i am the end as i was at the beginning

Where the wind blows
Isn’t far from where the sun shines
It’s near the ocean’s end
They are all close to where stars are born
I look up in the sky
Watching the dance of the heavens
All of it swirled in blue black purples and gold
I get all esoteric about the beauty of nature
Only there do I see the perfection
Only then I understand
I am apart of all the good things worth being seen
Star sun moon ocean
The wind
Where the wind begins
It’s all part of me
—  Did it help
(A poem Captain Planet would like)
-RaquelL
5

A messy little comic where Yuri finds out he’s really dumb.

Part 1/Part 7/Part 9

Guys… I said this was the last part but i was so wrong… get ready for the gay in part 9 (aka the end)

hi all!!! since this inktober i’ve found myself blissfully between one job ending and another beginning, i’m gonna have another crack at finishing a les mis comic. i’ll be doing a 1-2 page comic for each day and each prompt, then turning the whole thing into a little zine. so here’s a pile of amis to serve as cover art. see y'all october first!!

hello and welcome to my first studyblr post!! i’ve seen a ton of these around, but not many have all the tips i’ve learned throughout high school. i go to a private preparatory school and i’m top 5 in my class and i lead many extracurriculars. last year was the CRAZIEST year of my life, but with a certain mindset & only a few all nighters, i managed all A’s in all advanced courses. So, here are the tips i’ve learned!!

  • write stuff down!!!! i know it is the most obvious thing, but writing down anything you need to remember, whether that be homework, tests, quizzes, events, due dates, reminders…anything! checking off these things at night is so satisfying and you won’t forget anything important. when i’m in the #zone, my mind often thinks of stupid questions/thoughts. I’ll jot these questions/misc. thoughts unrelated to what i’m focusing on to come back to later and explore!! (for example, i was doing an frq for econ and i thought of doing this post, so i wrote it down in my journal.)
  • organization. there are so many masterposts out there to help you with organization. my method included binders & comp. notebooks.. that’s about it! i’m not very organized
  • get to know teachers. this is probably what helped a lot my junior year. not only is maintaining good relationships with teachers good for you, it can be beneficial to your grade as well. when you make friends with teachers you always have someone to talk/rant to & they always give you the inside gossip about teachers/other students. have coffee/lunch w them, or talk about theories from the class they teach. they give you a lot of perspectives on the course and cool ideas!
  • manage your time. again, another broad statement. but what i did every night kept me sane. my schedule every day after classes (including saturday) was: 
    • practice until 5 
    • extracurriculars until dinner (6:30-7) 
    • minimal homework until done (usually 1-2 hours)
    • study for 1+ hours if needed (8-9 pm)
    • enjoyment time (at least 30 min)

while this may not be a lot for most people, it was a lot for me and i needed time to make myself happy. school and friends make me happy, but so does alone time. putting this minimum of 30 min a day (if i don’t fall asleep before that) really helped me get through demanding courses because i had an incentive. this schedule also helped me avoid procrastination!! ALSO, I prioritized like hell. Honestly, if homework was a completion grade, I wouldn’t try at all unless i needed the practice. Same goes with classes. the ones i had high A’s in, i would sometimes sacrifice a homework grade in order to get enough sleep or study for another test. while this is not the most ethical way of doing it, it helped.

