i am stupid do not mind me

hi

i just wanted to let all of you know that i was supposed to jump off a bridge about 5 hours ago just right after i attended our Thursday worship service. and i know it sounds so stupid to commit suicide just a few minutes after going to church and studying the Words of God but i was too hopeless earlier and no words can ever describe how sad and lost i am at that moment.  

i knew i needed to push all those evil thoughts away from my mind. and while trying to do so, i suddenly saw my best friend, with my cloudy eyes from the tears rolling down my cheeks, just a few feet away from where i’m standing when i was supposed to cross the road and walk straight to the nearest bridge. 

it turns out that she was on her way home when she saw me walking alone in the dark and empty street, asking questions to myself and to God.

i saw her face and realized that she was actually smiling right in front of me. 

she’s smiling

before i even knew it, my lips already formed a curve into a smile, too.

and, somehow, that was enough to stop me from doing the thing that was supposed to end everything for me.

she could’ve left a minute later from school and never had the chance to see me walking on my way to death or i could’ve walked faster and she wouldn’t see me there crying then. but, instead, God is so great that He made everything fit on His perfect plan. He saved me. God saves. He can save you, too. 

and most importantly, remember that God can always use you to save others, too. 

be kind.

spread love.

2.23.17 {11:34 pm}

don't try to change me..
  • i'm perfect they way i am: libra,leo,virgo,pisces
  • i'm unchangable and will keep doing all the little stupid mistakes that irritate you so much,sorry not even sorry: aquarius,gemini,taurus,scorpio
  • it wouldn't be me anymore: capricorn,cancer,sagittarius,aries
  • *keep in mind that everyone is perfect the way they are,okay?*
10

so endingthemes and I were discussing the beach divorce scene and

i don’t even know

(Charles does have a posh ass though)

Sheith: Turth Or Dare

Lance: Okay Keith your turn truth or dare.

Keith: This is stupid why did I ever agree to play this.

Hunk: Because we don’t have anything better to do and this was Lance’s idea.

Lance: Come on Keith just choose truth or dare.

Keith: Fine, I guess I choose dare.

Lance: Alright I dare you to kiss the next person whoever walk into this room.

Keith: WHAT?

Lance: You heard me

Keith: No no no no…I am not going to kiss anyone I change my mind I pick truth.

Pidge: No that’s not how it works you picked dare and you have to do what Lance says.

Lance: come on Keith you gotta play how the game goes, just kiss someone that walks in here and it will be somebody else’s turn next.

Keith: NO,that is not going to happen this is probably the stupidest idea you ever made Lance, do you think that someone is going to walk in here and you expect me to kiss them. I am not that stupid you know!

(All of a sudden Shiro walks into the room and Keith turns around and starts blushing really red.)

Keith:….Game on bitch

(Keith walks over to Shiro while the gang is looking at them from the distance to see if Keith is really going to do it.)

Shiro: Hey Keith what’s up?

Keith:…Um

Shiro: Are you okay Keith you look really red right now.

(Keith goes silent and looks at the others giving him the thumbs up.)

Keith: Sorry about this.

(Keith then jumps to kiss Shiro and it took Shiro by surprise. While the others have a look of excitement and being shocked and left the room for Keith to explain this to Shiro. When Keith and Shiro broke away they went silent for a bit until Keith spoke.)

Keith: I’m so so sorry, just let me explain everything it was all Lance’s idea I didn’t want to do it but everybody wouldn’t shut up and…

(Shiro puts his finger on Keith’s lips and Shiro starts smirking at him.)

Shiro:If you wanted to kiss me all you gotta do was ask.

(Keith then blushes at Shiro looking surprised and embarrassed.)

Keith:oh my god I’m so going to kill Lance.

The end.

WARNING, SPOILERS: So I just read BnHA Ch 131 last night...

And you wanna know what I love most about all this?

Toshinori just dropped a big Truth Bomb on Deku and told him that he wasn’t ‘the first’ candidate in mind. 

And we see this devastated look on his face. 

One would say that he was going to get hurt by that statement alone… 

But, NO. 

He was MORE hurt at the fact that Nighteye saw the probability of Dad Might dying. And my. God. It just really surprised me. 

