i can't even imagine what it feels like not being able to be with your family :(

Manspreading (Part 3)


Word Count: 9k

Summary:
  “Don’t bring the dog into this. He’s young and he doesn’t need this kind of stuff pushed on him. He’ll grow up to have issues.” 

“Very funny, Tae. You’re a real funny guy. You know what else is funny? Your chances of sleeping in the same bed as me this month.”

Part 1, Part 2, Part 4, Epilogue

It wasn’t at all unusual for you to wake up smothered by the sixty-two kilograms of pure heat and clinginess that was Kim Taehyung. What was unusual however was how inappropriately naked the both of you were at the moment, and the suspiciously hard thing pressing against your side.

You’ve been awake for a good while now having an internal breakdown and devising increasingly elaborate plans to get yourself out of Taehyung’s loving death-grip. You wonder if you could slip out of his arms for a quick reprieve in the shower before you have to really face him, because right now you couldn’t think very clearly when he was so close to you and his addicting scent was bombarding your brain. He was always a heavy sleeper, and you figured you had a fairly good chance of slipping away without waking him up. When your eyes opened up and met his entirely too awake ones, you nearly jumped out of your skin.

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apparently rough-sketching scenes from disney aus is my ~thing now, so here’s a snapshot of cinderella, based on the 2015 movie. maybe this will become a series, who knows!

(with proper capitalization for reading ease bc this got wayyy longer than i meant for it to, whoops)


The first time Isak meets the prince, he doesn’t know he’s meeting the prince.

This is probably for the better, seeing as he doesn’t so much meet the prince as nearly run the prince down with his horse. Which is mostly Isak’s fault, since he isn’t watching where he is riding as well as he should be, but there are—reasons, if he were pressed to give them. The morning had been crueler than usual and the ride to the market had been an all-too-appealing promise of escape, even just temporarily. And so Isak had left the breakfast dishes still dripping dry and bolted as fast as he was able, gratefully giving his thoughts and tears to the wind and trusting the horse to guide them both clear.

Maybe not the safest plan, but it has worked fairly well, up until he almost runs into another rider. It happens so quickly—a startled shout, the high cry of another horse, a blur of color suddenly veering to his left—that Isak has little time to do anything but shout “Sorry!” over his shoulder and hope the wind carries it back. He thinks that will be it, until he registers a voice calling behind him, and then a second rhythm of hoofbeats pounding into the forest floor and catching him up.

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anonymous asked:

So this is probably crack and all but i'm thinking about modern au where no one's evil and eren finally introduces mikasa to zeke. he refrained to do it before cause zeke is the kind of brother who just /can't/ keep his mouth shut lol

Well, nonnie pie, you came to the right person!

I have thought about what kind of role Zeke would play in Eren’s life in Modern AUs, and this can go several ways tbh! Let’s say, maybe, before Grisha met Carla there was Dina: his high school love. Right? So on their prom night they do the do and Dina discovers she’s pregnant but she never tells Grisha because A) They’re going to college on opposite sides of the country and B) They are broken up by this point.

And maybe Grisha meets Carla in college. Bada bing, bada boom, Eren is born four years later after Carla graduates ( meanwhile Grisha is still going for his doctorate, so naturally he’s gonna be in school longer ). Everything is peaches and cream.

Uuuntil Zeke turns 18 and Dina can’t stop her son from looking for his biological father, who has been absent all his life and knows nothing of his existence. By then, Eren is around 14 years old, so their age difference is cut a lot shorter than their canon counterparts.

So you can imagine Eren’s confusion when he answers the door one day and finds this dude who oddly resembles his own dad. There’s an automatic connection the day they meet, but Zeke is more aware of it than Eren is. Being more of the think-before-you-speak one of the two, Zeke is a bundle of emotions that explode when Grisha intervenes with an oblivious and patient, “Can I help you, son?”

Zeke replies, “Yeah, yeah you can…father.

Aaaand cue Carla dropping a glass in the kitchen.

Meanwhile Eren’s all, “Who the hell is this kid and why is he calling you father?” Yeah. The fourteen year old referring to the eighteen year old as a kid. But he doesn’t say this out loud. He’s actually too busy racing back to the kitchen to help Carla because instinct, y’know?

As for Mikasa…

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advice for the signs
  • aries: you're full of ideas and they're always amazing! you are so much smarter than you give yourself credit for, even though you try to appear like you're a bit of a daredevil, you don't always like to come too far out of your cozy little comfort zone. but I promise, if you come out a bit more you can experience so many exciting things, and your abilities will make you shine like a star in the night sky.
  • taurus: not only are you are a badass, you're also super cool. if there are any haters its only because they want to be like you - really though. you just have an aura about you that pulls people in and once they get to know you, they don't ever want to get away. people want to overindulge in you, and if that wears you out then take a break and don't feel bad about it, your friends know you'll come back at the end of the day.
  • gemini: you're not a two-faced backstabbing bitch, you are a beautiful person who struggles with having to listen to an angel and a devil on your shoulders all day, which I can only imagine is super tough but you've done an incredible job to even come all this way and you should be so proud of yourself, I know I am. and lets take a moment to appreciate how you can walk into a room and suddenly be everyone's best friend with your natural charm and easy-going nature. you could take a bullet in the chest and your smile won't even falter. you're so determined to get what you want and you're so passionate and just everything you do is admirable. keep going, you rock this world.
  • cancer: if we're being real here, you don't actually cry *that* much. this is what it is - you have so many emotions swirling inside of you and they are like a beautiful storm of bright lights. and you should continue to let that out and share that beauty with everyone! but even with all that, you can be pretty hardcore and you are so strong, inside that whirlpool is a fire than burns bright, you should show people your intense passions as well as your caring side.
  • leo: you are amazing, and everyone around you knows it. if you're being too hard on yourself, lighten up a little because so far you've done everything right. everything happens for a reason, and if you feel guilty or sad about something just remember that your experiences have shaped who you are today - a beautiful, wonderful, magical creature with sparkling eyes, a loving soul and fabulous hair.
  • virgo: you work so hard to be on top of the game and I know how stressful that can be, but trust me when I'm saying that if you're doing the best you can, please don't push yourself any further. I'm sure you know what it feels like to get 3 hours sleep only to just scrape everything in on time, but you're doing just fine and please remember to reach out to your friends and loved ones and talk about how youre feeling. honestly, letting out any negativity makes you feel so, so much better, and you deserve the best.
  • libra: it's not that you're indecisive, you just like to weigh out all the pros and cons of a situation before you go into something - which is such a good idea, and I admire you for that. I bet you wish you had a crystal ball and could see the future to know how your decisions will turn out, huh? but the reality is that you should stop worrying about about the future and live in the moment. if you're not focusing on the present, you won't get to where you want to be in the future, and we definitely don't want to see you somewhere where your talents aren't being showcased.
  • scorpio: your personality is just so magnetic and you're so hypnotic, so many people absolutely adore you and would do anything for you - but sometimes they might not be 100% certain that the feelings are mutual. now, I know you love your friends and family so, so much with a fiercely strong love, but would it kill you to tell people that you love them and how you're feeling sometimes? everyone is here to help you and guide you on your journey to reaching the stars, but you can't build your rocket ship without the help of others.
  • sagittarius: you are incredible and so smart, it actually makes people stop in their tracks when you open your mouth and spout some beautiful, philosophical words of wisdom. or even just opening your mouth to say anything. everything about you is great but I'm not sure you appreciate yourself as much as you should. all the friends you have who love you should be an indication of how great you are. if you don't learn to love yourself, you might not be able to see through and out of your own little bubble and actually notice how much people care about you. because they care so, so much. don't you ever doubt that.
  • capricorn: your motto is work hard and don't take shortcuts, which is amazing and everyone admires you for that. it takes a lot of hard work and dedication to be you, and even if nobody mentions it, everyone is impressed. you're gonna go far, kid. but know that even if you're stuck in a rut right now you just need to jump a little higher and climb out. if you're stressed, talk to someone you trust and just open up and tell them what youre feeling. help them help you, and everything will be okay.
  • aquarius: we're not emotionless, we have a lot of feelings and we just choose not to express them because we're scared of people being overwhelmed by us, and we like to trust someone 100% before we open up. and there is nothing wrong with that. you're so good at listening to people's problems/how they feel and your advice is 10/10, but if you don't take time to talk to people about how you're feeling, you bottle everything up and one day it'll get so full that the lid will burst - and I know you're afraid of letting out all your feelings in one go, I definitely am. the only way around that is to let it out, bit by bit, slowly and over the years, to maintain your composure and sanity. and nobody will see you any different or judge you if you open up to them.
  • pisces: you're passionate, your creativity is out of this world, you're so good at helping people and you don't have a selfish bone in your body. you're always so up for helping people, and that is amazing! you're compassionate like no other, and your ideas are off-the-charts crazy cool. and you're not weak! you are perfectly capable of putting up your barriers, you just like to trust people enough to keep them down a lot of the time. and you're definitely not weak either, you've probably lived through some heartbreaking experiences, and you're still able to walk around with your head up and your heart open. now thats real strength.

anonymous asked:

I feel so bad for Aubameyang. I hope he joins Real Madrid asap. He shouldn't have to suffer constant losses like this. Real Madrid have been going trough an incredible period for the past maybe 3 years or so. Aubameyang deserves that kind of success especially in the CL. I hope he leaves dortmund for his own good and join the team he promised his grandfather he would. I'm sick and tired of this bullshit every season, can't even imagine how the players feel. Btw great blog

Well constant losses are something a team and their fans go through together so he’s not going through this alone. I love Auba and I can understand that he is a very gifted player who’s already reached a high point in his career. That’s why you talk about him this way. And I’m sure he would be a great asset to any team. That’s why you believe he should join RM. But please don’t criticize his partnership with BVB just because he’s not winning Champions League trophies.

You’re saying Real have been going through an incredible period for the past 3 years, if so, good for them. But do you know what Auba was up to at that time? He was playing with BVB, earning his spot on their starting lineups and getting some well deserved exposure due to his great cooperation with the team. He also got the right to make a name for himself too which is why others have found out about him, including Europe’s biggest clubs. But he is respectively Borussia Dortmund’s Gabonese striker and Auba himself has credited Klopp as the one behind the idea of playing him upfront. Also, all those goals he’s scored were assisted by his loving teammates so have a little more respect for the club who has helped shape him into the prolific footballer he is today.

In my opinion, what he promised his grandfather is something that should stay between them and not be used in ‘Auba to Real’ claims because this promise is only ever brought up so others can justify their need to see him with play under that club.

And if you’re tired of this bullshit (losing chances at titles) every season and haven’t yet learned to be patient and supportive of a club that aren’t invincible - especially during vulnerable periods, then I hope you learn to be this time!

Of course BVB players feel defeated about today’s loss but the champions league/trophies haven’t been the most important thing to any of the players, their family members, friends or supporters because of what happened last week. You never recover from something like that but they still did their best under those circumstances, even after being mentally and physically drained. So if not winning this season’s UCL is that much of a bother to make you want to hope Auba transferred someplace else, that’s low. But it’s your opinion and at the end of the day I ultimately respect it, even if I disagree with it.

I’m sorry this reply wasn’t all sympathetic and understanding, but there’s other things the players, including Auba, are thinking about rather than not making the semi’s or where to transfer next. Thanks for being able to mention all of this and still compliment my blog though!

symphonymarch  asked:

okay so this blog is a m a z i n g and all the prompts are so good. anyway sorry if you've already been asked this but i can't seem to find any good prompts for an urban fantasy story. like, i find paranormal ones but not so much urban fantasy ones (think the raven boys). do you have any you could share?