  • Avoid procrastination. procrastination is your worst enemy. I used to be so bad, but now i’m getting better. this is key. in order to beat procrastination, you have to have self discipline. simple as that. get inspired. for many of you, it’s your studyblr community, for me it was for personal pride and competition. you must execute to get the job done. it will be worth it in the end.
  • do the little things. put away the phone. put music on if it helps. stretch a little. get some water. get as content and comfortable as you can when you study.
  • SLEEP!!!! that’s all i can say. sleep sleep sleep. it’s important. i know life is busy, but make time for sleep if you can. mental illness is a bitch, and sometimes it can make falling asleep hard. i know. just try your best & that’s enough. anytime i had free time during the day, i slept. nothing is more important than sleep, and if i didn’t get at least 8 hours of sleep the night before, i tried to catch up as best as i could. your brain needs a break to refuel and you will feel refreshed the next day. 
  • Eating healthy. i rarely see this tip around (maybe i’m not searching hard enough) but i think it’s important. eating healthy is excellent for your brain function & body function. it’s hard, especially in college, to have to motivation (or money) to make your own dinner, lunch & breakfast everyday. but. it’s. worth. it. i can’t stress this enough. i feel more awake and energized at school and workouts and your body has to have these nutrients to keep functioning well. 
  • Exercise. gross i know, please don’t hurt me, but exercise goes right with eating healthy. the better you feel about yourself, the better you will do in school. simple enough. you will have more motivation, energy, and happiness with a good diet and exercise. running daily and occasionally swimming gets me though the week, and while sometimes i don’t want to workout, i always feel good in the end. find something you like doing and stick to it. try to work out 3 times a week. after every workout, i am always motivated to study
  • UNDERSTAND THE MATERIAL. it’s so obvious, but so many people just memorize. while you have to memorize any new thing you learn in the beginning, there is a time when you must apply what you memorized. you must actually think about why this term/concept is what it is based on memorized facts. you must see the whole picture and how little things relate and why they do. last year i realized this and it worked wonders. for me, if i understood the big picture, i knew the facts by heart. it dawned on me that you must train the mind to think. when going through notes, quizzes, tests, and studying i always asked myself why is this important and what it relates to. retention. is. key. understanding, and not memorizing facts will help so so much!!
  • STUDY BUDDIES. i can’t stress enough how much this helped me. coming from a boarding school, it’s easy to work on homework with friends all the time. to review for a test, my friends in the class would all meet and discuss the material. i’m an auditory learner, so this worked 10x better. what i’ve learned is that if you can teach it, you know it. when i could explain concepts to my friends, i knew i didn’t have to study that. if questions came up when i was trying to discuss my line of thinking, i revisited my notes and tried to understand why i didn’t get it. if we had study guides, we would all do the question and discuss why we got our answers after. for me, discussion is the best way to get new perspectives and ideas as well as understanding the topic better. (i also love talking so).
  • ask questions. even if its stupid. even if you’re just curious. always ask them. 
  • study environment. outside (if it wasn’t terrible weather) is where i love to study with friends. if it is snowing or raining, i go to the library or a local coffee shop. it really just depends on my mood. find an area where you feel the most productive!
[KOR/ENG LYRICS] Outro: Her by BTS

Korean

The world is a complex
We wus lookin’ for love
나도 그냥 그런 사람들 중 하나였어
진짜 사랑인지 뭔지
믿지도 않으면서
습관처럼 사랑하고 싶다 지껄였던
But I found myself
The whole new myself
나도 헷갈려 대체 어떤 게 진짜 난지
널 만나고 내가 책이란 걸 안 걸까
아님 니가 내 책장을 넘긴 걸까
Damn
어쨌든 난 네게 최고의 남자길 원해
아마 당연해 넌 내게
이 세계 그 자체였기에
죽을 거면 꼭 나와 같이 죽겠다던 때
니가 원하는 내가 되기로
God I swore to myself
So many complex
But I’m lookin’ for love
가짜 나라도 좋아 니가 안아준다면
넌 내게 시작이자 결말 자체니까
니가 날 끝내주라

