i can't believe i'm saying this but i agree what they say

Skype Meeting
  • Germany: ... why are we doing this again??
  • America: because we're too lazy to move out of our houses for a meeting, so we came up with this solution!
  • England: this is a bad idea- FROG WHY ARE YOU SHIRTLESS???
  • France: um, because I didn't feel like dressing up for a Skype meeting, duh!
  • China: you guys better have a good reason skyping me this early in the morning...
  • Japan: ... I... agree...
  • Italy: veh, sorry I'm late~ but my internet's been acting up weirdly
  • Russia: same with mine-
  • America: ... what?
  • Germany: Mein Gott, stop shouting England!
  • China: I don't have time for this shit- What the?? My screen is off?? What, how do I get my face to show again??
  • Japan: not this again... and Russia-san's frozen... and everyone's going at 3 frames per second... what.
  • America: Da fuck is going on?? Italy, what's wrong with your screen?? It's so pixelated!
  • Italy: ve~? Oh, maybe it's because I'm downloading something for 5 gigabytes~~
  • Germany:
  • England: ... WHAT'S GERMANY SAYING???
  • France: I think there's something wrong with his mic-
  • America: France oh my God, you froze with the most ugliest face!!
  • England: BWAHAHAHA!!
  • France: SHUT UP HOW DO I FIX THIS????
  • Italy: ve~~~
  • Germany: *actually shouting but no one can hear*
  • China: where's my face??
  • Japan: ... I don't have the mental strength to deal with this right now...
  • Russia: *still frozen in time*
  • America: ... I can't believe we manage to fuck up a virtual meeting...


But really, the more I watch it the more I realise it’s not only a fantastic Ignis moment, it’s a fantastic Chocobros moment in general? REALLY LONG POST AHEAD + UNFINISHED GAMEPLAY WRITING BUT THIS SCENE

Lemme start with Ignis because duh (if you’ve seen anything out of me the past two weeks, it’s probably been Ignis related). He’s been pretty passive about losing his eyesight up until this point. He calls it a minor sacrifice in the grand scheme of things. When Noctis and Gladio fight on the train, Ignis says nothing, even though part of the argument is his own injury. He only tries to stop Gladio by saying his name; Prompto is the one who tries to break it up (more in a moment. anyway not that Ignis really could break it up rn but you know) He’s been optimistic enough about it, though. “I’ll manage somehow” when you invite him into the mines. “This is considerably harder than I expected” he says about fighting. But sometimes you hear the boys say something and Iggy just sort of sighs. They’re dancing around him, and his injury, and the argument, and this scene is where it culminates.

The first time he actually says that it isn’t okay is because of their friendship hitting a low point, rather than his actual injury. But he is so, so aware of that injury and how it has the potential to drag them down. He still says “I would remain with you all. Til the very end” because these are his brothers and he damn well plans to, but that said.

This is the first time we hear Ignis raise his voice, I think. Not including battle cries and the like. Which is saying a lot because this boy is very, very calculated on his emotions. (ie later on when Prompto falls off the train, you hear the very audible difference in Noctis’s voice vs Iggy’s) He’s Crownsguard, Noctis is his king, he will do anything for him, and believes he has no reason to complain even if he has gone blind. But that’s a Big Thing. His yelling in this scene exactly “I know full well!” is finally, finally his frustration coming out and it’s triggered because of their bickering (or anti-bickering, since they aren’t really… speaking much).

He says he is willing to bow out if he starts to slow them down, which imo is like asking him to suffer a physical injury all over again (he is Crownsguard, Noctis is his king, he will do anything for him) but he still will DO IT because he won’t be a burden.

He goes on to give Noctis what, I think, is a much needed confidence boost. “A king pushes onward always, accepting the consequences and never looking back” and in the opening sentences for the next chapter, it literally uses those same words to describe Noct’s reaction to Ardyn’s trick: never looking back. (Also never looking back is exactly what Ignis is doing right now, which is why the choice to focus the camera so much on his scars in that moment is AMAZING.)

He continues with that to tell Gladio that Noct will be king and he will rule, but “only once he’s ready”. And this is SO important. Gladio’s interaction with Noct is painful at least and rage inducing at worst (more below) but not only does Noct need to hear this, Gladio does, too. They can push Noctis into that throne but he will never be able to lead until he is ready, and that involves coming to terms with some very, very heavy stuff that’s been happening. Everybody doesn’t handle grief the same way and they’re all having a hard go at it in very different ways thanks to the events of late.

So all of this makes this the DAMN GOOD IGNIS MOMENT. But it’s also really good for the rest of them, both in mentioned ways and others, but since I’m apparently waxing poetic 

Prompto, Gladio, and Noctis under the cut ↓ (note: 150% zoom for easier reading)

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anonymous asked:

It's fine to hate Armin but I'm literally seeing people blame Armin for Erwin's death, saying he should've died (as in "he chose to live"), calling Armin selfish... It's like these people forgot that ARMIN WAS UNCONSCIOUS THE ENTIRE FUCKING TIME, PEOPLE. HE CAN'T CHOOSE TO LIVE WHEN HE HAS NO IDEA HE'S STILL ALIVE. If you want to blame Isayama and call it bad writing, by all means, but these morons don't even realize Armin had exactly zero say in it all.

I can’t exactly remember which day i received this ask but I think it was in reference to Isayama’s comment about Armin in February.

I agree with the mindset and I’m trying to analyze how the Armin hate was brewed since chapter 83 and chapter 84, as these two get hand in hand.

As far as I’ve seen, most people were either sad to devastated when Armin was supposed to be dead in chapter 82, but this death was sign of a good departure for him: dying without regrets and sacrificing himself so humanity can advance. Putting that with information we’ve learned till now, he could’ve even be gone with his innocence and purity intact as he thought areas like the oceans were unexplored. And that could’ve been a beautiful way to close his character development I think.

But here’s the drill: what was presented as a definitive death situation wasn’t, and Armin ~*~miraculously~*~ survived a fall of several dozen meters on top of having his body reduced to a piece of charcoal, so the drama serum would happen. And through a messy, compacted chapter development, he was the one chosen, when Levi was dead set in bringing Erwin back.

Naturally it would piss a lot of people off, regardless of your opinion of the character. Whether you hate the character archetype or hate the way he’s been recycled through, or absolutely love him to bits, this doesn’t change the fact he survived in an improbable way, at the expense of two characters who were eventually labeled as wasted potential, one dying as he was close to reach the mysteries of this world and the other who was treated as a piece of dog meat, abandoned to his fate as he was begging for help.

Because of that, people carved an assumption into their minds:

This manga is an awful manga where everyone can die, except the bland protagonists justified in every way possible at the expense of everybody, whose plot armor is stronger than Reiner’s.

That explains why some people dropped it actually. If Armin was supposed to survive for the drama to happen, it should’ve been more believable. That also explains why people are triggered whenever Isayama made blog posts like this one or when spoilers like chapter 90′s popped up. I admit I jumped on the gun like everyone when they reached the ocean because that really communicated the idea the protagonists were the only ones allowed to be happy while the rest can die and it wouldn’t matter, when Isayama insisted in his guidebook about the separation between Eren and Armin.

While people agree Armin didn’t have a say-in during the serumbowl drama, they’re kinda pissed to see Armin is the only one accomplishing his dream. But that’s the thing: when you look closer, his dream of seeing the ocean was sabotaged by the whole drama, because he believed Erwin should’ve been brought back instead of him and had to reduce Bertolt’s spine to mush to do it (when he was the one needing to puke after shooting that MP woman in the head). Also Eren ruined his most blissful moment, Eren, who was supposed to entrust Armin’s dream as he was burned to death by the Colossal Titan.

Another example in line with Armin and the ocean is Reiner and his hometown. He wanted to finish his mission as soon as possible with success so he could go back home with Bertolt, fulfilling his promise to Ymir by bringing Historia along and bringing back Annie to her dad. As a result, he got home, accomplishing nothing aside from surrender Ymir’s letter, still having no idea where Annie is and losing Bertolt in the process, leaving him completely alone for nine months. That isn’t what I call, accomplished.

Bad writing aside, Armin is certainly the most bearable of the trio as well as the most reasonable member of the SC recruits alongside Flocke, because these two upheld the credo of their legion which is “If you don’t sacrifice anything, you can’t change anything”. He’s more a victim in this than the ones who actually pushed the decision (namely Eren, Mikasa and Levi).

Haikyuu Characters As Things I've Said: Karasuno

“Going out with you would mean I would have to lower my standards in order to settle. I don’t believe you're​ worth settling for.”

