i cant stop thinking about it though

friend: so how you been lately?

me: Keith tries so hard to be an emotionless, stoic husk when really he’s just an awkward soft boy who feels the most out of the whole team because of his suppressed trauma and abandonment issues

friend: um

me: he commits himself to the mission entirely because that’s his way of showing he cares because he can’t express himself well in other ways and even though he tries to keep everyone at arms length by calling himself the loner, they work their way into his heart and he’s so scared of losing them

friend: uhhh

me: HE FINALLY HAS A PLACE WHERE HE FEELS LIKE HE BELONGS AND IS NEEDED BUT HE FEELS LIKE HE’LL LOSE IT AT ANY MINUTE BECAUSE OF HIS HERITAGE AND HIS FEAR THAT EVERYONE WILL REJECT HIM IF HE DOESN’T LIVE UP TO THEIR EXPECTATIONS AND IT’S BREAKING HIM

friend: are you ok?

me:

i cant stop thinking about the ipre crew not understanding how the others’ age. they just never bothered to learn; only barry is the one who seems to understand how they work.

merle is in his 260s, but davenport thinks hes gotta be in his 120s

davenport at least middle age, between 80-90, and proud of it, even though he shouldnt be going grey until he’s in his hundreds

merle and dav both think lucretia and magnus are 40; barely adults by their standards, who need to be taught the ways of the world

lucretia and magnus both think davenport is at least 150; they also think merle is 300 years old

everyone agrees that the twins have to be in their 500s (elves don’t have signs of aging, like poor bones, etc., like other races), so when they offhandedly mention they’d just turned 141 barry spits out his coffee and has to explain to the twins that they are literally 19 by human standards, because no one taught them how aging worked

ok i’m sorry I keep talking about him but…

Darkiplier. Is so fucking terrifying to me.
If you know me in real life, you know I act like a fucking child, and I trust everyone. But for someone like him, who bends that trust until it snaps, is horrifying to me.
He’s treats you kindly, gives compliments, says how adorable you are, how sweet you are. He lures you into a false sense of protection. You tell him your deepest, darkest secret. Then, when the time is right, he completely back tracks and turns on you. He uses your weaknesses against you for his own gain.
He never cared about you. He was using you this whole time, and now he will degrade you into a sobbing mess before leaving you to rot.

And to me?? it’s the worst thing on earth. 

also I FUCKING realize why Moon is such an uptight queen and smothers star with the inevitable reality stars responsibility of becoming a queen. Because moon was literally FORCED to become queen a week after her mother was MURDERED. Moon didn’t want star to be unprepared in the event something would happen to her or star or her family. Moons fear of the truth, “the truth is dangerous” stems from that in reality you can’t plan what will happen, especially the heavy shit that comes with running a kingdom that’s divided. She even says so herself “I was a happy go lucky girl, just like you.” 

And we can still see a woman who was forced to grow up because she didn’t have a choice, and even though she loves star and her eccentric nature, it’s not that she doesn’t trust star. It’s that she CANT. She can’t predict the danger of the future. And her worst nightmare literally happend. 

…But star is back. And she’s a badass MOFUCKIN REBEL PRINCESS. SHES THE BEST. And I hate how much foreshadowing there is of Moon not being able to hide from fate BECAUSE IF SOMETHING HAPPENS (which it will) IM GOING TO……I don’t know…..this is just my thoughts about this dark ass kids show that I can’t stop thinking about LMAOOOO

happiness; t.h

A/N: I mainly wrote this because I was having a panic attack yesterday. A really bad one. I want to mention that this is me and my anxiety. Like the kind of situation I’m describing could happen bacause of it.I know that I need help, I’m getting it, but I need time, that’s okay.If you feel like that or have any kind of anxiety or fear or depression or whatever please talk to me or someone else. You need to realize that people love you and things are going to be okay.

Warnings: Anxiety, Angst (If you get triggered easily, please don’t read this.)

Everything that is written like this, are my (in this story, the readers) worrying thoughts

Tags: @iamnesta @stormyparker @feeling-straange @cancerous-lizard666 (Tell me if you wanna get tagged!)

 

 


Heavy breathing. Anxiety. Wanting to escape your own body. That’s how I explain my therapist what I feel. It’s always the same, since over five years. I was always wondering how she couldn’t get tired of me, always talking about the same stuff. But that is the truth. I always felt like that. Everything started when I was nine years old. It was the first time realizing that I don’t feel comfortable in my own body. Wanting to scrape off my skin, and escape. When my mum found me in my room, with bloody fingers and red stripes all over my entire body, she sent me to my therapist. Like I said, that was over five years ago. And I’m still here.

The problem about being in therapy is, that you have to open up to a complete stranger. You don’t share the same interests,never experienced the same. Strangers. Complete strangers. It took me about one year actually to tell her a little bit of my big story. When I first got into therapy,she wanted to see me every four weeks. Now it’s fours times a week. So most of the time, I spend it with my therapist talking how I feel like my body doesn’t belong to me. Great.

“What are you thinking about?” I snapped out of my thoughts, realizing that I’ve been stuck inside of my brain again.

“Stuff,you know.“ That wasn’t a lie. It was stuff, every kind of it.

„Tell me“, she said, giving me a look I couldn’t sort into a category.

„It’s complicated.“ Again, that wasn’t a lie.

