i clearly have a very hard life

Across the Divide

TITLE: Across The Divide


AUTHOR: wolfpawn

ORIGINAL IMAGINE: Imagine Loki sneaking out of the palace as a youth to see the city and countryside, while out one day, he accidentally gets in trouble for something, but a young girl deals with the situation, allowing him to be left alone and his true identity be kept secret. She is a poor girl who is only in the city to sell goods with her father, so she does not realise it is Loki, even though she sees his face. They form a friendship as she shows him around the city, and tells him the date she comes to the city every month for a particular market.

RATING: Teen and Up

Loki continued to stare at the door for several moments, his heart pounding hard in his chest.

“Loki, how do you know that low-born?” Thor asked warily.


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Two Cents -- I Haz Them

I hardcore do not want to get in any arguments here – I have not the time, inclination, or emotional wherewithal.


I am fortunate enough to have an amazing dad in my life. I love my father and we have always been close. I credit him with my love of words and language, among many other things.

If my father, whom I love, habitually looked at me, talked to me, talked about me, the way Red does Liz. If he had intense conversations with me about sex and intimacy, the way Red does Liz. If he touched me or did that appreciative tongue thing, the way Red does Liz. If he idolized me, stalked my movements, the way Red does Liz.

I would LOSE MY SHIT Y'ALL. And call a therapist. Or the police. Maybe both. Probably both. Both is good. And you could be damn sure I wouldn’t be encouraging him to spend time with my kid.

Just saying. (deep breaths, self)

But in the MANY hours I have spent thinking about this since last night, and Lizzington and writing and fic, I have realized that all this isn’t the point.

Fanfic is all about making something new, something different, hopefully something wonderful, from existing material. I take Red and Liz, and I try to write them as in-character as I can – they way they speak, their mannerisms, their general characteristics.

But they also become mine. My Red and Liz aren’t the show’s Red and Liz, nor would I want them to be. If that was all I wanted, I wouldn’t need to write at all. I want something different for them, from them, about them. And I still do.

If they had been clearly familial from the beginning, I would very likely feel differently. But that isn’t the case. Their relationship, for 2.5 seasons (more, really), traveled back and forth on a spectrum of ambiguous at one end to sensual and intense at the other.

I’m not willing to give up on writing, on something that brings so much to my life. I have met some amazing people in this fandom, and I’m so thankful for that, too.

To those who need to leave, because it’s just too hard – I understand. I’m sorry. And I hope you find a safer port than this one.

lapalme  asked:

Can we please have the official rule that constructed decks must be exactly 60/15 cards total? As a humble Mill planeswalker I find it very unfair that every other "resource" is clearly defined alongside thousands of other rules... except how big your deck can be?! R&D play-testing is done with 60 right? And if a player attempts to mill a card from an empty library it should be a loss immediately. Burn doesn't give you an extra upkeep to try and regain some life, and mill is hard enough as is!

That’s just something you have to deal with as a mill player. Just hope you never face a Battle of Wits deck. : )

cherylxcx  asked:

STORYTELLING TIME (bc the riverdale hiatus is boring): tell me about 2 of your fav riverdale ships, 2 of your fav characters, 2 of your favorite scenes out of all 7 episodes, and tell me about the pairing you last shipped/just started shipping. a detailed analysis, 10 paragraphs, i don't care. just tell me.



2 fave riverdale ships

  • let me tell you about BETTY AND VERONICA

listen, okay

l i s t e n

i was not going to watch this show.

(and then i saw josie mccoy’s face and was like BUT BUT BUT and a friend had to tell me she’s barely in the pilot and to calm down, and then i didn’t plan to watch it anymore)

and then i saw it

the world’s fucking tenderest kiss to maybe ever be on television, which is JUST UNFAIR FOR EVERYONE DON’T YOU THINK??

camila mendes has a talent, is what i am saying, and that talent deserves so much appreciation that it actually got me to watch this show


anyway. my favorite thing about the beronica kiss is that it has absolutely nothing to do with how much i ship it. it’s just a weird fever dream bonus to everything about them that i love.

VERONICA IS JUST SO INCREDIBLY IN LOVE WITH BETTY. FROM MOMENT ONE. the train to the rest of my life speech is legit some of the gayest shit i have heard in my damn life.

i love how dedicated they are to one another. i love how they balance each other out. i love that riverdale took the classic “naughty and nice” dichotomy they had from the comics and turned it upside down and shook it, and this is what fell out

they just so clearly thrive off of each other’s energy. i love that.

but you know what i also love?

  • let me tell you about VERONICA AND CHERYL

i honestly thought for a hot minute there that i wouldn’t have interest in this show beyond beronica

and then 1x05 blessed me and watered my crops and cleared my skin and SHOWED ME THE LIGHT

it turns out, veronica directing her attentions at literally anyone is kind of all i need, and cheryl’s my GOTHIC HOT MESS OF PURE EXTRA and i adore her, and i hope one day they move into a new mansion that has a name and adopt war orphans or something.

2 fave characters

obviously you can tell i have a lot of feelings about veronica lodge, so maybe this doesn’t need saying but sorry too bad buckle up because


ironically, i spent most of my life solidly team betty.

