My brain is so dead right now idk what to even write about this. I haven’t been able to draw lately so I forced myself to doodle this goober in his alchemy robes cause i’ve been meaning to work on him. Then I started redesigning and so forth until i got the third drawing of him. Then the rest happened. :I
My brain has been really slow this week for some reason I’m just glad the rest came out decent after the 2nd drawing of him (bottom left in the robes). Except the one that says no by it lol
Anyways, i thought id post what i got here cause i’ve been working on my G for weeks now >-> Not this drawing but like his backstory n’ stuff… Stuff like that takes me awhile since i have a hard time writing/ organizing without falling asleep :V So now i’m thinking of posting updates of him when I can’t draw anything to keep me motivated. Although I have been excited cause i like drawing potions and I have tons of ideas i’d like to get through.
I might draw more of him tomorrow as well since i feel better drawing this dork <3 I’ll try to make an organized post explaining Alchemist Gaster’s back story. But i will say that he was a huge selfish jerk when he was younger ;)
this scene was so important to me and, i bet, to a lot of mentally ill people
isak valtersen, this small boy that threw the word “crazy” around when referring to his mentally ill mother, is now looking straight into his lover’s eyes and saying: no. you are wrong. this will work.
it’s because isak refused to let Even push him away. we’ve all done this, i assure you. every mentally ill person. exactly because of why Even did it: we were afraid. scared to lose someone. scared to hurt them. and, unfortunately, sometimes, those people let us push them away. and we lose them. and it hurts, because then we think it’s our fault. we’re not enough to fight for. we’re not enough to stay for. we’re not enough.
but not isak. he stood his ground and with tears in his eyes he told Even they were going to take this minute by minute. he told him he wasn’t leaving him. he told a somber boy, during a depressive episode, exactly what a lot of us need to hear sometimes.
and Even looked into this boy’s eyes, who just a couple of months ago refused to even utter the word “gay” without the word “not” in the same sentence, and saw it.
he saw that he was enough to fight for. enough to stay for. enough.
Can we just take this moment to appreciate how much more we heard Seungri and Daesung’s voices. Seungri’s voice was beautiful in Last Dance and Daesung killed me in Fxxk It. What must I do to get you to understand??