„Try it, you’ll feel better afterwards.“ Oh I highly doubt that. But I guess I have to, since I had to kill another forty minutes.

„Isn‘t it weird how you don’t belong to yourself, like your mind does, but not your body. You’re not alone in it, there are so many bacteria inside of you, you couldn’t count them. Technically you’re only yours thoughts, but they also have their own opinions sometimes, you can’t stop them. They tell you what to do, no matter if you want to or not. Slowly, they’re taking over you and mind. You’re starting to lose yourself.“

Again, that look. It wasn’t a worried one, but also not happy. Yet she didn’t had a Pokerface.

„And what’s so bad about that?“, she asked,after some moments passed by.

„Well I guess the fact that you don’t belong to yourself, you’re trapped inside of something that’s meant to be your own self. You can’t escape.“

„How are things with Tom?“

Tom. Yeah he definitely was a miracle. You met him about two and half years ago. It was in a time, everyone left. But that made him different. He came, when everyone left. Throughout the years he was always with you. Every therapy, every crisis, every anxiety attack. Everything.

“Great.. I guess. He was home for a day, it was for his mums birthday celebration.” I smiled at the thought of that. We all had a lot of fun. Of course I was overthinking everything, but I still had fun.

“Do you still think, he deserves someone else?” Oh yes I did. I mean look at all the people he could date. All the models,actors or artists. Instead he dated someone who isn’t comfortable with their own self and has panic attacks multiple times a day.

„I do.“

„Why is that so?“

„He deserves someone..good. Someone he doesn’t have to worry about.“

„I talked to him on the phone a few days ago“, I know, he didn’t tell me but I knew. „He said he wants to be there for you, throughout all the bad times. He wants to see the happy you, and he wants to see you happy because you want to. Not to make him feel better.“ That hit me. The word „happy“ isn’t one I use very often. Some people are afraid to say the word „love“, for me it is the word „happy“. Happy. When do you know you’re happy? Like your brain could fool you the entire time, you wouldn’t know. Another force took over you and tries to make you feel things you actually don’t feel.

„I know. I’m trying my best.“

„You don’t have to try your best. The only thing you have to do is try better.“

„How?“

„Like I always tell you, take your medicine and then let time do it’s work.“Great. So I am supposed to put some kinds of chemicals, that aren’t bad for you, inside of my body and all that bacteria and not freak out about that. Wow, so easy.

For the rest of our appointment, we talked about how the medicine was treating me, if there were any complications and if I need some new ones.

That’s how things went for another month. It was always the same, everyday, every week. Until he came home again, and this time it wouldn’t be just for a day. I got to spend weeks with him, which was kind of winning the lottery. Well of course you can’t compare a person to a thing such as money. Yet I still was incredibly excited.

And nervous. Of course I was nervous, nervousness is one of my bad habits. Overthinking was joined by nervousness and they combined something that I call my worrying thoughts. It wasn’t like an attack, I was used to it and but I knew when it came. This time, it was much worse than other times. He’s only coming home cause he feels bad for you. No he doesn’t. Yes, he may even break up with you, but just would be nice cause he would do it person. He won’t break up with me. Oh how can you be so sure about that? He told be he loved, a few hours ago and every day before that. He doesn’t mean that, he just doesn’t know how to leave someone as worse as you. Shut up. I won’t. Shut up! I won’t! SHUT UP!

I saw people turning around. Great, so I just screamed at strangers to shut up. Not embarrassing at all Y/N, not embarrassing at all.

I basically ran the way back home, looking at the ground.Even though the streets of London were really busy, I didn’t run into anybody.

As soon as I arrived home I was greeted by Tess, who tried to jump up my legs. “Hey beautiful”, I cooed “you cant imagine how much I missed you.” I nuzzled my face into her short fur. Do you think she thinks about all her existence? Stop. I was just wondering. No, stop ruining every moment I’m trying to enjoy.I was just taking care of you.

I spent the rest of the day inside, reading, cleaning and just thinking. Around 9pm I heard someone downstairs. Tessa heard it as well and she made her way to the door. She wasn’t barking, which only happened when Tom- he’s home. Ready to break your heart. No he won’t break it.

“Hey Tess, how are you? I missed you!” Oh gosh I missed this voice so much. I made my way downstairs but stopped at the half of the stairs. There he was, he actually was here.

“Hi.” he said.

“Hey.”

Silence.

It wasn’t uncomfortable we just stared at each other. He’s thinking about how to tell you the easiest way. No he’s happy right now. His job is being an actor I’m pretty sure he can fake it.

“Come here my love.”

Open arms and a wide smile. No you couldn’t fake that smile. I ran down the stairs and threw myself into him. His arms wrapped around me, while he nuzzles his face into my neck. I breathed in his scent,a little bit soapy. He always smelled like that and it always calmed me down. I could stay like this forever.


This is the last hug, you’ve seen that in movies. It isn’t our last one. How can you be sure? He wouldn’t do that to me. He flew all those miles just to see me. Or he found someone else around here and wanted to say goodbye first. Stop it! I’m just saying the truth! Stop it now! He doesn’t love you and he never will!

“LEAVE ME ALONE!”

I could hear my voice echoing in the room. Quickly, I opened my eyes. He was looking at me, nothing but sadness in his eyes. No. No no no no no. That’s your fault. You’re the reason he’s feeling like that.

