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Shameless Imagines 2- You Mean so fucking much to me (Lip Imagine)

Paring: Lip x reader

Request: Could you do an imagine where the gallaghers and Mickey find out you self harm.

Description: You werent like the rest of your Milkovich family, you were weak and you just needed something that made you feel alive again. Everything was fine until they found out and the look on Mickeys face was more than heart crushing.

Warning: Mentions of selfharm, please read with caution. i love you all.

Words:1992

Originally posted by mickeyandmumbles


lip looked at you, tears threatening to spill from his eyes. He didn’t understand how it got this bad, all he wanted to do was fix you, to put every fucking piece that your dad had broken back together.  

You two had been the only ones home in the Gallagher house and decide to have some fun, It had been a while. In the moment you had forgotten about the scars on your upper thigh and Lip was making his way down when he saw them. 

“Whats wrong baby?” you asked, looking at him. His eyes had become glossy and his face had gone pale, you still not realizing what he had seen. He shook his head not saying anything and told you he felt sick before running to the bathroom.

When he got to the bathroom he slid down the walls, so unsure of what he had just saw.He knew how bad things were at home and even with the love and support of Mandy and Mickey it wasn’t even to protect you from Terry and the horrible things he had done.

Lip felt horrible and useless, he couldn’t save you. Lip had protected you from so many things, people at school, creepy guys, Karen, all of it. But lip wasn’t enough to protect you from your own dad, no one was. 

After a few minutes he had returned from the bathroom making some bullshit excuse about food poisoning and how he just wanted to lay in bed with you, honestly you were perfectly okay with that. There was something about being held by Lip that made you feel like everything would be in life.

-

Over the next few days you had noticed that lip had been acting weird, he wanted to go where ever you were, constantly asking you whats on your mind or if you were okay, being more loving and gentile than he normally had been. You had gone home to spend some girl time with your big sister Mandy. You two had been best friends since you were little, Only being 2 years apart you both had so much in common and she was just easy to talk too. You had thought for a while about telling her how bad things had gotten. Even though Terry had once again been put in jail, things hadn’t calmed down for you yet. You had been having nightmares about him returning, about hitting you or hurting Mickey and him making you watch again. You had been so traumatized by one man and it made you feel so weak, and seeing the scars afterwords had made you feel even worse but you couldn’t stop, you needed release. 

You felt kind of numb lately, feeling like you were floating through life, feeling worthless and used. You had wanted to talk to lip about it, but you didn’t want to see the look on his face. When you cried he felt broken. When he had found you on the floor after Terry had left he left broken, whenever you weren’t okay he felt broken. You could see it in his eyes and you didnt want that. You didnt want him to worry, to cry, to feel like he wasn’t doing enough because he was doing more than enough, it was just a phase of pain and once it was over you would be okay again. Little did you know that he was already worrying, already beating himself up for not noticing earlier and he had spent an hour after you left crying.

The next day Lip had called Mickey, Ian and Mandy over to the Gallagher house, he wanted to talk about this and see what they should do. As Ian and you had been best friends since you were kids which led Mandy and Ian to be friends which led Ian and Mickey to become whatever the fuck they were and Mandy and Mickey being your older siblings, those were the people Lip called, the ones who loved you and cared about you,

The 5 of you had become really close, almost like your own little family and lip knew that they needed to help you.

“Whats going on Gallagher” Mickey said taking a seat at the dinning room table next to Ian as Mandy had sat on the other side of the two love birds and Lip had sat on end, making sure he could see the 3 of them.

“Its about y/n” Lip said but then was cut off by Mickey interrupting him.

“I swear to god if you got my sitter pregnant i will fucking kill you with my cold fucking hands” Lip laughed and nodded before explaining that him and you were always safe and you weren’t in fact pregnant which gained a “Better fucking not be” from the carrot boy.

“Me and Y/n were doing some things when I noticed marks on her thighs, both of them. Some were old and some were fresh. I don’t know what Terry has done to her as she hasn’t told me it all but he’s fucking broken her and we need to fix her before she pulls a fucking Monica and I lose the love of my life” Lip said, tears coming back in his eyes.

“You love her?” Mandy asked, a huge smiling coming onto her face.

“What the fuck are you trying to say Gallagher?” Mickey asked, hurting flashing through his voice. Ian grabbed his hand under the table and Mickey laced his fingers with the ginger boys right away.

“I think she’s self harming Mickey, I think living in that house when hes there is toxic for her. He’s ruining her. She isn’t the same. Her smile isn’t as bright and her laugh isn’t as loud. Her eyes don’t shine like they use to” He said., finally allowing tears to fall again.

Who would have though, Lip Gallagher crying, He wasn’t the crying type.He drank when sad emotions came up, but not this time. You were everything to him, his whole fucking world and he couldn’t live without you.

“Ask her to come over, we will talk to her. Tell her we are here.. Maybe she can stay with us for a little. Do everything we can for her” Ian suggested, earning a nod from both the Milkovich siblings.

“Thank you for caring about her, I believe you are the best for her” Mickey said. Mick was hurt that he never realized how much Terry had broken you, he wished he could have done more to protect you from the bastard but there wasn’t much anyone could do when it came to Terry.

You had received a text saying that Fiona had asked Lip to watch Liam and the house was empty and he wanted you to come over. You loved Liam a much as Lip did and when everything happened with Fiona and the drugs and stuff you and Lip had acted like his mom and dad until she had gotten released and you loved it. Since you were a little girl you dreamed about being a parent and being a loving supporting mom, so different than both of your parents. That was your goal in life.

You and lip had talked about it once, saying that he felt the same. He then started talking the big house on the north side that you two would have with your kids and everything you had ever wanted. Thats when you fell so fucking hard for you. He was everything you had ever wanted and nothing could ever change that. 

When you walked in the back door of the Gallagher house you were confused to see Mandy, Lip, Ian and Mickey sitting at the table.