“but Leah,” you say, “you love poor little rich girls who are POPULAR but SAD ABOUT IT and SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. cordelia chase! quinn fabray! glinda upland! summer roberts! you very clearly Have A Type!”

i know. i know i do. but i was BLINDSIDED man

i would die on a battlefield for veronica lodge.

because not only did this show give me “REGRETS HER MEAN GIRL PAST” veronica lodge. it over corrected so hard it gave me the bounty of MOM FRIEND VERONICA LODGE






the one thing i am weaker for than a sad popular girl is a girl who dances on the edge of the selfish/selfless line, who has such a big heart that she loves EVERYONE but maybe not quite as much as she loves herself. the rose tylers and rachel berrys of this world

oh wait there’s another thing i’m weak for and that is TINY BRUNETTES

veronica lodge was engineered in a science lab to hit every single one of my buttons, is what i am saying

now. i want to be very clear. i adore betty cooper, and no one on this show is more entertaining than cheryl blossom, and kevin keller is the most represented i have ever felt on television, but there was really only one other person i could say is my fave:

  • let me tell you about MY HOMELESS ASEXUAL SON, JUGHEAD JONES

“but Leah,” you say, “Jughead’s not canon ace in this show”

to which i say they can pry jughead’s lack of libido from my cold dead hands, until he says aloud on screen “i, forsythe pendleton jones the third, love doing the sex and it is my preferred method of having intimacy with my romantic partner” he can date whomever the heck he wants because, ASTONISHINGLY, ace people date! and kiss!

besides the point but aNYHOW

this kid is a fucking trainwreck and i love every inch of him

i love his ridiculous dedication to his aesthetic, i love his shitty novel, i love how much he loves his sister, i love his fwoopy bangs, i love how his reaction to being told his best friend is fucking their teacher is “wow dude sounds like you’re the victim of a sexual predator, do you need help?” rather than a high five, i love the way he delivers one-liners like he’s kind of trying not to laugh at his own jokes

riverdale isn’t riverdale without juggie

2 fave scenes out of all seven episodes


honestly, and i truly have no excuse for this, you said “what is your favorite scene” and the VERY FIRST THING that popped into my head were these moments with ronnie and kev in the back of his father’s truck, which is ridiculous, mostly because they’re not even really a scene

but it’s just. it is so fucking satisfying, man. look at these precious babies. look at how many blankets they’re under. not only is her head on his shoulder (HERE’S ANOTHER LOOK FROM THAT ANGLE) but EVERY PART OF HER is touching EVERY PART OF HIM. he is SITTING on her CAPE. do you have any idea how much trust that entails?

what strikes me about this moment is that Riverdale is succeeding at convincing me that these kids–any of these kids, really, not just kevin and veronica–are friends. that they all enjoy spending time together, that if there weren’t a murder going on they would still see each other, and that they care about each other. ironically, on a lot of teen soaps the friendships are the first thing to be ignored or cut for time, because they’re not juicy and “don’t lead to conflict” (untrue). kevin isn’t even in the core four, and yet, here he is: taking out his best girl because there’s no other out kids except veronica at his school and this show cares about kevin and what kevin does! they could have had veronica suspiciously follow hermione to the drive in and start her conflict with her mom over fred andrews early, but no. they wanted her to have a night out with her gay husband buddy.

kevin and veronica are the kind of friends who made a marriage pact two days into knowing each other. kevin and veronica are the kinds of friends who meet each other’s eyes when they find the same things funny but it would be impolite to laugh. MY KINGDOM FOR AU WHERE KEVIN AND VERONICA BEARD FOR EACH OTHER BUT THEN, WHILE FAKE DATING, BECOME BEST FRIENDS. 

and like yes, unless veronica is actually queer (which she is) her calling kevin her best gay and–more than that–interrupting his interruption to be like “GAY THANK GOD LET’S BE BEST FRIENDS” is a little bit abhorrent. but looking past the ridiculous stereotyping, what strikes me most is that when veronica says let’s be best friends she means it. she’s team kevin now, ride or die. 

this moment shows riverdale at its best: taking a shit ton of cliched tropes but blending them in a new way and showing them with a lens of kind of delightfully unexpected compassion.


it occurs to me that, despite finding my way back to it at the end, this is much less a rant about an actual scene and much more a rant about how much i love the friendship between veronica and kevin, but i’m sorry i love it that much. 

so i’m gonna try harder now on the next one

there are a lot of one-liners and moments i almost picked, even though, once again, those are not scenes (when jughead narrated that there were really only three kids in that booth and we all went IS JUGHEAD A GHOST, “slut shaming is when SLUTS get SHAMED,” “train to the rest of my life,” veronica’s face when betty comes out in the dominatrix gear, “that doesn’t SOUND like complete freedom,” PUSSYCAT RONNIE, fp jones saying he doesn’t want jughead to look at him like he’s garbage anymore….)

but then a dark horse candidate emerged:

  • let me tell you about the moment i realized ONE DAY I WILL BE ABLE TO LOVE ARCHIE

this show has an archie problem. so dedicated were they to proving that they weren’t going to do the classic love triangle, they made it so that archie barely interacts with half his friend group at all. isolating archie from everyone else with the grundy plot set this show back ages, and made archie almost totally irrelevant to the ensemble he ostensibly leads

but then we got this moment of hope:

“okay Leah yes we get it you like it when these idiot teens are friends”



this was the first hint that this show would succeed at gaining my love beyond betty and veronica. and i didn’t appreciate it at the time aside from OH LOOK ARCHIE HAS A PERSONALITY I LIKE TODAY, THAT’S NICE, but in hindsight it really is quite significant. archie and jughead are supposed to be the heart of this show; it’s good to see them act like it.

and jughead is also a sarcastic little shit and he’s my son and i love him


third place goes to the scene with betty, jughead and kevin rebuilding the murder wall and then trev shows up, which hilariously of all three of these might ACTUALLY be my real favorite scene of the whole show, for all the reasons i listed about a) the other two above and b) what i’m about to say below. sadly, though, this makes my love for it redundant and i’ve already repeated myself so much, so i’ll move on to…

the pairing i last shipped/just started shipping

  • well, let me tell you about BETTY AND JUGHEAD

i’m gonna be real with you i adore these two. i’m not fandom-y about them at all, because right now what the show is giving me is JUST RIGHT: two kids with chemistry who care about each other! we’re watching them take it slow and feel it out!

i dig the gentle vibe between them, and how they are interested in each other but mostly because they are both interested in JUSTICE and THE TRUTH and MYSTERIES

bless these idiot teen sleuths! i hope they get married and betty becomes a lawyer-slash-journalist and jughead becomes a private-eye-slash-novelist and together they start a firm called COOPER JONES INVESTIGATIONS and they solve crimes and are married, like Hart to Hart

anyway the point of this ask is that a few months ago i made a viral post about hatewatching riverdale because it’s trash but now i’m legitimately in love with it on every level so the joke is on me i guess

anonymous asked:

What do you think happens to Veronica post Heathers? I mean obviously she would be traumatized by the whole experience but do you think she would've eventually married someone? Or would've committed suicide or died young or something like other people have suggested?

