i am starting to love my life

Can you all please make duaa that I’m able to fast this ramadan. Also can u all please pray that my parents shouldn’t start doubting if I am a Muslim. Means a lot to me.

ID #58099

Name: Emily
Age: 22
Country: USA

Hi my name is Emily! I am 22 year olds and about to enter my senior year of college. I study English as my major and Theater as my minor. I love to act but I also love being behind the scenes. I love to write and read as well. I mostly read YA fiction books like Paper Towns but recently I started to read a book about linguistics.

I am looking for someone who likes YouTubers like Dodie and Hazel Hayes, someone who likes to write and read, someone who likes theater and who I can gush about seeing Hamilton live with. I’m also into other things but that’s my life right now. I’m actually hoping to move to NYC after I graduate and possibly get a job for a theater writing articles or doing some form of social media management for brands.

Preferences: 20+ please, has to be LGBT+ friendly, feminist friendly, and no racists please. I don’t care where you are from. I’d prefer emails or Skype or even tumblr messaging.

anonymous asked:

This one ex I had stopped talking to me for months now all of a sudden hits me up like it's nothing saying he wants to see me..but he played me very bad, messed with my emotions, and felt like he wanted help more than he did love..I still have not seen him and am wondering if i should even keep responding to him..he's been blocked off my social media but is using other ways around it to reach me😔

It’s hard escaping relationships like that it takes a while to get over that person & to finally feel content again & start to move on with your life, but once you do your biggest mistake will be entertaining the past & going backwards. Don’t be a person’s convenience you’re worth so much more & he should’ve known that then

deciclueyes  asked:

Hi, this isnt much of a question but I really want to tell you how happy I am that you exist and your blog exists. I'm 17, almost 18 and I have struggled with body image my entire life and seeing all of your positivity has really helped me come out of my shell. You are incredibly beautiful and I just want to thank you incredibly much for helping me learn to start loving myself 💖

😭 I appreciate that more than you know. I hated my body when I was younger and I was pretty mercilessly picked on so to know that I’m helping others who were in the shoes I was once in is incredibly special to me. I’m so thrilled you’re learning to love yourself at a young age, it’ll take you so far in life ♥️ thank you for letting me be a part of your journey!

A-Z! :D

Tagged by the awesome @a-million-chromatic-dreams , thanks friend!! :D 

Rules: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, then tag up to 10 people plus the person who tagged you.

a- age: 24 (I keep forgetting that’s my actual age it is really distressing lol) 

b - biggest fear: talking in public and death… but really the more I think about it I think what scares me about death is actually dying and feeling like my one life was not worth living… deep thoughts with Vale haha 

c - current time: 12:01 am 

d - drink you last had: water 

e - every day starts with: me stirring in my bed for so long I’m now late to whatever I had to do that day 

f - favorite song: Here Comes The Sun and Blackbird by The Beatles is what came to mind first lol Then also probably Love is on the Radio by McFly I love that one <3 

g - ghosts, are they real: Yeah, sure 

h - hometown: San Jose, Costa Rica

i - in love with: my friends, my family, gravity falls lol 

j - jealous of: people who have their life together cause mine is a disaster 

k - killed someone: …why would you answer this? xD No, of course not 

l - last time you cried: I have nooo idea, I think I almost cried at my cousin’s wedding? But it wasn’t because of the wedding it was because I was really tired, I had a really bad headache and I wanted to go home lol (I am an actual child omg) 

m - middle name: Maria 

n - number of siblings: 1 sister, she’s the mabel to my dipper haha 

o - one wish: to get my fricking life together man, I wanna graduate and I wanna get a good job and just…have a stable enough life 

p - person you last called/texted: I think it was Taka actually :D 

q - questions you’re always asked: “how was your day?” “what’s going on in your life?” “what are your plans for the future?” boy, I wish I knew 

r - reasons to smile: talking/hanging out with friends and laughing at stupid shit, the moon and the stars, the universe and how amazing it is, random acts of kindness, good food, finding out cool places, planning out things with friends and being excited about those plans, traveling, the ocean, the holidays

s - song last sang: uh… Dare you to move by Switchfoot I think? 

t - time you woke up: around 10…cause I had a very long day yesterday lol 

u - underwear color: …?

v - vacation destination: The beach, please take me to the beach! (Hopefully Hawaii, I really wanna go there omg) 

w - worst habit: staying up till waaay too late 

x - x-rays you’ve had: I’ve never had an X-Ray… yay?? xD

y - your favorite food: PIZZA!!! :D

z - zodiac sign: pisces 

tagging: @picnokinesis @fb-phe13 @silver-stargazing @artsymeeshee @choc-chip-pancakes @crossroadsdimension @ancientouroboros (feel free to ignore :) )

Trump thought being president would be “easier”

  • Trump reflected on his first 100 days in office in an interview with Reuters, during which he expressed that he — somehow — believed being president of the whole United States would be “easier.”
  • “I loved my previous life. I had so many things going,” Trump said. "This is more work than in my previous life. I thought it would be easier.“
  • Trump — who called the 100 day benchmark a ”ridiculous“ standard for judging his performance — has had a rocky start to his presidency. 
  • His first stretch in office has been characterized by high profile failures on health care and his travel bans, along with infighting among staff and large-scale protests. Read more (4/28/17 7 AM)

Jay-Z, captured listening to Beyoncé giving him a toast on his 37th birthday on December 4, 2006. A year later he would propose to her during his birthday trip to Paris.

