i cant believe that i want something so bad but i dont know how to tell other people how much i want it

quotes from the signs of how they view themselves and their signs

aries: “I’m opinionated and when something intrigues me or is brought to my attention I really like to research it and learn about it so I’m like super great to come to for advice. I can be really aggressive in a way like not physically but emotionally and I’m reckless. I like to have fun”

taurus: “umm im really closed off n not many people know the REAL me like no one really knows the inside me u know like i dont share my feels n like im really loving n caring n emotional n i can be kinda dramatic but like cancers overshadow us”

gemini: “well i think there are definitely ~two sides of me~ but i think it’s like that for everyone”

cancer: “the stereotype about us being like huge crybabies isn’t entirely true like i think i’m just as emotional as the next person but i feel like cancers are a lot stronger than people believe they are and we’re problem solvers too even though people generally see us as problem creators. i don’t think i’ve ever met a cancer that didn’t have a huge heart yknow like i’m super loving and caring and i think that more than being like crybaby emotional we’re lovey dovey emotional. great at giving advice bc we’re super logical and parental. of all the signs i’d say we’re the most similar to lawyers. we also talk a lot”

leo: “i say i don’t care what people think of me but i really do, i hate making other people upset idontknow anymore i was trying to be inspiring for you but that’s all i got”

virgo: “i pay attention to every single detail about anyone and everyone. i have very good sense of judgement and truth. i’m very hard on myself, very insecure. i think very logically and cautiously. i dont even know much more i see of myself, but i’ll tell you one thing, the most important, virgos love. they love so fucking hard. i’d say more than anyone else. I WAS GONNA MAKE IT REALLY GOOD AND LONG AND MEANINGFUL BUT I HAVE TO PEE SO BAD I WAS HOLDING IT WHILE THINKING”

libra: “Smart funny but indecisive as hell cant make up their own mind if their life depended on it. Generally very good hearted people and there for others. Not easily discouraged but can get lazy easily and unfocused from the task at hand. Aesthetic sign in love with all that is beautiful and pleasing to see and feel.”

scorpio: “uhh I really want to be loved and accepted and I think that’s why I’m really sexually driven like I give the people what they want in exchange for what I want”

sagittarius: “idk i don’t really care about anything like i’m laid back but i also care a lot about everything??? if you make me mad i can be really like cold towards you and i’ll make it known that i’m upset. i’m loving and caring and i protect the ones i love”

capricorn: “Capricorns are definitely hard workers and very goal oriented and do things that they set their minds too like everyone says but I also think many capricorns are sensitive and parental but also children at heart”

aquarius: “i like to be alone but in the presence of people i’m kinda backwards idk i’m shy but with close friends i am a lunatic also why is aquarius an AIR SIGN LIKE THE LOGO FOR IT IS LITERALLY TWO WAVES WHY ISN’T IT WATER LIKE AQUA-RIUS HELLO”

pisces: “I guess I’m funny. I care for people a lot but when it comes to them needing help, idk how to help bc I’m a piece of shit! But I’m a pretty good listener. In relationships I think I’m a pretty good partner bc I give it my all but I can be a piece of shit.”

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i’m not dead yet but i’m v close

eponine = alya
enjolras = marinette
grantaire = nino
marius = adrien

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13:04

eponine: dont listen to marinette

enjolras: Ummm????
LIsten to Marinette

eponine: no fuck u

enjolras: :P

grantaire: ????????
what did you do  

eponine: NOTHI N G

enjolras: She tried to chase Chat after the akuma attack and almost fell in the Seine 

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anonymous asked:

RFA reactions upon finding out MC has sixth sense and has a little ghost clinging to them? And the ghost would always play pranks from innocent ones to rather dangerous things to the MC because he/she became jealous of being close to RFA?

MOD SAERAN HERE :D here a HC i promised C: *sorry if its short im focusing on the giveaway and everything* 

Zen

  • OKAY SO this poor muffin is believing the world is against him
  • WHY IS HIS PRECIOUS PRINCESS GETTING SHIT THROWN AGAINST THEM
  • GOD WHY ARE YOU HURTING MY LIFE. MY HEART. MY SOUL.
  • You saw him become really REALLLY FUCKING paranoid
  • You decided to sit him down and talk to him that you have a ghost that follows you around
  • He was laughing and he was believing you were joking around
  • But then you just looked at him and said Stop laughing
  • He continue laughing until his picture fell
  • JESUS Christ he became so fucking quiet. He became so quiet that Elizabeth 3rd can fucking walk in and he wouldn’t sneeze
  • You told him that the ghost doesn’t like him because the ghost is really clingy to you
  • He literally was ready to talk to the ghost
  • “OKAY look Mr. Ghost….. I am sorry that I love myself *another picture frame fell* AHHHH OKAY IM SORRY I CAME FROM A FAMILY WHO TORE ME DOWN ALOT I HATED MYSELF OKAY and I can’t control myself sometimes but what I do know MC is the most beautiful person ever. You and me are both lucky to be with such a wonderful person……. I understand you want her to yourself….. but I would love to make a compromise :’).
  • The ghost was silent probably thinking and shit
  • “Please…… let’s make this work *cue the tears*
  • The ghost was good because Zen actually talks to it whenever you are around and you help translate :)

Jumin

  • ever since you started to live full time at his place Elizabeth 3rd became paranoid O.O like that cat became bipolar big time. He was really worried that Elizabeth was jealous that another female was getting his attention.
  • So he decided to control the situation by analyzing every little single thing. One day when he was analyzing by pretending to do his work he swore to JESUS Christ he saw your hair being pulled. He thought he was seeing things till a week later he saw something trying to trip you when you were bringing him some pancakes.
  • Okay this man was full on suspicious. He went online and looked up “ why are strange things happening to my girlfriend” and he found that you may have a demon ! :O
  • He was fucking shook
  • He was ready to call demon busters and shit. He wasn’t gonna let his kitten be haunted by a demon. But he was really nervous because what happens if he is wrong then you are gonna think he is fucking crazy so he decided to ask you…..
  • “Kitten…… I am…..uhh… worried that someone may be trying to play tricks in you… because I’ve been analyzing that..”
  • “ Jumin his name is bob the moody ghost and he is just mad at me because I love you .-.”
  • “Oh um *leans in and whispers* can CAN he he hear everything we do……?”
  • “ yes Jumin the FUCKING the loving and everything”
  • “ oh… :O”
  • “Mr. Moody Ghost, i understand your *cough* implications that you may not like that I’m taking MC away from you but I’m not. MC IS a wonderful person and we can schedule visitations *a lamp fell over* OKAY im SORRY WE can learn how to get along. “
  • You just laughed because he was trying to make a business deal with bob :’)
  • He is a keeper :)

Seven:

  • OKAY he swore he felt that your body was literally ice
  • When he tried cuddling with you at night you were cold but when he turned around you were your regular temp O.O #suspicious
  • So he thinks you are pretending to add some cold weather or something because you don’t want to cuddle with him
  • So he decided to see what else you do O_O
  • So he looked at every previous camera security footage and he noticed that a lot of shit was happening to you from like small to big !!?!??
  • He saw you carrying groceries and he swore he saw your sweater being pulled that made you fall.
  • When you were trying to cross the street he noticed that a rock magically appeared to make you fall right when a driver was about to hit you
  • What in the mother of honey Buddha chips is this
  • He went to church and got holy water and was spreading it everywhere
  • He was just blessing EVERYTHING
  • When you got home… you saw him blessing everything and you asked him what’s wrong and he started to cry because he thinks the devil is trying to get you
  • YOU explained to him that Miss Foxy is mad because you don’t spend time with her because all you do is take care of the family.
  • He was laughing but then he saw you were serious and he started to crack jokes at the ghost and tried to gain its trust
  • LOWKEY he knew he should be scared of you but why the fuck not
  • He had his own demons as well :(

Yoosung:

  • he was playing LOL one day and he noticed that for the past few weeks his computer was becoming really laggy :/
  • He wanted to cry because how can the love of his love BE BREAKING!!! He literally hugged the computer “ baby…. I I love you so much…. WHAY have I done….. have I not been spending time with you baby??? I’m so sorry…. I will spend more time with you now”
  • The FUCKING computer started to work perfectly and he was shook
  • So you let him spend time with LOL while you cooked or did chores around the house but he felt bad so he decided to go to his real life baby C:
  • That’s when his computer started to buzz again O.O he went closer to it and continue to play and it was working just fine…. he left to help you and the computer started to buzz again
  • You knew who was playing tricks on him that you had enough because it was starting to affect your relationship
  • “PATRICIA ENOUGH IS ENOUGH LEAVE YOOSUNG COMPUTER ALONE. WE ARE GOING TO SETTLE THIS NOW.”
  • Yoosung was !!????!?!?!??  You dragged him to the sofa and you told him everything
  • “ so that is why I have the scar on my shoulder because Patricia gets jealous when I have a S/O … and she can be really mean :/”
  • “LOOK PATRICA. I DONT APPRECIATE YOU HURTING OUR MC. YES I SAID OUR. BECAUSE SHE BOTH MEANS ANLOT TO US AND I KNOW OTHERS WILL CALL HER CRAZY BUT I KNOW SHE ISNT. I BELIEVE YOU EXIST PATRICIA NOW PLEASE STOP HURTING HER BECAUSE IF YOU HURT HER I SWEAR I WILL GET A PRIEST HERE AND DO THE EXORCISM… OKAY that may be an extreme but please leave her alone….”
  • Patrica was shook !!
  • Like someone standing up to her !!!??
  • Shit he is a keeper :’$
  • So she left you alone sometimes

Jaehee:

  • she always knew something was off ever since she met you.
  • She didnt want to mention it because well THAT WAS GONNA BE RUDE AND JAEHEE AINT GONNA BE RUDE WITH YOU BOOBOO
  • But she noticed that you were getting gradually sick…… so she thought you had a disease :/
  • She took you to the doctor and everything was fine so she demanded more test to be done with you and she was a crying mess because you …. You… looked dead :/
  • She knew she had to do something so she was going to ask jumin for help
  • The next day… YOU WERE PERFECTLY FINE.
  • JAEHEE WAS SHOOK LIKE HOW TF DID THIS HAPPEN
  • You felt awful for lying to your S/O so you decided to tell her the truth fearing what she will say…. So you put your big girl panties and sat her down
  • “Babe drink this tea…..I I need to talk to you..”
  • “MC i dont feel comfortable about this ii… iiI DONT UNDERSTAND BABE IM WORRIED BECAUSE YOU YOOU LOOKED LIKE YOU WERE DYING MC HOW HOW CAN YOU WAKE UP LOOKING ALL BETTER”
  • “ * grab her hand* look jaehee.. Ive been born with this gift….. I see dead people… and this little boy is attached to me because of my aura and he is a bit… possesive… if i dont pay attention to him 24/7 he likes to play pranks… sometimes involving my health…..
  • “……………….”
  • “Jaehee???”
  • “……………………”
  • “Baby say something please anythi-”
  • “HOW CAN I ACCEPT A REASON LIKE THAT. ITS NOT EVEN LOGICAL… HOW CAN SOMETHING THAT LIKES YOU OR ATTACHED TO YOU EVEN HURT YOU… THATS NOT WHAT LOVE OR LIKING IS”
  • “Jaehee he is here please dont get him mad…”
  • “LOOK IDK TO BELIEVE IT OR NOT BUT LOOK YOUNG SIR… WHAT YOU ARE DOING IS WRONG… YOU CANT ALWAYS BE ATTACHED BY THE HIP BECAUSE ITS UNHEALTHY… YOU ALMOST KILLED OR IDK WHAT YOU DID TO MC *sobbing* I DONT WANNA LOSE HER SO SO IF I HAVE TO GO TO DRASTIC MEASURES TO STOP YOU THEN SO BE IT”
  • You saw the ghost start to cry and it ran to you for a hug and it said sorry
  • weeks later you helped the boy cross the light c: 
#8 Mitch Marner

can you do a mitch marner one where everyone knows you guys don’t get along but fighting or arguing is something you secretly like (and he secretly likes it too) and there’s chemistry and sexual attraction that he can’t take it anymore and kisses you and it’s like aggressive kissing idk it’s not really smut but like the next time y'all see each other you guys don’t argue anymore and everyone’s like ?????? pls and thanks!