“Oh no! I have no idea where I’m going now. AAA-oh here it is. I can’t believe it. Yay~”

“When did I suddenly become the more responsible one? Sigh. I’m too tired and too old for this bullshit.”

“I feel like a parent to two kids that I didn’t even agree to raise at a–.Don’t you dare eat that chocolate you little shit. Nu-uh, I ain’t gonna let you spoil your dinner.”

“What if my feelings were hurt? Pfffft- I’d have to have feelings to begin with? Ow, that’s such a cruel thing to say.”

“Do you really want to try me kid. I dare you. I’m the only one who knows how to cook anything in this room.”

“You wanna go asshole? 3 p.m., after school, at the park. Bring your crew, I’ll bring mine.”

“Say something about my height again. I dare you. Let’s see what happens to your kneecaps you damn tree.”

“Dogs are too good for us. I only watched 30 minutes of Hachi, and when he died I couldn’t-” (ugly sobbing).

“Um…. Do you need help-like to get your shit together? Cuz I have no idea what to do in this situation.”

“Hell no. Fuck this bullshit. I’m done. You’re on your own bitch.”

“You say that like I’m suppose to give a shit about other people’s opinions. If they don’t like me, it doesn’t matter.”

anonymous asked:

i'm sorry i feel like i worded it wrong.. what i should have asked is, is men's drive to dominate women natural? is that why women across cultures are oppressed? i still can't grasp why male supremacy was pervasive before western colonialism if it wasn't natural.. please bear with me

Tbh I go back and forth on that, so I can’t really give you a satisfying answer. The radical feminist view is that men are not naturally violent and aggressive (toward women and toward each other) but rather it is woman-hating, male supremacist culture that socialises men to dominate others (particularly women). I agree with this; it’s true that men are taught, in ways both blatant and subtle, that they are superior to women and that women belong to them. So they act according to what they believe. Acknowledging male socialisation means feminists and feminist allies can address the way that boys are raised into masculinity and come up with solutions to change that. However, I don’t think this is necessarily an either/or situation. Maybe men are innately more cruel than women, and their male supremacist socialisation merely exacerbates the problem. I’ve come across radical feminists who feel that men can’t or won’t change, and female separatism or matriarchy are the only viable solutions. The more I see and hear of men, the more I feel the same. The fact that a conservative anti-feminist man and a self-professed “feminist” man are equally likely to be abusers or rapists; the fact that the kindest, most loving, most compassionate, most pro-feminist women have vile, horrible sons; and the fact that boys who are barely out of their toddler years bully and harass their female peers tells me a lot about what a waste of time it is to “reeducate” boys and men. Is there something fundamentally wrong with the male brain? Is the Y chromosome like a defect? Does testosterone make you more aggressive? There isn’t, as far as I know, any scientific consensus on that last one because the studies on it are inconsistent. I know it’s not the popular radical feminist opinion but it’s a possibility worth considering, and I don’t think saying that men’s behaviour might not be 100% due to societal indoctrination is saying that biology is destiny, nor do I think it undermines the importance of socialisation. If you’re interested, there is a book called Delusions of Gender that discusses in depth the socialisation aspect of sex differences, and it’s very interesting and informative. The author is a lot more optimistic about men than I am, but it’s an excellent book and maybe it can help you find an answer to your question.

samucabd  asked:

Can you write a follow up to the story Mulder tells Henry he knows how to fix Scully's recurring cancer? I know Henry would be amazingly grateful, but I'm particular focused on Scully's reaction after her cure and learning that Mulder made some deal, she isn't happy and Henry can't understand why. If you feel like it, amongst such angst, you can(if you want) elaborate on Mulder's fate.

Skinner had gotten him into this room, but the rest of the journey is his. The man’s face is a ruin, but the fact that he’s even alive leaves Mulder profoundly unsettled. He thinks of those tanks of alien fetuses, of what their stem cells might do.

They give him a stirring of hope.

“Mulder,” says his father. “You’re looking well.”

Mulder has little patience for pleasantries. “Thanks. Scully looks like hell though. You know anything about that?”

The man shrugs, a half smile playing on his gargoyle mouth. “The question isn’t what I know. It’s what it’s worth to you to know it too.”

Mulder rolls his eyes. “Look, let’s skip the Bond Villain preamble. You knew I was coming, you must have an offer prepared or you wouldn’t have bothered.”

“Monica,” he says, by way of reply.

Reyes emerges from the shadowed doorway, her eyes downcast.

Mulder sucks in a breath. “What are you doing here, what is this?”

Reyes doesn’t look up.

“Agent Reyes had her debts as well, Mulder. And here your two accounts intersect.”

Mulder stares between the two of them, baffled. And then, slowly, a sickening idea settles over him. “William,” he breathes.

“Very good, Mulder. Always a bright boy.”

Reyes looks up then, her eyes dark, shining. “I’m sorry,” she whispers.

“What have you done?” Mulder chokes.

The old man answers for her. “Nothing very untoward, I assure you. She’s the office manager for his pediatrician. Slips a few samples out for us, nothing dangerous.”

There is bile rising in Mulder’s throat, and a tingling rage in the rest of him. Monica Reyes, who brought his son into the world, has sunk to this. And Scully’s sacrifice, her great tragedy, all for nothing.

“He’s safe,” Monica says, pleading in her voice. “I’ve been watching him.”

Mulder thinks about punching Monica, shattering her fine cheekbone with his fist. He is largely stopped by the notion that she would welcome it.

“Agent Reyes has been most useful to all parties,” comes the oily voice again. “And, despite what you think, Agent Scully didn’t surrender the child for naught. William has attracted little attention this way, and we can acquire our data clandestinely. You and Agent Scully would never have been so agreeable.”

Mulder hears the words but struggles to process them. He imagines seeing William, a young man now. It’s a thing that can happen instead of just another late-night torment. “Where is he?”

Monica opens her mouth, but is silenced by a finger from their host.

“Not so fast. Mulder, you want a cure for Scully. I’m curious; did her new husband send you? Does he know her past?”

Mulder looks him in the eye, trying to push the thought of William away. “He knows enough. What are you offering? Why is she here?”

An almost pleasant smile meets this question. “So everyone can get what they want, of course. We’re curious to see what effect William’s blood will have on Scully’s condition. There weren’t many survivors of those early tests, you know.”

Mulder clenches his fists, remembers Penny Northern fading away in that stark hospital. Remembers Scully not far behind. “That’s what happens when you murder your test subjects,” he spits through his teeth.

“It was necessary at the time. But now we have new technology and a unique opportunity. Monica can arrange to have sufficient blood drawn based on some minor manipulation of his medical records. We believe one unit will be sufficient for Scully.”

Mulder’s head buzzes. Should he ask? Does he want to ask?

“You want to see him, don’t you?”

Mulder swallows hard, nods.

Monica draws a small picture from her pocket and, with trembling fingers, passes it to Mulder. “He looks like you both,” she murmurs.

Mulder hates her for saying it, for knowing it at all. He accepts the photograph, a school picture, and stares hungrily at it. Monica is right. William has his mother’s round blue eyes, her angular face. Mulder recognizes his own mouth and forehead, his smirky smile.

He thinks he might vomit.

“So what, then? Scully gets his blood, she lives, and what? I know magnanimity isn’t playing a role here.”

“True enough. Monitoring. You’re to get samples for us every month to track her progress. We want to check her telomeres, her oncogenes. See what William’s DNA does in response to hers.”

“She’d never agree to-”

“You can’t tell her. We can’t risk her interfering with the samples, on the off chance she’ll even agree.”

Mulder gapes. “How can I not tell her?”

The old man waves his hand. “Surely Mr. O'Keefe can help. Monica will send the necessary supplies as needed. Blood can be drawn while she sleeps; we have a very good topical anaesthetic.”

Mulder is reeling. He can save her, he and Henry can make a devil’s pact and sell her autonomy for the price of her life. He thinks of Emily, of the horror it caused to know bits of her had been stolen and studied and used. What would she do if he did it to her?

Monica’s eyes are boring into him, imploring him to…what? What was her price, he wonders. What did she want so badly that she’d help keep a child from his parents. That she’d sell pieces of him to people like this.

“I need to talk to Henry,” Mulder says at last. He stares at his son’s picture again, heartsick.

“I’d hurry. Tick tock, tick tock for Agent Scully. Monica, lay a fire, would you?”

Monica, her head still bowed, walks to the fireplace. She crouches before it, arranging split wood from a large metal basket.

