i can't take him seriously but at the same time i'm terrified

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I'm interested in a what-if situation. What if the SS could during FO4 flirt with Deacon? Assume that 1) he's infatuated with the SS, but more in a reverent sense than a romantic one, 2) he doesn't see it coming (despite him being a people-reader) and 3) he can't reciprocate the SS's feelings (for emotional+job reasons). What would he feel? Would his world be turned upside down? Would the partnership be compromised? I'd love to see some eternal turmoil, but it's your call. : )

tl; dr: self-loathing workaholic married to his job is unable to take coworker flirting seriously because that would mean feeling feels, and feels are dangerous, so he bobs and weaves so coworker won’t quit.

ts;wr: We all know he’s unromanceable, and I’ve made the joke before that it’s because he’s married to the Railroad, but I think there’s more to that, and I think it dovetails into this conversation.

Deacon is unromanceable because there’s no one to romance. The person the Survivor meets has made himself a construct of the Railroad. He has crafted his existence entirely for the Railroad. There is nothing of him that another person could have or share that the Railroad doesn’t already claim. His face is for the Railroad, his name is for the Railroad, his waking hours are for the Railroad. Fuck, even finding the Sole Survivor is for the Railroad.

He has very little in the way of personal aspirations, goals, or desires (that he verbalizes to any great degree). I’m not saying this is good or healthy, it’s quite the opposite, but it’s effective for what he is and it’s where he’s at.

That’s not to say he has no personality (he has plenty of that) or free will, but he chooses, or feels compelled, to subsume his existence with the Railroad. He’s an ascetic of the Railroad.

Setting this idea as the foundation, there is nothing that could come between him and the Railroad. He’s given his face, his name, his time in service of the Railroad, why not his heart, too?

With all three of your conditions, I think Deacon would absolutely flirt back with no hesitation. Flirting can be pretty harmless, it can be playful, it can be fun, it doesn’t always necessarily lead to romance. He can deflect and avoid as long as he needs to, with humor, with sarcasm, with whatever he needs to keep the Survivor with the Railroad. This man is not comfortable in his own skin, because it’s one way he can avoid himself.

I don’t think he’d care much about how the scenario affects him personally as much as he cares how it’d affect the future of the Railroad. The Railroad needs the Survivor. Without them, the Railroad has no future and therefore Deacon has no future. His inner turmoil would probably not be focused on him, but how this scenario affects the Railroad. He, more or less, does not let himself have personal connections.

He makes no bones about the fact that he does not see himself as a good person, he doesn’t see himself on the same level as the Survivor. Deacon probably feels like he doesn’t deserve that kind of affection or attention, and is probably terrified of it at the same time. I’d imagine he feels like he deserves to be alone. He’s “everything that’s wrong with this whole fucking Commonwealth”, he separates the “honorable” Survivor from the rest of the “unhonorable” masses during his low-approval conversation, and includes himself with the unhonorable.

I think it’d be a big enough personal step to realize that he’s missing out on this kind of connection, much less how he’d feel about not being able to reciprocate.


Sorry, Nonny. I was out for most of the day and this was a tough nut to crack. I hope I answered it well enough!

Just a cutesy Pinescone confession fic, with dorks bein’ dorks

Rated T
1,200 words

“You tired?” Dipper asked after seeing Wirt yawn yet again. It, like many things about Wirt, was totally endearing and it brought a smile to Dipper’s face.

“Well, yeah. Alas, not all of us can learn the ways of the night owl like you can, Dip.” Wirt leaned his head on his hand and smiled at the computer. “I mean, if…maybe if I was in California and you were in Massachusetts, this would be easier since it’s earlier over there, but, then, well, it would be easier if we were both living in one of those places and that—that’s not a thing, um, sadly.” Wirt frowned. Maybe he was more tired than he realised, rambling on like that.

“Mmmm. You should probably, like, go to sleep…at some point…” He considered this. “But if you can stay up later…that would be…you know, cool.”

