i can see me regretting this

After all, the stars will confirm nothing.


Evening is gathering in the grim groves of pine.

Another loss, to keep.


What will you say, tell me, of trial and error?

What will the violet moon quiver over now?


Are you rational?


I do not find fragrance in sorrow.

Misplacement. The wrecked key.


I actually grieve in the evidence of gods.


How can we be compared to the past

when we are so busy continually becoming?


Would I even be allowed regret in a morally

vacant world? What vacance? What world?


I miss you. I hold on to what never comes to me.

I see now, I was meant for nothing.


Each day prepares me closer, as if in apology,

for the end.


But I am of the sea, whom doesn’t apologize, however blue,

for its unreformable honesty, relentless candor.


Unshakable, dissolving grey.


Blind with the light of creation, softened

by the flares of stars in its purple rim.


In fathomless credulity, an unfamiliar dusk, we know.


The relentless scattering of hands, gorgon silt

celadon bodies that no longer return


but long to return.  

And may, one day. Formless.


All but a rind of salt, a veil of sand and muffled

dark.

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“Everything was fine, until we moved out together. My parents were saying ‘you’ll regret it, Jennifer’ and they were basically right. It turned out he was just extremely possessive piece of shit, I couldn’t go anywhere with my friends, because he was so freaking jealous. He didn’t even let me meet with my family. Once when I sneaked out to see my friend he was so mad he hit me, can you imagine? He apologized, but I promised if he will ever do it again, I’m moving out. And guess what, he did it again. So I kept my promise.”

“Jenn, that’s terrible… I’m sorry to hear that such a great girl like you had to be in a relationship like this. I’d love to kick that guy’s ass”

“You know I’ve never told anyone about it? I don’t know if it’s alcohol or I just really like you. I mean, like a friend of course”

“I’m deeply rooting for a second option”

Whenever I am with you, my palms would turn sweaty, my heart would race and my voice would be caught within my chest. I can’t keep my eyes off of you. Believe me, I could stare at you all day. I want to tell the world that you’re mine. I am always here whenever you need me. I would not hesitate to kiss you or hold your hand to uplift your spirits. Your presence alone never fails to make my heart skip a beat. I care about you. A lot. You are the only one I could of every single day. My heart aches and breaks when I see you sad. I know you are strong but I can’t help crying nonetheless to see you in pain. It damn hurts. I stay by your side because something holds and pulls me closer to you. I accept and love just the way you are. I don’t regret choosing you. My heart, my life and my death are all yours. I just love you.

a hundred random starters 

below are starters based on/inspired by various sources. change the genders as you see fit ;)

