i can't explain my love for them


Autistic Newt Scamander Headcanons
  • - What is eye contact?
  • - animals are better than people cuz people try to look you in the eyes and talk to you
  • - I want to hug you but I'm not good with physical affection so I'll just pat you awkwardly yay good talk
  • - I can't eat this it contains the Forbidden Food
  • - I need to cut all the tags off my clothes because I don't want them TOUCHING ME
  • - *Hangs out with the pet at parties*
  • - Vocal stims
  • - Flappy hands
  • - Im trying to explain this but my words aren't working I'll just show you instead
  • - the Forbidden Fabric has touched me but I'm okay, I'm good. I'm definitely not about to have a meltdown
  • - *infodumps to show love*

new favorite trope: anime girls hiding bandaged hands after working tirelessly on something for someone they cared about

thenoblescosplay  asked:

Browsed through your blog today and noticed Love and Hate have some new designs! If you don't mind me asking, are they their new official designs? Or like Older/Younger forms? Either way they look adorable! Can't wait to see more!

Excuse the confusion, I didn’t explain the “why” of those clothes so that’s my fault, I’m sorry for that.ʕ´• ᴥ •`ʔ
Actually those little Love and Hate with the capes are them when they were children.

I haven’t had much free time to draw so I could not paint it. I will finish it later.~

anonymous asked:

Okay but, I really like the Love Square. I don't like any other ship aside from the Love Square that's the only ship I'll ever like. I don't get why me not liking other ships makes me homophobic?? I also don't ship Alyanette because I see them just as best friends and I think the show only sees them as that too. I'm never gonna ship them as a couple so I don't get why that makes people awful and homophobic. You can't just make people make ships more popular

you and a few other people have left similar questions in my inbox so i’m going to do my best to explain this. there seem to be other users who are also confused. i really recommend you read @chatchevalier  ‘s explanation here since she also spoke about this. 

first, let’s get the easy thing taken care of. the prevailing argument from most of the queer people in fandom who made posts yesterday was we want you to respect our ships. respect. that means no sending us hate, no bashing our ships, no tagging onto our fics and art and posts about how much you don’t ship our ship. don’t like? don’t engage. i think everyone can agree on that point. 

now what seems to be tripping people up is the whole “queer ships being unpopular is homophobia” sentiment that’s spreading around. i want to make this clear, this is in no way meant to shame people for their ships. i’m a multi-shipper myself and ship most if not all the ships in this fandom involving the miraculous class. what i’m trying to draw attention to is fandom trends and consistent fandom behavior. 

so, i’l use the example i showed in my screenshots on the original post going around. oftentimes, i get people who come into my inbox telling me how much they hate chlonette (chloe x marinette) because it ships a bully with their victim. now that in and of itself isn’t homophobia i think we can all agree. you’re allowed to dislike that ship for that reason. i think a lot of people react to chlolya (chloe x alya) for the same reasons. 

but let’s look at chlonath (chloe x nathanael). we arguably run into a similar problem. chloe being paired with someone she bullies. chlonath is particularly interesting because chloe and nathanael don’t interact very often (maybe a total of 10 seconds in “evillustrator”). chloe interacts with alya more, and interacts with marinette much much more. but look at the popularity of each of these ships. (i’ll be using # of ao3 stories as a proxy for this). 

Chloe Bourgeois/Alya Cesaire: 38
Chloe Bourgeois/Marinette Dupain-Cheng: 90
Chloe Bourgeois/Nathanael Kurtzberg: 125

despite the fact that chloe has barely interacted with nathanael and bullies him right along with the other classmates, chlonath is more popular than chlonette and chlolya. this is also a good time to point out that this is the only straight ship of the bunch. 

this happens in media a lot. you have a common trope introduced, in this case it’s a bully/bullied relationship becoming a romantic relationship. another common one off the top of my head is the friends to lovers trope. now when we see it applied to a straight pairing, we love it. adrienette friends to lovers is ridiculously popular, and it seems that the bully/bullied to lovers trope in chlonath is also compelling to people. but the moment these same tropes are attached to a queer pairing, interest plummets. which is why chlolya and chlonette are less popular despite those characters interacting more in canon, and why alyanette is always seen as “just two friends” even though they interact more than adrien and marinette do. 