“Whats going on? You said we were babysitting while Monica was working an extra few hours?” You asked as you slipped off your coat and shoes, sitting down on lips lap. His arms went straight to you waist pulling you as close as possible.

“Baby we need to talk to you..” Lip whispered. He didn’t want to cry but you could hear his voice break and it caused you to worry. You stood up eyeing them all. 

“About?” You asked, something was definitely going on and you were scared. Was Terry out? What the fuck was going on?

“We know Y/n” Ian said, looking at you.

“About the cutting babygirl” Lip said turning to you, his eyes extremely glossy and his voice Breaking once again. Who knew one whole fucking sentence could make your whole world crash.

‘Guys please, its not a big deal and I don’t feel the need to talk about this with you. Im fine, its fine now drop it” You said, not letting your voice show the ashamed and sad feelings you felt deep down.

“Sis, we know he was the worst to you, we know you still have the night terrors, we know how broken you feel. Ive tired so many fucking times for him to leave you alone. Watching what he does to you breaks my fucking heart. But me and Lip and Ian, we are gonna protect you. We are gonna save you from him. He hasn’t broken you yet and we wont let him. We love you so fucking much Y/n and you have to stop please” Mickey said, his eyes becoming glossy. The face he made broke your heart.

“Mick.. Please don’t look at me like that. Im fine” You said, trying to make you believe him when you didn’t even believe yourself.

“No you aren’t Y/F/n, you aren’t fine and you need to stop! Do you understand that I cant lose you? How can we get married and have a family if you are dead!? I love you so fucking much and I wont let you do this to yourself anymore. Do you understand? You are worth so much more than that fucking asshole and I refuse to stand and watch you let him win!” Lip said, raising his voice at some point. You started crying, saying sorry over and over and you walked into lips arms, wrapping his arms around your shoulder and one around your head, him placing his hand on the top of you head. He started crying a little too, kissing the top of your head.

Him saying this to you, it made you feel alive again, like when you closed your eyes you saw a future again instead on nothing. You realized that as soon as you and Lip got out you’d be okay. You made a promise to your boyfriend and the family around you that you’d do anything to try and stop and that you loved him.

After everyone had stopped feeling emotional and had calmed down, Mickey had told you that all of them thought it was best to stay at the Gallaghers, still having a room of your own in your house but none of them wanted you to be there when Terry got out. As Ian basically lived at the Milkovich house and Carl was gone to military school and Frank not allowed in the house you had Fiona room to yourself while fiona had Franks room and you couldn’t have to cram into Lips old small bed anymore. You loved the idea of waking up to the love of your life every morning and that lip would be there when you needed him even more than normal.

a month later things were slowly getting better, You hadn’t cut in 3 weeks, the night terrors didn’t come every night like they did at the beginning but when they did lip held you and kissed you and stayed up for a while after you slept to make sure they didn’t happen. You weren’t fixed, it was a slow process but you didn’t feel as broken as you did the night they had told you that they knew. You were so happy they had did what they did, they saved you that night. You couldn’t be more grateful for everything they did for you, they were all family and that would never change.

Boyfriend Mark
  • okay i love him too much that’s why i decided to do this
  • maybe it wasnt a good choice cause i might just faint halfway from typing this
  • okay im sorry
  • let’s start

  • firstly how he asked you out

  • you guys would have probably been bestfriends before he asked
  • like one day the other members finally convinced him to confess
  • mainly donghyuck
  • “ hyung i swear if you keep being so shy and awkward i’m going to tell her myself . whispers to himself i dont see what she sees in someone like you ”
  • “ no don’t you dare , and what did you say under your breath ”
  • “ nothing . then do it yourself,  be a man ”
  • “ hmm ”
  • he probably wrote a song for you
  • after he sang/rap it for you he’d be blushing like mad and not being able to look into your eyes
  • after an awkward silence he’d confess
  • you’d smile crazily and confess back too
  • he’d give a really big smile and most probably give you a hug
  • okay on to dates and dating
  • he’d be more into casual dates ,
  • movie marathons on the sofa together ,
  • singing songs together ,
  • you’ll most probably be helping him with composing lyrics and music
  • for skinship though ,
  • he wouldn’t do much in public , probably only up to hugging
  • but when you’re alone together ,
  • he’d probably initiate kisses or pecks on your cheeks
  • when both of you are cuddling though ,
  • he’d make sure you’re in a comfortable position
  • he’d snuggle his face in your hair
  • arms wrapping tightly around your waist
  • okay i cant do this anymore im crying
  • when you’re sad or feeling down ,
  • he’d comfort you by staying by your side
  • he’d listen to all of your problems and try to give you advice
  • he’s probably the type to stress over your problems even when you’re way over it
  • “ babe what you thinking about ? ”
  • “ uh .. oh nothing ”
  • “ are you sure ? ”
  • “ nothing much … just thinking of the storyline for you essay assignment ”
  • and you’d laugh uncontrollably and he’d give you a confused expression
  • and you cant help but hug him tightly cause he’s too precious
  • but when he’s feeling down ,
  • he wouldn’t show or say anything because he isnt the type to make others worry for him
  • and when you asked him he’d shake the matter off and quickly change the subject
  • but as his girlfriend you would notice so you’d ask him seriously
  • and he’d finally confess , sharing his problems with you
  • he’ll smile once again when he saw how much you tried to help him
  • when he’s jealous , he’d only have a frown on his face but wouldn’t say anything
  • his protective side would take over if he saw another guy getting too close to you
  • he’ll place his arms around your waist and pull you closer to him ,
  • and obvious frown still showing on his face
  • and you’d smile shyly because
  • damn he still looks cute when he’s mad
  • couple fights would hardly occur because yall are just too nice
  • but if it did , mark would be the first to apologise because he’d be afraid to lose you
  • he’ll most probably keep apologising until you forgive him
  • because who would be able to stay mad at this cute puppy
  • on special occasions though ,
  • he’ll get you anything you want
  • and with the help of the other members he’d surprise you
  • he’d smile to himself when he saw that you liked it
  • “ i’m so thankful for you , i love you so much and you’re the best thing that happened in my life ”
  • okay i can only do this much my heart can’t take this i’m sorry guys