  • ❝ why do you keep lying to me? ❞
  • ❝ have you ever considered the idea that maybe, this world doesn’t revolve around you & your problems? ❞
  • ❝ love is love is love is love. ❞
  • ❝ marriage is an absurd arrangement. one is sold as a fifteen-year-old child and makes a vow one does not understand and then regrets for thirty years or more, and which one can never undo again. ❞
  • ❝ why are you crying this time? ❞
  • ❝ you will never escape. ❞
  • ❝ this isn’t what I wanted! ❞
  • ❝ everything has its consequences. ❞
  • ❝ this face bears the mission of heaven. ❞
  • ❝ no, you shall dismantle the house of lies, but build the temple of the divine. ❞
  • ❝ one copper coin for a bowl of noodles! ❞
  • ❝ that one has the heart of a lion. ❞
  • ❝ I needed to be summoned. ❞
  • ❝ there’s no reason for this hostility! I come in peace. ❞
  • ❝ they died screaming. ❞
  • ❝ why fight anymore? what’s the point of fighting against destiny? ❞
  • ❝ how long have you known? ❞
  • ❝ I can only speak for myself. ❞
  • ❝ the law can be changed. ❞
  • ❝ are you sure you’re not pregnant? ❞
  • ❝ your child is adorable! ❞
  • ❝ you gave him a riddle for his birthday? ❞
  • ❝ you have no fucking right to treat me this way. ❞
  • ❝ your ambition blinds you. ❞
  • ❝ he adores you. ❞
  • ❝ I feel like I should be shocked that you two had sex there, but I’m not anymore. ❞
  • ❝ she’s going to kill you. ❞
  • ❝ have you ever tried the cakes? they’re actually quite delicious. ❞
  • ❝ you’ll need to be punished. ❞
  • ❝ you should learn to lie better. ❞
  • ❝ sometimes I wonder if you’re real. ❞
  • ❝ I will take back what is mine & kill anyone who stands in my way. ❞
  • ❝ then kill me. ❞
  • ❝ there’s no such thing as love. there is only lust. ❞
  • ❝ you’re selfish. you never think about anyone but yourself. ❞
  • ❝ i’m sorry, but they’re gone. ❞
  • ❝ death is just another adventure. ❞
  • ❝ stop! ❞
  • ❝ let them watch. ❞
  • ❝ you have no shame, do you? ❞
  • ❝ I can’t believe we’re talking about this right now. ❞
  • ❝ I need advice. sex advice. ❞
  • ❝ alright, tell me the truth, is he good in bed? ❞
  • ❝ she is the best thing in my life. ❞
  • ❝ you love him? ❞
  • ❝ do you love me at all? ❞
  • ❝ do you believe in soul mates? ❞
  • ❝ please, you have to believe me. I didn’t kill anyone! ❞
  • ❝ history is written by the victorious. ❞
  • ❝ at least she has a heart! you have none. ❞
  • ❝ isn’t it more important that they told you? ❞
  • ❝ the king is displeased. ❞
  • ❝ long live your majesty! ❞
  • ❝ can you stop talking for just one moment & listen to me? ❞
  • ❝ no matter how hard I try, they just won’t stay dead. ❞
  • ❝ he’s a gold digger. he’ll screw anyone & marry them as long as they have money. ❞
  • ❝ o! how sweet love must be! ❞
  • ❝ do you really think that? ❞
  • ❝ quick, you need to hide before they see you! ❞
  • ❝ you taught me to never trust anyone. ❞
  • ❝ this is extreme, even for you. ❞
  • ❝ you guys were pretty loud last night. I guess it was good? ❞
  • ❝ that wasn’t an apology & you know it. ❞
  • ❝ are you a virgin? ❞
  • ❝ I’m married. ❞
  • ❝ best thing I ever did was marrying you. ❞
  • ❝ red roses won’t erase the fact that you broke my heart. ❞
  • ❝ stop taking all the ice cream! ❞
  • ❝ has anyone told you that you’re sort of a little bitch? ❞
  • ❝ it’s deep dish pizza. ❞
  • ❝ do you want to fight for your land back or not? ❞
  • ❝ I never realized how much of a coward you are. ❞
  • ❝ there’s nothing worse than someone who isn’t willing to try new things. ❞
  • ❝ haven’t you ever wanted to escape? to leave this place & explore the world? ❞
  • ❝ i think you’ve had enough to drink. ❞
  • ❝ your ancestors would be ashamed if they saw you. ❞
  • ❝ one of the dolls is missing! ❞
  • ❝ are we going to die here? ❞
  • ❝ well looks like we’ve found ourselves in a bit of a dilemma. ❞
  • ❝ I am no longer a child! ❞
  • ❝ the baby won’t stop crying! i don’t know what to do anymore! ❞
  • ❝ what if something happens to them? ❞
  • ❝ once upon a time, I gave a damn about what people thought about me. ❞
  • ❝ if he can get away with this, then so can i! ❞
  • ❝ the dark shall come & take everything you love from you. ❞
  • ❝ it’s the same story over & over again. you’d think people would know better by now. ❞
  • ❝ there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you. ❞
  • ❝ you are what is wrong with this world. ❞
  • ❝ shattered dreams can drive anyone mad. ❞
  • ❝ I am a phoenix. burn me & I shall return, rising from the ashes. ❞
  • ❝ this is my home. ❞
  • ❝ home is where the heart is, where you feel safe & warm & loved. ❞
  • ❝ running away has never solved a damn thing! ❞
  • ❝ fuck me. ❞
  • ❝ oh the things I’d do to you if we were alone. ❞
  • ❝ stop, he’s not here, remember? he’s gone & he can’t hurt you anymore. ❞
  • ❝ your husband/wife – is he/she good to you? ❞
  • ❝ stop & think a moment, you have to stay & rest. there’s a child who needs you now, you can’t just run & be a fucking idiot. ❞
  • ❝ once, I drank a whole bottle by myself. ❞
  • ❝ what do I want? I want to kiss you a thousand times before undressing you & kissing every bit of your flesh a thousand more times. ❞
I’m not a steady person. When I get angry I don’t yell, I give a cold shoulder. When I’m mad at myself I treat other people poorly. When I’m upset I push everyone away and regret it. I can’t stay mad at people who do me wrong for too long and I have way too much love to give. I can treat someone I love like I’ll never see them again or like my love for them never existed. No, don’t get me wrong, I love them, I really do. I just have an awful habit of destroying things I love because that’s what I learned from my parents.
Fight
  • Victor: the check please.
  • Yuuri [takes out wallet]:
  • Victor [credit card ready]: let me do it, honey.
  • Yuuri: you always pay for our dates, let me take care of it this time.
  • Victor: just let me pay for the meal.
  • Yuuri: why is it always like that with you. Always telling me what to do and then-
  • Victor: I wouldnt have to tell you what to do if you only knew what you're doing.
  • Phichit [knocks down a door]: shut the fuck up before one of you says some shit you'll both regret.
  • Phichit [swipes his card and pay]:
  • Phichit [leaves]:
  • Yuuri: I'm sorry, i didn't mean to call you bossy.
  • Victor: the fault is mine, I'm always doing stuff for you.
  • Yuuri [turns around]: you do know we can see you.
  • Phichit [disguising as wallpaper while recording]: don't mind me, I'm a wall.
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#we don’t talk about this beautiful boy’s insecurity enough #and we should #because isak valtersen blames himself for things that are out of his control #and he’s so blinded by this misplaced guilt that he can’t see #that bad things don’t necessarily happen because of him #(and that maybe he’s worth a small ounce of regret once in a while) #but he doesn’t need to apologize for something that is not his fault #and this small parallel was so important to me #because it’s just that #just a small little detail #but i was so glad someone finally told him that it’s not his fault #it’s not always his fault #and maybe from here on out #after everything he’s been through #after everything he’s accepted about himself #he’ll finally start loving himself enough to start believing that