and, to top it all off: i’m gonna bet my bank account that users get more hate for shipping chlonette and chlolya than they do chlonath. 

we do this unconsciously as a result of heteronormativity ingrained into us through continued exposure to societal homophobia. everyone is socialized to think that heterosexuality is preferred. it’s why there’s so much straight romance on tv, and it’s why gay people are still getting fired for their sexuality in the US. we can’t help this stuff, but if you learn to look for it, it’s easy to see. the fact that we enjoy certain tropes as they are applied to straight ships but not those same tropes as they are applied to queer ship…..is an example homophobia. internalized homophobia, implicit homophobia, subtle homophobia but homophobia nonetheless

if you ship chlonath but not chlonette, this doesn’t mean you’re homophobic. but when you look at macro-level trends like ship popularity in fandom, you see patterns that are anything but a coincidence. it’s no coincidence that this pattern of popularity matches up with patterns of hate. chlonette and chlolya get questioned more, people get more hate for it. chlonath doesn’t get nearly the amount. it’s very subtle, but this is the kind of implicit homophobia you see in media. 

now the solution is not to force you to like pairings you don’t like. not at all. this is just something to be aware of and something to consider when people wonder “why are queer ships getting all this hate?” queer shippers notice this because we’re hyper aware of the popularity of our ships. if you deal only in the love square it’s hard to see this, so we’re just pointing this out. 

we’re not telling you to ship our ships. we’re not asking for more popularity. we just want you to acknowledge fandom homophobia and keep people from bullying us for the queer content we produce. 


TOP 10 TV SHIPS  03. Luke and Lorelai

“I don’t think I ever really loved anyone. Until Luke.”

roarofdragon  asked:

¡Hey! I love your Voltron Family AU, I readed it all. I can say I cried almost with all of them just because ALL STORIES ARE TOO ADORABLE AND I CAN'T WITH MY EMOTIONS. With the last one, Keith in a wheelchair (YES, I CRYED BC OH MY GOD, WHY MY BABY?!) , you said it was beacuse of old age so may I request ¿Keith and Shiro reactions when they knew it? (Last thing, sorry if I can't explained myself very weel, english is not my mother language</3)

Awww, sweetheart your English is fine! Don’t worry about it! Oh gosh you read all the posts? <3 And yes, Keith in a wheelchair made me cry too ;______; 

PREVIOUS: When Shiro proposed for the 50th time.

[The Voltron Family] Keith woke up and blinked his eyes repeatedly to get rid of the sleepiness. He looked around and Shiro was sleeping beside him, hand draped over his tummy and Keith could see four rings. He smiled quietly to himself. Four rings meant four weddings. Shiro and him got married four times and never would’ve Little Keith imagined he’d get married four times to the same man in this lifetime, but he did and he couldn’t stop himself from being emotional about it.

The house was too quiet, their not-so-little-kids were no longer living with them and suddenly, Keith was flooded with the realization once again that the house was too big and too quiet without the other three voices he grew to love so much. He took a deep breath, fighting the tear to fall from his eyes. He was old. Shiro was old. They were both old and they were 88.

Shiro and him were married for 58 years now and Keith wanted to cry. He could still remember seeing Shiro for the first time when he was 22 in school, proposed when he was 30 even though he was ace, and on the same year they got married and Keith gave something he treasured only to Shiro and he regretted nothing. It stopped when Keith turned 55 because he requested it (although a bit hesitant at first), and Shiro, Keith’s ever-so-loving husband, understood and hugged him so tight that night and reassured him that it would never change anything between them. 

It never did. Keith cried so much as Shiro held him one last time.

Keith took a deep breath and caressed Shiro’s sleeping face and smiled. For 58 years he loved Shiro more and more that he didn’t even know he could possibly love a person this much, and yet here he was. He was getting sappy at 8 in the morning and it needed to stop. He needed to get up to pee so he slowly moved Shiro’s hand away from him so he could start their day.

Shiro suddenly woke up when he heard a loud thud. He looked around and panicked when he saw Keith fell on the floor beside their bed.

Shiro: *offers his hand* Keith! Are you alright?
Keith: *looks up* *starts tearing up as he massages his legs* Shiro…
Shiro: *smiles softly* Hey, it’s alright, sweetheart. Let me—
Keith: *shakes his head* Takashi, I can’t feel my legs.

