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The Accidental Kiss part 2
  • <p> <b></b> Riley is back at her locker. Maya finds her.<p/><b>Maya:</b> Riley Matthews, what are you doing?<p/><b>Riley:</b> Isn't it obvious? I'm putting my books away.<p/><b>Maya:</b> I meant with Farkle. He's one of your best friends and you won't talk to each other.<p/><b>Riley:</b> About that. I have a plan. I'm going to act like an adult.<p/><b>Maya:</b> You're going to talk to him?<p/><b>Riley:</b> No. I'm going to ignore my problems until it goes away.<p/><b>Maya:</b> (rolls her eyes) That's mature.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I know. Oh, you were being sarcastic, weren't you?<p/><b>Maya:</b> You need to talk to him.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I can't.<p/><b>Maya:</b> Why not?<p/><b>Riley:</b> Because.<p/><b>Maya:</b> I need more.<p/><b></b> Riley looks around to see if anybody else is in the hallway.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Because I have feelings for Farkle and I'm afraid he won't feel the same.<p/><b>Maya:</b> That's it?<p/><b>Riley:</b> What do you mean "that's it"?<p/><b>Maya:</b> Have you seen the way that Farkle looks at you?<p/><b>Riley:</b> No. How does he look at me?<p/><b>Maya:</b> The same way that Matthews looks at mashed potatoes.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Really?<p/><b>Maya:</b> He looks at you like you're his whole universe. Farkle would do anything for you. He even kept Pluto a planet in his room for you.<p/><b>Riley:</b> But why hasn't Farkle wanted to talk to me about the kiss?<p/><b>Maya:</b> He's insecure. He's going through the same thing you are. He probably doesn't think you have feelings for him.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I don't know what to say to him.<p/><b>Maya:</b> Say how you feel.<p/><b>Riley:</b> After school.<p/><b>Maya:</b> No. Now! You will find another excuse if you wait.<p/><b>Riley:</b> You can't make me.<p/><b>Maya:</b> (Smiles) Can't I?<p/><b></b> Riley's face turns pale.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Maya, don't.<p/><b></b> Maya raises her hand.<p/><b>Maya:</b> Ring Power! Now you have to.<p/><b>Riley:</b> One day, I'll get you back for this.<p/><b>Maya:</b> No you won't. Let's find Farkle and the boys.<p/><b></b> They start walking down the hallway when they see Lucas and Zay standing outside the Janitor's closet.<p/><b>Maya:</b> Um, where's Farkle?<p/><b>Zay:</b> He wouldn't talk so we did the next best thing.<p/><b>Maya:</b> And that would be....<p/><b>Lucas:</b> We locked him in this closet.<p/><b>Maya:</b> How is that the next best thing?<p/><b>Zay:</b> It's the only thing we could come up with at the time.<p/><b>Maya:</b> This is my fault.<p/><b>Riley:</b> How?<p/><b>Maya:</b> I trusted these two bozos.<p/><b>Lucas and Zay:</b> Hey!<p/><b>Maya:</b> Riley, go in there and talk to Farkle.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I can't. I don't like small spaces.<p/><b>Maya:</b> Remember you can't break the rules of ring power or there'll be consequences.<p/><b>Lucas:</b> What will happen?<p/><b>Maya:</b> You really want to find out Huckleberry?<p/><b></b> Lucas moves back.<p/><b>Lucas:</b> No.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Fine. I'll go in.<p/><b></b> Riley unlocks the door and walks in. Riley see Farkle and smiles.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Hi.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Hi.<p/><b></b> Riley closes the door. They stare at each other.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I don't know what to say.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Neither do I.<p/><b></b> Outside the closet.<p/><b>Zay:</b> So, what do you think they're talking about?<p/><b></b> Lucas and Maya glare at him.<p/><b></b> Janitor's closet.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Farkle, why can't we talk to each other anymore? We never had a problem before.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I don't know. I guess the kiss change everything.<p/><b>Riley:</b> But why? Why should we let it affect us?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> We shouldn't.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Good, because I really need to talk to my best friend.<p/><b></b> Farkle smiles.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> What do you want to talk about?<p/><b>Riley:</b> The kiss.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Oh.<p/><b></b> To be continued...<p/></p>

Cas is twenty-six and has never been kissed. It’s never been a problem, but now his advisor is saying that his dissertation, a romance novel, is lacking a personal touch and won’t be liked by the board. With one day until it is due Cas is at wits end, but maybe his roommate, Dean, can give him a few pointers. 2.9k [AO3 Link]

“You love me?” Jo asked with wide, open eyes.

Anna nodded back timidly and tried to walk away, but Jo caught her arm before she could make her escape.

“How long? How long, Anna?” she demanded. “How long have you loved me?”