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rakugaki

7

“Don’t trap me inside walls
Where I can’t see, no
If you won’t have me, then let me go”

gay with a vengeance: some more super gay covers for ur weekend

i still have no regrets. see part 1 here~

honorable mentions~

genderless, but can still be gay if you want it to: this cover of marry me & this cover of chasing cars

most jarring change of lyrics to make it str8: beautiful girls & the hills

and finally, in the category of “the heteros ruin everything”:

The Types as Last Words

ESTP- Hey, watch this!

ISTP- See? Who needs instructions?

ESTJ- I told you I was sick.

ISTJ- Don’t point that thing at me!

ENFP- Bet you I CAN!

INFP- Aww, it’s just a big kitty.

ENFJ- Why can’t we all be friends?

INFJ- Look out for what?

ESFJ- I’m probably going to regret this.

ISFJ- Be careful not to drop that.

ESFP- Just one more.

ISFP- No, they’re totally harmless.

INTP- Trust me, the physics say it’ll work.

ENTJ- That is absolutely not going to work.

ENTP- Eh, it’ll be fine!

INTJ- Huh?

Meta: Final Problem is John’s Dying Brain

In The Final Problem, a dying John is deducing both what happened to Sherlock’s sister, and his own heart.

This is a long scene by scene meta, but it’s taken me from a non-believer (we’ve been betrayed) to fairly convinced we’re going to see something else, a beautiful resolution. I have purposely not studied other people’s meta on this, to see whether we can independently come up with something similar. Plenty of evidence elsewhere that what we are seeing is NOT real.


John’s dying brain

So what do we see in John’s dying brain? It’s a mix of regrets, self-discovery and hope, wish-fulfilment and misunderstanding. In TFP John is deducing both what has happened to Sherlock’s sister (with a healthy dose of film lore - he’s been watching too many films), and also deducing what is happening in his own heart.

He sees Sherlock as in control, incredibly smooth and good-looking, much different from the very messed up, raw Sherlock we see in TLD. Perhaps Sherlock’s rawness and genuine concern is frightening for John.

