i think that jin is a really malleable person; someone that can adapt to people based on their personalities. he has the ability to modify his behaviour to suit other people like how he is silly and goofy when around maknae line and is much more reserved and insightful around the hyung line, people who are closer to his age. jin is honest and knows when to assert himself. he knows when he is to be respected and isn’t shy when giving his two cents in a conversation. even though he is seen as confident and outgoing, i think that jin is insecure. he needs praise and he needs to have validation and thats why i think bangtan gets a little hard for him at times because, as we all know, jin doesn’t get the appreciation he deserves. he said that he tells himself that “acting young will make him look young” and i thought of the confidence tactic ‘fake it til you make it’. i think jin is trying really hard and i just want everyone to fuckin appreciate all his hard work can we agree kim seokjin is an angel???? i also have noticed how impatient jin is and i wouldn’t go as far as saying tactless, but i do see that jin is very open about his opinions which can be brutal if it triggers a soft spot.
ive said this a lot, but people think that a celebrities personality is what we see through interviews and reality shows and even logs - but that isn’t the case. we need to remember that kpop is a business and that they manufacture things a lot because at the end of the day, kpop is for entertainment purposes. bighit has done a good job portraying bts as a relatable, chirpy band; this is bangtan’s ‘avatar’. their avatar sometimes gets taken away in livestreams or in meet-ups and we can see who they truly are and i think that jins alternate, ‘variety’ personality is more or less the same in real life. variety seokjin is goofy and tells dad jokes and that is his shtick, but in real life we see that same hilarious seokjin except a lot more intense. jin is intense and passionate. we see that on stage, majority of the time when he is singing awake. it’s really beautiful to watch the awake performance and to hear his emphasise on certain words that he is most passionate about and you can tell that he has gone through a lot.
jin has said on many occasions that he felt most loved after the fire era when he Evolved and did hand kisses and told jokes and you could see how happy he was and it made me really happy to see (when did this turn from an analysis to me just complimenting jin????).
i also noticed while looking through the bts ch+ channel some things that kind of gave me more insight to jins relationships with the bts members. one relationship that kind of had me kind of wondering was jinkook. it’s hard to work out because i’m aware of the age gap but i’ve noticed that jungkook doesn’t necessarily acknowledge jin and it made me quite uncomfortable to watch. i do enjoy the back and forth that jinkook have and the banter is fun but i don’t know - it seems like theres some tension there sometimes (if anyone wants video receipts hmu). i’m not trying to start some god damn ship war so pls chill in my ask box this is just what ive noticed. i think that jin and jimin are a good pair because jimin has a habit of making people feel good and validated which is exactly what jin needs most, and i think jinmin’s relationship is healthy and beneficial for both of them!! i think that taehyung really does look up to jin as an older brother and has a great amount of respect for him and ive noticed that he always laughs at jins jokes!!! a+ concept!!! jin and hoseok are nice to watch because i think jin loves to learn and hoseok is always there to help him learn. even though hoseok is younger than jin, he is a teacher figure to jin. jin respects hoseok. jin and namjoon!!! one of my favourite relationships!! i think that jin is himself when he is around namjoon because he knows that namjoon isn’t one to judge, which i think is something that jin fears. he drinks up namjoons insight and gives his own insight back and i just really love the dynamics of this friendship. jin is most pliant when around yoongi, since yoongi’s character is pretty intense, i wouldn’t have thought that jin would be roommates with him; it just doesn’t seem like a good fit. but it really is kind of perfect. jin has the ability to adapt his personality and knows yoongi’s boundaries and that’s why i think he is the best person to be yoongi’s roommate (i rly cant imagine yoongi rooming with someone from maknae line - what a trainwreck).
kim seokjin - intp/sagittarius. optimistic, honest, impatient, adaptive.
yes hello i have decided not to finish this because wots to come is too horrible and i might die (if you have seen the video ull understand) ,, but since i suffered workin on part of it, you gotta suffer too so here:
i’ve seen people in the past say that paint mixing videos are a waste of art supplies so i thought that i’d just put my opinion out there :)
So, reason one why I dont thing paint mixing is a waste: Its a great way to get rid of old paint! You know that paint that’s not so good for actual painting anymore but you just cant bring yourself to throw it away? Paint mixing videos are a perfect way to put it to good use! I personally have some really old paints that im about to make some videos of!