Mulder glares at them both, wanting to brain them with the poker next to Monica. His pulse is racing, his stomach a tight fist. “I’ll get back to you,” he says. He longs to keep the picture, but cannot afford the risk.

He tosses it into the kindling on his way out of the room.

What went down in Copycat
  • Alya: I think it's time you called Adrien
  • Marinette: HE MUST NEVER KNOW
  • Alya: you mean about your crush on him? or about some deep and incredibly plot-relevant secret that you're keeping from everyone?
  • Marinette: um...the first one? bc I defs don't have any secrets
  • Alya: yeah I think he already knows you have a crush on him
  • Alya: and probs your secret too honestly
  • Alya: I think we all know about that
  • Marinette: oh come on lemme just call him already
  • Phone: hello you've reached Adrien Agreste, fashion disaster extraordinare, and I think you're stunningly gorgeous
  • Marinette: AAAAAAAAH
  • Phone: psyche, this is his auto-responder, just leave your message now
  • Phone: message saved!
  • Marinette: HE MUST NEVER KNOW
  • Alya: for once I agree
  • Marinette: imma steal his phone
  • Alya: you're gonna what now
  • Marinette: it's what I do best
  • Alya: kk well imma go to this ceremony thing where they're gonna unveil that statue of you
  • Alya: yeah you're defs keepin that secret identity hidden from everyone
  • Adrien: *is cool and has a sword*
  • Plagg: you have one new message!
  • Adrien: lemme listen to it
  • Plagg: oh it's not recorded
  • Plagg: I answered the phone and pretended to be your auto-responder
  • Adrien: well who was it and what did they say?
  • Plagg: it was Marinette basically just being herself
  • Adrien: gotcha
  • Plagg: shouldn't we go to the statue thing
  • Adrien: yep! Plagg, catify me!
  • Chat Noir: *allons-y's himself over to the park*
  • Théo: hey Chat Noir where's Ladybug?
  • Chat Noir: defs on a date with me
  • Théo: um what
  • Chat Noir: you can kiss your chances with her goodbye
  • Théo: I didn't even—
  • Théo: that was weird
  • Théo: anyway I'm sure she's doing something very important
  • Tikki: which one
  • Marinette: ALL OF THEM
  • Tikki: I think maybe you should calm down
  • Tikki: here I found the phone now calm down!
  • Tikki: ok how are you gonna do that
  • Marinette: *spikes phone into the ground*
  • Tikki: I guess that works
  • Chat Noir: well she didn't show up so she defs loves me more than you
  • Théo: why are you going on about th—
  • Théo: fine imma go get akumatized I guess
  • Hawkmoth: hey Théo do you wanna replace that guy
  • Théo: that guy?
  • Hawkmoth: that guy
  • Théo: why would I wanna be that guy
  • Hawkmoth: idk maybe you could steal valuable artworks?
  • Théo: ok I guess
  • Copycat: *steals the Mona Lisa*
  • Roger: ok officers listen up
  • Roger: so Chat Noir's stolen a painting and this is definitely him and there's nothing suspicious about it despite his past behavior not matching this in the slightest
  • Roger: so here's our foolproof plan
  • Roger: when he shows up and says the cat burglar was an imposter imma pretend to believe him
  • Roger: and then imma lead him to where the painting was
  • Roger: and imma trip the alarm to close the gate and trap him in there
  • Roger: and then I'll leave him unsupervised because he defs doesn't have any powers that could break through a metal gate
  • Roger: and that's how we'll capture him bc this is the best possible plan
  • Chat Noir: I'm standing right here
  • Roger: oh hey Chat Noir! you wanna see the site of the burglary
  • Chat Noir: I was gonna be cooperative but you just said you're planning to trap me so instead imma run away
  • Roger: chase after him! with helicopters!
  • Chat Noir: *evades helicopters*
  • Ladybug: *calls Chat Noir*
  • Chat Noir: so just a hunch but the akumatized villain is probs that sculptor guy who said he was gonna go get akumatized
  • Ladybug: kk where you at
  • Chat Noir: I must face him alone
  • Ladybug: ok but here's a better idea
  • Ladybug: what if you face him alone but with backup from me
  • Chat Noir: oh yeah that's way better and I probs won't die now
  • Copycat: HEY GUYS
  • Chat Noir: I guess the cat's out of the bag
  • Copycat: dammit! I was just about to say that! stop stealing my puns
  • Chat Noir: stop stealing my identity
  • Copycat: ok that's a valid piece of criticism and now imma beat you up
  • Ladybug: and imma beat up both of you!
  • Chat Noir: what really?
  • Ladybug: jk no, I have no spoons for this fight
  • Ladybug: lucky charm!
  • *spoon happens*
  • Ladybug: correction, I have one spoon for this fight
  • Copycat: you can't beat me with a spoon!
  • Ladybug: *beats him with a spoon*
  • Ladybug: bye bye little butterfly
  • Chat Noir: no that one's him this is me
  • Ladybug: whoops
  • *beats the actual Copycat with a spoon*
  • Ladybug: bye bye little butterfly
  • Alya: so Marinette do you still have Adrien's phone
  • Marinette: yeah it's here. and there. and there.
  • Alya: you spiked it into the ground, didn't you
  • Marinette: mebbe
  • Alya: well I'm sure he'll defs date you now
  • Adrien: *defs dates her*
  • Alya: WHAT

powderseal  asked:

noooooooooooo @ Oliver wanting something indescribably filthy and Connor wanting them to make love with eye contact and praise I CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE OF THESE NERDS MAKING ME FEEL THINGS... but also I wonder what Connor thought that Oliver saw/believes his biggest kink to be, because I think if he knew that Oliver saw them making love he would've been really embarrassed and also he doesn't have the greatest self-awareness anyway

(okay. this is going to be a semi continuation of this but i don’t think oliver told connor what he saw)

His soulmate was lying to him. 

Connor watched the play of Oliver’s face as the other man rambled on about having a vision that involved whipped cream and knew–in his heart of hearts–that the man was lying to him. 

Now, Connor wasn’t really sure how he was supposed to feel about that. I mean, yeah they were soulmates and everything but they were also strangers. Complete strangers. 

Media had lied to him for years–for probably his whole life–about just how awkward soulmate meetings were. Rom-coms made the whole exchange seem cute and fun and breezy but the reality was nothing like that. It wasn’t fun to barely exchange first names before having a vision so dirty it made Connor feel like he needed to go to church. Hell, he and Oliver had been making semi-decent headway until their hands had touched. Now, Oliver could barely seem to string two sentences together. 

“You know what?” Connor said, gently interrupting Oliver’s lie. If his soulmate didn’t want to tell him or was too embarrassed or too shocked or whatever, Connor wasn’t going to make him. “Why don’t we take a step back?” 

Oliver swallowed. “A step back?” 

“Yeah.” Connor curled his lips into what he hoped was a reassuring smile. “Let’s just get to know each other a little bit. I mean, I don’t even know your last name.”

Oliver hesitated. “You really don’t want know?” 

I don’t want you to be uncomfortable, Connor thinks. But instead he simply says, “You can tell me later.” 

His soulmate considers before nodding. “Okay.” Then, “It’s Hampton. Oliver Hampton.” 

“Nice to meet you, Oliver Hampton.” When Oliver only raised an eyebrow, Connor was quick to add. “Walsh. Mine’s Walsh.” 

“Connor Walsh.” Oliver smiled. “That’s got a nice ring to it.” 

“I certainly think so.” 

Talk of soulmates and kinks and visions forgotten for the moment, the conversation between them started to flow again and, once again, Connor was back on the best first date of his life.