“W-what did I do?”

“Nothing, you did nothing. It’s just I…I… i don’t know how to say it.“

I could feel the sadness in his eyes burning on my skin. That stupid skin. You don’t belong in this. I do, this is me. No, we share this with all of those millions of bacteria. All of us trapped inside. No. Stop making me think about that.

I felt my heart racing, my arms started to shake so did my hands and legs.You can’t escape. Never. You’re trapped inside with all of them,never belonging to yourself.

That was is. I was digging my nails into skin, pulling them up my arm. Far away, I could hear a voice. But that didn’t stop me. I kept repeating my actions until I felt a warm liquid on my fingertips. Go and escape. I can’t. Stop making me do this.

„Y/N!“

Someone pulled my chin and went back to reality. Tom was looking at me, confused and scared.

„What are you doing to yourself my love?“

„I can’t stop thinking.“

„It’s fine love okay?”

„I can’t stop thinking and it’s eating me inside and I can’t do anything. I feel like I don’t belong into this body and I want to escape. But I don’t know how. I keep thinking about all these bacteria inside of me and I ju-.“

Lips were pressed onto mine. I didn’t realize at first but as soon as I did I felt weak. I felt my legs gave in and a pair of arms grabbed my waist. Salt. Why do I taste salt? You’re crying. Why? Because you’re you and you can’t stop thinking. If you know that and I do, why do you keep torturing me. I’m not the bad one, because I am you. I’m one of your thoughts,a very strong one. I didn’t choose to be like this,it just happened. We need help. We have help. Do we? You’ve got your therapist and Tom. Tom.

He pulled away, wiping my tears.

“You didn’t stop hyperventilating and I thought this would may stop you. Did that make you feel uncomfortable, I remember when you couldn’t hug or be near anyone because you were scared.” He remembered.

“No, that was okay…it was okay.”

He was about to say something but I stopped him.

“Why are you still with me?”

“What?”

“Why are you still here? With me?”

“Because I want to. I want to be with you. For the rest of my life. You understand me like no one else does. You know what to say. Always. You know everything about me and you accept that. I can be Tom around you not Tom Holland the actor. The true me. But most importantly. I want to make you happy. And not just happy because you want me to feel good. No. Happy because you want to. Happy because you love to live. I know it will be a long process but that is one of the main reasons I’m going to stay. I’ll stay till you find true happiness and won’t leave. I know it’s hard, having a distance relationship. I know it sucks and I hate it but that is one of the reasons I came home. I talked to your therapist and some people from work. You can come with me. You can travel with me. I can show you how amazing this life is. If you let me.”

Wow. I didn’t expect that. Me neither. He actually does. What? He actually does love you. You were right. This feels good. I know. Can we do this more often? We can try. Thank you.

He looked at you, a waiting expression on his face.

“Yeah.”

A smile. He smiled. That god damn smile I love so much.

“We’ll leave in three weeks, so we still have time left.”

“Okay.”

“We can do this.”

“Yeah.”

“Together?”

“Together.”

I know that I wasn’t feeling good and I wasn’t fine. I have problems and flaws. I may don’t accept that. But there is one person that does. And in this very moment,with my person that loves me, I started to feel something that could be something like happiness.


I love you. You are loved. -j;

“Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence”

Mae from Night in the woods… sorry for the bad writing though… I cant find the right font for it… anyways… recently I’ve been thinking about night in the woods… and for some reason I can’t stop thinking of how the story just shifted from happiness to.. uhhh very dark…guesss I can relate to Mae… mostly because of things XD anyways hope you like it…

Talk about rejection for my comic drawing

I have a shit ton lol and it usually comes from people I care about which means my heart broken many times. Until I joined Tumblr honestly its always bad critics. From Vietnamese hardcore fans: “How? I dont think you can go international its too hard” “You need to fix your style though because it cant compete to Japanese styles” “Nah thats not gonna happen btw when will the next chapter come?” From my mom: “Why? You can be much much more wealthy” “Stop drawing, do something more useful” “You cant get anywhere with this, just stop. You cant earn with it.” From my friends: “Lol it sounds cool but nah its not gonna work” “You can try (but I dont wanna help)” “Why dont you try to be more girly you need a guy not this.” From a pretty famous author in Vietnam comic author: “Oneshot cant be published get real.” “Your style is too ugly you should write not draw.” Only ONE fan told me I can, even now hes still saying the same thing. He’s part of the reason why Im still doing comic, along with my passion for it. Come to think of it, if its not because I was rejected in many things before and became a rebel, I wouldnt be here today because critics would surely defeated me. We all faced rejection in our lives but in my case I always rode in different tide than others (Vietnam is heavily old-fashioned even now) so I got rejected in other aspects as well lol. Eventhough they don’t mean to kill my passion, their ignorance can be something you know. I just realized that I was encouraged a lot when I joined tumblr, I started alone but I have you guys here. Just by doing what I love. Its a great honor to meet you all.

Originally posted by andantegrazioso

Exo Reaction: To you both regretting the break up

Hey anon :) thanks for requesting , hope you like it !!