And that was how Keith was told by the doctor that he needed a wheelchair if he wanted to move around. The doctor left them alone to talk in private.

Shiro: *caresses Keith’s arm* Keith…
Keith: Takashi, don’t.
Shiro: *sighs* It’s not the end of the world.
Keith: *looks up* I. Can’t. Walk.
Shiro: Then I’ll carry you.
Keith: *scoffs* You can’t do that. You’re just as old as I am. You can’t carry me everywhere.
Shiro: Yes, I can and I will.
Keith: *shakes his head* No you won’t. You’ll have to carry me to bed, to the kitchen, down the stairs. Heck, you’ll have to carry me when I want to pee!
Shiro: And I WILL.
Keith: *shakes head* *tears started to fall* Shiro, I told you, you can’t. 
Shiro: And I told you that I can and I will. *cups Keith’s face* In sickness and in health, til death do us part, remember?
Keith: What if your bone cracks when you carry me? You’ll lose your mobility too.
Shiro: *gives Keith a peck on the lips* Then we’ll be that old married couple in wheelchairs. I think that’ll be cute. *wipes Keith’s tears*
Keith: Your definition of cute is definitely not in the dictionary. *chuckles* Who will push our wheelchairs?
Shiro: *scoffs* Please, Keith! Don’t be so barbaric! We’ll get those fancy expensive wheelchairs with controls and we can even race!
Keith: *laughs* You are such a dork. 

a letter I can't write I want you to read

dear Em,

to say that
I still love you
is an understatement
it’s a subterranean
sentence with
poor grammar
those words aren’t enough,
the english language
hasn’t evolved to a point
to poignantly explain
why my heart tells my brain
to keep my eyes open
when I want them to seal shut

this is where it ends
sign my name
put it in an envelope
go to the post office
grab cupholder change
lick a stamp
mail it certified so
I know when it’s
I won’t know
if your hands will open the

you know the dark
has never stopped me
from anything

this is where it begins
every line
I put down
every time
I write you
I feel like I’m drowning
in who we were
I feel like I’m dying
with every word
sometimes I want to stop
sometimes I want to quit trying
sometimes I want to
erase everything
start over

I want to see your blue eyes
through the green flowerbed
bush for the first time
would it change anything?

would we still dance that
saturday night when I knew
we couldn’t be friends?
would it change the way we
held hands on the hood of
my car and tried to catch
those falling stars with our lips?
would my heart close the night
you knew we were falling in love
we cried because you told me
you would just wind up hurting me?

in the end
you didn’t give
the killing blow

if I told you to run away
if I told you that I erased
every day we said I love you
if I told you that I would
hurt you in a way I can’t
find words to explain?
I know we found other people
I know I never stopped loving you
I know you needed to move on
but I’m not sure if you really
wanted to

Time machines are
unnecessary fantasies

I close my eyes
I see yours
I would hold you closer
as the music played
I would stay on my hood
until the sun brought morning
I would leave my heart open
because love isn’t silk
would you stay?
would you help me erase?
would you put a finger to my
let my tears try to apologise?

I found her
looking for you
did you find him
looking for me?
are there still pieces buried
in places you don’t like to
visit that still belong to me?
I have a dirty shovel so
you don’t need to ask
that question.

I think you’ve always known
the answer

I signed my name with blood
of the person
I never wanted to be
I took off layers of my heart
folded and tied
sheets together neatly
I listened to a playlist
that resurrected our city
streets before everything
I emptied a handful of our silver
and bronze shapes I can’t keep
I licked the shadows of the sun
to stick them in the western corner
this letter is beyond words,
beyond poetry
beyond art

