i cry because of your existence ok

trashforcaptainlevi101  asked:

ok girl, you are FUCKING AWESOME and whoever made this ridiculous list can suck my non-existing dick bc lol. Sorry but who has the time anyway? You probably don't let it get to you but just a friendly reminder: there are tons of people who enjoy and love you and your art so pls don't ever change

Our bed

I wanna hear about your hopes and dreams and frustrations and fears and fall asleep memorizing the little way your heartbeat stutters when I press closer to you. I wanna complain about you kissing me first thing when you wake up and hogging the blankets all night long. I wanna kick you by accident in the summer when I starfish on the bed out of discomfort. I wanna fight over the best pillow in the pile and debate the merits of my teddy bear vs. yours. I wanna play rock-paper-scissors to see who’s turn it is to get up to let the cat in and eventually…who’s turn it is for the late night feeding and diaper change. I want our bed to be ours and to be home. I want it to be the place I feel you in the unexplored parts of me. And on those days where you are hurt, when you feel the deep ache of your hard work in the creaking of your bones, sorrow filling your lungs, I want to lay in that bed with you. I wanna hold you as you cry, because it’s ok with me. I want that bed to be our lifeboat in the turbulent sea we’ve named existence. I wanna pull you out when you go overboard and hold you as you learn to breathe again.

In bed. Our bed.

Yesterday
黄子韬
Yesterday

Yesterday by Huang Zitao - lyrics:

Still remember that time whenever you smiled, it made me feel so wonderful
It’s always in my heart, can never be forgotten

I’m carrying your love and expectancy for me, everytime
I’m thankful to have you being by my side, forever and ever until the next future

How does tomorrow look like? I want to explore it
But once I think of your love, my tears fall down

I’m sure that,
Love let me see the bluest ocean
Love gave me strength to endure the pain
At my dazzling moment, you were here
At my embarrassing moment, you were also here
So please keep this precious love for me

Love made me believe in the existence of everlasting
Love allowed me to relax and rely on people
You gave me a pair of wings to keep flying
protecting me to another better place.

All the furtures are brand new
The more unpredictable it is, the more precious it is
The tears we shed yesterday gave us what we have today
This song, I will always sing it for you
I know you had sadness, I always made you disappointed
The darkness in your heart, I will use my own hand to wipe it away
Baby don’t leave
I need your love, it gives me warmth

Regret nothing~
I still have to keep flying with my dream
Don’t forget to bring a smile
Please give me an applause

I’m sure that,
Love let me see the bluest ocean
Love gave me strength to endure the pain
At my dazzling moment, you were here
At my embarrassing moment, you were also here
So please keep this precious love for me

Love made me believe in the existence of everlasting
Love allowed me to relax and rely on people
You gave me a pair of wings to keep flying
Protecting me to another better place.

I know days will be dark, but the sunrise is awaiting in front
Those pain and sorrow will be vanished when the dawn comes
Because there’s a hope in my heart
That is the love from you and the selfless expectancy in your eyes
Ah~ our dreams can be brilliant and shining because of you

Rap:
Listen my baby don’t cry, wipe away the tears and smile for me, ok?
You, the ones who have always been with me and watching me grow up, are still ok?
All the things I’ve experienced, all my memories, pls help me keep it ok?
Even if I’m on my knees, I will still walk with you, I didn’t forget that promise
Close the eyes, we will always love together!

Love made me believe in the existence of everlasting
Love allowed me to relax and rely on people
You gave me a pair of wings to keep flying
Protecting me to another better place.

bobo-the-monkey-ghost  asked:

i've been crying over todobaku for the past week, throwing all my old ships such as katsudeku, tododeku, and bakushima out of the window (which is unfortunate because it's kiribaku week) and i just wanted to say thank you for existing your art satisfies me and the lack of love todobaku has. ok now enough with me and my late night emotions for this ship i should do ela b ye

THSI IS????? SO SWEET???????? THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU???????? 

todobaku doesn’t get a lot of recognition, which i’m still confused about, because their dynamic is so good…anyways!!!!! i’m here now to provide the tdbk agenda for as long as i can ;;;w;;; 

tl for the new devil info

Satanick

A pitiful “devil”
(ok i’m sorry but that chicken scratch is unreadable, it’s something about him getting upset by trivial things)

Ivlis

There’s only one “god” for him.
There’s none other in existence than that one person.
His one wish to return after falling is the only reason he’s living.

Reficul

Wishes to live a carefree life and forget all the unpleasant things.
But that wouldn’t be possible, because she’s the queen of demons.