Sure, he was angry at AM for not telling him the truth of the situation at first. And as most other shounen protag, they would usually runaway, affected by their mentor’s words. They’d go out and do something even more stupid and reckless but Oh.My.GOD. DEKU, MY SON, he took it better than most shounen protag ever had and I commend Hori-sensei for always being mindful about the characters’ personality and development. He really did a good job on this one.

Kudos to you, sensei.

MDM: MAVEN B FEELIN ALIEVE
  • Maven: YO I FEEL GOOD
  • Maven: I CAN DO ANYTHING
  • Maven: IM GNA CONQUER THE WORLD
  • Maven: I FEEL SO ALIVE-
  • Maven: *trips* I CANT DO THIS
  • Mare: *catches him*
  • Maven: omg thank-
  • Maven: (in his mind) SHE SAVE ME THAT WONDERFUL AND BEAUTIFUL PERSON I THINK IM IN LOVE
  • Mare: lol you should have seen your face you looked so stupid
Reading tags of my reblogged art...

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

I appreciate every comment/fave/reblog/critique/etc on my art but please… 
My mother version of Noctis is my very own character. I made her up, I brought her to live through art/RPs/headcanons etc, so please do not tag her as the “canon”  FFXV Square Enix charater. Or the name given by these pisshats . The woman I draw is Lucienne Caelum and not Aulea Caelum. Lucienne existed already long before SE made their canon info about the mom. LONG BEFORE: LIKE 3-4 YEARS SO PLEASE. 

Do not tag her “Aulea” and do not think it actually IS Aulea because she is not. (At least not in my art) Thank you very much! 

2p as The big bang theory quotes:
  • 2p America: I'm Batman shh!
  • 2p France: Feelings? What am I, a hippie at a love inn?
  • 2p England: Believe in magic, you muggle!
  • 2p Russia: I'm a fan of anything that tries to replace human contact.
  • 2p China: I'm not crazy my mother had me tested.
  • 2p Canada: People should have chips implanted in their skulls that explode when they say something stupid.
  • 2p Italy: I cry because others are stupid and it makes me sad.
  • 2p Germany: You can't ruin a friendship with sex. That's like trying to ruin ice cream with chocolate sprinkles.
  • 2p Japan: I am the king of nerds.
  • 2p Austria: If you don't mind, I'd like to stop listening you.
  • 2p Prussia: I wonder what the non-pathetic people are doing tonight.
What I tend to see happening more and more is people retreating into their own corners. People seem scared to get things wrong or be shouted at so they form villages in which they agree with every other member, and maybe they go out and shout at the people in the next village for fun, but there’s no interchange of ideas going on. I think we have to encourage the idea that you’re allowed to think things. I have thought a great many stupid things over the years, and I can tell you that there’s not one stupid thing that I ever thought where I changed my mind because someone shouted at me or threatened to kill me. On the other hand, having great discussions with good friends, possibly over a drink, has definitely changed my mind and made me try to do better. You’re allowed to do better, but we have to let people do better.
— 

http://www.latimes.com/books/jacketcopy/la-ca-jc-neil-gaiman-20160616-snap-story.html

I said this a couple of weeks ago. Am really feeling it today.

The Signs Comical New Years Resolutions
  • Aries: Stop being so ready to beat someone's ass
  • Taurus: Humble myself more and act like I don't know everything...even though I think I know everything
  • Gemini: Pay more attention to when someone is not interested in my conversation
  • Cancer: Saying "f*ck" less
  • Leo: Bring my bossiness down a little, just a little.
  • Virgo: Mind my facial expressions so people don't feel stupid when talking to me
  • Libra: Talk a little lower so people don't think I've been drinking loud juice all day
  • Scorpio: Smile more, kill with kindness...even though I don't like them
  • Sagittarius: Mind my mouth...haha, who am I kidding?
  • Capricorn: Stop thinking I'm better than people...sigh
  • Aquarius: Having better relationships with people who claim they care but act like THEY'RE too busy
  • Pisces: Not being so harsh on others when they don't do what I want them to do..when I want them to do it

i cant get these thoughts out of my head so im just gonna vent and say what id say if i were allowed to talk about it to em