I know that you know that
I just don’t know
if you want to help

me erase it

with everything,

  • Kyungsoo: *playing with his puppies*
  • Kyungsoo: *giggling with his puppies*
  • Kyungsoo: *laying down with them*
  • Kyungsoo: *lost in the moment with his puppies*
  • Jongin: *sobs*Guess who has their life together?
  • Kyungsoo: *confused* who?
  • Jongin: Not this dude! *points to himself*
  • Kyungsoo: *still confused**smiles to his puppy adorably*
  • Jongin: *scREAMING*

i just wanna talk about that lance and allura moment near the end of the season finale because it’s making me very emotional. (quick disclaimer: these are just my thoughts/interpretations immediately after watching the scene. i haven’t watched anything past this scene yet and will still not be done with season 4 at the end of this ramble. also, i’ve been awake for 28 hours and have a head cold so if my sentences don’t make sense at any point, that’s why. last thing! i haven’t read anyone else’s thoughts or commentary on this scene so idk if anything is similar to a more popular analysis/word vomit.) now onto the rambling!

lance had realized that allura’s magical abilities could get them out of naxzela and its strong gravitational pull. none of them, not even allura, knew how she could use her magic to save the balmera or power the castle, but lance just believed in her and her abilities. and that’s all either of them needed.

lance’s belief and trust in allura was all he needed to convince her that she could save them. that trust and belief in turn made allura more confident in herself. as the audience, we know that lance struggles with his place on team voltron, so he draws from his own experience to further reassure allura and build up her confidence:

both lance and allura experienced the same doubts and insecurities being rejected by the lions they wanted to pilot (red for allura and black, then later blue, for lance). they were switched around from the roles they wanted to be in to the ones they were less inclined to take up. but they both had to learn that these lions chose them for a reason. there’s more to those reasons of course (which is an analysis for another day), but lance’s little monologue/pep talk sums them up nicely in allura’s case:

he’s so confident in her and gives her “proof” that this is what she is meant to be doing. her untrained magic is one thing, but lance convinces her she can use it now to save them because she was chosen. allura is the heart of voltron because she brought the team together and shared every moment of the fight against zarkon with them. and maybe lance says what he does with such conviction to persuade allura’s magic to “awaken” out of a sense of purpose rather than just “we need it right now so use it”. but, he knows that forcing it won’t do any good and he genuinely does believe allura is the heart of voltron, or he wouldn’t say it was all her:

this is the part where i get even more emotional because they’re both validating each other here and they both need the validation. allura validates lance by showing her gratitude to him; she couldn’t have done it without him. while lance wants her to know that she has always had the power in her and didn’t necessarily need his help. they both respect each other as equals and i just really love that this scene emphasizes their mutual respect