Rosaliya -

「I won’t forgive you! I don’t want even to look at your face anymore!」
If you make her cry, she becomes a nuisance.

Kcalb -

Someone to be treated like an old man.
But his true nature is….
Although he’s a devil, his true character is a little different.
A little traumatized after being stabbed by his younger brother a long time ago.

Vicers

Even though he’s not a devil「His face looks like one of a devil」.
He was taken to the devil meeting for that reason.
Has a refreshing face, while his brother has a cuter one.*
It seems he was fighting against his younger brother….

Keep reading

YASSS THE CHAP IS OUT

*reads 699*….*expects something horrible*

YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS LAWD

JFC REALLY OKAY MOVE ON NO ONE CARES SHE GOTTA CONCENTRATE SHUT UP

and then this

someone heLP IM GONNA SCREAM THESE BROS BAES BESTFRIENDS BOYFRIENDS ENEMIES ARE GONNA BE THE DEATH OF ME

“YOU NEVER GAVE UP ON ME, COMING CLOSER WHEN I PULLED AWAY”

LITERALLY THE WHOLE POINT OF THE NEVERENDING HOMO IN THIS MANGA SASUKE JFC so glad youre acknowledging it now

narujesus has done it again

ok naruhina fans dont start trippin

LMAO I STILL CANT GET OVER THIS SHIT

THEIR JUSTICE SYSTEM EVERYONE

BUT I MEAN CANT THEY JUST THROW HIS ASS IN PRISON FOR ONE DAY SO NARDO CAN SCREAM FREE MY NIGGA SASUKE HE AINT EVER HURT NOBODY

look how sorry he is everyone

and the lil shit is leaving again how surprising 

probably needs to repopulate that non existent clan of his

no FUCK NO ITS TOO EARLY FOR THIS SHIT

ABSOLUTELY NOT BITCH

GIRL BYE OMG THIS BITCH IS PATHETIC

yes shut that bitch down real quick

sooooo he sees her as a sister now thats cute i guess

when bae bout to go out and cheat but you catch him

THE FUCK YOU GOING

aw sasuke

idk i just love the way he put this

THE END

the next chapter doesnt exist go home start crying its over

..EXCEPT FOR THIS OH MY GOD

ok now go home

WAIT

turn up

okay and maybe this because konohamaru cute af

WAIT WHO NAMED THIS BITCH SALAD OMG IM DONE

only sakura i swear

wait and this

mobbin’

ready to fight nardo for being late to his own damn meeting

OK 700 IS DONE

IT HASNT HIT ME COMPLETELY YET

BUT IT WILL

SO LONG SASUNARU ILL MISS YOU AND YOUR HALF-ASS ENDING WHICH DESERVED MUCH BETTER AFTER ALL THESE YEARS OF HOMO BUILD UP

YOULL ALWAYS BE OTP TO ME

goodbye

anonymous asked:

Top 10 dallon pictures go

ok here we go sorry for taking 8 billion years to respond also these are in no particular order but I point out my absolute faves if you read my commentary :)

1.

This one is Dallon being hecka cute and sassy but also kind of demonic but i enjoy it like look at that cute lil pick on his forehead!

2.

 

Ok talking about adorable Dallon, JUST LOOK AT THIS CUTE MAN. HE HAS CHILDREN. BUT HE IS AN ADORABLE CHILD AHHH

3. 

OH OK DALLON JUST FIXING YOUR BOWTIE TOTALLY OBLIVIOUS TO THE FACT THAT YOU’RE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND UNDERRATED MAN TO EVER EXIST SWEET JESUS

4. 

I just love this picture because I don’t understand why it exists?? BUT ITS FLIPPIN ADORABLE and probably one of my ultimate ULTIMATE fave pics of Dallon as well he’s such a cutie aw 

5. 

HAIRHAIRHAIRHAIR just look at it?! And honestly he just looks to perfect to exist. As usual. Another one of my ultimate faves

6. 

Oh LAWD he just looks so good i want to cry. You can NOT hate this man. Not only is he a super sweetie but also a super hottie aw yea

7. 

OK HERE IT IS. THIS IS MY ALL TIME FAVORITE PHOTO OF DALLON WEEKES EVER. THIS PHOTO RIGHT HERE. His hair and his eyes and his face are all super perfect?!?!?

8.