Also, you dont necessarily have to use top of the line paint. Some craft stores sell small bottles of acryllic paint for only a couple dollars, perfect! And since paint mixing vids typically dont use a ton of paint, a little bottle should last a while!
Finally and probably most importantly: paint mixing videos really help calm people down. I have severe anxiety and paint videos are part of what introduced me to stim blogs and stimming in general! Watching the pretty colors being mixed together can really calm me down sometimes and i know that a lot of other people experience the same thing!
Now these are just my personal opinions, I completely understand if anyone doesnt agree with me on some things, thats perfectly fine.
But if you have any more reasons then feel free to reblog and add them! Happy stimming!
dead leaves will always be my fave bts song. just the amount of lines jin has???? like he even has the first verse??? & yoongis husky rapping and the fact he produced that song himself?? & how easily jungkooks and jimins voices flow into one another and their smooth harmonies &namjoons gasp and “woohoo” and how u can visually see him rap his part & how tae’s low vocals fit so well in this song….and i cant forget abt hobs iconic rap verse and how its the perfect transition to the climax of the song where the beats all escalate perfectly with vocal lines high notes and then the music fades and all u can hear is the piano and just tae whispering never never fall and then it ends and u feel almost empty but like mellow at the same time????? god i love dead leaves
Ok i have to talk about what a feeling again bc ive been listening to it on repeat and this song, everything in this song is perfect. Their voices collectively is the most beautiful sound, their solo parts are so soft, the melody of the entire song is so gorgeous, louis voice in this always gives me fucking chills same with harrys and when you listen to them in the chorus you can hear both of them so well and its just so beautiful and then i havent even mentioned the lyrics yet
the logical part of my brain: you can’t be perfect in everything, everyone has strengths and weaknesses and that’s okay
the Disordered part of my brain: oh excuse me bitch? the fact that you failed this one task means you’re a useless human and a parasite upon society
Alright babes. Our boys finally get together in this one. And it’s fluff and smut and fluff and feels and they are perfect for each other it’s all heart eyes and love. And fluff. I really just cant emphasize the fluff enough. Its beautiful. These two are beautiful.
Tony woke slowly, stretching happily as big hands traced soft circles over his skin, fingers tripping over his ribs and pressing lightly over his soulmark. A quick peek at the clock showed that it was barely five am, which meant he had been sleeping for fourteen hours after Steve since carried up to bed from the lab yesterday.
Tony sighed and closed his eyes again, enjoying the feeling of waking up next to his soulmate.
“The sun isn’t even up yet, Steve. I’d yell at you for waking me, but I’m so glad you stayed last night I’m gonna let it go this time.” He teased quietly and Steve mmm’d a little in agreement, easing Tony onto his side and cuddling up against him in a big spoon position. “Oh, good morning soldier. Is all that for me?”
Tony pushed back against the bulge digging into his ass and Steve sighed into his skin, brushing a kiss over his ear lobe. “Good morning.” he returned, his sleepy voice extra deep. “Can we…are you awake enough? Get enough rest?” He shifted, thrust against Tony lightly. “Can we–?”
“Definitely.” Tony turned just enough to touch their lips together. “Let me brush my teeth first. Not all of us are blessed with non existent morning breath.” He slipped out of the bed and padded to the bathroom, and Steve grinned, watching the worn pajama pants slip down his narrow hips, the frayed cuffs dragging the floor. Tony’s hair was sticking up all over the place, little lines worn in his skin from laying on rumpled sheets all night and Steve was sure hed never seen anything so adorable.
His scruffy genius soulmate was the most beautiful man on earth.
“Better?” Tony got back under the covers and curled into Steve’s waiting arms, tilting his head for a kiss.
