i cried so much with this

anonymous asked:

I started reading I Bloomed for You a while ago because you posted it a while ago (I saw you posted about the update today which was sO GOOD??!? im in tears halp) so thank you so much for introducing me to it!! Do you have any other kookie angst of hurt/comfort fics you've read that are good? I'm having trouble finding good fics. Thanks!!

OMG I’m so glad you liked it! Come cry with me T^T I haven’t cried over a fic in a while but the angst is really freaking real and I will cry you a river. I feel like I’ve read a lot of hurt/comfort fics but I’m totally blanking out on a lot of them. But here are some I remember!

When Control Is A Grey Area AO3, Complete, JungkookxEveryone, please beware of the trigger warnings though!

This Series AO3, Ongoing, I remember I read these series of Taekook fics awhile ago and they were like really smutty but near the newest installments, it got really freaking angsty and I’m still waiting on that comfort. 

Red AO3, Oneshot, Yoonjin, basically a twist on the red string of fate au and I loved the angst

Let’s See Where We Wake Up Tomorrow AO3, Oneshot, Jikook, this is another fic I cried too, temporary character death. 

Take My Hand (Take My Whole Life, Too) AO3, Oneshot, Jikook, I really love my jikook hurt/comfort okay.

Golden Boy AO3, Complete, Namkook, oh boy the angst in this (buffered by smut).

Marrow AO3, Complete, Sugakookie, a classic angst, I forget if there’s a happy ending.

Sometimes the moon looks brighter than the sun AO3, Oneshot, Jikook, Jungkook finally has someone to wipe his tears away. 

Hanahaki Disease AO3, Oneshot, Sugakookiemin, I love hanahaki especially when kookie has it (why do I hurt my bias this way). 

Why Can’t You See AO3, Complete, Junghope, I looooooved the angst in this, it’s my favorite kind of angst, broken yoon/seok.

How an Ariel Cartwheel Can Change Everything AO3, Oneshot, Jikook, Gymnast au, kind of like the we broke apart and got back together trope, Jimin has a thing with a girlfriend and cue hurt but things work out. 

Yeah, i’m totally blanking on the hurt/comfort fics I’ve read but I hope these suffice even a little bit!

I hate how badly I want you. With all the steps I’ve taken to move on, all the tears I’ve cried to come to terms with no longer having you here… I hate how it’s still all about you. I hate how much I still love you, and here I am, wanting you anyway. Here I am, loving you through all the pain. I love you so much it hurts.
—  I’ll never let go of you, (coloringtheworldwithwords)
Updates on Kanako`s twitter

 Thank you for a lot of support! I`m feeling full of gratitude. From now on, as a professional skater, I want to show performances that would remain in people`s hearts. So please support me! (x)

Also, I started my first practices as a professional skater, with my respectable and beloved person. 

By the way, yesterday I cried too much so my eyes hurt! lol (x)

the greatest and most ridiculous moment of my life thus far was when I was like eleven and I was at the Louvre museum in Paris, wearing this red dress and a black beret because I was a sweet summer child and also cute as hell, and I saw some DaVinci paintings and straight up almost cried over them, and then the museum was almost closing and I was running through the lobby to go to the giftshop and buy a Mona Lisa postcard for my bedroom wall, and as I was running a couple of teenage boys spotted my beret-wearing self and exclaimed “look at her! she’s wearing that hat! she’s French!” which was fantastic bc 1) we were in France surrounded by French people, but they spotted a very much American girl and decided that the hat meant I was French and they were SO THRILLED BY THIS and bc 2) movie directors can only dream of moments that pure and ridiculous and amazing

scoliosis eb

i know i’m supposed to be taking a break from tumblr but a friend told me about lily and her scoliosis, and even though i can’t tell link this (although i would like to) i’ll tell y'all about kinda what my family has went through so it’s more familiar and less scary