I am so so so so sorry it has taken me forever to reply (I just finished exams) but Thank You so much for sending this in. This kind of question actually wasn’t asked before but I did get a similar one recently from an anon about how to create a magical world in a more modern setting so I’m going to try to answer them both here :) First the prompts:

  • The protagonist’s family has always had a protective power to keep their town safe and were once revered. Now, they are outcasts and many doubt their validity. Until the power skips a generation and things start to go very bad.
  • (This one could maybe also a superhero-isa one but it could also work for more fantasy like characters). A group of humans with the ability to manipulate the elements have always been in hiding but the climate on Earth has become so bad they can’t keep turning a blind eye
  • In the modern world the relative few with magical abilities are superior to those without. They are the “able” people of the world
  • Non-magical humans can buy black market items from those with special abilities to take on their power. The protagonist is either one of the people who has had their power stolen or a non-magical human who has seen the danger that these items can create.
  • People with the ability of premonition are entrusted to make sure that events unfold the way they were predicted, no matter what. One of these people has done some terrible things and let even worse things happen, but one premonition they just can’t ignore.
  • Someone born into a family that has always had special abilities doesn’t get theirs and puts a lot of effort into not being found out. Maybe too much effort…

I hope those fit what you were looking for (also sorry again for taking so long  😬) Now a few tips on building the urban fantasy world:

One thing to keep in mind about fantasy in general but maybe especially in urban fantasy is to get a good hold on what your fantasy elements are exactly early on. There are so many fanatical elements to play with—it’s basically whatever you can imagine—and you don’t want to go too heavy on the fantasy in an urban fantasy, otherwise it might not feel like one. So decide what elements you’re including, like are you going to have witches and wizards only or will there also be vampires, demons and other creatures? Also, are they benevolent and helpful, or selfish and mean-spirited? Is this side of the world a secret or is it open?

Then figure out how these elements will affect the setting. For example, in a world where demons and ghosts are a known fact, I’d imagine that people would take and understand death a little differently. If magic is real and the world leaders have it or have someone who does, world crises would be quite different, and probably wars too. There are probably endless impacts depending on which elements you choose. Again, just be careful that you don’t go over board. The key difference between fantasy and urban fantasy is the setting. You still want the story’s world to be recognizable as the modern world to readers to get that cool kind of juxtaposition and “what if” sort of scenario. 

These are just what I think are the main points but I found a pretty good page on TV Tropes that has a lot more information and is a bit more detailed. It’s definitely worth checking out of yo want to write urban fantasy.

haunting-song  asked:

Another one to throw into the ask box! It can be a scenario or headcanon, whichever you prefer. Yoosung is a ghost haunting a house, and MC is the newest resident to move in. ...Yeah, I can't help but have Casper the Friendly Ghost stuck in my head, haha!

OOOOH THIS IS REALLY COOL! Thank you for requesting this! I think it’s so adorable, especially with Yoosung involved! There’s some mild swearing, but if you were aware of this blog, there was going to be swearing involved regardless on the blog and in the imagines, so.

[Warnings: swearing, talk of murder]


YOOSUNG

  • When he tried to introduce himself, he didn’t want to make you think you were ‘going crazy’ or anything like that. Yoosung continuously kept himself invisible and left small clues that he was near your presence.
  • He was a blushing mess knowing that you were sleeping in just a big t-shirt and your underwear. That boy has always been innocent ever since he had passed away in that exact home, and he didn’t even know ghosts could blush until seeing you in that state.
  • “What the hell?!” you screamed, seeing a faint view of a blond boy in a nerdy jacket and a bloody shirt. “Who are you? What the fuck is going on?”
  • Yoosung had gotten close with you the past few weeks. He made sure that you were able to trust him and he was like any roommate with respect for another—except as a ghost with a non-living body.
    • When you showered, he made sure to not pop up in the bathroom and scare the living hell out of you. Cheers to him.
    • Sometimes, he’d try to help you cook, but all he can do is provide entertainment by talking to you. He’d joke around by saying that you didn’t want to worry about making an extra plate of food specifically for him.
    • He was there for you, and whenever drama or something happened in your personal life, Yoosung was willing to help you, regardless of him as a spirit.
  • However, you gained trust to him along with him trusting you. He spoke the story about how he died in the home, and his family was kidnapped as he was found alone in this exact home you were living in. He was shot through the heart in his LOLOL jacket and white t-shirt, hence the blood stain on the shirt whenever you see him.
  • It was a problem knowing that Yoosung was developing feelings for you. An actual living person, apart from him and he was only a spirit that had no actual body and he only had a faint appearance.
  • Sometimes, he’d try to draw you a picture or make you something for dinner, but since he was a ghost, it was impossible for him to make any contact with anything. Therefore, if he tried to hug you, you wouldn’t even feel a touch and all that was felt was a shivering presence, and it hurt him so much.
  • Yoosung was protective of you, and whenever you talked about other people you were interested in, he would claim that they weren’t worth your time. Even if he had no idea who the person was, he didn’t want to face the fact that you could have your lover move in with you in this house, and he was here as well.
  • “Please be careful with him/them/her,” Yoosung would say, with sadness slithering his vocal tone. “I don’t want anyone to hurt you.”
  • You appreciated his concern and care, despite him being a spirit, but he wasn’t willing to let anyone move out of the house—people have always left right away when they first realize it was haunted. However, you were the first person to actually stay and befriend him.
    • Yoosung was never going to forget you, and his feelings were growing for you each minute that passed by. He wished he could kiss you, sleep with you, cuddle with you, hold you, or just touch you with his forehead against yours.
    • For sure, he had to face the hard truth knowing that you could never be with him since he was dead, and he will remain a ghost forever. There was no way he can actually come back to life.
  • “I love you…” he croaked out loud, with tears flooding his eyes. Yoosung never expected that ghosts could get emotional, but after confessing to you, he realized that he had found actual love—even in the afterlife. “I love you so much, but you won’t ever feel the same and we can’t be together.”
  • Feelings or not for Yoosung, you talked out the situation with him and you promised to be his friend, even if he remained as a ghost in the house. He was thankful that he met someone so beautiful and caring like you, and he wished that he was still alive so he could kiss you—and you were the first person he has ever loved, despite him being a beautiful, ghostly spirit.

anonymous asked:

I totally ship Leokumi, but what are your reasons for shipping it? :o


Alright!! I’m sorry for taking this long to reply, but I’ll try my best!
tl;dr version: i just want my pineapple son to be happy + i think they have a very good chemistry going on between them! + i’m a easily influenced person pls sAVE ME

The no tl;dr version:

