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Joker Imagine - Used & Tortured PART 2

Anonymous said:can you pleaseplease please do a sequel to “used and tortured” where y/n finally grasps the courage to tell J who did it and he tortures him and gets revenge? its probably really lane but i just love it sm

Part 1 *click me*

NOTE: The bad character/kidnapper in this imagine is just someone I made up.

Originally posted by mysteryof-darkness

Joker’s P.O.V.

I was all alone again. She wasn’t here by my side. Half of our bed was cold. Y/N was just gone

Our penthouse seemed colder without her here. So I was outside as much as possible. ‘’Y/N!’’ I yelled loudly, feeling a mix of emotions running through my veins. Feelings I hated. Anger, misery, pure rage and confusion. It was dark. So dark that I couldn’t see. I only felt things. Now I was cold. ‘’Y/N!’’ I tried again, but my only answer was my own echo.

Suddenly I felt tired, really tired. A light came out of nowhere, beaming on the ground in front of me. I saw a lifeless body. It was Y/N. ‘’No’’ I growled and stepped closer. My legs were heavier as I got near the body. She was naked, full of bruises and bleeding wounds. Then I saw her eyes, dull like a doll’s eyes. She looked dead.

I collapsed on my knees next to her and let her blood soak my clothes. ‘’Who did this to you?!’’ I shrieked out loudly, feeling a stinging pain in my body. I wasn’t an expert on naming these sad feelings. ‘’Speak to me’’ I demanded, but she didn’t. I put my hand on her face and I held my breath in agony. Instead of seeing her normally, her face fell apart in my hands. My eyes widened and I let go immediately. What the hell?

‘’J! Snap out of it!’’ Her lifeless body told me. I stood up and looked at her in confusion. ‘’You’re..’’ I tried to speak, but then my mouth felt like it was glued shut. ‘’Wake up’’ She told me again. Suddenly my vision blurred until I saw nothing but darkness. I opened my eyes and now I was in a safer place, our bedroom.

Y/N was right in front of me and she seemed worried. Her hand was on my cheek and her body was close to mine, under the same warm blanket. We were home. Right, we found her. She’s safe now. ‘’Was it a nightmare?’’ She broke the silence, bringing me back to reality. God it felt good to see her there instead of waking up alone with an awful unsure feeling.

Y/N was the only one who could make the voices in my head go away.

‘’Something like that’’ I sighed, not wanting to admit it to her. Then I pulled her body closer so I could be as close to her as I could without hurting her. She scented like her favourite shampoo because we took a real long bath before going to bed. Then I recognized gunpowder and my cologne. It killed me to think that I didn’t take care of her better. I was so stuck with my criminal job that I totally ignored Y/N and she got kidnapped. Damn I’d tear those men limb by limb the second I could. They’d regret hurting my queen. I repeat my queen.

‘’J’’ She whispered quietly, making me look into her pretty E/C eyes. It relieved me to see that glimpse of life in them. ‘’Yes?’’ I purred tiredly then gently running my fingers across her bare arm. ‘’I remember what they called the boss’’ She admitted, kinda surprising me because I didn’t expect to hear that in the middle of the night. Bloodthirst and anger ignited in my heart as I remembered.

‘’Tell me’’ I demanded seriously, ready to get up and get those motherfuckers now. ‘’Cosmo’’ She whispered to me. First it didn’t ring any bells, but when she continued, I saw his ugly face in my mind. ‘’He had a jacket with ‘newblood’ written on it. Then he had red hair and yellow contact lenses’’ Y/N continued with a fragile voice. The girl who was usually so happy and crazy was now so small and broken. It made me so angry. So fucking full of hatred. 

‘’Cosmo’’ I growled and then sat up in bed. Cosmo was a stupid wannabe gangster. He came to Gotham a while ago with his little squad and they made ‘newblood’. They wanted to get rid of the biggies like me so they could take over Gotham.I should have guessed! ‘’I’m going to kill him’’ I promised Y/N and got up. I was ready to leave now. 

‘’J’’ She said my name a little louder. I groaned and turned to look at her. She was covering her almost naked body with the purple blanket. I tried my best to stay as calm as I could, but it was hard. Most people knew that I had trouble controlling myself. ‘’Where are you going?’’ Y/N asked me. I looked away from her and grabbed my black jeans from the end of the bed. ‘’I’m going for a ride baby. Don’t worry I’ll be back soon with a surprise’’ I promised her, but I sounded a little wicked. I could already picture how I’d torture that sad pathetic piece of shit in my mind.