i have scoliosis, but it’s not bad as my sisters. mine is intermediate/advanced, while my sister’s is kind of severe. we were both diagnosed around the same age as lily is now. and for someone that young, i know how scary it can be. i had to wear this thick, plastic exterior, foam-padded interior brace at night. but my sister had to wear it 24/7 and it was awful for her. it was a few inches thick, which means no tight clothing, and it compresses your stomach and suffocates you with how hot it is. my sister hated it so much that she cried so much wishing for surgery. her curvature was around the angle that surgery is considered, so i’m assuming lily’s is a bit worse. we tried so many doctors, even one in another country, because her back brace wasn’t working. long story short, her back stopped worsening and both of our curvatures are stable

anyway, even though it’s confirmed that lily should get surgery, it’s gonna be okay. and i wish so badly that i could tell lily, link, and christy that. the doctors i’ve seen all say there are very very rarely mistakes. but to parents, especially good and caring parents, there’s always that thought in your mind that’s like ‘what if’. everyone in our family has spent so much time researching and worrying and there’s a mentality that “we are willing to spend any amount of money for this issue to go away” but thats just not how it works. its just  i want to go back in time to tell them it’ll be okay. i have friends who have actually gone through the surgery and i’ve talked to them about it; they all say its not that bad once the fear is gone. and at lily’s age, it’ll be a super quick recovery, and most of the time, their back is stronger than before. 

and i know all of this is easier said than done/believing. link and christy are amazing parents right now, and lily (i cannot stress this enough) is so, so brave. im hoping the best for her and her family right now, i know its hard but theyre gonna get through this

sweatpants-and-chill  asked:

Omg idk of you have read the afterlife fic yet or are planning to, but 10/10 recommend it. It was sososo good. The idea for the story is incredibly cool & thought out & the characters work so well together & there's so much love & angst & GOOD SMUT & I cried at least 2 times. It was a beautiful story & I'm so glad that I committed myself to reading 491k words(which holy shit is a lot). I'm so glad you do your fic recs & such bc I never would have found that fic otherwise & it's now 1 of my faves

Fuck, everyone is telling me this, I just need to reserve it for a time where I haven’t so much requests to answer, so much fics to read and really not that much time to do it :/ 500k words, this is a monster !

The Afterlife Fic (The Best I Ever Had in My Entire Life… Or Death)

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OH BOY HERE COMES A LONG HEARTFELT POST FOR @thatsthat24BECAUSE IT’S HIS BIRTHDAY HERE WE GO!!


Dear Thomas Sanders, what to say to you…

I could probably write a novel describing every single way I think you’re amazing. Heck, I talk about you to the point where friends have literally said “I might as well follow Thomas Sanders with how often you respond to him on social medias.” Honestly, there’s a very good reason for that.

November 8, 2014 was the start of the worst weekend of my life. This is saying quite a lot, because I’ve had to go through some pretty Hell-ish experiences, but none of these will ever come close to the day I had to say goodbye to my best friend of 10 years, Koda. He was the best dog, and his health declined so suddenly, no one was expecting it to happen. I’ve never cried so much and so hard in a weekend. I wasn’t eating, I wasn’t speaking, and my already questionable mental state was declining more rapidly than before.

Honestly, thinking back on it now, that entire weekend is a bit of a blur to me, everything happened all at once all I really remember is tears, until that tuesday afterwards, I stumbled across a vine compliation, one someone composed of your videos. And I laughed, a lot. I was smiling again, and GOD did I need to. So I watched more, and then more and more until it just became a daily routine. And then you started to notice tweets and tumblr posts and that just made me feel even greater.

It’s been 2 and a half years now since I first became a Fander, and honestly it is so mind blowing to me how much we’ve both grown in that time. I’ve lost count of how many times you’ve liked tweets or react to posts from me, but I still get giddy every time you do, cause it means I was able to make you smile like you make me smile every day. Interacting with you feels like interacting with a long distance friend, and I love you just like you are one. Because of you, I have more self confidence, I have been exposed to so many wonderful things that I love dearly, and I have a bit more optimism on the world. You’ve been there for me every single day without even realizing it, and in return I give you all the love and support (and witty comments) I can. You’ve helped me out in my lowest points and you and this community are a constant reminder that there’s so much goodness in the world. So thank you, I will always be grateful for stumbling across that vine compilation. Have a wonderful birthday, Thomas, I can’t wait to see how much more we both grow from here.