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Heavenly Commentary: Order of the Phoenix
  • James: The fact that they don’t think Harry is normal gives me strength.
  • ***
  • Lily: He’s not well.
  • James: He’s traumatised. After what happened in the graveyard; he’s still coming to terms.
  • Cedric: You and me both Harry.
  • ***
  • James: Stay calm Harry.
  • Lily: Let it go.
  • ***
  • James: What is...? Dementors!? Really?
  • Lily: Eurgh! It was to be expected.
  • Cedric: You guys don’t seem very worried.
  • James: After everything Harry’s been through, a couple Dementors won’t be a problem. Plus he has his wand with him.
  • Lily: The real problem is, that these Dementors wouldn’t be here unless ordered. So who gave the order?
  • Cedric: Obviously Voldemort.
  • Lily: Maybe.
  • Cedric: I can’t imagine what it’s like. Watching someone you love in such terrible danger. And not being able to do a thing about it.
  • James: Don’t worry. You’ll know soon enough.
  • ***
  • Lily: That was pretty close though.
  • James: Yeah but he’s good. A nice fight does wonders. Plus Figg is here now.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Why doesn’t Dumbledore want Harry doing magic?
  • Lily: I’m not sure. James, go find out.
  • Cedric: Actually I’ll go. See my parents as well.
  • ***
  • James: Expelled?! For defending himself?
  • Lily: No. Dumbledore will- yup there he is.
  • ***
  • Lily: She must have heard Sev telling me.
  • James: Why did Harry think we’d talk about Dementors? I have better charm than that.
  • Lily: Barely.
  • ***
  • James: WHAT?!? He’s kicking Harry out?!
  • Lily: Petunia if you let this happen, I swear I will never forgive you.
  • James: That’s Dumbledores voice.
  • ***
  • Lily: The gangs all here.
  • James: Just after the nick of time.
  • ***
  • James: I wonder who the secret keeper of this place is?
  • Lily: After what happened to us, do you think he’d choose anyone but himself?
  • ***
  • Lily: He’s so angry.
  • James: He has the right to be.
  • ***
  • James: Dumbledore is keeping Harry in the dark.
  • Lily: Because he’s now public enemy number one. I wonder what Cedric will learn.
  • James: That losing a child, destroys a parent.
  • ***
  • Lily: THAT’S his mother?!
  • James: That’s the reason he left home.
  • ***
  • James: That was...
  • Lily: Intense. Molly can be cruel. Bringing up Azkaban like that?
  • ***
  • James: Fucking Cornelius Fudge.
  • ***
  • Cedric: The Ministry is trying to convince everyone that Voldemort isn’t back, that Harry's a liar and Dumbledore is crazy.
  • Lily: Yeah that is what we heard. How are your parents?
  • Cedric: As you'd expect. How is everyone?
  • James: They’re getting by. Welcome to the Order.
  • ***
  • Lily: He’s shaking.
  • James: I’M shaking.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Why would they change the time?
  • Lily: To force him to be late. Bastards!
  • ***
  • James: He didn’t want Dumbledore here.
  • Lily: Of course not. Fudge knows he can’t win against him.
  • ***
  • Lily: If I could I’d punch that bastard.
  • James: I know you would but he's in the clear now.
  • Lily: It’s not over. It's only getting started.
  • Cedric: What do you mean?
  • ***
  • James: I forgot about that picture. Great timing Mad-Eye.
  • Lily: Me too. Is that Molly crying?
  • Cedric: She’s seeing them all dead.
  • James: And Harry thinks he's next
  • ***
  • James: Of course she walks in when he's covered in Stinksap.
  • Lily: He's been covered in worse. He’ll be fine.
  • ***
  • Cedric: What is Harry seeing?
  • Lily: Thestrals. They pull the carriages.
  • James: But you can only see them if you've seen death.
  • Cedric: ...Oh
  • ***
  • James: When a hat is telling you something is wrong then you really should listen.
  • ***
  • Lily: Hermione is right. Looks like the fight has come to Hogwarts.
  • Cedric: Because none of us were expecting that, were we?
  • ***
  • Cedric: Let's see how many friends he really has.
  • ***
  • James: Don't you dare talk about Moony you fucking cow!
  • Lily: Calm down. Breathe.
  • James: I'm dead. I don't breathe.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Have a what?!?
  • ***
  • Lily: She’s torturing my boy. SHE’S TORTURING MY SON!! WHY ARE YOU SMIRKING?!?
  • James: Because. That bitch is trying to break him. And she has no idea who she is fucking with. But she will.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Umbridge and Voldemort? Is that possible?
  • Lily: No. She's a different type of evil.
  • ***
  • James: She lied to Filch for him. I approve of Cho.
  • Lily: Naturally.
  • ***
  • Lily: Poor Ron.
  • James: Family turning against family. Just like last time.
  • Cedric: Was it that bad?
  • James: It was hell.
  • ***
  • Cedric: She made it illegal for Professor Lupin to get another job?
  • Lily: Do me a favour Harry, destroy her.
  • ***
  • Lily: Harry got the D.
  • James: Severus GAVE Harry the D. Why are you laughing?
  • Cedric: Because Snape gave Harry the D. Do you think Harry wanted the D?
  • James: ...
  • Lily: I don't get it.
  • ***
  • Lily: His hand. It'll never heal.
  • James: He will not let this hag beat him.
  • Lily: She's torturing him James!
  • James: And my son won't break.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Do you think he'll do it? Teach them?
  • Lily: He will. As much as he’ll protest, he won't be able to stomach the idea of doing nothing.
  • ***
  • Lily: I don't know how I feel about Harry being better than a final year Durmstrang.
  • James: The word you're looking for is “proud”.
  • ***
  • James: The Hogs Head! I've missed this place.
  • Cedric: You used to come here?
  • Lily: Him and Sirius lived here.
  • James: Not true. We rarely used Aberforth. Firewhiskey was for special occasions.
  • Lily: Like Friday nights.
  • James: Saturday nights too. We were not picky.
  • ***
  • James: That went well.
  • Cedric: Yeah. I'd sign up.
  • ***
  • Cedric: No Quidditch...
  • James: No team...
  • Lily: Oh God. Now there's two of them.
  • ***
  • James: Now that Padfoot approves she is getting nervous?
  • Lily: She really is the smartest of them all.
  • ***
  • Cedric: He's connected to Voldemorts mind. That is not a good thing.
  • Lily: No. It really isn't.
  • ***
  • James: Our boy's a teacher.
  • Lily: A good one too.
  • ***
  • Lily: Don't react Harry. Don't react.
  • James: Ah shit.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Banned...
  • James: For life...
  • Lily: Calm down you two. She'll be gone by years end.
  • James: That doesn't help us now Evans!
  • Lily: Idiots.
  • ***
  • Cedric: What the hell Hagrid?
  • James: He's been pulverised.
  • ***
  • Lily: Voldemort has been trying to kill our son for 14 years. And I think I might hate Umbridge more...
  • ***
  • Lily: His first kiss. So sweet
  • James: He’s not doing too badly.
  • Lily: She seems into him.
  • James: Of course she is. He looks like me.
  • Lily: Arse. Cedric don’t they look cute together?
  • Cedric: I didn't say anything before but you realise that’s my ex right?
  • ***
  • Lily: Harry was the snake?
  • James: Dumbledore knows something.
  • Lily: Of course he does. But he's not going to tell.
  • ***
  • Lily: I love Padfoot but he's not the best at dealing with emotional stuff. Harry thinks he's going insane and Sirius tells him to sleep it off.
  • ***
  • Lily: Well well well. Ginny Weasley. Lioness.
  • James: What's that look on your face?
  • Lily: I have no idea what you're talking about.
  • ***
  • James: Frank...Alice...
  • Cedric: Poor Neville.
  • ***
  • James: Come on Padfoot do it. Just one curse.
  • Lily: Sirius don't be an idiot.
  • James: Be an idiot!
  • Lily: Occlumency though. So Voldemort IS in Harrys mind.
  • ***
  • Cedric: I can't believe this is how Snape treats Harry.
  • Lily: He's a complicated man with a skewed moral compass.
  • Cedric: If you say so...what the hell is in the Department of Mysteries?
  • James: A prophecy.
  • ***
  • Lily: Oh please God no...
  • Cedric: He broke them out. Voldemort broke them out.
  • James: And he just got ten of his most loyal and dangerous followers back.
  • ***
  • Cedric: I don't feel good for being the reason Cho just left but...I don't exactly feel bad either.
  • Lily: She misses you. I imagine she'll miss you for the rest of your life.
  • Cedric: Now I feel bad.
  • James: Don't son. It's not your fault. None of this is.
  • ***
  • Lily: This story will burn through England. The truth will finally be heard.
  • ***
  • James: Every time something good happens, something bad happens straight away.
  • ***
  • Cedric: I will never forget her face at this moment, for as long as I...well am.
  • Lily: Can we all appreciate what just happened? Dumbledore kept the old teacher, appointed the new and got another “dangerous half-breed” into the castle.
  • James: It’s a giant middle finger to Umbridge.
  • ***
  • James: SCATTER!
  • ***
  • Cedric: I can't believe Marietta would do this. She was always so nice.
  • James: I told you. Friend against friend. It's what he does.
  • Lily: Dumbledore is doing something crazy...
  • James: Holy crap!
  • ***
  • James: Fred and George. Making the Marauders proud.
  • ***
  • Lily: No Harry don't...and we're in the Pensieve.
  • Cedric: Why would he-
  • James: Oh shit. I know where we are.
  • Lily: Oh God. This is not the moment you want Harry to see.
  • Cedric: Why? What do you...ah...
  • James: You don't see it here, but Snape gave as good as he got. However I'm not exactly proud of how I acted.
  • Lily: Not ashamed either to be fair.
  • Cedric: You seem to really hate him Mrs Potter. How did you end up together?
  • Lily: It’s Lily and he changed from an arrogant arsehole to a semi-decent person.
  • James: She said that during our marriage vows. Really moving ceremony.
  • ***
  • Lily: I’ve never seen Snape this angry before.
  • James: He can't stop teaching him! He needs the lessons!
  • ***
  • Lily: Your son is ashamed of you. For the way you treated Snape. Let that sink in.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Hagrid has...a brother.
  • Lily: Half brother.
  • Cedric: Right...my mistake.
  • ***
  • James: OWLS. Let's go.
  • ***
  • Lily: They're going after Hagrid. That bitch is trying to take him out too.
  • James: Well they can tr- SHIT!
  • Cedric: Professor Mcgonagall!
  • ***
  • Lily: He looks exhausted.
  • James: Well he has fallen asleep.
  • Lily: During your last OWL? Really Harry?
  • ***
  • James: I'll be back!
  • Cedric: Where is he going?
  • Lily: He's going to see where Sirius is.
  • ***
  • James: He’s at Grimmauld Place.
  • Lily: Which means Voldemort is baiting Harry into a trap.
  • ***
  • Cedric: What is she do- no...-wait SHE sent the Dementors?
  • James: Even I didn't see that coming.
  • ***
  • Lily: What are you up to Hermione?
  • James: That arrow in the tree answer your questions?
  • ***
  • Lily: Goodbye you evil, twisted bitch.
  • James: And hello Grawp.
  • ***
  • Lily: They got free?
  • Cedric: Yeah it was pretty cool. Ginny is powerful.
  • ***
  • James: Here we go.
  • ***
  • Cedric: Where is everyone? It's completely empty.
  • ***
  • Lily: That archway...I think we're on the other side of it.
  • ***
  • James: Harry don't touch it. Please listen to your friends. Don't pick up that prophecy.
  • Lily: No...
  • ***
  • Cedric: That's Mr Malfoy!
  • James: And the rest of his Death Eater friends.
  • Cedric: Harry, run.
  • Lily: They can't run. They have to fight.
  • ***
  • James: Focus Harry! Don't listen to Malfoy.
  • ***
  • Lily: Keep moving! Don't stop!
  • ***
  • James: Leave the man baby! Find the others!
  • Cedric: Duck!
  • Lily: HERMIONE!
  • ***
  • Cedric: She's alive. Oh she's alive.
  • James: She won't be for long. Our kids aren't doing permanent damage and the Death Eaters are playing to win. They need to get out.
  • ***
  • Lily: He's leading them away...
  • James: Good man Harry.
  • Lily: Oh no...Neville.
  • ***
  • James: ABOUT FUCKING TIME!
  • Lily: Now it's a fight you son's of bitches!
  • ***
  • Cedric: Dumbledore! He's here! It's over!
  • Lily: Calm down. It's not over till its...
  • James: ...
  • Sirius: ...
  • Sirius: Oh that bitch!
  • James: Fourteen years. You don’t call. You don’t write. And you pick NOW to visit?
  • ***
  • Sirius: I probably shouldn't have taunted her.
  • James: Shut up Padfoot, they're still fighting!
  • ***
  • James: Harry NO! Stay away from Bellatrix!
  • Sirius: Where are we?
  • Cedric: Life after death. Seriously though shh.
  • ***
  • Lily: He.. he tried using Cruciatus.
  • James: It’s war and he just lost someone.
  • ***
  • James: He's here...
  • Lily: So is Albus.
  • ***
  • Lily: No no no no please God no
  • Cedric: What is it?! What's happening?
  • James: Voldemort is possessing my boy.
  • ***
  • Cedric: It’s over. He's gone.
  • James: No son. It’s not over. It's now open warfare.
  • ***
  • Sirius: He's in such pain. Harry I'm so sorry.
  • Lily: I can't watch this. I can't...
  • ***
  • James: Now you know. Now you know why he's after you.
  • ***
  • Sirius: In battle. Isn't that what we always said Prongs?
  • James: Wand in hand.
  • Lily: Well you failed at that James.
  • James: You didn't exactly live a long and happy life yourself.
  • Sirius: God I’ve missed you two.
  • ***
  • Sirius: The mirror. I thought he...he never opened it.
  • ***
  • James: And just like that he's going back. Broken and beat up and torn apart inside.
  • Lily: He’ll be fine. He has to be.
  • Sirius: He's not alone. He's got friends and family. It just wasn’t us.

anonymous asked:

So I was in certain fandom, finding out/knowing Characters' Past seems Important so the Anime/Manga. Because if the protagonist or their friends doesn't know a certain important character's past, they can't help or understand them. Then, I remember Luffy. Luffy seems doesn't want to know his crew's Past because he think it wasn't important for his crew's present live. But their past seems always caught them (Nami, Robin, and now Sanji). So without knowing, it was bad, right?

A few months ago I wrote a big post about this subject–about how the majority of the Straw Hats do not know about each other’s pasts. As I said there (you can read the full post here), I think that this is a conscious choice on Oda’s part to try to further illustrate the general idea in One Piece that everyone, no matter where the come from and what their past is, can keep moving forward and get to a better place. 

The “pasts” of various characters are indeed something that sometimes influences what’s going on in the story, but I have a different take on it than you. For starters, it wasn’t Robin’s past that caught up with her during Water 7 and Enies Lobby. Rather, what caught up with her–what prevented her from simply jumping ship and saving herself at the cost of her companions, which was how she survived for 20 long years with a target on her back, was the the fact that for the first time since she was 8 years old she actually cared about her companions

And that care that she had for them, and the care that they had for her, is what broke the cycle of mistrust and betrayal that had characterized Robin’s entire life and allowed her to feel truly at home and happy for the first time in her life. 

And with Sanji. Yeah, right now junk is rough for him. His family ties are coming back to bite him in the ass in a way that he never thought would happen. But even if he had told the Straw Hats about that stuff, they still wouldn’t really have been able to do much to prevent the current situation because how could they ever have imagined that his family would marry him off to Big Mom and that she would use her power to force him to separate himself from the crew. 

Knowing some characters’ pasts can be helpful to the other characters around them. Some characters do need to know that to better sympathize with people, and it can be helpful with regard to making plans to at least attempt to deal with things if someone anticipates that their past might somehow cause problems in the future. However, that is absolutely not how Luffy roles, and that is not the kind of message that Oda wants to send through Luffy’s attitude on this subject. 

Rather, Luffy is about acceptance. Luffy accepts people as they are. Remember when Sabo told him and Ace that he was actually a noble? 