내 모든 wonder
에 대한 answer
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

내 모든 wonder
에 대한 answer
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

어쩌면 나는
너의 진실이자 거짓일지 몰라
어쩌면 당신의 사랑이자 증오
어쩌면 나는 너의 원수이자 벗
당신의 천국이자 지옥
때론 자랑이자 수모
난 절대 가면을 벗지 못해
이 가면 속의 난
니가 아는 걔가 아니기에
오늘도 make up to wake up
and dress up to mask on
당신이 사랑하는 내가 되기 위해
당신이 사랑하는 걔가 되기 위해서
그 좋아하던 XX도 끊었지
그저 당신을 위해서
싫어하는 옷도 과도한 메이크업도
당신의 웃음과 행복이
곧 내 행복의 척도
이런 내가 이런 내가
당신의 사랑 받을 자격 있을까
언제나 당신의
최고가 되기 위해 노력을 해
이런 모습은 몰랐음 해

내 모든 wonder
에 대한 answer
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

내 모든 wonder
에 대한 answer
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

늘 그랬듯이 mask on
환호로 날 반겨주는 her
그대만의 별
아무 일 없이 빛나면서도
가장 빛나야 할 시간에
난 mask off
Lost star
내 짐을 내려놔 어둠을 즐겨
죽일 듯이 쏴대는
조명도 없으니 ye
그저 맘 가는 대로
감 닿는 대로 날 안 잡는 대로
Tick tock the dark is over
다시 너의 최고가 되기 위해
내 자신을 붙잡어
사랑은 사람을 미치게 해
그래 미친놈의 각오
가장 나다운 식에 대입을 하고
전부인 너를 위해
내가 내린 해답을 줘
그걸 사랑해주는 너
그로 인해 노력하는 나
니 존재로 새로운 의미를 찾고
빛을 내는 밤
난 알았어 어둠이 끝나도
내겐 넌 아침이란 걸
You woke me up

내 모든 wonder
에 대한 answer
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

내 모든 wonder
에 대한 answer
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

English

The world is a complex
We wus lookin’ for love
I was also just another one of those people
Whether it’s real love or something
I didn’t even believe in
I babbled on like a habit about how I want to love
But I found myself
The whole new myself
I’m also confused about what in the world is the real me
Did I realize I was a book after meeting you
or did you turn my page
Damn
Anyways I want to be the best man for you
It’s probably certain since you
were the world itself to me
When you said that if you died you’d die with me
I would become the me that you want
God I swore to myself
So many complex
But I’m lookin’ for love
I’m fine with my fake self if it means you’ll hug me
Since you’re my beginning and ending itself
Finish me

The answer
To all my wonder(s)
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

The answer
To all my wonder(s)
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

Perhaps I am
Your truth and lie
Perhaps your love and hate
Perhaps I am your friend and enemy
Your heaven and hell
Sometimes pride and humiliation
I can never take off the mask
Because the me behind this mask
Is not the one you know
Make up to wake up today too
And dress up to mask on
In order to become the me that you love
In order to become the one that you love
I quit the XX that I liked so much
Just for you
The clothes I hate and excessive makeup
Your smile and happiness
Are the scale of my happiness
This me this me
Do I deserve to receive your love
I always try
to become your best
I hope you don’t know this side of me

The answer
To all my wonder(s)
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

The answer
To all my wonder(s)
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

Like always mask on
Her who welcomes me with cheers
Your own star
Shining without any trouble
The time when I have to shine the most
I take my mask off
Lost star
I put down my burden I enjoy the darkness
There is no light that
shoots like a killer
Just as your heart goes
The way it feels, as you don’t hold me
Tick tock the dark is over
In order to become your best again
I hold onto myself
Love makes a person go insane
A madman’s resolution
I insert myself into the equation that is most like me
For all of you
I give the answer that I got
The you who loves that
Through that I make an effort
Through your existence I find new meaning
The night that shines
I knew even though the darkness ended
That you are my morning
You woke me up

The answer
To all my wonder(s)
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

The answer
To all my wonder(s)
I call you her, her
Cuz you’re my tear, tear

Trans cr; Jisoo @ bts-trans
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10

i finished my book. it’s a story about my sestras. i call it orphan black. my story is an embroidery with many beginnings and no end. but i will start with the thread of my sestra, sarah, who stepped off a train one day and met herself.

