i can't wait to move back


Now I know she’ll never leave me, even as she runs away. She will still torment me, calm me, hurt me, move me, come what may. 

Wasting in my lonely tower. Waiting by an open door. I’ll fool myself she’ll walk right in, and be with me for evermore.

Sometimes I hate being trans. A lot of the time, actually. While everyone else is moving forward, you’re feel like you’re waiting, waiting, waiting. For the next GIC appointment. For hormones to show any effect. For surgery. For the next surgery. For forms and reports and assessments to be filled out.

These things take weeks, months, years. Whole parts of your life get eaten away on waiting lists for services that are already stretched to their limit. And all the time you want everything to stop - to right itself in some magical overnight miracle. You spend nights crying and asking ‘why me?’ Why am I the one who has to be stuck here? 

But you will get there. I promise you. Nobody knows patience like us trans folk. We have to be strong, mentally, emotionally and physically, because we are forced to be by our very nature. It’s something huge to bear and it’s okay if you’re not always okay. It isn’t fun, and it isn’t fair. And it’s okay to grieve - for being born with the wrong parts, or for all the times that your body restricted you in life - for the things you wish you had. Grieve if you need to. 

There is light and dark to everything in life. Being trans is no exception. Keep going. Wait and fight and grieve and celebrate and live - in the way that only we trans people know how. 

You’ll come out stronger in the end.

seto’s personal trashy update

my last day of vacation is tomorrow, these 3 weeks i’ve been animating for the islands MAP, watched hours and hours of gameplays, read the entire snk manga, and watched anime

i’m a productive child

but honestly tho

fob sounded SO G O O D tonight and they were all so smiley and excited…patrick was dancing around getting his signature White Boy Moves out full force. pete has a snazzy new haircut and when i yelled at him NICE HAIR PETE he yelled back THANKS and patted his own head. joe looked absolutely content being able to play that night like he was truly having a good time. andy did cute little waves at the crowd, which spent every quiet intermission yelling ANDY 愛してるよ!!!and the likes.
most of all they all looked healthy and generally in jolly good mood and i feel so thankful for them gahhhhh

i want to run away. it’s not that i hate this place, or that something particularly horrible has happened. i feel the never ending need to go and run and see new things and breathe different air. i feel the need to go somewhere where i know nothing and learn absolutely everything about it until it could be my hometown.

i want to go start over and find new friends and new family. maybe, sometime after all that, i’ll come back here. maybe i’ll apologize for leaving so abruptly without any goodbyes, and maybe i’ll find my old friends and we’ll catch up.

but, in all honesty, if i leave, that’s it. even the people that would miss me will slowly move on and will probably hate me for leaving without a word. this place wouldn’t be the same when or if i ever chose to come back. it would never feel like “home” again.

but maybe that’s okay.

  • Remus and Sirius: *naked and making out*
  • James: *barges in* Guys, come on, Peter is wait-
  • Remus and Sirius: *continues making out*
  • James: I'll be back. *shuts the door*
  • (a few seconds later)
  • Peter: *barges in* Come one, you guys. Move. Chop chop.
  • Remus: *pulls away as he covers both himself and Sirius, who was very much not phased by the intrusion* YOU, have no respect.
  • Peter: I am hungry.

anonymous asked:

A couple came through self checkout with a full cart during the busiest time of day, they had some alcohol so I had to go over and run their ID# through the machine. The woman said "oh since you're here you can just scan the rest of our stuff!" I told them no, I had other customers waiting on my assistance. Woman puts on a pouty face, says "well we both have bad backs and can't lift anything!" Then why did you come through self checkout? The lines were about the same everywhere...

I have taken to just acting like I didn’t hear them and move to the next customer that needs me. Save so much time from getting bitched at because they are lazy.


ok so…i know there’s been a lot of rumour and speculation after val moved into patsy’s room about patsy not coming back this series or At All but…has anyone thought that she might just end up buying her own house/flat + living there? if her dad dies, she’ll probably have a considerable amount of money left to her in his will…all she needs to do is wait for delia to finish her training and then they can move in together again? (and hopefully neither of them gets hit by a bloody car this time!)