‘’I don’t want to be alone’’ She told me and looked away, almost like she was ashamed. It made me stop doing what I was doing. Y/N was really sad, like so sad that it was hard to understand. I didn’t know what to do. ‘’You’re safe here you know that’’ I tried to reassure her. Suddenly she faced me with glistening eyes. ‘’I’m coming with you’’ She let me know. ‘’You sure you want to?’’ I cleared my throat and then crawled back in bed. I put my hands on her face and looked deep in her eyes. I could tell that she was scared, yet she nodded.

‘’Let’s go kick his ass’’ She tried to smile. Although she had gone through that, she still had to spark of cruelty in her soul. ‘’That’s my girl’’ I smiled back, happy that she wanted to come. Damn Cosmo would be sorry and so would his men.


Frost had been nice enough to gather my best henchmen and we were now at the hideout for the ‘newbloods’. It was a stupid of building at the west side of the city close to the old factories. We were going there with seven black cars with me, Y/N, Frost and four more men in the lead. I was dressed in my black pants, my maroon button up shirt and my silver jacket. Then I had the perfect torture plan in my head, driven my anger and the hunger for revenge. 

Frost parked the car near the doors and I hurried outside. Y/N and I were surrounded by my goons as we all got ready. I bet Cosmo noticed us already and he was behind a window wetting his pants. ‘’Knock knock!’’ I yelled loudly, loading my gun that I would use to hurt him, not kill him. Oh no shooting him would be too kind. He’d be tortured so bad he’d wish he was never born.

‘’It’s polite to open the door since we don’t want to barge in’’ I yelled again, but the truth was that I was more than happy to explode the door and the wall around it. Nothing came back. So I looked at a goon dressed in a batman suit and I gave him a nod. You see fake batsy had a rocket launcher. Everyone stepped back to a safe distance and then we watched. A few seconds later he launched the deadly gun and a loud explosion ruined the door completely. I giggled happily as I saw fire and a few of Cosmo’s goons burning on the ground.

‘’Let’s get him boys!’’ I declared loudly and then most of us hurried inside. I grabbed Y/N’s hand because I wouldn’t dare to lose sight of her. She grabbed my hand a little tighter and then we went inside as well. Oh no one, I mean no one would get away with disrespecting my queen. The only person I actually cared about besides myself. Cosmo Cosmo, such a shame he was so dumb.

My goons did the job for us, making it easy to find Cosmo. They shot every single man under Cosmo’s command. Soon he’d just give himself to us. The place smelled like drugs, dirt and blood. Gunshots echoed through the dark building as men fell down dead. Y/N and I could just walk though smoothly. I kept glancing at her tho, because I was worried. She looked a little nervous, but she wanted this.

‘’Cosmo!’’ I called out for him. We all stopped on the second floor with loads of guns, dead bodies, cameras, dirty beds and locked doors. I saw cocaine bags and it smelled like it too. As the gunshots calmed down I heard women’s cries. Not that I was a saviour or anything but I couldn’t help but to think of Y/N. Just two days ago she was here, behind those doors. It made my anger ten times worse. ‘’Let them out for fuck’s sake. He can’t keep anything’’ I spat harshly to some of my goons. They nodded and walked to the doors. Then I looked around angrily, scanning everything I could.

Then I saw a door just a little better than the others. I knew that the rat was hiding there. So I walked over and shot the lock a few times. ‘’Come out come out’’ I growled and kicked the door open. My goons ran inside first, but I followed closely. There was was, trying to get out the window.Oh hell no. I ran over, letting go of Y/N’s hand at the same time. Then I grabbed Cosmo’s black leather jacket and pulled him inside and smashed him on the floor. He landed on his back and yelled like a little girl.

Now that I saw him like this I felt like I could kill him right here and now. He was so dirty, full of sin. He hurt my girl. He touched her! I couldn’t even say anything until mu anger got the best of me. I started punching his ugly face. I wanted to smash his skull into a billion pieces. He coughed out blood after a few punches, but I kept going.  ‘’How does it feel like? Huh?’’ I hissed and grabbed his jaw tightly, making him look up to me. My breathing got heavy and I felt like a wild animal. Cosmo was panting , but he didn’t reply.