Also sorry If I changed it up a bit with some members just cos I didnt want it to get repetitive :)

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Baekhyun

He would probably call you as soon as he started to feel lonely, would probably feel sad if he went to certain parts of the house/dorm that you both shared good memories in. He would probably call you late at night, if he missed you too much

“ Jagi, well I am not sure if Im still allowed to call you that. But the reason why I’m calling you is because well .. I really miss you, can you come over?”

“ By the way .. do you miss me too ?”  

Originally posted by meadowgal

Chanyeol

He would overthink the reason why you suddenly decided to break up with him, he would get even more sad about it every time he thought about your breakup. After lots of thinking he would probably call you, but would get surprised if you suddenly visited him

“ Y/N what are you doing here, I thought you wanted some time alone”

“ Look Yeol, the truth is I regret the breakup, I guess I cant stay away from for that long, so can we talk about it , if you want”

“ Aww I missed you too , Im glad you came back”

Would probably give you a massive hug on the doorway

Originally posted by chanyeolsbae

Sehun

When you decided to go visit him to talk things over again, you would probably find him layed on the couch ( vivi would probably be with him tbh) scrolling on his phone with a pouty expression, he would be thinking on what caused you to suddenly break up with him. He would get really happy when you said that you regretted the breakup

“ Ah I knew my baby would come back to me”

“ Stop lying, you looked like you were about to cry”

“ No I wasnt”

“ Yes you were”

“ Okay maybe I was, so what can I not express my love for you”

Originally posted by sehunsprettydick

Jongdae

He would be confused about why you suddenly decided to break up, he would probably not be his loud self for a few days, but would be hopeful that you would change your mind. When you suddenly told him that you wanted to continue dating he would soon start to be his loud self again

“ Jagi, if we are going to get back together again, lets not have this weird breakup things again, if something is bothering you talk to me okay, by the way I missed you”

Originally posted by galaxychen

Kyungsoo

 He might call you if he cant stop thinking about the breakup, but he will probably want to give you some space. if you suddenly called him because you regretted the breakup he would probably be happy to get back together, but would like to talk about what caused you to break up in the first place.

“ I am glad you came back jagi but before we settle back in our relationship again, I think we should talk about what caused the issue in the first place”

Yixing

Would give you space for a while if you asked. Would keep thinking about you though, probably would send in some cute messages in the morning to show that he was still thinking of you. 

“ Baobei,  I miss you, I need you by my side , if you decide to come back just know that I am waiting for you”

Originally posted by royalyeol

Jongin

He would probably be a bit down for a while, would also try to avoid things that reminded him of you. I feel like as soon as you called him he would probably answer on the first ring if he was at home.

“ Why are you asking permisssion to come back, if this is your home too, you are my home Y/N”

Junmyeon

I think that  he would be the first one to go to your place, if he missed you too much or if you called him first. He would be so happy, and would probably call it a new begginning in the relationship.

“Jagiya I missed you too much, lets spend lots of time together so we can catch up on lost time”

Originally posted by lawlliets

Minseok

He would get worried about you for the time that you have been broken up. Even though he wanted to call you to tell you how much he missed you, he decided to give you space. When you suddenly apperead on his doorstep and wanting to talk things out, he would probably want to make sure that you were sure that you wanted to continue the relationship.

I dont want  us, expecially you to be unhappy in our relationship again, I promise that I will try my best to be there for you and to not repeat the same mistakes again, because I dont want to be separated from my love”

Luhan

He would probably leave voice mails when he had free time fom schedules, to express how much he missed you. Would also leave cute messages at night before he went to sleep, so that when you wake up that would be one of the first things you see.

“ I miss you lots, please come back to me. Take care of yourself for me, when you are ready to talk to me again, just give me a call”

Originally posted by fyeahluhan

Yifan

Would give you as much space as you wanted, but wouldnt stop checking up on you from time to time. To be honest would be with open arms if you decided to come back.

“ You can come back any time you want to, I hope you accept me into your heart again”

Originally posted by pawjohnny

Zitao

He would go to you first if you suddenly regretted the breakup. Would be relieved that you didnt want to let go of the relationship he couldn’t move on from.

“My precious baobei, I am glad you are back into my life”

Originally posted by zitaosmegagirl

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Hello everyone, hope you all enjoyed this reaction :)

Sorry it took such a long time to upload, tumblr was not letting me add the gifs in for certain members

By the way, I changed my url , so if some of you dont find me its because I changed it :)

Child in Time AU again

why because i like it

what if the same happened to sherlock and john and Rosie. Sherlock loses Rosie during their trip at the supermarket, sherlock and john grew apart. they still love each other but john can’t stay there in baker street, it’s just too much  for him, sherlock still isn’t giving up but the more days past, the harder it is for john to see sherlock constantly looking. It makes it difficult for John to be happy and he just wants to take a break from the grief, he wants sherlock to give up but sherlock doesn’t. so eventually john moves out, somewhere outside of London

it’s been a year since Rosie goes missing, 6 months since john moved out. This was the first sherlock came to visit john since then…

“What happened to your clothes?” John asked.

“I fell, took a wrong turn,” Sherlock answers.

“How did you take the wrong turn?”

“I thought I’d seen her…Rosie. Look, John, I know you want me to give up but I can’t…I keep seeing her at the corner of my eyes. She’s out there somewhere, she must be.”

“It’s ok. I still see her too sometimes. I want to move on, I really do, but it’s difficult for me. She’s my daughter.”