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  • Apostasia: Stop, Arme. Just stop what you're doing.
  • Arme Thaumaturgy: Apostasia...
  • Apostasia: Pity? Is this pity? That's what this is, isn't it?
  • Arme Thaumatury: ... That's not it.
  • Apostasia: Do you consider me a failure? A failed version of you? Is that why you're doing this?
  • Arme Thaumaturgy: I can't... just let you go on like this. I can't see you suffering... so please...
  • Apostasia: Take a good look, Arme. Do I look like I am suffering?
  • Arme Thaumaturgy: ...
  • Apostasia: Just look at us and tell me which one of us is the one that needs help right now.
  • Arme Thaumaturgy: ...
  • ----
  • Erbluhen Emotion: ...
  • Apostasia: ...
  • Erbluhen Emotion: ^^;
  • Apostasia: -_-
  • Apostasia: What do you want?
  • Erbluhen Emotion: Oh, no, nothing. ^^
  • Apostasia: You've been sitting there and watching me read for the past 30 minutes. If you have something to say, then spit it out.
  • Erbluhen Emotion: I just. Uh, how should I say... I heard you and Arme arguing earlier.
  • Apostasia: Don't bring him up.
  • Erbluhen Emotion: He only cares about you.
  • Apostasia: ...Don't tell me you're going to try to "save" me as well.
  • Erbluhen Emotion: No, nothing of that sort. I just... want to keep you company.
  • Apostasia: ...?
  • Erbluhen Emotion: Arme is Arme because he is someone who needs to be in control, meticulously perfecting everything. He will try, if he could, to do everything in his power to correct what he believes is wrong. Seeing you in your state has ruined him. He feels responsible.
  • Apostasia: But I am this way of my own accord.
  • Erbluhen Emotion: I know, I know that. Arme just can't... He can't accept the irregularities in life.
  • Erluhen Emotion: But nothing in this world is be perfect, isn't it? Life is imperfect and that's precisely why it's so wonderful.
  • Apostasia: ... What are you trying to say?
  • Erbluhen Emotion: I understand why Arme is that way, but that also means I understand why you are the way you are. I may not agree with everything that you do but I do accept that you have taken that path because you believed that path was the one for you.
  • Erbluhen Emotion: I know this sounds extremely cheesy, but I really do believe everything happens for a reason. If the Goddess created us for us to take our own paths... then maybe in your world, the path you chose was the one you were meant to take.
  • Apostasia: Are you saying this was my fate...?
  • Erbluhen Emotion: I'm saying, if the world was meant to be like this, then I like it the way it is...
  • Erbluhen Emotion: And,
  • Erbluhen Emotion: I like you the way you are.
But this was our show...

(Disclaimer: This is going to be rather long. Sorry for the negativity)

I know I’m late to the party but I need to get this out. 

I hate series four. Not just TFP, not just Mary’s redemption arc…I hate the whole thing.
The last days I spent delving deep into old tags, fic and started to rewatch the show and I only got sad. So fucking sad.
I remember joining fandom back in June, how it helped me crawl out of my shell and talk to people (sorry for not reaching out, I haven’t forgot about you lovelies).
I remember spending nights reading meta, which brought me from reluctantly shipping Johnlock to a full blown TJLCer.
I remember watching the show over and over, at first on my own, later surrounded by amazing people from all over the world at Steph’s watchalongs.
I remember following the news at the sdcc, and screaming over ‘love conquers all’ and our first teaser trailer.
I remember setlock and all the funny exchanges with Arwel.
I remember Sherlocked and watching the GBBO finale just to see two new frames cut into the teaser.
I remember being super excited about every new TJLCE video.
I remember how I couldn’t listen to the radio because EVERYTHING was Johnlock and my heart beat faster.
I remember “Tell them your darkest secret”-“I love you”.
I remember all those countdowns.

And S4 aired…

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anonymous asked:

i wanna believe we're free to practice witchcraft. i want to. but we're not. idk what you're doing. we can't have sex with people we're not married to, we can't party, we can't swear, we can't practice craft. it breaks my heart, but my mom says it's just breaking the sinful part that christ meant to save us from. i'm working on choking out that part of myself. you should, too. save yourself and go back to our god.

Hey friend. I understand where you’re coming from; I really do. Because honestly, I’ve been there. I tried doing that. I tried being the perfect Evangelical child. I tried so hard and even wound up with a Biblical Studies degree from a high ranking evangelical university. I served others to the point of seriously damaging my own well being. I know Koine Greek well enough to extrapolate various biblical arguments and analyze them and the accuracy of interpretation.

I tried so hard to save myself in order to be God’s Perfect Daughter and do you know what it felt like? Personality prison.

My sister and her husband once hid the fact that they celebrated the New Year with a glass of wine from my parents because for a while my mom wasn’t sure that Christians should drink alcohol. I hid my own sexuality from myself for years. I hid my anger, my frustrations, my questions. Following all the right rules didn’t make me a better Christian, it made me a sneakier one. And it loaded me with guilt and shame because anytime I thought I messed up I assumed God was just…frustrated by how horrible I was. I couldn’t stand how unbiblical I was, why would God even bother with me? It didn’t help that I’d developed anxiety and depression from the age of 16 and didn’t get help because no, I was too good, too kind and caring, I got good grades, I looked good.

That supposed salvation condemned me to hide myself from myself. And when I got angry about things like child abuse and racism and homophobia in the church, my mom basically told me that I’m reading too many negative things about the church and that I need to be more involved with the good churches that aren’t like those other bad ones because Not All Christians are like that.

Do you know what choking yourself of these things does? It hurts you. It keeps you from breathing. If your salvation comes at the cost of enjoying your life and yourself, what is it worth? I tried so hard to choke all those parts of me and it eventually broke me. It put a wedge between me and my family, between me and God.

Strangely enough, it was discovering ritualistic faith/Christian witchcraft that began to mend the bond between me and God. The day I decided to explore it, I had a dream where I watched Jesus come to life out of stone. It renewed my faith, my desire to know God as She truly is, not just as what I was told to believe.

You tell me I should save myself, but Jesus already did. And I use my craft to connect to God, to pray to Her, to love others and myself. I use it as a form of worship. I don’t need to try to be anyone but myself to be saved, to be free.

Maybe it will be different for you. I hope so. I hope you are able to live authentically to yourself within the church. But for me, Christian witchcraft brought me back to God. Leaving evangelicalism was a healthy and necessary choice for me. I found freedom and laughter. I don’t drink, I don’t smoke. I have a fiancé, soon to be my wife. (And for some people I’m already going to hell for that lol. If I'a already going to hell, I’m gonna go with a lot of love in my heart for myself and others and be true to myself.) I have friends who encourage me and listen to me and don’t just say “I’ll pray for you.” They let me talk about my feelings and beliefs, even if they don’t agree with me on some of them.

If God is love, shouldn’t that love be freeing rather than confining? If God is love, then why do people insist that love means changing who you are in order for God to love you, in order to be worthy? If God is love, why does that mean that it’s God’s way or eternal suffering, that God is always right and we are always wrong? Is that truly love? If your God was your significant other or parental figure, would it be called love, or would it show signs of abuse? If God is love, why do I feel so miserable following every letter of the Bible, every ideal of the Perfect Christian?

I hope you have a better experience than me. But for me, this is what freedom looks like. I light a votive candle and burn a sigil asking God to help me love myself. I use the herbs of the earth God has made for us to celebrate life, petition them and God to aid me. I get to take part in the act of creation.

And if I am wrong, I am wrong. But I do not believe that living authentically and enjoying yourself is contrary to the love of God. I am human. I am flawed. And I love that.

Sorry for writing such a long response. If you read this whole thing, good on you! I wish you the very best, but I am afraid I cannot return to what once damaged my spirit. I pray that your relationship with God only deepens and allows you to be true to yourself. Take care, friend.

Settling Down
  • Jane: Okay, just hear me out before you say no.
  • Maura: Jane...
  • Jane: No! Maura, just... just... okay, look. *huffs* All I'm saying is that we should get a puppy.
  • Maura: You had a dog, remember? You never had time for Jo, she was always alone, and I'm pretty sure you forgot about her as often as you remembered her. No, Jane.
  • Jane: That's not fair! It was a different time. We were different people. Besides, that was before the new job, the whole teaching thing, and the whole coming back to Boston thing. Come on, Maura! We need a puppy. Think about it. Wouldn't it be great to have a little guy running around? Someone to play fetch with? Someone to watch movies with? Someone to keep you warm on cold nights and do that cute little running in their sleep thing...
  • Maura: I have you for all of that. Why would we need a dog? I really doubt there's anything you can say to persuade me to agree to us getting a dog.
  • Jane: I can handle it! You know I can, and, frankly, I think you're being unfair about Jo. You know I took care of Jo just fine.
  • Maura: What about the tortoise?
  • Jane: Uh... tortoise?
  • Maura: Watson?
  • Jane: Oh! The *tortoise*. Well...
  • Maura: Exactly. The answer is no.
  • Jane: Man! This is so unfair. How are we going to get ready for kids if we don't even have a puppy to practice on? I mean, it's a puppy. Who doesn't love puppies?
  • Maura: You can't crate train a child, Jane.
  • Jane: Well, I mean, you *could*...
  • Maura: *heavy sigh* No.
  • Jane: So no on the puppy?
  • Maura: No on the puppy.
  • Jane: No on kids?
  • Maura: Maybe on children. We've only been officially dating for a few months. Give it time, Jane. I'd like to eventually adopt a child and raise them with you, but I'd like to get through our first year as an official couple as a start. You can understand that, can't you?
  • Jane: Yeah, sure. It's just that it feels like we've been dating for years, you know? I can't believe I'm saying this, but I am SO ready to settle down with you, Maura. I think... I just think it's time.
  • Maura: Well... maybe we can start looking into it?
  • Jane: Adoption?
  • Maura: A puppy.
  • Jane: Yes!

anonymous asked:

Assalamualaikum umm. Sorry to bother you but I really need some advice. My parents insist that I should work at a company, but I can't find any workplace that doesn't involve ikhtilath (free mixing of men and women). I'd like to protect myself and not take a step back from my hijrah. But I also feel like I'm only using the sharia to justify my cowardice

Wa’alaikomissalaam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu,

I pray this message reaches you in good health and imaan. 