I was always so impressionable when it came to you. I was like a blank piece of paper you could write yourself on, or the perfect little origami square that would fold to the will of your hands, twisting myself inside out to become whatever pleased you. But now you’re gone and the words can’t be erased, the creases won’t come out and I feel torn up and thrown away… I am a paper crane with no wings, a poem with no ending… the discarded story you never cared to finish.
And that was where I made my mistake because I was not created for you; I was born to create something of myself and I am learning that you should never let somebody else become the main character in your story because when they leave, everything stops.
I exist in this world to write my own story… to shape my own destiny. It’s the unexpected plot twist I never saw coming – it’s not all about you… my life is about me.
So I’ll gather my torn and tattered pieces and become something new… The past can’t be erased and I will never be a blank slate again, but I’m beginning to see that as a good thing because for better or worse my past has shaped me… it has made me who I am.
You will always be the pivotal character in a chapter of my life that hurt to close, but it made way for something beautiful because where it goes from here is up to me… I may have been your impressionable piece of paper once, but now I hold the pen… and I’m writing my own happy ending.
What I Read This Week

(7/8/17)

(Sorry for the late posting!) I read some amazing fics this week, and I can’t wait to share them with you!

Open At The Touch by kiaronna, Teen, 6.5k
Maybe Nishigori got ahold of a lock of Viktor’s hair, and some Polyjuice potion. Maybe it’s all an elaborate prank. With this as his only reasonable explanation, he steps forward, snags Viktor by his robes and tugs him in. There has to be an explanation, mystical and magical or medical, for the best Seeker in the Quidditch world showing up at his door; something besides his portrait, which won’t stop talking to Yuuri anyway.

I LOOOOOOOVED this HP AU! So cute and funny, and also angsty??? One of my favourite HP AUs yet!

The Roommate Trap by impolitecanadian, Mature, 2k (WIP)
Victor doesn’t believe in marriage. So when Chris, his best friend and roommate of 6 years, tells him he’s going to have to move out so he can get married, Victor is reasonably upset. Good thing Victor’s upstairs neighbour is looking for a roommate and maybe a little (okay, a lot) more.

I saw this recommended to me on fan rec friday’s and I thought I would give it a shot! Already entertaining so far, I can’t wait to see what happens next! I also love how it’s set in Canada, that’s pretty cool haha!

28 Tuxes by vodkawrites, Teen, 32k
While planning his 28th wedding, Yuuri begins to wonder if he can ever find love for himself.

I. AM. SOBBING. I LOVED THIS FIC SO MUCH!! The ending had me shook, laughing, crying, screaming!! I loved it!

What Now? by shereadsthestars, Mature, 15k (WIP)
Viktor Nikiforov, Niki to his closest friends- well, closest friend, singular, prefers to keep his nose clean.He’s not the type to hold a strong presence in the room, or even dominate the conversation. He’s quiet, and mindful. And would really just like to finish out the rest of his college career in peace. So it’s no question that his unwavering, slightly over-the-top infatuation with one Yuuri Katsuki is a bit of a problem.

So you all know I’m the biggest fan of college/university AUs, so I had to read this when I saw it on FRF! I love how it’s a reverse AU, I am so obsessed with shy/studious Victor!! (The long hair is also a big bonus haha) Thumbs up!

Much To Do About Everything by DiAnna44, Teen, 5.4k (WIP)
Victor and Yuuri don’t like each other. Which is, of course, perfectly acceptable. Except they never shut up about it, and Phichit and Chris, who are both tired of hearing about it and tasked with the duty of being the wonderful best friends that they are, decide to finally do something about it. Starfleet Academy/Star Trek AU.

GIVE ME ALL THE STAR TREK AUs!!! I love this fic already, the rivals aspect is giving me LIFE! I cannot wait to see where the story goes!