Aahhh I’m sorry I never answered this I forgot lmao.
I think it would be hard as fuck at first, obviously. She’s clearly very resilient, so I think she wouldn’t crumble completely; she’d still finish school, get into college, keep her life going, etc. but it would take her a while to get completely back to her usual self.
I think she would have nightmares like craaazyyy. Dreaming about him blowing up, about killing Kurt and Heather and Ram, about the school blowing up, etc. I also think she would have really good dreams; dreams where everything is okay, and he’s alive, and they’re happy. And waking up from those dreams would be awful for her.
After a few years I think she would be ready to move on. Some people say she’d move on with Heather M or even Martha, but I don’t think so. I think she would want to distance herself from Sherwood and Westerburg completely, with the exception of Martha, who has been her best friend since even before school. She would want a totally fresh start with new people and new places.
She’ll probably find someone, and she would want them to be NOTHING like JD. Not because she doesn’t love what he was, but because it would be super painful for her to be reminded of him. She’s trying her best to forget him and stop missing him, and being with someone who reminded her of him would make it really hard for her to move on.
She’ll also never have the same kind of love with anyone that she had with him. She’ll fall in love and it will be sweet and nice and comfortable and happy, but it won’t be passionate and intense and consuming like it was with him. (Also lbr she’ll never have sex like that again rip)
She’ll move on, but there will always be a part of her, in the back of her mind, that wonders what if?? What if everything had been okay and they were together and she was married to him instead of her current spouse?? Would she be happier?? (She ignores the part of her brain that yells YES)
And idk, since it seems that ghosts are a thing in the heathers world (supposing they weren’t just in Veronica’s head) I wanna believe that she and JD would be together again when she does (as an old lady but then once she’s dead her soul/ ghost is 17 again cry) and be happy in heaven or w/ever!!

And Then I Kissed Her, touken fanfic

Summary: “Kaneki wants to know if you’re free this Saturday night,“ Banjou said. It was hard to believe that today, for the very first time in her life, within a few minutes, Touka would have her first date with Kaneki.

Rating: T, very fluffy and sweet | Words: 7,892k | Read on AO3 / FF.net. If you like it, please reblog! ♥

A/N: Ahh, I have a couple things to say before starting! First of all, sorry for the delay, yesterday was my mom’s birthday so I was a bit busy and I couldn’t find the time to post it. Secondly, this date takes place a few weeks after the recent chapter of the manga, let’s just pretend that Touka and Kaneki haven’t seen each other during that time for a while. Regarding Tsukiyama, I didn’t want to omit his love for Kaneki, I think we all know how he feels about him, but I also wanted to portrait him as someone that despite his own feelings, will always look out for Kaneki’s happiness, if Touka makes him happy, then he will be there to support and help him the best way he can. Okay, enough talking, I had so much fun writing this, ignore any grammar mistakes and enjoy!


Banjou entered the shop, asked for a cup of coffee, smiled with tenderness and nodded firmly.

"Kaneki wants to know if you’re free this Saturday night.”

Touka never thought this day would actually come.

She remembered the scene clearly. Nishiki choking with his coffee, bursting into laughter. Tsukiyama gasping in dismay. Hori taking a picture of the moment, capturing their shocked faces and Banjou’s jovial smirk.

However, there she was.

It was hard to believe that today, for the very first time in her life, within a few minutes, Touka would have her first date with Kaneki.

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anonymous asked:

this is a challenge where i send you a one word ask and you are to write the shit out of it. GLOVES

Nonnie, you are hilarious, I lol’d when I read this and it took me a day or two to figure out how to respond, but… here is me, writing the shit out of GLOVES.

(Part of this is beneath the cut because it got long but I FOUND SOME INTERESTING THINGS. Honestly if I were more invested and less tired this could have been way longer, because I really did find some interesting stuff. But y’all can yell with me about this, if you want.)


There are several examples of Feyre wearing gloves throughout ACOTAR and ACOMAF. Each time they are mentioned, they have a specific purpose, and they are a good indication of her economic and social status, at the time, as well as the amount of agency she has in her own life. It isn’t just the kind of gloves she wears, but also when, and for what reason. In the beginning, in ACOTAR, her gloves are fairly predictable:

“My eyes stung, but I blinked the moisture away as I stuffed my hands into my worn gloves. “When spring comes, hunt in the grove just south of the big bend in Silverspring Creek—the rabbits make their warrens there. Ask … ask Isaac Hale to show you how to make snares. I taught him last year.” (chp. 4 acotar)

In this scene, we see the gloves that Feyre begins with, which are for purely utilitarian purposes, and they are worn – we can imagine that they get a lot of use, and she might have to replace them frequently, given how often she needs to work with her hands to provide for her family. The poverty her family experiences means that she isn’t able to afford better, but this is… pretty much what we would expect. Normal glove usage here.

When Feyre goes to the Spring Court, her gloves are of a completely different variety. In fact, you could almost say that this complete change in glove style indicates the fact that she is no longer useful in the way she was before. And perhaps more importantly, they indicate that she is mostly ornamental to Tamlin, and that he sees little value in her besides looking very nice at his side. Clearly, this was a sign that he did not appreciate her intellect, her pragmatism, or her desire to actually do something with her life.

“I tugged at the lace gloves—useless and flimsy.” (chp. 28, acotar)

It’s interesting that Feyre notes the fact that these gloves are useless and flimsy, as they are a contrast to the ones she is used to. She doesn’t note how pretty they are, or how nicely they go with her dress. She doesn’t care about that, clearly. She is perhaps still adjusting to her life in the Spring Court. Perhaps she is the kind of person who never would have gone for purely ornamental finery. It’s hard to say for sure.