“I know, John…”

“So what about you then, Sherlock?”

“Hmm?”

“Why aren’t you…moving on? Why do you fixate on this? You could go back to solving cases, Lestrade would do well to fill my shoes, be your companion. Best not invite Anderson though.” 

“What?” Sherlock scoffs lightly, confused. “I can’t just let go of Rosie.”

“But she’s not your daughter, Sherlock.”

Sherlock swallows his throat.

“You should let this go,” John continues. “It would be better. For both of us.”

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feel free to add on i still cant stop thinking about this film

@simpleanddestructivechemistry @sincerely-chaos @one-lost-at-sea @astudyinsnoggy (sorry idk who to tag i cant remember who else)

Okay but imagine Fitz and Jemma barricading themselves in a room, the LMDs on the other side, trying to force their way in. They’re together, but they’re also trapped, and they’re scared. They search for something to help them, anything at all, but they know they can’t run forever.

They face the trembling door– trembling a bit themselves– holding a hammer and crowbar, and waiting for the inevitable.

“Follow me.” A voice whispers. LMD May stands near the back, face half hidden by the darkness. Fitz and Jemma turn around, and stay in place. Jemma grips the hammer tighter and narrows her eyes. “And why should we trust you?”

LMD May steps forward, and Fitz and Jemma really get to see her clearly. She looks… tired. Like she’s tired fighting the fights May has been fighting for years. That she’s tired being chased by ghosts and tired of seeing them. That she’s tired of becoming one. Like she’s been through everything May has ever gone through even though they know she’s not May and she knows she’s not May.

“Because Radcliffe told me that I wasn’t built to last,” she begins, and she still looks damn tired but she straightens her shoulders and looks them straight in the eye. “And if I wasn’t built to last, then I’m sure as hell going to do something right before I fall.”

(And she did.)


@the-nerdy-stjarna and @mocking-point i blame you

Analyzing Sheith, with a dash of discourse.

unoriginaltoast

replied to your post

“Cordially inviting any and all anti’s to come at me bro Whether it be…”

Can I just add, that many antis throw around the word “pedophilia” and first of all, that’s a disgusting accusation to make of someone imagining FICTIONAL characters in a relationship. And second, it does not apply. Like the literal definition does not apply. Would a 25 year old with a 17 year old be cool IRL? Probably not but it’s not pedophilia and it’s also FUCKING FICTION JFC. God I wish I had the time to worry about what fictional characters people shipped.

Sorry for that brick I just have been wanting to say that for so long, hope you have a spectacular, wonderful, idiot free day <3

You may definitely add that. I certainly forgot to. 

It really depends heavily on context for that 17-25 thing. It depends on the relationship and maturity levels of the two people in question. I know there are 25 year olds that are still running around this site screaming about “problematic ships” like its the fucking plague. And then there are people in my life who grew up in drug houses, who struggle because their families entire line of poor credit, bad choices, substance abuse and felonies makes it nearly impossible for them to get jobs and basic debit/credit cards, who dug around in dumpsters for food during their childhood– and you can bet they grew up incredibly fast, and incredibly hard. 

Biology plays a part in it to a degree too-Female brains tend to fully develop ages 16-25? (dont cite me on this, im just going off of memory) and for male brains I think they finish developing around like, 18/22-30??? I’d have to look it up again, but you get my point.

Theres a lot of factors that go into play- The maturity levels of the individuals themselves, and the actually Nature of the relationship itself, I think.

Lets take Sheith, for example. 

We have seen maturity and selflessness exhibited in both individuals; Both of them have had to go through very hard experiences; Keith being an orphan with abandonment issues, yet still carries some incredibly strong morals and a fierce love for people and a desire to protect others.; Shiro has been enslaved, amputated and experimented upon, and forced to perform in bloody, gruesome, arena’s. He’s been through Hell, and still he has retained a sense of calm, patience, and compassion. 

So we know from this that they’re both plenty mature enough– But what about the nature of their relationship?

Honestly I think this one of the most healthy ships out there for the sheer amount of love and compassion and respect between the two, even without picking apart just how well they compliment each other. 

Again, starting with Keith; This is a highly individualized person that does not like authority. He’s not going to want to feel like he has to explain himself to anyone or meet anyones arbitrary standards; Does not like, and possibly feels threatened by rules and restrictions as that threatens his ability to do his own thing. He makes his own rules for himself and his own personal values to which he will adhere strictly. He’s intelligent, but it’s shown and seen through his actions– Not explained through word of mouth, and most likely never will be. Trust and abandonment issues, as well as his orphaning, may lead him to difficulties communicating with others, being vulnerable, and expressing emotions or showing weakness, making him a very secretive, private person, that most likely finds both comfort and fear in Isolation. Comfort, because no one can hurt you, and you can sort everything out yourself and have complete control when you’re alone; Fear, because it’s very easy to keep isolating yourself and never stop, even though you want, like, and need people in your life, but may be hesitant to go to them for fear of getting hurt or abandoned, especially if you reveal your softer, more unprotected sides. Keith, as a character, may even be scared of his feelings. 

One of these belongs to every paladin okay, thats all I’m sayin’. 