If Jamie and Claire (and Wee Ian) could text: Jamie Fraser, Indian Agent" (ABOSAA) Edition
  • Wee Ian: now, dinna be cross auntie
  • Claire: well this is off to an excellent start
  • Claire: don't be cross about WHAT, precisely
  • Claire: if you tell me you or rollo knocked your uncle off a cliff on the way to the cherokee village i will ABSOLUTELY be cross
  • Wee Ian: no no no nothin like that :)
  • Wee Ian: I may have accidentally led the village folk to think Uncle Jamie's the king
  • Claire: the king?
  • Claire: of...England?
  • Wee Ian: aye, just that
  • Claire: erm...
  • Claire: might I ask why?
  • Claire: (I really don't think you needed to give him any more reason to be full of himself to be honest)
  • Wee Ian: weeel, there's no really a word in their language for agent, ye see
  • Wee Ian: and it was important to make sure they knew he had authority, so
  • Claire: so, King Fraser it is
  • Claire: he'll be insufferable i'm sure ;)
  • Claire: ...but hold on
  • Claire: why are you apologizing for that?
  • Claire: doesn't seem a great problem
  • Claire: least of all in the middle of the bloody night
  • Wee Ian: s'not that precisely
  • Wee Ian: see, they've taken it upon themselves to..erm...honor the visiting king
  • Claire: ....'kay.....
  • Wee Ian: ....with gifts....
  • Claire: ian this is getting tiresome.
  • Claire: what KINDS of gifts
  • Wee Ian: pelts
  • Claire: what's the problem with
  • Wee Ian: LADY pelts
  • Wee Ian: two of em
  • Claire: WHAT????
  • Claire: ....
  • Claire: I should be furious but honestly I just cnt stop laughing
  • Wee Ian: I KEN , RIGHT???? 😂😂😂😂😂
  • Wee Ian: god above it's the most fun i've had in months
  • Wee Ian: they are DETERMINED
  • Wee Ian: and every few moments there just comes a wee sound from him
  • Wee Ian: like a pup that's got his tail trod on
  • Wee Ian: and i'm gnna pass out
  • Claire: and there's TWO OF THEM ON THE PROWL??
  • wee Ian: aye!! Slippery wee things too. Bet they're used to catching trout wi their bare hands
  • >>>Claire has added Jamie Fraser to the chat<<<
  • Claire: I hear you're having a rough night, darling!
  • Wee Ian: 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 imgnapiss
  • Jamie: Ian ye [incoherent gaelic cursing] what in gods name did ye have to bring your auntie into all this
  • Jamie: can ye not tell i'm dying of shame already???
  • Wee Ian: god but it's so fun uncle
  • Claire: It's fine darling i promise
  • Claire: Ian was just explaining that if you come home with bruises and love bites, it was only from defending your virtue
  • Jamie: sassenach I'm so so sorry about this, truly
  • Claire: how about the old Dame Blanche trick?
  • Claire: can't sleep with them because your wife's a witch that'll curse them??
  • Jamie: will take it down a notch or two but an OATH will do quite nicely
  • Jamie: you're a Saint MND
  • Claire: you have my full support darl
  • Wee Ian: OH MY GOD UNCLE
  • Claire: what??
  • Jamie: WHAT??
  • Wee Ian: did ye no hear what the littler one just said??
  • Jamie: I mean i HEARD but I dinna understand everything she says
  • Wee Ian: she's saying how distraught she is that you've got the otath on ye because you're so....
  • wee Ian: : well equipped
  • Jamie: oh lord
  • Wee Ian: shewantsthegingerD
  • Claire: well at least she's got good taste
  • Jamie: :) That's verra sweet, sassenach
  • Claire: well, she DOES.
  • Claire: You ARE quite the tidy package
  • Jamie: aye... weel...
  • Claire: very befitting a KING
  • Jamie: oh jesus christ
  • Claire: Crown jewels and all
  • Jamie: ☺️☺️☺️😏😏😏
  • Claire: come home to me soon, your majesty?
  • Jamie: soon as I can
  • Jamie: canna wait to worship ye wi' tongues at your
  • Wee Ian: this is getting a wee bit personal
  • Wee Ian: even for me
  • Wee Ian: why don't ye tell them i'm your son, uncle Jamie, and see if they'd like to come pay ME some honor
  • Jamie: alright hold on
  • Wee Ian: this night keeps getting better and better
  • Claire: cocky, aren't we?
  • Wee Ian: oh aye well that's the general--
  • Jamie: sorry Ian
  • Jamie: seems as though they'd prefer to keep me chastely warm instead
  • Claire: PAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, that's GOT to hurt, wee prince !!
  • Wee Ian: 😒😒😒😒😒😒

anonymous asked:

Hey i read in a interview with the director of that movie that she wanted to tell a story of how the fate of many black and biracial kids was affected by the holocaust; with many of them also ending up in concentration camps. And that the kid of an SS officer with whom the lead falls in love with is realizing as he gets older what horrors his regime is doing and can't understand it. Can you explain how this romanticizes Nazism?

thank you for asking. i appreciate that you want to learn more about this situation. it’s taken me a while to collect my thoughts, so here they are.

i’m usually a firm believer in both the power of love through adversity and the artistic rights of actors and filmmakers. i’m not trying to place blame on amandla stenberg or amma asante. however, this movie feels insensitive, exploitative, and extremely tasteless. every other jewish person i’ve discussed this with has had the exact same reaction. here’s why:

before she edited it, amandla’s post called the holocaust a “backdrop” for the love story. that’s right, the genocide of my people used as a narrative device to frame some sort of “forbidden” romeo/juliet type  relationship. in a world where fucking neo nazis are making a comeback i’m afraid i’m not so forgiving to situations like this. goy filmmakers have a long history of exploiting the holocaust and the suffering of jewish/romani people for the sake of furthering their own heroic narratives and i’m done with that bullshit. 

i’m aware that hitler youth was often compulsory for german children. i’m also aware that hitler’s doctrine threatened everyone perceived as “un-aryan”, not just jewish and romani people. the fate of poc, especially black and biracial people, in hitler’s germany is absolutely something worth talking about and exploring further. i’ve often advocated for studies of the holocaust include sections that discuss not only the complete jewish and romani experience, but also the experience of poc, lgbtq people, disabled people, and others affected. but to do it in a way that humanizes their oppressors, who are literal fucking nazis, is absolutely atrocious. there is no equal love between an oppressed person and their oppressors. 