“Well, I don’t know where to start… First of all, thanks everybody for coming. A lot of you guys just got the call the other day, and I know y’all had to drop a lot of things just to come. And this wouldn’t be anything without everybody here. And y’all are here because you’re special to Jay; therefore you’re special to me. Everybody he loves, I love… [pauses] This is nothing compared to what you’ve done for me. Not only me, but for everybody here. You’ve taught me so many things. I was 20 years old when we first started dating. You taught me how to be a woman. You taught me how to live. You taught me how to be a friend. You give me so much in life. And this is not enough. It’s not enough that I can do. I just want you to be happy. Every year I am even more in love with you. And I want to spend every day of my life with you. Happy Birthday. And I thank God for you everyday.”

I realize I loved you when I decided to be willing and mature to watch you start over to bloom again although you hurt me once. I realize I loved you when i couldn’t resent you and hate you but instead take in those little moments we have left. I realized I loved you when even though I know we can’t be together right now, I’m willing to be by your side as a close friend and not back out. But I also realize it’s not the end of the world when you hurt me once. I realize that this does not stop me from living my life but to find my self , who I am and what I want. I realize if we’re not meant to be lovers in the future, then we’re meant to be friends. And guess what? I’m okay with that.
—  vesta-xoxo 

almost a year ago i moved back “home” to the place i grew up in. last summer i lost everything, or so i thought. i lost my home, i lost love, school, a job i loved, and people who had felt more like family to me than anyone else ever had. i was on my own. i was alone. last year i was at the lowest point in my life and in 33 days it will mark a year since the day i tried to take my own life. i thought i had nothing left. i thought there was nothing left for me. mental illness was literally ruling my life. in this past year i have struggle more than i ever had in my life, but i have learned so much about life and love. i have gained so much self confidence, self love, and appreciation for everything that i am. i have struggled, i have pulled myself up from rock bottom. little did i know that in a years time, i would be on one of the most influential teams of my life, i would have a 3.8 GPA in college and i would be receiving an offer from a school to play soccer with nearly $30k in scholarships. i would start speaking out about mental illness, and how it changed my life. i would travel, adventure, laugh, and love more than i ever had. i would become a completely new version of myself. and i would do it all on my own. i thought i lost everything. but i gained so fucking much in the process. it just goes to show you that had i taken my own life a year ago, i wouldn’t have any of this. life isnt always easy, living with a mental illness is HARD, but it is possible. may is mental health awareness month and i decided this year that i will never stop speaking out about the troubles and triumphs of mental illness. because if you’re not making someone uncomfortable you’re not doing something right. so heres to still being here. heres to everything i thought i would never have. heres to smiling and working to end the stigma around mental illness along the way.

Sometimes I like to update my art here. I took 3 days to draw this Life is Strange fanart and I am very proud of myself. Since I started playing Life is Strange for the second time I noticed too many things I didn’t realized before, some quotes, scenes… it makes me more in love with this game. Please do not copy or reblog my art without the credits.

please support my art.


Chloe’s room. ❤️ PRICEFIELD ❤️

I’m very bad at writing my feelings out but i love you. i love you in a language that hasn’t yet been spoken, in words that haven’t yet been uttered. I love you despite wrecking storms inside my head and a frail heart inside my chest. I love you throughout your bad moods and sparking rages. I love you throughout my bad moods and sparking rages. I love you in between texts and ugly selfies on Snapchat.The ones that i feel awful making it public because i hate how i looks. I love you in spite of six hours gap between us. Your 3 pm lunch with your mother and my 9 pm train rides home after a long day outside. Your midnight sadness and my 6 am slumber. Your end and my start. I love you regardless. This time my sadness won’t get to me anymore and everything is going to be okay. I promise.
—  aweglemoo 

🎶 Can’t say how the days will unfold,
Can’t change what the future may hold,
But I want you in it,
Every hour, every minute.

This world can race by far too fast,
Hard to see while it’s all flying past,
But it’s clear now,
When you’re standing here now,
I am meant to be
Wherever you are next to me.

All I wanna do is come running home to you,
Come running home to you.
And all my life I promise to keep running home to you,
Keep running home, to you.

And I could see it right from the start,
Right from the start,
That you would be, be my light in the dark,
Light in the dark.
Oh, you gave me no other choice but to love you.

All I wanna do is come running home to you,
Come running home to you.
And all my life I promise to keep running home to you,
Keep running home, to you.