you know what i need?? i need val mourning over the loss of her elemental magic !! that was her whole life for years and she was good at it. she flourished and her and skul were able to bond over it (as well as other things obv) and she spent so much of her teenage years learning and now its gone ! replaced with magic she has no idea how to control or even what it is, and she doesnt know her own strength !! this is how she was brought into magic, this is how she stayed with skul, this is how she learned to fight. i want more conflict with it ! i want her upset that she worked so hard to perfect something she cant have anymore, i want skul helping her do things she cant anymore and i want her to be frustrated ! i want her to automatically click her fingers and forget, fleetingly, that its gone. i want val to be sad over losing something super important and replacing it with something that makes no sense !! come on derek im waiting!!

nct dream!kids au

youre their babysitter ok istg (theyre also like 4-8) (and theyre also all related)


mark

-a literal mess omg!!

-tries his best but ends up failing somehow

-cant make a sandwich, ends up blowing up the kitchen

-needs your help for a lot of things but not before he accidentally screws it up himself when he tries to be a big boy!!!

-like one time, you went over to babysit

-and he was a precious angel! said hi and smiled and dragged you to his room to play!!

-everything was fine and dandy until you left the room for a sec and came back to mark upside down hanging from his bed with his toys scattered on the floor when it was in a neat pile before

-dont leave him alone for too long

-dont leave him alone at all omg, hold his hand and take him as your smol useless sidekick

-tries to help take care of the kids with you because he’s the hyung and he needs to have a responsibility! (never ends up doing what he’s supposed to do but you love him anyway)

-falls asleep really easily, is always disoriented when he wakes up from naps

-has his own bed but prefers to crawl in bed with his bff and best brother hae!!!

-doesnt have a teddy bear or any stuffie and falls asleep with nothing in his arms but ends up hugging anything he can grab in his sleep

-it can be hae, a pillow, their pet bunny that manages to escape bc chen forgot to lock it up, it doesnt matter (hae pretends to hate it but it makes him feel warm so he’s lowlowlowlowlowlowlowkey ok with it)


haechan

-what a sass master

-youngest sass master youve ever seen

-pickiest eater ever omg

-doesnt like ANYTHING you give him unless it has peanut butter on it

-he’ll make you put peanut butter on pizza

-he doesnt CARE he just wants peanut butter

-such a tsundere omg hates your jokes but loves your smiles (will never admit it)

-stubborn ass kid jesus

-but a cutie so you dont mind!!

-loves his hyung mark but will not hesitate to push him down the stairs for candy

-is always there to give mark bandaids for wounds HE caused

-has to always sit beside you or mark or jisung or jaemin during movies (will not sit still unless he’s with one of you)

-LOVES superheroes

-tried to fly once but just ended up scraping the palm of his hand

-he’s the bandaid guy so he has no one to put a bandaid on him :c

-BUT he has you!!! and mark to the rescue ofc

-mark puts the bandaid on backwards and it accidentally sticks to his hand instead

-haechan doesnt have the heart to tell him and neither do u

-you end up putting the bandaid on hae when mark isnt looking

-reminds you of how cute and perfect he is every 3 minutes hours


chenle

-the most talented child you have ever babysat

-will sing the kids to sleep if you asked him to

-will sing YOU to sleep if you asked him to

-sweetest smiles!!!

-total suck up, will do anything to make you happy/smile

-sings around the house, hops everywhere, refuses to stop singing even if jeno threatens to throw his pet bunny on the street

-howevER IF YOU THREATEN TO TAKE HIS TEDDY BEAR AWAY HE’LL HARNESS THE POWERS OF JESUS CHRIST HIMSELF AND JUDOFLIP YOU DOWN 80 FLIGHTS OF STAIRS

-takes his teddy bear everywhere

-has emotional detachment issues

-loves his parents but lowkey loves his teddy bear more

-highkey loves you more, probably has a cute lil kid crush on you

-hearteyes!!!!

-buy him stuffed animals and he’ll love you forever

-reallyyyyyyyy likes strawberries

-more than usual

-likes feeding them to his bunny even tho they shouldnt really be eating them

-but it makes the bunny happy so chen is happy!!

-please love him all he wants is for everybody to be happy

-the type to tug on your clothes instead of calling for your name or tapping you to get your attention


renjun

-????

-mysterious as heck

-you didnt even notice him the first time you babysat him

-like, their parents came back and thanked you and all the kids came to say goodbye

-and then you just saw renjun there but???

-”omg i didnt even notice you during this whole time im sorry why didnt you say anything?? where were you???”

-and he just responds with “i was in the shadows” right before you leave

-gave you nightmares but you were determined to make him loud and bubbly!!

-so the next time you babysit, you made SURE to find renjun

-took him with you everywhere, so now you have sidekick mark and sidekick renjun

-theyre both useless but in a cute way!!!!

-it takes time but he goes from a chocolate bar left in the freezer for 85 years to a bagel in water!!! (what is this omg)

-still kinda tough but soft and smol at the same time

-doesnt smile often but when he does it’s like a fireball!!! watch out nasa we have a new sun!!!

-small grins and smiles 24/7

-the kids always try to include him in everything bc he may be quiet but they know he’s just shy and can be absolutely insane (in a non ghost-kid creepy way)

-they love him and will do anything he asks bc he never asks for anything usually!!

-the least-needy kid ever


jaemin

-sly ass lil kid

-probably learns how to flirt from tv shows and uses pickup lines on you

-a sweetheart deep down, cares for you a lot

-will 100000% fight chenle for your heart!!!!

-smile so sweet itll give you cavities but has a lowkey smirk to it so you have to stop him from watching too many tv shows

-follows you around asking you the most dumb questions

-”do you trap people in your phone and talk to them??”

