i cant stop making this stuffs

anonymous asked:

So my x gf cheated co stantly we ere together a year n a half. I need. He we did some stuff while rooming together on a b ball trip and she said ily and asked me to be hers I said no bc she has a gf and we got physical. But I need her. I need her to stop and realize I'm here and were made for eachother. We had everything when we were together we were #goals no joke. And I love her and Ik she still feels for me. But I cant be played again. How can I make her mine n mine only without being played?

Ask yourself do you really want this… you cant trust her and will always ask yourself if she will do it again.. it can be very stressfull for you and for her.. just have a very good talk with her be honest and tell everything what is up in your head. Dont worry about feeling just be honest and let her talk to.. maybe it can work out maybe not i cant tell but if you want to try then I will not stop you

bad times with adhd:

  • cant read
  • can read, but cant comprehend what ur reading
  • boredom more like Time To Suffer
  • rsd
  • u wanna watch a video thats any amount of time??? thats too long, even if the video is like 10 seconds
  • becoming too aware of how things feel or how u do certain things or just regular bodily functions like breathing or blinking
  • staying up until 4 AM or later for no reason aside from adhd said so
  • that sinking feeling when u realized uve spaced out for most of a conversation and u feel too bad abt doing it to ask the person to repeat what they said 
  • overstimulation
  • meltdowns
  • when u have the motivation to get shit done, but executive dysfunction is like “lmfao nope”
  • trying to get certain stuff done and ur managing ok, but u still get distracted on occasion and u scold urself every time u do but u cant stop urself from doing it
  • the antsy anxiousness that comes with being confined to doing smth for too long
  • “i hope i remember this” u didnt remember it
  • outbursts which cause u to snap at ppl and then u feel bad but u couldnt help it
  • no volume control so ur constantly told to stop yelling but u cant make ur voice quieter 
  • *someone explains instructions and its a rather simple thing* “ok got it” u dont got it
  • getting irrationally irritated over the smallest shit but u cant help it everything is just So Frustrating 
  • “u know what i think im having a good day” and then mood swing that makes u either Super Sad or Super Mad for no reason
  • having what ur gonna say right in ur head but somehow u still space out in the middle of talking and forget what u wanted to say
  • forgetting why u were upset but still feeling upset
  • the sinking feeling of remembering why u were upset and now ur even more upset
  • when rsd is being extremely irrational and u know its bullshit but u dont have the energy to fight it so u just sit there in sadness
  • when rsd makes u self conscious abt stimming in public
  • having absolutely no time perception at all. what even is time ive never heard of that in my life
  • needing to get smth done and u manage to focus, but ur focusing on the wrong thing
  • overanalyzing past stuff thats happened and realizing other shit u couldve said that wouldve helped the situation and damn why didnt u think of that when u were in the situation
  • this is long i should stop now

To all my writers out there, particularly fanfic writers because I am one and I’m feelin this hardcore

  • It’s okay that you haven’t written for a while, you can take breaks.
  • You can start writing again whenever you want, you don’t need an excuse.
  • If you would still like an excuse, here it is: I want you to start again, you should totally do it.
  • It’s ok if you’re out of practice, you’ll pick up traction again.
  • We’re all learners and its good to have role models, but try to be better than the writer were before, and try less to be ‘as good as’ someone else.
  • It’s alright to abandon a piece if you have no enthusiasm or passion left for it.
  • It’s okay to be needlessly dramatic.
  • It’s okay to be needlessly ridiculous.
  • Write the crackfic, write the rarepair, or write the popular pair. Write what you want to write.
  • Yes someone has probably written this scene before.
  • Write it anyway if you want to write it.
  • Yeah that trope has probably been done a million times.
  • Use it anyway if you want to use it.
  • Probably there are people who are tired of reading about that AU.
  • Write it anyway, they don’t have to read it.
  • Respect your audience, but don’t let other people dictate what you create.
  • Reblog your own work. Be proud of it. You deserve to pat yourself on the back.
  • I’m proud of you, you’re doing great.
  • Keep writing, keep making stuff. People will care. 
  • Future you will especially care.