He sees a Sherlock who values John for his contribution to cases, for being a solider. But he also starts to see the truth about Sherlock - a man who loves, him, Molly, Mycroft even.

He sees a man who has just sacrificed himself (the Governor) to save someone (his clearly loved wife) who dies anyway: Sherlock has sacrificed himself on multiple occasions (from TRF, to HLV, to his near-death experience in TLD), and all for nothing. John’s dying. Euros got them both.

Opening Scene on Plane
We open on a doomed aeroplane reminiscent of Bond Air. AKA The flight of the dead. John is the girl, on the plane. There is a girl who wakes up (John returning to sort-of consciousness after gunshot), she tries her mother with no response (John is very much alone - no family that we yet know of, yet). He knows he needs oxygen. The oxygen masks are down, yet the plane seems to be flying smoothly, no signs of an explosion. Everyone else has died from lack of oxygen to the brain, which is what will happen to him soon.

He gets on the phone which is ringing, looking for help. Moriarty is back. Sherlock has never explained why he believes Moriarty is dead, so this is a realistic fear for John. (John is maybe attempting to telephone for help, or contact Sherlock, perhaps Eurus is doing it for him, to make Sherlock suffer.)

John and Sherlock’s Hoax
This is all hoax sign-posting. We see Mycroft watching a (fake) film, which has lots of innuendo about an investigator and a young lady. Others have commented already. The dialogue refers to Christianity, Adam and Eve, and the start of all human misery. This may be relevant to the internalised homophobia affecting John. John is trying to get help from Mycroft at this point.

Mycroft tries to escape, trying the doors. (John’s remembrance of Eurus locking the doors, rather obviously in TLD). There follows an insane, nightmare-like sequences of film references which point to not just the hoaxing of Mycroft, but a wider hoax. This is John’s dying brain mixing up his favourite films: Mycroft with a sword, The Shining, clowns, the Bond film tune We have all the time in the world. We get a lot more of this imagery later.

Mycroft’s “Sherlock, help me” Is John in real life asking Sherlock for help for his gunshot wound.

221B and the Drone
“Memories can resurface, wounds can re-open, and yours have been waiting a very long time.” (Referring to John’s emotional wound, which has not been fully explored yet.)

We see Eurus’ jumper (turns out to be a cardigan) looks identical to a famous John jumper. From this point on we assume John = Eurus. The child checking their muscles could even be John - he did become a doctor. We see John’s memories of things Mycroft has said about Redbeard the dog, also possibly Sherlock’s heart, as well as Sherlock as a pirate. Mycroft has previously used both Redbeard and Sherlock as pirate as ways to demonstrate that Sherlock has a heart. Maybe this is John finally internalising it.

Lady Bracknell - set up for later, and a hint this is not real. Could be John wondering what will happen to his baby Rosie, who he has left with someone, presumably, whilst he goes to therapy. He doesn’t want to abandon her like Earnest was accidentally abandoned.

“Demons beneath the road” - this sounded literary so I google it. No luck. However, if we’re talking about fairy tales (and we are, they are mentioned elsewhere in TFP), a demon beneath the road could be a troll. Trolls are evil creatures which like to hand out below bridges (roads) in fairy tales. What is a troll? Someone who fishes from a line behind the boat, hoping the fish will snatch. Also someone who cleverly, deliberately and secretly upsets people, using fake stories and arguments in order to provoke an emotional response.

The drone bomb is known as the ‘patience bomb’ - because you have to keep still and patient. The Patience DX 707 is also the name of a clinical thermometer. Mycroft mentions he’s authorised the purchase of a few over the years… so I bet has John. At this point John is being treated by paramedics, they’re referring to him as the patient. They’re sticking a thermometer in him. He’s partially aware. He remembers his daughter (Sherlock - He’s got a daughter, might want to phone her. This could be happening in reality.) There’s also a flash of fire. Possibly a defibrillator?