Anna may have been an angel, bright and powerful and able to smite Jo in an instant, but in that moment, the angel looked completely and utterly human. Her eyes were downcast and her lip was perched between her teeth. She looked terrified, which was beyond Jo. How could an angel of the Lord be terrified of a simple human like her?

“Ever since I pulled you from Hell,” she whispered. “When I touched your soul, it was the purest thing I’ve ever felt in my life. From that first caress of your being, I knew that I’d Fall for you, Jo. I just knew.”

“Anna…” Jo trailed off, because what the hell. How could an angel love her, a hunter? It didn’t make any sense, because angels hated hunters. The only reason Jo was topside was because she was a pawn in their games, and even though she thought Anna wasn’t like the others, she still had doubts at times. She thought that Anna was just putting up with her, that Jo’s love for the angel was unrequited.

“I should go,” Anna said as she turned on her heel. Her large, obsidian wings flew out, ready for flight.

Jo felt herself panic as Anna crouched down. She couldn’t let her angel leave, not after a confession like that one.

“No you don’t,” Jo said, reaching forward and turning Anna around. With a fire within her, Jo leaned in and

“Their lips…no. They touch one another with their mouths…no. They…uh…mack on one another for a long time…the end.” Cas pushed his laptop away and ran fingers through his hair, groaning. “This is impossible,” he muttered to himself, and brought his elbows up onto the table.

He’d rewritten the ending scene with Anna and Jo’s kiss a thousand times, but it never worked out. Professor Mills cited a lack of personal touch, and told him to base the kiss on his own experiences. “Add a little raunchiness, will ya?” she said to him with an upturned grin. He nodded and laughed along at the time, but now he was truly panicking. He was never going to finish his dissertation before tomorrow’s board presentation, and it would all be because he’s the only twenty-six year old on the planet who has never been kissed.

It wasn’t like he hadn’t tried before. Back in college, Cas was almost kissed a few times, the closest being when he was playing a drunken game of spin the bottle with his floormates. It landed on a girl named Meg, a feisty business major who was known for her escapades in the bedroom, but when she leaned in and tried to kiss him, he couldn’t do it. When Cas imagined his first kiss, it always was with someone he really cared about, not some girl from Edlund Hall that he barely knew.

“Yeah, wait until you find the perfect person to kiss. That’ll do you a lot of good,” Cas angrily muttered to himself as he pulled his computer back towards him. The cursor blinked back at him mockingly, and Cas carefully began typing.

“With a fire within her, Jo leaned in and grabbed Anna’s face-”

“No, no, no!” Cas cried out as he pounded on the keys. Even if he had no experience, why couldn’t he write this damn scene? Kissing was not rocket science, and he’s read enough romance novels in his life. Why can’t he just write a few lines and get it over with?

“Cas?”

He cringed when Dean’s voice hit his ears. The last thing he needed was his roommate seeing him all up in arms over this, especially since he was the one Cas had been trying to get the courage to kiss for years now. He quickly thought that if he wasn’t such a coward, then maybe he’d be able to not fail out of his dissertation.

“In my bedroom!” Cas called out, and began fruitlessly typing nonsense as Dean’s footsteps ricocheted off the hardwood floors, stopping when he reached Cas’s door.

“You okay?” Dean asked, and Cas turned around to see his friend leaning against the doorframe, lips turned up into a smirk as he toed the ground with his boot.

Perhaps it’s heightened by Cas’s troubles, but Dean looked even more handsome than usual. His jeans were rolled up at the bottom, revealing his ankles, and his white t-shirt was dirtied from his work shift at the garage. Combined with his playful gaze and his hands in his pockets, Cas felt himself blanching.

“Earth to Cas? You there, buddy?” Dean said as nodded in his direction.

Cas blinked owlishly a few times before going back to his laptop. “Yes, I’m sorry. I’m just trying to finish my dissertation.”

Dean walked over to his computer and peered over Cas’s shoulder. He could feel Dean’s breath on his neck, and it took everything in him to not turn his head and close the distance between them. It would be the perfect moment to get experience-

“Wow, this sucks,” Dean snorted, and alas, the moment was broken.

Cas glared up at Dean and pushed away from his desk. “You think it’s crappy? I’m presenting this to the board tomorrow,” Cas reminded him with emphasis. “And you decide to tell me now that it’s crappy?”

Dean held up his hands and backed away into the bed. He plopped down and replied, “Crappy isn’t the right word. It’s just…lacking. Jo grabbed Anna’s face and kissed her until they broke apart tells me nothing,” he said, quoting the last thing Cas wrote down. “I want to read about what the kiss felt like for Jo, you know?”

Cas took a deep breath and took a seat next to Dean. He folded his hands in his lap and glanced out the window, then asked the question that had been on his mind all day. “What does it feel like to be kissed, Dean?”