Ok I also decided to add my favorite pictures of Dallon that I have personally taken and here is one from about a month ago that was featured on their website and everything?!?!? And HE LIKED IT. I PUT IT ON INSTGRAM AND DALLONS PERSONAL ACCOUNT LIKED IT I STARTED SCREAMING but yeah he just looks super rad in this pic so i love it :)

9.

This is another pic that i took, but back in December! I absolutely adore this picture because even though Bden is blurry, Dallon is making the BEST bass face EVER and i adore it (and am super happy i got it on camera!!)

10.

Here it is!! My tenth picture, which i also took at the december concert! It’s my favorite (good quality) photo I’ve ever taken of Dallon, I mean just look at him. LOOK AT THIS DROPDEAD GORGEOUS MAN. 

I hope you enjoyed my pictures :D

anonymous asked:

How are you so happy and confident? I am very sad and unhappy. I don't like myself at all. I wish I could be like you

i wouldnt say “happy” is a staple to my character! in fact i dont think thats even possible. happy is a feeling, important but fleeting and impermanent like all other feelings, not a destination or a fixed light at the end of the tunnel or a way of life. trust me when i say i am very sad and very angry and very confused as much as i’m happy. i will say that i do try to be very positive, which is probably a staple of my character, because there is usually something to appreciate and sometimes its even the sadness that needs to be appreciated. its ok to be sad! its ok to cry! the first step to liking yourself is giving yourself the license to feel fully and unapologetically i think. don’t compare your existence to anyone else’s because there is nothing as unique as your own point of view. dont wish to be like me; wish to be like the most evolved and ultra version of you! thanks for the ask, i believe in you!

“Missed”

Request from anons: “Can you please make a part 4 to the break up one ?!?!!?! Btw i am totally in love with your writing!” “Part 4 after SJ please? X” “Can you do a part 4 based off “she’s gone”?? I love your writing!!”

Part 1  -  Part 2  -  Part 3

Sammy’s POV

“I’m really going to need you to tell me what the fuck is up. How are you going to say I have a kid WITHOUT TELLING ME!” I yelled at Y/N, veins popping out. “Hey, we just put the little ones to bed. Keep your yelling to a minimal.” G hushes me. “Did you make me get you pregnant because you KNEW I was seeing another girl to make me stay??” “What? NO! What kind of person do you think I am!” She yells back. “Did you know before you left me?!” I crossed my arms. “I found out a month after I left you. Did I contact you? Yes. Did you answer? No. Did you ever contact me back? No. Did I want to tell you? No. Did I try? Yes. After giving birth, did I think about telling you again? Yes. Did I actually do it? No. Don’t think I’m a monster that doesn’t want my kid and his father never interact. I think about it every single freaking day of my life since the minute I found out i was pregnant. But there was a point in my life where I just let it be. If he wants to meet you, I’d hard core try to contact you. If not, then we’d just move on with life. I was going to let whatever happen, happen. And this happened to happen.” 

“BUT THAT’S MY SON!” I yelled, pointing at myself. “I WOULDN’T HAVE BEEN SO HESITANT TO TELL YOU IF YOU WEREN’T CHEATING ON ME AT THE TIME!” “I’M FUCKING SORRY! OK? BUT THERE’S NOTHING MORE I COULD DO OR SAY TO MAKE IT GO AWAY! WHAT HAPPENED, HAPPENED! LET IT GO!” “And I had SJ! And didn’t tell you! There’s NOTHING more I could do or say to make the last of you not knowing, go away! What happened, HAPPENED! LET. IT. GO.” She used my words against me. “Did he ever ask you about his father?” She looks at me disappointed, “No, he hasn’t yet. Well, not to my face. He’s asked Hannah, your best friend, before, but not me.” “What did she say?” “That you will show up when the time is right.” “I fucking can’t believe I’m a father.” 

I groaned, slapping my hands onto my face, covering it. All of a sudden the baby monitor starts lighting up and a cry erupts from it. “I just put them down!” G complained. “I’ll go.” Y/N doesn’t hesitate, and walks to the room. G turns on the TV and clicks on the security cameras, as we watched Y/N go inside the little ones’ room. She picks up the crying baby, and rocks them, comforting them, and instantly they stop crying. She starts singing a little, trying to making the little one go back to sleep. Once they are drooling, she puts them back to bed, and quietly walks out. She comes back into the living room, and we all stare at her, “You’re a natural.” G says. “She’s a mom.” J smiles. 

