i cant even enjoy the moments

Ruin part 3


AN: Honestly, I think I would’ve done another part even without a request. Considering making this into a series? Let me know what you guys think of that idea… Hope you enjoy it 

Part 1  Part 2

Originally posted by scared-of-my-own-image

The bell for government was about to ring and you waited until the last moment before walking in.

Your head to your seat, whilst your friend waved you over excitedly.

“I haven’t heard from you in days! Where have you been?!”

‘I just broke up with my boyfriend. Found out Shawn likes me. Came to the sudden realization that I did too. Oh, we kissed!  Also, we may or may not be dating.’

“You know..here and there.” The bell rings, interrupting your vague answer. Thankfully she doesn’t pay too much attention and copies the note down from the board.

You glance back to where Shawn is seated. A headphone dangles from his right ear, but he’s still paying close attention to the teachers beginning lecture.

You turn back to the front, not wanting to get called out. There was no doubt Mrs. Mitchell wouldn’t have been able to tell just who you had been looking at. You didn’t need her to announce it to the entire class.

“Remember, papers are due this Friday! Homework is to annotate this hand out and come up with questions. We’ll be having a Socratic seminar tomorrow. I don’t want to deal with anyone lacking and not completing this simple assignment. I’ll see you all tomorrow!”

Rose doesn’t stop to wait for you, or revisit the conversation. You’re glad when she rushes out of the class. Government being her least favorite subject.

“Y/N,” the voice is incredibly familiar behind you, and you try to not seem too flustered.

“Hey!” You cringe at the excitement lacing your response, while Shawn chuckles. “Sorry..”

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The worst about my personal anxiety is I can never fully enjoy the moment that I’m in because I’m constantly getting so anxious about things that will happen in the future. I am constantly worrying, planning, and thinking about what I have to do later that day, night, week, month, even year. I never am fully engaged in a moment, which I hate. There are few times in my life where I was fully engaged and those, well those are my favorite moments.

heres a tragic story. its v tragic okay so

last week i was walking home with some distance runners on my track team and the conversation somehow turned into a discussion abt how this one guy was dressed in all black, right, like, black sweater, black nikes, black sweatpants, even darkened sunglasses. and then, i, being a dipshit, say, very quietly, “even your hair is black” 

there is a moment of stunned silence

the guy in question stares at me with such a look of utter disbelief on his face that i can’t help but throw my hands up defensively, maybe i even stumble back 

and then

“it’s brown” 

and the tragedy is that of course i now have an all-encompassing platonic crush on this guy im going to reconsider ALL of my life decisions good fuckening bye 

I can’t even celebrate the fact that there’s going to be Joshaya next week because they cut the Rucas hug, Like how am I supposed to enjoy my adorable babies when my other babies got their FIRST, COMPLETELY ALONE MOMENT, THAT INCLUDED A HUG AND LUCAS MAKING THE BEARY THE BEAR BEAR NOISE CUT!!!!!! I’M BEYOND PISSED OFF….I’M WHATEVER THE NEXT ONE IS!!!!!  

I can’t handle this “SASUSAKU IS BETTER THAN NARUHINA” “NOO NARUHINA IS BETTER THAN SASUSAKU” shit anymore. Like whatever you want to but please stop calling people stupid or ignorant for having headcanons or a different opinion. Why would you even visit someones blog you hate and disagree with so much to the point you think they are stupid? Do yourself and the other person a big favor and just unfollow them. Nobody wants followers that hate on you for every little thing you say or post.

I cant stand the people who stand in the audience and record the whole fucking concert instead of paying attention and enjoying the moment lmao wtf are you doing

You showing everybody else so they can enjoy it, neanwhile you paid for the shit and you missing everything. You aint even dancing or singing along, nothing.

Its not that serious

4 Months…Can you believe it? lol I cant.

It sure does feel like time has flown by so fast, but I enjoyed every moment of it as long as it was with you.
So Liliana, I must thank you for sticking through all my shit these months and somehow still enjoy my presence. I want to thank you for being there whenever I needed you, even though I wasn’t always there for you. I want to thank you for loving me, and for saying all this nice shit about me. I still get butterflies every time you point out something nice or when you fight me over the most unimportant things xD
You never fail to make me laugh, and I would do the most stupidest things just to see you crack that beautiful smile of yours. I have loved you from the very first time we started talking. You seemed like the most amazingest (its a word, shutup) person in the entire world but it kills me that you cant see that.

Liliana, I want you to know how much you mean to me. You are literally the light of my life. You have made me feel like no one else has before. When I meet you, I will never let you go. I’ll just hug you to death because I have always dreamed of the day we finally meet. You make me the happiest guy in the entire world. Its not just because you’re my girlfriend though. I would say these to you even if we were just friends because ever word, every text, everything I have ever told you is 100% true. How I think you’re perfect…How you have beauty beyond anything (like seriously, why do you date me???) and how you always make me happy….No matter what happens in the future, or now, or whenever, just know that no matter what, I will always love you. And the fact you actually stayed with me is quite a surprise. I am so glad you accept me and love me and care about me and just would do anything for me and I feel the exact same for you. I would take a bullet if it meant saving your life.

Lily, I love you, and nothing will change that. I may be cheesy and sappy as fUCK but what I say is true.

I love you

And happy 4th month anniversary <3 XD

I am not good with words lol