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barney and robin's real ending (in my personal universe it's a bit too fairytale)
  • It's 2030, Robin is driving and Barney is on the passenger seat, they're talking
  • R: Remember when we were in Hong Kong?
  • B: Yeah asian boobs, I mean, girls, everywhere
  • Robins rolls her eyes
  • R: I mean //that// day
  • B: Of course I do, Robin, how could I forget?
  • Robin sights and pouts slighly like she's upset but not in an entirely sad way
  • R: She was so small
  • B: Yeah
  • R: And now, college
  • B: Yeah, about that, do you think it'd be too much to put a tracking device on her? I'm thinking on the teeth maybe-
  • R: Barney!
  • Robin takes one hand off the wheel and slaps his arm
  • B: Ouch! Don't pretend like you haven't thought about it. Remember: dorms, booze, frat boys
  • R: Frat boys?
  • B: It's college anything could happen, we have to take precautions
  • Robin looks thoughtful for a moment
  • R: We could ask Marvin to look after her
  • B: That's not enough! we should-
  • R: Shut it Barney she can see us
  • B: Fine but we'll discuss it later
  • It's 2019, Barney and Robin are on a hotel room in Hong Kong. Robin is rushing around looking for something work related and Barney is sitting on the bed looking anxious
  • B: Robin?
  • She doesn't listen
  • B: Robin, hey
  • Barney holds her wrist as she walks by
  • R: What Barney? I can't find my things and I'm late
  • B: There's something we need to talk about
  • Robin finally pays attention to his expression and her own shifts from frustration to concern
  • R: Is something wrong?
  • Barney takes a deep breath and tugs her toward the bed. She sits in front of him, their eyes lock
  • B: We have to talk about where this - he gestures in between them - is going
  • R: What do you mean?
  • B: Look, Robin, neither of us ever wanted to get married-
  • R: Wait, Barney, I know you hate being away from home but I just got a proposal to move back to New York, I'll barely travel anymore you won't even have to come if you don't want to I-
  • B: Hey Scherbatsky, calm down
  • R: No! You're about to ask for a divorce!
  • B: Wow, wait, no, that's not it
  • He holds her hands and shifs so they're sitting closer now
  • B: When we got married I vowed to always be honest with you, and lately I've been wishing for something, something you might not want to share with me, and that's why I've kept it to mysel only because I thought-
  • R: Cut to the chase Barney, you're making me nervous
  • B: Okay. I think. No. I know I want kids, but I want you more, so if you don't want them, that's fine, but if you could do this for me, Robin, if you've changed your mind even a little bit about this please
  • R: Barney, I told you, I can't
  • Robin let's go of his hands to rest her palms on her own flat stomach
  • B: I know, I know, I was thinking we could adopt
  • Robin gets up covering her mouth with one hand and starts pacing around the room
  • B: I get it if you don't want this, I knew about it when I married you
  • R: Be quiet I need a minute
  • They stay in silence for a long time Barney on the bed and Robin still pacing. Eventually she stops in front of the window contemplating the view of that strange city
  • R: We could do it here
  • B: What?
  • R: Before we leave for the U.S., I can call some favors
  • B: I don't follow
  • R: A little girl, I think, they leave so many of them here
  • B: Are you saying...
  • She turns around to face him, the corners of her mouth are curved up just slighly
  • R: We're getting a daughter
  • Robin's voice is a whisper but the words make Barney smile openly
  • B: We're getting a daughter!
  • He jumps off the bed and rushes toward Robin taking her in his arms and kissing her. When they break apart there's laughter and tears and they're terrified but really happy at the same time
  • Barney and Robin are on an orphanage, there are kids running everywhere, they are starting to regret their decision and are about to leave when a little girl stops them, she looks about seven and her black hair is tied back with a red ribbon, an employee comes running after her
  • (M is for the little girl and E is for the employee)
  • M: Miss, Mister, do you think I'm too young to know if I like girls?
  • Barney and Robin smile in surprise at her question and the employee looks mortified
  • E: I'm sorry, she's always like this, out of control
  • R: It's okay
  • M: Are you gonna answer?
  • E: Mae!
  • Barney laughs
  • B: I think that's something you always know
  • M: See?!
  • The little girl looks victorious but the employee eyes her angrily
  • E: Let's go, that's enough for the day
  • M: You need to get over yourself
  • Barney bursts into laughter then and Robin slaps his arm but she's holding back one of her own
  • E: I apologize, she watches too much TV, hockey games made her agressive
  • That sentence makes Robin freeze and Barney looks over at her smiling in utter amusement
  • B: So you like hockey?
  • M: Yes, and the news, actually aren't you Robin Scherbatsky?
  • Barney pokes Robin's ribs and she comes back to the real world
  • R: Yeah, I mean, yes, I am
  • M: You're everywhere, your life must be awesome
  • R: I guess, I've seen a lot of places
  • M: That's so cool
  • E: Okay, Mae I'm serious time to go
  • M: Fine, fine, bye
  • She waves her little hand at them as she walks away and Barney and Robin are left with a sense of accomplishment
  • Back to 2030
  • There's a beautiful nineteen-year-old girl on the sidewalk, her hair is tied back with a red ribbon, she smiles when the car pulls over and opens the door to get in
  • M: Hey mom, hey dad
  • B: Hello baby girl
  • M: Dad I told you to stop doing that, I'm going to college!
  • B: But you'll always be my baby girl
  • M: God you're so cheesy
  • Mae rolls her eyes and Robin laughs
  • R: Are you excited?
  • M: Are you kidding me? It's gonna be legen - wait for it - dary! Legendary! Plus, lots of college hotties
  • B: That's my girl!
  • Barney and Mae high five and Robin rolls her eyes
  • R: You do remember we're going to Canada in two weeks right?
  • M: Of course! Not gonna miss the Scherbatsky's annual hockey game on the year we kick aunt Katie's team in the ass
  • R: Now, that is MY girl!
  • Robin and Mae high five and Barney smiles
  • M: Why are we going to uncle Ted's again?
  • B: It's the anniversary of the gang
  • R: The day they met me twenty five years ago
  • M: Wait does that mean aunt Lily is cooking?
  • R: No, I think it's aunt Tracy's turn
  • M: Thank god, aunt Lil's "gourmet" taste kills me
  • R: Yeah, don't ever tell her that
  • M: I know, I know "Aldrin justice"
  • B: Your aunt Lily is an evil mastermind that must not be toyed with. We're serious
  • M: Sometimes I think you guys overreact
  • Barney and Robin exchange a serious look
  • R/B: Just don't tell her
  • M: Wow, okay
  • They arrive at the Mosby household and Robin stops the car, as soon as she does Mae jumps out and runs for the door screaming she'll get revenge on Marvin and Daisy for whatever new prank they pulled on her, her parents stay in the car watching
  • R: Does it ever bother you?
  • B: What?
  • R: That she doesn't look like us
  • B: Robin, she's exactly my type
  • R/B: Asian with some boob
  • They say it at the same time
  • B: Yeah!
  • R: That's disturbing
