i can't deal with you two

Having dissociative amnesia is so weird because it’s not like normal forgetting where you’re kind of like “I think this happened but I don’t know the details”, it’s looking back at a period of your life and seeing absolutely nothing. There is nothing TO remember, it’s just like a big black pit where your childhood should be.

mouseyfox  asked:

Seanan, how do you deal with writing on days when you're low on spoons? My depression and anxiety has been kicking my ass since yesterday and I have a short story I need to work on. I just can't seem to smack through this depression/anxiety fog well enough to get back to work and it's frustrating the hell out of me.

So my situation is somewhat different now than it was, say, ten years ago, because now writing is my sole means of supporting myself and my mother.  I have two housemates, in part because knowing that people with Reliable Day Jobs are chipping in for approximately ½ the mortgage and bills helps me a lot with keeping the creeping panic from taking me out, but that’s only ½.  Everything could go to shit in a hurry if I stopped writing.

TL;DR on the first paragraph alone: I write when I’m low on spoons because if I don’t write, I can’t afford to buy food.  The only days I will reliably allow myself to skip are days when I’m on an airplane (zoom!) and days when I’ve just had dental work and am thus too stoned to spell.

But before that…

If you need to be writing–if it’s your path to less depression, or you have a deadline, or you need to feel like you’ve accomplished something for the sake of your sanity–figure out where the lines of “need” are.  Now break it into as many pieces as you feel is necessary.  Do you need to write 1,000 words?  That’s ten units of 100.  Maybe you can’t sit down and write 1,000 words, no problem, but I bet you can do 100.

Now do it again.  Now do it again.  Count it off however you like–pennies in a pile, or a d10 that you turn, or Magic health tokens–and keep doing it, until you have that 1,000.  It’ll come faster than you think, and having little goals makes the big one seem less distant and terrifying.

Remember that first drafts are allowed and expected to suck.  You’re not writing for publication, you’re writing for productivity.  You can revise your first draft into awesomeness, but that comes later.  Keep moving forward.  Go back only when you absolutely must.

Don’t beat yourself up if you don’t accomplish as much as you wanted to!  If you don’t hit 1,000, but you hit 400, you still met four goals!  Be proud of yourself for making it that far.

Believe in yourself.

I believe in you.

The Outsiders in class, probably
  • Teacher: alright children let's start with a few math problems... what is five times two?
  • Class: ...
  • Teacher: Don't be shy, come on. Yes, Two-Bit?
  • Two-Bit: Twelve?
  • Teacher: Alright now let's try to get an answer from someone who isn't a complete retard.
  • Ponyboy: I think I know the answer!
  • Dally: i ThInK I kNoW tHe aNNsWer
  • Ponyboy: shut up, fat boy!
  • Dally: AYE! don't call me fat you fucking Jew!
  • Teacher: DALLAS! Did you just say the F word?
  • Dally: ...jew?
  • Steve: No he's talking about fuck. You can't say fuck in school you fucking fat-ass
  • Teacher: Steve!
  • Dally: Why the fuck not?
  • Ponyboy: dude you just said fuck again!
  • Teacher: Ponyboy!
  • Johnny: *Mumbles*
  • Teacher: Johnny!
  • Dally: what's the big fuckin' deal it doesn't hurt anybody. Fuck fuckity fuck fuck!
  • Teacher: How would you like to see the school counselor!
  • Dally: How would you like to suck my balls
  • Two-Bit: *snorts*
  • Teacher: wHAT DID U JUST SAY
  • Dally: Oh, i'm sorry, i'm sorry... actually, what I meant was-
  • Dally: *pulls out megaphone*
  • Dally: HOW WOULD YOU LIKE, TO S U C K MY BALLS, mrs. teacher bitch
  • <p> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b>Friend:</b> Do you want to go for lunch?<p/><b>Me:</b> Let me check my diary. *opens book* I can't. I have fan-related things on.<p/><b>Friend:</b> Like what?<p/><b>Me:</b> At noon, I have to deal with my feels. At two, I have to go home and cry about Fred Weasley... But I have a free hour after Chris Evans appreciation hour.<p/><b>Friend:</b> <p/></p><p/></p>

anonymous asked:

Why do you still believe? I can't deal with all the crap we are being fed. So I'm taking my life jacket (before they all go) and jumping off the lido deck, with my drink of course. Hopefully one day the games will stop, honesty will prevail and I'll be able to step back on the cruise. Take care you are truly a funny person x

It’s a combination of things, really. One, there’s a fine line between confidence and delusion, and I ride that shit like a bear on a unicycle. Two, I have years of practice picking apart celebrity gossip from fact. Four, I trust my eyeballs over my ears. Five, having a general understanding of how this shit works helps immensely when it comes to not falling for the fake tennis ball throw every time. Six, I’m not a gambler but I like my odds here because 95% of what I see points toward SC as the couple, and I’m not one to throw away my hand on a 5% chance. Seven, I fucked up the numbering and am too lazy to change it, which is a pretty good metaphor for how my mind works when it has already laid the groundwork for something and doesn’t feel compelled in any way to change it. 

  • Brendan: wait wait I thought your name was Sasha??
  • Alex: no let's not get into this right now...
  • Brendan: doesn't Alex mean Sasha??
  • Alex: In Russian yeah- but that's a different conversation
  • Brendan: Sasha Alexandrovich Galchenyuk?
  • Alex: ye-no no Alexander Alexandrovich Galchenyuk
  • Brendan: oh okay okay
  • Alex: Brendavich would sound cool
  • Brendan: Brendavich would yeah
  • Alex: Brendan Galchenyuk...yeah I mean maybe we'll become better friends in a couple years and I would consider that.
  • Brendan: cool.

No y’all really.

REALLY - GoChi IS LIKE - THE BEST OKAY

I love the way he looks at her.

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It’s the little things.

The little, subtle things.

The way she hugs him…

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And looks at him too…

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I caaaaaaaaaan’t.

How is this not the cutest shit ever, like, stop, you two, I can’t deal with all that you give me in this series. 

Veronica Is Whipped And Betty Is Oblivious

Beronica in 1x02

- Veronica is desperate to get close to Betty

- Veronica buys Betty flowers

- Veronica forces Betty to be her lab partner just so she can sit next to her

- Veronica has only known Betty for 5 minutes but basically admitted that she thinks she is her friend soulmate *COUGH* and that they were destined to know and be close to each other

- Veronica casually adds in the middle of a conversation that they should make a vow to one another

- Betty tries to make Veronica jealous

I CANNOT DEAL WITH THESE TWO!