And remember when Luffy learned about Hancock being a slave? He actually tried to stop them from talking about it because he recognized that bringing it up was a traumatic experience for them 

And of course, when Nojiko showed up and basically offered to explain to them what the situation of the village was and why Nami had betrayed them, Luffy was unconcerned and passed on hearing about it without a second thought 

The theme among all of these scenes, and more, is acceptance. Oh, you’re secretly a noble and you’ve been lying to us about who you are? That’s fine. Oh, you used to be a slave? Don’t worry about it, you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to. Oh, you’ve got some complicated reason for why you betrayed me and stole my ship? You don’t need to explain it to me, I trust you had your reasons and I don’t need to know them. 

Again, some people do need to know another person’s past in order to understand them. But Luffy isn’t really about understanding people. He’s just about accepting them. Luffy’s relationship with Bellamy is another example. Bellamy never had a sob story behind his actions. Bellamy doesn’t have some tragic past that explains why he was such a piece of shit back in Mock Town. Bellamy’s history was literally “I’m a rich kid who decided to become a pirate b/c I thought it’d be fun” 

This is probably why Doflamingo never accepted Bellamy–why he only kept stringing Bellamy along and never let him actually join his crew, which was Bellamy’s dream in life. As Oda said in the vol. 77 SBS, 

“[Monet and Sugar] were rescued from an extremely misfortunate environment by Doflamingo himself, and as sisters aged 9 and 17, they resolved to throw their lives away if it were for the sake of the Family. They were provided with Devil Fruits after joining. You see, Doflamingo is very observant of the ‘environments’ that people grow up in.” 

Doflamingo’s entire crew was made up of people who had nothing. Those were the people he felt connected to, the people he believed he could rely on, perhaps the people he believed he could best manipulate and mold into what he wanted (which was also what was done to him by his Executives). Bellamy wasn’t like that. Bellamy was a kid from a well off town who threw that life away out of boredom, something that Doflamingo, who was a pirate because all the wealth and status he had was taken away from him against his wishes, surely resented about Bellamy and looked down on him for.  By all rights, Doflamingo did understand Bellamy. He understood Bellamy, and he thought Bellamy was pathetic for it. 

But Luffy? Luffy never knew a damn thing about Bellamy’s past. And when they first ran into each other again on Dressrosa, Luffy was ready for a fight because he remembered that Bellamy had hurt Cricket. But Bellamy, simply by telling Luffy that he wouldn’t mock him anymore and by demonstrating his newfound strength and determination in the ring… Luffy began to like Bellamy and cheer for him 

Even though Bellamy was still his enemy because he worked for Doflamingo, even though they had a bad history together, even though Bellamy had been planning to kill Luffy on Doflamingo’s orders, and even though Luffy knew nothing of Bellamy’s past… Luffy still came to see Bellamy as a friend based purely on Bellamy’s actions of the present time. 

Luffy isn’t someone who anyone ever needs to explain or justify themselves to. He simply either likes/respects the person you are at the present moment, or he doesn’t. You did some bad junk a while back? He’s not going to sweat it if he can see that in the present you’re a better person. Luffy just isn’t interested in understanding people, in judging them for their past actions and evaluating whether or not they have properly atoned for them or if they had a good enough reason for doing whatever they did. He doesn’t particularly care about your tragic past, or your shallow privileged one either. He just cares about the person you are now. (But that said, Luffy is probably always going to hate people like Arlong, Crocodile, Akainu, and Blackbeard for the things they’ve done to people he cares about. Plus, they’re also people who will probably never try to turn over a new leaf, so all this doesn’t really apply to them.) 

So no, I don’t think that we should believe that the Straw Hats are wrong to not know more about each others’ pasts. I don’t think that we should be concerned that they don’t all “understand” each other as much as they could. Because One Piece isn’t really trying to be about that. Rather, its focus is on accepting people for who they are in the present, regardless of whatever their past might have been. The Straw Hats might not know each other’s histories very well, but they understand who each other are in the present damn well 

Can't Have Kids -A Jack Gilinsky Imagine (Requested)

Y/N POV

I groaned as I stared down the the three negative pregnancy tests that laid before me on the bathroom counter. My husband Jack and I had been married for several months now, and we were trying so hard for a baby.

We both wanted to be parents so badly and it was something we could actually see us being great at. Every time a test came back negative it broke my heart more and more, same with Jack. As much as we didn’t want to admit it, there had to be something wrong with one of us.

I threw away the tests before Jack was due to arrive home. I didn’t want him getting upset again. After throwing the tests away, I went into the living room and snuggled alone on the couch. I tried to avoid thinking about the possibility that something was wrong with me, I wanted to be able to give Jack children, but what if I couldn’t? The thought alone drove me insane.

A few hours later Jack arrived home, later than usual.

“Hey baby.” He said as he sat next to me on the couch, rubbing my leg.

“Hey what took you so long?” I questioned as Jack ran his fingers through his hair, one of his many nervous habits.

“So I made a doctors appointment last week and had a follow up today.” Jack said with a blank expression.

“What? Are you okay?” I asked.

“Yes and no. So I lately I couldn’t help but think of how hard we’ve been trying for a baby and we have had no luck. I went to the doctors to get some tests and they came back today.” Jack said, staring at the wall.

“And?” I asked, my heart racing. I knew this wasn’t going to be good news.

“I’m the one who can’t have kids, it’s me.” Jack said, tears building in his eyes.

For the first time I had no words. I could practically feel the pain and devastation Jack was feeling and it hurt.

“Jack, I don’t even know what to say right now.” I admitted.

“Honestly, me either. All I wanted was to give you children and start a family together. I’m so sorry I can’t do that for you.” Jack said, his tears falling.

I reached over and held his hand. “Jack we have other options.”

“Like what? Sperm donors?” Jack laughed dryly.

“No, adoption. It’ll still be your kid, just as much as its mine. Think about it, there are so many kids here in California who need loving and supportive parents like we would be. We could save a child from going into Foster Care or whatnot.” I said. If we couldn’t have kids biologically, adoption was clearly the next best thing.

“You’d be okay with this?” Jack asked.

“Only if you are.” I replied.

“We definitely would be helping out a kid in need and we both really want to have kids, so let’s do it.” Jack said wiping his tears away.

“Really?” I asked excitedly.

“Really!” Jack responded kissing me softly on the lips.

“Soon we’ll be a cute little family of three!” I said, already excited to get started on the adoption process.

Unintended Chapter 3

3- FIRESPOT

summary: Foreston Academy was the very last resort for angry, lonely Dan Howell. He never could have imagined meeting anyone like Phil Lester, and Phil never could have known that befriending his new roommate would change his life entirely.

Is there such a thing as being too forgiving?

betas: comefeedmyobsession and kaleidanscope

wc: ~4k 

warnings: descriptions of fire

a/n: i am alrEADY so sick of uploading this only another 10 chapters and an epilogue to go((((((:

Even though PJ hadn’t actually mentioned to Phil taking Dan down to Firespot, the thought had still raced through Phil’s head as an extension to their conversation as he headed back down the hallway.

Although this thought made him sad, Phil was ever an optimistic person, and believed that Foreston and his own supportiveness towards Dan together would eventually get Dan to come round. If Phil couldn’t take Dan down to Firespot tonight, maybe he could another night.

When Phil arrived back in the room, Dan and Alyssa unlocked lips to each give Phil an angry scowl.

‘I am not leaving,’ said Phil, stretching his arms with a loud yawn and starting to hum a tune happily as he took out a notepad.

Dan and Alyssa stared in shock.

'I’m just gonna draft out a letter to the family,’ chirped Phil, partly radiating his usual sunshine, but partly enjoying the horrified looks on their faces. Alyssa had been quite the bitch in the past, and even he wouldn’t pass up the opportunity to get on her nerves a bit.

Still humming, he flipped the pages in his notebook noisily, crackling the paper and clicking his pen a few times when he saw Dan’s hand tracing back towards Alyssa’s boob.

He leapt up and smiled widely at the two teenagers.

'Mind if I put some music on?’ He was still happy and smiling, and skipped over to the mini-stereo without waiting for an answer.

He half wasn’t expecting one, he seemed to have shocked them so much, but Dan was clearing his throat and glaring at him.

'Uh? Yeah? I do mind!’

Phil turned up a Blink-182 track before doing a little dance and turning back to Dan, desperately trying not to laugh and to keep his smile genuine.

'What!?’ He shouted, cupping a hand around his ear, 'What did you say?’

'I said,’ screamed back Dan, 'turn the fucking music down!’

'Whaaat?!’

/I’ll add some blink lyrics here but I want something really good and couldn’t think of anything appropriate off the top of my head so any suggestions are appreciated!!/

'Turn it down!’ He turned back to Alyssa and Phil saw him tell her to ignore him, before trying to make out with her again. She looked back at him with disgust, clambering off the tiny bed with equal scowls of disdain at both of the boys, turning off the stereo and striding towards the door with her hips rocking.

'Wait! Alyssa! Where’re you going?!’ Dan slid off the bed towards the door but Alyssa turned round sharply.

'Out. I’ll come back when you can be arsed to put me before your loser roommate.’

'Ally!’

Alyssa’s eyebrows shot up her high forehead.

'Don’t fucking call me that,’ she hissed, before spitting on the carpeted floor and picking her way out of the room and into the corridor, slamming the door as hard as she was able.

Phil knew Alyssa, and if Dan wanted to keep her, he needed to go after her now. Luckily, Dan was too busy being angry at Phil.

'What the fuck, do you think you’re doing?’

'Ew, gross. She spat on the floor.’

'Hey, wanker! Are you listening to me!?’

'I reckon you should clean this up.’

'What?!’ Dan was stunned. He hadn’t thought that his roommate was quite so… Audacious.

'Yeah, well, you seem happy for her spit to be in your mouth, so it shouldn’t be an issue to clean off the floor, right?’

Dan’s face was filled with such anger that Phil’s courage started to crumble.

This boy had been expelled. For what? What had he done? And what could he do to Phil?

Fury clouded Dan’s face and his chocolate eyes turned to dark stones. Phil started backing up against the other side of the room.

'Who. The. Fuck,’ he hissed, each word thrown as a silver knife slicing through Phil, 'do you think you are?’

'Dan,’

'How. Dare. You!’

Dan’s hands had curled into quivering fists of anger. Phil thought of Chris and PJ, locked away in their own cosy room at the other end of the corridor. He didn’t own a mobile phone, and neither did Peej.

'Dan, I’m sorry! I didn’t realise she was… Important..?’ Dan had only met her today! Why was he so furious?! Especially after the way he had treated Phil all day!

Dan’s brain unfogged briefly, just enough for him to respond to Phil’s comment. Of course Alyssa wasn’t important. He didn’t even like her that much. But- But- Phil had-

What exactly had Phil done? Interrupted them? The reason Alyssa had left was because he, Dan, wouldn’t stand up to Phil.

Well, he thought, red flooding his vision again as he remembered Phil’s rude comments about him cleaning up Alyssa’s spit, Dan would stand up to Phil now. That would show him. That would show everyone.

'Dan,’ he heard Phil whimper as he approached the pathetic specimen, and all Dan could do was laugh. He loved it when he was more powerful than another, loved the feeling of someone else being completely helpless right in front of him. It made him feel whole, it made him feel alive.

'Dan, you don’t want to hurt me,’ Phil was sliding down the wall as Dan raised his fists with a cruel glare, 'no, seriously, you can’t get kicked out on your first day! Your parents-’

His parents. His parents. How did Phil know about his parents!? How could he possibly know!?

Dan’s hand slammed into Phil’s shoulder, pinning him against the wall, their noses only inches apart as Dan hissed into Phil’s face.

'What do you know about my parents!?’

'Nothing! Nothing, I just- what would they say if you got expelled again-’

Phil quickly flicked his face to one side to try and protect himself, assuming his comment would only rile Dan up, but it infact had the opposite effect.