❤ Sam

anonymous asked:

I honestly don't understand why people say Homestuck is so bad??? I mean, I finished it yesterday and I cried a lot... Idk man, I think it's an amazing story even though the fandom can sometimes be garbage. But I don't understand why some people hate this comic so much? If you don't like it just stop reading. You don't have to shout on the internet about how bad you think it is .-. (I'm not talking about you specifically in this ask)

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lol we just say its bad for ironic purpose uvu its actually really good and addictive too

ovo so yeah

dont take it literally when people say they hate homestuck

i mean

sometimes they might actually mean it-

but its pretty dang great if you ask me 

some autistic lloyd headcanons bc why not

  • he likes hoods they feel nice. good pressure stim. thats part of why he stole that cape when he got kicked out of darkly’s 
    • capes make a nice whooshy noise/motion and its good
  • lloyd’s motor skills are kinda out of whack and some of it is due to the aging tea the other 80% is just because he’s autistic and has crappy motor skills
  • he’s hyperempathetic!
    • he cried all day when his fish died in the third grade because he felt so bad for it it had so much life to live why did it DIE
  • sensory? issues? lloyd? its more likely than you think
    • lights are a big one. if the lights are too bright its Bad and its just. Bad.
    • his Golden Power was a little too bright and he was just internally screaming the whole time he had it
      • even if it made things easier why did it have to be so BRIGHT
    • shiny things are good though he REALLY likes shiny things
  • he chews things and rocks as a stim when he’s upset
  • happy stims may include hand flapping and bouncing
  • after battles? no spoons. at all. completely out of spoons. he goes to sleep
    • “unless i am literally on fire do not wake me up”
    • “what if theres an earthquake?”
    • “depends what decimal its at”
  • also fidgeting
    • he has so many fidget things
    • spiNNER RINGS
    • he uses like one a week because he keeps accidentally sparking his power and breaking them
      • hes trying leave him alone
  • lloyd is… not good with people
    • he prefers to hang out with the ultra dragon if he can tbh
    • he CAN be social but its hard so he doesnt
      • its easier in small doses 
  • hes the leader so he can keep his routine
    • it doesnt WORK when u PEOPLE disrupt the ROUTINE
  • lloyd cannot for the life of him explain what he is feeling
    • constantly worrying about whatever he just said is coherent or not bc he knows HE knows what he meant but the rest of the team is just giving him a blank stare
    • are they challenging his leadership again? does he need to rephrase? who knows not lloyd
  • repeats his name over and over again under his breath because it sounds nice
  • the only red shirt he owns is a red instead shirt
  • his special interests vary a lot and 
  • lloyd: my dad is leaving me again
    lloyd: i need to explain to him how and why this hurts me in concise feelings
    lloyd: *has an outburst of anger, probably with running away*
    lloyd: nailed it
    • tbh if lloyd encounters literally Anything distressing he just… has an anger outburst and either leaves or makes it leave
  • thats all i got my brain is frozen but yeh im definitely going to come back to this
92 truths

I was tagged by the cutest @philophobia999 and @jeylovestoblog ❤️ Thank you so much ❤️ And I’m sure there was someone else that tagged me in this, but I seriusly can’t remember and it was such a long time ago, I’m so sorry!!

1. Drink: Water

2. Phone Call: Mum

3. Text: “I’m stuck in traffic :/” to my mum

4. Song you listened to:  YUGYEOM - 그대로 (THE WAY YOU ARE)

5. Time you cried: Yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER…

6. Dated someone twice: Nope

7. Been cheated on: Nope

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: Yup

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: Not officially, never had the courage to go and get help.