Then I punched his nose so hard that I could hear and feel it breaking under my touch. ‘’You have no idea what I’m going to do to you’’ I laughed darkly. After beating his face until he bled a lot, I cupped his cheeks. ‘’We’ll have a good time, right?’’ I snickered, wiping away some blood from his face. Cosmo tried to speak, but I covered his mouth and nose, not letting him breathe.

‘’I’d love to kill you right now, but I have better plans’’ I pouted, speaking slowly.Cosmo tried to hit me so he could breathe, but I slapped him. It was really hard not to kill him on the spot, but I knew it would be too easy for him. So I got up and let my henchmen take him to the torture room back home. I turned to look at Y/N. I couldn’t tell if she was happy or disgusted perhaps scared.

‘’You’re bleeding’’ She told me. Then she walked over and grabbed my hand, showing me my knuckles. She was right. ‘’It’s worth it’’ I shrugged and then took a deep breath. Y/N kissed my hand gently and then hugged me. It took me back a little bit, but I didn’t mind. It took me a few seconds to hug her back, even tho I didn’t tend to show affection on heists. This one just happened to be different.

‘’Thank you’’ She whispered gratefully. I just nodded and ran my fingers through her soft hair. I’d do anything for this girl, but I didn’t know how to say it out loud. Even tho I was bad at showing my feelings, she could tell. She didn’t need normal love, because she could read the little signs. ‘’Now let’s go home. I’m sure you want to get your sweet revenge’’ 


A/N: Haaaaa I actually think that..this has to continue in part 3 :)

anonymous asked:

Ok a fives company question: what little quirks/habits do they all find cute ab each other?? (Also this fic kinda ruined me like now all I wanna read is poly!hamilsquad anD THERES NOT ENOUGH FICS!!!)

girl me too. i’m doing my best to supply for the poly ship but i am only one person. i can’t do it alone. 

i have so many but here’s just some major ones!


  • when he sews, makes this face. he gets really concentrated and he kind of bites his lip and furrows his eyebrows together and he just looks really cute. you all know it as The Look and you always tease him about it.
  • can fall asleep anywhere
  • carries around stain removers/mini sewing kits/first aid kits bc he cares too much about you all
  • he doesn’t just say “red” or “orange”. he’ll say, ”look at that scarlett blouse” or that “blood orange necklace.” he can never just say blue. he’ll say robin’s egg. it’s really cute to you all. he just knows a lot of colors.


  • has a habit of mumbling out loud when he’s writing. sometimes he mumbles sentences in his sleep. it’s cute. he corrects himself until he falls asleep. 
  • talks a lot during movies. mostly cracks jokes but when he starts to question the accuracy of the movie, you gotta tell him to shhhhh.
  • most likely to correct your grammar mid-sentence. it’s out of love. he just really pays attention to words and is not at all trying to belittle you at all!
    • “i just felt so nauseous -” 
    • “you mean nauseated.” 
    • yeah, nauseated. so i asked if i could go home early.”


  • taps his pencil a lot along the desk when he’s thinking. usually, herc can make a song out of whatever beat he’s making. (herc is your resident freestyler.) 
  • if it’s incessant, that’s how you know he’s very stressed. usually you hold his hand so he can calm down a little.
  • when he doodles, he hums. sometimes laf hums with him.


  • when he was first learning english, he would sometimes mix up idioms/sayings. it’s so precious though. 
    • example! phrases like “she has a green thumb” confused him.
    • you: “yeah! eliza gardens in new york! isn’t that amazing? she has a green thumb” 
    • laf, looking at you with concern: “do you have one too, mon cher?”
    • you, giggling: “no! no! it’s an expression, gil!” 
  • from my fic you know when laf first wakes up, he’s usually stuck in french. that’s why he prefers to get ready with alexander. it just makes it easier. 

all four boys sing in the shower. it’s very cute and makes mornings more fun.

Brave Hands (Jisoo)

Type: Fluff 

~Note: reader is shorter~

Jisoo smiled as you bounced on your toes “I love you” he says as he cups your cheeks lightly “I can’t believe you’re going off to college” he whispers as he kisses your lips. “I worry you’ll find someone better than me” he coos as you shake your head no. “Will you two knock it off” Joohyuk calls as he looks over from his seat on the couch “I don’t trust you alone with her at your own apartment but at the same time I hate how you guys have to be all cutesy when you’re here” he mumbles. 