“I would have kissed you anyway. Morning breath or not.” Steve teased and kissed him gently, slowly, his tongue slipping and curling between Tony’s lips in an easy motion. “Always want to kiss you.” He pressed over Tony’s soulmark, loving the way the brunette shivered and arched further into the embrace, fingers scratching over Steve’s matching mark, tracing the heart figure topped with the infinity symbol.
“Can I touch you like this?” he let his hands trail down Tony’s lean chest, through the sparse but soft dark hair leading down to the sharp vee of his hips and Tony sucked in a quick breath.
“Yeah, babe, you don’t have to ask.”
“Always gonna ask.” Steve started mouthing tiny kisses down Tony’s jaw, nuzzling behind his ear. “Never gonna take you for granted.”
She was absolutely breathtaking, I couldn’t help but just stare at her- her eyes were bright and filled with kindness, her lips were slightly parted as she concentrated, her hair fell to the side of her neck and scent smelled heavenly, God, I cant help myself - she is beautiful in many ways that I cannot even express; she was my definition of perfect and no one could tell me otherwise. Each day I spent tutoring her was like a day in heaven, she was my muse and the reason my heart was beating everyday but I watched as she fell for my friend, He is a great guy to be honest and I don’t even blame him for falling for her but I just wished I had the chance to make her mine.
“Zach, is this correct?” she snapped me out of my trance as she held her notebook in front of my face.
“Yes, it is actually” I smiled but it was fake, not fake for her but fake at the meaning of smile.
Watching as her expression switched from confused and concerned to being happy and seeing her smile was my greatest achievement, Her mere presence was enough to kick start my day.
“Baby!” she squeaked and kicked back her chair as she stood up and ran into the arms of another, my heart was crushed but I had to play it cool.
“Hey Jeff” another fake smile spread across my lips.
I couldn’t do anything but I simply woke up from the chair and headed towards the exit before my heart crumbled, this life was not meant for me, this thing called love was oblivious to my existence. I walked over to my locker and pressed my head against it to collect my thoughts and push it aside for a while, taking in a deep breath to control myself from feeling this way and then returning back to reality as I opened up my locker to collect my things and shut it lock, I turned around and saw them once more- Her smile was wide and she held his hand that hung loosely around her shoulders as he pulled her closer and pecked a kiss on the side of her forehead, I watched them as they walked by and my heart literally broke down and I felt the tears form but I never let them slip down.
“You love her don’t you?” I heard an unfamiliar voice from beside me and I turned to see Hannah Baker standing there.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about” I spat
“I know that look more than anyone here, that is the look of love and admiration and it is also the look of secrecy and loneliness” she spoke and each of her word sounded a little too familiar because it was the truth, it was my truth.
“He is a good friend of mine and they make each other happy. Who am I to stand in the way of that?” I sighed and eventually gave in to what she spoke of, I couldn’t hide it anymore and I felt the need to share my loneliness with someone and maybe they might understand.
“Will you go out with me?” I asked
“No Zach, I will not go out with you, just because you cant have the person you want does not mean you can use me to get over her.” her words came out harsh and with the emotions I was harboring, I couldn’t contain myself from feeling absolutely pissed.
“screw you” I walked off in such a hurry after I had punched the locker and probably caused a scene but I wasn’t thinking straight and I regret my words.
In the Present…
My mind has repeatedly gone back to that moment when my whole entire world fell apart, it was around 1AM after I had already headed home from Jessica Davis’ house party, I knew I shouldn’t have left but my parents were strict on curfew, I left Jeff behind and that is my biggest regret.
I can still feel my phone buzzing from under my pillow as I slept, I can still remember waking up and hearing the cracked voice of Clay over the phone as he informed me of the devastating news that Jeff had left us that early morning. I can still feel numbness that shot through me in that split second and then feeling everything crashing down on me all at once. The sound of screams and cries still echo through my rooms and down the hall of the house as I fell to my knees with plenty of tears streaming my down my face- I can still feel the burning of my throat and lungs as I screamed.
