i cant tell if im trans? like some days i feel 100% im a boy and I'm ready to go on T and then some days im like "this feels like a phase and I should let it pass so im a normal adult" im just worried I'll like start T and end up being cis and be stuck with a deep voice and facial hair which isn't the end of the world but would probably make me dysphoric as a cis person (is that even a thing???) idk what to do
You may decide to take some steps in medical transitioning and later on decide that gender identity/expression isn’t for you. That can happen. Gender is not set in stone- many of us know this going through this first process. If you have to go through the process to (maybe semi?) detransition later on, don’t feel ashamed. What you feel/want now doesn’t determine what you’ll feel and want forever.
If you feel like you need to wait, go ahead! Look up natural transition techniques maybe to ease yourself into a slow transition that doesn’t have to be T or surgeries yet.