i understand youre , hurt and needing space and time. i totally get that trust me

i dont mind it at all really, and im perfectly content being friends with you, youre already a really great friend to me. i value you so much

the last thing id ever want, is to make you feel bad or burden you with something like a stupid fucking crush when youre obviously not looking for anything like that

but i do have a crush on you, and it does make me feel things. mostly, you purposefully distancing yourself from me and, saying it so bluntly really. hurt

i get your reasoning but, the way i am it just. i dont know how to put it into words…

someone i care deeply about, not wanting to be….around me? not wanting..things from me when im. so willing to give, unconditionally, with no motive other than its you and i want to?

it hurts, i feel, rejected, and not in the i was turned down for a relationship rejected

a different kind, bpd kind.
it really hurts, ,,….

Fandom: Teen wolf

People: Stiles x reader

Warnings: None

From: Imagine Derek cheating on you with Erica


Tonight is a full moon and I already don’t feel good. Not just because of that though. It hasn’t been too long since I broke up with Derek because he cheated on me with my ex best friend, Erica. I know I should’ve gotten over it by now. I can’t. When I caught them in the act… This memory replays on my mind all the time, it haunts me. I don’t do anything to stop it though. I want to remind myself how stupid I was and how bad I am at relationships. If only I was good enough..


*skip to midnight*


The full moon was starting to get to me and I hadn’t even reached Scott’s house yet. Oh God, please don’t make go insane without my friends around. I was 5 minutes away from his place and I felt my eyes turn yellow. A loud growl escaped my mouth and I tightened my grip around the steering wheel. I can’t control it anymore.

I finally reached my destination but I was in so much pain. I got out of the car and banged the door, quickly making my way to Scott’s door knocking several times. Lydia answered the door and she was looking really worried.

Lydia: Where were you? I thought you had left to kill people. Get in.

Y/N: I don’t have time for a lecture Lydia. Bring the chains, now!

A wave of pain ran through me and I almost kneeled down. I run to the living room and sat on one of the comfortable couches. I heard growls and groans. It was probably Isaac, Erica and Boyd. Scott saw me and came right away to help me.

Scott: How are you feeling?

Y/N: Oh, besides wanting to kill every person in this room, I’m great! Thanks for asking. I said sarcastically causing Scott and Stiles roll their eyes to another universe. Another loud growl escaped my mouth which for some reason, made everyone go silent. LYDIAA!!! I yelled and felt my claws getting bigger.

Lydia: Okay, I’m here. Stiles help me tie her.

Stiles: On it! 

Stiles took me by the arm and sat me on one of the chairs near the wall that separated the living room from the kitchen. Lydia started enfolding me with the chains along with Stiles. When they were done, I couldn’t move an inch.

Lydia: I did a nice job. She said admiring the fact that I couldn’t move at all.

Y/N: What if I escape and slit your pretty little throat? You wouldn’t have much time to admire this view, would you?

Lydia: I know it’s the full moon talking, so I’m just going to shut up.

I turned my head to see the others for the first time since I got here. Isaac and Boyd were tied up in chairs like I was, with Allison and Scott trying to calm them down. Erica was tied up on a wall by the window, with Derek comforting her. Of course.

I was so upset at that point and the full moon wasn’t doing any good. I screamed and fully turned into a werewolf.

Y/N: Let me GOOOO!

Stiles: Y/N relax you will be-

Y/N: PLEASE L-LET ME GO KILL THEM. I said pointing my finger at Derek and Erica. They turned their heads towards me when they realized who I was talking about.

Lydia: Stiles, I think we should take her to the basement.

Stiles: Ok, I can handle her. You don’t have to come.

Lydia: Are you really sure?

Stiles: Yeah, don’t worry. I have done a good job with Scott. I think she’ll be alright.

He untied me and held my wrists behind my back till we got to the basement. I was trying really hard not to kill him and run away. When he tied me again [ my wrists hanging from the ceiling that was not tall at all ] , I couldn’t hold it any longer and I attempted to grab him and strangle him.

Stiles: Woah, easy there!

Y/N: Stiles leave! I don’t want to hurt you, please GO!