“Are you ever going to introduce me as his father? Or he’s just going to be a mystery forever?” “If I introduce you as his father, there is no turning back. You’re going to have to be in his life for good. No turning away. No leaving him behind. If I’m going to bring you into his life like that, you are not allowed to leave his life. Do you understand?” I stood there, thinking. “I am perfectly fine with the way things are with my little family. Now that you know you have a kid, I am not expecting you to pay child support or anything. If you don’t want to be there for your son, that’s fine, I will not introduce you to him like that. I raised him for almost 7 years on my own. I can do it for 11 more years.” 

“I’ll be there for you.” She shuts up. “That’s my freaking kid. I want this kid in my life! He’s my son! I want to be able to get to know my son and be there for him! I missed his first words, his first steps, his first hair cut, his first day of school, I missed 6 birthdays. I missed doctors appointments, family dinners, family days, bed time, changing diapers, high chairs, cribs, baby toys. I missed out. I’m not missing anymore!” I demanded. She just sighs, walking into the play room and bringing out SJ. I sit down on the couch as they both approach him and she gets on her knees. “Baby, do you remember who this is?” She asks me. 

“Sam.” “That’s Sam. Very good. How do you remember that?” “Because that’s my name too!” He says giddy and she smiles. “Well, I have something to tell you about this Sam. Ok?” He looks at her, waiting. “Sam’s full name is Samuel Howard Wilkinson..” She says to him. His face turns shocked, eyes and mouth wide open, eyebrows lifted up. He looks at me, “We have the same name!” He whispers. “SJ, baby, do you remember why I named you that?” He looks back at her, “You named me after my father..” He answered her but quickly turns back to me scrunching his eyebrows, “You have the same name as my dad too.” His voice sounded confused. “Sweetie, this is your dad.” She says softly, holding his body in her hands. He looks back and forth from her to me. “You’re my dad?” He points at me. I awkwardly wave, “Hi.” 

“Where have you been?! You missed out on my birthdays, dance recitals, junior basketball games, junior baseball games, junior lacrosse games. You missed out on my whole life!” “Baby, hey, no. Stop that. Ok. This isn’t your dad’s fault. It was mine.” She looks at him with watery eyes, brushing his hair to the side, showing his forehead. “Your daddy didn’t know you existed till last night. I did it because daddy and I were not happy with each other. So I didn’t tell him he had a kid. I’m sorry. I know I should have told him. He should have been there for you growing up. I’m so sorry baby. I love you so much.” Tears started running down her face, “No, no mommy. Don’t cry. I’m not mad at you okay? Please stop crying.” His little hands wiped her tears off her cheeks. “Tell your dad you’re sorry for yelling and getting mad.” She tells him and he turns to me, “Sorry I got mad at you daddy. I didn’t mean to yell.” He starts tapping his foot, looking at the ground, all innocent. 

I grabbed onto his hands, “It’s okay. And I’m sorry I wasn’t in your life till now. I’ll make it up to you, and mommy, I promise. Okay? I’ll get you anything you want. Any toys, any vacations, any food, even when mommy says no.” I wink at Y/N on the side. “I missed 6 birthdays, so for your 7th birthday, you are getting a lot of presents from me, my friends, and my family. Yeah? Do you want that?” He starts jumping up and down, excited. “After we met you yesterday, we all went out and bought you some presents. Do you want to open them?” I asked, “YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!” He jumps even more. All the guys walk to our hiding place where we kept each of our presents, while Y/N sat him down on the couch, and we all kneeled in front of him, handing him the presents we got him. 

“What do you say to daddy and his friends?” Y/N said to SJ. “Thank you daddy and daddy’s friends.” “No, what are daddy’s friends’ names? Go to them, and give them a hug.” She pushes him off the couch. We watch SJ thank the guys individually and hug them. “You are one rocking mom for having such a kind hearted son. You taught him well.” I said, standing next to Y/N. “Yeah well, he also got his kindness from you.” She admits. “Thanks for giving me a chance to be his father.” “Thanks for wanting to be his father.” She smiles as I go up to SJ and lift him up int the air, hearing him giggle. “He’s going to be a great dad, you know.” I overheard G say to Y/N on the side. “I know he will be. I know.” She says back to him. 

[There will be no continuation to this imagine]

more like sounds good listening me crying the shit out of me on the floor because this damn band is making me so fucking emotional that i want to punch them in the face because we asked for michaels solos and this is what we get and its beautiful i could die im ok with dying at 16 feels good seeing me on the floor because this damn band is providing me with beautiful amazing flawless music who needs food when you have these beautiful people ruining your existence cmon join this shit its fun ha ha ha

pre order this album, the title is so good