  • B: For once I agree let's never say it again
  • He's starting to get out of the car but Robin holds his arm to keep him in place
  • R: Seriously, does it? Bother you I mean?
  • B: Robin, I think if we did have children that were of our own blood they still wouldn't be as perfect as Mae is, so no, it doesn't
  • Robin smiles
  • R: Thank you
  • B: For what?
  • R: Everything
  • B: I agreed to a divorce three years into our marriage why are you thanking me
  • She slaps his arm once again playfully
  • B: Okay, you know what, it was entirely my pleasure
  • Their eyes lock and they smile in perfect sync leaning in for a kiss but are interrupted by Mae shouting from the door
  • M: Hey! Are you guys coming or what?
  • R: We'll be there in a second!
  • Robin gives Barney a quick kiss and they get out of the car and walk toward the house, their second pair of wedding rings gleam under the sunlight
if big hero 6 had a gag reel, part 3
  • Fred: *offscreen* W-what the--I can't open up the suit! Okay! Which of you put superglue on my suit again?!
  • ------
  • Baymax: *tries his rocket fist; an explosion happens and he is sent flying backwards while his fist falls to the ground* Oh no.
  • -----
  • Abigail: Well, we all invited them here. Might as well give them a show. And I don't mean the one we usually put on when we're in bed. *blinks* Wait, what--
  • Callaghan: ...Damn it, Krei, were you sneaking things into Abby's script again?
  • Krei: *whistles*
  • -----
  • Hiro: Let's get you back onto your charging station--
  • *as he places Baymax on it, a power outage happens*
  • Hiro: ...Well, this shoot's postponed until later, then.
  • Baymax: Baaaaby hairy--baaaaaby hairyyyyyy.....
  • -----
  • Wasabi: I spilled wasabi on my shirt one time, people. One--time! *punches door, but it quickly swings back and smacks him hard on his face*
  • Fred: *offscreen, holding back laughter* How's about a new nickname, then? Involving doors this time?
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  • *after shooting*
  • Krei: *sitting by Abigail's stretcher* Too bad we don't have a makeout scene, huh, Abby?
  • Callaghan: *offscreen* Not on my watch, creep.
  • Abby: It's a PG-13 film, Krei; do you want Disney to have their first animated film that's rated R?
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  • Hiro: Baymax, destroy. *pulls away chip and throws it away*
  • Baymax: *optics go red, then turns into flashing strobe lights as rave music plays from his chest*
  • Everyone: ...
  • Gogo: Y'know, the only thing missing is if his rocket fist shoots out confetti--
  • Baymax: *shoots out confetti from his fist*
  • Gogo: ...okay then.
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  • Hiro: *is reading a comic book with a questionable cover that Fred gave him*
  • Fred: *pops up* That's-- *gasps, snatches it away from him* YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO SEE THAT!
  • Hiro: Not my fault you just snatched whatever comic you could find!
  • Tadashi: *offscreen, actually on the director's chair* Fred, I'm gonna kill you for that.
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  • Gogo: *throws a disc towards Yokai, it decaptitates what is now revealed as a test dummy dressed up as Yokai*
  • Yokai: *standing beside Gogo* Good thing that wasn't me.
  • Gogo: Nah, I think your skull's thick enough to withstand the blow.
  • Yokai: I don't know whether to be flattered by that...
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  • Gogo: *in the middle of driving the car away from Yokai when the car slows down, grinding to a halt, while Yokai himself stops going after them, confused* What the...
  • Wasabi: Oh...I thought I had this thing refilled before we started shooting...
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  • Hiro: *reaches for the nursing chip in Baymax's armored fist when the hand closes on his* Wh-wha-what-- *tries pulling it out, but is stuck*
  • Tadashi: *offscreen, laughing his head off, holding a remote that controls the armored fist* Got you good there, didn't you, bro?
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  • Fred: *in his suit, tries to run, but is stuck* Seriously?! You guys put superglue on the suit again?!
  • Wasabi: *snickers while stuffing the tube of superglue away in his pocket*
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  • *The group are in the destroyed portal room, and Hiro heads for the control station, and notices the giant screen with the Silent Sparrow logo on it. He presses a button and a video of Krei and Abby in a bedroom plays instead.*
  • Baymax: Oh no.
  • Honey: Oh my god--
  • Fred: *instinctively covers Hiro's eyes*
  • Wasabi: I'm pretty sure this isn't in the script...
  • Gogo: Are you kidding me...?
  • Krei: *offscreen* Oh, sorry! I was downloading my files to my hard drive there.
  • Callaghan and Abby: *offscreen* Seriously, Krei?
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  • *the tenth take of the scene*
  • Tadashi: Welcome to nerd school, nerd.
  • Hiro: *bursts into laughter*
  • Tadashi: What the heck, Hiro, why are you laughing this time?
  • Hiro: *snorts* I-I just remembered how you made that same face with Gogo, trying to flirt with her, and--
  • Tadashi: *smacks him upside the head* Bonehead.
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  • Hiro: Megabot, destroy.
  • Megabot: *his face switches to a trollface*
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  • Yokai: *gestures for the microbots to throw Wasabi away, but the microbots stay in place* What the...
  • Wasabi: *holds up a tube of superglue* Who knew these worked on microbots too?
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  • Tadashi: This is Tadashi Hamada, and is the 29th test.
  • Baymax: *starts playing dubstep*
  • Tadashi: *steps back and starts breakdancing to hell, but then crashing into his toolbox, then staggers to his feet* Good thing this isn't going to be shown in the film...
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  • Krei: *backstage, wearing a Hawaiian shirt and shorts* Why can't they make my character wear this every time? I mean, other executives do this; have you seen that Lasseter guy?
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  • Baymax: *waddles out of Tadashi's side of the room, then over to Hiro, waving his hand* Hola. Soy Baymax. Su compañero de la salud personal.
  • Hiro: H-hey-- *blinks* Did Tadashi include a multilanguage feature in you too?
  • Baymax: Instructus sum cum lv ut interpellatio linguis omnium corporis erant. (I am equipped with fifty different languages to suit everyone's personal needs.)
  • Tadashi: *offscreen* Whoops, I forgot to turn that off, sorry...
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  • Baymax: My hands are equipped with defibrillators. Clear. *the defibs crackle and explode*
  • Hiro: *genuinely terrified* NOW I REALLY DON'T WANT DEFIBS ON ME--
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  • Tadashi: *in the 84th test video* That's all for now. I am satisfied with my care. *video stops*
  • Hiro: *tearfully reaches out to hold the screen, but then the screen flickers*
  • Tadashi: Hey, knucklehead. Getting better at crying, are we? *waves at the camera* Don't worry, this is a live feed; I'm far from dead, okay?
  • Hiro: *chuckles* That he is, yeah.