-”jae omg no what the heck ofc not”

-”how do you talk to your friends then??”

-you worry about him a lot

-tries to act tough when he gets booboos

-doesnt like crying and usually doesnt cry when he gets hurt

-BUT when he gets hurt like real bad, he’ll crack

-one time he was running down the stairs chasing jeno

-and he accidentally fell and tumbled down the stairs

-he was ok, no big booboos but his knee got scraped pretty bad

-and *dootdootdoot trumpet sounds* haechan swoops in with bandaids!! (and a HALF hug, gotta keep that tsundere front)

-and as haechan puts like, 3 bandaids on jae’s 1 wound, his lips start quivering and his eyes are tearing up but he cant cry wont cry!! gotta look tough so mark can stop babying him!! so everyone can stop babying him!!

-but then mark hugs him to make up for hae’s half hug and min starts bawling

-chen feels bad too so he hugs jae while mark is still hugging him so it’s a hug-fest!!

-hae reluctantly joins in but only bc he’s hip and with the trends!!! not bc he wanted to hug him or something


jeno

-highkey likes learning lowkey likes messing with his brothers

-he likes learning how to make traps and how to successfully prank people

-the annoying smartass kid of the group but nobody minds!! (except haechan bc hes supposed to be annoying and smart!!)

-partners in crime with haechan

-pranks everybody BUT jisung

-everybody has a soft spot for jisung

-starts off with dumb things like whoopie cushions and hand buzzers

-still uses dumb things like whoopie cushions and hand buzzers

-colours pictures as a side job hobby

-quiet and behaved surprisingly when he isnt trying to make you sit on a whoopie cushion

-will eat anything you give him as long as it’s not like, kiwis or something

-hates kiwis with a passion

-will sass you if you try to feed him kiwis

-which makes you seperate him and hae from hanging out for too long

-it never works, they always find a way to navigate back to each other

-you end up just letting him become a sass master in training

-judges your food but compliments your appearance!!

-everything you do is pretty to him

-cleaning up chen’s spilled apple juice?? nO PROBLEM WHAT A CUTE THING YOU ARE

-just dont feed him kiwis, then youre not cute

-really hates kiwis

-like, really really

-will probably slap your hand

-will apologize and hug your hand afterwards

-*cue hae’s eye roll*

-eye smiles all day everyday!!!!


jisung

-an actual angel

-youngest and cutest!!

-leader of the cutie sqaud rEPRESENT!!!11!!11!

-probably religiously likes apples

-just imagine him nibbling on an apple

-chen probably really likes him (ONLY WHEN HE’S EATING AN APPLE) bc he reminds him of their pet bunny

-a bit of a crybaby but nobody minds because he doesnt cry on purpose!!

-hurts himself a lot too smh jisung r u having a competition with mark or smth

-but he has spongebob bandaids so “who cares if im bleeding?? i have spongebob!!”

-probably wants to be like, devious and not innocent but cant

-one time, hae and jeno tried to teach him how to prank one of his hyungs but ji just went “i dunno i dont really wanna anymore” all uncomfortable and smol and timidly bc he didnt wanna make hae and jeno upset

-but it was ok!! they took him to the living room to watch spongebob

-dancing machine omg

-like, everybody in the family likes dancing but bOY jisung has such a firey passion for it, it’s insanely cute

-likes candy a lot (but what kid doesnt)

-will most likely sell his soul for candy

-instead of walking around the house, he moonwalks

-nobody has the heart to tell him to stop

-chen almost did once but when jisung smiled real wide when chen called his name, he like stopped and just sputtered out “i have apples”

-the kid that literally does nothing wrong

-you used to be suspicious but not anymore he’s an angEL BEAN

-smol and precious, doesnt like trouble nor does he like loud noises

-yet he enjoys screaming??

-when anything wrong goes down he screams like a siren so everybody knows something is wrong

-he’s practically their fire alarm


nct dream (as a whole)

-puts on shows for you ALL the time

-you were going over to babysit them once but when you arrived you didnt expect a cupcake and a performance!! (their parents told them it was your birthday so they had to be nice to you)

-you didnt even get sassed!! a miracle!!!

-they felt bad that they didnt get you a present so they drew you something instead

-didnt let mark help in fear he’d accidentally set the paper on fire but he was ok with that bc he got to monitor and was on apple juice duty!!

-likes having pillow fights

-you arent about that life so you just sit back and monitor

-jisung doesnt join in but he screams while they fight!!

-he has lungs of steel

-he doesnt join in bc one time he was running around, spinning with a pillow and he accidentally got smacked in the face (dont tell anyone but it was probably mark) and he FLEW BACK

-like FLEW BACK

-the room grew quiet and everybody rushed over “omg r u ok???”

-he was ok but no longer particpates, traumatized but also vv thankful bc woah he flew (into a wall but he flew)

-they have pillow fights real often bc it makes renjun happy and he laughs and smiles a lot during them

-pillow fights are BRUTAL

-they have never EVER seen chen so hardcore

-he karate jumps and smacks people in the face

-mark screams and charges headfirst (with a pillow on his head ofc) at everybody

-hae pretends not to care but hits SO hard (as hard as he can with a pillow at least)

-jeno is so good at dodging, so swift it’s scary

-renjun is reallllll quiet so he sneak-attacks people really easly, giving them minor (or major, if youre like, mark) heart attacks

-jaemin pictures everybody as giant, walking kiwis so he screams “I HATE KIWIS” before he runs into the fight blindly, hitting everybody and anybody he can bc deFEAT THE EVIL KIWIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-chen doesnt even have a tactic as long as he gets to hit someone he’s ok

-there’s really no prize so idek why these losers are so competitive

-HOWEVER no matter how much they fight and no matter how competitive they are, they ALWAYS have each other’s back

-like this one time, hae was getting bullied and it all started like thiS *dramatic flashback*

-they all walk home together and instead of being loud like usual, hae was just really quiet and didnt join in the conversation

-so mark the responsible hyung!!! noticed and was like “what’s wrong hae??”