“How about we go out then?” you ask as you tug on Jisoo’s sleeve. “Yeah?’” he said tugging on your hips and brings you close rubbing your nose against his. “You aren’t going public until you guys have been dating longer than a year” Joohyuk says as you glare at him “you’re so demanding and annoying big brother” you tell him. “You need to have a life before you get buried in fame for dating an actor” your brother tells you “because I haven’t been stuck on the my big brother’s famous train already” you mumble.

“I just won’t hold her hand then. You and I can go out as ‘friends’ right?” he asked as you nodded “we’re gonna go out then and get something to eat” you sag. “Bring me something back” he calls out as you make a call back saying you will.


“I really want to sit beside you” Jisoo tells you as he sat across from you “you can sit beside me” you say as he picks his fork “no if I do that I will want to wrap my arms around you” he flirts as you chuckle. “So cheesey” you tell him as he smiles resting his head against his hand before he rested his hand in the middle of the table. He gave you a look before he looked back at his hand.

You gave him a look as you lightly rested your hand near his and let your fingers touch slightly. You two made small talk as his fingers wrapped more around yours as time went by. Only before he got braver and rested his hand onto yours “you’re being brave” you say lightly in a sing song voice as he laughs softly. “I can’t help it” he says as he lightly squeezes your hand.

“I don’t mind public knowing about us” you tell him as he squeezes your hand a bit harder. “No yet” he says as you smile but nod at him. “Soon” he continues “I’ll tell the whole world about you” he promises as you smile at him. “Can’t wait to hold your hand in public” you say “neither can I” he say as you give him a light wink and got back to your food.

ok so i know there has been a lot of hype over danny phantom possibly coming back lately and all, which i would like bc it was one of m fav shows as a kid and it really is a great show. 


i am very very very scared that the fanbase is gonna start a lot of shit. i’ll provide context

ok, so i know shipping wars are common in every fandom, the biggest 3 i can think of that i am in/have been in are hetalia, steven universe, and homestuck. now, think about the amount of discourse caused in those 3 fandoms over shipping combined. the danny phantom fandom doubled that. 

here’s how it all started; a while back on a forum, someone asked butch hartman (creator of dp) what he thinks about shipping and fanfics. he replied “i dont care, as long as it’s not gay”. now, you can imagine the amount of trouble that comment caused ALONE. but it gets worse. 

because of this, a lot of homophobes were attacking yaoi fangirls who shipped vlad and danny (mind you vlad is old enough to be danny’s father). basically it was this huge argument which reached vriska levels of discourse. and BOTH sides were in the wrong. on one side, you had the homophobes, on the other, the girls who fetishize gay men. yikes, it was literally the worst.

now, imagine that shit restarting again, COMBINED with the homophobic statement from the shows creator, the amount of discourse that would cause surpasses the su critical stans. it would be even worse if it happened today, fandom culture has become a lot more violent in the last few years, you’ve seen how people get over steven universe and bismuth and all (not wrongfully so but there is still a line). there’s a lot of reaching too, a lot of pointing fingers and blaming. fanbases kind of seem to do this thing now where they act cocky in their perfect morality, and what with callout culture and all the heavy shit people seem to love to pull over p much nothing (remember that time an artist almost killed themselves bc the fans were being so dramatic over the work? or the other 20 times that happened?) if this shit starts going down again, it will be worse than even su critical istg

so yeah, i want the show to come back, but im afraid that if that discourse is reignited today, there may be some legit consequences, like actual suicide instead of just barely dodging a bullet. theres enough toxic negativity in fandom spaces that legitimately do damage to peoples psyche (su critical stans again) as it is. i cannot imagine the pure amount of BULLSHIT we will slug through if this starts up again. god forbid there will be any “dp critical” blogs that complain about how jaz is homophobic or something.

anonymous asked:

As someone who's familiar with the world of Ivalice, is there an explanation for Bhujerba's deep, twisting mines? I mean, I know it's a giant floating continent, but is it really That big? I'm running through the Lhusu mines and it seems insane that there's this many tunnels beneath the city. (also, I wonder how long until the city collapses?)

I would actually say that the Lhusu Mines are bigger than what we see in the game, even accounting for all the extra areas you can unlock in XII’s endgame.

Magicite is Bhujerba’s main export, making the Lhusu Mines the crux of the city-state’s economy: Bhujerba’s many professions include miners, maintenance workers, parivir (a Sanskrit word used here to refer to warriors who guard the miners from monsters), and traders. Few specifics are ever given on Bhujerban history, but one NPC in the city claims that House Ondore alone has ruled Bhujerba for “many centuries.” It’s reasonable to assume, then, that the mines have been in use for a considerable amount of time - and not once in all of XII’s lore is it ever mentioned that the mines are close to depletion.