Being Renessmee's Twin Includes
  • Rosalie: I'm naming her Bella. I will not allow you to butcher and mesh two more names. Her name is Carlie. Deal with it.
  • Carlie: Why can't I fight with you and momma papa? I want to show the Volturi that I'm not a scared little girl. Anyone threatens to kill my family, I refuse to run away
  • Bella: Carlie, how many times have I told you? No throwing knifes in the house. You could hurt Renessmee or yourself. Be more careful.
  • Emmett: C'mon kiddo. I'll teach you how to fight.
  • Jasper: *scoffs* It'd be best if I teach her. You get frustrated too easily Emmett.
  • Carlise: Carlie, your growth is more rapid than Renessmee's. Your genes must be slightly different from hers. It could be an attribution to a power we haven't discovered yet.
  • Esme: It's so sweet of you to help me make dinner for you and Renessmee. I feel like you and I hardly get any time together. Renessmee's always off with either her parents or Jacob and you keep to yourself most of the time. Just know that I'm here if you ever want to talk to someone sweetie. You are my grandbaby afterall.
  • Edward: Your mother and I don't love Renessmee more than you Carlie. We love you both equally. She just relies on us more than you. You've always been more independent than your sister.
  • Carlie: I'm more independent because you and mom are always with her and Aunt Rose takes care of me. But whatever. I don't care anymore. She'll be stuck here in Forks and you all will have to leave eventually and I will travel the world once I reach an acceptable age growth.
  • Bella: Where have you been Carlie?! You've been gone for three whole days! What on earth are you wearing?!
  • Carlie: *sighs* Relax mom. I went to Comic Con in San Diego and cosplayed as Harley Quinn. I went to have some fun. Geez, it's like your trying to keep me trapped with you forever since Renessmee started solely hanging out with Jacob. I bet you really hate that imprint now cause you finally have to pay attention to your other daughter.
  • Alice: Carlie, come shopping with me. We never spend any girl time together since you started buying your own clothes.
  • Carlie: But there's a Gotham marathon on today. How about I go shopping with you tomorrow then?
  • Jasper: *watching the Romanian aired teach you how to fight and use weapons from a window in the house because Bella and Edward forbid him from teaching her himself* I don't see what the problem was with them Alice. I have no urge to drink wither of the girls blood and I adore Carlie. I should be teaching her how to fight, not those barbaric two.
  • Alice: I know Jas. But she finally made some friends that weren't a part of our family. Renessmee has Jacob and that's all she needs. Carlie is free to expand herself unbound to anyone. We don't want to smother the girl by crowding her all the time.
  • Rose: I can't believe Bella never told you about periods. Oh wait, I can. Look Carlie, you have nothing to fear. It's completely natural.
  • Carlie: I HATE IT! I FEEL HORRIBLE ALL THE TIME AND I KEEP CRAVING CHEESECAKE AND CHEETOS!
  • Jacob: Why do you hate me Carlie? I never did anything to you.
  • Carlie: *rolls eyes and scoffs* Exactly. I hardly even know you and you're the guy my sister is bound to for life. You've hardly ever acknowledged me before. You've hardly ever spokento me and you have no interest in anyone but my sister. I don't like you because I know that the imprint you have with my sister isn't how you really are or were before my mom even started screwing with your life.
  • Bella: How can you say such a thing Carlie?!
  • Carlie: Oh please. Shut up mom. You know I'm right. You only support that imprint because now, Jacob will forever be within your grasp. Just because you chose not to have him all those years ago doesn't mean you get to keep him around when he's moved on with his life.
  • Renessmee: Will you be my maid of honor?
  • Carlie: I haven't seen or heard from you in nearly four years sis. And frankly I don't want to go to your wedding at all. You know your marriage won't end well. You're in love with Nahuel and whether you admit it or not, you don't feel the same pull if the imprint like you used to. Stop dragging Jacob along. Stop your relationship with him and decide what you want. God, you are worse than our mother. Make up your freaking mind.
  • Leah: I didn't think it would be possible, but I am actually best friends with someone who shares half her DNA with Bella Cullen.