-and he didnt respond so ren, jae, and jeno answered for him

-”that kid in our class said he was loud and annoying”

-”WHERE DOES HE LIVE I’LL HURT HIM” -mark 0.1 seconds after hearing that

-the next day at school, the dream team (im calling them that from now on) confronted the kid and mark went iN

-”HOW DARE U CALL MY BROTHER ANNOYING WHEN U HAVE A BOWL CUT AND CANT EVEN GO TO THE WASHROOM ON YOUR OWN, U THINK UR SLICK I SEE YOU IN THE HALLS”

-like, jae and ji got a lil bit offended at the bowl cut comment but iT WAS FOR HAE SO THEY DIDNT CARE

-mark is a third grade SAVAGE

-made the kid cry

-all while hae was hiding behind jeno and jisung (jisung was too short to hide him but like w/e)

-the kid apologized with like snot and tears running down his face

-hae lowkey laughed really hard

-they all got in trouble after

-jisung for sneaking out of kindergarten

-mark for roasting yelling at the kid

-everybody else for being his sidekicks

-their parents couldnt even yell at them bc they were so touched

-do NOT bring these kids to the grocery store

-not altogether

-if you do, youll get kicked out of the grocery store in 0.3343 seconds

-jisung wants EVERYTHING in the store

-hae complains every 2 minutes

-they fight over who gets to sit in the cart

-jisung, mark, hae, and jeno share a room

-jae, chen, and ren share a room

-during nap time, they all end up in one room or another tho

-they kinda hate each other (bc that’s how siblings are!!) but if given the chance to be put in another family, none of them would even THINK about it

-theyre all a mess but that’s how the dream team works!

anonymous asked:

i dont know if you take emergency requests but if possible could i have one where asl and marco comfort their crying s.o ? ( my emotionally abusive narcissistic birthgivers keep making me feel worse than shit and im having a breakdown at the moment bcs i just cant deal with this anymore)

(hugs Anon) Yes, I do do emergency requests. Please don’t hesitate to ask me for one when you need it. If you ever need to talk, feel free to send me a message. And you are beautiful and never let anyone tell you otherwise. I hope this helps.

Ace:

  • He’ll be wandering around with his fellow crewmates when he hears a noise coming from your cabin.
  • He politely excuses himself from them and leaves to investigate.
  • Ace knocks on your door and calls your name, asking if he can come in.
  • After a while of waiting, he’ll be hesitant, but tells you he’s there for you.
  • As he’s about to sit down and stay outside of your door for the night, Ace hears your voice.
  • Ace doesn’t waste time coming in. When he sees your tears, he’ll freeze for a small moment.
  • Then slowly, he’ll wrap his arms around you gently.
  • Quietly, he’ll ask what’s wrong and waits until you’re ready to say, rubbing your back in comfort.
  • When you tell him, he’ll listen to you carefully. There’s a few seconds of silence when you finish. It’s then when you feel your own shoulder becoming damp. You look up to see tears in Ace’s eyes.
  • He’ll sniff and whisper words of comfort to you, ending with “No matter what happens, no matter what comes your way, I’ll always be there by your side.”

Sabo:

  • He’ll be trying to do some paperwork in his room when his ears catch something.
  • Sabo will from and attempt to finish his work at first, but immediately gets up to find the noise when he hears it again.
  • He’ll start to get worried when he follows the sound to your room.
  • (knock) “(s/o)? You okay in there?”
  • When he receives no response, he’ll quietly open your door and peeks in.
  • His eyes widen when he spies the tears in yours.
  • Silently comes in and shuts the door behind him before going to sit next to you.
  • At first, he won’t speak a word as he rubs your back softly.
  • Sabo will wait a while before he inquires why you are crying. He listens to every word as you explain.
  • When you finish, he’ll wrap an arm around you in comfort. “Hey, no mater what, I’ll be there for you, alright? You don’t have to go through this alone.”

Luffy:

  • Luffy will be making another attempt to get a midnight snack from the kitchen when he hears something from your room.
  • He will stop whatever he’s doing and goes to it.
  • Unlike his brothers, Luffy won’t knock on the door before going in. He doesn’t think much of it as he enters your cabin.
  • “(s/o)? What’s wrong?” he asks as he approaches you.
  • He stops briefly as he gazes upon your tearstained face. He’ll stay like so for a few, silent moments before placing his hat on your head.
  • He’ll sit next to you quietly for a long time.
  • After a while, he places a hand on your shoulder and leaves it there.
  • He remains like that until your tears slowly begin to subside.
  • He doesn’t ask you what’s wrong afterwards like Ace and Sabo would. Luffy leaves that choice up to you.
  • “I don’t know what’s going on, but you don’t have to be alone for it. You have us to help you, (s/o). We’re friends, aren’t we?”

Marco (while he’s not on the list right now, I’m making an exception):

  • Marco would be out on patrol with one of his fellow crewmates, but soon senses something’s off.
  • He excuses himself and goes to investigate.
  • His investigation leads him to a familiar, cabin door.
  • Before he thinks to knock, a sob sounds from inside. Without hesitation, he’ll burst into your room, startling you.
  • Before you can say anything, Marco rushes up to you and hugs you tight. He refuses to let go, even as your tears begin to lessen.
  • At first, he’ll try to ask why you’re feeling so sad. However, he quickly realizes he’s not going to get an answer right away.
  • So he’ll caress your hair, waiting patiently until you’re ready to tell him.
  • You don’t notice at first, but he’s ever so slightly shaking and has more than a few tears sneak out himself.
  • Marco listens as you struggle to explain in-between sobs. He’ll take a moment or two to let your words sink in and figure out what to say.
  • “Look, I may not be the best at this whole comfort thing, but if staying by you makes any difference, don’t hesitate to come to me the next time you’re feeling down.”

