My mental health and my schedule has become completely non-accomodating to running the shop anymore. I took the time this morning to refund all outstanding orders that I have never touched. Some of them were from an embarrassingly long time ago - I apologize to those of you who were negatively affected by my poor performance.
That being said, I have two orders - one from January and one from February - that were for receiving a spirit’s vessel that I had already spoken to them about. Those orders will be honored and I’ll try to get them both done sometime in the next week.
While it lasted, it was a really great time and I felt like I made a huge difference for a lot of people! But this chapter of my life now has to close. I’ve been pushed by my Netjeru Fathers to pick myself up, do the refunds, and get this overwith. I think now that I’ve done this, I’ll feel a lot more free and a lot less anxious.
It’s kind of funny - I sometimes wonder if I was cursed by a handful of customers who were particularly nasty to me back in the summer, but that just feels ridiculous. It’s myself I have to hold accountable, and I am holding myself accountable. I let myself become overwhelmed and I became the shop keeper I never wanted to be - someone who wouldn’t respond to emails, messages, etc. I have a crippling anxiety attack whenever I look at my thedragonslibrary email, whenever I log on to storenvy, whenever I log on to tumblr. Sometimes the feeling lasts for days. I don’t want to have that feeling anymore, so this is something I have to do.
I am permanently closing The Dragons Library until further notice. Maybe one day I’ll want to do it again, but today is not that day.
Thanks for your continued patience and support!