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In which Derek is technologically inept and needs help clearing his browser cache and history, recruiting his new bff Kira to help him with the task.

I know in the DA2 portion of my canon that Garrett and Carver are the only surviving Hawke children, yet I keep thinking about having Marian and Bethany in it as well?

Rogue class Marian being the eldest at 28 with the aggressive personality then diplomatic Mage Garrett and then the twins

Young Garrett smearing red paint across his nose to copy the blood smear on Marian’s face after a fight because it looked so cool and it became their thing

Marian showing up at the last minute to save Bethany from the ogre after finally managing to catch up to her siblings when returning from her travels

Garrett going off to hunt slavers with Fenris after helping Anders get out of Kirkwall while Viscountess Marian dissuades her dear husband Sebastian from launching an invasion and hunting down the apostate and his associates

Warden Carver keeping in frequent contact with Merrill, Bethany helping out in the Alienage for a while before sailing away and slowing falling for Isabela

Happy Hawke siblings who only grow closer as the years go on even though they aren’t always together

I’ve never really interpreted how it feels to be lonely before. But lately it feels as though I’m the only one in the room even though my family or peers are around me. I’ve always told myself that I’m not lonely, I’ve got people around me who love and and appreciate me being there, but lonely isn’t about being with people you love it’s about being with the people you love and feeling as if you’re the only one there.
It’s rare, that I can have nights where I feel so genuinely alone that I can’t sleep, that scenarios play in my mind where I’m alone in the world.
I’ve never felt so alone that my brain doesn’t want to function and my stomach makes me feel sick, but tonight alone is the feeling that’s eating at me.
I’ve always told myself that a big group of friends is nothing compared to having that special few who are always there no matter what, but it’s times like these I wish I had a big group of friends to tell me everything’s all right.
And don’t get me wrong, I love the friends I have.
But, I’ve learnt that they’re never really there. Losing my best friend to cancer at the age of 15 to having my other fly across the world to live.. To having the most wonderful best friend now has been difficult. I find every day that id do anything to have a moment with any of them. “The memories are always there” are what people always tell you but having memories isn’t the same as making more. And I’ll never have the chance to make more with those two best friends who slipped through my fingers.
Feeling alone has got to be one of the worst feelings to feel for me personally,
To just want somebody to be there. Want somebody to tell you everything’s okay. Want someone to hold you and love unconditionally.

But idk, just my thoughts I guess.
I just wish I didn’t feel so alone.

Introduction

Hello! Thought I’d go ahead and do a brief introduction:

I’m a 23 year old who is re-discovering her passion for Star Wars in the form of splurging on badass costumes. I have only cosplayed once and I have never been to a real convention (the one at my former college does not count). I decided to join the 501st this week. I don’t know much about it, but I’ve been asking any and all members every question I can think of. I started out wanting to do a Bo Katan kit, but was informed that there are a lot of Bo Katans in my area and in the state which would restrict my ability to go trooping. They only want one in-character costume type per event and she is one of very few female Mandalores, so she’s a pretty popular build. She will probably be my second project. I was also informed that I should probably have a general trooper kit in the case of events like Star Wars Weekends at Disney when single characters get to be competitive. I am hoping to wait on that until Episode VII is released. The new armor sets are sick! Particularly this guy:

Too damn cool for school. Soon as that drops as an available costume on the roster, I will be dumping my life savings.

So in a nutshell, I want to use this blog to help continue to fuel my passion for this stuff. I tend to lose interest in things pretty quickly, but I want to follow through with this. It feels like I found my calling. Plus, the people in the 501st are amazing. If you haven’t gotten a chance to talk with them, you should.

~Emily