And where do we go next? That’s right…

The Fishing Boat
John is remembering how Sherlock always wanted to be a pirate - he’s starting to figure out Sherlock’s heart. He’s surrounded by yellow jackets. Could be emergency services. John’s unconscious here. Sherlock, John and Mycroft are together, no sign of any injury though his brain is trying to tell him it’s not real - he’s in a story (the phone call about Mycroft being in hospital, when he’s on the boat - really they should ALL be in hospital after than explosion). This is such a dream sequence - explosion, then on a fishing boat, no injuries. I wonder if they’re in the same clothes (no time to check). Helicopter - background helicopter could be emergency services. Sherlock’s jump onto the boat, coat flying, is reminiscent of TRF. Sirens, alarms and lights could all be the ambulance/hospital.

Eurus’ Cell
Eurus’ cell is a prison within a prison. Eurus’ cell = John’s heart, what he has locked away. Eurus=John=scared child in plane. She gives Sherlock her violin. John knows that if he dies, Sherlock will need a new violin to express his emotions, as his has been destroyed in the (not real) explosion.

John imagines Sherlock playing Irene’s tune (if it really is), and imagines this shows Sherlock has had sex. He’s jealous. He still doesn’t understand.

John starts to deduce (he’s not stupid) how Eurus escaped and he’s struggling to communicate that in real life to Sherlock. He’s dying but he’s trying to keep Sherlock from further danger, and alert him to his own: Vatican Cameos. But his worst nightmare happens - Sherlock ignores Vatican Cameos. That would never happen.

Interestingly Eurus/John admits he had sex - with someone - didn’t know or care if it was a man or a woman. It broke them. John is bi. Not sure how it broke them.

So now Eurus/John is locked in a glass cell, rather like a glass closet - that place in Hollywood where gay actors and gay couples are known by insiders to be gay, but have not officially announced it.

But the glass isn’t real. When Sherlock get close, he finally realises that he can break through the glass wall. Eurus/John can escape his prison. The glass, incidentally, also says “Elephant Glass. Shock Proof”. John (in Eurus’ voice) realises that Sherlock can see a lot, but he has not been able to see the truth about John’s heart.

Then we have Moriarty doing a taunting emergency announcement, naming all sorts of films - hints this is all a creation of John’s mind as he deals with the trauma of dying (rather like Redbeard). The sequence becomes weird and crazy dreamlike. John sinks to a deeper level of unconsciousness, this is where we find Moriarty, like in Sherlock’s dying mind palace, right at the bottom.

John realises finally that Moriarty is gay. Which explains rather a lot about his interactions with Sherlock. Maybe he didn’t pick that up before. We also get the ‘I want to be free’ music sung by the most famous gay rock star in history, a gay anthem about wanting to be free. John/Eurus wants to be free of this cell he/she has voluntarily returned to.

Euros meets Moriarty: John deducing how Eurus escaped?

The Governor
We’re at 50% of the screenplay here. This should be a turning-point, or where the story becomes about something else, and I think it is where John starts to figure out love.

There are interesting parallels between John/Mary and the Governor and his wife. Either John or Mycroft have to kill to save the Governor’s wife (Mary). John asks himself, via the Governor, what he would do to get his wife back. John looks extremely uncomfortable, and ultimately will not sacrifice himself (or presumably Sherlock) just to save Mary. He tries and he tries. He tells himself he’s doing the right thing, the Governor is doing the right thing, but he can’t do it. “You’re doing a good thing. So are you.”

The Governor sacrifices himself to save his wife, but to no purpose - Sherlock has sacrificed himself so many times, and all for nothing - John is dying.

Eurus/John: We should have fitted you with a cardiograph… Want to see inside John’s heart, how does he really feel about his wife.

Then Eurus reveals this scene is not about saving Mary/Governor’s wide, but about revealing their hearts and emotions, and their morals. Mary/Governor’s wife dies anyway.

We then flick back to the plane sequence so quickly it’s impossible it could happen in real time, further proof it’s not real. Sherlock is very gentle with the girl/John. I think this is Sherlock talking to a dying John. John also sees now how Sherlock can be gentle when he cares, like at the end of TLD.

Three Garridebs
Such a disappointment for all the TJLC fans. The Garridebs were literally left dangling - in other words, they (and we) are being kept in suspense about them, this case, which is the most gay of the stories, and which we have all been waiting for.

