the thing about ‘draw it again’ is that no one fucking tells you that as a kid
or ok they didn’t tell me, not until I was in college
but look you’re a kid and you see artwork in comics, you see animation, you see illustrations in books and on posters and just everywhere and no one tells you how much fucking work went into those things so you assume they just sprung from the ether fully formed and then you try to mimic that, to do everything perfect the first time, so you never build the habits of doing the Steps, the long planning process, because you don’t fucking SEE that part, you see the finished product
its why I love social media because now! now you can see how much FuCkING wORK people do to make comics and animation and illustrations. People post their works in progress and its so fucking validating to know that the shit they do isn’t just perfect the second they create it. It Takes Revisions and Planning, and that still blows my mind, I’m still unlearning so many goddamn assumptions about how this shit gets made and that just adds to my fucking problem, because on top of having all these natural deficiencies that contribute to my inability to Do Thing, I’m also still learning how to do thing
its like I taught myself how to sprint and got pretty good at it but what I needed to learn is how to survive a fucking marathon
how??? do you fix years of focusing on the WRong Shit??? on top of having no motivation, throat-closing anxiety and the attention span of a gnat???