Stiles: I’m not leaving you. I know you won’t hurt me.

Y/N: Right now, I want to break every single bone in your body and chop off your head. AAAAAAAAAAJH.. I screamed in pain and kneeled down, but my wrists didn’t allow me to.

Stiles: Oh my God, I found something that may work. Y/N what 3 things cannot be long hidden?

Y/N: STILES IT’S NOT GOING TO WORK. I growled once again after that.

Stiles: The sun, the moon, the truth. Say it with me.

Y/N: The sun, the m-moon, the truth.

Stiles: Again, come on! The sun, the moon, the truth. He held my forearms gently while saying those words over and over again.

Y/N: The sun, the moon, the truth. The sun, the moon, the truth. The sun, the moon, the truth.

My fangs and claws and yellow eyes where starting to slowly fade away. It worked! Seeing Stiles so sure that I wasn’t going to hurt him, calmed me down. Why can’t I have a guy like Stiles?


Y/N: Stiles, i-it’s working!

Stiles: Ugh, thank God.

Y/N: Thank you so much, for helping me. For always being there for me. I love you. 

I said ‘I love you’ to Stiles. Oh my God, how will he react? Will he freak out? What did I do?

Stiles: I have been in love with you since we were in diapers.

I just took advantage of the moment and kissed him like I have never kissed anyone. He was the one. All this time and I didn’t even realize. Maybe Derek and I weren’t meant to be. I was meant to be with Stiles, my best friend. We broke the kiss and stared at each other for what seemed like years. He is my anchor. I heard footsteps and turned to see Lydia and Scott looking at us like we were the cutest puppies they’ve ever seen.

Lydia: You have a lot to explain missy.

They left us alone again and Stiles said something I wasn’t ready for.

Stiles: Be mine?

Y/N: I am yours.

10

“I think it was the best way for it to happen to me because I was filled with so much doubt as a kid. I never deemed this career truly possible in my mind, so being thrown into it really helped because it gave me a lot of confidence that this is something I am meant to do for the rest of my life.” - Dylan O'Brien (August 26, 1991)

I saw him today, for a few seconds. Somehow in those few seconds I couldn’t think of anything but him, I turn corners in hope to find him at least a glance of him can make my day. We don’t speak anymore, the silence kills. I purposely changed my schedule just to see your stupid face. Everything about you I love but hate, you make me feel this type of way that caused me to go crazy I would kill for that feeling again, to be with you again. It’s obvious that you don’t mind we haven’t been talking you don’t even look my way anymore and here I am, waiting for my chance again. Do we actually crave things we shouldn’t? That’s what people say. I should not crave you, but I do. You left me and I should have accepted that in the months that have gone by, it has almost been a year since we first started talking. You made me feel different, no matter who I’m with I will always have feelings for you. I thought I meant something to you, I was wrong. All I am to you is another ex you don’t need to worry about. You stopped checking up on me awhile ago, I still have hope that I will randomly receive a text and your name will pop up. Until then, I will wait and wait or lose feelings which is nearly impossible. I’ll make it. I promise.
—  I love you.

Not learning from your experience is not like you can’t logically connect the reason and the concequences. It’s more like you fully understand what will happen if you do something, you KNOW it bc you’ve already experienced that, but then you do [that shit] again for no reason and suffer. When i’m doing something i ask myself “why not?” and when my mind explains me why exactly not with billions of reasons, i keep doing what i did before. 👺 The fuck is that

Who am I to say this stupid thing… like, do you - whoever reads this - know how it is to do one certain thing only for and because of a single person? And they are too oblivious to realise that?
I mean, when I have started using tumblr like barely 2 months ago - I wouldn’t have needed followers, I wouldn’t have needed people to message to, I had only wanted one certain person to see my art for whom I was actually drawing, and i wanted them to like it. That was like my only reason for what I was using tumblr, back then and still today.
But how could they know…

*I now want to say additionally: I’m still very glad, happy and thankful for people who show me they like my art and that it still kind of kept me motivated to do more, but I don’t know… like, how long I could keep doing this because of my obsession.
Some real creepy shit, get your fix.

because SOMEONE wanted me to answer all of these….