Warnings: Angry kissing *you cant see it but my eyebrows are doing a thing*

Song suggestion of the day: heathrow by catfish and the bottlemen

Originally posted by marnsxmatts

You’d known Mitch Marner for way too long and for the record he’d always been insufferable. You would have been perfectly content to stay friends with Connor and Dylan, till Mitch came barrelling into your trio. He and Dylan were like two peas in a pod and you hated it. Then you’d moved to London and so every time you saw Dylan and Connor, Mitch was always there. You couldn’t stand it. He was so annoying and immature and he’d never leave you alone. You didn’t think you could dislike another person more. Con was always the mediator when you fought, he was shy but he really had a way with people that he didn’t give himself credit for. Connor and Mitch weren’t as close as Dylan and Mitch were, plus he was definitely more of an introvert than the other two so you ending up talking to Connor a lot more than you did Dylan. This became yet another reason for you to despise Marner, not that you hated talking to Connor but that you missed Dylan. It was worse when Dyl and Con weren’t in London. You had to feed your hockey addiction so you found yourself at knights games where you’d be forced to see Mitch. To add to that, you’d see him around town all the time also. You finally thought you’d catch a break when you were accepted to a Uni in Toronto. You’d get to see Dylan and Connor and avoid Mitch easier when they were there for games. Those first couple of months before the draft were pretty lonely. You’d seen Connor brown around town a couple of times and remembered him from when he was playing with the Otters. You and connor got on pretty well and he was from Toronto so he helped you find your feet in Toronto, which was awfully nice of him. Then Mitch went and got himself drafted to Toronto, much to your distain.

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Tattoo (smut)

Summary: its your first time getting a tattoo and your artist Robbie can tell your nervous so he helps calm your nerves *wink* 

 Warning: oral, fingering, public place.

A/N So I decided to write this because I got my first tattoo of the evenstar from the lord of the rings yesturday! In this imagine you can imagine any tattoo you want.

(Y/N’s pov) Todays the day, I’m finally getting my first tattoo! Ive wanted one for so long and now I’m finally getting one! But I just cant get my nerves to calme down…hope I dont pass out during the session. I’ll just eat a big breakfast and drink a lot of water and I should be fine… 

 *skip to tattoo parlor* That breakfast and water didnt help at all, Im literally siting here shaking in my seat. Maybe I should I should just leave? No Y/N you’ve wanted this for so long dont be a wimp! Ok, ok just relax, calm down, deep breaths.

 “Y/N Robbies ready for you, his room is down that hallway and second door on the right.” The lady at the front desk says. Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god! I stand up without even realizing and walk to his room, I peek my head in and see… 

 One the hottest guys I’ve ever seen, which didnt help calm my nerves at all. He smiles at me and I fully walk into the room. There are pictures of the tattoos hes done all over the walls and some of his own designs as well. He stands up from his seat and walks towards me, thats when I notice his tattoos.   

 “Hey you must be Y/N, Im robbie.” He looks me up and down and stares at me with an emotion I cant really distinguish then holds his hand out for me to shake. I shake it but my hand starts shaking.  “A little nervous are we?” He chuckles. I shyly nod my head.  “Its alright, most people are nervous for their first tattoo. You’ll be fine, It’ll be over before you know it.” I felt a little better after he said that. “Thank you”

 “Ok, so do you have the picture of the tattoo you want?” I couldn’t help staring at him again, hes just so intriguing. He notices and  smiles, making my cheeks go red. “Uh yeah sorry, here it is.” I pull up the picture on my phone. “Nice, here’s my email, just email it to me and we can get started.”

 I do what he said and he prints out my design. “Ok, just sit in the chair over there and put your arm on the table.” I nod my head, nervously smiling and sit in the chair. My palms are all sweaty and my arms are shaking, I feel like throwing up.

 Robbie comes over and shows me the cut out design. “Is this big enough?” I look at it, and nod. He smiles, noticing Im scared. “Just relax, you’ll be fine.” I just close my eyes and take a few deep breaths. “Ok I’m going to place this on your arm and you tell me if you like where the placement is ok?” I nod. He starts lining up the design with my arm but stops, probably because my arm is shaking so much. “Can I try something?” He asks. “Um sure, ok.” “Just lean back.” I do and then he makes the chair lean back as well.

 “Comfortable?” “Yeah actually, thanks.” I smile at him and he does as well. “good” Then he leans in and captures my lips with his. My eyes widened, I didnt know if I should kiss him back or not, I dont even know him. But he is cute, so why not? I kiss him back and I feel him smile. We pull away after a minute and he starts kissing down my neck. “Have you ever had someone eat you out before?”  My eyes widened, I wansn’t sure if I heard him right. “What?”

 He pulls away from my kneck and laughs lightly. “Have you ever been eaten out before?” I look at him confused and all flustered. “Um no, why?” “Thats what i’m going to do, you’ll feel much better after trust me.” I still couldn’t believe what I was hearing, was he serious? I knew he was when he started pulling my pants down. “Uh Robbie, I-I don’t thi-” “Shhh It’s alright, trust me ok?” Well I mean its not like we’re having sex right? I guess this is ok…“Ok”

 He pulls my pants the rest of the way off then pulls my knees up and spreads them. He smiles at my dark green underwear. “Greens my favorite color.” Then he starts the inside of both my thighs, I sigh loving the feeling. My underwear comes off soon after and I tense up, feeling a little self conscious. He gives me a reasurring smile befor he leans in and licks a stripe up my heat. I whimper at the feeling and accidently buck my hips up to feel his mouth on me again. He gives me a lustful look and dives in again, griping my thighs as I grip his hair. He moves His tounge all over my heat, up and down side to side, sucking on certain parts, I have to bite my lip to keep from moaning to loud.  Out of no where he shoves his tounge inside me going as deep as he can, I let a loud moan escape, not caring anymore.

 He pulls me further towards him so he can go deeper. Then he replaces his tounge with two of his fingers, letting him go even deeper. His mouth moves to my clit and I pull his hair tightly, we both moan and the vibrations sen me to a whole other world.  The combination of him fingering me and his tounge licking and sucking my clit make me a moaning mess. Not to soon after I feel a Knot forming in my stomach, I think robbie could tell because he starts moving his fingers faster and deeper into me hitting my g-spot. “R-Robbie I’m cl-” I Couldn’t speak anymore, robbie could tell and he lightly rubs my thigh letting me know that he knows. The knot in my stomach finally releaces and I let out a loud moan, then go limp in the chair, Robbie’s toungue likes me clean and he gives me a minute to catch my breath.

 “How was that?” He asks smiling. I smile too “It was amazing.“  "Good, you ready for your tattoo now?” I wasn’t even nervous anymore. “Yeah, Thanks.” After he places the design where I wanted he made a small line just to show me how it felt. It wasn’t as bad as I thought. It still hutn, just not to bad. “That wasnt so bad was it?” “Not at all.”

  It only took about 40 minutes then I was done. He let me look at it in the mirror and it looked amazing! I thanked him and gave him a very genorous tip. He put some plastic around it and told me everything I needed to know about taking care of it.  “Hey um, can I have your number? I would love to see you again.” 

Now he’s the one thats nervouse. I giggle and write it down on his hand with the pen he gave me. “Maybe next time I’ll be the one helping you out.” I wink at him then walk out the door, leaving him all flustered, Im definatly coming back for another one. 

Wedding Speech - Joe Sugg Imagine

A/N - Hi can you do a Joe one where it’s the reader and his wedding and the buttercreams do a really embarrassing speech for them x If you don’t want to or can’t that’s fine ❤

“I now pronounce you husband and wife, you may kiss the bride” My smile grew even bigger as I felt Joes lips on mine. Hearing everyone around cheering and clapping, I felt the tears building in my eyes. I finally married my best friend. 

Walking down the aisle hand in hand with my now husband smiling and waving to all our friends and family. My feelings right now wouldn’t process. I am literally over the moon with happiness. All I could hear were people cheering “Yes Sugg” “Go On My Boy” and a few faint cries. I still cannot believe this is my wedding day. The wedding day I have been planning since a little girl. I was now living it out. Everyone else was gathered into another room with champagne, me and Joe were guided around the building for photos. We had photos on the stairs, in arch ways, in the gardens, and in front of the country side view. We were then joined by the bridesmaids who happened to be my sister and Zoe, the groomsmen Caspar, Josh, Oli, Jack, Conor, Mikey and our parents. Lastly We had photos with the whole group and I stood there being grateful to be surrounded by the people i love most. 

While everyone moved to the reception room to take their seats, me and Joe waited back a bit giving everyone time to settle. 

“I cannot believe we did it” Joe turned to look at me with a beaming smile. 

“I’m still in shock, I’m generally so happy” I smiled back taking his hand in mine. 

“After 6 years of being together and 8 years of friendship I can officially call you a Sugg” 

“I finally fit in the Sugg family!” I cheered laughing. 

“You’ve always been classed as a Sugg babe” 

“But now we have it in writing”

“This is the happiest ive ever been, even though we’ve been in a relationship for so long, our next adventures start now”

“Our honeymoon, new house, new projects. Im so excited”

“Same love, it’s going to be something to treasure” 

“I love you” 

“I love you too”

“Are you two ready to go in?” The staff member asked. We glanced to each other and nodded. We followed the member of staff and waited behind the doors until we were told to go any further. 

“Can i have your attention” The staff member started. “We’re all there to celebrate the newly weds, so please put your hands together for Mr and Mrs Sugg!” We walked in and everyone was on their feet, cheering. Glad we got someone to film this day, I can look back and remember this moment for a life time. We took our seats in front of everyone while they all settled down and allowed us to get comfy. After all the food was served and drinks were topped up Zoe got out her seat to walk in front of the table with a microphone in her hand. 

“Hope you all are having a good time!” A few yeah’s and whistles flew around the room. “To kick off this evening, we are now going to move onto the speeches” Zoe turned to smirk at us both while i groaned and Joe nervous laughing knowing how embarrassing this was going to be. We watched as Josh took to the stage first also smirking as Zoe handed him the mic. 

Joe placed hand on my leg and lent in close. “You know this is going to be interesting” 

“I’m dreading it” I laughed turning to face Josh and linking my hand with Joes.

“I get the pleasure of starting this off. I remember meeting you Joe for the first time then i didn’t leave your apartment for months. I basically followed you and Caspar round like a lost dog. You used to get grumpy when i finished your milk or i didn’t wash up after myself. I can clearly say you haven’t changed. You’ve been a good friend buddy you’ve helped me through a lot of shit and i’m grateful to have a friend like you. I’m glad you found a girl like Y/N, she’s kept you in place but at the same time you’re still the Sugg i first met. Y/N you have a lot of work now that your married, he’s going to become even more lazy. You’re a talent women and you’ve been there to listen when i needed someone to. You’re like my sister and I wish you both the best for the future. Ill be round soon so you can cook me food” I’m glad Josh went first because he wouldn’t embarrass us. He’s the nice one out them all. 