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About the ASL brothers

Okay so,
I’ve been on this fandom for a long time now. I have read a lot of fanfictions, I think, and saw a lot of fanarts, well at least enough for me to write this post today.
There’s one thing I’ve never understood: why does everyone think Ace and Sabo would be overprotective with Luffy?

I know each time the brothers met Luffy’s crew they would always say “Please, take care of my little brother”, and everyone including me, would go “awww fdhjfdilfd”. AND this is alright, this is what family do, they care for their brothers, they want to make sure everything’s alright.
That’s not being overprotective, that’s being a brother.

Now, if they were the overprotective kind of brothers, they would never have allowed Luffy to go on adventure alone like that. And each time Luffy would go into troubles (as he usually does), they would never try to hide and protect him so nobody touches their precious, fragile little brother - on the contrary they would fight together and join their forces.
And yes, fragile, because ‘this is how Ace and Sabo see Luffy in the fanfictions’. Except that Luffy’s everything but fragile!

I mean, seriously guys? He fought and trained with Sabo and Ace. They would always chuckle and laugh at him because he was weaker than them, but they valued – value – his strenght, they recognized potential in him.

And you know what? They also know, deep down, Luffy’s gonna become the Pirate King, or at least they believe in his dreams. And would a Pirate King need to be overprotected by his big brothers? No. Because he needs to get stronger, to improve himself, to experience life, to be independent, to be himself. They trust one another. Just like Luffy’s crew (Remember when Zoro said Sanji could handle things in Dressrosa? Kinda what I mean).

Letting people act the way they want because they know they are able to manage on their own is a way of showing love. But to be possessive? It’s poisonous. It doesn’t go anywhere. It’s unbearable. It’s insulting. And most of all, it’s not love. Not the way it’s described, anyways.
Whatever your ships are, each time I read something like Ace on his way to punch the Person X for going out with Luffy, just because “he’s his little brother”, I’m sick of it. It’s bullshit. Ace wouldn’t do that, nor Sabo.

They love Luffy, yes, but there’s a difference between caring about someone and always be here in case of huge huge problem, and somebody always checking on one’s life like a supervisor behind your shoulder and trying to control everything just to be sure “he’s safe”. That is not the ASL’s relationship.

AUs are hard to write, and I admire people who try to make up a plot and go for it, I’m myself one of them so I get it, it’s difficult, but please when you do write about the ASL brothers, even if it’s to get a ship stronger, use another way than making them out of character.

Now I’m sorry if I have done some mistakes and didn’t express myself very clearly but English isn’t my native language. I did my best.

anonymous asked:

There better be another goddamn twist to this Savitar reveal. I'll take a Malcolm Thawne twist. However, whatever it is better make sense. And they need to fix this nonsense with an evil version of Barry teaming up with an evil version of Caitlin, to kill the love of his life and darkness in the light, Iris!!

I don’t know about a “twist” per se…

I do think we’ll get more of an explanation. All they showed us at the end of the episode is Savitar’s face. We don’t know how he became the God of Speed, or why he needs to defeat Barry, or how Iris’s death plays into his plans. Hopefully the next episode will answer those questions.

Also saying that KF and Savitar are “teaming up” is a stretch lol. More like KF is Savitar’s lackey that he seems pretty disappointed with. Good help is very hard to find nowadays apparently ;)

Lastly I think this needs to be clearly stated. Iris is NOT the love of Savitar’s life. That’s the whole point behind him being an evil power hungry megalomaniac who sees himself as a God. Without having Iris in his life (along with the rest of his family and friends) Barry would choose to go down a dark path that will strip away any trace of humanity in him. 

Barry and Savitar are NOT the same person

They are two individuals who have the same origin but then made vastly different choices from that. And its the choices we make that define who we are. 

anonymous asked:

Do you feel like jmo ran away from the show? Or is distancing herself from it?

Alright, I find these questions odd and I’m curious what you’re fishing for. 

Do you feel like jmo ran away from the show?

No. Jennifer Morrison is an adult and a professional. She doesn’t need to “run” away from anything. (What would make you phrase it like that?) She had very good reasons, both personal and professional, for wanting to move on, and clearly ABC didn’t come to the table with enough to make those reasons not weigh with her. It’s unfortunate, but it’s business. 

Or is distancing herself from it?

Dude, it’s only been a week, how could we even tell if she was distancing herself from it?  The woman did a full round of exit interviews where she spoke in nothing but glowing terms about the character, the show and A&E.  What else do you want for her?  

Also isn’t distance from something inherent when you’re no longer a part of it? Are you upset because she’s not constantly tweeting about a show in hiatus that she no longer works for? Even if she were coming back full-time next season, I don’t think we would have seen much difference in her social media or media presence over the last week or so. Really I’m at loss to figure out what you want from her.  

If she is, do you blame her? Think about how you feel about her leaving, how sad and bereft you’ve felt since it was announced and then put yourself in her shoes. It’s her life. She was clearly very attached to Emma and her story and journey. She’s saying goodbye to that too, and she knows fans and her former coworkers are disappointed by her decision, that has to to be hard. Plus she’s going through a huge life change. No more steady pay check. No more routine of working with the same group of people day in and day out.  Change is hard. And it’s hard whether you’re an adult or not, whether you’re famous or not, and whether you want it or not. 

Cut her some slack and stop looking for hidden meaning in every damn things she does. 

Final Fantasy XV, aka ‘Please, Hajime Tabata, Stop It.’

I just spent the last few hours of 2016 finishing FFXV. 

Do I have feelings? You bet. A LOT OF FEELINGS. 


Ah, Final Fantasy XV. Development hell resident. The forever-morphing former member of the Fabula Nova Crystallis collection. Formerly known as Versus XIII. We’ve been through a lot. You gave us all you could, but we all know that you could have given us so much more. 

You had it in you.  

(This is going to be a long one. A LOT of spoilers inside. EDIT: now with MUSIC portion!)