  • Carlie: Oh hush. I'm nothing like my mother and you know it. Now shut up so I can hear Tom Hiddleston say "mewling quim."
  • Seth: Are you sure about this Carlie?
  • Carlie: Yes, for the thousandth time. I love you and I refuse to be bound to someone I met only once. I fell in love with you and that is what I've always wanted. To fall in love, not be bound by fate to become whatever my mate pleases.
The Boys At Their First L.A. Party
  • Zach: *shouting over the blaring music* BROOOO THIS DJ IS SICK! YOOOOO, LOOK AT THE LIGHTS IN THE POOL!!!
  • Jonah: DUDE WHY ARE YOU YELLING!? ALSO, CAN ANYONE FIND ANYTHING TO EAT HERE!? I CAN'T FIND A SNACK TABLE ANYWHERE!
  • Daniel: THIS GUY GAVE ME A BROWNIE, YOU WANT SOME OF IT?!
  • Jack: I WOULDN'T EAT THAT BROWNIE IF I WERE YOU, DANIEL!
  • Corbyn: WELL, I ALREADY AT, LIKE, FOUR AND I FEEL FI-
  • *immediately falls over*
  • Zach: UHMM, WE SHOULD CALL SOMEONE NOW, RIGHT!?
  • Jack: *nonchalantly* HE'LL BE FINE! RIGHT NOW THERE'S KINDA A BIGGER PROBLEM I HAVE TO DEAL WITH!
  • Jonah: WHAT COULD POSSIBLY BE MORE IMPORTANT THAN THIS!?
  • Jack: I'LL SHOW YOU IN *counting down with his fingers* THREE...TWO...ONE *points in the direction Daniel had darted off towards*
  • Daniel: GUYS THIS NICE LADY GAVE ME A STICKER TO PUT ON MY TONGUE! LOOK, IT'S A SMILEY FACE! *opens mouth to display the item*
  • Jack: ...
  • Jonah: ...
  • Zach: ...
  • Corbyn: *giggling* BRO, I'M LIKE, 80% SURE I'M ON MARS RIGHT NOW, BUT EVEN I KNOW THAT WAS A MISTAKE! *laughing hysterically*
  • Zach: DOES THIS MEAN THE PARTY'S OVER FOR US!?
  • Jack: FOR US? YEAH! FOR THEM? IT'S JUST GETTING STARTED
  • Daniel: *suddenly looking around in fascination* I CAN TASTE COLORSSS!!!
  • Jonah: *facepalming* oh my god...
Ed Sheeran sentence starters
  • "I saw a shooting star and thought of you."
  • "You were lying next to me, I looked across and fell in love."
  • "If you wanna put this on me, that’s fine, I never blamed you for anything at all."
  • "The world looks better through your eyes."
  • "It's only been one night of love and maybe that is not enough."
  • "If I fall for you, would you fall too?"
  • "It's not a homeless life for me, it's just I'm home less than I'd like to be."
  • "I haven't slept for the past week, two hours ain't enough for me."
  • "I'm drunk off last nights whisky and coke."
  • "You can stay with me forever or you could stay with me for now."
  • "Outside the day is up and calling, but I don't have to be so, please go back to sleep."
  • "Never been better since all the therapy."
  • "And you know, if I let you go, I'll still keep you safe."
  • "You are the one I fall asleep with but never wake up to."
  • "The worst things in life come free to us."
  • "I wanna be drunk when I wake up on the right side of the wrong bed."
  • "What didn't kill me, it never made me stronger at all."
  • "I know I'll never hold you like I used to."
  • "I'll be drunk again to feel a little love."
  • "I know you'll never love me like you used to."
  • "I found your hair band on my bedroom floor, the only evidence that you've been here before."
  • "I don't drink like everybody else, I do it to forget things about myself."
  • "There's no chance that we'll work it out."
  • "I said that's fine, but you're the only one that knows I lied."
  • "Everybody said we'd be together forever."
  • "Everything's great and everything's sure, but you live in your halls and I live in a tour bus."
  • "Pain is only relevant if it still hurts."
  • "If I was gonna go somewhere, I'd be there by now."
  • "I should ink my skin with your name."
  • "I should run you a hot bath and fill it up with bubbles."
  • "You should never cut your hair 'cause I love the way you flick it off your shoulder."
  • "You will never know just how beautiful you are to me."
  • "Maybe you're hoping for a fairy tale, too."
  • "This is the start of something beautiful."
  • "And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm."
  • "I'm out of touch, I'm out of love."
  • "I think I love you better now."
  • "Playing a different show every night in front of a new crowd."
  • "Let me sing and do my thing and move to greener pastures."
  • "You need me, man, I don’t need you."
  • "Never be anything but a singer-songwriter, yeah."
  • "People think that I’m bound to blow up."
  • "I haven’t got a house, plus I live on a couch."
  • "They say I’m up and coming like I'm fucking in an elevator."
  • "Settle down with me, and I'll be your safety, you'll be my lady."
