i am treating myself

I want to be a better person and sometimes I get all stressed out and feel terrible for not doing everything right but you know what? I am human. I will learn from my mistakes and I will treat people better. I am learning and I can’t hate myself for learning. I can’t hate myself for messing up sometimes. It’s all about the things you take away at the end of each day. That’s where your day ends but hopefully that’s where tomorrow begins.

“You’re more beautiful than she ever was.”

ok i know we all talk about lotor flirting with lance and maybe manipulating him, but i would just like to introduce you to me projecting because insecurity doesn’t automatically equal easily led on, in fact, for me, it leads to bitterness and cynicism buried deep in the caves of my soul like only i am allowed to treat myself like crap NOBODY ELSE so basically it would be something like this-

Lotor: You have beautiful eyes

Lance: *blushes*

Lotor: You’re team doesn’t care about you, they act like they don’t need you-

Lance: *kicks him in the dick* YOU COME INTO MY HOUSE-

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Long time no post! 

I just finished my midterm exams and I honestly feel so drained out. How has everyone been doing?? My birthday is coming up so soon so I treated myself with a new book (which I am very excited about) PLUS I received @unknown-notes ‘s package which contains cute stationery items including Muji and Kikki.k!!! I’m so excited to use the things that Cindy sent me ahhh. OH and here’s a sneak peek of my next bujo spread color theme ;) 

taken from my instagram : medstudie

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Happy Birthday, Ace! (ノ^ヮ^)ノ*:・゚✧ @plasmasnakecat / @sexyflyboy 

hope you’re having a blast celebrating your 17th birthday!!<3

thank you for being such an amazing friend! i love you loads! here’s a high school halbarry drawing as a gift 。;+*(★`∪´☆)*+;。

 go give ace some love guys! he totally deserves it!! 

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2016: A Retrospective.

CW: abuse mention, death mention

A lot happened to me this year, personally–including more things that aren’t even listed here. I’m so, so, so glad to be where I am now that I don’t have words for it. This comic doesn’t even attempt to convey the emotional side of my reality because when I thought about doing so, it was just too big, too much, I’d have never finished it! But I at least wanted to share some of my reality with others.

I had all my ties cut early in 2016, until I literally had nothing to lose. I gambled at a chance in a new city and won a few of my dreams. But more than that, I got a new start on who I am and how I treat myself. My life had great things in the past few years but I couldn’t enjoy them because, in essence, I wouldn’t let myself. 

Anyway, thank you to everyone who played a part in the better half of my 2016! I hope you all are learning and growing and striving as well <3

I may have also picked up a couple new scarves this week. This one is a beautiful ombré from cream to a light brown, beige-y sort of color, and it’s got this absolutely lovely shimmer throughout the scarf. It’s pretty light, so I’m hoping it’ll be comfortable during the summer, but still has better grip than my other light weight scarves.

I am not perfect. There’s a lot of things that I regret, situations, reactions, and people I have hurt along the way. I regret every single one of them. I think about it daily, and some days I feel horrible about it - but I know how to fix it and be a better person. Everyone regrets things but the difference between a good person and a bad person is how they approach their regret. I am working on being better, I am working on learning to control myself, to treat everyone with respect, and to be a better person not just for anyone else - but for myself and the people around me. I want to be a better person, and I will reach that point. I have been doing this all my life.

If you work on bettering yourself even in the smallest aspect, then you are a good person if you stay true to yourself while also improving yourself.

Believe in yourself, and don’t be afraid of regret. We all make bad decisions, we all let our emotions take over logic, and we will all pass poor judgement over others at some point.

Just learn and overcome, I believe in you and most importantly I believe in myself that I can be better than I am not only yesterday, but who I will be today. We all can.

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I think there are a lot of people out there who say the really low blow of “She’s just in the business because of her family”. I do it because I love to do it. There have been a lot of parts I’ve been up for that I haven’t gotten. I don’t get everything handed to me like some people think. I mean, people say, “Oh, do you feel like you’re living in Julia’s shadow?” I don’t at all, because I’m not trying to be her. I’m just being myself and doing what I want to do. I’m having a lot of fun, and I feel like I am making a name for myself, as well – on being treated differently for being related to Julia Roberts.

svt as texts in our group chat
  • S.Coups: SOMEONE SEND ME A PICTURE TO "MEMENIZE"
  • Jeonghan: So, being the civilized person that I am, I shat myself
  • Joshua: FTW probably means fruity treat wonders
  • Jun: Pay attention before you try to be sassy
  • Hoshi: hEy dAD wUz FuR beKfEzt¿
  • Wonwoo: i'm so funny give me an award for best dad joke 2016
  • Woozi: here's a Jack Daniels, knock yourself out as i leave my home for a period of a few hours
  • DK: Papas cupcakeria is DOPE
  • Mingyu: I'm your huckleberry
  • The8: I'm like a bunny that can slit ur throat
  • Seungkwan: omg wTF DO YOU WANT I JUST WOKE UP I DONT DESERVE THIS
  • Vernon: i have a computer with wifi
  • Dino: have you ever had that moment where you're just extremely exhausted and you look at the time expecting it to be like 11:00 but it's actually just 5:00

I’m failing miserably at not spending money…I swear after this weekend I am DONE treating myself.

Plus this version isn’t available to anyone in the US and it’s already altered for me….
I’m not adult enough to handle my debit card.

its 4:18 am. 5 hours til class. if i can finish at least 4 things due for this class before 9 am i will treat myself to a peppermint dunkin coffee with double (triple?) shots of espresso 

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my sketchbook needed some opal (orphan girl) in it