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Trans Headcanons for Harry Potter

It’s apparently National Coming Out day (ps am gay), so here’s some trans headcanons for Harry Potter. From a conversation with @buttcheek2 , who is great.

Hermione: She’s black, of course, which makes Malfoy’s anti-muggleborn racism more poignant, and she’s also trans.
Picture a little 11-year-old trans girl staring down the wrong puberty. She’s done the research, she’s read how hard it is to get puberty blockers and hormones, she’s learned about surgeries and discrimination, she knows how hard it’s going to be for her. Then she gets a letter that says “Magic exists and you can do it. You can fix this with a wave of a wand.”

No friggin’ wonder she read all her textbooks six months in advance. No one else’s very identity is dependent on being top of the class.

(P.S. we see her doing permanent body modification with magic, and didn’t it always seem like she was a little *too* into making the Polyjuice Potion? It wasn’t a great plan, and it was super difficult, dangerous, and against the rules, but she always seemed *really* excited about getting to transform into that cis girl…)

Ginny: Molly Weasley thought she had seven sons and resigned herself to a life surrounded by testosterone. Imagine her joy when she learned she had a daughter.

And imagine how much her brothers teased her about “now you’re a girl, I guess you can’t play us in Quidditch” until she shut them up.

Snape: Snape’s story always felt like it was missing something; he was supposed to be Forlorn Eternal Love, but he wound up as Creepy Stalker. But consider, from his perspective:
Young trans boy likes a girl, but she can’t see past his body. He learns how to make potions to change his body, but it’s a slow process. Before he perfects it, this other boy comes along, and just because he was lucky enough to be born in the right body, the girl falls in love with him! He spends the rest of his life convinced that if he’d been assigned male at birth, he could have gotten her.

This takes Snape from “friendzoned =(” to “trans boy frustrated he can’t get a straight girl to see past his body”. Lily becomes his motivation to transition (inverse of Hermione, whose transition is partial motivation for her academic excellence). This also explains his extreeeeeeme hatred of James and the other marauders, and his specific anger at Harry’s privilege, at the advantages he gets simply because of some accidents of birth. It means also that James’ magical pantsing prank goes from bullying to hate crime (and that Harry seeing that memory in the pensieve effectively outed Snape), so it makes a little more sense for Snape to hold a grudge for decades.

It also explains part of why he’s such a horrible asshole in classes, not just to Harry but also to Hermione, Neville, and others. It isn’t that he hates everyone: he hates amab people. He hates anyone who had the privilege he lacked. He *especially* hates Hermione, who had that and then gave it up.

Course, he also gives special treatment to Malfoy…

Malfoy: Draco gives Snape a chance to fix his mistakes, to live vicariously through someone else. When fellow death eater Lucius mentions that his daughter is saying silly things about herself, Snape stops him and demands to see the child. He gives Draco the potions he spent so long devising so that this boy doesn’t have to live the same pain that he did.

Since Snape sees Malfoy as a younger version of himself, he wants to protect him, to make sure he does well in school and doesn’t get hurt, especially by the Potter boy. When Narcissa needs to find someone to protect her son, she chooses someone who isn’t just his teacher or head of house, but a man devoted to protecting him, even at the cost of his own life.

None of this makes Malfoy particularly more interesting, but that’s alright; not every trans character is defined by their gender. Malfoy comes from a rich, socially high-ranking family, and transitions at a young age. He remains extremely privileged one way or the other and highlights how important that privilege is to a trans person.

McGonagall: The transfiguration master, a woman who’s devoted her magical career to learning how to transform her body. It would be kinda symbolically inappropriate for her *not* to be trans.

Going into her deeper backstory outside of the books, McGonagall’s story revolves around a mother forced to hide her identity, a girl proud of herself and who she is, and a decision to live proudly and openly, even if it means she doesn’t marry. Honestly, the trans metaphor is pretty obvious.

She also excelled academically at school, like another trans girl we know, and specifically focused her efforts on learning how to transform her body. As an animagus, it also makes complete symbolic sense for her to be genderfluid, changing between two distinct forms rather than permanently transforming herself.

Moaning Myrtle: She spent all her time in the girls’ bathroom, locked in a stall; even as the other girls made fun of her for how she looked, it was the only place she felt like herself. When she died, she stayed in one of the only gendered spaces on campus.

What was the unfinished business that kept her on this plane? Finding transphobes and making fun of *their* genitals and telling *them* they can’t use this bathroom. The bathroom was abandoned because she made it a trans-only space by haunting the shit out of any cis girl who came in. Hermione and Ginny were okay, of course. She lets Harry and Ron in because she assumes they’re closet trans (why would a boy want to go into the girl’s bathroom?), and she sympathizes with Malfoy in his sixth year since he actually is trans (albeit he’s never been bullied for it like she was).

Remus: once a month something happens to his body that’s beyond his control and he feels like a horrible monster even though his friends assure him it’s okay, until he starts taking a potion (made by Snape) that keeps it under control. Also he’s a werewolf.

This makes his standing by while his cis friends abused another trans boy more poignant, and also explains why Snape would ever do anything nice for him ever.

Tonks: if you don’t think that’s the perfect magic power for a genderfluid person, I dunno what to tell you. Tonks also decided not to go by a clearly feminine first name and was quite happy to assume male forms.

Tom Riddle: Tom is not a trans man but a closeted trans woman. He (that is the pronoun he uses for himself) spends his whole life fighting his urges. It would have been very hard to transition in an orphanage, where he is bullied for any feminine traits he displays and lashes out with magic.

In school, as he goes through puberty, he tries hard to be as masculine as he can, gathering a group of all male friends and making himself their leader, even taking on the title “Lord”. He focused on his magical ability, seeking something to fix himself, rather than accepting and loving himself (as Dumbledore always preached). One day, while ashamedly visiting the girls’ bathroom, he discovers the entrance to the chamber of secrets. The person he kills is Myrtle Warren: even though she doesn’t pass and she cries all the time and her life is miserable, she still has the courage to be out and proud. Riddle can’t stand this reminder of his own weakness and kills her. He never returns to the Chamber of Secrets again, because to do so he would need to enter the girls’ bathroom.