  • "I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet."
  • "Give me love like her, 'cause lately I've been waking up alone."
  • "All I want is the taste that your lips allow."
  • "Give me love like never before, 'cause lately I've been craving more."
  • "It's been a while but I still feel the same... maybe I should let you go."
  • "Another love that's gone to waste."
  • "If I kissed you, will your mouth read this truth?"
  • "Darling, how I miss you."
  • "You made me scream, but then I made you cry."
  • "Maybe you should learn to love her like the way you wanna be loved."
  • "I never told her that I liked the way she dances slightly out of time and pretends she knows the words to a song she's never heard."
  • "You’re not her, though I try to see you differently."
  • "I will try to find another one who suited me as well as her."
  • "We never even tried, we never even talked, we never even thought in the long run."
  • "Whenever it was painful, whenever I was away, I’d miss you."
  • "I didn't mean to break your heart."
  • "Everybody falls apart sometimes."
  • "I know you've found another one, but won't you just hold me tonight."
  • "They don't know we don't speak anymore."
  • "I will stop trying to fall in love again... it never works out anyway."
  • "But I am not anything like I was."
  • "I don't wanna lose a lover and friend in one night if that's alright."
  • "I shouldn't have fucked with your mind and your life too many times."
  • "I never meant to sleep around, I was just lonely."
  • "When I see my future, it is with you."
  • "We're not friends, nor have we ever been."
  • "If they find out, will it all go wrong?"
  • "We're not friends, we could be anything."
  • "Friends don't treat me like you do."
  • "Tell me that you turned down the man who asked for your hand 'cause you're waiting for me."
  • "I know, you're gonna be away a while, but I've got no plans at all to leave."
  • "Just promise me, you'll never leave again."
  • "Just promise me, you'll always be a friend."
  • "Everything changes, but we'll be strangers if we see this through."
  • "I've been sat with you for most of the night, ignoring everybody here."
  • "Don't you worry if I disappear."
  • "I'm not really looking for another mistake."
  • "I was never looking for a friend."
  • "Maybe you could swing by my room around ten, baby, bring a lemon and a bottle of gin."
  • "Baby, if you wanted me then you should've just said."
  • "Maybe we'll go together and just figure it out."
  • "Trust and respect is what we do this for."
  • "You didn't need to take him to bed that's all."
  • "I never saw him as a threat until you disappeared with him to have sex of course."
  • "It's not like we were both on tour, we were staying on the same fucking hotel floor."
  • "I wasn't looking for a promise or commitment, but it was never just fun and I thought you were different."
  • "This is not the way you realize what you wanted."
  • "It's a bit too much, too late if I'm honest."
  • "Getting high as two kites when we needed to breathe."
  • "I'd disappear, you'd call me selfish, I understand but I can't help it."
  • "So we can either deal with the pain and wait to get on a plane."
  • "You should go, 'cause I ain't ever coming home."
  • "I've been livin' on the road, but then again you should know."
  • "You won't ever be alone... wait for me to come home."
  • "Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul."
  • "When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me."
  • "How'd I get so faded?"
  • "I feel the chemicals burn in my bloodstream."
  • "I've been looking for a lover, thought I'd find her in a bottle."
  • "I'll be feeling this tomorrow."
  • "You look so wonderful in your dress, I love your hair like that."
  • "We are surrounded by all of these lies and people who talk too much."
  • "You got the kind of look in your eyes as if no one knows anything but us."
  • "All that you are is all that I'll ever need."
  • "Just don’t expect me back this evening."
  • "I love him from my skin to my bones but I don’t wanna live in his home."
  • "I was raised to keep quiet."
  • "I don't wanna hate you."
  • "I kind of knew you liked the dude from private school."
  • "I knew he had his eyes on you."
  • "He's not the right guy for you."
  • "Don't hate me 'cause I write the truth."
  • "I would never lie to you but it was never fine to lose you."
  • "I'm just disgusted with the skeletons you sleep with in your closet."