The Buffalo Gun links to Buffalo Bill in Silence of the Lambs, and is problematic on its own.

But why are the Garridebs different? In Conan Doyle, the 3 Garridebs is actually a ridiculous, made-up story, as Sherlock notes in canon, full of discrepancies. Garrideb 1 is actually James Winter aka Killer Evans, who killed 3 men in the US. 2nd Garrideb is entirely made up so Killer Evans can get to the hidden forgery fake again equipment under his house. 3rd Garrideb is the only real one. But why do they have different names now? In canon we had Nathan, Howard, and ‘John’. John was the killer. In Sherlock we had Alex, Howard, and Nathan. Alex was the killer.

Sherlock’s deduction of the killer (John/Alex) is similar to his deduction of John being the shooter on their first night together, ASiP. 

Euros notes that the case itself doesn’t matter, she just wanted to see how Sherlock reacts to the people around him. John wonders what his position in Sherlock’s life is - he can help with guns, and military deductions. He has value. Interestingly Sherlock glances at John when he mentions being soldiers. Has John finally realised that Sherlock has an attraction to soldiers, that all the nice boys like a… soldier?

Coffin
The third problem - this is a complex, absolutely crucial scene.

Sherlock talks gently to girl/John/Eurus, trying to get clues. Mycroft wants to sacrifice the girl/John/Eurus for the greater good. Sherlock won’t.

Eurus/John: “Someone’s about to die.. Tragedy.. So many words unsaid et cetera et cetera.” Holy cow. That’s what John said to his other therapist, when Sherlock ‘died’, it’s what Sherlock was saying before going to his supposed death in the plane. John is realising here that what he and Sherlock have both not managed to say is: I love you.

This is not about Molly. It’s about the fact that John is about to die, and neither he nor Sherlock ever got the guts to tell each other how they really felt.

Everything Sherlock was deducing about the coffin would work for John too (in fact I thought it was, at first, great, double, triple, bluff)”  Short, practical about death (army doctor, suicidal), no close relatives, probably not much money, alone, unmarried.

Mycroft: “It’s for somebody who loves Sherlock.” 

John is eliminating candidates for Sherlock’s heart - is it Irene? No. Is it Molly?
Does Molly become a mirror of John here? Making tea, not having a good day - she looks ill. John’s having a bit of a bad day too. Sherlock’s full of complicated emotions John/Eurus can’t understand.

“I love you.” Sherlock says this to Molly, but also to John as he lies dying. Does John flat-line here?

But it’s all just a game. Real Molly wasn’t in danger. Sherlock refuses to accept he lost, that John is pretty much dead now. He calls it ‘vivisection’, referencing Silence of the Lambs again. John also sees Sherlock understands what he has done to Molly by taunting her and ignoring her over the years.

Empty Room
Possibly references The Empty House - the first Canon story after Reichenbach, and The canon Last Problem. John has possibly died.

John/Eurus now asking himself how important he is to Sherlock. He’s getting so close. Is he family or friend? Or both?

Via Mycroft he accepts that Sherlock needs him, John, more than anything in the world, but he still sees himself, via Mycroft, as a stupid little man. He eventually realises that Sherlock loves him whatever, and Sherlock doesn’t really think he’s stupid. 

Moriarty is mentioned by Eurus, specifically that he always wanted to see this.  John realises that Moriarty always knew what it took John so long to figure out - that John is Sherlock’s heart, the heart that will be burned out go him.

John sees Sherlock ready to sacrifice himself again to save John - and refers to the Governor, who tried to sacrifice himself to save his wife. John realises that if he dies, Sherlock will lose his will to live.

Then Eurus hits them all with tranquilliser darts. Because this is one weird, oxygen-deprived dream. John’s just been anaesthetised for surgery.

Wells and cells
We see John/Eurus in their matching jumpers again. Then Sherlock says “Are you there?”  to girl in plane, but it’s John (alsoEurus/girl in plane) who answers. John’s in the well - which is all very silence of the lambs again, he’s been unconscious for hours (I suspect he’s been in surgery).

“Are you okay?” says Sherlock, gently, raw, just like in TLD.