In conclusion, Keith is a very private, lonely person with a history of trust issues stemming from abandonment and a dislike for authority, making him not the easiest person to get along with.  He needs someone who will have the patience and respect that will allow Keith to open himself up to them on his own highly secretive terms, someone who is open minded, patient, and understanding, in order to understand someone as rare and unconventional as Keith (He’s not exactly going to come with an owners manual or introductory pamphlet y’know?). He needs to feel safe, comfortable, and not judged by a person in order to place so much trust, value, safety and security with them. If someone tries inauthentic, underhanded, or forceful means of manipulating someone like Keith into anything, you know Keith won’t be having it. 

Shiro is kind of the epitome of all of these traits, and we don’t just see him using them to understand Keith, but we see him using them to understand other members of his team as well (like Pidge or Allura). Once Shiro has a good understanding of someone, he waits until an appropriate, non-threatening time arises in order to build his team members up, give them advice, solace, or whatever he thinks they may need that he can give them. He uses a very open, friendly, safe, respectful and non-threatening communication style in order to build up people around him; This is an incredibly rare and beautiful kind of person, imo, at least in Shiro’s case, because we can see how very dedicated he is to doing this, and that he makes it one of his biggest priorities. 

This makes him pretty great for Keith, but there are plenty of reasons why Keith is great for Shiro too.

From episode one, from Keiths very introductory sequence, we see him caring, for and sacrificing for Shiro– Going out of his way to make sure Shiro is safe at all times, or backing him up; Whether it be in or out of Voltron, Keith is literally Shiro’s right hand man. Keiths love for Shiro is very similar for Shiros’ love for Keith;  It is a respectful, kind, and appreciative, thankful kind of love. It is built on and never runs out of trust, and only seeks to lift the other up, and make sure the other is okay, without breaching any boundaries. 

Shiro, from his iron devotion and love for others, strikes me as the type of person that forgets to take care of himself, in lieu of others and their importance, valuing it over his own. Keith, being a very confident, straight forward, and protective person, is perfect for Shiro in that he can and will make sure Shiro does get the self-care he needs, but without threatening or stomping upon Shiros virtues, or his mission. Shiro, for all his dad-jokes and stereotypes, honestly might need the child harness more than Keith does for his sheer scary-levels of willingness to sacrifice himself, like he means nothing- Or at the very least, nothing in comparison to others. Shiro, just like Keith, doesn’t know when to stop and take a break if others don’t make him/tell him too. And even then, Shiro might not understand or believe it, simply because war and soldier-trauma is like this. 

Shiro needs someone who is confident, straight forward, and strong enough to take care of Shiro as Shiro takes care of others. He needs someone who will be considerate and kind to him when no one thinks to be, or knows to be. He needs someone who will keep a close eye on him and watch and listen for when he’s breaking, when he needs help, whether he knows it or not– He needs someone who will be aware of just how much Shiro himself may not know it too. And he needs someone who will do this genuinely, authentically, respectfully, and patiently. Issues like these are incredibly painful for both parties to go through, and they may never heal. A spouse who deals with this may have to come to accept this as never-changing, and to do that… Takes so much genuine love and self-sacrifice? It’s both heart-wrenching and beautiful, as it is a gruesome reality. It’s not sexy, cute, or fun– It’ cold and it’s harsh and to persevere in your attentive care of someone in spite of such hard issues, especially when coupled with things like PTSD, is about as Real as you can get.

The reason Keith fits this bill perfectly? Is because we already see him doing this for Shiro in canon. 

We see it in anytime Keith flings himself into action in order to save shiro, whether it’s well-thought out or not. We see it in his respect, adherence, and boundaries. We see it in how he trusts Shiro to keep throwing himself into battle and come back to him, amidst a respectful but attentive observance of his person, his space, his wishes and his safety. In Keith we see he’s developed his own very deep and respectful understanding of Shiro and how he works, just as Shiro has developed an understanding of Keith– they both know each others strengths and weaknesses, and give each other trust and patience. 

Like, I really can’t think of a more healthy relationship yo. Fuck ages man, these two are good for each other, these two honestly keep each other sane and safe, and uplift the other, they have a rock solid understanding of the other, and their wants, needs, strengths and weaknesses, and they communicate in succinct, blunt, non-threatening ways build on trust. Even if they disagree or say harsh things to each other (Like Shiro reprimanding Keith for reprimanding Pidge, “That’s not how a team works.”, or giving him criticism. Or Keith pleading with Shiro in his BOM-nightmares.), they do not stay mad or hold grudges, which tells me that they never assume bad intent of the other either, even though it would be very easy to. 

My god like theres so much healthy shit in this ship it’s actually hard to cover everything, they both exhibit so much. 

Overall I really think like the last thing I’m worried about with these two is fucking AGE y’know? Clearly theyre mature enough to take care of each other; Does anyone really think either of these people would abuse the other? Because I certainly don’t. It wouldn’t just be wrong, it’d be completely out of character. Keith and Shiro simply care, value, and love each other too much for that. 

