back of his head is just straight up flat and looks like a diamond facet and his bangs are sticking out in all the directions 
  • dunked his head real quick under the faucet for a do-over 
  • borrowed a straightener from someone on his floor 
  • carefully makes his hair v neat and straight 
  • maybe a bit too straight so he gelled it to the side (jong: look, a nerd) 
  • blinks when the flash goes off 
  • redo 
  • ~pretty eye-smile~ 

jonghyun:

  • shit he’s forgetting something isn’t he 
  • doesn’t know what it is but he can f e e l it 
  • hey kibum you look nice today (key: *up-downs him* it’s picture day and you are in sweats / jong: fuck let me borrow your shirt / key: lol you wish) 
  • struggles 
  • the top of of his sweatpants somewhat peeks out under the button-down that is now on his body bc he’s insisting on half-tucking it 
  • but better that than a sweatshirt with a giant dinosaur on it (key: *swallowed up in said giant hoodie* i am a ball of rage) 
  • beaming bc him and key are next to each other in the yearbook and they’re matching and that’s hilarious 
  • KIM TWINS 

key:

  • woke up really early to get ready 
  • 5am is too early to be woken up by psy’s “i luv it” (minho: *lobs something from across the room, still asleep* do nOT love it) 
  • has poses and the soft smile DOWN to a t 
  • put whitening strips on (minho: what’s on your teeth / key: shit i forgot to take them off after 30 mins) 
  • his teeth are sensitive af now and he can’t stop running his tongue over his gums 
  • 10/10 do not recommend 
  • prepared his bomb af outfit a week in advance 
  • super salty that jjong burgled away it away 
  • still wore it better tho 

minho:

  • wearing a polo shirt buttoned all the way up 
  • “it’s hard to breathe but i look nice” 
  • brought a pocket comb and has not stopped combing his hair since they got on line (taemin: *resisting the urge to ruffle his hair for the umpteenth time*)
  • when he sits for the pic, looks like a freaking statue 
  • 1. bc v handsome 
  • 2. he’s completely still
  • doesn’t even to blink (jong: ming pls your crazy eyes are showing) 
  • unfair how photogenic he is (onew: wanna share some of that talent with me??) 
  • bows and thanks the photographer who is maybe in love with him now 

taemin: 

  • the line for pictures is soooo long 
  • legs are tired so he sits down 
  • @ everyone looking at him: what
  • checks his face on his phone before his turn to fluff hair and make sure he licked off all the cookie crumbs 
  • sits on the stool but doesn’t know what to do with his hands 
  • didn’t realize that they would show up in the photo and now you can see him awkwardly cradling them in his lap (key: aw look at your baby hands / taemin: sTOP) 
  • says cheese when the flash goes off 
  • really hopes that his pics turned out okay this year