John is chained to the bottom of the well, in a scene far too reminiscent of Sherlock’s dying moment, in HLV at the bottom of his tower/stairwell (same shape), where Moriarty was chained at the bottom. But in John’s brain it’s him that’s chained, he can’t his own self that won’t let him escape and rise back out of the well/tower, to living a free, honest life. John is dead.

John discovers the bones of Victor/Redbeard. Does John deduce that the death of a dog wouldn’t have been enough to traumatise Sherlock to the extent that he forgoes love and affection for the next 30 years? John realises that Sherlock’s been held back from allowing himself to feel/declare love due to his childhood trauma, which has made him keep his psyche safe by not allowing love to enter. But he, John, is redbeard, Sherlock’s heart, and looks uncommonly like the little Victor. John has re-awoken Sherlock’s heart? (Not entirely sure on all this.)

Then Sherlock is trying to figure out how to get Eurus/John back. John is dead, drowning in the well - drowning in his own blood, and now floating above them, like in the plane. It’s the 80% structural turning point - the dark night of the soul.

Sherlock literally breaks the 4th wall of his cell.

There’s a few interesting comments I can’t quite figure out - “I am lost, who will find me?” Someone wants to causes trouble after her death (Mary?).

Fake gravestones - more gothic horror, but they, like the story, are not real. “Without your words,” says Eurus. “He will be gone.” Ostensibly referring to Victor, but in reality it’s John realising that only Sherlock saying he loves him can save him?

The Secret Room
Sherlock figures out that to save John and the girl, and Eurus, who are all in the same room, he has to find Eurus, John’s locked broken heart, and show it love.
The bleeps of the plane could well be medical bleeps as John starts to come back to life.

“I’m going to die,” says John.

In this insane story, John’s mind has created ‘the perfect metaphor’: He is ‘high above, all alone’ - he’s in a coma. But at last he understands everything about his heart and Sherlock’s. The only thing he doesn’t know is how to get back to consciousness from this coma.”You understand everything, except how to land.”

Sherlock: “No, it’s not too late… open your eyes. I’m here.. You’re not lost anymore.”

This refers back to John’s heartbreaking speech to Sherlock’s gravestone after TRF. “I was so alone, and I owe you so much.” And.. “There’s just one more thing… Don’t. Be. Dead.”

The End - John in a coma
We don’t find out exactly how John was saved, but I’m assuming it’s the realisation Sherlock loves him. Given that he’s raised from the well, like Sherlock taking the staircase in his death-well, but now his feet are miraculously not chained, I’m assuming John has now thrown off his internal/past wound chains that were keeping him trapped, and can now come out.

Then we return to Eurus’ cell - whether the real Eurus, or John’s hospital room is unclear. Mrs Holmes does her “Alive all these years?” Lady Bracknell impression. Could these be representative of John’s own parents, being found by Sherlock and brought to John’s bedside. Mycroft refers to Uncle Rudi again. Uncle Rudi is a German painting whose purpose was to whisper to German citizens about their own culpability in not challenging Nazism. Are John’s parents homophobic about his sister Harriet, and that stopped John ever coming out? But John’s/Eurus’ parents come through, or perhaps John comes through, for love of Rosie as well. The parents, whoever they are, accept their child, whatever they are (mad, crazy, broken, gay, bi, straight), and say  - we love you, whatever.

“I said I’d bring her home.” Not sure whether that’s Sherlock talking about John, to John, about Rosie, or about his real life Eurus sister.

Then we have Sherlock devotedly visiting Sherrinford prison to play the violin to his sister. OR, is he devotedly playing the violin to a comatose John, trying to get through to him by playing a song of love? It’s just John never realised what love ‘Irene’s song’ referred to. 

To me the final sequences - Sherlock playing to John  (that’s what you do to people in comas, isn’t it), and rebuilding Baker Street - are Sherlock painting the life they’ll have together when/if John recovers. A life of the adventure Sherlock always believed John wanted more than anything (the thing Sherlock believes John sees in him). He’s talking and playing John out of his coma, and, perhaps rebuilding John’s brain, just as they rebuild the battered, burned shell of 221B.

In the final episode, we will see John recover from a coma, the real 3 Garribeds moment (not the one they literally dangled in front of us), and the two of them dealing with Eurus. And as John won’t have actually consciously heard Sherlock’s declaration of love, and there’s still some misunderstandings, they’re both going to have to reveal their hearts.