Riddle pushes his studies toward magic that will allow him to live even if he destroys or mangles his body, which he sees as the cause of his problems by not being masculine enough.

When reopening the Chamber of Secrets, he chooses a female student (likely to his great shame, unable to resist the urge to do so). When he returns fully, he decides to make his new body of materials drawn from three different men, hoping it would finally let him be at peace with himself, but to no avail. So he seeks out the most powerful wand in the world - surely, with that, he could finally fix himself.

Voldemort trusts Snape despite everything because he sees in him someone else who understands what it’s like to “choose” to be a man. He likely takes Snape’s masculinizing potion, as well. For his symbol, he chooses a snake, an animal which not only represents his ancestry, but is also extremely phallic, symbolizing his maleness. Ironically, the snake he makes his familiar is female: like him, a female mind in a masculine body.

Finally, he seeks out the elder wand, a symbol of ultimate maleness: besides its shape (it is the mightiest phallus in wizarding history), it is passed down through bloodshed, competition, combat: all things coded as male, making it a powerful symbol of masculine strength. However, even this betrays him, and he dies by his own hand after putting all of his faith into an identity that was never his.

anonymous asked:

Not hating, but I am honestly curious why you see potential in rivamika as a ship that would work, because in the anime/manga, most of the time I feel like everything Mikasa does is for Eren (especially in the anime, most of her lines are seriously just some variation of 'Eren'), just as how everything Levi does is for Erwin. And their interactions actually mostly revolve around saving Eren. I can't see them stop thinking of Eren/Erwn long enough to even notice each other tbh.

There’s actually a lot of reasons why, actually. Please note that I’m going to discuss why I think rivamika has potential, but I’m not trying to prove they have any romantic potential because I don’t personally think they do due to the theme and circumstances of the canon story (AUs/UAs are another story). However, there’s quite a lot of evidence that supports the ship. Maybe it won’t be enough to convince you, but it was enough for me and many other rivamika shippers.

Honestly, this fandom (and many others) have paired characters together with much, much less potential so I don’t know why so many people think rivamika doesn’t meet “shipping requirements.” I mean, part of the fun of shipping is being creative and match-making characters you personally think would make a cute couple. Hell, I even ship characters that barely/never interacted before because I think their personalities match up well and I like to imagine the possibilities. This is why I’ll never understand why fans these days have to explain themselves and provide proof, but meh. I got nothing better to do lol. 

I also want to note that I was fascinated by Mikasa and Levi’s relationship/parallels before I started to ship them–that was more of an aftereffect and a way to express my love for them. In other words, I’m capable of being unbiased while discussing their relationship :)

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anonymous asked:

i also go on your blog when i'm feeling anxious, actually sometimes ill scroll past your posts quickly and wait for when i'm at a low moment to go read them. it's all very calm and nice and well thought through, your writing is so enjoyable to read that it distracts me so nicely. you just clearly have a lot of compassion and want to make sure everyone's comfortable and it's such a nice break from the world where it seems like no one cares. love u <3<3

this is so lovely thank you <3 it’s hard to believe i can give you that sort of distraction but i’m just so happy to know that this blog has played a positive role in your life!!!!! you’re the sweetest, thank you for taking the time to message me. have a beautiful day xxx

When you go looking for breadcrumbs, you may not like where they lead. What truly upsets me is the outrageous and petty little narrow views some of these haters try to exploit. It’s so mean spirited for someone they’ve deemed to be irrelevant.

So what did we learn:

Mackenzie is going to Capetown to spend Easter or longer with her boyfriend. Pretty innocent. Pretty normal.

Mackenzie had a long layover at Heathrow. So the dumb bunny who slammed her for being on the West Coast when THEY thought it was too late in the day to be leaving for South Africa just applied her very narrow views and jumped to a very wrong conclusion. No surprise there. It’s what they do. But had they done that research and learned that Mackenzie is savvy enough to not tell people where she is, only where she was, it’s because of psycho bitches like them who don’t know where to draw the line.

The drinks. I am just like Mackenzie when I travel. When I have flown all night, and have another connection, I always have a ton of drinks in front of me. Call it fighting jet lag, time of day or needing some energy. I always have water, then coffee (because they are the quickest to the table) then orange juice and a Bloody Mary or a glass of wine. I even order this on long flights. I even order this daily at a resort when I’m on vacation. My son even knows to order this for me. So to try to demean someone for a petty offense such as ordering lots of drinks for a long layover, I raise my hand. 👋 I’m also guilty as charged.

The books. Bird by Bird, written by Anne Lamott, not only is a book about how to get started to write, but it’s a great spiritually insightful book written by one of the most gifted writers in our time. It’s funny. It can apply to many things in our lives.

“Bird by Bird” is among my favorite books on writing-a treasure trove of insight both practical and profound, timelessly revisitable and yielding deeper resonance each time. Lamott adds to the collected wisdom of great writers with equal parts candor and conviction, teaching us as much about writing as she does about creativity at large and, even beyond that, about being human and living a full life - because, after all, as Lamott notes in the beginning, writing is nothing more nor less than a sensemaking mechanism for life" - Maria Popova of BrainPickings.org Blog

So why are we even trying to assume or guess why Mackenzie chose this book to read on the plane? Especially because it is such a great read. Anyone bettering themselves in life gets an A+ from me. I’ve done it all my life. Most Outlander book readers are also cut from the same cloth. So shaming ANYONE for learning is a truly shallow and petty thing to do.