Next was Mikey. 

“Cor i get to do a speech. I’ve always been the target and now i can target you two. You’ve been good friends to me over the past few years. Despite the bad things Joe has made me do or forced me to do such as having a leaf blower in my face to wearing tight red lacy boxers to trying to light my farts. I’ve even had to eat dry protein powder ruining one of my many black t-shirts. Joe your crazy ideas make you as a person, you’re one heck of a guy and you are very lucky to have Y/N, anyone would be. Y/N thanks for looking after me making sure i have eaten. No wonder i cant shed weight. I look forward to raiding your new sweets draw by the way”

Next was Conor. 

“I would like to thank Y/N for introducing me to Joe, because of you i made a great friend and because of Joe I made even more. Y/N i would like to thank you for staring in so many of my covers and even on my album. I mean i still say i have the better voice but I’m not going to judge. I cannot believe you two are married now, I’ve seen your relationship grow these past years and I look forward to having something like this. You two are literally a perfect match. Joe i dont even know what to say about you. You are one of the most hilarious down-to-earth guys i know. You deserve to be happy. I’m glad it’s Y/N who has to deal with your strange ass. I’m surprised she can handle it. She has to wake up to you farting, coming home drunk but then again thinking about it you are both as crazy as each other. I remember coming round once and you both swapped clothes pretending to be each other. That was a weird sight. I wish you both the world of happiness you both deserve it” 

Next was Jack. 

“Suggy got married! To a gorgeous girl also i should have started youtube sooner maybe i could of snatched her. Im joking im joking. Seeing how happy you two are together makes me want this but it also makes me sick but in a good way. You are both good friends to me i couldn’t ask for better people in my life. Well sometimes i could replace Joe after what he’s made me do. Clamping my hand, sticking sellotape to our heads and ripping it out our hair and daring me to run down the street naked. I hope you enjoy people licking your ears Y/N because Joe will be doing that a lot when he’s drunk. trust me. I remember Joe telling us he was going to propose and how nervous he was. You should of heard the other plans he had. They weren’t as romantic. Y/N thank you for appearing in my videos to give me more views. Thanks for the many shout outs too. Like i said, you’re a beautiful women inside and out i know how happy Joe makes you. You’re both weird and I’m glad i know you. Hears to the future”

Next was Oli. 

“Mr Joe Sugg? The Joe i know is actually married now! It feels so weird saying that. I’ve known you for so long and you haven’t changed one bit in a good way though! You both have helped me through a lot over the years with projects, videos, and life in general. I do appreciate it. Joe you are an absolute nutter. Seriously. I couldn’t ask for a better friend what friend would draw penis’ on your body or do jump scares every time we meet or would make me stay up will ridiculous times in the morning to set up pranks. I mean what friend would have a cardboard cut out of me? You better move that into your new home. I’ll always be watching then. Your relationship is probably the strongest i know. You’re both so open and that can be taken in different ways. I’ve seen them both naked. It was a few strange moments. Some moments i wish i could take back because i can still see them imagines in my head to this day. I also remember when i turned up at your apartment Joe was wearing this horse costume and Y/N was dressed like a cowgirl. I didn’t want to ask what went on. They said it was for a video but i dont believe that. I dont like to think what goes on in their minds. Moving on, Y/N you are one in a million you’ve been that one friend i can always rely on even if i’m in a bad mood you put up with me and i can speak on behalf of the other guys as well. You have so much patience and i respect you for that. You have a wonderful mind and a heart of gold. You are both lucky to have each other and im glad to call you both my best friends” 

Lastly, Caspar. 

 “I would like to start off with thanking Y/N for breaking my heart, you killed jaspar. I’m joking jaspar will always be round. I have known you both since we all started Youtube together. Remember our gang when we first started? The 3 of us, Zoe, Alfie, Tanya, Jim, Marcus, Niomi and Louise. Then it grew bigger. But look at the two of you now, i know you both never expected to get this far in life. I respect the both of you because you don’t take the famous title seriously, you just see yourselves as normal human beings doing something you love. It’s been amazing watching you both grow and seeing the success you’ve achieved. I couldn’t have wished it on better people. Joe, You are one or the bestest friend i could ask for. You are also one of the craziest dudes i know. Very spontaneous also. I could stand here all day and tell all our stories but i don’t want to bore you. Thank you for being my travelling buddy over the years. I’ve had some of the best memories with you such as doing Hit The Road. What an experience that was ay?  and for everyone’s information i am still the best pizza maker here. Im not thankful for the pranks though. Filing my room with cups of water, setting many alarms, posters of my face all over the walls, filling the room with balloons then Oli popping out with a clown outside and the best one turning my apartment into a slip and slide. I’m also not going to miss seeing you naked when i walk into your room. I am defiantly not going to miss hearing you and Y/N have sex either. You loud buggers. The amount of times i’ve walked in on you both, i still do it today it’s like a curse! Y/N, i still remember meeting you for the first time. You were so shy and timid and now, now i cannot get you to shut up. You are like a boy only when it comes to burping though. Ive seen you when you only had a few thousand subscribers and now you are the top female Youtuber in the UK. I am so proud of your achievements. You seriously deserve it. If i ever needed cheering up i knew you were and still are the person to text or call. You are a positive soul. You and Joe have always been perfect for each other. You are literally the same person. I hope you both the best as a married couple. I love you both.” 

I continued to wipe away the tears which were flowing from my eyes. I couldn’t of asked for better friends or a better husband. 

A (long) rant about Eridan Ampora.

So im gonna start from the bginning here. eridan hates the landwellers because theyre dumping trash in the ocean where all the other sewdwellers like him live and if the landwellers keep dumping garbage in the ocean seadwellers are going to have to leave the ocean. He is ill admit a casteist asshole but literally all the highbloods are but only eridan gets shit for it, which isnt fair like seriously??? but for fucks sake the garbage is ruining what was more than likely at one point his fucking home and its probably getting so bad he had no option but to move into the shipwreck he lived in before sgrub, so i dont blame him for holding a grudge against the landwellers really.

And then the thing with quadrants that brought fandom eridan to be the horror he is. Eridan was so desperate for a quadrantmate because on alternia you would literally be culled if you and a quadrantmate couldnt supply genetic material for the drones to take to the mother grub, and he didnt want to die. And the point will probably get brought up of ‘but even after the game started he still tried to get a quadrantmate!!1!’ well no shit what do they expect??? flirting became such a normal for him on alternia that he would of obviously needed time to get out of the habit. And when someone would show they were uncomfortable with his flirting he stepped off after the initial conversation. He gave up on quadrants because he didnt have to worry about dying if he didnt have a matesprit or kismesis annymore. he wasnt a fuckboy that just wanted anyone and everyone to sleep with him if thats who youre looking for go to cronus because cronus was made based off of fandom eridan.

During the game. i can go on for a long time about what happened during the game. eridan felt somewhat abandoned during the game. His moirail ditched him because she didnt need him to feed her lusus anymore and his kismesis had blocked him on trollian because he was 'too clingy and annoying’ which is bullshit, because later, said kismesis forced tavros to be prettymuch the same way eridan had been. vriska wanted tavros to bend to her every whim and when eridan had been a decent kismesis she left him. i get the difference in her pursuits of the two but eridan was a good kismesis! and then he asked anyone to come hang out with him on LOWAA and they all told him no. He asked politely he was like “hey does anyone wanna come hang out on LOWAA with me?” and they all shot him down, leaving him alone so hes bound to have issues cause of his friends abandoning him. And also now is a reminder that Eridan is pretty heavily coded as mentally ill, so imagine what that would have done to the poor guy.

As for the magic situation here? Eridan believed in magic at one point. Like genuinely and wholeheartedly believed in magic and wizards. And then his friends ridiculed him for it and told him how magic was bullshit, but then he decides to give up on magic and call it science instead, and he just gets made fun of again. Only Gamzee didnt ridicule him, because Gamzee himself was made fun of by everyone for believing in miracles. Honestly I think Eridan and Gamzee could have been friends but Eridan, due to being bullied so much for believing in magic, did the same to Gamzee for believing in miracles. So my point is that Eridan gave up on something dearly important to him because he was laughed at for it. Literally all Eridan really wanted was to be accepted by his 'friends.’

oh and let’s not forget that Eridan received death threats from future Karkat for something he didnt even know he would do. So you can probably imagine what it would be like having your best friend messaging you from the future, which you didnt know, threatening your death for something you didnt know you did. The death threats were really uncalled for. And I cant even begin to imagine what was going through Eridan’s head before he died. He felt so much regret over all of it, and he doesnt get another chance. He doesnt get to try and prove himself. He “doesnt deserve” to be brought back, according to the other trolls and half the fandom. Speaking of death, Eridan didnt kill Feferi out of jealousy like everyone thinks he did. Sollux challenged him to a duel. Sollux lost fair and square. Feferi gets pissed that Sollux lost the duel and comes at Eridan with a trident. So what does Eridan do? He defends himself. Feferi was going to kill him, so he killed her before she could get the chance. Then Kanaya comes after him with a CHAINSAW so he does the same thing, 'killing’ Kanaya. Notice how Karkat was there too and he didnt do anything to Karkat? It was because Karkat didnt attack him. He was defending himself, because they were trying to kill him. And later when Kanaya is back and comes after him again as well as Vriska and Gamzee, he could have very well defended himself before Kanaya had the chance to take the science wand and break it, but he didnt. And I think it was because he felt bad about what he had done. After he had absconded he had probably been realizing what exactly he had just done to two of his friends, and feeling guilty as shit about it, so he didnt take the chance to defend himself when Kanaya burst in. He probably realized what future Karkat had been threatening him about, and thought he deserved whatever he was going to get.

After his death, when he’s Erisolsprite, he expresses that he’s sorry for what he did, and he feels shitty because of it. And people wonder why Erisolsprite doesnt Erisolsplode, but its because Eridan and Sollux both hate eachother so much they wont put themselves out of their own misery, because they want the other to keep suffering. And I feel like Eridan and Sollux too probably dont want to explode their sprite, because they both feel bad about things theyve done, and feel like they deserve to suffer. Eridan expressed that he felt bad and that he wished he could make it up, and that he hated himself because of it. On the other hand, Vriska only said she felt bad for killing Tavors, not for abusing him his whole life, not for breaking his spine and rendering his legs useless, not for building his house up who knows how high and using stairs instead of ramps thus forcing Tavros to drag himself up countless flights of stairs WHILE having to fight imps as well, she only felt bad for killing him. And even then, after she brought him back as a sprite, she abused him even more as well as Jake. When Eridan was a sprite and trying to apologize to Feferi, he didnt tell her he hated her for trying to kill him or anything, he told her he was sorry. He told her he was sorry for everything.

He had a reason for everything he did. And while it doesnt excuse it, it had reason. And he at least said he was sorry and that he felt bad for what he did, UNLIKE VRISKA. Yet he gets shit from the fandom, and tons of people absolutely love Vriska. It’s not fair that Eridan didnt/probably wont get a redemption arc, and that the fandom hates him.