Firstly, you do not bother me. It is just that I really do take time in answering questions. So please forgive me.

Secondly, I had your dilemma for years. So, what I am going to tell you would be based on my personal experience.

To refuse to work in a place where free mixing is present is not “cowardice” rather it is honouring your hayah and knowing well your value as a Muslim woman.

A lot of women nowadays fail on this part, forsaking their hayah to be known, to earn well and to pursue things that benefit them widely in this dunya. I personally went through this struggle, but believe me sister keep the faith up and Allah will give you something you would never have imagined.

For 4 years, I wasn’t able to find a proper job, you know those things where we go to office or do these stuff because to be honest the course I did was in the nature of journalism and media. So, I wasn’t able to find a job which filters out free mixing.

So, I started doing free lance job and things I was good at. It helped me a lot until I was able to move and make hijrah to a Muslim country - which I know Allah had made possible. Alhamdulillah.

So what I am trying to say is that you explain well to your parents why you do not want to work in a company where there is free mixing, if they still don’t agree then be patient and be very tolerant at discussing with them and standing firm on your decision.

Find some work where you can do it online, at the comfort of your own home where there is no danger of free mixing. Be very cautious in dealing transactions with the opposite sex as well, and be very professional in dealing with them.

During this time, make du’a and dhikr your companions. Keep asking Allah, no matter how long it will take but never lose hope in making du’a to Allah to help you and bring you possibly to a place where His Law is the well established and where you can work without worrying about free mixing.

I hope it somehow gives you another perspective on this or that another view on how to handle this dilemma of yours. 

I know it would be tiring to hear someone saying be patient, but really, good things come to those who wait. So as it is said in the Qur’an, Fa itha ‘Azamta fatawakkal Alallah. “then when you have decided, put your trust in Allah.” [3:159]

May Allah make it easy for you, ukhti. Amin.


P.S. I found it very cute when you said Assalamualaikum Umm. 

Only Storybook’s Have Happy Endings

Title: Only storybook’s have happy endings

Notes: I guess you could call this a Character Study of how she might react to a certain situation. Also, This is Katelyn-focused incase you couldn’t tell. (Did I do this right I HOPE I did this right. )

Word Count: 1157 WORDS(This is the longest thing I’ve ever written)

Only storybooks have happy endings

 It’d be a lie to say..she wasn’t even the slightest bit hopeful when she came back. Maybe some might even say excited to return home. 15 years with no Zane, the world had to be better because of that. Without Zane here..there was nothing stopping her from coming home and telling them how much she missed her family. 

Except. That wasn’t at all what happened.

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anonymous asked:

Hello! I think my answer will be a tad long, because in fact I want to ask two things. 1, What are the main differences between TeFi and Fe acting nicely? How could I tell the two apart as a bystander? 2, I would like to ask you to help me decide between two types. (Basically to help me type myself, because I just can't decide. I'm afraid I don't have a clear enough grasp on Fi and Fe in the stack, operating with other functions.)

  • So the two types that I want to tell apart with your help are INTJ and INFJ. When I was a kid, I would always think about the future, and I had my mind stuck in the clouds constantly. -> evidence of N
  • Mostly books and theories and daydreaming engaged me, but I also loved drawing and going outdoors. -> common introvert interests
  • Then there is my impatience towards those who can’t do their work, because they are supposed to sign up for a job that they are good at. Sometimes I’m even pissed by a friend because of this. -> judgmental T, no indication of position
  • Then there is the fact that I want to be honest with people, but I’m still trying to let them know my opinion in a sugarcoated way (when I’m livid, though, I don’t really care who I hurt, but it’s hard to make me so raving to bring that side of me out), but generally, I don’t want to hurt others’ feelings. -> evidence of being morally conflicted
  • I would say I’m good at pinpointing emotions, based on what I observe on them, but it’s like… I just know what they are feeling. -> perhaps Ni
  • This is why I can’t decide between Te and Fe. I’m fairly good at tackling their emotional state, but if you asked me if I actually feel what they do, I would say no. -> evidence of higher T than F
  • Sometimes it does get to me, but that’s extremely rare, and I think is because I have an idea of what the other is going through internally for having experienced something similar before. -> perhaps tertiary Fi
  • Otherwise, I’m as good as a lifeless statue, feeling awkward and out of place, like a fish out of water. I struggle to find the right words. -> evidence of poor social skills that is common for Ts?
  • On my motivations: I want to be effective, but not while hurting others. I have strong principles, and I have a tendency to project it on others, too, albeit I don’t know why because that doesn’t make sense. I would hate the knowledge that I put someone through an emotional struggle, or they are suffering because of me. This is the same reason why I don’t like sharing my own struggles with others: I believe they have their own battles, and the last thing they need is taking part of mine, too. I would hate the idea of burdening someone with an issue that is completely mine. -> evidence of being ethical
  • Again, I would probably be called a “yes-man” for my tendency to rather say yes to someone against my own will (like staying with them in a hard time despite I would have my own errands to run). This frustrates me, and I want to change that, but then my conscience is picking at me for having been rude with the other person. -> evidence of being morally conflicted
  • I’m not sure how much it’s related to Te, but my environment just always gets messy over time. No matter how many times I tidy it, eventually it will turn out just as messy as it was before. I’m often lazy to do that regularly, whereas a colleague of mine is a junkie for orderliness, and she’s definitely a strong Te user. But I feel like I’m wasting precious amount of time that I could spend with attending to things I hold hear and find yielding to me, like writing my book. -> could be linked to either/both Te/Se issues

I see why you’re struggling. You’re boiling down the judging functions to moral issues only, which is not getting directly enough at how the functions work cognitively. And you haven’t mentioned anything about looping, which is very helpful for identifying the middle functions. Fe is about social harmony, it wants to feel a part of a social group (whether one likes it or not), therefore, Fe will avoid hurting others in order to maintain group spirit and remain a part of it. Fe doesn’t necessarily always feel what others feel literally, it’s more precise to say that it is very easily affected by what others feel because it is necessary for keeping oneself aligned with group interests (though how someone chooses to respond to “being affected” is unique to the individual). This is something FJs cannot avoid even when they try to. Even when Fe is unhealthy/underdeveloped, FJs and TPs struggle with the notion of fitting in or not fitting in with social environments. While mature Fe is genuinely nurturing and caring, immature Fe only cares about others insofar as they affect oneself emotionally, “if you agree with me, then everything is fine, if you disagree with me, then I want you gone because you threaten me and make me feel uncomfortable and alienated”. Te is about competency and efficiency, it wants to feel effective through getting good results, therefore, Te will generally avoid hurting others when important results/outcomes are at stake. On average, tertiary Fi cares strongly for others within a very limited range, as though your “empathy umbrella” is limited to a certain radius that only includes the people standing closest to you, whereas auxiliary Fe tends to have a much bigger umbrella even if only in the abstract or as a moral “duty” to society. Unless INTJs really work hard at developing Fi, they find it difficult to understand emotional life in depth, their own and others’. INFJs struggle with their emotions much more than INTJs because a higher F function makes a person more aware of emotions. INFJs are more likely to frequently struggle with taming out-of-control feelings, whereas INTJs struggle with feelings only at low points in life, during difficult moral dilemmas (which you mention a lot), or when faced with failure/inadequacy. Based on this, I believe there is more evidence supporting Te-Fi in your details. You have not mentioned much that points to Fe but I don’t know if that’s because you haven’t yet understood it properly or if you just aren’t an INFJ. Since you did not include any grip info, also be sure to rule out INFP and inferior Te.