Feel free to add to this, if you’d like.

fl00wersss-moved-deactivated201  asked:

OK SO IMAGINE,,HARPY JEREMY (AKA THE HALF BIRB THINGS IN GREEK MYTHS) WITH BAKUNAWA MICHAEL. JUST. JEREMY NOT BEING AFRAID OF MICHAEL FLYING AWAY BECAUSE NOW, NOW THAT HE HAS HIS OWN WINGS, HE CAN FOLLOW HIM.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!! great, now i cant stop thinking about harpy!jer

  • harpy!jer who, as a child, kept climbing on cabinets and jumping off because it just logically feels like he should soar, and not, yknow, fall face first into the floor
  • he doesnt get too hurt though. harpies are also descendants of wind spirits, and the wind is always kind to its children. it makes sure to lay jeremy down to the ground as gently as it can, when jeremy isnt being an idiot. sometimes the kid needs to fall and learn a lesson tho…no more jumping off of cabinets. 
  • jer having a collection of shiny things. it spans from coins to keyrings to bottlecaps. on jeremy’s tenth birthday, michael gives him a glitter jar. it still sits on his desk up til now and never fails at calming him down. 
  • im very attached to michael being a late bloomer, so jeremy manifests first. when the shift finally comes, there are feathers everywhere and jeremy has trouble keeping the whole talons thing under control. 
  • harpies are totally raptors, so i like to imagine jeremy with the wings of a peregrine falcon. 
  • jeremy takes for-fuckin-ever to learn how to fly though. flight jitters, and all that. the wind can help all it wants, but wind isnt the only thing that keeps something in the air. so really, theyre at the same level when michael finally manifests, and learn how to fly together. two player game through and through, even when it comes to accidentally landing in a hedge.
  • if michael has to deal with skin shedding from his wings, jeremy has to deal with molting. it’s hell on earth when both of them end up syncing once and go through this at the same time. vacuuming and sweeping for dayz

this is a great concept. liked faved and subscibed.

anonymous asked:

since you pointed out the extent of dazai's ability (using the examples of kyouka and chuuya) i cANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AGH. it's a true mystery B and it's actually quite frustrating. was it intentional? a plot hole? (i feel like that's unlikely though bc everything else is thought out so thoroughly) an exception? IDK, this will haunt me past my grave

Honestly bean, SAME. No matter how much I think or discuss it, I can’t seem to pull it together. I’m starting to think it really might be a plot hole. 

I looked at the manga and the scene is not so different, Kyouka still activates Demon Snow while having some sort of physical connection to Dazai:

Speaking of Chuuya, I noticed an interesting difference between the manga and the anime:

During the first meeting, in the manga Dazai keeps his hands on Chuuya’s forearm the whole time of the interrogation (5 pages) while in the anime he doesn’t touch him directly ONCE (other than the single punch he was able to land). 

Chuuya. in both cases, said that Dazai’s ability is a nuisance, but it’s useless against him, which I always interpreted as “I’m so strong I don’t even need my ability to crush you”

We can see that Chuuya’s hand is gloved, meaning there are two layers (gloves and bandages) between him and Dazai. Following the Kyouka example, he should be able to activate his ability. That’s why I think in the manga Dazai kept his hand (very loosely too) around Chuuya, as some form of precaution (or just because he wanted to touch his skin idk Dazai). I wonder why the thing was not replicated in the anime as well. 

This is honestly so confusing, how Dazai’s ability works would probably remain one of the biggest BSD secrets at this point :/

anonymous asked:

Jorah trying to prevent Jonerys from sailing together is the funniest shit ever. Poor guy. But everyone's facial expressions were so on point. I loved the tension in the room. He was probably thinking "Shit, once they get on that boat I cant stop them from happening. I've seen they way they look at each other" And Jon couldn't even stop himself from staring at Dany when she agreed. He tried to be slick about it though. Boys got it bad.

Hahah aww well yes the scene was hilarious and I do love the way Jon and Dany were staring each other down. 

I don’t think Jorah was trying to prevent them from being together, though :P I really do think he had her safety in mind. Show!Jorah is a good dude. And I think his gift of Longclaw back to Jon is basically an endorsement of Jon’s and Dany relationship. 

But while we’re on the subject, one thing about this scene occurred to me. Tyrion has been saying that Dany travelling by dragon is dangerous because an arrow could get her. But then in this scene they acted like it was safer than her riding in a caravan with Jon and everyone. I just hope it isn’t foreshadowing of something bad happening to their little caravan after they reach White Harbor. 

Realistically I think it is just more boatsex setup haha and I am HERE for that. 

anonymous asked:

ever since i watched the vlive where jk played contrail by moonmoon, i cant stop thinking about him making a cover of it. wouldnt it be amazing?

Jungkook makes every cover not sound like one. This song is truuuly art and my heart and soul melted when he sang it (We truly need a cover):

The original song is soooooo soothing too.The lyrics, the voice, the guitar: 

Thank you for making me recall this song. I love this part of the lyrics the most “The boring bugs called adults, ate my dream bit by bit. I will grow and barely become myself. I will become an adult with horns. I have to laugh even though it might be forceful…”

fredheads  asked:

u think jughead's ever written a poem for archie...

ffuck yes! (i hadnt though of this before so thank u sm for this ask) but i can totally see jughead writing like really cliched™️️ poems for archie but every time he writes them he’s like ‘oh my god man! stop being such stereotypical a dork!!! ugh’ so he never gives them to him but?? he cant stop?? he’s super embarrassed about it so he keeps them tucked away in some notebook or word doc or something and tries to act really chill around archie but eventually one day archie stumbles across them all and feels so overwhelmingly flattered and?? when jughead walks in on him reading them he freezes completely and archie’s just stood their grinning while jug is like ‘never. ever. mention. this. to anyone.’