in conclusion, nazism is not a hurdle for kids to overcome on their path to true love. nazism is an evil mindset that led to the deaths of 6 million of my people and millions of others as well. these deaths should never be a rhetorical device that goy filmmakers exploit for the sake of making their story feel more “forbidden”. being a nazi doesn’t mean you get to be a star-crossed lover. being a nazi means you should get punched in the face.

in conclusion, this ethnic jewish girl is fucking done with the romanticism and humanization of nazis. she’s fucking done. 

anonymous asked:

I just read an article about twin flames. AND OH MY GOD THAT'S SO CAMREN! I really think camila and lauren are twin flames. this is more than soul mate thingy which is 'obviously' lauren and lucy. so it doesn't matter if camren deny or confirm their 'love relationship' because they can't even explain it. apparently twin flames has the most complicated relationship ever, either is on-off, platonic or 'never happened'. wdy think?

Yeah that sounds about right - now I just need them to get married and have babies. 

Top 20 twin flame signs

  1. You feel a strange, inexplicable sense of “recognition” when you meet the person. This might manifest itself as déjà vu, or an unshakable feeling that you’ve known this person before, or are somehow “meant to be together.”
  2. You have a feeling that they are going to play a very important role in your own development, without knowing when, why or how.
  3. You’ve established an immediate, intense connection with them that is invigorating and shocking at the same time.
  4. You feel as though you’ve finally found a “home” or safe place with the other person.
  5. You are able to be your authentic self – warts and all – without the fear of rejection, persecution or judgment with them.
  6. You both embody the yin and yang, in other words, your dark side is balanced by their light side, and their dark side is balanced by your light side.
  7. You feel a sense of expansion with them, as though you are larger than your limited identity.
  8. They make you a better person, and you make them a better person.
  9. When together you are both bonded but free, attached but unattached. In other words, you still maintain your freedom even though you might be in a relationship with them.
  10. You are finely tuned to their energy, and they are finely tuned to yours. This means that you are both very conscious of the present play of energy (whether happy or sad, angry or forgiving, open or withholding) present in the connection. You’re both therefore highly empathic with each other.
  11. You feel as though you have been waiting for this person your entire life.
  12. You both connect deeply and mirror each other’s values and aspirations for life beyond surface similarities.
  13. You twin flame is a mirror of what you fear and simultaneously desire the most for your own inner healing. For example, if you are a highly-strung person, your twin flame will most likely be relaxed and messy. If you like to play the victim, your twin flame will be a strong character who refuses to give you pity or sympathy to perpetuate your complex. If you are creatively repressed, your twin flame will be a flourishing artist. In this way, our twin flames challenge and infuriate us but also teach us important lessons about our fears, core wounds and repressions.
  14. No matter how many times you avoid or leave your twin flame, you’re always magnetically attracted back to them. (Don’t confuse this with abusive relationship complexes.)
  15. One of you is more soulfully mature than the other, and often serves as the teacher, counselor or confidant within the relationship.
  16. You are taught important life lessons such as forgiveness, gratitude, empathy and open-mindedness by them and with them.
  17. Your connection is multi-faceted. In other words, your twin flame is likely your best friend, lover, teacher, nurturer and muse all at once.
  18. Your twin flame doesn’t try to change you. They accept you for who you are and what stage you’re at, and encourage you to do the same for yourself (and vice versa).
  19. You can be truthful with each other about anything.
  20. Together, you both feel driven towards a higher purpose, whether spiritually, socially or ecologically.

anonymous asked:

There's no point in trying to make friends, because I'm going to fuck things up anyway. As soon as I do something even remotely weird, they're not going to like me, and they're not going to want to be my friend. I will lose the friends I do have, because I'm going to push them away out of the fear that they will never truly love me. I can't save these friendships, because if I explained my fears to them, they would be weirded out and wouldn't understand, and would eventually leave anyway.