Her job. Actors get paid a lot of money. No secret there. It helps to tide them over until they can start their next opportunity. It takes A LOT of coordination and scheduling to get all of the people and equipment and locations coordinated. So if you’ve made millions of dollars you can afford to be patient. She’s got agents and managers to help her out now. She’s got a great resume too. And a great reference in the incredible Meryl Streep. She’s not unemployed. Huge difference. If you are ignorant about how show business works, it might be better to not show your shallow understanding of how it works. The only thing that’s thirsty about actors is waiting for their next role to start shooting. In the meantime, they attend acting classes, observe people, attend other actors shows and they keep learning. Cait has talked at length about the years (yes YEARS) she had to do this work with nothing else to support her. Mackenzie has made enough money she doesn’t need to go find a real world job. She can fly anywhere in the world whenever she likes. And look! That’s exactly what she’s been doing. Good for her!

So is Mackenzie irrelevant or not? Is she just being herself and trying to find joyful things to enrich her life? Absolutely. The mean girls clearly have a lot of issues. They have no morals or standards in which they can live by and be proud of. If they were special, they could immediately find so many reasons to like Mackenzie. If Mackenzie was their daughter they would be so proud of her and her accomplishments. Life is hard. It will beat you down if you let it. Shitty little women cannot do that. If Sam fell in love with her then clearly she’s incredibly special. She’s talented. She’s smart. She’s funny and she doesn’t take things too seriously. I don’t know her. But if my amazing son brought her home I’d be very happy for them. But their relationship isn’t my business. My opinion doesn’t matter.

So why not just be happy it’s working FOR THEM. I learned long ago that just because my husband traveled 36 weeks out of the year we still found ways to keep our romance alive. In today’s busy world, more relationships are unconventional and don’t fit into someone else’s narrow view of what a relationship should be. It works for them. Clearly. Distance and time becomes irrelevant. And we didn’t even have all the options of communicating we have today. I have a similar communication style with my son. We chat, we Skype, he sends me photos real time of his travels. I do the same. It’s like he was sitting next to me the whole time. So let’s stop judging people. Love is love. Be happy they found it. I think the spirit of Easter and rebirth is upon us. And THATS A WRAP! I hope they enjoy Capetown and road trips to the unknown!


Saw-whet owl banding season is upon us! So for the next six weeks, I will probably be spamming you guys with Cute Owl Content (to balance out a down-swing in fanart content, since my drawing time is going to be halved until nearly Thanksgiving.)

(click to embiggen, obviously. I’m the one in the red plaid.)

The background: this is part of an ongoing scientific study that’s been gathering data on saw-whet owl migration in North America for the past, like, 15 or 20 years.  There are a few hundred banding stations across the United States and Canada.  The saw-whet owl is (obviously) a very small North American owl that largely breeds in the boreal forest in Canada, and then the majority of the owls migrate south for the winter.  (Some stay in their nesting territories; some choose to stay and breed at lower latitudes.) They migrate as far south as Alabama, to the best of our knowledge (I’m not aware of anyone setting up nets any further south? Very few make it that far south, most seem to prefer to go about as far as Virginia.)  If you put up mist-nets at night and play the male’s toot-toot-toot (repeat infinitely) call, you can get owls to come down and check it out and get in the nets.

Unlike songbirds, saw-whets are kind of peripatetic migrators, at least on their southern trip.  They fly for a bit, stop, and can pause in a midway spot for days, even weeks, before deciding to move on.  (Some decide not to move on at all, and over-winter in a place where they find good prey numbers.)

The banding project has gathered data on thousands of owls (all our data gets put into a centrally-available database), over time revealing things like migration patterns (which is how we know that they move in fits and starts; and that they have several fly-ways that they seem to stick to year to year) and demographic information.  Besides putting a band on them, we take weight and size measurements, and also make some broad determinations about age based on feather age and molt patterns.  Way back at the start, someone did the tests necessary to determine the sex of about a thousand saw-whets, and from that was able to plot out the size and weight range of males and females.  (Their plumage is identical.  Like most raptors, females are a little bit larger than males; unfortunately, the size disparity isn’t usually great enough to tell by sight, although after a while you do get a feel for when you have a particularly small owl in hand.)

The two dark photos above are us using blacklight to age feathers.  Most of the time you can do it by eye – newer feathers are darker – but when it’s very tricky, we use the blacklight. There is a chemical in new feathers called porphyrin, which glows pink under blacklight.  It fades as the feather ages, so old feathers look entirely blue.  The owl above was just for demo purposes, and as a hatch-year bird had all new feathers, so it doesn’t look that dramatic.

About 80% to 90% of the owls we catch are females.  The majority that we catch were also hatched that spring, and after that the numbers dwindle to second-year birds, and some who are clearly older than hatch-year or after second-year but it’s hard to tell exactly how old.  (Life expectancy in the wild for saw-whets is 4-6, I think; but there are individuals who have lived to age 19 in captivity.)  Their numbers fluctuate in boom-bust cycles (possibly linked to prey boom-bust cycles in their breeding territories, but I don’t know that anyone has yet done the studies to try to determine that); so some years you get very few owls, and some years you get lots of owls.

Anyway, that’s the short of it!  But feel free to message me if you want to find out more details.

I’ve been volunteering with this for about 6 years, I think.  If you live in the U.S. or Canada, you might check to see if there is a banding station in your area.  Many banding stations run programs where the public can come see what it’s all about.  (I got involved by attending such a demo, and then started volunteering.)

So yes, this is a Very Serious Scientific Study, Really.  But I think you can look at the pics and see why some of us gladly give up half of our nights (or more) in October and part of November, every year.  (You do have to be – excuse me – a night-owl for this; on slow nights I get home at midnight; on busy nights it’s been 2am, and that’s only because we called it quits, not because the owls stopped coming.)


The Reality of a Fairytale (Justin Bieber x Reader)

           When she met Justin for the first time it was a dream come true. And when he asked for her number it was as if her wish had been granted. But when she eventually became his girlfriend it was like living in a fairytale. That is until the fairytale turned into a harsh reality.

           Justin and (Y/N) would occasionally go out to clubs, in fact that’s where they met. She wasn’t much of a drinker. She’d have one, maybe two at the most. She enjoyed dancing to the loud music. But he liked to drink and she knew that. It was never a problem for her, until she started noticing how it was causing problems in their relationship.