Leo- Rihanna
  • Leo Sun & Aries Moon: Man Down // "If you're playing me for a fool I will lose my cool & reach for my fire arm"
  • Leo Sun & Taurus Moon: Work // "All that I wanted from you was to give me something that I never had"
  • Leo Sun & Gemini Moon: Same Old Mistakes // "Two sides of me can't agree, will I be in too deep?"
  • Leo Sun & Cancer Moon: Stay // "All along it was a fever, a cold sweat hot-headed believer"
  • Leo Sun & Leo Moon: American Oxygen // "We sweat for a nickel and a dime, turn it into an empire, breathe in"
  • Leo Sun & Virgo Moon: What Now // "Tears were for the weaker days, I'm stronger now, or so I say"
  • Leo Sun & Libra Moon: Kiss It Better // "Been waiting on that sunshine, boy I think I need that back"
  • Leo Sun & Scorpio Moon: Love On The Brain // "I run for miles just to get a taste, must be love on the brain"
  • Leo Sun & Sagittarius Moon: Consideration // "I got to do things my own way darling, will you ever let me?"
  • Leo Sun & Capricorn Moon: Needed Me // "Didn't they tell you that I was a savage, fuck your white horse and carriage, You needed me"
  • Leo Sun & Aquarius Moon: Good Girl Gone Bad // "I can't take no more, he finds a letter on the stairs, saying this is the end, I packed my bag"
  • Leo Sun & Pisces Moon: Four Five Seconds // "I might do a little time, cause all of my kindness is taken for weakness"
Class 1-A Tumblrs

Midoriya: All Might blogger, ultimate hero fandom blogger, reblogs positive posts, makes good gifs of All Might as his reactions, he’s the one you go to if you wanna know more about a hero (he has a side blog dedicated to finding hero stuff for cheap), over all a very positive blog with a few very dedicated followers

Bakugou: A N G R Y blogger who gives out actual good advice but regularly does it in a more than abusive and patronizing tone. He’s the reason the YFIP was created. Reblogs hero posts and only communicates in capslocks and key smashes. Has blocked more people than he has followers. He never changes his content but he does tag triggers without a shitty comment.

Ochako: would be a pastel space aesthetic blogger if she didn’t make the colors so bold and positivity blogger who regularly posts about ways to save money and live on the cheap. Regularly gets asks about how someone was feeling bad until the found her blog (she always replies with pictures of baby animals)

Tsuyu: Memes. Memes everywhere. You cannot escape these genuinely funny and good memes but why would you want to. Shitposts about adulting but still manages to give good advice. Her most popular post is a vine with her riding a unicycle and croaking “oh shit whaddup” in her most deadpanned voice

Kirishima: Fitness blogger who’s linked to his Instagram. He memes occasionally, but badly, although he’s got a few posts over a hundred notes. He always refers to his biceps as “the gun show” and no matter how many times Bakugou capslocks about not calling them that he never listens (he can neither confirm nor deny that he says this just for those keys mash moments). Retro Crimson Riot aesthetics.

Iida: study aesthetics and school advice that’s too complicated to actually follow. Has a good handwriting aesthetic because of how neat it is. Always reblogs posts concerning patience and good morals (regularly reblogs Bakugou’s angry key smashes and tries to calm him down with three paragraphs and a hands up emoji). ALWAYS reblogs Ingenium posts with his own add ons (he and Midoriya have had some posts nearly thirty reblogs long over how cool Ingenium is). Has a queue going until next year.

Kaminari: Unironic bad fashion aesthetics like neon leopard print Nikes and Pokemon art. Shitposts and memes but nothing spectacular. Has a Selfie Saturday where he posts like five selfies and then repeatedly refreshes to see how many notes they get. (Has a side blog dedicated to quotes and literary reviews and aesthetics)

Mineta: 18+ blogger all under aged followers will be blocked (he never fucking checks). Not even good porn it’s all boring or nasty no in between

Todoroki: slightly emo hipster blogger who posts a lot of “under the cut” personal rants and always gets genuinely shocked when people ask if he’s alright. Light memes but only the ones he finds funny (so once in a blue moon). Makes city aesthetics and only ever posts selfies that aren’t his face

Tokoyami: E M O A E S T H E T I C S and unironically has a Gemsona. Always gets asked if he’s a furry and he always replies that this person is testing the black waters of his hatred. Dark fashion blogger who has never posted a color that wasn’t black, red, or emerald. Reblogs Addams Family posts with #lifegoals. Thinks Tim Burton and Quentin Tarantino are the only true artists among Hollywood directors.

Yaoyorozu: study aesthetics and science blogger, she IS the science side of Tumblr. Magazine article links every single day. She doesn’t understand what a meme is and at this point has stopped trying, but she does reblog puns. She and Iida make up half the study aesthetics page. A good body positivity blog TBH. Keeps a posting schedule religiously.

Ashido: body positivity, fashion and make up blog, her positivity posts don’t make sense half the time because of all the emojis and bad spelling but her energy always comes through her posts. She posts wear to find cute, trendy and fashionable stuff for cheap budgets. Her aesthetics include runway pics and selfies taken with friends as well as her own personal selfies with her favorite outfits.

Jirou: music blogger, band blogger, playlist maker, she is 100% music with occasional videos of her playing her bass to popular songs as well as music videos from her fave bands all the time. Has a side blog dedicated to girly aesthetics and baby animals. Uses this blog to vague about Kaminari.

Kouda: that one baby animals blogger that is pure and sweet and when sent a dirty message doesn’t get it but says thanks anyways???? (Has learned to stop looking up things that don’t make sense to him because that’s what he learned what shot gunning was). Posts about how to care for your animals and is always happy to help in anyways he can so he consistently reblogs donation posts. Makes cute little doodle cartoons about animals.

Aoyama: shiny aesthetics blogger and that one gif maker everyone with a seizure disorder has learned to block. Positivity posts aren’t so much about believing in yourself as much as loving yourself like Aoyama loves himself. Multilingual blogger and has whole posts and conversations in French. Has a “Lights in Paris” post that reached over a thousand notes that’s just a photoshop edit of him arching over the Eiffel Tower with his belly button laser

Satou: food blogger who posts barely three times a week and only breaks this when he’s lifting when he suddenly becomes a fitness blog for a day and then goes back to food. Has a side blog for memes and shitposts he forgot about in 2010.

Hagakure: that one person who always makes amazing aesthetics of her surroundings and those “don’t forget I love you~ <3” posts with no less than a dozen emojis. A classy memer who has a special love for Thomas Sanders. She posts great but random shots. Nobody knows why. She’s never told her followers that they’re her selfies.

Shouji: weird animal blogger like of the cuttlefish and squid. He memes and barely looks at a blog before he follows them so he’s following seven thousand blogs and only unfollows when they’ve done or said something he just cannot agree with. He posts a lot about body positivity but never posted a selfie of himself. For some reason it’s not uncommon for his to post about hair even though he consistently says he would never do that to his own hair. Has a side blog dedicated to fandoms. Went through a really weird Homestuck phase but still in his Steven Universe phase.

Ojirou: martial arts blogger whose entire blog is overall a very nice and ordinary aesthetics blog about nature and inspiration posts with martial artist quotes under their pictures. Doesn’t really do anything with Tumblr except post his things, reblog a few posts and then ignores it for days before he’s suddenly active again. Has maybe a hundred followers.

Sero: master memer and shitposter. Is funny without being obnoxious and his puns are legitimately hilarious. Has thousands of followers but no one can find a reason to dislike him except to call him out on his sass. He claps back with only more sass. (Has a secret side blog for health food and minimalist life styling aesthetics. No one can ever know)

cosmicending  asked:

what confuses me about this genitalia transphobia discussion you're holding is that you switch between what it is you have a problem with. in your video you explicitly say that my preference and what i'm attracted to is transphobic, and that i should unlearn my biases. but when confronted, you talk like it's an ideological issue (ie associating penises with men or believing trans women can't be lesbians). that i understand, but my personal preference doesn't dictate my overall ideology. -

this message was sent in three parts, here are the other two parts:

- i can be unattracted to penises and still recognize that women with penises are in fact women, and that wlw encompasses all women. i’m also unattracted to large breasts; both of these are just physical characteristics that i don’t find to be appealing regardless of who they belong to. this doesn’t mean i wouldn’t be attracted to any women with those attributes, but as a sexual person i prefer mutuality, and i wouldn’t feel okay if i was unable respond to a lady i like in kind.

i just feel like there’s a misunderstanding on some level, and it really makes me feel awful to be called transphobic because i’m not attracted to a certain physical attribute that does matter sexually. i don’t like any phallic things at all. none of that is even to say that i like vagina specifically, because i’m not attracted to men with vaginas either, nor am i to butch cis women. i believe that trans women are women and i think they belong in wlw spaces just as much as anyone else


okay, i get a lot of messages like these, but most of them are aggressive and rude and misgender me and call me awful slurs. yours actually seems polite and like you’re trying to understand so let me see if i can explain.