MarkHyuck phone call..
  • Mark: Hey, are u sleeping already?
  • Donghyuck: what do you think?
  • Mark: Sorry to disturb you. I shouldn't call right now.
  • Donghyuck: Straight to the point Mark Lee.
  • Mark: Nothing. I'm just bored.
  • Donghyuck: There's no way you're getting bored. You got new friends there. You look so happy whenever you're with them.
  • Mark: .....it's different, I think? I'm enjoying myself rapping with them but it's different. I can't explain it.
  • Donghyuck: It's because you're doing something you love the most. Adrenaline rush, I think.
  • Mark: No. That's not the reason, Hyuck.
  • Donghyuck: I think you're just tired. You're going back late again today?
  • Mark: ......maybe? I don't know. They going to do more shooting for editing, so I don't know at what time we're going to finish.
  • Donghyuck: I'll be waiting for you in my dreamland by the time you come home.
  • Mark: .....
  • Donghyuck: ......
  • Mark: You should go to sleep now.
  • Donghyuck: Don't you think you need to tell me why are you calling me at the first place?
  • Mark: ......
  • Donghyuck: Are you planning to keep silent until tomorrow? If you don't have anything to tell me then..good night.
  • Mark: I miss you...
  • Donghyuck: ....yah, what's wrong with you?
  • Mark: I don't know. I'm just tired and your face come into my mind. The next things I know, I'm talking with you right now. Maybe I just want to hear you voice.
  • Donghyuck: You must be so tired right now. *blush*
  • Mark: But I really miss you! I meant it!
  • Donghyuck: I know, idiot! And we just met each other few hours ago.
  • Mark: I know. That's why I don't understand why I felt like this. I just..miss you suddenly. I miss you being noisy, annoying and talking non-stop beside me.
  • Donghyuck: Woah, Mark. Should I feel great right now? I can't believe you called me in the middle of the night just to diss about me? I feel happy. Thank you..take it take it take it!
  • Mark: *laugh*
  • Donghyuck: Don't you think you should continue your shooting right now? Because I need my beauty sleep.
  • Mark: Are you going to wait for me later?
  • Donghyuck: It's 12Am. I don't think I can..
  • Mark: Ah..okay. *disappointed* I should go now. Good night pretty Hyuck, have a nice sleep. Dream of me.
  • Donghyuck: Shut up, Mark Lee. I don't think I want to have nightmare tonight.
  • Mark: Bye~miss you.
  • Donghyuck: Geez~~bye
  • At 3Am
  • Mark: Hey, Hyuck. Wake up. Why are you sleeping in the living room? I thought you want to have beauty sleep. Why are you sitting in the dark here?
  • Donghyuck: I thought you want me to wait for you. I fell asleep just now.
  • Mark: *shocked*
  • Donghyuck: Why are looking at me like that? Lets go to our room. I'm sleepy! Gosh its already 3AM!
  • Mark: *hug Donghyuck* I miss you!!
  • Donghyuck: Damn it Mark Lee! Lemme go!
  • Mark: *kiss Donghyuck's lips*
  • Mark: Sorry making you waiting for me but I am so happy right now.
  • Donghyuck: Did you just kissed me?!
  • Mark: Yeah. Why? I can't kiss my boy?
  • Donghyuck: Who the heck give you permission to kiss me?! When the heck I've become your boy?! You're not allowed to be the cool one here!!
  • Mark: *rolled eyes and dragged Donghyuck to their shared room*
  • Mark: Sleep with me..
  • Donghyuck: I said, you're not allowed to be cool right now!
  • Mark: I know. Lets sleep.
  • Donghyuck: I hate you Mark Lee.
  • Mark: I know.
  • Donghyuck: I miss you too. *blushed & covered his face on Mark's chest*
  • Mark: I miss you more Lee Donghyuck.
  • Donghyuck: By the way, I don't like it you being close with other kids especially that Yoonho guy.
  • Mark: I'm all yours. You know that..
  • Donghyuck: Shut up. *smile cutely*

I just love Donghyuck so much, I wish I could give him all the love in the world because he deserves it that much. I would do anything I could to make sure his smile never falters, or so his eyes never lose the shine that makes them sparkle like the stars in the night sky. He’s such a wonderful and talented young person with so so so much potential, and I can’t wait to see the successes he has in life. He really has stolen my heart, I love him so so dearly.