Can’t say how the days will unfold,
Can’t change what the future will hold,
But I want you in it,
Every hour, every minute. 🎶

Iris West…

Will you marry me?

—  Barry Allen’s full proposal to Iris West
Chris Cornell.

I’ve been trying to think of what to write for a solid hour now. I’ll start something, then backspace every word until it’s all gone, and I think that’s how my mind and heart feels right now.

This isn’t just a case of a musician I was a casual fan of dying too young. Soundgarden is a band that I discovered as a child in the late ‘90s. I have fan art of Chris Cornell that I drew when I was 11 fucking years old. I had a silly teenage crush on him, too. There are old picture files on a zip drive I own that date back to 2004 with titles like “Ohh Chris!” and “So Sexy”.

And now this guy that was so much a part of those silly times is…gone. Just gone. He took his own life. God knows what led him to do this. It could have been the result of months or even years of heartache that wasn’t managed properly. It could have been an impulse decision made while upset, as so many suicides occur that way. None of us will ever know what was going on in his head last night.

His bandmates, his friends, his family, and millions of fans are now stuck in a horrid grieving process that will take a long time to work through. My first thought this morning after seeing that Chris was actually gone, as in gone and never coming back, was about how Jerry Cantrell is going to have to bury another fucking friend of his that died too young. Another one. He has had to watch dozens of people he loved die like this. The same could be said for any grunge musician right now. Another brother. Gone.

But I want to say something to all of you - nearly 1,000 of you - you are so fucking loved. If you’re not loved by the people in your life, there are people like me and others on the internet who are going to be there when your head starts slumping. Please, please take care of yourself. If you’re battling suicidal thoughts, please reach out to me or someone else. Don’t make an impulse decision to leave this world when you have so much more to offer, so much to give. I failed to take my own life three times. I am glad something stopped me each time. Death culture is rampant and it might be comforting to think about when times get rough, but please don’t die.

I am not okay. I’m probably not going to be okay for a while. Last night was a mess and I was already upset about that, but now that Chris is gone, the only thing I can do is kind of divorce myself from my emotions a bit. Regardless though, I am here for you. Please don’t do anything to hurt yourself. Maybe when my head settles we can have some kind of group session about this and play some Soundgarden tunes (or hell, even Audioslave or that jank Timbaland album) to get through this together. 

Chris Cornell, the second best voice in grunge, has been silenced, but recordings of that voice will be around for a very long time. I am so grateful for all the times I was inspired by his singing, his songwriting, and his sense of humor. Chris wasn’t just a pretty face - he was highly intelligent and had such a unique way of looking at fame and praise. He didn’t want to be a sex symbol. He didn’t take groupies. He didn’t have that same hedonistic attitude that befell so many other musicians. He was a cut above the rest, something truly special, and I’m going to remember him that way.

I’m going to remember Chris Cornell as the amazing person he was, not for what he did in a split second while alone and hollow inside. He is still full of life through the life he gave to others.

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get to know me meme: [1/10] cancelled tv shows
Nikita ( 2010 - 2013 )

I DON’T KNOW.


In which Genos is easily impressed by everything Saitama does p.2 ???

Egg n’ Toaster  ♥︎ ♥︎ ♥︎

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I had my first feature last night at a big venue on Hollywood Blvd and met my first fan that’s been following my work and performances since I started and I damn near fucking cried of happiness and got hella drunk and tried to fuck my boyfriend in the car after the show and all of my friends showed up and overall I just had a great fucking time, I have a great fucking life and I am fucking great!! 😭🙏🏽

Personal thoughts on the undertale fandom

I’ve been an asshole recently. I’m sorry. Hell, i didn’t want to make my own personal blog here, but people kept begging me to. I am my own person, and i have my own life. 

But that’s not the point.

I really do love the creativity i see in this fandom, and the devotion people have to it. Its amazing one small game i made has had such a huge effect on the world ( well, not that large ). It’s great that more people understand that fighting isn’t always the answer ( Though I didn’t even think the game would revolve around that when i started making the game ). I really do wish this blog could coexist apart from undertale, but if you really want to talk to me about it, sure, why not. You want to make NSFW art, sure. If you want to put unique spins on undertale, that’s also ok.

Stay determined everyone.

underrated queer culture things that i love:

- commenting on friends selfies like “i am so GAY i have never been gayer in my LIFE”

- alternatively commenting on friends selfies like “i am straight u have turned me straight this picture made me heterosexual”

- phrases starting with “when i was a heterosexual,” to refer to any time before u realised ur gayness

- are u an X gay or a Y gay?

- saying “that’s homophobic” whenever u don’t get ur way

- moodboards. we make so many moodboards for shit like “potato girlfriends” let’s never stop making them

- having token straight friends in group chats. how does this happen why is there always just one (1) token straight

- “what are u, straight?”

- no character that is loved is ever straight or cis give me nine million bi or pan trans headcanons for them

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