first of all, you say, “in your video you explicitly say that my preference and what i’m attracted to is transphobic”. that’s just factually inaccurate. i never say the words transphobia or transphobic in my video. not once.

the closest i come to saying that is this line, “Would you date a trans person? Think about it for a second. Okay, got your answer? Well, if you said no, I’m sorry, but that’s pretty discriminatory.”

notice how i didn’t say anything about genitals. i didn’t say “would you date a trans woman who has a penis?” i asked about trans people in general. that could mean trans women with penises, trans women with vaginas, trans men with penises, trans men with vaginas, non-binary people with penises, non-binary people with vaginas, etc.

if your answer is categorically “i would never date a trans person” then you’re not saying you have a genital preference, you’re just discriminating against trans people. it’s the similar to if someone said “i would never date a black person”. that’s clearly racist. and saying you could never possibly date any trans person is clearly cissexist (transphobic). if we don’t agree on that… well i don’t know how to convince you of that. you’re welcome to have your “preferences”. no one’s going to make you date black people or trans people, but i do think it’s important to recognize that those “preferences” were influenced by a racist and cissexist society. implicit bias and the influence of media and society on what we find attractive or desirable have been well studied and documented. you can find plenty of studies on that with a quick google search (before anyone says “why dont you provide links to sources then” because im not required to do your research for you and that’s time consuming and i aint getting paid for this).

if that’s not the line from my video that you have a problem with, you’re welcome to quote any other part of my video, but i guarantee you i never said what you’re claiming i said.

now, this discussion has morphed into something else recently over tumblr/twitter/youtube which is something along the lines of “is it transphobic for a lesbian to not want to date/have sex with a woman with a penis?” this is a very nuanced and complicated topic that i think has been framed in a very misleading way, and im planning to get my thoughts more in order and do a full video on this later – so im not going to address that right now.

i think it’s great that you believe trans women are women and belong in the women’s spaces. and i don’t think you have to be attracted to dick. the reason this sounds like an ideological issue, i think, is because the majority of the people arguing against me are TERFs or radfems or anti-feminists (hilarious that they agree on this topic lol). most of the messages i get are along the lines of “i dont like penis because i dont like men and only men have penises!! stop trying to be a woman, you man! you’ll never be a REAL woman like me!!” so when im reacting to those messages and sentiments, yeah, it’s very ideological. then of course, i think there are folks, like yourself, who say that they believe trans women are women and all of that but still want to have a discussion about genital preferences. i wish that could be the main discussions without TERFs butting in and making me defend my own identity as a woman. i think it would make it much easier to have a civilized discourse on the effects of implicit bias and all that. but when most of the messages i receive are from TERFs, i have to go back to defend my basic identity and we’re not able to have those more in-depth conversations.

i hope that makes sense, and i hope i’ll be able to explain the rest of this for you in my future video.

take care <3

A meeting of the Sans
  • sans1 has just created the room
  • sans2 has joined the room
  • sans1: hey sans.
  • sans2: hi sans.
  • sans1: any change over in your timeline?
  • sans2: eh. not really. the kid keeps botching his genocide run.
  • sans1: they still haven't given up on that, have they?
  • sans2: in a way. they always stop at my bro, thank god. speaking of, how is he on your end? you got a pacifist run, right?
  • sans1: yeah. he's studying for his permit. undyne is teaching him the ropes.
  • sans2: niiiiiice. what caught on fire this time?
  • sans3 has joined the room
  • sans1: nothing, but they did manage to destroy an old warehouse the other day. we've been told we're saving the city millions by letting them practice in destruction zones.
  • sans3: hey sans and sans. talking about papyrus?
  • sans1: hey, sans. yeah, post-pacifist and learning to drive from undyne.
  • sans3: nice. what caught on fire this time?
  • sans1: nothing.
  • sans3: really?
  • sans2: i know, i'm so proud of him.
  • sans3: hey sans. still on botched genocide?
  • sans2: yeah. hope the kid gives up soon, it's giving me a heart attack every time they approach papyrus.
  • sans3: yeah... god i miss him.
  • sans1: don't tell me. genocide?
  • sans3: the kid's taking a break from being dunked on.
  • sans2: how many times have you won?
  • sans3: 107. i know it's only a matter of time, but isn't that approaching the record?
  • sans1: dude, i think the record was 618.
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  • sans3: oh man, really? so much for my record.
  • sans4: hey guys. dunking record?
  • sans3: yup. 107.
  • sans4: dude, nice.
  • sans3: oh, actually make that 108. brb
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  • sans2: christ how does he keep that up?
  • sans1: i hear the sanses in the genocide runs get numb a lot faster.
  • sans2: that's hard to believe for me. i still break into a cold sweat when my papyrus is facing the kid, and he always backs down in my timeline.
  • sans4: they're still at that?
  • sans2: yeah. can we move on to a lighter topic of conversation?
  • sans4: ah man sans, i didn't mean to rattle your bones or anything.
  • sans1: tibia honest, i didn't wanna make light of your situation.
  • sans2: heh. want me to pull papyrus in here? he'd hate this.
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  • sans4: nah. he deserves a break every once in awhile.
  • sans5: hey guys. can't stay for long, about to head out. just wanted to check in.
  • sans1: hey sans. what's the rush?
  • sans5: date.
  • sans2: oooooooooh
  • sans1: oh oh oh oh
  • sans4: c'mon spill the beans man
  • sans5: heh, alright. post pacifist, toriel.
  • sans4: i can relate. i'm with toriel in my timeline, too.
  • sans5: how long?
  • sans4: about two years, now. first date on your end?
  • sans5: that obvious?
  • sans4: i can't even see you and i can tell you're rattling your bones.
  • sans2: wait, who's toriel?
  • sans1: the lady behind the door.
  • sans1: let's focus on what's important right now. namely, embarrassing sans before he goes on his first date.
  • sans5: wait. what.
  • sans4: i agree totally. hey sans, toriel really likes touching the rib cage. just saying.
  • sans5: oh
  • sans4: and watch it, she's a cuddler. like, you've seen how she hugs frisk? just wait until she gets her paws on you. like being wrapped in a thick, furry blanket.
  • sans5: oooooooooh
  • sans4: and if it goes well, she has this really cute dress that
  • sans5: i came here to have a good time and i'm honestly feeling so attacked right now
  • sans2: guys if i laugh any harder i'll wake papyrus up
  • sans4: alright alright. seriously though, she prefers white wine, she'll expect a kiss at the end but she'll be fine if you're too flustered, and avoid talking about asgore, unless you immediately turn it into a pun. her favorite is the "my aim is getting better" one. if she's comfortable enough to initiate that herself, you're golden. that help?
  • sans5: yeah. thanks.
  • sans4: also, she has this sweet spot right at her thigh. she'll make this adorable bleating/giggle and you know you've got the right spot.
  • sans5: okay wow it looks like time i should go
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  • sans4: he'll be fine.
  • sans1: so toriel, huh? weird.
  • sans4: why's that?
  • sans1: honestly, i can't see myself with anyone but mettaton.
  • sans4: oh my god, mettaton?
  • sans2: dude. dude. whoa.
  • sans1: what? what's wrong with that?
  • sans4: my papyrus is dating mettaton in my timeline.
  • sans1: your papyrus is in a relationship? mine's aro.
  • sans2: and meanwhile i'm sitting in a timeline where papyrus just has a huge crush on the rectangle.
  • sans6 has joined the room
  • sans1: that's just... bizarre.
  • sans2: and chatting with parallel timeline versions of yourself isn't?
  • sans1: point taken.
  • sans6: hey guys. what's up?
  • sans4: quick, who are you in a relationship with?
  • sans6: uh... gaster?
  • sans2: ...
  • sans4: uh, ew.
  • sans1: whoa.
  • sans6: hey man, don't kinkshame me bro.
  • sans4: dude, he's my dad in my timeline?
  • sans6: your dad? freaky.
  • sans2: oh you poor soul. he was just my lab partner in my timeline.
  • sans1: it's... weird for me.
  • sans4: okay, i'm really curious. how weird?
  • sans1: well, "gaster" is actually the name me and pap used to call ourselves before he split into us two.
  • sans6: oh yeah, i've met a sans like that.
  • sans2: i sure haven't. when does he get on?
  • sans6: time is relative, but i think early morning?
  • sans2: ah. that explains it.
  • sans4: yeah, the only reason i get out of bed in the mornings is because toriel practically drags me out on my feet.
  • sans2: papyrus does the same for me.
  • sans6: so... wait. does this mean, from a multiversal sense, i'm engaging in both incest and selfcest?
  • sans1: hey, this is a judgement free zone dude.
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  • sans4: you're the one who said not to kinkshame you.
  • sans3: back. 108 now. man i walked into a weird conversation.
  • sans2: c'mon sans, we've had weirder.
  • sans6: wait, 108 what?
  • sans4: speak for yourself. i'm getting weird mental images with me and gaster, now.
  • sans3: dunks. end of genocide route.
  • sans2: hey, remember when amalgamate sans entered the chat?
  • sans4: okay, i'll admit that was weirder.
  • sans6: and really sad. i think that was the only time alphys ever joined the chat.
  • sans1: yeah. i wonder how they're doing?
  • sans6: amalgamate sans or alphys?
  • sans1: both.
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  • sans6: well hopefully
  • sans2: wait who's this?
  • sans1: frisk? wait, what?
  • sans4: oh, hey frisk.
  • Core Frisk: Hello Sanses. Sorry, I'm not interrupting anything, am I?
  • sans6: uh. hey kid. this is a little hard to explain, but
  • Core Frisk: Don't bother. I'm not your Frisk, anyway.
  • sans4: yeah, he's a frisk that fell into the core and now he's kinda omniscient.
  • sans1: wait, what?
  • sans3: whoa.
  • sans6: and gaster was worried about nearly falling into the core.
  • sans1: he had every right to be.
  • Core Frisk: I just wanted to pop in and saying the particular sans amalgamate you were talking about a moment ago is doing fine, in a manner of speaking. He insists that he's happy so long as Papyrus is with him.
  • sans1: that's a relief, i guess.
  • Core Frisk: Oh, and Sans? The one who's been married to Toriel for two years?
  • sans4: yeah?
  • Core Frisk: Just a heads up, sans' first date went fine, but he's plotting a revenge prank on you.
  • sans4: wow kid, that's real cool of you to let me know.
  • Core Frisk: Don't thank me. He asked me to pull the prank myself. Undyne is going to be hunting for you to get her eyepatches back.
  • sans4: what.
  • Core Frisk: if you start running now, you may just get a head-start! :-)
  • sans4: ...
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  • sans3: that was ice cold, kid.
  • sans6: and amazing. teach me your ways, o master of pranks.
  • Core Frisk: Aw, well I did learn from the best. Namely, you. You're gonna teach me that one in a few months when I visit you.
  • sans6: niiiiiice.
  • sans2: hey, kid? you know all possibilities across all the timelines, right?
  • Core Frisk: Yes. Your Frisk will finally quit at the King Papyrus ending. It'll be lonely for him, but so long as you're with him, he'll be fine. You're a great second-hand man and an even better brother.
  • sans2: ...i gotta run, guys. i, uh... i gotta tell my bro i love him.
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  • sans3: oh, same here. kid's back for more. don't tell me if i end up beating the record, i wanna find out for myself.
  • sans3 has left the room
  • sans1: ...so, does he?
  • Core Frisk: Where would the fun be if I told you that?
  • sans1: fair enough. alright, i'd better head out. i need to go read papyrus his bedtime story.
  • sans6: and then have fun times with mettaton?
  • sans1: i'm ace.
  • sans6: oh.
  • sans1: ...i don't want to know what you do with gaster, do I?
  • Core Frisk: No, you really don't.
  • sans1: heh. alright, goodnight frisk. goodnight sans.
  • Core Frisk: Night, Sans!
  • sans6: night sans
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  • sans7: i missed the chat again, didn't i?
  • Core Frisk: Yeah. Outertale, right?
  • sans7: ?
  • Core Frisk: Space?
  • sans7: oh. yeah. why?
  • Core Frisk: Well... I've always wanted to try out a jetpack.
  • sans7: you can jump across timelines, right?
  • Core Frisk: You HAVE met me, haven't you?
  • Core Frisk: That was a rhetorical question. I know that you've met me. Omniscient and all.
  • sans7: heh. get over here, i'll grab a pack for you.
  • Core Frisk: =D
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Character Analysis: Edgar Redmond’s moral compass