anonymous asked:

Hi Aurora okay first tysm for your blog It's so lovely to have another person so passionate about my fave things (i.e hp and period dramas) Anyway, i recently read the HP series (again) and found myself feeling SO MUCH. I genuinely teared up at so many different touching parts and I was just wondering what are your favorite most heart-wrenching/emotional parts from the books? I realize this is a lengthy quesition so feel free to never answer this or take a year.

ye S SS i love being passionate ab things and sharing that passion w my followers!!!!! i love yall esp when u ask me questions like this where i get to talk ab my fave things everrrrrrrrr (ps thank u so much for letting me take forever to answer this ur so cute to say that ilysm)

ok so literally i will cry my way thru the entire series when i reread bc harry potter has so much emotional weight for me and so many memories that go along with it. but i decided to limit myself to just 10 bc otherwise id be sitting here typing all day. so w/o further ado: 

AURORA’S TOP 10 MOST TEARFUL HARRY POTTER MOMENTS: 

((in no particular order)) 

  1. HARRY READS LILY’S LETTER IN DH: listen harry doesnt actually spend a lot of the books angsting over the fact that he doesnt have parents but in moments like this u remember he IS AN ORPHAN AND IT GETS ME SO HARD. fuk like just picturing harry crouched on the floor of sirius’s bedroom reading that letter… rereading it… crying… wow.gif!!!!! the line that makes me cry eveRY TIME is “She had made her g’s the same way he did : he searched through the letter for every one of them, and each felt like a friendly little wave glimpsed from behind a veil.“ LIKE RIP RIP RIP ABORT ABORT ABORT ITS TOO SAD!!!!!
  2. THE LOST PROPHECY IN OOTP: JESSESCREAMING.JPEG!!!!!!!!!!!! listen ,,, i talk ab this chapter so much on my blog. it is my #1 favorite moment in my #1 favorite harry potter book which is my #1 favorite series of all time. SO ITS A PRETTY BIG DEAL. harry’s reaction to sirius’s death… his anger at dumbledore… his grief… his discovery of his fate… its beautiful writing and its so painful but so amazing to read. LIKE!!!!! MY BABY!!! HE’S LOST SO MANY PEOPLE!!!!!!!! MY SWEET SUMMER CHILD!!!!!!!!!! “I DON’T CARE!“ Harry yelled at them, snatching up a lunascope and throwing it into the fireplace. “I’VE HAD ENOUGH, I’VE SEEN ENOUGH, I WANT OUT, I WANT IT TO END, I DON’T CARE ANYMORE!” “You do care,” said Dumbledore. He had not flinched or made a single move to stop Harry demolishing his office. His expression was calm, almost detached. “You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.”” LIKE LITERALLY WHEN I GET TO THIS POINT I HAVE TO TAKE A BREAK BC IM CRYING SO MUCH I CANT MAKE OUT THE WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!! also fun story: one time i was listening to ootp on audiobook while on vacation and we were in the car waiting to taxi on to a ferry boat and we were listening to this chapter when the ferry guy came by to take our tickets and i had like TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE and jim dale is yelling as harry in the background…. the guy was like ‘is this bitch ok??’ lmaOOOOo 
  3. HARRY AND THE MIRROR OF ERISED IN SS:  this is another one of those moments where you remember that harry is an orphan and its /so/ painful. thinking about this teeny 11 year old baby harry sneaking out every night just to sit in front of this mirror so he can see his parents………my darling baby sweetheart i love him So Much. it just makes me so sad like hes /so young/ AND HE JUST WANTS TO SEE HIS PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH!! it also gives way to one of my all time favorite hp quotes: “It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live.” 
  4. HARRY STOPS SIRIUS AND LUPIN FROM KILLING PETER IN POA: me reading this part is literally ISAYTHATSMYBABYANDIMREALLYPROUD.GIF!!!!!! like!! my boy!! he finds out this man literally caused the death of his parents and he MAKES THE GROWN ASS ADULTS SPARE HIS LIFE… LIKE… he literally acts twice his age and is so mature and is just…….so amazing. it shows such strength and wisdom and it makes me SO PROUD. the way he references james also makes me cry because you see the relationship harry has with james even though he’s literally never met him and its so beautiful. i love harry so much. 
  5. HARRY AFTER SECTUMSEMPER-ING MALFOY IN HBP: this is literally the opposite of that last one where im so proud of harry this is def… not one of his best moments lol. he rly rly fucks up and his guilt is so raw and it makes me so emotional because i feel SO bad for him. its def an important harry moment in the books because it shows his flaws and the consequences of his rage, but it also shows how GOOD he is because he feels so bad about what happens and like willingly takes his punishment even though it means that he cant play in the quidditch match. he really like… atones and even tho its rough to read i def love that its a part of the series bc its a really like watershed moment for harry and i think it really reminds him of the wizard he wants to be. this part also leads to i think a more satisfying harry/ginny first kiss bc ginny defends harry and then him not going to the game leads to “several sunlit days” AKA ONE OF MY FAVE HP MOMENTS EVER!!!!!!!!!!!
  6. HARRY AND HERMIONE VISIT JAMES AND LILY’S GRAVE IN DH: “But they were not living, thought Harry: They were gone. The empty words could not disguise the fact that his parents’ moldering remains lay beneath snow and stone, indifferent, unknowing.And tears came before he could stop them, boiling hot then instantly freezing on his face, and what was the point in wiping them off or pretending? He let them fall, his lips pressed hard together, looking down at the thick snow hiding from his eyes the place where the last of Lily and James lay, bones now, surely, or dust, not knowing or caring that their living son stood so near, his heart still beating, alive because of their sacrifice and close to wishing, at this moment, that he was sleeping under the snow with them.”  THIS IS ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS THAT I HAVE TO STOP READING BC IM CRYING SO MUCH I CANT MAKE OUT THE WORDS ANYMORE. I CRIED TYPING THIS. IM SO SAD. 
  7. THE FOREST AGAIN IN DH: hoo boy. hoooooo boy this is a Big One. this one is really…. wow. just. wow. [deep breath]. there is So Much in this chapter that makes me cry where do i even START. harry realizing that he has to die and ACCEPTING IT BRAVELY LIKE THE HERO HE IS. “Why had he never appreciate what a miracle he was,  brain and nerve and bounding heart?” im crying….. hes so good. HARRY NEARLY STOPPING WHEN HE SEES GINNY and ginny’s crying and comforting some girl and im crying too. JAMES. SIRIUS. LILY. REMUS. WHEN HARRY ASKS IF IT HURTS TO DIE LIKE LITEARLLY I HAVE TO PUT THE BOOK DOWN AND GET UP  AND WLAK AROUND THE ROOM BECAUSE I GET SO EMOTIONAL LIKE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! when harry sees harry and screams at him ……………… rip in pieces me!!!!!!!! ALSO ONE OF HIS LAST THOUGHTS BEFORE THE AVADA KEDAVRA IS OF GINNY AND KISSING HER……….. [GUNSHOTS] [SCREAMING]
  8. BELLATRIX TORTURES HERMIONE IN DH: fuk this scene is no joke scary like it took harry potter to another level of real darkness. hermione being tortured was so chilling like beautiufl amazing smart snarky hermione it was so painful to read like my heart rate goes up when i read it bc im worried for my girl :/ and ron is sHAKING and like screaming and literally throwing himself at the walls to try to get to her and its SO upsetting like. they are still CHILDREN like theyre all so young and they dont deserve this like. hearing her plead and stuff … its just…. too much. these are my CHILDREN i have to PROTECT them. 
  9. HARRY DIGS DOBBYS GRAVE IN DH: this is another one of those harry moments where i just want to give him a huge hug. like he insists on digging dobby’s grave by hand which is just ….. [gets choked up] its fine. and his thoughts while he dig make me so sad. he so /tired/. hes so frustrated with dumbledore and he the hallows and the horcruxes and he feels responsible for what happened. and ron coming out and helping him dig silently makes me so happy and its one of those times u really see how much rons friendship means to harry. and harry comes out of this like … older and more mature? his wisdom and knowledge is rly apparent when he talks with griphook and olivander right after this like. he knows what hes going to do. hes made his choice. hes not going to race voldemort for the wand. i love him so much for that choice. hes such a grown man in this part like accepting responsibility, taking care of hermione and everyone like getting things in order. i love him. 
  10. MRS WEALSEY HUGS HARRY IN THE HOSPITAL WING IN GOF“’It wasn’t your fault, Harry,’ Mrs. Weasley whispered. ‘I told him to take the cup with me,’ said Harry. Now the burning feeling was in his throat too. He wished Ron would look away. Mrs. Weasley set the potion down on the bedside cabinet, bent down, and put her arms around Harry. He had no memory of ever being hugged like this, as though by a mother. The full weight of everything he had seen that night seemed to fall in upon him as Mrs. Weasley held him to her. His mothers face, his father’s voice, the sight of Cedric, dead on the ground all started spinning in his head until he could hardly bear it, until he was screwing up his face against the howl of misery fighting to get out of him.” HARRY POTTER DESERVES MORE HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he feels so guilty about cedric and god bless mrs weasley for telling him it wasnt his fault because it WASNT!!! he did so amazing in the graveyard like.. .he saw voldemort return and he fought him and he survived and he saw his paretns and hE TOOK CEDRICS BODY BACK SO IT COULD BE WITH HIS FAMILY!!!!!!!! HE TOOK IT BACK FOR THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i would die a thousand deaths if it meant that harry didnt have to experience this pain!!!!