The mines also seem to be the center of Bhujerban folklore as well. The Diabolos hunt is a great example of this: it emphasizes that entire legends have sprung up out of sightings of monsters deep in the mines, that tales of such monsters have persisted perhaps for centuries, and that Bhujerbans relied on supernatural explanations to explain the presence of particularly powerful creatures before there was a scientific understanding of magicite’s effects on monsters. Something that captivates public superstition even after possibly centuries is likely to be enormous.

There’s never been word on when Bhujerba may or may not fall. If you’re someone who believes in the Ivalice Alliance as a start-to-finish timeline instead of a collection of unrelated games with similar mythos, then the original Tactics includes references to floating continents and implies that at least some of Dorstonis still exists twelve hundred years into XII’s future.

That said - sort of a tangent to your questions, but hey - one of my favorite facts about Bhujerba is that it’s entirely possible to fall from the skycity, which is miles and miles in the air, and survive. You meet one NPC who has done exactly that on the Phon Coast, though he’s lost his memory as a result. So I like to think that if a time does ever come when Bhujerba falls from the sky, everyone still living there will end up okay.

And don’t tell me you don’t wish to fight; for the moment you tell me that, you are already fighting; nor that you don’t know which side to join, for while you are saying that, you have already joined a side; nor that you wish to remain neutral; for while you are thinking to be so, you are so no longer; nor that you want to be indifferent; for I will laugh at you, because on pronouncing that word you have chosen your party. Don’t tire yourself in seeking a place of security against the chances of war, for you tire yourself in vain; that war is extended as far as space, and prolonged through all time. In eternity alone, the country of the just, can you find rest, because there alone there is no combat. But do not imagine, however, that the gates of eternity shall be opened for you, unless you first show the wounds you bear; those gates are only opened for those who gloriously fought here the battles of the Lord, and were, like the Lord, crucified.”?
—  Juan Donoso Cortes, Essays on Catholicism, Liberalism, and Socialism

Once back at camp, Adalen found Sevella and asked to speak to her privately. She was concerned about Alira and her growing hatred. And she thought that Sevella should know what she said to her and Tegon.

Adalen: “I just thought you should know what she had said. And also, that I think she was just waiting for an opportunity to speak to Tegon alone. She tried the entire time we were coming here to get me to agree with her, and I refused. Now, I guess she is trying her luck with Tegon.”

Sevella: “She already tried to convince me of Brennan’s sinister motives as well. She is lost in her pain. I would feel bad for her if it wasn’t for some of the things she said. I can’t look past them.”

Adalen: “And you shouldn’t. I’m not trying to cause more trouble, I just thought you should know. And also……I think maybe we should keep an eye on her. She is not herself.”

Sevella: “You may be right. Talk to Tegon as well, if you would. We’ll watch her. Just in case.”

ooc: Are you feeling very strained and tired out? Don’t worry, go ahead and take a nap. Or enjoy your favorite game or movie, you’ve earned it!

Feeling very slow with your replies and anxious that you’re feeling behind? Take your time, really! You’re completely fine! This is a hobby, you know. Enjoy it when you want to and rest when you need it!

Not having a good week at all? It happens, shit does happen a lot. You’ve made it through the week though, and that’s what matters. Keep going because I believe you can do it, all of my support is here for you! 

Sometimes rpers, artists, writers, and multiple people get tired out and stressed- but you know what? It’s completely fine! It’s alright to say sorry a lot, or if you’re in a bad mood, or if you’re feeling sad. You’re ok, please don’t think that you’re alone! 

You’re perfect as you are, and as much as it feels that things aren’t perfect or upbeat now, keep going! You’re doing wonderfully and i’m proud of you. 

My Self Care Routine: No tub, No Money, No Effort

As some of you probably know, I live with my partner and our cat. And together we share a 32 square meters, one room appartment. Fortunately, we’ve grown accustomed to being around eachother a lot. But it does make it difficult to unwind, and have that essential bit of alone time in our lives.

So here’s what I do. This method requires almost no money (none at all, if you already have these things on hand). It’s easy, simple, and you can do it while you shower.

What do you need:

🌹A shower (obviously).
🌹Scented oils/essential oils/or wax melts.
🌹A wax/oil burner.
🌹Your fav playlist with relaxing music.
🌹Candles (optional).
🌹Shower products of your choice.