Jackpot by Ashida, Explicit, 5.6k
”Did you think you could get away with it again, Yuuri? Or are you getting greedy?“ Victor drawled low, taunting, trying to bring that person he knew out so they could keep playing.There was no point in Katsuki Yuuri denying it though, they’d played this game for years now. "Maybe I just wanted your attention?” Yuuri looked up and smirked something mischievous, something sinister. That guise melted into the wicked thing that Yuuri was, and Victor knew he was the one who’d been caught.

*fans self* Oh my lord this is SUCH a good one-shot! Gambler extraordinaire!Yuuri??? Married to a rich casino owner Victor??? This. Is. Everything.

the rough with the smooth by sixpences, Explicit, 5.9k
Yuuri grows a beard. Victor loses his mind. So does the internet.

So this is the second beard fic I’ve read and I am obsessed!!!!!!!!! Seriously obsessed. I didn’t know I needed Yuuri with facial hair until now. How did I live my life before this?

You were too much (then all at once you were just enough) by BoredMoose, Teen, 8.3k
You Barged Into My Dorm Room At 4 AM Drunk Off Your Ass And Begged Me To Sleep On The Floor Because You Couldn’t Remember Where Is Your Room!AU 

This was such a fun and entertaining fic! Light and easy read, you have to check this out!

Falling For Your Charms by Reiya, Teen, 12k (WIP)
Professor Katsuki’s crush on Professor Nikiforov is supposed to be a great secret. So naturally, the whole school knows.

I was really feeling the Harry Potter AUs this week, apparently, and I’m so glad I was! This is SUCH an amazing fic by one of my favourite authors, and made me fall in love with this AU all over again. Must read!

‘cause i know you’re worth it by missmichellebelle, Gen, 2.3k
Victor has imagined this moment a million times. He never imagined it being so very spectacularly terrifying.

The sequel/part 2 of the post-it note office AU that everyone fell in love with! This was so cute and a lil angsty! It wrapped up very nice and sweet, though. Love!

(˃̶͈̀_˂̶͈́)੭ꠥ⁾⁾( ノ_ಠ)₍₍ (̨̡ ‾᷄♡‾᷅ )̧̢ ₎₎

Here’s to another week of great fic reading! Be sure to give the authors some love!

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I’ll keep the souvenir inside, 
It’s just better in my mind.

Imagine Dean meeting your parents while you spend the weekend in your old home and realizing he wants to have a family with you.

“De-Dean” a whimper left your lips even if you meant to say it in a completely different way “Dean please, we- we can’t. Not again.” a small whine left your lips when his lips actually detached from the skin of your neck even if that was the exact thing you were asking him.

“Sweetheart, are you really telling me you don’t want it?” he said with a smirk, looking up at you through his eyelashes before he kissed back your collarbone and you let a small groan, mixing with a moan when his lips started trailing down.

“Don’t ask questions you already know the answer to.” you whined softly, still arching your back upwards to press yourself closer to him “But D, you- you know we-” you gasped softly when you felt him bite you, his face inching closer to your chest as his hands worked one on the bra and the other on your panties, which by the way were the only things you were wearing. Not for long, though.

“We can’t do it now.” you said with a moan and he pulled away, looking down at you “My parents are gonna hear us.” you bit your lip.

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Interview Outtakes

I had the pleasure of interviewing Nicki Minaj. Here are some sections that were cut from my first draft of this cover story for T Magazine. 

***

Her publicist assures me it won’t be too long and I tell him it’s no problem. When I interviewed Madonna, she was ninety minutes late, which is not name-dropping. I am offering context for why I am so Zen about waiting for Nicki Minaj. I understand that time works differently for famous people.

In the end, Nicki Minaj is remarkably prompt which is to say our meeting begins only about twenty minutes after the scheduled time. The real challenge was in scheduling the interview at all. My editor and Minaj’s team spent quite a long time exchanging e-mails about when and where the interview would take place—in Los Angeles, in Miami, in New York, on this date or that but without an exact time. I finally learned when we would meet upon landing at JFK, mere hours before the appointed time. It was all very exciting for a writer whose days are generally marked by the difficulty of choosing whether to watch Law & Order SVU or Law & Order Criminal Intent.