whew so there we go!!!!! the bottom line is obviously that i love the harry potter series more than anything and specifically i love the boy harry potter so so SO much and his suffering is agonizing to read and he didnt deserve any of it!!! i can litearlly think of SO many more heartbreaking moments in the series but here are just a handful. happy birthday to harry!!! 

luthorofrph  asked:

what a disaster honestly, i just watched the trailer too and like??????? she lost her whole planet at 13/14. how is losing one shitty af guy that she knew for like what, 6 months or less even compare to what she went through??? a little heart break is nothing compared to that. And this kara danvers was a mistake?? WTF. wtf happened to the bubbly show of season 1. Give it back to CBS, they weren't perfect but they were better than this

i know bruh it makes no sense they tryna turn kara into this dark bitch im crying red kryptonite kara was so much better than this i dont evenkknow what to say anymore im just crying cause i love lena luthor so muhc i wish i could just give this show up but i cant cause lena luthor is the only reason why im alive rn so like !!! honestly !!! f

chek out dis doodlay of my fav son 

i kinda wanna open an ask blog and im more than a little tempted to make it 4 kish but,,,,,, no one likes tmm anymore ;;;;;;;;;;;;;; 

comish

anonymous asked:

I do hope that the malec reconciliation happens in the season finale I don't think I could go 4-5 months otherwise 😞😞

i know i like to pretend that im cool if they dont until s3 but the truth is i need this handled asap like all my friends have been sending me emo songs and the whole fandom is making this angstier than it actually is like no one is chill anymore and i cry myself to sleep every night we need them to quickly realize they cant live without each other bc its the truth

ily all sm

thank you for supporting me, for being there for me, for EXISTING. you guys make my life complete and i so do not regret starting this blog ❤️ even when i’m being an annoying piece of crap and not writing and instead talking about my problems you all still find ways to guide me through this :) i appreciate you all so much and i’m gonna cry rn because i’ve never been so touched in my life and uGhGh I CANT TYPE ANYMORE IM GETTING EMOTIONAL HNNGBNNGNG OK ANYWAYS I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH I TRULY TRULY TRULY AM SO GRATEFUL. ALL OF YOU STAY SAFE, HAVE FUN, ENJOY LIFE, AND SMILE 💓 IF YOU HAVE ANY ISSUES HMU IN THE MESSAGES AND ILL BE YOUR 5 STAR PSYCHOLOGIST. GOODNIGHT EVERYBODY

anonymous asked:

my boyfriend always says how bad he wants to touch me. i cant let him do it. i cant because u live inside me n i'll die with u inside me. he gets so mad at me because of it so i go down on him n cry after. he makes the same noises u did n i hate feeling him in my throat. but he says im good at it n im not good at much but i love him n it hurts u make it hard for me to breathe. hurts. i dont believe in god anymore i dont believe in feeling safe. u ruined me. u made me try to kill myself 7 times.