i hate it when people make fun of archaeologists labeling a lot of stuff they cant really identify the purpose of as “used for rituals” like i get that its making it sound like some mystic/religious crap but in anthropological terms rituals are literally just things you do regularly. brushing your teeth is a ritual. celebrating your birthday is a ritual. singing the national anthem before sporting events is a ritual. calling something a “ritual” isnt making any sort of judgement about what it is or the symbolism associated with it. 

Its been a year now since you left and i guess I’m doing fine. I have days where i cant get you off my mind and i check up on you all day, then i have days where you only cross my mind once or twice. There are days where i feel everything and just wish you would come back, then there are days where i feel nothing for you and don’t think about you at all. It sucks cause deep down i know i really just want you to come back, but checking up on you, i know you’re happy alone and i probably don’t even cross your mind anymore. We text here and there but its only because i have stuff to give back to you. But now I have nothing left to give back, and we stopped talking completely .a year now and i still cant forget about you. A year now and you’re still all i think about, all i dream about, it sucks. I wish i can just erase everything, forget all the memories because they make me more sad than happy. I’m slowly forgetting about you, losing feelings, letting go… just a few more months and hopefully ill be ready to let you go and move on..

Fanfics are a lottery

Me: reads a fic that starts being really good and makes me keep reading non-stop.

Fanfic: suddenly turns into a bunch of crap consisting in the characters saying “you’re hot”, “you too” and the rest of the fic is basically they getting it on.

Me: shit I’ve been investing my time into this nonsense when I could be reading something better.

Me: finds another fic that is good stuff from the start to the end *I feel blessed*

So I have ADHD and I’ve been researching a lot more about it, and there’s this thing called “Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria” which apparently is mainly specific to those with ADHD.
Now, I just heard about it the other day but just learning about it made me realize how I share many similar symptoms. Which helps me a lot because I hate not being able to understand things.
And hopefully it helps other people with ADHD feel better too, to realize some of the things they feel are not uncommon.

So Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria or RSD, from what I understand, is the super heightened dislike of criticism and being afraid of people getting mad at you, and anything that may come off as mean makes you feel like absolute shit.
and you believe that if anyone seems a little off it’s because of something you did. So then people who have RSD will tend to do things to avoid these situations at all cost.

Such as, being people pleasers, doing a lot of whatever they can to make sure that people feel accommodated and happy. Taking a lot of their life to making other people feel better.

Trying to be perfect. If no one finds flaws in the individual then they cant be criticized.

Or they give up on things all together. They stop doing things because if they don’t do stuff then no one can get angry or mad at them.

Basically you try anything to never put yourself in a compromising position.

Idk learning about this was good because it helped me figure something new about myself so I wanted to share the information. I hope at least one thing made sense because I’m still not exactly sure about everything it entails.

If any of you know more about it, please add to this.

while tryna figure out how to make art fun again (turns out that you can’t lol) i cant stop thinking about blonde wyatt + how a lot of words that come out of griffin mcelroy’s mouth sound like things she would say

(ths bit is from the very opening of ep 150 of mbmbam, after the song intro)

ranger's apprentice modern au

halt sees cars and wants to know how in gorlog’s beard youre supposed to follow anyone unseen. help him

crowley insists on trying to drive a car and makes halt go with him and halt gets as carsick as he does seasick HELP THIS MAN

will goes to starbucks and tries every coffee flavor. all of them

horace is gone they lost him in the food court where is he #findhorace

gilan somehow adapts perfectly and everyone like…..we hate u. hes fascinated with indoor plumbing

evanlyn gets rlly excited when she sees girls wearing pants and is like yes…..i need this……..yesssss. she gets a little weird about it

alyss reads classic literature and stuff but also rlly bad fanfic for fun she cant stop laughing at jacob sartorius fans

jenny is going nuts over horace eating the food court food bc its greasy and cheap. discovers modern slang and wont stop using it