***

Her publicist Joe, who will stick around for the entire interview, sits across from me. Earlier, as we waited in the hall just outside the suite, Joe gave me tips on how to talk to Minaj and then, I must confess, I did name drop Madonna because this was not my first rodeo. It was my second. On the coffee table, a laptop records our interview on Minaj’s behalf. I can’t say I blame her. I’m not concerned.

***

It took a long time to get to that place Minaj tells me, and now, “sonically I know what the album’s about to sound like. I know what this album is gonna mean to my fans. This album is everything in my life coming full circle and me being truly, genuinely happy. It feels almost like a celebration. The last album, the Pink Print was like my diary, closing the chapter on certain things and not knowing if I was happy or sad about beginning new chapters. I was really writing about feeling unsure.”

***

It’s interesting that Minaj is feeling more confident in herself than ever because I am there to talk about greatness. I am curious how Minaj defines greatness and after a thoughtful pause, she says, “Discipline is one of the things I believe every great has a lot of. I’d [also] put talent, intelligence, and I’d mix it in with the X factor, which is just the thing you can’t really put into words.”

***

…it is easy to make tawdry assumptions about what she means by closing chapters and new outlooks, but in preparing for our conversation, I was determined to not ask invasive, personal questions. I was determined to not ask stupid questions….I did not delude myself into thinking I would be the one who might crack the Minaj code. She was thoughtful and open but it was crystal clear that she wasn’t going to divulge anything but what she wanted to divulge.

***

By way of her music and public personas, Minaj has fostered a devoted fan base. She speaks often and lovingly of these fans who are definitely on her mind when she’s making music. So are her peers in the rap game. “When I’m being super lyrical and really pushing my pen, I’ll think about dope rappers and what they’re gonna say when they hear that. Rap is competitive and that’s a good thing. We should push ourselves to compete and I’m a woman and I always want to compete with the greats. There are moments where I say something really funny or really ghetto or cheeky and I’ll be like, oh my fans are gonna crack up about that. Whenever I’m really baring my soul, I always say, oh my god, my fans will go crazy because they appreciate when I just let myself really show… and don’t guard myself.”

***

I’ll know feminism has succeeded when women can achieve greatness without wading through a lifetime of bullshit first. 

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Seven and Yoosung accessory swap!! (+ Sleeping LOLOL Prince and double glasses cause Seven looks odd without them-)

I swear I like Zen the most but all I ever draw is Yoosung-

me, solemnly putting on emotional armor, bracing myself to endure one year of deep speculation concerning the continued existence of my fave: night gathers and now my watch begins. it shall not end until my death. i shall wear no crowns and win no glory. i will live and die at my post. i am the sword in the darkness. i am the watcher on the walls. i pledge my life and honor to the stark watch for this night and all the nights to come for as long as tony stark lives because tbh not to be dramatic but if he dies then i’m fine with a zombie apocalypse destroying everything humanity has accomplished as a whole

[LYRICS] (ENG TRANS) Outro: Her

the world is a complex
we was lookin’ for love
I too used to be that kind of person too
I didn’t believe what real love is
I used to say habitually that I want to love

but I found myself
the whole new myself
I’m confused too, which one is really me
I met you and did I realise that I’m a book
or did you turn the page
anyway I want to be the best man for you
it’s probably natural because you are my world itself
I would become what you want, God I swore to myself

so many complex
but I’m lookin’ for love
I can be a fake self as long as you embrace me
you are my beginning and the end itself
will you finish me

all of my wonder
the answer to that
I call you her, her
cuz you’re my tear, tear
all of my wonder
the answer to that
I call you her, her
cuz you’re my tear, tear