TL;DR- Eridan gets more shit from the fandom than he deserves and is actually a very complex character, but the fandom reduces him to a whiny fuckboy thats worse than Vriska.

I dont have the exact episodes/references to hand, but... more trans!Danny stuff. Detail under the cut.

“My parents will accept me no matter what” - Danny

“Of course you lied, we didn’t give you a reason not to!” - Madeline, Danny’s mother when she found out about his secret

“I’ve known since [event]…” (Omitting it for the sake of spoilers and to back up my point) “…I just wanted to wait until you were ready to tell me.” -  Jazz, Danny’s sister

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My deepest apologies

it has certainly been a long while since the last time I typed something in this website. It feels weird.

I’m really sorry but, I’m not coming back to tumblr, this will be my last post here, and I really need it to be for something important.

You have seen my many suicide attempts, my depressive and anxious behaviours, and you have also seen me doing things that werent the best to do. The things I drew/reblogged in my old enciowhy porn blog were things I saw other people draw, and liked, but didnt think too much about how it is seen by the majority of people (AKA, the bestiality porn, fin///nxjak////e, also the pe////wey fanart I drew in my old main floredoodler) I dont remember what else I did.. it was a lot of time ago.. on 2015 . I shouldnt have been so childish when replying to what people told me i was doing wrong, I should have been more responsible and I should have aknowledged what I did.. I didnt do these thought because I didnt know how, and i might have made excuses once, twice or more times. I realize I tried to run away from problems by remaking my blog. I did that twice i think.

I’d like to tell you that I have changed. Back in the day I didnt really have clear what is bad and what is good. Now I know. I will not draw certain things, because they’re not ok..

(I just noticed I might be sounding repetitive but its mostly because I still dont know how to fully express myself in words, but I do know how to express myself better than before.)

I’d really love to say sorry for doing the things I did. I apologize for making you cry whenever I posted suicide notes, and I want to apologize for drawing hurtful content.

I wish I could have a way to let you all see how sorry I am.. this is my only way to do it.

Also, for the ones who support me, I want to apologize for leaving tumblr. I dont feel comfortable being here. I will always be in a negative place in some people’s minds.. I will always be lesbophobic/transphobic/racist/pedophile for at least 1 person, and I cant change that.. I understand that if Someone becomes known, there will inevitably be people who hates them. I just am not used to hate (I grew up with it but Im not over it, and I dont consider myself strong enough to be around people who hates me)

Thank you for reading! I hope you understand that I never meant to harm anybody, ever. Its ok if you dont want to believe me tho, its up to you. I did what I had to do (accept my mistakes and learn from them)

If I excluded something you can point it out by commenting it and Ill to explain it and apologize too.

size queen yuri plisetsky’s twitter brags

y’all, i thought about this headcanon while i was going to sleep and kept giggling about it and here we are??? i’m also obsessed with yuri being a size queen i literally cannot get enough of it. anyway, sorry for all of this??it got away from me hardcore??

read it on ao3 if u wanna

Yuri groans, buries deeper into his blankets to avoid the sunlight creeping into the bedroom. His skin aches, his head aches, his throat aches; upon further inspection, he realizes there’s nothing that doesn’t ache, which typically means it was a very good night

It’s all a bit hazy, only vague memories floating through the remnants of too much alcohol and the softness of sleep. Yuri recalls finally stumbling to the club after the pre-game at one of Otabek’s friend’s house. He remembers pocketing both of their phones while Otabek took the DJ stand for a set (or two, or three?), but past that…not more much than the burn of booze and wandering hands and, naturally, Beka’s lips, but that all was pretty standard for a night out in Almaty.

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BUCKLE UP KIDS BECAUSE IM TALKING ABOUT MY SON KITAMOTO

I honestly forgot what order my screenshots were meant to go in but whatever I have things to say.

First of all I was so happy to see a Natsume and Kitamoto focused chapter because well I love Kitamoto and so does Natsume and this is quality content .

OKAY HOLD THE PHONE.

This holds up very well with literally everything I think and love about Kitamoto and I love that it’s a fact that’s being reinforced here.

Kitamoto is and always has been the person who doesn’t ask for much. Someone who cares about the people around them and wants them all to be comfortable and happy. We see this so much from Kitamoto, in his special chapter and in his general behaviours but seriously??? 

Even as a child??? Most kids tend to act up and make themselves louder when new siblings come into the picture, something that’s natural and understandable in children. But nope, Kitamoto took a step back and actively gave up the attention he once had for his baby sister. And I stress this because of the wording. It’s not that he became quiet because he was struggling to accept it. he ‘asked for very little attention’. Meaning he made the active effort to sacrifice his own time with his parents.

What a little trooper jfc my heart hurts.

ALSO Kitamoto just has such good happy memories with his family and I love it. I love seeing this. It shows just how strong his relationship with his dad was even before he got sick (I mean of course it was but this is the first we’re really seeing of it.)

KITAMOTO CALLS A USED BOOK STORE EXCITING OH MY GOSH what a precious little nerd he is.

ISN’T THAT THE CUTEST MENTAL IMAGE???

Just picture it. Little Kitamoto trotting around in the book store admiring all the books and marvelling at all the fancy looking books that are up just a bit t high for his grasp.

Let me point out that he says ‘bother’ his father to help him. 

(I was also under the impression that Kitamoto was using a more informal tone here so I thought they’d translate it to ‘dad’ at least but I’m not sure about that.)

Another reason why Kitamoto is an absolute angel. Not only does he remember that there was a book his dad wanted years ago, he spends days on end trying to find it for him.

Are you serious???? My son is literally the cutest sweetest lil cinnamon bun on the planet and he loves his family so freaken much it hurts me.

I HAVE MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS OKAY 

Let’s talk. We don’t know for sure how long Nishimura and Kitamoto have been friends for but I think It’s pretty clear that it’s been a long time. The reason why I mention this now is just how???? Nishimura is so sure that there’s something off about Kitamoto meanwhile he says its not his speech or his behaviour, and that what ever it is he doesn’t show it. Basically it’s something very hard to pick up on, but Nishimura did and pretty much right away. As he says it started days ago, he noticed it days ago and he’s been keeping an eye on him probably.

Nishimura must know Kitamoto so well??? He can pick up on such little things, and even if it’s something so tiny it worries him enough to actually bring it up.

Kitamoto probably doesn’t outwardly express much. Like I said earlier he seems bigger on observation and helping others than expressing himself so Nishimura has probably learnt to pick up on all the subtle things which is so sweet. You also see that sort of thing when he interacts with Natsume.

Basically Nishimura is more observant than people think and he’s an absolute sweetheart. 


And of course Natsume takes his worries into his own hands by stalking his friend after school. He’s got only the best of intentions of course.

But yeah not much to say here but I wanted to mention it because, come on, Natsume taking care of his friends it so sweet.

I know that this is similar to before, Just Nishimura bringing up his concerns again but I have more things to say.

I really love Nishimura’s serious moments. I feel like it’s easy for people to see him as more of a flat character than he really is which is devastating because he’s honestly so amazing.

We’ve seen in Kitamoto’s special chapter that he does take a lot of stress on himself because of his family’s situation which is so precious but also so heart breaking in the way it takes such a deep effect on him. 

The fact that Nishimura brings it up here feels like its bringing in more connection with his concerns earlier. It makes me think (Or rather I like to think) that Nishimura more or less watches for the signs that things moght be getting too overwhelming on Kitamoto’s end.

From what I can tell Nishimura has trouble not expressing his feelings. Not that he always expresses them in a healthy way. In his special chapter he has outbursts that are mostly misdirected when he’s under stress. That being the case Kitamoto has probably never had a problem knowing when Nishimura needs support. The reason I mention this is I think that they probably have a sort of lopsided relationship, but not in a bad way. In a very normal and human way.

Kitamoto is good at helping others, even if it’s just in small, subtle ways and had probably more often than not been able to do something to help when Nisimura needs it yet he’s more narrow in expressing himself to others. The way he deals with issues is, though calculated, largely reliant on how much he can do himself.

On the other hand, Nishimura has trouble containing his own feelings, and though he expresses himself he doesn’t seem experienced or confidant the details of it all. I believe he probably has issue with keeping things and thoughts organised enough to know what to do when he or other people he cares for are experiencing negative emotions.

as such their relationship likely tends to lean more on Kitamoto’s shoulders at first glance. but like I said that isn’t a bad thing, nor is it that simple. It’s very Human.

Where Nishimura seems to lag he makes up for with effort. Kitamoto is somewhat natural at what role he takes in relationships even if he does spread himself thin. Nishimura on the other hand makes an active effort to make up for the qualities he lacks. He watches his friends, and he does his best to know if there’s something wrong.

So, what I was getting a lot here with the way he brought it up to Natsume is that Nishimura really doesnt know what to do, even if he really wants to. The fact that he clearly has an idea of what might be troubling Kitamoto (even if he’s wrong this time) yet is talking to Natsume rather than Kitamoto himself… He’s clearly worried, and clearly worries a lot, but Nishimura cant do much. It’s not something he’s good at and besides, its a problem Kitamoto has had for a long while and its not one that can just be fixed.

Yet he brings it up to Natsume. Because even if he doesn’t know what to do he still obviously cares so much. It seems almost as if he’s asking Natsume to look out for him too.

I’m reading waytoo much into this but shoot me, I’m allowed to make any interpretation I wish.

Again. Kitamoto being so freaken nice and caring. This girl rocks up, demands that they leave (pretty rudely) and tells them it’s dangerous and he’s just like ‘talk to me and I’ll do what I can to help out’ like just shoot me who is that nice???

I have nothing to say to this other than the fact that Natsume looks so damn offended that someone said something rude about Kitamoto. I love how defensive Natsume is about all his friends. He thinks every one of them is the most amazing thing to step foot on the planet and honestly he’s not wrong.

And such a sweet little moment between the two of them near the end. I really loved this because it’s so simple. It wraps up so many little feelings and meanings in this chapter (that I’m probably just imagining). Natsume loves his friend very much.and really does want to pull together all the little gaps they have between them. Any bad feelings, and things they dont talk about, Natsume just wants to bring them all closer to not having those silences between them.

And that so damn sweet and so perfect.