I like to light a few candles, and turn the lights off in the bathroom. Because it calms my mind, This is especially soothing if I’m having one of those days when I feel particularly overwhelmed.

You can use any kind of scent that you like. But I feel like oil or wax burners are more effective than incense, in such a steamy space. A couple of scent combinations that I would recommend are peppermint/orange, raspberry/eucalyptus, or lavender/vanilla. But use what ever makes you feel calm.

Take your phone, and find some relaxing music. If you use the firefox app, you can play music on youtube. And the music will continue to play, even after you turn off the screen. One of my favorite playlists for this is Joy of Life, by Karunesh.

For at least the first 10-15 min, I like to sit on the floor in a comfortable position (use a stool if you need to). And start with a hot shower, as the heat relaxes the muscles.
I find this a good moment to ground myself.
I close my eyes, and either reflect on the things that I’m struggling with. And how I can improve them.
Or on the chores that I’d like to finish around the house, before the day is over. Which gives me a feeling of purpose and accomplishment.
If I’m mentally stuck in a BPD induced downward spiral. I say these critical thoughts out loud. When you hear these words from your own mouth. It makes you realize how stupid and unrealistic they sound. And I counter act them with reasons, why they’re untrue. And that really helps to pull myself back into reality.
It’s also a good moment to practice meditation or mindfullness. If you feel up for it

When I feel like my mind has cleared. I gradually turn the water colder, untill it’s somewhere around warm/luke warm. To prevent myself from feeling drowzy. From standing under a hot shower for too long. And I continue with my regular shower routine. I usually do this when I need to wash my hair. So I add in some extra self care. Like scrubbing my face/body, cleaning myself extra well, extra hair products… that sorta stuff ^^

For me, it really helps. And it gives me that extra oompf, to face the world again. I hope it was also helpful to you. Or that it least gave you some inspiration. We all have different needs, in the end. So feel free to customize this routine to your own liking :)

anonymous asked:

Hello there, sorry to bother you lol. I was wondering if you could give me some advice, I don't know how long exactly I have been sad, but I feel like I can never be happy. I don't think I've ever really even been happy. I have no one and I'm so alone, I just I don't want to be here a lot of the times. Anyway, my question for advice is what should I do?

Hey. I guess there’s no real formula for happiness. You just have to want to be happy. And happiness as a concept is so vague. I might be mildly pleased by something small and that’s my reason to have a moment of happiness. Or I might be ecstatic because I achieved a goal or something of great significance has happened to me. Happiness is we deciding to grasp every small moment and making the best of it. Look for small things that make you happy and the greater things will take care of itself.

Hope I was able to help you, even if in the smallest way possible ☺

anonymous asked:

From your blog alone, I can tell you're busy and sarcastic. Plus, you have great friends. You're caring as well, with all that you post for other people and have fun with their characters. Just from your blog, the impression makes me want to be best friends with you.

Originally posted by fuckyeahthenotoriousbig

Anon you sound like you’ve been following me for quite a while haha. I care a lot about my friends and enjoy seeing what they do with their creations. I wish i had more time to interact with more people on here tho. Everything’s pretty on point, especially the busy part =3=;

I was tagged by @vickysnest

ABC Tag Game

A - age: 29
B - biggest fears: Loss of limb, ending up alone, loss of vision
C - current time: 12:49pm
D - drink you last had: Water
E - every day starts with: My alarm clock and a few grumbles
F - favorite song: Ahhhh, there are so many.  Currently, Ayreon - Everybody dies, because it was just released.
G - ghosts, are they real?: I suppose it’s possible, but I don’t think they can have any real physical impact on the world.
H - hometown: Not going to put it out there on the net :P
I - in love with: My boyfriend who I will affectionately refer to as man-pillow on here.
J - jealous of: Lottery winners, rofl.  And people with stable income or enjoyable jobs.
K - killed someone: I’ve been told I have the power to kill with my eyes alone at work.  So possibly a few customers and/or coworkers.
L - last time you cried: Two days ago when I watched The Red Turtle.
M - middle name: Sarah.  I’m not a fan of it.
N - number of siblings: One
O - one wish: That I am able to continue creating art and costumes for many years to come.
P - person you last called/texted: Sir man-pillow.
Q - questions you’re always asked: I get asked cosplay construction questions on occasion.  Other than that I’m not sure.
R - reasons to smile: The sound of rain, birds chirping, reviews on stories, yummy food, successfully completing something whether it be art, story, or cosplay.
S - song last sang: Ayreon - Sail Away to Avalon (it’s an Ayreon day apparently)
T - time you woke up: 9:30, but went back to bed for a bit and lazed about.
U - underwear color: Green and grey striped, lol I had to look.
V - vacation destination: Last one: Germany/Amsterdam, Next one: Hopefully one of the six flags parks (Magic Mountain), because X-2 here I come.  That ride looks boss.  Alternatively, New Zealand.
W - worst habit: I bite my nails and also scratch away at the skin around them quite a lot.
X - x-rays had: I think I’ve only had teeth x-rays, other than when I was a baby and had a full body scan of some kind.  I’ve had an ECG as well, though that’s not really the same.
Y - favorite food: Peanut Curry
Z - zodiac sign: Taurus