maybe you are my truth and the lie
maybe I’m your love and hate
maybe I’m your enemy and friend
you’re heaven and hell, sometimes pride and suffering
I can never take off this mask
because, within this mask, I am not the guy that you know
again today, I make up to wake up
and dress up to mask on
so that I can become the me that you love
so that I can become the guy that you love
I quit XX which i used to enjoy very much
just for you
even the clothes I hate and too much makeup
your laughter and happiness decide my own happiness
do I deserve to be loved by you when I’m this way
I always try my best to be the best for you
I hope that you don’t know this side of me

all of my wonder
the answer to that
I call you her, her
cuz you’re my tear, tear
all of my wonder
the answer to that
i call you her, her
cuz you’re my tear, tear

like always, mask on
greeting me with joy, her
your star, it shines for no particular reason
the moment it’s supposed to shine the brightest, I take the mask off
lost star I put down my baggage and enjoy the darkness
there’s no spotlight that’s shining me to death aye
just see where the heart goes
where the feeling goes, where it doesn’t grab me
tick tock the dark is over

so that I can be your best again
I hold on to myself
love makes a person go crazy
yeah the determination of a madman
I substitute myself into the method that’s most like myself
I give you the solution I came to for you, my everything

you love it
I do my best because of it
because of your presence, the night finds new meaning and shines bright
I know now that when even when the darkness ends
you are my morning
you woke me up

all of my wonder
the answer to that
I call you her, her
cuz you’re my tear, tear
all of my wonder
the answer to that
I call you her, her
cuz you’re my tear, tear

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Orthodontist Fiasco Gets Fixed

just a heads up, this is gonna get really long

so I’ve always had a problem with my teeth. I have a really bad overbite that pushed apart my two front teeth so wide you could drive a truck through them. It was so bad that I was recommended to get braces as soon as my baby teeth all fell out. So by the time I was 12 I went to an orthodontist that my mom’s friend had spoke well of. The dentist and his staff were pleasant and did their job efficiently. By the time I was 15 (near 16) I got the green light to have my braces removed.

My parents were willing to pay for everything up front. They wanted my teeth to be right. Neither of my parents were able to have much quality work on their teeth when they were my age and they sincerely regretted it. They didn’t want me to be like that.

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I know so many people are upset. But actually… I am 100% good with all of this. Here is why:

I was TERRIFIED Killian would be ripped from Emma and we would never get that reunion scene in the finale. I was so afraid he was going to be haunted by the ghost of Emma and we would never get to see that pain leave him.

I was so worried they would just tear Captain Swan apart with no promise to fix it, and if they did fix it, we wouldn’t actually SEE it.

This has now allowed me peace. EVERYONE wanted Season 6 to be the end. Well, now it can be for Captain Swan fans who don’t wish to continue to the show. Captain Swan bowed out gracefully and they are going back to start a new life together with their CHIIIIILLLDDD SFJGKGJSSGJFSJFG

But I am a Hook fan too, and a Colin fan. I can now COMFORTABLY continue to watch Once, knowing yes, Captain Swan is gone… But if Season 6 ended it they would be gone too. Now I can watch Colin continue on the show as his awesome self, a new version of a character I already love and miss, and NOT feel cheated out of Captain Swans Happy Ending.

We knew Captain Swan was ending the day Jen stepped down from her role. It breaks my heart, but it’s true. We can’t change that fact no matter how much we hate it. But they gave Captain Swan a true happy BEGINNING. :) 

I am sure lots will call me crazy or disagree. But as for me, I’m 100% okay.

People always say that October the 13th is unlucky, but for me, it was the luckiest day of my life. I’m engaged to my best friend after six years of incredible growth, companionship, and self-discovery. Not only did he introduce me to the world of Harry Potter, he helped me discover the best parts of myself I was always looking for. I wouldn’t be who I am today without him, and I cannot wait to start our new beginning. The golden snitch opens at the close; a new chapter is now beginning. 

I will now be yours, until the very end.