@zotmoun replied to your post: The NH fans are like dude read chapter 98 before referencing the manga. Then SS fans are like dude read chapter 133 to see where Sasuke reveals his feelings about Sakura. But still as usual dialouges are too hard for you to read ��

idk about you but the ‘too hard to read’ “insult” is getting just a bit too old you going to come up with something new or?? ?? but hey ill raise you okay hear me out ill go and re-check these chapters out just for you 

how did you get this scene

as a confession of sorts of naruto to hinata ??/ ??? — listen he barely knew she was he didnt even really acknowledge her (until the chunin exams he finally saw hinata as a person especially during this scene) and listen he has this thing of protecting the weak hinata isnt the only one who was so lucky to hear about how much naruto appreciates and believes in them besides he said a person like you not “i like you!!” i also want to know how this is also a confession he doesnt even know her???? shes just another one of his classmates just like ino and kiba 

the type of person that he likes isnt someone negative all the time and those that see the potential in him (like cmon hes been living without his parents for all of his life and everyone shunning him away so ofc hes going to like these types of people u know someone who doesnt see him as kyuubi but as an actual person) but if yall want to take this as a sort of ‘confession’ then damn yall do you 

also what do you call the last????? like you guys are neglecting that that movie and this scene contradicts each other 

onto the sasusaku chapter youre talking about where he “admits” his feelings for sakura

this isnt a confession either what in the latest chapters where sasuke talks about his relationship with team 7 he said that this team was like his family because you know and sakura is weak and even though shes too infatuated with sasuke he sees sakura as family albeit annoying he trusts naruto to take her away because he knows how much naruto cares for her 

im also going to mention sasuke moved and saved naruto on his own whim and why im mentioning this is because this is a completely different scenario sakura was protecting tazuna and now sasuke needs to fight to help protect naruto and sakura 

besides who even has time for romance (come on you also have to admit that kishimoto did such a shit job developing the “intended” relationships between these 2 pairs and the last movie doesnt justify a damn thing honestly including the end of the series) 

my main problem with naruhina and sasusaku as a whole is because there was no damn development there was nothing these chapters dont mean a damn thing when they dont back and reference it kishimoto attempted to push it forward and try make it seem so but he sucked he even admitted it “im not good at writing romance” i wouldnt have a problem if there was proper development not naruto suddenly realizing his feelings for hinata thru a genjutsu because hes so fucking dense that he actually gets guilted into feeling those same feelings for her (and as my friend who supports the pairing he basically said “he feels like he owes her”) and u know theres a damn problem if u need a movie to try and justify a pairing (ive actually read posts that this movie was beautiful in writing and development there were so many things wrong with this movie but thats a different post for a different day) 

and sasusaku is my most hated pairing but i do have to admit there was much more “development” i suppose than there was between naruhina but the way it was written as a whole and introduced in chapter 700 from 699 is so pathetic 

if youre bad at writing romance then why bother putting it in the story???? because then this happens

so basically tl;dr

you: look at these chapters this is where they ~*admit their feelings for them*~ 

me: idk man it looks pretty generic to me 

so now i want you to tell me that i cant read and sasukes lines are too hard to read like i want you to tell me that again because if thats all ur going to say this debate is over 

Warning! anti grUvia

rant time. If you’re a fan of Juvia and grUvia and dont want to read abt negative stuff abt her or this ship, then i advice you to stop reading this.

Okay, so:

I believe that grUvia is pro-juvia and anti-gray. Its focus is solely centered on Juvia and on what she wants and on what people think she deserves and apparently Gray has no say in this. (which is why im typing grUvia this way, bc Juvia is the sole focus of this ship, just juvia)

Which is why things like “She like him” “she loves him so much, why can’t he just lover her back” “he should just stop trying to turn her down and love her back” “she’s beautiful and badass, why shouldn’t Gray love her?” Is what i see and hear mostly about this ship and it further justifies my statement.

Juvia as an individual is both powerful and beautiful, but her obsession over Gray is what makes me dislike her. Her sole purpose is to devote herself only to Gray and make sure that she’s there wherever Gray is and that no other female character is able to get Gray’s attention than hers.

She’s blinded by her love for Gray and no matter how much bentos she makes for him, how many Gray plushies, and Gray-anything she has or makes, Gray still treats her like that of a comrade.

Why is that? Its because Juvia only focuses on her feelings towards Gray and not his. She wants to be with him, she shows up whenever Gray is and doesn’t think for a second if Gray is comfortable with it. She just doesn’t find it necessary to value Gray’s opinion over her own and that’s what i dont like about Juvia and grUvia for the matter.

Her love for Gray, for me, is too shallow and unhealthy. She stalks him but she knows so little about him. She solely focuses on what she wants to happen and fantasizes about Gray and her love for him, without trying to think about what Gray wants and needs.

I dont think ive seen her think about things like “this is what Gray-sama (seriously sama?) would want” but only “im doing this thing for Gray-sama, i hope he likes me now.”

And what sets me off here is the fact that people dont find this unhealthy or problematic. grUvia shippers (not all of them i hope) are totally A-ok with this and even find this beautiful and cute. How is stalking someone you claim to love and not valuing their opinion and not accepting the fact that they dont like you that way something worth admiring or calling cute? Its beyond me.

Gray is a wonderfully developed character and one of my favorites in this anime and it saddens me whenever i see him deduced to Juvia’s love interest and even her price.

Not once has Gray showed any interest for Juvia in a romantic way and i just don’t understand why others cant understand this. Gray doesn’t like Juvia that way and has shown annoyance, disinterest whenever Juvia clings onto him or does something for him she demands worthy of getting his attention.

“Juvia’s hot, Gray will love her eventually” “She loves him so much, Gray should love her back” “She deserves Gray”

Those reasons are what frustrates me about this ship. Gray is not shallow enough to fall in love with someone just because of their looks. Just because Juvia loves Gray doesn’t mean that Gray has to reciprocate her feelings. And the famous “Juvia DESERVES Gray” phrase is what annoys me the most. Love isnt about who deserves who, if you love someone, you prove it. Juvia has shown none of it, she cant even value Gray’s feelings, what makes you so sure that Juvia deserves Gray’s love?

Honestly, I’d rather Gray ended up (with Erza, okay i ship grayza, but that’s not the point here) alone in the end. Alone and peaceful with his nakamas there for him, having a never ending adventure and memories of happiness.

grUvia is one of the most popular ship in this fandom and while i can accept that fact, i just dont understand why. Sure, they’re ice and water, their powers have chemistry, but that’s about it. Their personalities clash, Gray’s laid back and independent with a very developed and emotionally stable character and personality while Juvia’s clingy, obsessive with unstable emotions.

Her love for Gray is, as ive said before, is shallow, selfish, and unhealthy and i just dont find it cute or wonderful no matter how many photos of her you have with her clinging onto a Gray plushie. Let’s look at this ship on a different perspective, let’s switch their genders or their personality: what if it was Gray who was being forceful and borderline stalkerish, what if Juvia was the one who’s constantly showing disinterest or annoyance towards Gray but Gray still kept clinging onto her, wouldn’t you feel bad and a bit afraid for Juvia and would want Gray to stop his actions of “self proclaimed love” for her? THE DOUBLE STANDARDS ISTG

You might ask me why im this mad or frustrated about a ship and a fictional character “its just a show”, and youre right. But this is a show and real people watch it. Real people find this ship and character acceptable and real people might start thinking “Oh, well if i love them them, doing what Juvia does should be okay.” “The person i like should love me back if i keep stalking them enough, right?” “being clingy and wanting to spend as much time with the person i love is okay even if they’re showing disinterest and annoyance.” Its a possibility and im here to tell you that this way of thinking and loving is DEFINITELY NOT OKAY OR RIGHT.

Look, Im not telling you to stop whatever youre shipping or to hate on juvia, she’s a strong and beautiful character who ive also come to respect at some degree. But what i am telling you here is that when it comes to love and shipping, i dont fancy her way of showing interest and love nor the idea of her and Gray becoming a romantic pair. For me, it just seems so forced and pro-Juvia and anti-Gray. It’s “value Juvia’s feeling and forget and ignore Gray’s opinion and emotions” for me. I just dont see the appeal of this ship.