i cant take anymore assignments and socializing w people,its too tiring and anxious for someone like me,everyday i wake up feeling anxious as fuck, i hate feeling paranoid and the constant “what if they hate me n think im annoying?” feeling,i always tend to make stupid and dumb mistakes too,im not surprised if they think im rly stupid…i miss being home,cozy w my own presence to keep me company n being in front of my pc scrolling thru tumblr all day n playing dragon age,i actually miss all the stupid fights in tumblr every time, i miss all of it so much icant take it anymore..

littlebyuns  asked:

BUT exo? sehun with black hair, kaisoo actually being real (LMFAO) baekhyun laughing and making me swoon? ko ko bop live? ... i dont remember any other group LFNSLNDLS (sorry had to say my two cent in people cant seem to handle opinions anymore but IM HERE TO SAY I LOV U)

ida shUSH im really gonna cry i can’t believe you saw them again omg gfdagfdlh and you witnessed sehun with black hair im going to scREAM !!! sjkfhskdjfsfsdf lmaoo ur so cute ily !! ifguiffkdjgfjs but yea i’d probably forget everybody else if i saw exo as well omg :(((

husband!hoshi

here comes the pain:

  • cutest husband award goes to……SOONYOUNG!!!!!!!
  • no he’s seriously the cutest and the cheesiest and also the hype-est
  • remember that one episode on andromeda.. .. …
  • where he was like he’d make kids until he cant anymore… .. .
  • U KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS HOMIE
  • ;; im just gonna leave that here
  • moving on
  • but the thought of waking up next to soonyoung made me cry
  • “morning wife” OMG NO HUSBAND NOT TODAY
  • but imagine being serenaded by soonyoung :,) i cant do this i have exams tomorrow guys pls
  • “do u want me to sing you to sleep”
  • like u know his voice is like heaven i want to swim in it
  • AEGYO
  • many aegyo
  • and did i mention cheesiest husband
  • “why are you so pretty?”
  • “if i were a stop light i’d turn red everytime i pass you so just i can stare at u a bit longer”
  • “did u invent the airplane? cause u seem wright for me gET IT JAGI”
  • “i was feeling a bit off today, but u definitely turned me on AYYYYY”
  • “you look co - “
  • “OK YES IM COLD CAN U PLS JUST SHUT UP”
  • “ok that means we should cuddle come here”
  • when u told him ur pregnant he’s gonna be a little ball of hyperactive sunshine can u imagine
  • “OH YMIDOFHDHFJJDKB” he’ll make some inhuman noise like that
  • “IM GONNA BE A DAD THIS IS SO EXCITING UR THE MOTHER THIS IS SO PERFECT”
  • when theyre born he’s gonna be so careful like he’d hold them carefully and just do everything so carefully
  • “omg its our kid!!!! u and i made this i cant process this”
  • “ok hold on!!!! they’re holding my hand GET THE CAMERA ANY CAMERA”
  • would teach them how to dance as soon as ur kids can walk properly
  • back hugs;;;;
  • front hugs
  • side hugs
  • many hugs
  • i can also see him playing the mafia game with his kids NOOOOO SO CUTE
  • also remember that its not always gonna cosists of cute times…… . .. ..but also . .. ….u know… .. …hot timEs
  • HOT TIMES
  • “do u think we can make one more kid” i can see him saying this
  • and idk why but suddenly a vision of soonyoung wearing tux popped into my head WTFWHWGRJR
  • he’s so attractive i cant do this today pls i need to figure who’s my bias
  • random slow dance to a beat up song at 5 in the morning
  • all ur kids cringe at u both bc OMG PARENTS STOP BEING SO CHEESY but they secretly love it reminds them true love still exists :,)
  • random i love u
  • like when ur in a grocery store looking at some snacks and he’d just stare lovingly at u while holding ur hand like “i love u” and kiss ur knuckles YOU CANT HELP BUT BLUSH FURIOUSLY SOONYOUNG PEOPLE CAN SEE US
  • and he’s just like idc and still looking at u with that 10:10 eye smile LIKE NOOOOOOO ICANT FOCUS I SHOULD BE BUYING SNACKS and ppl around would be like omg this young couple
  • basically he’s so cute and loves u with all of his heart and he also likes to do random things that shows his love to u and say cheesy pick up lines that makes u flustered and DO ALL THE CUTESY THINGS WITH U and also all the things he’s been dreaming
  • contact me if any of these things above dont matched or if u need to add some things up
  • in case u happened to marry him i hope this post is a good head start u never know thank me later y’all

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HEy friend i mean i know we’re not friends anymore but i just wanna write this up even though you probably won’t see this because i miss you and i didnt want to just be friends with you bUT I REALLY hope youre okay and im still in love with you i just realized it right now and i began crying and the tears just won’t stop and i am SO tired of crying over things i mean most days i wish i would get hit with a car just so i can die and reincarnate and somehow make things right but i guess i probably cant do that haha how have you been? I know we dont talk anymore but i just miss how we used to be and all the late night talks and inside jokes i mean you probably dont remember most of them since right now youre busy but i just wanna tell you hi and ive been crying and getting drunk because i kept thinking of what we couldve been if i didn’t fuck up i mean you and i both know that we’ll never be the same as before but i just hope youre okay and i still love you have a nice life