For days I couldn’t sleep, I had been brought to the hospital under mental health care because I was consumed to major depression which is the absolute worse- it creeps upon me at night when I least expect it, all those negative thought drown me until 4am when I am able to sleep after crying hours upon hours. I would hyperventilate and rock myself back and forth like a mad person but that’s how I felt, He was the nicest person I had ever had the pleasure of meeting and the world took him from me- he was my person and he deserved better than that. I was on medications and was prescribed to see a counsellor four times a week for Psychotherapy and it actually did help, they weren’t exactly what I imagined but it was aiding my mental health until I seemed normal again and I had a different view of life.
After Jeff’s death I had gotten closer to Zach because I know apart from Clay, he was the next close thing to Jeff and he was having some difficult times to wrap his head around things ever since that night. He was extremely supportive and with the recent passing of another friend- we had each other to be strong with and I cant tell you enough how I appreciated this, it took me about 2 months to seem normal again but with his help it had been such a load off.
“Hey how are you doing?” Zach asked
“I’m doing well enough now, thank you” I smiled
“I know this might seem too soon but I was wondering if you would like to go out sometimes?” he asked but he was too nice to say no to and part of psychotherapy was that I had to accept the past event and let it be the past, I had to move on from what made me suffer and not look back to it.
“yes, I would like that” I felt ready but terrified.
Hi prominent smile caused me to smile as well and I stocked off to first period, I liked to get there before the class even begins but I bumped into a nerve wracking clay Jensen, his scars seemed to be healing but with a lot of time- his breathing was rapid and heavy, he had the look of derange in his eyes and he had bloodshot eyes.
“Are you okay Clay?” I asked concerned
“No, No I’m not- I have been going crazy with all these tapes and wondering when my name will come up” he stated but I had no idea what he was talking about
Furring my eyebrows in confusion I spoke up “What? what tapes?”
“You haven’t heard them yet? your name appeared to be in it but only once, would you want to listen?” he answered
“Of course” I replied concerned but at the same time I didn’t know what to expect and I am not sure of what or how to feel.
“You’re going to tell me this one’s no big deal but let me tell you about being lonely. Humans are a social species, We rely on connections to survive Even the most basic social interactions help keep us alive. Statistics prove the subjective feeling of loneliness can increase the likelihood of premature death by 26%. If it sounds like I’m quoting from a school textbook I am. Too bad nobody bothered to read it. And let me tell you there’s all kinds of ways to feel lonely
but let me tell you about that one specific lonely eyed boy I am talking about, my friend Kat had told me about me he was so sweet once upon a time, so sweet.
well, Zach Dempsey. Welcome to your tape”
I was so confused of how this was related to me but I kept on listening in hopes to gain more content
“See Zach, you didn’t take rejection all that well now did you? I saw how nice you were to me but I didn’t want to be your rebound after you couldn’t get the girl you wanted and Y/N if you’re listening to this tape then here you are, sorry Zach but she has to find out the truth eventually and here it is- my truth; See Y/N, Zach had always had a crush on you but he never said so to spare his friends feeling and I know you are probably wondering how this is relevant to my death which is what I will explain.
It was once specific afternoon after Zach had tutored you, I saw how he looked at you during your sessions and after you were done- I noticed how he admired you from the hallways but always had to turn away whenever Jeff said hello to him.
See, I confronted Zach on having a crush on you and he admitted to it but then had this wild thought that he should ask me out because he was lonely and I rejected him- he had negative comments to say and his anger couldn’t be controlled and I already had so much going on in my life that his negative words was another sign that lead me to doing what I did, it was because of you that he had his outburst but don’t get me wrong, you are not on this tape for me- you should know the truth just like everyone should, you were genuinely nice to me and your kindness helped me live for another day but sadly I couldn’t stay anymore but thank you and I am sorry.
As for you Zach, I needed you to be true and you failed me and now we will see how things turn out for you, well others will see”
The tape ended and I was in tears at this point, clay watched my features change and now I understood how he felt and what he had been going through while listening to this heartbreaking message from Hannah.
I had so many mixed emotions but I know that I couldn’t go out with Zach anymore, I feel like I don’t even know him at this point.
I spotted him with his clique as they spoke and laughed with whatever joke one of them made.