Dan took a deep gulp, eyes beading with tears, and crumpled to the floor, letting go of Phil immediately, who ended up crumpled beside him.

To Phil’s utter horror, Dan’s eyes started streaming, his breath coming in thick raspy heaves.

'Dan-’

'Why can’t I-’ Dan wailed, ’-do anything right!?’ He thrust his head against the wall and Phil had to dive out of the way to avoid being headbutted.

'Dan-’ Phil grabbed Dan’s shoulders and pulled him back as he attempted to hit his head again, 'Dan- please stop, please,’ the boy was scaring Phil now.

'I’m so useless! I’m just this huge fuck-up, Phil, I- I-’

'Dan, please stop. You’re not a fuck-up, you’re just-’

'I AM! YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME! NOTHING!’

Dan dissolved into tears so ferocious that his body shook with each sob as he curled up on the carpet, arms wrapped desperately around his body. Phil was shocked to put it mildly; this outburst was worse than any of Dan’s tears he had experienced yesterday.

'You don’t know me,’ Dan muttered, gasping for air between the violent sobs.

'Then, Dan,’ Phil put a gentle hand on Dan’s shoulder, pushing him up into a sitting position, 'let me.’ Phil laughed at how anime he sounded, and Dan stared in confusion, his sobs slowing but the tears still running a river down his cheeks. 'I mean, um, let me get to know you. Tell me about you…’ He broke off as Dan fell into fresh howls of sorrow, this time completely and utterly inconsolable.

For the second time in the two days Dan had been at Foreston, Dan missed his dinner. But this time, Phil did as well. Although Phil could do nothing to help the boy, he stayed there holding his hand until the tears subsided and he collapsed on his bed into a troubled sleep.

 

***

 

'Where is he right now?’

'In our room, wiped out. That’s why I have to be quick- I want to be there when he wakes up. God knows what he could do.’ And plus, thought Phil, he wanted Dan to know Phil was there for him, no matter how much of a 'fuck-up’ Dan thought hewas.

'Ok, I can probably do that. You game, Chris?’

Chris shouted over from the corner, where he was busy tapping away on a laptop, 'Yeah, yeah Phil, you can count on us! I mean, I don’t have a clue what you actually want me to do, I wasn’t listening, So bear that in mind when I say I’m happy to help. If 'help’ means you want to cheer him up by selling my body to him, I’m afraid I may be out…’

'You’re a prat, Chris,’ snorted PJ as Phil laughed.

***

Dan was awoken by the tinkling of a tune he thought he recognised, but couldn’t place for the life of him.

 

As Dan’s eyes slowly unglued themselves, he rolled over in his bed (nearly falling out in the process) to watch a tall black-haired figure stumble across the room to turn off the glowing object that was emitting the weirdly familiar music.

Dan’s brain slightly waking up, he realised that it was Phil’s fancy clock, and that the music must be an alarm. A glance at the garish letters told him that it was past midnight on a Monday so, technically, as his sluggish mind pointed out to him, it was Tuesday.

Phil turned round when he heard Dan groan.

'You awake?’

Dan simply grunted, dragging his duvet clumsily over his head with another groan when Phil opened the curtain to let a bright stream of moonlight glow up the room.

'Come on!’ Dan pushed the cover away from his head for a moment to see that Phil was practically skipping with excitement.

Then he remembered.

'Phiiiiil..?’

'Come on come on come on!’ Phil was next to Dan’s bed, positively glowing with excitement, before he grabbed Dan’s hand and yanked him out from his warm cosy den of sleep, pulling him towards the door.

'Phil, I’m in my underwear!’

Phil turned round and looked the boy up and down briefly before the two of the dissolved into giggles.

'Grab a t-shirt and jacket,’ he whispered, pushing him towards the wardrobe before the two of them started giggling again.

 

***

 

When Phil got back from Chris and PJ’s room that evening, he only had to wait another half hour for Dan to wake up.

When he did, Dan was a mess.

'Please don’t make me tell you anything.’

'What?’

'I don’t want… I mean, I think… You would hate me… More than now… I…’

'Shut up Dan,’ Phil’s voice was soft, and he put an arm around Dan, the two of them now sat on Dan’s bunk with their backs propped up against the wall together, 'I actually don’t hate you, you don’t seem to be able to comprehend-’

'You would,’ Dan’s voice was almost inaudible.

'You’re not following me, Dan, I don’t care what you’ve done in the past, what’s important is-’

'Phil, I’m a fuck-up. You’re not. And I just… I just don’t want to talk about it.’

Phil did want to talk about it. In his experience, nothing helped better than a friend. But he didn’t want to push Dan away, so he decided to let it go for now.

'Can we be friends, Dan?’

Dan was silent as he stared down at his hands. Phil was starting to notice that Dan could never keep his hands still - he was always fidgeting, twitching his fingers or tapping away as though he was perpetually playing a keyboard in his head.

'I don’t know,’

'Why? Am I… Am I doing something wrong?!’

'No, no! I mean… We just, those other guys, David and Patrick and Alyssa,hey’re more like me. Not you… Not you, Phil.’

'How are they more like you? They’re all… Well, to put it bluntly Dan, they’re all kinda dickheads.’

Silence. And then: 'Exactly.’

Phil didn’t know what to say to that.

'You don’t have to be like them.’ Is what he settled for at length, trying desperately to break the silence.

'I am though. I can’t change who I am.’

'You’re not! I was watching you today, Dan, and you looked bored! You’re interesting and funny and creative and you don’t need to hang round with idiots like that because you feel like that’s what you deserve, or whatever it is you think.’

'Shut up waffling. And plus; those “idiots” are my friends.’

Dan’s voice was cold, and Phil panicked. Could he do nothing right with this boy? He had always thought he was good with people - he made friends easily and most people who knew him adored him -yet he didn’t seem to be able to do anything right with Dan.

'I’m sorry,’ he mumbled, also staring at his own pale hands now, 'I… please don’t hate me.’

Dan’s hands were slightly more tanned than Phil’s, his fingers less long and nails less nibbled. Phil watched as he interlaced his fingers agitatedly, giving away some of the emotion his passive face hid so well.

'I don’t hate you,’ Phil heard Dan whisper.

Phil knew what he wanted to say now.

'Come to Firespot with me tonight. It’s fun, you can actually get to know my friends… Maybe we can start afresh, If you want?’

'Firespot?’

'I told you 'bout it last night - the campfire thing out in the woods.’ Dan’s face was blank. 'Just after I turned the lights out and you were pretending to be asleep…’

Phil wondered if he’d upset Dan or if the boy would just deny it, but to his delight Dan just chuckled a little and looked up at him with a tiny sad smile on his face.

'Yeah… yeah, ok.’ At that moment Phil’s stomach gave a rumble, 'Hh god, you didn’t get anything to eat, did you!?’

'Oh it’s fine, I’ve sorted it,’ Phil flashed a wide smile at Dan, trying desperately and mostly failing to hide how overjoyed he was that Dan was coming to Firespot with him, before jumping off the bed and hopping over to the stereo.

'Help me pick something to listen to, friend.’

 

***

'So… What was your alarm song thing? I think I might have recognised it.’

'Oh, um, it’s from the soundtrack to some anime film.’

They spoke in whispers because they were creeping down the grounds together, having gotten out of the building successfully and gone out through the conservatory doors that were left open every Monday night for the students who were in the know about Firespot. Dan had insisted on putting on some proper clothes and shoes; there was no way he was going to a campfire in the middle of the night dressed only in his underwear.

'Which film? I love anime!’

'One of the Ghibli ones, I think? It’s bad, but I can’t actually remember, I’ve had it as my alarm for so long.’

'What’s your favourite anime Phil?’ The grass was soft and springy under Dan’s feet, the moonlight bright and Dan’s excitement was building.

'Film or show?’

'Either. Both. I don’t know!’

‘It has to be Iwatobi Swim Club in terms of show, I mean, all the muscles. I identify with Gou spiritually.’

‘Oh yes! I love that show, how it just,’ Dan clenched his fist, staring at the ground all of a sudden, ‘ended without warning.’

The moon shone brightly in the sky and autumn leaves crunched under their feet as they tiptoed down towards the dark treeline across the grounds.

They talked in hushed voices about things they liked and things they didn’t like, about books and films and shows and games, and because Phil didn’t ask about anything to do with Dan’s past, the conversation was light and easy and enjoyable.

Turns out, thought Dan, maybe he could hold a good conversation. Or maybe it was just Phil.

Soon they were close to the trees, and when he really listened hard during the gaps in conversation, Dan thought he could hear the quiet strains of music coming from somewhere in the woods.

They wandered a little further until they were past the treeline, Phil picking his way through the dark woods easily.

'Listen,’ whispered Phil mid- sentence, pulling one hand to his ear and the other grabbing Dan’s forearm, forcing Dan to stop walking and stand stock-still next to Phil. 'You hear them?’

Dan did hear them. the sound of music, and beneath it laughter and chatter and happiness. It filled him with a buzz, which only increased when he looked over at Phil, who was gazing at him with a strange mix of excitement and anticipation and… pride. He was proud of this school, of Firespot, of everything he had to show his new roommate, Dan realised.

Dan had an overwhelming urge to throw his arms around Phil and pull him into a tight hug, to say thankyou for helping him and understanding him and not hating him, even after the shitty way Dan had behaved over the last couple of days. He wanted to be here in the woods on this cool September night and hold his first ever… friend- since childhood- close under the moonlight streaming through the leaves above them and just… say thankyou.

The emotion was overwhelming when Dan realised that he considered Phil a friend. So much so that he honestly did consider trying to hug him, just for a second.

But of course he didn’t.

 

(a/n: this next bit is all about the campfire, inc. roasting marshmallows etc)

 

Just as they approached the clearing, Dan closed his eyes and inhaled the cool night air- it smelt like pine wood and burning and silver moonlight.

Moonlight has a smell, trust me. If you don’t know that then you haven’t been out in the middle of the autumn in a wood at midnight with a raven-haired boy with shining blue eyes staring back at you with excitement and pride, tiny clouds of warm air spiralling out into the darkness every time he takes an excited little puff of breath.

Phil took Dan’s hand in his own cold soft one, and pulled him forwards through the trees. Dan was so taken by surprise by the gentle contact that he for a second froze in Phil’s grasp, staring at their intertwined hands.

Phil followed his gaze, ‘Oh, sorry,’ he said, letting go, a hot pink blush flooding his pale cool cheeks.

Dan instantly felt the warmth leaving his hand. ‘No, no. I… I like it. Friendly. I…’ he wasn’t making any sense, so silently took another deep breath and a step forwards, grasping Phil’s hand tightly in his own. The boy looked at Dan and smiled a happy smile.

They stood there for a second in the shadows, moonlight playing on their hair and skin and faces, before Phil took the first step forward.

‘S’gonna be okay,’ he whispered to Dan, who had not really relaxed ever since the arms of the trees had first surrounded them- he hated trees, and to be right in their midst felt incredibly claustrophobic and intimidating. But with a warm hand squeeze and a smile from Phil, the two boys walked forward together through the dark silhouettes of the trees, taking their steps slowly as their feet crunched on the autumn leaves beneath them.

And with a precipitous blaze of surprise, the trees around them were flickering with golden light, and the laughter and the music and the happiness filled their ears and a radiant beam filled Phil’s face from ear to ear, and Dan dissolved into a dreamlike state as Phil dragged him around the circle and introduced him to everyone, and the music tickled his eardrums and tempted his body and the fire- the huge fire in the centre of the clearing- made everything golden and his eyes stream and his nose smell soot and barbeque food and the flames danced around him expressing every emotion at once.