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  • Bucky keeps a notebook – writes things down he should remember when he can’t hold onto it himself. Inside, theres a page titled ‘avengers’ in shaky, capital handwriting, and close to the bottom of the list: wanda maximoff; sokovia; brown hair; mind control can move things with her mind; not hostile; dangerous; nice
  • For bucky, he doesn’t see her as a handler or a hero or a soldier. He recognizes in her another asset. An equal. And this is almost comforting to him. He is skittish and displaced in this facility of whole people when he himself has spent so long being degraded into a mere weapon. But in her, he recognizes himself. She looks at him, and understands. With the two of them, there is no judgement. No fear of overstepping, of being punished by a handler. They each see themselves as animals, and there is some comfort in recognizing the same breed of evil in another.
  • they run into each other on sleepless nights, bask in comfortable silence, exchange gentle conversation. (YOOOO this short little fic here is the exact headcanon of what I think their late night run ins would look like). She’s the only person who bucky isn’t afraid is going to handle him, and vice versa. Besides, they don’t seem afraid of each other either, even though they probably should be. Theyre both weapons. They’re both bad people.  
  • But wanda, wanda to bucky is so unyieldingly kind. She is so gentle and so perceptive and aware, and she is so good and so desperate to help and give that suddenly he knows that they are nothing alike. Maybe she’s also an asset. A weapon. But… she’s so much more than that.
  • But then for wanda, she feels the same. Wanda believes herself to be a monster, a volunteer, a wicked girl who bought her fate upon herself. She thinks herself the embodiment of destruction. Bucky, who never asked for any of this, he must think her disgusting. And he doesn’t see it, how selfless he is, how decent, even if he vehemently denies it. She feels undeserving of his company, of his tentative trust.
  • There’s this thread that binds the two of them together, and they always almost unconsciously make sure to be in each other’s space. They can so often be found walking around the avengers facility, just sort of strolling an enrapt in conversation, or cocooned off somewhere with their heads bent together, or sitting on the sofa in the early hours of the mornings, purple stamps under their eyes from lack of sleep and just enjoying each other’s company in comfortable silence.
  • Bucky would come and go in the avengers facility as he pleased. He gets restless, so he’ll slip out for a few days or weeks to think or just escape from when the walls start to close in on him. wanda, by contrast, I think would also get restless but be too afraid to put herself in a situation with a lot of people, too afraid of what she could do to them, and I think some of the avengers would discourage her bc of lagos and all. But bucky comes and goes and sometimes he’ll go on a walk with her or sit next to her when she’s allowed to go to synagogue and look at the art or read a book.  
  • like I don’t want to label it exactly as a friendship bc I feel like they would have a very sort of intense, deep-seated mutual understanding of one another that would kind of transcend a typical friendship
  • they spend so long trying to outrun sleep – nearly every night spent together on the sofa is calm silence, waiting for the sun to come up – but it catches up with them. They decide to sleep in turns. The nightmares come for them all the same, and when wanda wakes up screaming, bucky gets her water and makes sure she drinks the whole glass, and she wont stop saying his name, saying his name like a touchstone.
  • Whenever he’s in the same room with her, he always put himself between her and the windows or door, and everyone thought at first it was so he could have a clean exit but what they don’t know is that he’s always there so if there’s an attack, a sniper or someone, he’ll be hit first.
  • Every day is kind of a bad day, but one day bucky gets a really bad flashback and he punches a hole in the wall and even steve cant calm him down and wanda comes in and bandages him and presses her mouth to the cotton of the cloth and feels the warm of blood beneath and says over and over that that is not who he is, reminds him that he is more, he is more, they took everything and he is going to take it back, he is here, he is here, he is here, and he wants to ask her if she thinks he’s a monster but he meets her eyes and she’s looking at him like he’s a person and it makes him feel so full in this moment when he feels so grotesque that he doesn’t want her to think any less of him and he doesn’t say a word.
  • They tell each other everything. He tells her every stray moment he can remember, she tells him everything in her life he wasn’t there for. They spend days cocooned away, reminding one another to eat, sitting on the floor, on the couch, sleeping in turns – they can never sleep at the same time, too scared to close their eyes, because memories wait for them in the dark but then maybe wanda will turn to dust if he looks away, maybe bucky will leave her alone and she’ll destroy everything by accident.
  • Bucky used to like things precise – 8.3 metres from the nearest exit, rise at 0600, I have 3 minutes and 11 seconds to get here etc. wanda is so much more fluid, and being around her sort of disarms those protocols of his. She’s like colour spilling out of the lines.
  • It seems so odd, having been born and lived decades and wars apart, how they managed to find each other at all, their identical, matching piece.
  • thats how they are. they dont talk about it, but they know, and everyone else knows.
  • He would burn down everything for her. He would crawl through miles of hell, barefoot, naked, bleeding, just to see the way she looked at him one last time. He knows this as a simple fact, the way he knows the Earth orbits the sun.
  • Its been three years when wanda finally understands. This was not something she ever had time to think about growing up – surviving was the priority. And the soft, tender parts in the meat of her heart – well, hydra cut that out. Or so she thought.
  • See, ever since she met bucky, saw the way he looked at her and knew,it seems time has only become divided into Before Him, During Him, and dreadfully, one day, After Him. She sees him, and she sees herself, sees her longing, her relief, the way she would give her life for him, and she aches. When he laughs or touches her arm or looks at her the way he does, she wants to throw up or maybe just cry, and a lot of the time, she does cry. She thinks about all that was done to him, and she shatters the mirror across the room. He is the most beautiful thing she’s ever seen. The way he walks breaks her heart. For so long, she thought, she didn’t want to face the truth, the terrible truth that lay waiting for her. But when she figured it out, she hadn’t really been that surprised either.
  • See, the problem is, you can take the kid from the poverty, but you can never really take the poverty from the kid. Great Depression Brooklyn. Wartorn Sokovia. Bucky and wanda grew up with empty stomachs and bitterly cold nights and then hydra gave them only pain. They’ve learned to be thankful for their lot. Not to want too much.
  • And bucky, bucky’s been trying so hard not to want too much. When Steve first bought him in, his emotions were rampant, muddled, so primal that he could only differentiate if he was feeling good or bad (and that had made steve cry but wanda, wanda, she understood, and she sat with him with a dictionary and the two of them learned all the different words for different emotions). They’re still rampant and muddled sometimes, but this, this is one of the only things he’s sure of, and he hates himself for it. He feels shameful for wanting more than he deserves, and he already feels like her caring about him at all is so much more than what he should be allowed. He remembers, one night her tears had been falling on his chest and it wasn’t the first time she’d ever cried on him but he held her head under his neck and whispered im here I’ve got you I will never leave you and she cried harder and it suddenly all made terrible sense to him. He never will leave her. Because she teaches him softness. She teaches him warmth. He adores her so much it makes a birds’ nest of his bloody, ruined heart. Because he’s selfish. Because he’s a coward. Because he’s a weapon that they’ve used in wars to tear down every good thing.
  • He tries to keep that greed buried. She’s already – so much. So much more than a man like him could ever ask for. How dare he. Some nights, she won’t run into him, because he’ll be in the gym with a punching bag until his knuckles split, like maybe he can bleed her out of him.
  • Here it is. She loves him. She loves him so much her ribs ache with it. She loves him and she’s always loved him and without him she feels like she’s walking around sawed in half. She loved her brother and her parents and she loves Steve and Clint but this – she loves Bucky with the kind of enormity that makes her feel small. And Bucky… Bucky is terrified of the things he would do for her. He would start a war for her. He goes ballistic and anyone in the field who even looks at her the wrong way. He’s burning up like an ancient sun and it’s going to ruin him, this he knows.
  • A year later, bucky tries to leave. He’s been getting bad and he thinks his codewords might be working again, and he’s been thinking about taking wanda with him, because he needs her, because nothing makes sense without her, and he knows that leaving her here will hurt her, he knows, but he also knows that she’ll be better off, but she catches him before he’s about to leave and she has bags under her eyes and her hair spilling down her back and she is staring at him with tears pouring down her cheeks in silent fury and he wants to kiss her forehead and her cheekbones and her shoulders and every one of her fingers and everything she is everything, and sometimes he’s still not very good with his words and all he can manage is “I’m sorry,” and he is, he really is, but she’s so furious and miserable that her scarlet is glowing around her and she says, “let me come with you,” and he wants to rip out his heart, shake it like a magic 8 ball, ask it if he’s doing the right thing because she looks so broken right then, and she crosses the room and he thinks she might slap him but she holds his head in her hands and he flinches so hard she drops them and he wants to apologize and say its not her, its him, and he wishes he wasn’t so fucked up so he could love her right, and he wishes and he wishes and he wishes and all he can say is “please,” and she says “if you go, you.. you might as well put me back in one of those labs, if you go, youre taking all of me with you,” and he says, “don’t. don’t say that to me. Just because youre angry doesn’t mean you can be cruel” and he thinks she might slap him then when she screams so quietly, “you think I’m being cruel?!” and he thinks he’s never going to recover from this, and then she stands on her tiptoes and hugs him so hard with more fierceness than he ever thought she was capable of and he stands there a second shaking with the way his body recoils from touch but what he doesn’t know is how violently she loves him that she curls her entirety around him in spite of the way her body screams at her to run and hide and protect herself from the threat of physical contact. They cling to each other like that so long and then finally “you terrify me,” bucky says into her shoulder, so quietly he wonders if she heard it, and then she stiffens like she’s been punched in the gut, like maybe all these years she’d been wrong to think that anyone could ever see her as anything more than a monster, another hydra experiment, but he crushes her further to him and says over and over “you terrify me,” and wanda just thinks oh oh oh oh and he looks her dead in the eye and they’re both so close, two puzzle pieces slot together, and her breath is mingled with his and theyre so close and theyre both shock-still and unmoving and sick and aching with it and bucky feels like he’s falling off the train all over again and he can feel wanda’s tiny heart beating against his own chest and after minutes tick by he feels her lip, so painfully soft, graze against his and the contact is like an electric shock and they lean into each other so slowly and then theyre kissing, and theyre kissing like theyre dying, all salty tears and desperation like a plea and an apology. She’s clasping his neck so hard he thinks she may strangle him and minutes later, eons later, he knocks something with his foot and they break apart and wanda realizes they were both holding their breath.


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Please continue your pan making you jealous with Wendy imagine it’s soooo good!!!!!! Make it go on longer please!!!!!! -Anonymous

Thanks so much hun!  Here’s part 2! I hope this is what you were looking for! <3

You and Peter walk back to camp holding hands. you can’t help but keep sneaking glances at him, and you notice he keeps doing the same. The two of you smile at each other as you enter the clearing. “Would you look at that. The two lovebirds are finally together,” Felix says with a smirk. “took you two long enough. We were all starting to make bets on how long it would take this to happen.” You blush and look down, but can’t help laughing along with the other lost boys. You look over to see that neither can Peter. From the corner of your eyes, you catch Wendy giving you a glare, and getting up and walking into the forest. You’re so happy that you choose to ignore it. He smiles at you and gives you a peck on the cheek. “alright, love. We’ve got to do some work now. Guard the island and all that. Come on boys!” As the lost boys follow him, Felix stops and tells you, “I’ve never seen him this happy before. Never this cheerful.” Felix looks into your eyes. “He’s genuinely happy (y/n). Please dont break his heart…” You stare back. “I love him Felix, and i would never hurt him. I promise you” He gives you a nod and goes to join the rest.

You’re sitting in your tent, using this time to think about what happened today. As you think back through every detail, you cant help but smile. You touch your lips, and can still feel Peter’s kiss on your lips. You giggle and hug yourself. This was the best day of your life. You want to just lie in your tent forever, going over what happened over and over, but you know what you’ve got to get up and working. Maybe prepare something special to eat. It could be a surprise! 

You leave the tent and find yourself standing face to face with Wendy. She looks furious, and you involuntarily take a step back. “So,” she says venomously. “You and Peter, huh? I bet it was just fantastic“ "Uh yea, actually. We found out that we both liked each other, and it worked out pretty well” “Yea, i bet its all so fabulous. But let me tell you something (y/n), Peter Pan is mine. I had him first and I always will.” You sigh. poor girl, she still doesn’t know that Peter was only using her. As much as you hate her, you dont wanna tell her, after all you know the feeling…

“Oh Wendy, maybe you did have him first, but when we walked back to camp today, he was holy my hand. and back in the forest, he kissed me. Maybe you two did have something, but now its gone” Wendy stares at you incredulously. Suddenly, she starts laughing. “You poor girl.” she says with a sigh. “Peter has you sooo fooled. He’s got you wrapped around his finger. When I said that Peter and I had something, i meant that he had-sorry has- something for me. Ever since I came here he’s been trying to get my attention. And all those times you’ve seen us together, his arm around me, him kissing me on the cheek, he’s been trying to get me to respond. Its so obvious he likes me. Everyone knows that. The truth is, he’s been using you to get to me. and its finally worked. I think im gonna go let him know that i feel the same way for him. You stare at Wendy with an incredulous look on your face. “Yea, okay good luck with that Wendy. I can assure you that he’ll tell you exactly what he told me. You know, i really didnt want to tell you this, i was trying to be nice. But i guess that’s something you dont deserve. When we were training Peter told me that he’d been using you to get to me. He wanted to make me jealous, because he likes me. You think everything is about you, dont you. Welll go ahead, go ask him. See what he says, and let me know, mkay?” Wendy just stares at you, and the next thing you know, you’re on the ground and you feel a burning pain on your cheek. You touch your cheek to find blood dripping down your face. That bloody girl. She hit you. Wendy stands over you; she looks like she’s lost it. “We’ll see how it turns out. I cant WAIT to see your face when Peter and I come through that forest holding hands” She turns around and stalks into the forest, searching for Peter.

You shakily get up and clean your cut. You didn’t think about this before, but could Peter really be using you? The thought makes you shiver. You need to find out the truth. You walk through the forest searching for Peter. You hear two people talking and stealthily walk towards where the noise is coming from. You step out of the bush and you freeze, because right in front of you Wendy and Peter are making out.

"Peter!” you exclaim. He pushes Wendy away and stares at you in shock. “(y/n), i-i can explain. I promise this isnt what it looks like.” You shake your head turn around. “When Wendy told me that you loved her, I told her she was stupid, that it’s all in her head. But she’s right! W-why would you do this to me? Why would you use me to get to her?! Why would you play with my feelings like that?!” “Use you to get to her? Is that what Wendy told you? No no no, (y/n) please listen to me. I was just standing here when she comes up to me and says she needs to tell me something. and the next thing you know she’s kissing me! And at that exact moment you came through the bush. Please, you have to believe me!” “How can I believe you Peter?!” you start crying. “How!?” A lost boy steps out of a bush. “Wendy kissed him (y/n). I saw it. Pan loves you, and only you.” You stare at the lost boy, wanting to believe him, but you can’t. You know that the lost boys will always support him, no matter what. “And how do i know you’re not lying, lost boy? You would do anything to support Peter…” peter comes towards you. “You want to know how you can believe me? Be-Because I love you (y/n). I love you. You mean so much to me and I don-what happened to your face?” “Why dont you ask your girlfriend?” you retort. She seems to be the cause of everything around here.” Peter gasps. “She did this to you?” he turns to Wendy and starts yelling. “Why would you do this to us Wendy? WHY?! I love her and she loves me why would you ruin my one chance at happiness?” “Because you’re mine” Wendy whispers. “I love you and you’re supposed to be mine..” peter glares at her “I belong to nobody” he says. “Im peter pan and i belong to NOBODY! Please (y/n), please believe me. “I need proof” you whisper. “i want to believe you Peter. So bad, but I cant. I need proof.” “You want proof?”he says. “here’s your proof” Without a warning, Peter reaches out and takes Wendy’s heart from her body.