  • "Fact is you're mad at me because I backtrack so casually."
  • "You're practically my family, if we married then I'll guess you'd have to be."
  • "Tragically our love just lost the will to live, but would I kill to give it one more shot? I think not."
  • "I don't love you, baby, I don't need you... I don't want you anymore."
  • "I'm not cut out for life on the road 'cause I didn't know I'd miss you this much."
  • "I guess I'm not the man that you need."
  • "Ever since you went to uni, I've been sofa surfing with a rucksack full of less cash and I guess that could get bad."
  • "When I broke the industry, that's when I broke your heart."
  • "I was supposed to chart and celebrate, but good things are over fast."
  • "I tend to turn you off and switch on my professional features, then I turn the music off and all I'm left with is to pick up my personal pieces."
  • "Success is nothing if you have no one left to share it with."
  • "I know you have a day job, but mine is 24/7."
  • "I still love you and I need you by my side if I could."
  • "The irony is if my career and music didn't exist, in 6 years, you'd probably be my wife with a kid."
  • "I'll die from a thrill, go down in history as just a wasted talent."
  • "Eventually I'll be fine, I know that it was never meant to be."
  • "These things happen for a reason and you can't change shit."
  • "Take my apology, I'm sorry for the honesty, but I had to get this off my chest."
  • "I will be loving you 'til we're 70."
  • "People fall in love in mysterious ways."
  • "I fall in love with you every single day."
  • "For four years I never had a place to stay."
  • "At 16 years old, I moved out of my home."
  • "I tattooed the lyrics onto my arm."
  • "I'll hold ya and you'll think of him."
  • "I'll never trust you again, you can just be a friend."
  • "If we should die tonight, then we should all die together."
  • New client: I need you to translate this file which would usually take 8 hours to translate, it's due in two hours. Btw, I only want to pay you 25% of your rate and you'll probably get the money in 2-3 months.
  • Me: No thanks.
  • New client: You know we can just use Google Translate for free, right?
  • Me: Sure, go ahead, I can't wait to see how it turns out.
The Husbands of River Song.
  • <p> <b>Flemming:</b> So, where is the Doctor now?<p/><b>River:</b> I haven't the faintest idea.<p/><b>Flemming:</b> is that credible?<p/><b>River:</b> it's true<p/><b>Flemming:</b> you're the woman he loves.<p/><b>River:</b> no I'm not<p/><b>Flemming:</b> she's lying.<p/><b>River:</b> the doctor does not and has never loved me. I'm not lying.<p/><b>Hydroflax:</b> *scans* confirmed. The life form is not lying.<p/><b>Flemming:</b> impossible! This is a trick.<p/><b>River:</b> no it isn't.<p/><b>Flemming:</b> my information is correct! You are the woman who loves the Doctor!<p/><b>River:</b> yes I am. I've never denied it. But whoever said he loved me back? He's the doctor. He doesn't go around falling in love with people. And if you think he's anything that small or that ordinary, then you haven't the first idea of what you're dealing with.!<p/><b>Flemming:</b> your majesty I assure you she is the perfect bait! When this woman is in danger the doctor will always come.<p/><b>River:</b> oh you are a moron! No he wont!<p/><b>Flemming:</b> he's probably already here.<p/><b>River:</b> no he isnt of course he isn't!<p/><b>Flemming:</b> possibly on this ship!<p/><b>River:</b> well go on! Scan it then! Go on why don't you!<p/><b>Doctor:</b> um, River...<p/><b>River:</b> Two hearts, stupid clothes. You can't miss him!<p/><b>Doctor:</b> River...<p/><b>River:</b> go on! Scan the whole parsec! He's not here! God knows where he is right now, but I promise you he's doing whatever the he'll he wants and not giving a damn about me! And I'm just fine with that--<p/><b>Doctor:</b> River...<p/><b>River:</b> when you love the doctor it's like loving the stars themselves. You don't expect a sunset to admire you back! And if I happen to find myself in danger, let me tell you, the doctor is not stupid enough, or sentimental enough, and he is certainly not in love enough to find himself standing in it with me.<p/>
  • River and the Doctor: (very long pause)
  • <b> Doctor:</b> ...hello, sweetie...<p/></p>
  • River: oh you are soooo doing those roots.
  • Doctor: What, the roots of the sunset?
  • River: Don't you dare.
  • Doctor: I'll have to check with the Stars themselves.
  • River: oh shutup!