i am sorry for everything i am

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AU where Jungkook is desperate for Love and jimin is in an unhappy relationship until a meeting changes everything💕 part 43/ ? I am sorry for anymistakes that I made I am not native in english🙈 please give me feedback good or bad🙈💕 I hope you like this part💓 If you are new here use the # thanhisfirstau to find the other parts 💓 or you can click on the masterlist to find the links to each part💓

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MOLLY- “Why does everyone insist about talking about me like I am not right here in the room?? I got dementia, I am not deaf!”

HANK- “Sorry Molly.”

JILLIAN- “See, she is still mom.”

MOLLY- “Damn right I am your mom, and I think you need to give that kid a bath.  He smells like he shit again.”

COLTEN- “SHIT!!”

JILLIAN- “Mom, what did I tell you about cursing in front of him.  He picks up everything you say.  He is like a mocking bird.”

MOLLY- “Have you ever seen that movie To Kill a Mockingbird? Great movie…”

HANK- “It actually is one of my favorites.”

MOLLY- “So you staying for dinner Hank? I can have this damn maid get up off her ass and cook us some dinner, if you are hungry.”

JILLIAN- “MOM!!  the language! Please…”

HANK- “No, it’s okay, I ate before I came over. (it was only noon, he had just had breakfast.)

JILLIAN- “So you said you wanted to talk to Eddie?”

HANK- “Yeah is he home?”

JILLIAN- “Yeah, he is upstairs, I will go get him.  Mom how about you go in the kitchen and wait on me, and we can start lunch.”

If by chance you see this...

I still care tremendously about you. We may have jumped into things way too fast when we both were not ready. We may have had different needs and wants in a relationship. We may have brought out the worst in each other. BUT you still hold a special spot in my heart. Being with you taught me many valuable lessons. I can’t and won’t talk down about you because being with you may have only been temporary, but it was exactly what I needed at that point in my life. We did not end on good terms, and even after trying to smooth things over and make up for my mistakes, there are some things that just can’t be forced, and our friendship is one of them. I’m sorry things had to end the way they did. But it is for the best. I am sorry for everything. I am sorry you had to see the side of me that I am ashamed of. I am sorry I wasn’t on the same page as you. I am sorry you think that I only think down upon you, because that is far from the truth. I am sorry for all the heartache I caused you and for all the tears you shed because of me. I am sorry. I am sorry I tried so hard to make things work. I am sorry for being a drunk. I am sorry. I am sorry for being such a negative part of your life. You say you have forgiven me and are over it. Well, I am not. I can’t forgive myself. And for that I am sorry. I am sorry for existing. I am sorry. 

Most of us guessed that Navy would end up betraying everyone by the end of the episode. 

I don’t think most of us expected that having her go from this:

to this:

would be really good for Lapis’ mental health.

And despite certain people’s fears about certain story boarders… this was actually very much in character for her. I think it’s pretty safe to assume that Lapis has always been cynical, even in her pre mirror days. After she escaped she went from cynical to detached and apathetic. Not an unexpected defense mechanism for someone who was trapped in an inanimate object for 6,000 years. But she has made progress. She trusts Steven and Peridot. Enough not only to express her concerns, but to essentially make a confession.

Life on Earth is really confusing. It took me a long time to get use to it. I’m still getting use to it.

Given everything that’s happened to her on Earth, it’s only natural that she’s having a hard time adjusting. But she’s just confessed her biggest insecurity: she knows she’s having a hard time dealing with what she’s been through, while having to get use to to living a normal life on the planet where her greatest traumas happened. Before the rebellion she would have done her job and left for the next planet, Earth having been a distant memory by this time. But now she can never leave. Earth has to become home. 

She wants to move on, but feels guilty about how difficult actually doing that is.

So here comes this I-Insta-Love-All-Things-Earth ruby, who seems freakishly well adjusted from the moment she crashes face first into the planet. Never mind that she was lied to not once, but twice, by the crystal gems. Never mind that she was blasted out into space and abandoned while they stole her ship. All is instantly forgiven and she just wants to be a part of their happy family.

Worse yet? The people Lapis cares most about just buy it. They go right along with it as though Navy’s behavior is perfectly normal. It took time for Lapis to even begin to be okay with the idea of living in Earth and forgiving the crystal gems- she’s still working on it, and it’s painful. She’s worked so hard for every inch of progress she’s made, and here’s someone who’s seemingly able to move on the same day they got to Earth.

I just don’t get it. Why is it so easy for her when it was so hard for me? 

So when the perfectly well adjusted Navy turned out to be a gleeful sociopath  gleefully hell bent on revenge, everything fell into place.

Navy’s sudden but inevitable betrayal was the best thing to happen for Lapis’ mental health to date.

So what’s the take away from this? 1) People react differently to trauma. 2) Just because someone seems well adjusted doesn’t mean they are. 3) It’s okay to take a long time to heal from your traumas. It’s okay for it to be a constant work in progress. It’s okay not to be okay. 

And at the end of the day, that realization can almost feel like happiness. 

I know everyone is busy screaming about history, but I would like to casually remind everyone of the gift that no one has talked about enough. this is magical and amazing and none of you have appreciated it enough so HERE now you can watch/listen on repeat like me

My life feels like a badly written fan fiction with a good plot: it’s so awful and full of mistakes that I just don’t wanna go on, but I do want to know what happens next and how it ends.
—  Thoughts I’ll never speak out loud.
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Love is heavy and light, bright and dark, hot and cold…asleep and awake

—it’s everything except what it is (🔥 + ❄️)

Supergirl Characters as Goths

badass goth. lethal and smart. listens to bring me the horizon and slipknot. has that megan fox from jennifers body vibe. everyone wants to sleep with her

party goth. wild and smashes things. probably listens to MCR and the pretty reckless. will burn ur truck. also intense that even cops fall for her. rumour has it she made 8 girls cum at the same time with three knuckles alone

some kind of goth-hippie hybrid. head of the parents association of carter. daily snarks and roasts jessica who is a homophobe about her pies. sells weird and mystic antiques. has own book. gives huge donations to burning man. you will be enthralled by her wisdom.

RAWR XD


image credits to twitter user supermelissa

It’s strange but in a weird way, I miss my darkness… you know what I mean, the indifferent sadness that you resign yourself to when you’re completely and totally hopeless, when you no longer see a reason to try anymore so you kinda just shuffle along day after day, when nothing really matters because you don’t plan on living for much longer. Things that once ate away at you no long strike fear or anxiety into your heart cause “once I’m dead none of it’ll matter.” I’m told it’s fucked up to say because “Some people are dying to feel any other way! HOW DARE YOU WANT THAT BACK!!” Look at it from my point of view: when I didn’t have any purpose or motivation to exist, there was no stress about work, or school, or anything else; every problem just slipped away with my will to live. I could simply sink down into the darkness and embrace the silence. It’s different now that I’ve been “trying"again… It’s so much harder than before. It’s so fucking bright and loud!! but this time you’re not allowed to just walk away and cave in on yourself! You have to accept and acknowledge everything! And no matter how hard you try, you can no longer channel the familiar sanctuary that you’ve grown so accustomed to! You feel as though you don’t belong there, with the normal people, at all. After you’ve lived with the darkness for so long, can you ever truly return to the light? or will it always have those pieces of you, the ones that it took in the first place?
—  Thoughts I’ll never speak out loud.
(Sorry it’s so long, I’m awful at describing things so it takes me a while to do it)
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Happy 41st Birthday Benedict Timothy Carlton Cumberbatch (19 July 2017)

Keep smiling forever you sweet thing.