“Hey Y/N!” he smiled but then it dropped as soon as he noticed my tears
“I am not going out with you” I spat and earned some ‘ooh’ noises from his so called friends.
He pulled me aside and away from everyone “Why?” he asked shooting me a saddened expression, Hannah was right, he had loneliness hidden behind his eyes.
“I heard your tape and I cant believe all of this happened, I didn’t even know and Jeff was your close friend! Hannah tried to help you and you brought her closer to her death!” I cried and he tried to get me to lower my voice but no one had paid any attention to us.
“Please don’t do this, I didn’t mean to do anything to her but I saw you with jeff that day and something inside of me snapped, I regret the words that left my mouth but I cant change anything” his voice cracked “The only person who would know how to help me right now is Jeff and he isn’t even here anymore, everything in my life always turns to fucking shit and I end up lonely all the time, I am never fucking loved and you cant make me feel any worse then I’m already feeling right now. I’m fucking sorry” he broke down and I felt remorse course throughout my entire body and chills running up and down my spine. I had no idea he felt this strongly about everything.
“I’m sorry you have to go through this right now and I understand what it’s like to lose Jeff, he was my boyfriend and he left me and that night I regret going home and leaving him there but everything happened- I know he is in a good place but I still know he deserved so much better, but Hannah was only trying to help you and she needed helping of her own and she tried to reach out to you because you connected on feeling lonely and she hoped you would at least try to help her back- I think the only way to make up to her about this is to tell the truth and come clean before you suffer further from any of this.” I tried to calm him down
“You’re right and I need to tell the truth about this because it is eating me up alive, I owe this to her and we all received an interrogation slip to talk about her and it was picked at random, I am nervous about it but I know now what to do- thank you” he positively responded and it made me smile.
“I will meet you up tonight for that date and help you prep for your interrogation that’s coming up soon” I smiled back as I engulfed him in a hug, he wasn’t a bad guy to be honest, he just didn’t know how to respond to someone reaching out to him but I’m glad I could have a positive impact and change on him.
GT: I cant help but feel like all this
stuff going on with dirk like his responders mind games and his brobots
mysterious and brutal hazings…
GT: Are all like…
GT: Man i know this is going to sound crazy.
GT: Like theyre all part of a really long
term and esoteric courtship process that is bizarre but somehow makes
perfect sense in his mind.
GT: Yes from dirk.
GT: To you know…
GT: Woo me.
((here it is! the first of the “comic” things i intend on doing, and thank you @odragonloveoo for giving me the perfect excuse (and insp) to do this one! this will have at least 3-4 more parts, and gosh i cant wait to die drawing them. stay tuned!))
it’s a selfie ik but i mean look at him !!!! ;w; i bet it’s everyone’s favorite and if you said no , you are lying
how do i even talk about this ??????? no words can describe this i swear to god
wet jinki . that’s it . wet fucking jinki , no need to explain more ( thanks to the person who took this picture, i love you )
idk why but i really like this picture . it feels unreal for some reasons i’m not even sure of
idk from where this pic but i’d like to thank the person who took it because it’s just *tears *
every time jinki wears a suit he looks like he came out of a magazine and this pic says it all
i wanna snuggle with him so much in this pic T_T he looks so huggable and it hurts
THIS IS A SIN ! like thank you so fucking much for taking such a pic ????????? i don’t even know how to begin tbh ! is it the outfits ? is it the drink he is holding ? is it the walk ? is it the fucking hair ? is it the whole fucking thing ????????????
look at this fluffy person :W:
this pic gives me so much happiness you cant even imagine
black and white jinki is everything and this is one of them
of course , damn of course ugh . the best thing ever happened in life
i love this pic so much ,am i the only one ??????? he’s so cute and idk just perfect
of course this one because it summarize onew lol
jinki in glasses is something we need a lot in life and the best part is , he fucking knows
*ugly sobbing * he’s just so cute and so squishy
this looks like it’s from magazine T_T why are you so perfect ?
another black and white edit that killed me into 10000000000 pieces T_T
because jinki in shorts and the fact that he looks badass in here .
don’t except me to mention only 9 out of millions pic of my bias lol you are lucky they are only 19