BONUS:

Mother Pauline™ is like “you guys no” and everyones like “us guys yes”

erak hears the word “yall” and WILL NOT stop saying it

THIS PERSON LITERALLY STOLE MY VIDEO?! WHAT THE HELL
THIS VIDEO TOOK FOR EVER!! I WORKED SO HARD ON IT AND THIS PERSON DECIDED TO STEAL IT?? ARE YOU SERIOUS?! THIS LITERALLY MADE ME CRY IM NOT EVEN KIDDING THIS IS THE EXACT SAME THING I PUT ON THE DESCRIPTION ON HERE THE COMMENTS ARE SO KIND AND THIS PERSON IS TAKING ALL OF THE CREDIT.THEY ARE MAKING MONEY OFF OF OTHER PEOPLES HARD WORK?! THEY ARE GARBAGE THEY STOLE OTHER PEOPLES VIDEOS AS WELL


PLEASE SPREAD THIS
LET OTHER ARTISTS AND ANIMATORS
KNOW ABOUT THIS STEALER


PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU SIGNED YOUR ARTWORK OR ANIMATION MINE WAS SIGNED BUT IT GOT CUT OFF
SO PLEASE TELL THIS PERSON TO STOP STEALING
IT MADE ME CRY SO HARD I STILL CANT BELIEVE THIS…


But I honestly worked so hard on that video,it took me all day to finish! They copied my description! They got views!! They got likes! They got more subs?! And they really hurt me!! This was not funny.Im really sad…this person is really rude they like to make money off of stuff they didn’t even make.they get nice comments,they get paid! They don’t even say a word about the artist.thats really depressing.


IF THE PERSON THAT STOLE THESE VIDEOS SEES THIS:I HATE YOUR GUTS YOU STEALER YOU PIECE OF GARBAGE I HOPE YOUR HAPPY FOR MAKING AN ARTIST FEEL LIKE GARBAGE I HOPE YOU GET BANNED FROM YOUTUBE AND BLOCKED ON HERE IF I FIND YOU I WILL TELL YOU SOME STUFF AND YOU WONT LIKE IT.

such a big majority of the fandom thinks atsushi is only a kid who is so lazy and dull and doesnt care about anything other than sweets aND THIS IS SO WRONG. please dont make him seem as if he is only those things and nothing other than that. im sick of everyone treating him as a little child. atsushi is a deep character y’all stop minimizing him i will fight you

Tips For Procrastinators

( because I am doing it at this very moment) 

1. When in Doubt Print it Out

This works well for essays, case studies, notes etc. I find that a lot of times I get distracted when my essays or case studies are on a screen. However, if i grab a red pen and start scribbling on them, viola ideas manifest and you can visibly see your progress ( your paper is covered in red stuff). It also gives you something to do with your hands if you get antsy when you think. Doesn’t hurt that you cant open a new tab with a piece of paper.

2. Make Coffee/Hot Chocolate/Tea

Sometimes you just need to do something else to dislodge a thought or even just stop staring blankly at a blinking cursor. Having a drink allows you to do something with both your mouth and hands (get your mind out of the gutter…) without having to stop looking at your work or reading your notes. And tea is amazing anyway. 10/10 recommend (just don’t use sleepytime tea) 

3. Either Natural Light or an Isolated Warm Light

I cant get anything done until the room is dark save for a nice warm desk lap. There is nothing to look at to distract me, but I’m also not tired from blue florescent hell. Early morning light is also really nice I’ve learned, but what ever works for you. 

4. Go Lie Down/ Take a Walk/ Short Nap

Get comfy and forget that its due at 11:59 and its 8:00 already. Get a seed thought in your mind and just let your brain play with it like a day dream.  Eventually ideas will come.