i made this blog just for this specific post i have some THINGS to say

listen. richie and eddie would have such specific amazing tastes in music and ive just got some hcs about it i’ll link the playlists i listened to below that inspired this theres this really rly good love song playlist and its. beautiful, anyway (theyre 15/16 btw)

- so they both like. LOVE music. theyre constantly singing and humming under their breath (eddie) or screaming lyrics out at really inappropriate times (richie) and the other losers range from thinking its cute to wanting to gouge their eyes out

- “eddie if you hum one more footloose song im gonna strangle you i can hear you and im Losing my mind”-bev, at one point probably

-everybody hates when richie belts out random ass lyrics from the cure or guns n roses but eddie Loves it he blushes hearing richie sing even if its in his fake terrible singing voice, and he blushes really hard when richie sings to him (which is most of the time actually, he always seems to single out eddie to torture)

- richie, dancing on bill’s living room table, screaming and motioning at eddie: “ ITS GONNA TAKE A LOT TO TAKE ME AWAYYYY FROM YOUuuu” “RICHIE SHUT THE fUCK UP” “FUCK YOU STAN-i bLESS THE RAIINNNNSS” and eddie is just sitting staring up at richie speechless while everyone fucking screams at richie to stop

- and then one fateful night richie’s world is ripped apart bc eddie is yelling at him in bill’s garage about losing one of his fanny pack straps and richie is just too busy singing and playing air guitar to one of the rock songs coming from the speakers and eddie loses it

- “richie for the love of god STOP FUCKING SINGING YOURE SUCH AN ASSHOLE” “ah cmon eds you know im the best singer here” “WANNA BET” “sure”

- eddie looks around at everyone and theyre all like do it. show richie up we are begging you make it stop and eddie changes the song and stands on the table and he starts BELTING OUT ‘GIRLS JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN’. and he KILLS THAT SHIT and evryone is cheering him on but richie is just sitting there with his mouth open. SHook eddie is dancing and staring right at him wow and thats when everything shifts

-richie starts trying to trick eddie into singing all the time and just teasing him in general about his music taste but in reality he just wants to hear him Sing again

-eddie (and everyone else) can tell that richie is Slightly infatuated with his friend and they start teasing him secretly except eddie, who is just Flustered and confused bc richie? wanting to hear eddies voice? and he doesnt know how to deal with it so he just blushes whenever richie mentions it

- they both have a soft spot for the other but they are both terrified by that so they just kind of ignore it and bicker about their different tastes in music

- “richie if youre trying to tell me that 'i wanna dance with somebody (who loves me)’ isnt the best song of this Decade i will end this. Right now. i will delete this fucking friendship” and richie just bursts out laughing but doesnt say SHIT about whitney

-eddie. LOVES footloose so much. and grease. he loves them and shares this with richie and richie may or may not have gone as a greaser for halloween bc of it

- richie, running and falling into eddie at a halloween party: “I GOT CHILLSSSS THEYRE MULTIPLYIN” and eddie spills his water. stan, in the background, rolls his eyes

- eddie tells everyone that richie’s grungy taste in music infuriates him but when theyre alone its a different story

- richie sprawls over eddie jokingly but they lose focus watching tv and he doesnt move, closes his eyes and ends up singing 'here comes your man’ absentmindedly and eddie snaps out of watching tv to watch richie instead

- even though they pretend to hate each other’s music they still make each other mixes and recommend songs (maybe the songs continue to get more and more romantic but they ignore that its fine)

-richie realizes he loves eddie when he listens to can’t fight this feeling and all he can think about is eddie and his smile and his eyes

- their song, though, is obviously 'africa’

-(this was inspired by another post so shoutout to that person) whenever eddie looks at richie either 'lets hear it for the boy’, 'here comes your man’, or 'what i like about you’ starts playing in his head and he cant help it

-their favorite love songs are 'just like heaven’, 'always on my mind’, and 'nothing’s gonna stop us now’ they make fun of how cheesy they are but they also love them lol

-eddie has so many guilty pleasure songs that they basically make up his music taste, but some of his favorites are 'its raining men’, 'jessie’s girl’, and 'holding out for a hero’

-they both love it when the other performs their favorite songs super extra and loud, the other losers Hate it but think richie and eddie are cute so they only protest a little bit

- they slow dance together at homecoming when can’t fight this feeling and africa play (they also dance with each other the entire time)

-but when they slow dance they realize that they like each other

-and then it all falls into place and they go to bills after homecoming with everyone and richie corners eddie and just stares at him. eddies like richie what u doin and then richie just goes “how the fuck” and kisses eddie

-“did i not do this sooner” and they both laugh and date and its beautiful

PLAYLISTS:

this playlist is super cute and i love it: https://open.spotify.com/user/mikes-wheeler/playlist/6pCfo43Q4PTgv7hmM25dHP?si=VUXSQfyf

eddie: https://open.spotify.com/user/itmovieofficial/playlist/7zF77ewvkhIlddBfGt7YlS?si=tcvbZ7ok

richie: https://open.spotify.com/user/itmovieofficial/playlist/0aiximCqm9ajRzlyT0bNOn?si=yjD4ZX7Q