One of the most powerfull scenes for me in the Weston arc is when Maurice Cole finally gets a call-out. There are more strong scenes, of course, but big deal here is Edgar’s reaction. And that Edgar was hurt for more things that Maurice’s actions. I’ll elaborate. 

This is a very powerfull moment. He seems calm, but his posture is too perfect, his back is not rested on the backrest, I bet his voice is neutral, it just… has a seriousness so unlike him. He’s anything but calm. There is also resignation on him, and this hurts my heart.  

“I’m ashamed of my inability to judge people”. Pretty normal thing to say when someone betrayed you, isn’t? But the phrase before that, “Even you betrayed me…” leaves something on the air. He’s not surprised, because people has betrayed him before. Who could have betrayed him before? It wasn’t any of his closest friends aka the other prefects, and he’s a young man, betrayal seems like a strong word. He has lived this before and the question is how and who betrayed him.

A lot of things happen after it. Ciel becoming a fag, the cricket tournament. You may even forget the question or maybe not even take it into account in the first place (I know I didn’t). But then we have more context to what Edgar is saying. 

It’s clear why he didn’t go with the rest to see what was Maurice doing. I mean, yes, maybe Ciel told him to stay, but truth be told he probably was terrified to find himself again facing that (and no wonder why he is ashamed). 

Derrick was Edgar’s fag. Edgar has been fooled not once but twice, and in the same way. People who use other people to gain his trust.(And Ciel did it too, btw, just… in a different way). This is what trully bothers him, that they lied to him, and that he couldn’t see beyond their praises. 

He’s of course upset because they are shaming what Weston means, but it’s because he likes what Weston means and believes in this (and being honest is part of weston). Not because Weston’s set of value was something he thought it had to be done word by word because that’s what they teached him, but because weston fits with him and he thought everything was “meant to be”. 

And I think it comes down that Edgar is not really a rule freak. Not really. 

Everyone was calling on a Y. He’s the guy who gave this dude that had alcohol 4Y and Soma, who broke the house with an elephant, 5Y (talk about influence). He follows the rules lightly, at his own accord. He forgave Ciel because he was small and pretty and it was an honest mistake. 

I think Edgar’s morality is heavily based on his own perceptions of the world. What I mean is that Edgar would not have left himself be swallow by Weston’s ideals if he didn’t believe them fit for himself in the first place. He has this sense of detachment, he acts at his own free will, which is why he was so quickly into act like he did and hide everything as quick as he could. To put it more simply: he decided to be a puppet, and he would act like this in any contexts, in any set of values (cofcofbluesectcof). He’s a good prefect, he worked hard to achieve that, and he follows the rules, but he follows the rules not because he has to but because he trully believes in them and wants to honour them. He calls Lawrence by his name because the rule that says is forbidden is stupid and he likes to tease his childhood friend.

He and Gregory actually share this phylosophy. Greenhill was about to take himself to give himself up, if it weren’t for Gregory and Edgar’s mental resistence and disdain for silly moralities that don’t fit their own morality (as warped as it was on weston’s). Lawrence agreed to the plan when Gregory and Edgar took the charge of the situation, but he was as clueless as you can be before that.

 And I’m not saying Lawrence is a weak who followed his friends in everything and that he’s actual innocent. He’s not, he helped to hold Agares and was as involved as anyone. He was proud too to help. But Violet and Edgar were the ones controlling the situation after everything happened, taking charge of the mood, because they were the ones that announced it. “We’re in this together” .

Edgar really shows how far he will go for the things he believes and for the things he trust in. He really only cares about what he thinks fit, be it weston’s rules or blue cult’s morality. And what he apreciates the more in people is honesty and loyalty. Which is why the scene with Maurice cause a big impact in me now that I see Edgar like this. Damn Maurice. 

P.S: this is part of the reasons why I don’t believe they were actually brain-washed for the Blue Cult. I think they’re acting at their own will. This is why Gregory can dare to act melancholic, and all of them were tully happy to keep practicing even after Bravat told them to rest. Minus Gregory, maybe, they genuinily think this is good for them, they genuinily believe what the Blue Cult is preaching and they’re working hard because of this. Which only makes it more tragical at my sight. 

I do think Blue Cult is hiding information of them, of course. 

(You can disagree with the content of this post all you want, since is just an interpretation of his character).