anonymous asked:

hei Tara :3 how do you think Garrus coped with his scarring?how did it affect him ? I imagine it would affect a person beyond just skin deep. the healing process would have been a trying hurdle in itself. I really want to hear what you think. as always you are lovely :) just something I've been curious about for a while and I'm sorry if I bothered. and thank you for writing. can't wait for your novels.

(Thank you so much!! <3 What a lovely compliment!)

So, your mileage may vary with this, but I’ve got a lot of personal headcanon wrapped up in Garrus’ scars. Let me show you some! (If yours is different, no worries. It’s a big sandbox. Plenty of Garruses to go around.)

Garrus was seriously wounded. The games always make it seem as though things happen magically fast. Take a rocket to the face? Bounce back twelve hours later! Wheee! I tend to think this is not the case. I think they dragged Garrus back as little more than a barely-breathing corpse, and I think Dr. Chakwas outdid herself putting him back together (in my canon Mordin’s not on the ship yet), the whole time terrified of what it would do to Shepard if Garrus was lost. I think, looking at the damage done to his armor, he was sporting a lot more than just some cosmetic face damage. Dr. Chakwas pulls out a miracle, but Garrus is far, far from healed. I think the conversation with Shepard happens days after the fact, and that Jacob is trying to brace Shepard for what looks to be Garrus’ loss, or permanent incapacitation. And Jacob’s pretty sure she’s not going to take it well. At all.

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