Everyone gasps, and you’re staring at Peter with the most shocked expression. “Peter..” He slowly squeezes the heart, and Wendy lets out a whimper of pain before collapsing to her death. The entire time, Peter is looking at you, his eyes turned red from tears. “That’s your proof.” You start crying and run into his arms. “oh Peter im so sorry. im so so so sorry. I j-just have trust issues. I’ve been used before, before i came to neverland, and I couldnt bear for it to happen again. Please understand” You start crying all over again. Peter hugs you back and says,  ”Dont worry love. I understand, and I would like to kill the boy who broke your heart before. You deserve so much better than that.” “I love you Peter. For forever and ever and ever.” “I love you too, (y/n). For forever and ever and ever.”

*Oh my. I got really into this one. haha Enjoy my loves! Muahh <3

Giant Guide to Ace Self Love

Kieren here. We get a lot of asks about how to accept being asexual when you don’t want to be. And it breaks my heart a little. This is going to be my guide for it. All the coping techniques I list are how I accepted myself being trans. It’s not exactly the same but the strategies will transfer for asexuality and aromanticism. All the asks I’m responding to are going to be under a readmore since there were a bunch and this is already long enough as is. Onto the advice…

I want all of you to know there is absolutely nothing wrong with you all for being asexual and/or aromantic. You are not broken. You are not unloveable. You are not any less than for being asexual and/or aromantic. And I really hope that this helps all of you come to see that for yourselves.

A lot of the asks sent in expressed a desire to feel sexual and romantic attraction or change your sexuality. The hard truth is, you can’t. Conversion therapy has been disproved several times over and is really harmful to a person’s mental health. Your sexuality and romantic orientation are what they are. And while they can be fluid and change over time, don’t count on that. It doesn’t happen to everyone.

First, let yourself be sad about this. Have a good long cry. The start of the healing and acceptance process is to let yourself feel that sadness genuinely. But the key is not to wallow in it. You need to build yourself up afterward. Do whatever it takes to make yourself feel happy. Read a favorite book or fanfic. Watch a movie you love. Listen to your favorite happy songs. Write a happy poem. Snuggle a friend. Wrap up in a soft blanket. Take a warm bath. Do what you need to help build yourself up after feeling sad. You may need to do this a few times. It’s okay.

A good way to do that is to keep a journal (or make blog posts). Log your feelings about this. Venting your feelings honestly is important. Letting yourself feel your feelings is a huge step to self acceptance. Again, don’t wallow in the sad feelings. Bring yourself back up. Write a positivity blurb at the end. Then go do things that make you happy. Don’t let yourself stay in that sad space. that will only make it worse.

Next, start surrounding yourself with ace positivity. If you’re seeing a lot of things that put down asexuality cut them out of your life. Stop. That’s not helping you. Follow blogs that are supportive of all aces. Follow ace positivity blogs. Seeing things from other asexuals being proud and happy with themselves will help.

Also do some affirmations. Repeating to yourself that it is okay to be asexual and aromantic and that you are amazing and wonderful will go a long way. Find a short phrase to repeat to yourself out loud or in your head when the self doubt and hate starts up again.

Talk to other asexual and aromantic people. There are plenty of ace people on tumblr. Talk to them. Send them asks. Chat. I know this can be nerve wracking and hard for people with anxiety. But talking to other people like you is a huge help to self acceptance. It helps you feel less alone.

Again, all of you are lovely and wonderful people. There’s nothing wrong with you. You’re not broken. And I wish you the best in your journey to self acceptance.

-Kieren

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So i got into it yesterday with someone about 50 Shades Of Grey. After thoroughly explaining i was given a “oh…ive never thought about it like that before” response. Which is really all i can hope for in doing what i do trying to educate people. Just to get people to question thought patterns so ingrained in us that we dont even realize they are there. Lets talk about these films for a second. Beauty & The Beast is a childrens animated film that came out in 1991. When i was a child i absolutely loved this movie and i wanted so much to be Belle and look like Belle (insert Eurocentric beauty standards and forced assimilation) and fall in love with a strong man like Beast. But lets look at the relationship dynamic of Beast and Belle. She was a prisoner of his. In fact her father had been the original prisoner and then he made a deal with Beast and ultimately ended up trading his own freedom for his daughters imprisonment. Great start to a movie right? Yea so then he kept her locked in a room then gave her pretty things and after awhile stopped yelling at her till eventually he seemed nice and kind and she fell in love with him to break the spell. Then theres Gaston who was depicted as a woman hungry misogynistic asshole who technically was all those things but so was Beast. Beast wrapped his misogynistic asshole ways into a pretty package of gifts and kindness to overshawdow the fact that Belle was indeed a prisoner and she was in fact being manipulated to believe that he was a good person, that he was just “troubled” and that thats what caused him to act the way that he did. So thats a story a lot of us grew up on. And because of that story and many other just like it, women have this idea in their heads that we can fix men. We think there are justifiable reasons for them to lash out at us, hit us, or control us and the media and humans in our lives do a shit job of telling us otherwise. They glamorize it. They tell us this is how love is supposed to be. From day one they say “aw the little boy just hit you because he likes you” thereby teaching us that love is supposed to hurt or be scary.

So lets talk about the adult version. 50 Shades. Though the movie was about 90% less rapey then the books the underlined problems remained.

Christian is handsome (at least in the books because in the movie he looks like a pancake), he’s wealthy, business savvy, educated, smooth with his words, and ever so charming. And in comes Anastasia who has never even been around a man like him or exposed to a world like the ones he is offering. Its enticing, its intriguing, its something new. However the first hesitation from her comes in when she pushes off signing the contract for the two of them to dive into a world of bondage and role play (tho this book is a shit depiction of BDSM and shouldn’t even be allowed to be called that). So she delays, he begans to get anxious. You dont make a man like Christian wait. So what does the fucker do? He shows up at her fucking apartment and breaks in then forces him self on her and by true definition rapes her because she said no. A lot of people say “well she only said no because she had been out running and wanted to shower first.” however in the real world and not fantasy world “No” doesnt need to be explained. And not to mention how upset she was after he left. Then everyone thought it was so cool when Christian bought her new clothes and a new car. But is it cool to now have a man controlling what you wear and throwing out your car without asking and getting you a new one? Is it cool that you cant even make your own doctors appointments or pick your own doctor because hes controling that to? Is it cool that you cant even go for a visit to your mothers without him showing up and making him be your priority? Manipulation can be just as bad if not sometimes worse then a physically abusive relationship. At least with a physically abusive relationship you know to always be in fear. With a manipulative relationship you can go from being really scared of a person to being really happy and feeling safe in a matter of minutes. Thats how they get you. And a lot of excuses ive heard have been “Well Christian was abused as a child.” or “But he changes in the end.” And that thinking is so flawed. Its not anyone elses job to fix you. And no matter what you’ve endured you shouldnt manipulate, lash out, or abuse others just because you have been hurt. Christian being abused as a child doesnt nullify his abusive behavior.
I write all this not to tell you to throw those trash movies away if you own them. Im writing this to tell you to think. Think about the messages that we recieve and that our children are recieving. And how those messages can dictate how we grow to view love and relationships. -ShiShi

Tokyo Ghoul :re Chapter 66 Spoilers

Furuta: Kanou’s clown huh, you know alot, no wonder the higher ups are so cautious
Eto: When and where and who are the aogiri members having tea with, I know it all. The one who does “bad” stuffs with him, its you right? Collecting bodies for his experiments, leaking information of the transportation carrying QS body through Kanou, though, I do not know how you got related with V, do tell me
Furuta: Kanou sensei and the steel beams, I do have some personal reasons in them~ But Im not telling you now *laugh* Then, what can you do? Walking into CCG like this, you d better off going to Rue island together with the others *spinning on his chair*
Eto: I have nothing more to do, technically I am already “done”
Furuta: …sure talk toughly, I kind of like it, a woman like you. Your face looks decent too, makes me want to make you submit
Eto: You are the one who has something to do. Finding me “who cant do anything”
Furuta: Nothing, those higher ups, so bothersome. They are worrying to death you know
Eto: About what?
Furuta: Dont act stupid, you know it, its all about your “king” ….lets make a deal. I will let you play in the VIP room of Cochlea until death, provided that you tell me who is the one eyed king
Eto: Oh
Furuta: …our ancestors thought about it, what is the best way to control people? …that is to make them concentrate on one place. If they are idiots, then even making them committing suicide together would be easy, so, suggesting an “irregular enemy” to the CCG, “clowns”, “Tsukiyama house” etc, politicians, artists, reporters, terrorist, whoever. Because “supporters” no longer need to worry about “food”. Therefore, you and that one eyed who, these “irregular enemies”, it will be very~~~~bothersome
Eto: …..that put me at ease, all in all, you all do not have any information regarding the one eyed king. Good good
Furuta: At least im trying you know? Like getting into a ghoul salon– *spins his clown mask* or being a clown *wink*. But the information house doesnt help much, and getting such a reply of “there is no king” from the okama. Sighhhhh~~~ even though I have opinions myself, but its possible too, a symbolic “king”. Putting hopes in something made up could lower the hopelessness right….
Eto: The king does exist, and, its “in your stomach”
Furuta: Takatsuki sensei, its ok to have revolution… But the more you want to change something, the more the sadness and deaths, you even killed your own father… Even tough its warped, as long as it can retain balance, its not a bad thing, am I right?
Eto: No, I am the “excluded”, and your opinion is that of “who exclude”. Mother and those who took care of me are stolen from you guys, I cant accept that
Furuta: aha
Eto: need not to rush the king will come
Furuta: …..then, the deal is off then? ….I will visit you, when you are minced like a rubbish during the disposal in Cochlea *walks away*
Eto: Hey Washuu, you are pitiful too. How does it feel to be unable to call dad “dad”? You are a rubbish too arent you *smile*
Furuta: Die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die *pressing against the glass*
Eto: …scary

Furuta’s throwback
Furuta: Rize
Rize: What is it Nimura
Furuta: Are you a ??? too
Rize:….yes

Furuta: no good no good…that woman… i need to teach her a lesson….
Sasaki: Furuta kun…you do not look good
Furuta : ah it seems that i overworked, thanks for the concern ahaha
Sasaki: ah is it, take care of your health

Eto and sasaki listen to the recorded conversation between her and Furuta
Sasaki: making me installed a recording device in there
Eto: I told you, you get to hear interesting stuffs, now you can believe what I said is right ka ne ki kun. Your last job might be tougher than you think
Sasaki: how do you know what my next steps are. And I will be keeping it
Eto: thats because i am a writer. I can help you, I can disturb them. then I want you to accept my request
Sasaki: I never thought of what comes after that…. I have no time for your request
Eto: I will be transferred these two days, if you are interested please find me, most possibly at lower room– i will tell you my request just in case anything happens, my request to you is to kill the one eyed king
Sasaki: …….i dont understand

Rue Island
Tatara: (Houji… I have repaid what I owed you….)
Tatara: (Eto….. We shall meet when there is a chance *in chinese*)

Banjou: Ayato, is this enough?? I have no obligation to help you, but for Hina chan I will
Ayato: Yes its enough, sorry. Banjou

Amon: ….has it begun….



Just finished watching Code Geass, its been such a long time ever since I last watched anime at late night. Why didnt I discover this amazing anime sooner?!
Who is in Control

Pairing: Bellamy Blake x Reader

Request: no

Summary:when you land on earth you do everything in your power to defy Bell partly because you dont agree with his methods and partly because you find him attractive. Your defiance infuriates him but you soon find out that there is a fine line between love and hate.