           She would spend most of her time on the dancefloor and he would sit in the VIP section having drinks with his friends. He use to find time to dance a few times with her, but now she had to practically drag him to the dancefloor for one. Then he started to want to visit more than one club a night. She didn’t see a problem with it since it was only twice a week that they did this, but twice a week turned into four or five nights, which she didn’t want to do.

          He had found a lot of success lately with his career. He was breaking records and receiving awards. He wanted to celebrate these achievements, which she understood but using that as a reason to drink heavily was a concern. 

           “Justin why don’t we stay in tonight?” she suggested, as they sat on the couch in her apartment.

           “Babe I already said I would show up,” he sighed. “And besides, I want to celebrate my nomination.”

           “But we’ve gone out three nights in a row,” she said.

           “Come on. This will be the last time for a while,” he said, grabbing her hand gently.

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Now there are 55,000 of you here tonight.. 55,000 people on the first night of my world tour, what do you think about that Tokyo?! Now we’ve got 55,000 people here tonight I can only assume that maybe some of you, at some point or another, have gone through a hard time in your life, and I can only assume that the way you deal with tough times and sadness is the way that I deal with it. I turn to music and clearly you wouldn’t be here if you didn’t turn to music in hard times, I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t turn to music in hard times and it makes me feel like we have that in common. I think it’s very possible that a lot of you have experienced a lot of rainy days that never got brighter or maybe you fell in love with a person or something that was bad for you and you couldn’t quit. Maybe you lost someone you never expected you would lose. Maybe you lost yourself, that’s even worse. When you have bad days that just won’t let up, I just hope that you will look in the mirror and remind yourself of what you are and what you are not. You are not your mistakes. You are not damaged goods or muddy from your failed explorations. You are not the opinion of someone who doesn’t know you. You are a product of the lessons that you’ve learned. You are wiser because you went through something terrible. And you are the person who survived a bunch of rainstorms and kept walking. I now believe that pain makes you stronger. And I now believe that walking through a lot of rainstorms gets you Clean.
—  Taylor to the Tokyo crowd on night 1 of The 1989 Tour before performing Clean.
Heathers: The Musical Sentence Starters (Act 1)
  • "I believe I'm a good person."
  • "College will be paradise, if I'm not dead by June"
  • "I rented The Princess Bride"
  • "Don't you have it memorized by now?"
  • "Grow up, bulimia is so 1987."
  • "You have a symmetrical face. If I took a meat cleaver down the center I'd have matching hales"
  • "And you know life can be beautiful"
  • "Oh, thank you. It's still the same me underneath"
  • "How...very."
  • "We all didn't kiss on the kickball field"
  • "What?! It's going to give her shower nozzle masturbation material for weeks!"
  • "You've come so far, why now are you pulling on my dick?"
  • "Or you could smoke, grab some rum and coke in my Porsche with the quarterback"
  • "Keep testing me, or you'll end up like her"
  • "Clearly you have a Soul. You just have to work hard on keeping it clean."
  • "Seems like you have an open door policy for assholes."
  • "Could you be seen with me and still act proud?"
  • "I would fight for you, if you would fight for me."
  • "And I know CPR"
  • "God! Drool much? You were totally throwing your panties at the new kid."
  • "It's because you're an idiot."
  • "Don't forget the corn nuts!"
  • "I don't really like my friends."
  • "Does your mommy know you eat that crap?"
  • "You'll go to some collage and marry a lawyer."
  • "Wave bye bye to Red Dawn here and lets motor."
  • "Lets get naked in my pool!"
  • "Lets rub each others backs, while watching porn on Cinemax"
  • "Mom and Dad forgot to lock the liquor cabinet!"
  • "I feel like Bono at Live Aid"
  • "I think that's what they call third base"
  • "I hate freshmen"
  • "I didn't need your help!"
  • "I brought sparkling cider!"
  • "People wouldn't hate you so much if you acted normal."
  • "What's your damage?"
  • "Come Monday, you're an ex somebody."
  • "I get paid in puke!?!?"
  • "Lick it up, baby. Lick. It. Up."
  • "Thirty hours to live, how should I spend them?"
  • "Got no time to knock, I'm a dead girl walkin'"
  • "I have to ride you, until I break you"
  • "Lets break the mattress"
  • "No sleep tonight for you, better chug your Mountain Dew"
  • "It will be soooooooooo very."
  • "I need to go kiss her arobasized ass"
  • "Oh... by the way? You were my first."
  • "Nice, but you're still dead to me."
  • "Oh my god! I just killed my best friend!"
  • "I was having my period."
  • "I learned to kiss boys with my tongue"
  • "It weighed like a concrete prom queen crown"
  • "Jesus, you're making me sound like air supply!"
  • "I am more than just a source of hand jobs!"
  • "Holy crap! This is awesome!"
  • "My mom is making my favorite dinner. Spaghetti...with lots of oregano"
  • "You avoided date rape, by volunteering me for date rape?"
  • "you caused physical pain in my area"
  • "Ugh you have a left hand. Use it."
  • "Don't make my balls so blue."
  • "They'll friend you like Winnie the pooh"
  • "They have been telling the whole school about your three way"
  • "You're the only thing that's right about this broken world"
  • "Our love is god."
  • "How did you know it was always a fantasize to have two guys at once?"
  • "We can start and finish wars"
  • "I worship you"
  • "So lets go hunt some jocks"
  • "Take it slow....strip for me."
  • "I was hopping you could rip my clothes off me sport."
  • "We're what killed the Dinosaurs."

It is also crazy knowing your entire life’s purpose. I know I’m supposed to share what I can do, my connection to whatever is above us and my ability to see it clearly, with the world because that is what my Tarot cards have been SCREAMING at me. But I still resist because I’m also so sensitive to the world’s troubles it’s like being connected to the entire world and the entire world right now is very depressing. It’s hard to do something so emotionally draining your whole life if the life you’re in doesn’t even accept what you’re supposed to do