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

Yes 💛

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

……….i am dating an 18 year old right now

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

I ? don’t ??? know ?

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

…..these questions are stupid I changed my mind

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

Don’t know don’t care tbh

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

I love you more than you will ever know by Never Shout Never 💛

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

Black jeans and a greyish blue t-shirt (and blue underwear)

8. How often do you listen to music?

ALL THE TIME

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

jeans

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2015?

LOL

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

Not social

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

I mean like,,, my mom ? but in a romantic way, no

13. What about ‘R’?

what about R?

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

Not very well

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Yes 😭 😭 😭

16. Are you going out of town soon?

No wtf these questions are so random

17. When was the last time you cried?

Ummmmmmm yesterday

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

yes

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

no

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

Yes 💛 💛

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

Idk I haven’t done anything all day oops

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

Just a random guy? N O !!

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

Hell yeah

24. What are you sitting on right now?

A dick

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

yes

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Is this a weird way of asking if ive ever had a crush on someone or what

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

Noah 💛 💛 💛 💛 💛 💛

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

No :D

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

The clearance section at target it was $4

30. Does anyone hate you?

probably

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

Probably, but theyd be Cal’s, not mine

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

Yes, with Noah

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

NOOOO

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Hmmm junior year of high school

35. Did you have a dream last night?

Yeah but I don’t remember it lol

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

Like 5 minutes ago 💛

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

I cant read suddenly I dont know

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

I fuckin hope so

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Does he ever think about anything besides me?

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

It was ok

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

Yes 💛

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

Umm maybe ?

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

Not exactly in those words

44. What’s the best part about school?

When it’s over and I can sleep

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

Obviously. What the fuck are these questions

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

Yeah in middle school,,

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

Doesn’t everyone ??

48. Were you single over the last summer?

Unfortunately not……………….

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

No, thank god

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

So many

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

NOOOOO

52. Are you nice to everyone?

I try to be, but sometimes im not oops

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

??? no?

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

yes, WHAT THE FUCK

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

I try so hard, but no

56. Do you think you like someone?

I know I like someone

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

no

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

What the fuck kind of heterosexual bullshit did I get myself into

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

Yes oops but it was a looooong time ago

60. Do you hate anyone?

my mom’s mom and my most recent ex

61. How’s your heart?

My heart rate is always a lil fast but its probably fine

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

I just hate talking about myself in general

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

I cant read suddenly I don’t know

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

My mom. Just kidding LOL

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

What am I gay or something? (yes, but no theyre not)

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

no

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

WHAT THE FUUCCCKKK

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

No but one time I pantsed my brother and he thought our cousin had done it hahahaha he still thinks that’s what happened oops

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

My roommate

70. How do you look right now?

Like a million ducks

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

I guess ?

72. Can you commit to one person?

YES WTF

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

no

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

….yes

75. Did you wake up cranky?

Yes so I went back to bed and slept until 2:30pm

76. Are you a jealous person?

Yeah oops

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

I like to think so

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

Idk ??

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

im gay

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

Noah

81. Last person you cried in front of?

My damn self

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

Probably a lot of people unless I get alzheimers or something

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

So much

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

him

85. Are you over your past?

Never :)

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

noooo

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

Nope not even like,, my therapist

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

I would be like bich what the fuck are you apologizing for

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

yeah but he could just let himself in through the bathroom

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

no

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

god i hope so

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

I had a friend in 5th grade named michael

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

no

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

Yes, it’s lit

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

It is march right now

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

Fuck yes

97. Who do you have texts from?

what.

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

“oh. cool. Have fun”

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

no

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

On tumblr? Just me. Facebook? the cutest boy

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

no

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

Sort of. We had butterflies in first grade. Everyone in the class got a caterpillar and we took care of them until they turned into butterflies and then we let them fly away

anonymous asked:

Can you match me with someone? I'm 5'4 and have REALLY white skin with an hourglass figure, brown hair and green eyes. I am a shy Lolita with a really dirty mind, I am into a lot more stuff than I am meant to be, I love cuddling and just doing stupid stuff, but I also have paranoia attacks, and I love sports 😁😁(P. S Love your blog)

2p france