Warning: things get a bit steam towards the end ;) plus this was entirely unedited so I apologize sincerely in advance

A/N: This will be my first imagine for the 100 so yayy!! If you want more or have any requests please feel free to send them in here, I have about 6 more Bellamy au’s planned that should be coming out shortly so keep an eye out and be sure to check out my masterlink and the fandoms I write for!

Originally posted by whateverbellamy

“Here we do whatever the hell we want. Now you dont have to like it, Wells. You can even try to stop it or change it, kill me. You know why? Whatever the hell we want.” Bellamy’s voice echoed among the crowd, his “chant” catching on like a wild fire, everyone screaming “whatever the hell we want”. You were tucked away in the corner, eyes glued to the man who had already placed himself in charge of the camp. You scanned his features for some sort of fear, passion, insanity; trying to understand why he was doing this. Why was he even here? And furthermore why did he think allowing a bunch of crazy delinquents to “do whatever the hell they want” was a good idea. After all, him taking responsibility of us was his public declaration that we were his burden, and if kids died under his watch how would people back on the ark respond, how would delinquents not rise up?

“Rise up- Thats it!” you thought to yourself, a sly smirk upturning the corners of your lips. You would have to defy Bellamy, after all that is what you wanted. A new way of life, and Bellamy’s attention. Back on the ark you had always had a crush on him; the gorgeous mysterious boy who rarely left his room. You were infatuated with him, even before he started training to be in the guard (guardsmen were a hot commodity on the ark, always the first to marry because of their status and strength). Even after he lost it all protecting his sister, you still managed to love him more, his dedication to his family and protecting his sister at all costs was extremely admirable in your eyes. Thats why seeing him now, allowing such a diverse and potentially dangerous group of people -some no doubt good, but a larger portion bad- to do as they pleased, set you on edge and made you severely question his choices. As everyone went on cheering and blindly following his every order you slid away pulling a few kids you
knew away to discuss your next step.

“Look Bellamy’s going to drive this camp to the ground; especially with Murphy as his little henchmen, we all know how crazy he can get with too much power. Now I know his speeches are promising and his eyes sparkle when he talks and he makes you want to believe that this will work, but the facts tell us it wont. And thats why we must do everything in our power to change the system, and its not like we are breaking any rules. Whatever the hell we want.” I smirked at the end, my eyes trailing across the many faces in my audience. They all nodded, some smirked back others a little more fearful of the inevitable defiance but most were willing.

“y/n, what do you propose we do?” A small voice called from the back. You smiled at the small girl who had lived in the opposite cell as you back on the ark.

“We’ve got to start with these bracelets, he wants us to take these off so we cant communicate with the ark, but the truth is, as much as we may not love everyone on the ark there are people up there who need us and love us. They’re oxygen supply is running out and they are going to start killing innocent people in order to prolong their oxygen supply. I know you may not care for the people who locked you up or floated your parents but dont let more people die at their hands. At their expense. Because the people who will die up there are not going to be the president or general; they will be everyday people like you and me who will be deemed "not as important” as the medical staff or the top mechanic. If you want the leaders of the ark to pay, allowing them to kill off our kind will do nothing to bring them to their knees. We mean nothing to them and they will kill anyone in their power to stay alive. Make them come down here and then we will show them the rules of earth, and these rules cannot be ‘whatever the hell we want’.“ You finished. The crowd erupted with applause, inspired looks dancing across the faces of the few you had been speaking to. You were so caught up in the excitement you didnt see Bellamy glowering in the corner, his jaw clenching as he looked around at all the cheering kids. He was frustrated because to some extent you were right and he didnt know how to argue with your claim. "game on” he whispered before slipping away into the darkness.

The next couple of days you spent with your new “people”; protecting them from Murphy and his gang of psychotic idiots who were trying to rip peoples bracelets off. Back on the ark you loved to learn; you spent more time reading and majoring in different areas than anything else. You had studied biology, chemistry, history, and martial arts which gave you a pretty clear understanding of things on the ground, possible food supply, and how to kick Murphys ass even with his knives. You preferred to attack peoples pressure points; it was by far the easiest method because it was virtually painless for your victims an
renders them momentarily paralyzed with the right strikes. You taught your people how to fight, and assess vegetation; the things you felt were most important for them to know right away.

“Y/N!” You heard a voice growl as a large hand wrapped around your arm dragging you towards a nearby tent which was built into the side of a tree for support. You’d recognize this tent anywhere.

“What do you want Bellamy?” You rolled your eyes, wanting to appear tough and annoyed.

“What the hell are you doing?! Theres absolutely no reason to create this huge rebellion against me! Everytime I go out hunting you pop up to distract me and ruin my advances, whenever Im speaking publicly you retort with your own speech, defy me, and walk away with more of MY people!”

“They are MY people now” You winked, watching his jaw clench as his face was over come with rage. Suddenly you felt your back pressed against the “wall”, you’re heart was beating a hundred miles per hour as you felt his hands tighten around the collar of your shirt. The thin material dug into your neck as his warm breathe blew across your glistening skin, you were both panting as his lips hovered over your ear,

“You are mine y/n. you’re people are my people.” Your breathe caught in your throat as you felt your knees go weak. This was not fair! He couldn’t use his sexiness agaisnt you like this. His eyes lit up when he saw the affect he had on you, wanting nothing more than to lean down and kiss you, but he also needed his people back under his control and that would have to start with some major self control. He pulled away from you, smiling cockily as you tried to wave off the delicious delirium of his presence. You wondered if he had known how much you liked him all along, but then you realized he wasn’t doing this just to tease you. He wanted you to hand over your people, your power to him; and thats something you would never allow.

'Two can play at this game.’ You swayed your hips as you approached him, your tongue gliding gently over your lips as you watched him assessing your every move. The look on his face was priceless as you slid your hand up his arms cupping his shoulders and hovering your lips over his. He was stock still; afraid to give in, afraid to lose. You smiled, what a game this would be.

The Friend Zone Is Un-Escapable

MOVIE: THE MAZE RUNNER
CHARACTER: NEWT X READER
RATING:CUTE 

WRITER: ME AND MY IDEA

NEWTS POV

i was sat in bed looking at the ceiling thinking about everything and nothing at the same time till a picture snippet of a fantasy slipped into my mind something for some reason wanted to kiss y/n, i sat up for a second wondering why that had come into my mind but there was no doubt i wanted to, and maybe just maybe do a little more than just kiss her i immediately slapped myself for thinking about y/n in this manner she was my best friend and i was her best friend i can't believe i was thinking about her like that even just thinking of what making love to her would be like way wow that was fast, i then decided i need help i get up and walk out my room very confused and walk down the corridor to minho’s room and knock on the door while waiting for him to answer i see y/n walking to her room she see’s me and waves i can't help but smile like an idiot and wave back the dirty thoughts back in my mind just seeing her was making something happen i don't know what but something, she giggles and goes into her room as minho opens his door “hey newt what's up” he says

“i need a serious word” i say he then lets me in and i stand around passing a second as minho sits on his bed looking tired from running 

“so whats the serious word” he asks

“i just had a strange experience” i answer

“okay what happened or do i not want to know” he asks

“i had a moment in which uh, i fantasized about kissing y/n” i answer a bit guilty he just sits a bit confused 

“why is that strange everyone does that newt she’s one girl in a maze full of boys most people here do that newt” he answers

“i know but it’s strange it’s never happened before” i say

“well then i guess you've started late” he says obviously confused as to why im even here with this problem 

“no i mean like its never happened before and it was not like you guy’s, everyone else fantasizes about y/n because they are a bunch or hormonal teenage boys, but i don't know, i have fantasized like that about her before just this was different like there was another reason for wanting to kiss her and do stuff to her” i say passing around the room even with my limp

“well uh what sort of reason did it seem like” he asks

“like a want to take her in my arms and kiss her because, i don't know, not because of lust or hormones i know that much” i answer 

“is it remotely possible you're in love with her” he asks

“i dont know, maybe” i answer rubbing my face with my hands trying to think 

“well then lets play a game” he says getting up and moving me so im sat on the bed “i will say a word and you say the first thing that pops in the little head of your newt” he says i just nod in reply 

“okay, flower” he says

“pretty” i reply

“food” he says

“eating” i reply

“arsehole” he says

“gally” i reply

“y/n” he asks

“beautiful” i say before being confused as to why i said that

“okay, uh sex” he says 

“bedroom”i reply

“snog” he says

“y/n” i say before again  questioning why i said that

“okay, uh self pressure” he says laughing slightly 

“shower” i reply now that was an honest answer

“right, suck” he says laughing 

“please” i say before putting my hand over my mouth wondering why the hell im saying these things as minho bust out laughing at me 

“slim it” i tell him “how is this useful other than your enjoyment”

“sorry i went of on a tangent for a second, newt word

pretty” he says

“y/n” i reply

“intelligent” he saks

“y/n” i reply

“hot” he says

“y/n” i reply

“love” he asks

“her” i reply before entirely realizing what i had just done

“well then its obvious you're in love with her” minho says smirking 

“i think you could be right” i answer

“only one way to be sure” he says pushing me up from the bed and making me follow him down the corridor and standing in front of y/n room 

“what are we doing” i ask him

“wait” he says knocking on the door within seconds she’s there she see’s up both and smiles leaning on the door frame i cant help but smile back and want to stare at her all smitten 

“hey boys, what are you after” she asks

“nothing just wanted to ask you a question” minho says

“sure what” she asked 

“if you had to choose who would you kiss in the glade” he asks

“well, thats a tough decision but i would have to say newtie” she giggles looking over at me making me blush a bit 

“really why” minho asks

“yea-yeah w-w-why” i say stuttering on my words 

“he’s cute, me best friend and i don't trust the rest of you shanks with anything” she said smiling more at me making me want to look at the floor so she doesnt see me blushing so much 

“okay thanks y/n, we will see you tomorrow” minho said starting to walk away from the door me following him till we both here her “newt” she said

“y-y-yes” i stutter 

“wheres my goodnight hug” she asks a normal thing for us to do so i walk over and hug her tightly and she hugs me tightly in return till we pull away and she give me a kiss on the cheek then fluffs my hair up and walks away into her room again something fairly normal for her to do i then just turn back to minho hows smirking at me before we walk back to his room “well its official from the way you acted there your most definitely in love with her but bad news is your deep in the friend zone” he says

“well then lets find a way to get me out the friend zone” i say

“what get you out The Friend Zone Is Un-Escapable” he says

“nothing is un- escapable there has to be a way out like the maze there must be a way out” i say

“well there is two ways out i know but one is a lot easier than the other but neither are sure to work” he says

“well what's the harder one” i ask

“non stop flirting and hinting at the fact you want to be more then friends till she gives in” minho says i will admit  that does sound a bit hard 

“what's the easier” i ask

“get her pissed and shuck her” he says well that would be easier shes not a good drunk plus we had nearly done that before there have been many times where we have both had a little too much of gallys moonshine and it ending up almost going all the way a few times but we never did go all the way but it had got  to very very heated kissing and touching a few times second base just occasionally tipping to third if i was very lucky and we were both very drunk but i wouldn't fully go all the way with her if she was drunk it wouldn't be fair to take advantage of her like that “no” i say

“why not” he asks

“im not getting her pissed so i can take advantage of her and sleep with her” i say 

“then why not get her drunk don't sleep with her but turn up the next morning and say you did” he says

“no, if anything thats worse” i say

“then its plan one non stop hinting and flirting” he says

“fine” i sigh before going back to my room and thinking of what to do.