He was surrounded by beautiful people bathed in golden orange light dancing and twirling and laughing, everyone with huge smiles on their faces and uncaring of what other people would make of them- simply having fun with their friends. There were two boys further back sat on a log, cloaked in shadows, playing guitars, a girl tapping a tambourine, and lots of people singing. Dan could see a few other instruments around- a ukulele lay abandoned, another girl held a flute in her lap- but they weren’t playing. Dan hoped he’d get to hear them later.

Dan was afraid of a lot of things- for example moths and darkness and trees- three things that were all present tonight, in fact- but he wasn’t afraid of fire. He wasn’t afraid of the way fire danced and flickered and shone light upon everything in its vicinity. Dan found fire exquisite and enchanting, and soon was so under the happy friendly dancing spell of Firespot that he found himself understanding why Phil loved it so much. He found himself loving it.

‘Dan,’ whispered Phil in his ear, ‘earth to Dan!’

Dan looked up at Phil, sat on the log next to him, smirking and handing him a stick with a marshmallow speared on the end of it. PJ and Chris were already crouching beside the flames, the fire licking their marshmallows and painting them black. Dan’s mouth started to water- he hadn’t eaten any dinner.

As Dan and Phil got up from the logs and approached the fire, Phil leaned again to Dan and whispered, ‘Peej and Chris went down to the kitchens for us earlier- we have tons of food to eat! To be honest, everyone here usually makes quite an event of the first night back at Firespot- a midnight feast, if you will.’

Dan felt drunk with happiness as he toasted marshmallows over the flickering dancing heat with Phil, Chris and PJ joining them so they could all take their first bites together- and it was all the gooey slimy sugary burn-your-tongue goodness that Dan could ever have dreamed of. It felt like heaven.

‘So… Tell me more about,’ Dan gestured around him, ‘the people here.’

The looks on PJ and Phil’s faces were made simultaneously of sunshine and moonlight, flickering flames and light laughter. Phil’s tongue poked out of the corner of his mouth.

‘We here,’ said Phil, ‘we’re /all/ misfits.’

Misfits.

Misfits.

These people- they liked him. They accepted him.

At least, Dan thought they did. He surely must be wrong- but…

He couldn’t ask- he couldn’t- he would sound so needy, so lame…

But he loved it here. These people were so much more fun than who he had spent time with today. He realised how much rather he would be here, accidentally setting sausages on fire over a bonfire with Phil, than making out with a girl he barely knew- someone who deep down, he didn’t actually really like…

But why would these people like him? Why would anybody actually like Dan? He had been so awful…

Misfits…

Dan even considered that it was all an elaborate set-up, that at some point Phil and Chris and PJ would jump out and go ‘ha! We hate you really! You fell for it! Idiot!’ Dan knew it was stupid, but he just couldn’t help himself.

Dan watched the flames, overwhelmed by the personal conflict, until as if he had heard his thoughts, Dan felt Phil nudge his arm.

‘I’m really glad you’re here Dan,’ he whispered, blue eyes shining bright with honesty.

‘Really?’ Dan’s comment was almost inaudible, but Phil heard it.

‘Really.’

Dan had to turn away before Phil saw the tears of happiness that were pooling in his eyes. He had to do it, he thought. A new leaf. A fresh start.

Perhaps…. Perhaps it was possible after all.

Dan lay his head on Phil’s shoulder. The boy looked over, surprised, before relaxing into his side with a smile, their warm bodies pressed together.

It was so late, and Chris’ eyes were so heavy, his senses dulled by the food and the fun and the extraordinariness of the night. But he had never felt more happy than now, as he leant back against the bark of a tree and watched the silhouette of his roommate spiral joyously through the flames, completely unaware of how beautiful a dancer he was. Chris yawned and closed his eyes for a second, the image of PJ burning into his retinas, a feeling of longing sweeping over him along with the powerful wave of tiredness.

PJ was far too perfect- he was kind and funny and ridiculously creative- he danced like a god with a orange halo of light highlighting every loose strand of his wild hair, the flickering flames causing the sweat on his face to shine, his lips an orange-pink.

Chris had only known him two days, so how was it that he felt he had loved him for all his life?

Stop it, Chris he was drifting off, eyes closed, head back against the tree trunk, Stop being stupid, his head was so heavy…. You barely know him

That night, as PJ (with assistance from a tired Phil) carried Chris back to the room, unable to arouse him, they didn’t know that he was deep in a dream containing the very boy who held him.

4. nightmares - masterpost

skyorganasolo  asked:

Can we just talk about how much James saved Sirius' life? Because freaking saved it. He completely turned Sirius' life around. I did think a huge reason Sirius was a Gryiffindor was because of James (he just knew that this kid liked it and he liked James because he was actually nice to him which was rare for him) James helped him to be the person he was; helped him to get away from his family. Without James, I don't think Sirius would have had to courage to escape and if he didn't escape (1)

yeeeeeeeeeees! i always thought that eleven years old sirius was a little like harry, who the sorting hat could put in slytherin bc of so many reasons but he ~~ like harry ~~ chose to be in gryffindor because 1) be anything that reminders him of his family was terrifying 2) but what if he was like his family and there was nothing that he could do? 3) but hey, this boy i just met seems nice and he thought that i was nice 4) maybe i can be different, maybe i can be in gryffindor and then all of this things were in sirius’s mind when he was getting sort and then the  sorting hat put him in gryffindor and from that day sirius promises to himself that he would prove to james - that little boy that was the first person to show him that he could be a good man- that he was a gryffindor and he would always do the right thing and that was the moment that sirius knew that he was brave enough to get away from his family..

and can we talk about how james was everything to sirius? they weren’t just best friends, they had the best friendship ever, they were family, they were lovers - platonic or not, they loved each other so much - 

sirius wasn’t terrified of his family anymore, he didn’t care anymore of being a “family disappointment”… these things didn’t matter anymore, everything that matter now is james… sirius didn’t want to lose james, to disappoint james..

i can clearly see sirius thinking about everything that james was to him, the only thing that he had and everytime that sirius failed - like the day of the werewolf joke on snape -  he was terrified of what james would thinking about him and he could cry nights and nights, begging for james don’t stop love him 

now, can you imagine that pain that sirius felt when he found out james’s dead body? pain because his best friend was dead, his only family, his everything, the person who he loved most, the one that he could do anything to save 

and then the guilt, he was feeling so guilty for everything… james was dead, his james was dead.. and it was his fault… and that was the moment that sirius died as well.. sirius didn’t die in that day in the ministry, that was a shadow of sirius black..the real sirius black was dead for 14 years.. he died when james died..

every second of every day for 14 years sirius thought about james  and how much he wished that him was dead and not her best friend

he didn’t try to escape of azkaban before he knowing that peter was at hogwarts with harry - james’s son- because he really felt that he was not good enough for harry, he would not be able to protect harry as he was not able to protect james… and lose harry too would be like lose james all over again..

but then he found out about peter and he knows that harry already was in danger and he had to fight, he had to try..he owes it to james! 

but can you imagine how painful was to sirius to be with harry? after all these years, be close to the only connection that he still had with james? and he sees how much harry suffered all these years and the guilty is over him again… he couldn’t protect james, he couldn’t take care of harry, he failed with both.. he failed with james, again….

but sirius needed to fight, even if he couldn’t stop thinking that he failed with his best friend he needed keep fighting.. fighting to protect harry.. fighting to revenge james… fighting in a suicidal way bc he had nothing more to lose, he was so broken.. sirius loved harry so much, i’m pretty sure about that but harry wasn’t james… harry was a painful reminder of james and sirius was nothing without james

i need to stop now because i’m too emotional…

“It’s been 14 years, and still not a day goes by that I don’t miss your dad”  