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bios random em inglês:

you touched me and suddenly i was a lilac sky

worry less, smile more. don’t regret, just learn and grow

you can’t be fixed by the same person who broke you

real eyes realize real lies

when the stars go out you can rest your love on me

nothing is sweeter than the together we share

a certain darkness is needed to see the stars

we were born to be real, not to be perfect

is it true that pain is beauty

love in my arms and the sun in my eyes

she was like the moon, part of her was always hidden away

bios friendship/coulpe:

i wanna sleep In your arms @user

i promise to be your umbrella when life rains down on you @user

i love you and i’ll never leave your side @user

you were you, and i was i; we were two before our time @user

i was yours, before i knew, and you have always been mine too @user

you are a poem that breathes @user

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Falling in Love Again

Summary: Yuuri becomes incredibly honest when he gets his wisdom teeth removed and Viktor is having a wonderful time. Much fluff and other sweetness.

Pairing: Viktor/Yuuri, Viktuuri

I couldn’t get this idea out of my head after watching videos of people after getting their teeth removed. I myself was a riot after getting teeth removed, but my mom thought it would make her look bad to record me. I am full of regret.

“Mr. Nikiforov?” Viktor stopped bouncing his leg and quickly stood, his heart ceasing to beat for a moment. Getting your wisdom teeth removed certainly wasn’t anything to get too worked up over, but Viktor couldn’t but worry about his darling Yuuri. “Everything went smoothly; you can come back and see him now.” He breathed a sigh of relief. The Russian didn’t hesitate, grabbing his bag and proceeding into the back with the dentist. “He’ll probably be awake within the next few minutes. I’m sure you’re already aware of this, but he may be a little… odd when he does.” Viktor, of course, already was aware and he had come prepared.

The doctor led him to a room at the end of hall and instructed him to call if anything seemed wrong to which Viktor agreed and thanked him. As the door closed, he put is bag down on the extra chair and walked around the front of the chair to where his darling sleepy beauty rest. Yuuri’s head was slumped against his shoulder; his cheeks swollen and stuffed full of cotton. Viktor could have died. He looked like a squirrel who had been just a tad over ambitious when gathering nuts. The Russian struggled to hold in his laughter; he could feel it expanding in his chest as he sat down next to Yuuri. As much as he wanted to take a picture, he knew it was much more important to first ensure the well being of his fiancé.

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Theory

Now that I’ve watched it for the umpteenth time, 

I don’t think Taemin killed them? I think it was a genuine accident. When the car blows up, you can see 4 of them running to the car in a panic, and if you match their clothing, it is SHINee minus Minho. Taemin was running too. 

And if you match them to the lyrics,  

“Indifferent and painful words
Left deep scars on that day
Words that made me realize
That I’m still a fool

If only I can erase it
If only I can

I’ll go to you first

At the end of a different road.”

I think Minho and the girl died and Taemin regrets fighting with them just before their last moments, like the last memories that he holds of them is of them fighting and he hates that (if only he could erase it). I think different road here means the road to heaven/resurrection/the like. 

“I took you for granted
But just thinking of you not being there
I don’t want to go through that
My world would crumble”

What is seen can never be unseen
  • Seven: *throws open door to Zen's room with a shit eating grin* aha! you two are having se-
  • [truth of the matter was they really were]
  • Seven: shit, just wanted to make a joke, I regret my whole life, I wish I was never born but never mind me, continue please. I definitely didn't just see that zen does in fact have a tattoo on his ass,nope didn't see a thing
  • [he then disappeared off the face of the earth for a very long time]

657: Bulletproof Heart (My Chemical Romance)

FOR THIS THEME WEEK I THOUGHT I’D TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT.
Basically I’ll draw a creature based off a song that you share with me per request box message. Thought it’d be interesting to hear your music choices while doing something in uncharted territory, if that at all makes sense!

Soooo, for this song I made a desert-dwelling fallen angel(seraphim), regretful of their rebellious choices and protecting humanity from their extended family. 

I can explain more but this is enough type already. Can’t wait to see what you request!

Here Is The Song