I’ll tag @thegreensorceress, @nelioe

Don’t do it if you don’t want to though :)

air (gemini,libra and aquarius) is like… i wanna be alone and do my own thing but with you there?and you can do your thing. and i’ll just be here.
because its good to to have someone to talk to all the time and bounce ideas back and forth from and break free from the constant inner dialogue, but don’t fence me in … i need lots of air space around me…. lol

My personal head cannon is that Carmilla kept her childhood home and would occasionally hide away there when ever she wants to be left alone.  All the locals obviously think it’s haunted and won’t go anywhere near it.  Anyways, after saving the world, she takes Laura there.  Laura wakes up early and takes that opportunity to explore the place (even though Carmilla told her not to wander off by herself because the place is old and some parts aren’t entirely structurally sound).

If I had and capacity for writing I’d give you an accompanying fic, but I don’t so instead you get an illustration. 

P.S. My full portrait of Mircalla can be found here

nothing hurt more than when I saw a picture of you and her. You barely ever took photos with me, let alone post them. And here you were posting pictures with this girl you barely knew, and I tried not to hate her, I tried not to hate you. But my insides felt like they were ripping apart at the sight of  you. And I knew this was going to happen eventually, I guess I was just hoping it wouldn’t.  
and its just so fucking pathetic, while I’ve spent all this time missing you.. you spent it with her. You never even thought of me once.
And all I can fucking do is imagine the way that you talk to her, its probably the same way I talked to you., like you were made out of the sun or something.
And I just don’t fucking understand how one person can leave such a huge mark on you when you can’t even leave a fucking scratch on them. Because you left me and I still see you every fucking where, and I never made you feel a damn thing. you never even cared for me.
I just want it to stop, I want it all to stop. I want to stop feeling every burning fire for you. I want to stop thinking of every word you said to me, I want to stop analyzing every little part of our relationship in trying to figure out where the fuck we went wrong because I get it now. I understand..
a relationship is always doomed to end in heartbreak when there is one person who loves more and in our case, I was always the one who loved more, and now it just hurts so bad because you love her. You love her even though I wanted you to love me.. even though I gave you every fucking piece of me. You chose her.
It will never be me and you. I was never enough, and the thought of that alone breaks me into a million pieces, so how the fuck am I supposed to feel when I realize why I wasn’t enough. When I see the face of the girl who was enough..
—  I don’t think I’ll ever get over you
Winter starters because I still can't help myself 🌨❄️🌧

“I’ve never been ice skating before…”

“I hate winter.”

“It’s supposed to snow today!”

“We’re snowed in…”

“We can spend Christmas alone together if you want.”

“What do you want for [holiday celebration]?”

“Santa just scares me…”

“Do we HAVE to watch Elf again?”

“Hot chocolate?”

“Bring a jacket!”

“I wish it was summer…”

“The power’s out.”

“That’s the dumbest looking snowman I’ve ever seen.”

“Here, take my jacket.”

“This weather is depressing.”

“Happy holidays!”