please, kill me now 

Super Junior 7jib MAMACITA Thanks To
  • Leeteuk: I wanted to become happy.. I always have been looking for the key to happiness. Now, I think I have found that key to happiness. Being able to wake up in the morning, meet people I want to meet, and laugh together and cry together.... Beloved family... Beloved members.. Beloved all family members of SM.. Beloved fans... I now realized that everything I've always felt is the key to happiness. I want to feel this happiness with everyone. Thank you, and thank you again; I love you, and I love you.. I hope everyone reading this post will be full of happiness and love.. I love you..!!
  • Heechul: This is an album after 3 years for me. I want to try being a bit serious in the Thanks To this time. It's already been 10 years since we debut.
  • There probably are people who are new to loving me, but I'm sure there are fans who've been loving me for 10 years now. I think about it whenever I'm zoning out in the car, or whenever I'm going to sleep..
  • What 'fans' are..
  • I don't have much of 'fan love' (t/n in other words, fan service), I am not nice, so why do people give love to someone like me, who, in some way, is like a mean 5 years old?
  • And a thought that popped in my head was to not to look for the reason, and to express myself some too. Play (together) like we are eternal friends.
  • And that made me look hard at fans' faces like I'll put a hole on their face. Because of my prosopagnosia, my level of memory with faces are at same level as a fish but
  • I tried to memorize each and everyone but!!! as expected, I couldn't do it well kkkkkkkkkk ah sorry kkkkkkkkkkkkk I can't help this kkkkkkkkkkkkk but still, I read the letters, and try to remember their faces. Lastly, my beloved babies. Hyung will speak informally now. We will grow old someday and get married too. I hope you will come to Super Show in future with your babies. Then I would get emotional and really touched. Let's picture 'eternity' like that together, and be together for a long long time ^~^
  • I hope that you guys will meet good people (partners) and will live happily. You guys have to get married quickly so I feel less sorry when I get married too kk
  • But I have to first quit games and comic books first-ng.. Tremble tremble..
  • Anyways, I love you, my babies!!!! Ppo Ppo kiss~ ^3^
  • Kangin: I realized too late that I am thankful for just being able to be together. I think I know a bit now.. That I was a greedy man who only received. I will now be the one giving. And my beloved family members, let's live happily. I really love you. Grandmother who is watching me from heaven.. There are many promises I made with you that I couldn't keep; I'll live with them in my heart. Grandmother, do not worry about anything there and rest peacefully. And our fan ELF!! Oppas will protect you.
  • Shindong: I am now repeating the process of writing and erasing. I really don't know how to express this good feeling and thankful thoughts. Really. I will just!! Show it on the stage!! Everyone, sorry for being unable to express myself. Yes, that's true. The people that have the hardest time while producing this album are the song writer, lyrics writer, singer, producer, choreographer, manager, stylist, photographer, etc.. there are countless people but!! You guys, who anticipate and listen, have to be there (for that to happen) so, sigh.. I think I was living with a really big delusion. How to say.. 'I'm always showing you guys this really cool look of me, and the funny side of me! so you guys have to always anticipate and wait for me..' Why did I think that way... Anyways thank you. I think this is the first time I wrote my true feelings on 'Thanks To', without calculating (what to say). Sorry, and sorry again. From now on, I will only write real 'Thanks To' on 'Thanks To's... Thank you, everlasting friends~
  • Sungmin: An album to beloved ELF. Thank you for always being with me. You are my precious, everlasting, closest friend.
  • Eunhyuk: Firstly, thanks to our fans for waiting for this album for a long time. During past 2 years, I've experienced many events. I was shaken, was very exhausted, received many scars, and for the first time, I thought about giving up. I remembered the young days when I first I dreamed of becoming a singer, the days when I was a trainee, and the days since I met Super Junior. Looking back at those days, I gave compliments to myself, and reflected on a lot of things too. And I imagined a bit about the future. In the end, I gained conviction for things I wanted to do, and things I have to do, and what allowed me to have that strength were fans who always stood by my side and loved me without changing, and Super Junior members. I think it's not easy for a person to go back to 'their first mindset'. So with a new mindset, I plan to enjoy the promotions this time. I hope you continue to cheer without any reserves for the road I will take from now on. I will repay to everyone with mindset that does not change, and with changing images(appearance/side). Thank you.
  • Donghae: Dear Father/ Last time I saw you was around 2006 8/8 Tuesday 3AM, but it's already 2014 8/21 Thursday. A lot of time has passed, right? ^^ Like the time that's passed, the environment around, many people, thoughts, and appearance has changed a lot. Some changed for the better, some not. But I am always working hard so that my core that I am holding on, does not change a lot. Because you, father, are in that core too. You'd be disappointed if I changed to (not good/bad), so I am working hard to (not change) ^^ then you can compliment me when I meet you again. I'm still young, and I'm still the son that wants to receive compliments from father. But it's been a really long time since I've been unable to hear those compliments. Soon, I will perform 100th concert performance; It would have been nice if father could have watched at least one of those 100 performances. It's sad. I'm really thankful to be able to do a job that I love, be loved while doing that job, that there are people who cry, laugh, and be happy because of me-though, what am I (for them to feel that way for me)-, and that there are people who have dreams while watching me. I'm very thankful that those people exist, and I am thankful about everything, that I can feel that I am living a life that I am more thankful of. Complains, not being satisfied, being lazy... Looking back now, I can see that everything- even things that I didn't feel good about- are thankful things. What I am most thankful about is that I am your son. It's a letter to you after a long time. 2014 8/21 Thursday 7:04PM, after 2 years... Let's talk again when another album comes out in future ^^ I love you, dad.
  • Dear Mom, Hyung, HyunGyum / Mom, don't get sick. When you are sick, I feel even more hurt. There are many things I wasn't able to feel when I wasn't able to live with you when I was young, and now, living together, I feel them. I feel thankful from small things like being able to be together, being able to see you, and being able to touch you. When you look at me and smile, when you- who looked big when I was young- now look smaller than me, when you- who walked really fast- walk slower than me, and when I felt that you- who looked strong and powerful- have become weaker than me, and is depending on me, tears come to my eyes. Just don't get sick. I love you mom^^ Beloved hyung, you are very tired, exhausted, and bored these days right? But I am happy and full of energy because of hyung. I think a lot about how I can do more for you, hyung. It's not that I just want to give you something; it's more like.. I'm thankful that I have a brother, and thankful that I can share with hyung. I hope hyung enjoys it a bit more, and I hope that you will be happy. I also hope that we brothers would rely on each other more. I love you, hyung.
  • HyunGyum-ah, hyung is proud and happy that you have a dream at such a young age. I hope you will work harder, and if you don't want to get hit, listen to hyung more! hehe. Listen to mom, and sleep early.
  • Dear SJ/ There really is no need for words!! I like that we are together, I'm happy that we are together, and I'm thankful that whenever I feel tired and look back, you're standing there by my side without a word^^ There's no need for anything else, let's just do well just among ourselves^^ Suju is the best hehe. Leader Teuk-ee hyung... I will trust hyung and go! and Yesung-ee hyung... If hyung were with us, we would have shined more. I will make it so that when hyung returns, hyung's spot will shine more ^^ I love you hyung!
  • Grow your hand a bit, or I'll just have a smaller mic prepared for you ^^ (Youngjoon-ee hyung, Byungjoon-ee hyung, Junghoon-ee hyung, Yongsun-ee hyung, MinGeun-ee hyung, Siyong-ee hyung, Yongsuk-ee)
  • We are Super Juni-or! ^^ Thank you and I love you.
  • Dear ELF/ You waited a really long time right? Me too me too mee too really!! hehe finally advancing out! ELF all over the world, are you ready?? We are ready ^^
  • In short words, because ELF exists, SuJu can breathe ^^ Please continue to let us breathe ^^ I love you, love you, love you, and love you^^ Always thankful and love you ^^
  • Siwon: I feel the fast speed of time. It's already 7jib.... Thankfully, thanks to your love and support, we were able to go around the world many times, and how many times did we stand on a dream-like stage... Thinking about it all, I'm thankful. I want to say thanks to beloved ELF all over the world who cheer for us without changing. And I want to say thanks to beloved family members, beloved Lee SooMan teacher, and staffs who always work hard to help us. If you guys weren't there, we wouldn't be at this position. Thank you again.
  • Thank you everyone.. Thank you God.. Please anticipate a lot from us, who are just starting now.
  • Ryeowook: Beloved mom and dad, thank you ^^ Super Junior members, you worked hard during the time to prepare 7jib, and I love each and everyone of you♡
  • Teuk-ee hyung, I'm thankful that you are with us, though it must have been very pressuring, (to work so soon after) release from army! Hyung is really our leader~ I love you / My meal friend Heechul-ee hyung~ I'm thankful that you listen to my words well, and let's continue to live together. / I miss you.. Listen to our 7jib well~ Stay well too ^^ / Yesung-ee hyung!!!! I hope hyung's empty spot will be filled quickly.. Let's work together again quickly~ let's meet again at Han River kk / KingKing! The handsomest KingKing kk Hyung, you know that I love you a lot right? / Donggri DongDong, I love hyung's voice the most kk Let's go for a solo song in the next album! I will try directing it. / Sungmin-ee hyung~! Thank you for always comforting me by my side ^^!! Let's meet at Sukira soon kk / I'm happy that Hyukgu is becoming more and more handsome! Work harder ^^ Hyung, you know it, right? kkk / Donghai! I love you as much as I love Hyukgu kk Donghae-hyung, don't be sad~ Let's go again tonight!!! / Siwon-ee hyung, I'm sorry .. that I only like D&E kkkkk I love hyung a lot ♡ / Kibum-ah, come to the dorm~!! Let's eat^^ / Kyuhyun-ah, do you like Changmin and Minho more than me?..ㅠ I love you KyuKyu kk / Super Junior M Zhou Mi hyung!! I hope hyung will be very happy ^^ I love you hyung~♡ / Henry, take some care of Zhou Mi hyung! kk SJM maknae Henry-yah, I'm always thankful about you! / Super Junior 7jib, let's become daebak!!!! My girlfriend, E.L.F.. I'm thankful, and I love you! ♡ It's 7jib now~ Till everyone gathers in one place, Ryeowook-ee will work hard too with the name 'Super Junior'^^ I love you. Love yourself♡
  • Kyuhyun: Kyu will always be where E.L.F's are...

anonymous asked:

Do you think Ciel x Elizabeth is realistic? I mean, I ship sebaciel to hell and back, but maybe it's just me, I really can't see Ciel and Elizabeth together, but maybe it's because I see them more as friends/maybe not that. btw i love your blog <3

thanks to you anon and let me answer this in details,

It really depends on what you meant by ‘realistic’ , if you mean ‘logical’ then yes, they definitely are. They are engaged after all and in the story if you care to look or let your mind run wild, then they have a very interesting interactions that could  nourish a shipper’s imagination, so I see where the shippers are coming from however, if by realistic you mean possible or real (in the end ) then ,No , at least how I see it , it’s not .

For me, I can’t see the love , and not just from Ciel’s side now don’t chew on me I can explain that.

Elizabeth doesn’t love Ciel, why? because she doesn’t know him , the real him. She doesn’t know his wishes , favourite writer, what he enjoys doing , the things he do. All she knows is the sparky Ciel that he pretends to be but him? the complicated evil bastard who burns people alive? the real him? No. What Lizzy is in love with is the fleeting memory of a boy who used to share her toys ,and she still see him as the same person, she still want to act cute and dress cute because when he was nine or perhaps younger he said he didn’t want a strong wife , she didn’t care enough to stop and see that now he is different , that he grew up. She only notices that when he forgets about their time together . Lizzy doesn’t love Ciel but her selfish wish to be his wife , she never once asked him what he wants to do, she would drag him around, dress him as she wants even break his things if she didn’t like them but then she says that ‘‘she just wants to make him happy’‘ but what she do is what she wants to do.

She wants to dress up, she wants to dance and party , she wants to go out together , she never once did anything he wanted ,as a matter of fact he always seems reluctant to do whatever she wants till she pout her why through it. I can’t get how people see them as a ‘‘healthy relationship’‘ when they’re so fucked up. So as I see it; here’s what Elizabeth is in love with : her childhood playmate , her self, the expectations people put on Ciel not him , and really if you love someone so much you wouldn’t think that not being able to wear high heels is the most tragic thing in the world while he got kidnapped and lost his parents .

As for Ciel he does love her , but not in love with her. he sure as hell care about her safety and happiness but more out of guilt than out of love, again this is how I see it.

I really think that guilt is the strongest emotion Ciel has towards Lizzy, because he knows that he doesn’t love her the way he should, as long as she is safe he wouldn’t bother to know, that’s not love .

We see in the last arc when Edward told him about her disappearance he was surprised and she was there for a month, this means that there is no communication between them whatsoever, he never asks about her because she is with her family , she’s safe , it’s not his business. Also she visits him, he never does, the first thing he did after coming home from Germany is work he would’ve asked about her first if he loves her as a lover but he didn’t , and it’s normal because asking about your cousin is not the first thing on your to do list. 

So as I see it, Ciel feels guilty and responsible so he treat her well, he care about her , that’s it,no more no less.

and this is how I see it, thank you very much anon, and sorry it took me so long to answer <3

“So ‘THAT’ Happened.”

or “My Serendipitous Encounter with Stephen Amell

What a weekend for Stephen at Wizard World Louisville! So much good stuff. Not only getting a personalized Louisville Slugger:

but also an acknowledgement from the Louisville Mayor’s office of his charity work (and meeting people from the wounded warriors project):

(Pic Source: @amellynation)

So cool and so proud of my “second hometown”.

Now many of you wanted to know how I met him, so I’ll post my story after the cut (you know my stories always get LONG).