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Aftermath

“Riley.“

She sat still, hands folded staring at the chalkboard.

“Riley.”

Still she sat giving no indication that she had heard him.

“RILEY!”

Riley jumped, her leg slamming on the underside of the desk so hard Farkle was sure she was going to have a bruise come tomorrow.

“What do you want Farkle?” Riley snapped, as she rubbed her throbbing knee, “In case you haven’t noticed we’re in detention and Mr. Matthews said we weren’t allowed to do anything besides breathe.”

Farkle fidgeted with his jacket zipper, “I know but you haven’t talked to me in weeks, I miss you Riles.”

“Don’t even start with that Farkle, you know why I haven’t spoken to you. And I’m still not planning on it. Not even if it’s your fault that I have detention in the first place.” She finally turned around to look at him. “Stop. Trying. To. Give. Me. Notes. I. Do. Not. Want. Them.” She enunciated each word sharper than the last until she was all but yelling at him.

“Riley-I.”

But she had already turned her back on him.

“Riley.”

“Farkle please,” her voice was so tired and beaten that it was enough to make Farkle pause, “Stop.” Her last word was barely a whisper and he heard her sniffle even though he knew she had tried to hide it.

“I’m sorry.”

He heard her sniffle once more, “Sorry doesn’t fix things.”

“Riley-”

“No Farkle, I told you stop. I told you be quiet. I told you to give me space. I told you to leave me alone.”

She was up on her feet yelling at him through her tears.

“Farkle, why can’t you just leave me alone? Things were great just the way they were. Why couldn’t you just leave it alone?”

“I did the right thing Riley, you know I did. Just forgive me so we can move past this. Everyone else has why can’t you? Please forgive me,” Farkle begged. “I want to move past this.

"Well I can’t. And I won’t.