11. Gotten drunk and threw up: Yup

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

• black
• baby pink
• light purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. Made new friends: Yes!!! I’m so greatful for all of you! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

16. Fallen out of love: For things not people.

17. Laughed until you cried: Soooo many times.

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Oh, yessss

19. Met someone who changed you: Yes  

20. Found out who your true friends are: YES, finally

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: No?

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in really life?: All of them.

23. Do you have any pets: Yessss! A dog, shih-tzu and his name is Mushu

24. Do you want to change your name?: Yes, please!

25. What did you do for your last birthday?: I don’t remember, probably went to a restaurant with my parents, we do that every year

26. What time did you wake up?: 6:20 AM -.-

27: What were you doing at midnight last night: Anxiously lying in bed because I couldn’t fall asleep….

28. Name something you cannot wait for: Graduating from this hell of a university!

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: This morning.

30. What is one thing you wish you can change about your life: Ohh, so may things: university, anxiety, travel more, have more time for the things that I love…

31. What are you listening to right now:  HIGH4, IU(하이포, 아이유) _ Not Spring, Love, or Cherry Blossoms(봄,사랑,벚꽃 말고)

32. Have you talked to a person named Tom: “Tom” I don’t think so, but Polish equivalent, which is “Tomasz” yes 

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: This headache.<—SAME

34. Most visited website: Tumblr..go, figure…

35. Elementary: Done

36: High School: Done

37: College: tying to live through his hell :)

38. Hair color: Pink but my real colour is like this ugly darker blonde or smth

39. Long or short hair: short

40. Do you have a crush on someone: Jeon Jungkook, always!

41. What do you like about yourself: my eyes

42. Piercings: standard in ears and a helix, soon double helix in my right ear

43. Blood type: AB Rh-??

44. Nickname: one person calls me Bun, or Bum it depends hahahha

45. Relationship Status: Single mentally taken by Jungkook lol

46. Zodiac sign: Cancer

47. Pronouns: She/her

48. Favorite tv show: Game of Thrones if Kdrama counts then Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo

49. Tattoos: Coming soon!

50. Right or left hand: Right hand, but I do a lot of stuff with my left for some reason…

FIRST…

51. Surgery: Removal of tonsils when I was like 10?

52. Piercing: My ears.

53. Word: I have no idea 

54. Sport: I think dance was first

55. Vacation: Oh, I have no idea. We’ve travelled so much with my parents. But the first big vacation I can remember was Egypt, the best trip ever!

56. Pair of trainers: Nike, at least the ones I remember and cherished so much hahaha

RECENTLY…

57. Eating: My grandmother made me green pepers with stuffing and rice!! 

58. Drinking: Water.

59. I’m about to: Finish my lunch

60. Listening to:  IU(아이유) _ Palette(팔레트) (Feat. G-DRAGON)

61. Waiting for: this headache to pass

62. Want: To be happy

DO YOU WANT TO…

63. Get married: n o p e

64. Have a career and if so what: Yes, I’d love to be a translator (Preferably audio-visual things, like movies or tv series)

WHICH IS BETTER…

65. Hugs or kisses: both pls??

66. Lips or eyes: eyes

67. Shorter or taller: I mean I’m short, so tall please, but I really don’t care

68. Older or younger: Doesn’t really matter, has to be legal tho, hahah

69. Spontaneous or romantic:  Spontaneous

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: do hands count? I like nice hands

71. Sensitive or loud: loud, but not too loud idk…

72. Hook up or relationship: I’m scared of relationships hahah

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER…

74. Kissed a stranger: Yup

75. Drank hard liquor: Yup

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nope, don’t wear them

77. Turned someone down: Yes

78. Sex on first date: No

79. Broken someone’s heart: I’m not sure, but I’d say no?

80. Had your heart broken: Nope

81. Been arrested: Not yet lol

82. Cried when someone died: Yes

83. Fallen for a friend: No?

DO YOU BELIEVE…

84. In Yourself: Sometimes happens, on a good day.

85. Miracles: Not really, but I’ve started to believe in destiny

86. Love at first sight: I mean….Jeon Jungkook……..but irl nope

87. Santa Claus: No

88. Kiss on the first date: Yes

89. Angels: No

OTHER…

90. Current best friend: @mart-art for like 14 years and counting hahah

91. Eye color: Blue

92. Favorite movie: Harry Potter series and Mulan

I tag (but do it only if you want to ❤️): @mart-art @gloomybow1 @softssound @jungkook-gifs @adsuro @likebreakofdawn @kookiesugatae @yukizus 

Posting a pic because I don’t foresee having my hair down and straightened for another week or so and by then it will have faded and not look as awesome.