I will always wait for the day we find each other again.

William’s point of view

He loved Noora.

He trusted her more than anyone else before.

And yet she left him in London. 

They didn’t break up, no, it could destroy them both if they did. 

Instead they were somewhere in the middle, still in love, but completely lost, not knowing what they are now…

All the words unsaid, all misunderstandings were growing between them and none of them knew how to stop that.

He couldn’t leave London, not right now, he got his job & studies and he finally was on a good terms with his father…

It seemed like he moved on, but everyday when he was coming back to his apartment he could imagine Noora is inside waiting for him. Maybe making tortillas for dinner?

And maybe one day she will come back, because people need people. 

He still believed in that. 

I’m chasing a ghost
A feeling that’s haunted me for years 
Every time I get close it’s gone

Am I living a lie?
Well, maybe I just expect too much
Maybe it’s time I try for more 

 I will tear my sky
To make it through the night
I will take back my pride
And live while I breathe, live while I breathe 

I will move the ground 
I will pull the curtains down 
Wear my fist on my sleeve
And live while I breathe, live while I breathe 


Guardian angel (d.l.)

▹Short imagine 

A/N: okay this is so freaking long!! but u should read, its not even done bc i have so many ideas for it!! so there will be a second part!! I hope you guys enjoy thank you love u -i


Request stuff here

“Why do you keep hurting me?” I asked, he was hurting me but not physical worse, mentally.  My eyes filled to the brim with liquid and I just cant help but let the tears fall.  I take a long gulp.

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this white man in my complex with a pretty thick southern accent who doesn’t give me good vibes was sitting outside, and it’s dark out, and asked me if i needed help carrying stuff out and called me ma'am, and this really freaked me out bc, i can’t just passively appreciate the thing, i have to open my damn mouth and possibly expose myself to danger -if not now then later- since my voice isn’t exactly high (i used to sing bass in choir, and at this point i’m certainly still a tenor), but i answered in my best high voice in the moment’s panic and he didn’t seem to notice?? even called me ma'am again..

  • What I want to write:
  • The kiss slowly grew more passionate, his hand wandered to the nape of your neck, pulling you closer. You took the chance to move your leg over his to straddle him, and he moved both his hands around your back, pulling you closer, never breaking the kiss once. While moving your hands up to play with his hair, you licked his lips fleetingly, asking for permission and he obliged. The feeling of his tongue shyly playing with yours, his hands roaming your body, his soft plump lips moulding perfectly onto yours and his smell in your nose - he was driving you crazy and you started to feel your underwear grow damp. Not wanting to push him too much in fear the moment would end, you decided to simply enjoy yourself while it lasted - you figured he'd probably pull away soon just like he usually did.
  • What I have to write:
  • A two-way ANOVA was carried out on the Simpson's index of concentration by treatment type and genotype. There was no statistically significant interaction between the effects of treatment and genotype on concentration [F48,3=1.1169, p=0.295876].
  • However, we found a significant effect of treatment on diversity [F48,3=12.0580, p=0.001102], whereas the genotype did not have a significant effect on the diversity index [F48,3=0.0009, p=0.976036], suggesting that treatment influences the concentration regardless of the genotype.
  • Post Hoc tests revealed that there is a significant difference between shaken and still treatments for the mutator strain [p=0.0125085] but not for any of the other interactions.

anonymous asked:

Yesss sott back in the top 10 on us iTunes, even before the video! And now the video will come at some a perfect moment as there's a ton of attention on harry in advance of the album release. Harry and his team have made all the right moves during this promo campaign and I think people are really responding to harry as an artist and that's even more exciting. He's definitely making his mark in pop right now and I can't wait to see what happens with the album 😁