— part of a fic i’ll never finish

a hella long list of random lyric sentence starters (pt. 7)
  • "I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well."
  • "Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere."
  • "If she really knows the truth, she deserves you."
  • "Never again will I kiss you, never again will I want to."
  • "After today then there's nothing you owe me."
  • "I'm so glad that you came, I needed someone who loves me."
  • "Don't try to talk yourself into this love."
  • "You can't try to stay, you either will or you won't."
  • "You think you're smarter than me with all your bad poetry."
  • "I'm not a little kid now, watch me get big now."
  • "I feel like I'm just missing something whenever you leave."
  • "I'm taking back what's mine."
  • "You'll miss the slice of heaven that I gave to you last night."
  • "You're just a piece of meat to me."
  • "They say love grows, but I've only seen it die."
  • "I'm too young to feel like I'm runnin' out of time."
  • "I get so scared thinkin' I'll never get over you."
  • "Maybe I'll never get over you."
  • "I met someone new and now I'm scared to go all the way."
  • "I can't get through to you."
  • "I can calm you."
  • "I'm out of my mind; think you can wait?"
  • "I won't make trouble."
  • "I'll try, but I couldn't be better."
  • "Stay with me among the strangers."
  • "Hold on, what's the rush? We're not done, are we?"
  • "You can stay one more hour... can you stay one more hour?"
  • "You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me."
  • "You know I'm gonna find a time to catch your hand and make you stay."
  • "I'll be here when it's all done you know."
  • "What's the point in chasing if I can't enjoy your face?"
  • "I don't care what clothes you wear, it's time to love and I don't care."
  • "And if I was running, you'd be the one who I would be running to."
  • "I am not lying, I am just trying to find my way in to you."
  • "Love everything you do when you call me fucking dumb for the stupid shit I do."
  • "I wanna ride my bike with you."
  • "It's not like I'm asking to be your wife."
  • "I wanna make you mine, but that's hard to say."
  • "Is this coming off in a cheesy way?"
  • "There's a little bit of heaven in everyone."
  • "Love will lead us all to smithereens."
  • "Everybody knows the world's about to end."
  • "I know those pretty actresses are calling your name."
  • "I'll be here waiting, I'll always be the same."
  • "You were supposed to be there by my side."
  • "When you say that you want me, I just don't believe it."
  • "You're always ready to give up."
  • "What if I need you, baby? Would you even try to save me?"
  • "I'm so sick of worrying that you're gonna quit over anything."
  • "Should I be scared?"
  • "You were comforting and quiet, how did love become so violent?"
  • "Everything was so sweet until you tried to kill me."
  • "I'm so unprepared, I'm fucking scared."
  • "Does it trouble your mind the way you trouble mine?"
  • "Have you given up?"
  • "I used to be a little bit shy."
  • "Speaking up to you about my emotions has always been hard."
  • "Don't let me stop you from doing what you want to do."
  • "Just don't pretend that you're into me."
  • "You tell me that I'm beautiful, but that could be a lie."
  • "What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?"
  • "I'm always watchin' for someone to show their darker side."
  • "I was young, but I wasn't naive."
  • "My love for you was blind, but I couldn't make you see it."
  • "I loved you more than you'll ever know."
  • "A part of me died when I let you go."
  • "Chasing after you is like a fairytale."
  • "It’s all fun and games 'til somebody falls in love."
  • "I learned a lot about being a friend when I was alone."
  • "I've made more mistakes than you can count."
  • "Are you too nervous to be lovers?"
  • "Friendship's ruined with just one kiss."
  • "I can't keep starin' at your mouth without wonderin' how it tastes."
  • "I'm with another boy and he tried to win my heart, but it's taken."
  • "I'm giving you the lead."
  • "I won't make the move, you must make the move."
  • "Don't second-guess your feelings, you were right from the start."
  • "I notice she's your lover, but she's nowhere near your heart."
  • "I think it's very dangerous if we do not take what's ours."
  • "I'm winning you with words because I have no other way."
  • "I'd love to look into your face without your eyes turning away."
  • "I’d call you up but I know you’re not alone."
  • "Maybe all that we were meant to be is beautifully unfinished."
  • "I hate you and I love you and I wish you’d go away."
  • "I hate you and I love you and I wish that you would stay."
  • "Kids are still depressed when you dress them up."
  • "He doesn't think I'm that fucking dumb, does he?"
  • "Remember all the things we wanted?"
  • "All our memories, they're haunted."
  • "We were always meant to say goodbye."
  • "I didn't come here to hurt you, now I can't stop."
  • "You couldn't have loved me better, but I want you to move on."
  • "I know that you'll find another that doesn't always make you wanna cry."
  • "I love you enough to let you go."
  • "I grow fonder every day."
  • "God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go."
  • "I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before."
  • "You never know if you never try to forgive your past and simply be mine."
  • "Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close?"
  • "I dare you to let me be your one and only."
  • "Give me the chance to prove that I'm the one."
  • "I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart."
  • "That basic bitch leaves finally."
  • "Was he yours, if he wanted me so bad?"
  • "She’s getting on my nerves."
  • "You don’t love her."
  • "Loving her seems tiring."
  • "I know you don't think that I am trying."
  • "A girl like you is impossible to find."
  • "I always swore to you I'd never fall apart."
  • "I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start."
  • "I can tell how much you hate this and deep down inside you know it's killin' me."
  • "Nothing I can say would change anything."
  • "Such young love, but something in me knew that it was real."
  • "I live through pictures as if I was right there by your side."
  • "You’ll be good without me and if I could just give it some time, I’ll be alright."
  • "I didn't think it'd happen, but I guess it had to happen."
  • "I want you back here, can't you see?"
  • "Gonna take more than just time."
  • "I know I did you wrong, but now it's said and done and I'm sorry."
  • "Yeah I took and broke your heart and your world was torn apart, but I'm sorry."
  • "Touch me when the lights go off... but don't fall in love."
  • "Babe, there's something tragic about you, something so magic about you."
  • "There's something lonesome about you."
  • "You call me on the telephone, you feel so far away."
  • "I don't want to play no games."
  • "I'm tired of always chasing."
  • "I don't give a fuck about you anyways, whoever said I gave a shit about you?"
  • "I wish I didn't care all the time."
  • "All I ever wanted was a simple way to get over you."
  • "I don't believe you when you say you don't need me anymore."
  • "Don't pretend to not love me at all."
  • "The passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?"
  • "Don't you ever say I just walked away, I will always want you."
  • "All you ever did was wreck me."
  • "I just wanted you to let me in."
  • "I thought you were my best friend."
  • "You're not the girl I once knew."
  • "It's such an evil thing to watch someone have jealousy."
  • "Nobody wins when you're full of envy."
  • "I was always happy when I was watchin' you become a star, but you were only happy when the world was openin' up my scars."
  • "You sold yourself for your fame."
  • "Did you really mean the words that you said?"
  • "Show me the truth."
  • "I should have told you, but I never had the courage and I thought you really wouldn’t understand."
  • "Tell me, are you who I thought you were or who I wanted you to be?"
  • "Why do I feel so deceived? Guess I believed what I wanted to believe."
  • "You're the only one who knows exactly what I mean." "You're not what I expected."
  • "You're the only one who knows how to handle me."
  • "You're such a great kisser and I know that you agree."
  • "I hope you can forgive me for that time when I put my hand between your legs and said it was small 'cause its really not at all."
  • "I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down just to keep you around, 'cause the day that you realize how amazing you are you're gonna leave me."
  • "I will not make the same mistakes that you did."
  • "I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery."
  • "Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me."
  • "You should have known better than to lean on me."