First-Meeting Sentence Starters
  • Several different scenarios that can be combined or modified for your pleasure:
  • "Uh, hi there."
  • "I was here first. Go to the back of the line!"
  • "Excuse me, is there any way you could let me go before you? I'm in a hurry."
  • "Service here is TERRIBLE today!"
  • "Is this seat taken?"
  • "Do you have a moment to talk?"
  • "Hi, listen, there's someone following me, and I'm paranoid so can you talk to me for a few minutes to make it look like I'm not alone?"
  • "Here, take this and run with me. I'll explain later!"
  • "Do you have some cash? This vending machine just ate the last of mine..."
  • "Hey, were you going to use this machine next? It gave me a free bag of chips, and I don't need to eat that many!"
  • "Do you work here?"
  • "Look, I'm not an employee, but the ____ are right over there."
  • "Hey, is this yours? It was by your feet."
  • "Are you from ____ or ____?"
  • "Hello, ____."
  • "I swear I've seen you on TV."
  • "Yes, I'm ____, and I can take a picture with you if you want."
  • "Oh my gosh, can I pet your dog?!"
  • "Sorry, there was a hair hanging off of your sleeve, and it was bothering me."
  • "Oh I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to walk into you!"
  • "Wait a minute! I think they mixed up our orders."
  • "Ugh, this isn't my food. Did anyone here order a ____?"
  • "You look so cold. Do you want to borrow my jacket?"
  • "H-Hey, I'm freezing. Is there any way I can s-stand close to you and maybe get warmer?"
  • "You poor thing, you look like you're cooking! Here, take a bottle of water."
  • "It's so hot I think I might pass out. Can you help me?"
  • "Are you okay?"
  • "Oh, good, you're awake. What happened to you?"
  • "Where am I?"
  • "Get in! You're in danger!"
  • "Please, let me ride with you. There's someone after me!"
  • "Grab the spare helmet and jump on."
  • "Are you playing ____?"
  • "Hey, do you want to trade friend codes?"
  • "Hi, my date just stood me up, so now I have a free ticket."
  • "I'd love to take that free spot as long as you don't mind sitting next to me."
  • "Have you seen a lost child around here?"
  • "I found this child, and by the look on your face, I think they're yours."
  • "That coat isn't real fur, is it?"
  • "If you can't tell the difference between real animal pelt and fake, you shouldn't be harassing people on the street."
  • "Are we locked in here?"
  • "Can I use your phone?"
  • "Here, take my phone. No questions asked."
  • "What's cookin' good lookin'?"
  • "If you're trying to flirt with me, you may want to try again."
If the Maknae line wrote the titles for the "Never Walk Alone" tracklist

1. “Intro: 3.5 minutes of only Jimin dancing better than Jhope" 

2. "The maknae line is fucking grown up k?”

 3. “Golden Maknae Rap track

 4. “Taehyung Rap track dissing Jungkook getting a rap track”

 5. “What’s the highest Jimin can possibly sing? Find out here

6. "Jikook ain’t real” - diss track by Taehyung

7. Jungkook’s other half of “we don’t talk anymore cover” 

8. “Sweat, Tears, and Blood”

 9. ‘Truth’ by Jimin 

 10. 'I don’t have a stigma anymore’ by V 

11. 'Finish’ by Jungkook 

12. “Cypher part 5


14. Skit - "I was born in Busan first” 15. Outro - “this was a lit as fuck album”


a couple of many pieces i want to draw to show my love of the orbiting human circus (of the air)…if you haven’t started listening yet, season one just finished up recently! it really sings to my heart, i can’t recommend it enough

That's Not How the Story Goes
  • That's Not How the Story Goes
  • Patrick Warburton, Neil Patrick Harris, K. Todd Freeman, Malina Weissman & Louis Hynes
  • Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events (A Netflix Original Series Soundtrack)


You may think that the Baudelaires ought to prevail,
and be tucked some place, all safe and sound;
Count Olaf captured and rotting in jail,
his henchpeople nowhere around.

But there’s no happy endings; not here and not now.
This tale is all sorrows and woes.
You dream that justice and peace win the day,
but that’s not how the story goes.

You might think that two parents, both brave and both true,
would live till a nice ripe old age.
But I’m sad to say I have bad news for you:
The curtain rings down on the stage.

Yes, there’s no happy endings; not here and not now.
This tale is all sorrows and woes.
You dream that justice and peace win the day,
but that’s not how the story goes.

I once loved a girl and she thought well of me.
We thought we’d be happy together.
But now I’m alone, as you can well see,
and she’s cold in her grave forever.

There’s no happy endings; not here and not now.
This tale is all sorrows and woes.
You dream that justice and peace win the day,
but that’s not how the story goes.

The world is a pair of ill-fitting pants,
and other dire hideous clothes.
You may think that three children would lead pleasant lives,
but that’s not how the story goes.

Some people smile at the end of the day;
some people laugh, I suppose.
But to me there’s nothing but gloom and despair.
That’s just how the story goes.

That’s just how the story…

Hmm, that’s nice.