Tagging @ruwithmeguys @smoakingbabbles @fanmommer @mel-loves-all @andjustforthismoment @aussieforgood @akahazzap @diggo26 @florence-bubbles @sammieathome @quiveringbunny @juliesioux because you asked or expressed interest in the “how”…

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  • Luke: "But, babe," Luke pouted like a child. "No 'but's Luke. There's no way I'm using that costume in public", you pointed to the computer screen, on which there was a picture of the kitten costume Luke wanted you to wear the the boys Halloween party, "Where did you even find this?! It looks like something that came off from a porn movie." "I was just googling and I cam across it", he sighed. "Yeah, sure", you giggled, pecking his cheek. "Please?", he tried again, looking at you with those irresistible blue eyes. "I'm sorry, Luke. But I'm not wearing that in front of everyone", you played with his hair, "Maybe when we're alone..." "Really?!", he stood up excitedly, like a little kid on Christmas day. "Maybe, yeah", you laughed and he took the computer away from you, purchasing the costume.
  • Ashton: "But, (Y/N)" Ashton whined, "I'm hungry." "Make yourself a sandwich," you sighed, too focused on your reading. "But it doesn't tastes as good as when you make it", he pouted. "That's a shame now, isn't it, Ashton?", you giggled. "I cannot believe you're going to let me starve!", he exclaimed. "Stop being a drama queen, Ashton," you laughed, "I just don't want to make you a sandwich right now." "You're the worst girlfriend ever!", Ashton child likely said. "Oh, really? You didn't seem to think that last night," you spat at him. "You know what? I just thought of something that always tastes really good when I'm eating it," he smirked, grabbing your feet and pulling you closer to him. "Ash," you giggled, wrestling to get out of his grip. "Nah-ah", he said, "I'm starving and you know just what I like to eat," he regained controls on your legs and pulled you closer and closer to him.
  • Michael: "But," Michael started. "No, Michael, we're not getting a puppy." "But, (Y/N), look at those eyes! We can't just leave it here! It's already attached to us", he argued. You knew coming to this adoption thing Michael had insisted was a stupid idea, but you came anyways. "Michael, we won't be able to take care of it." "We'll learn how to!", he said, picking it up, "It'd be just like practicing for a baby eventually." "You're not actually comparing that puppy to a baby, are you?", you said sternly. "C'mon, (Y/N). Please? I just want to be with a family that treats me well and loves me," he put the puppy in front of his face, mocking a possible voice for it. "Oh, God, Michael stop it," you giggled. "Who's Michael?", he continued, "I'm betting he's a hot boyfriend you might have. And I bet he'd love to take me home. Please, (Y/N), don't leave me here alone." "Oh, God, fine Michael", you rolled your eyes, taking the puppy in your arms, "We're taking you home, okay?", you told it in a high pitched voice.
  • Calum: "But... But," Calum tried to get out. "No 'but's, Calum, you lost the game," you smirked. It was actually Calum's idea that you should play 'too hot', and you were a little unsure at first. But, you figure that, even if you lost, you'd end up winning. "How did I lose it?!", Calum muttered to himself. "It was on the moment I bit your lip and you grabbed my bum, if you're wondering," you teased him. "Well, I guess I'm your slave now," he bit his lip, wrapping his arms around your waist and pressing your chest to his. "That sounds nice," you giggled, playing with his hair, "I have to thing what I'm going to do with you now." "I can help you come up with a few ideas," he purred, running his nose along your jaw line. "Yeah? I'd like that, please," you bit your lip to repress a smile. "Let's begin, then," he smirked, pressing your lips together.

anonymous asked:

Lately everyone has been making imagines about MC getting pregnant, and how happy that makes the characters. And I love it, because that is for most people. But I can't have kids. There is a minuscule chance of me even getting pregnant, a high chance of me having a miscarriage, and if by some miracle I go into labor, it's almost certain I would die, and my baby might as well. It's just hard reading about how happy being a parent makes everyone when I can't ever do that (1/2)

Alright Jalapeno is about to get a lil preachy and rambly and PERSONAL here so bear with me ok and just skip over this if ya don’t like it because this has nothing to do with mm but I’m not ignoring it.

First of all. It’s ok to be pissed off and sad about your situation. It sucks. It really does. You know it, I know it, and I won’t try to convince you otherwise.

Second-pregnancy sucks. Bad. The only fun I had in my pregnancy was feeling the kicks. And even then, imagine not being able to sleep even though you’re extremely exhausted but it feels like an alien is having a dance party inside of you and literally kicking the piss out of you. You can’t breathe. You can’t walk. Your back hurts and every single time someone tells you that you look beautiful you want to rip their throats out. I couldn’t eat anything, I actually LOST weight when I was pregnant because the only thing I could keep down was water and a piece of plain toast. Your hormones are a mess–I was crying at Geico commercials????  I could go on and onnnn. IT’S NOT FUN AND MAGICAL OK (alright maybe some women say it is but I am side-eyeing the shit out of them).

Third-kids suck. Lololol. They are worth it but tbh they suck. They’re hard! You’re never on your own schedule anymore. This tiny thing comes out of you and the hospital just sends you on your way and you’re like “what the fuck now?” You’re never on your own schedule anymore. Tired? Too bad. Hung over? Too bad. Sick af maybe dying? Too fucking bad. This tiny human needs you so suck it up. Don’t get me wrong!!!! I LOVE MY SON. More than anything in the world. But these are the things people don’t tell you about having kids. You read about the joys of being a parent and there’s flowers and roses and laughter. But that’s not always the case, and there are tough times. They don’t talk about the tantrums over silly things, like the other day when my son had a 45 minute meltdown because I cut up his food so he wouldn’t choke. It was the same food but he still wouldn’t eat it. Or the fun times they rip their diaper off that one moment you aren’t looking and start playing in their own shit (YEEEEEUP) just those moments that make you wanna grab your car keys and drive right into the nearest ocean. While you’re fantasizing about a life with kids, there are thousands of parent running on no sleep with a toddler screaming and smacking them in the face wishing they were on a beach sipping a margarita.

Fourth-Your partner will and should support you. There are a zillion other things that make you a good partner, and having kids is only one of them. I think as women, we are kinda told that having kids is like our soul purpose in life and it makes people that can’t feel like shit. And you shouldn’t! You are worth more than that. Please, be pissed off, be sad, be angry, but don’t ever think that you’re not worth being someones partner because you can’t be pregnant–that’s not fucking true.

Fifth-You can give someone a family. Your first option could be surrogacy. Idk what your situation is and you don’t need to go into details but medicine is crazy and if it’s just a matter of having a “hostile womb” (//eyeroll @ drs) maybe you could still use your eggs? Also, adoption. Just because this person didn’t grow from some cells in your body would not make them any less your kid! You can still have a family. And you’d be making such a difference in someone’s life. Truly. Or, ya know what, just don’t have any kids. And enjoy life for what it is.

My point is, you are not defined by your ability to have children. I always suggest seeking counseling if you are really struggling. Please reach out if you need to, talking can help a lot.

My heart goes out to you, anon. And I truly truly hope that in life, you find the answers and peace you are looking for.

♡Kristan

Fights & Confessions - Requetsed (Luke)

This was requested by Megan (Could you do an imagine where Luke and I get in a fight?) this isn’t the best fight I have ever wrote, I was feeling a little emotional while writing so it’s actually kinda sad. Hope this is kinda what you wanted. Let us know what you think. Enjoy.

You and Luke have been together just over a year, your close to all the boys, which is why you’re invited to go on tour with them. Your due to finish your college course in 4 months and after 2 years studying you don’t want to drop out just to go on tour. However you have 2 months off college before the final couple of months and so you have agreed to join the boys for a couple of mouths then go home. You wouldn’t want to spend the whole tour with them anyway because it’s there adventure and you wouldn’t want to intrude after they have worked so hard for it.

The boys are in the hotel all in Ashton’s room playing video games and whatever else. You needed to go the shop to pick up some ladies products. You leave the hotel and head for the store.

Luke’s POV

‘Whats wrong with you?’ Ashton asks,

'Yeah, you’ve been snapping for days’ Michael adds, they are right I have, I hate it but I have.

'Nothing’ I lie, but to be honest I know it’s nothing even though it feels like something. I thought having (Y/N) on tour would be a laugh, we would be able to travel and share the experience but since she join us last week we haven’t had anytime alone. The boys love (Y/N) which of course is amazing, but it means that they all do stuff together. And not only that but whenever we are alone she’s being off with me, she doesn’t want me to touch her and we haven’t had sex in nearly two months.

'Come on man, just tell us, is it (Y/N)’ Calum asks still focused on the game he’s playing with Michael.

'No, well yes but no. It’s nothing serious I guess’ I reply not sure what I’m trying to say the lads pause the game and all turn to look at me.

'Do you guys think she’s still in to me’ I ask scratching the back of my neck, although me and the boys are close we don’t really do the relationship talk. Calum and Ashton look at each other and Michael shrugs lying back onto the bed.

'Yeah mate, why do you ask’ Ashton answers and I can tell he genuinely thinks she’s happy.

'it’s just that we haven’t, like we haven’t…’ I stop myself, what would (Y/N) say if she found out I had told the guys.

'You haven’t had sex’ Michael asks sitting straight up. Calum and ashton both evidently grow more interested by the movement of sitting on the edge of the bed.

'No we have, of course we have, but it’s been like 2 months.’ I groan as the words remind me of how long it has been. Michael chuckles slightly and lays back down.

'Mate, what’s going on with that, you two have been together forever’ Ashton comments.

'I know, she doesn’t even tell me why we ain’t doing it she just says no, it’s so fucking frustrating’ I complain. And just as I finish my sentence I heard a sigh coming from the door and when I turn (Y/N) was shaking her head and leaving the room.

Your POV

You can’t believe he had told the guys you haven’t had sex for months, not only that but he fucking complained about it. You thought it was getting to him but you also thought when it got to much he would ask.

’(Y/N), wait just let me explain’ Luke groans as he follows you out of the room. After a second and he realises your not replying he continues
'Im sorry I told them, they asked and I needed to talk to them, I thought you were going off me’ he sighs.

'Sometimes I really fucking hate you luke, why would you even think I would be comfortable with you telling the boys about our sex lives’ you shout, you’ve been holding in a lot over the last couple of months and this argument might just be an explosive one.

'Lack of’ Luke mutters

'Seriously, are you fucking serious, are you that self centred that all you can think about is your dick’ you scream at him.

'Im deadly serious, it’s been 2 months (Y/N), and it’s not even the sex it’s just like you don’t want to be around me at all’ he’s getting angry now too as his voice rises more and more.

'Thats right I don’t want to be around you that why I left my family and friends for months to come and support you on tour’ you reply, your too angry to ever shout at him so you turn away and start unpacking the things you got from the shop.

'Oh yeah, traveling around the world for free must be a huge fucking burden for you’ he shouts, you freeze, did he really just say that to you, because that was low even for us. You can’t help the small chuckle that leaves your mouth as you  shake you head walking out of Ashton’s hotel room with your bag in hand. Your half way to your room when you hear Ashton’s door open and close then Luke shouts your name. He catches up to you and grabs your hand turning you to face him.

'Your right, I’m here for the free travel Luke, I’ve been with you for 2 long fucking years so that I could squish everything I could get out of you’ you push his chest and he moves back allowing you time to get into your room.

'I didn’t mean to say that (Y/N)’ he sighs behind you. 'Im just scared, I’m so fucking scared of losing you’ you shake you head, whenever you argue he thinks saying he’s scared will get him out of anything he says.

'No your not, you don’t give a fuck if I leave you, you’d be happy if I left you because then you would be free and wouldn’t have any guilt.’ You shout.

'You know that’s bull, I love you.’ He’s still angry but you can hear in his voice how hard he is trying to hold it back.

'You can’t just say your scared to get our of calling me a user’ you moan at him, he nods and moves closer placing his hands on your waist and you move away busying your self with un packing again.

'See, you won’t even let me touch you, I’m your fucking boyfriend, we are suppose to be in love and the lads have touched you more in the last couple of months than I have’ you look at him and can’t bring your self to continue the argument. You take your sanitary-towels from the shopping bag and throw them at him.

He catches them surprised and looks down his eyes widening. 'Oh’ is all he says.

'Im not on my period’ you tell him and he looks up confused.

'Three months ago I took a pregnancy test, it was positive. I didn’t want to tell you until like two or three months into the pregnancy so I didn’t get your hopes up. But I miss carried last month, so I’ve been bleeding for a while. That’s why we haven’t had sex and I couldn’t let you touch me because I feel like I failed you. I couldn’t carry your baby for more than 2 months’ you let out a huge sigh, relieved you have got it off your chest and then you feel how damp your face is and realise you had been crying through out the whole confession.

You had been looking down all this time and you didn’t realise how close Luke was until his fingers touched your face.

Pulling it to meet his tear glazed eyes. 'You could have told me, you didn’t fail me, I would never have thought that ever, I’m so sorry I’ve been such a dick’ he apologises pulling you into a tight embrace.

'I should have told you’ you whisper in his ear as he rubs your back.

He sighs and kisses the side of your head. 'I love you so much’

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