Anyway. Today wasn’t as bad as expected. Having Josh, and Desiree there made everything so much better. I cried pretty hard at the burial.

We went out to lunch with the entire family after the funeral. That was really nice.

After that we got Joshie hair cut. It was a spur of the moment thing mainly because I just couldn’t deal with how ridiculous his hair looks. I was going to attempt to grow it out but no. No.

Right now we are all relaxing in the couch watching some YouTube videos.

After Joshie goes down for sleep I’m going over to Rachel’s to watch a movie.

HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY TO THE SELECTION! I think the 5 year celebration tag going around is great and was brought to its attention thanks to the mentions from @thedandelioninperspective @theselectionmouse and @illeaslockedbluebox so i’d like to dedicate this doodle to them being I wouldn’t have even noticed what an important date was if not for their mentions! :)

When I joined: So I actually did not join this fandom upon reading the books. I read them back in 8th grade. I believe all three of America’s story were out then. Thus I read them and put them back on the shelf. A year later it was my 9th grade year and i was cleaning my room. I found a copy of the selection beat up and crammed between my bed and my window. I still don’t know why it was there but it was. I skimmed through it remembering how I cried the first time I read it purely because I loved it so much. A few months after I decided I would check and see if there was a fandom. There was so I made a blog on October 20th 2015.

How this fandom/book series has impacted me:

I say with 100% certainty that I owe my life to this series, as it saved my life twice. My 8th grade year I was horribly depressed. I hated everything about myself I didn’t have too many friends and the one friend I had was way to close to my family, I was terrified she would tell my mother if I told her anything about how I wished to end my life. Due to this book series I made friends with a girl named Paula who had already liked and read the book. She became my best friend for that year and she was the one I called right before I decided to kill myself. She was not able to stop me, however she stalled me for long enough that my mother came in and stopped me. The second time I was more depressed. This was before I joined the fandom but after I found the books again. My 9th grade year my depression hit harder. I had a lovely summer without it but as soon as fall came it was back. This time I self-harmed. I wanted to peel the skin off of my legs and rip out all of the fat inside of me. I viewed myself as nothing. There was a boy who I liked (my current boyfriend) but he didn’t like me at the point in time, my art looked crappy, I missed my friends from middle school as I had moved, and my friends were all depressed so their misery leeched onto me and drained me of all joy. However once again I made friends due to a common interest. A girl named Elizabeth became my close friend due to the books and she was able to help me through my depression. Without the books we probably never would have met. Not only do I owe my life to these books but I also owe my current enjoyments of life to it. My art has improved through fanart and I have made online friends through the fandom. I am truly grateful for the selection books and the fandom.

My close friends in this fandom are: @prince-consort-lolz  @prince-consort-erik @prince-consort-kile and @book-and-comic-fangirl

Some blogs I admire: @eadlynschreaveofillea @skylars-selection and probably a lot more none are just coming to mind right now. 

Right Here

“I can see every tear you’ve cried like an ocean in your eyes. All the pain and the scars have left you cold.”

“I can see all the fears you face through a storm that never goes away. Don’t believe all the lies that you’ve been told.”

“ I’ll be right here now to hold you when the sky falls down. I will always be the one who took your place.  When the rain falls I won’t let go. I’ll be right here.”

“I will show you the way back home never leave you all alone. I will stay until the morning comes.”

”I’ll show you how to live again and heal the brokenness within. Let me love you when you come undone.”

“When daybreak seems so far away reach for my hand. When hope and peace begin to fray still I will stand.”

((Ashes Remain))