i am sorry for everything i am

N/A: So you know I do crackships, but I didnt had time today, have to study for an upcoming test. I hope you like it. It was requested, so anon hope you like it. Also I still have 2 requests in my inbox, but I won’t be posting them today. I am sorry, I really need to study for this test, but I posted 2, so hope you like it.

Also the gif is not mine, so if you own the gif I am sorry for using it without your permission.  



My Champ - Roman Burki

It was one terrible game, not terrible terrible, but those time of games where you want to scream and shout at the everyone because of some small stupid thing, it was that kind of a game. Both Bayern and Dortmund were playing hard, it was two great teams, and those are the times where you want to shout at everything that its done on the field. You wanted your boyfriend’s team to win, you wanted your team to win, you wanted Dortmund to win. You wanted to see Roman celebrate with his team mates, you wanted him to celebrate with you. You wanted to be along the fans and yell happy that your team had won.
You were watching the game next to the rest of Borussia Dortmund’s fans, not with the other WAG’s, because there, on the stands is where the game is perfectly watched, listening to the fans screams for their team, that was the perfect place to watch the game. You of course were wearing your boyfriend’s jersey  on, other fans had other players, but you stood faithfull to the man you loved. 

You were nervous for him, if he let the ball in the fans were going to turn against him, for a little while, but he needed to keep his goal, well goal free. That would be an amazing pun if you were trying. 

You were watching the game, if you had nails, well they are now gone from the stress of watching that nerve wrecking game. But you and everyone else had hope that Dortmund was going to win, so when the first goal was made by Marco everyone stood and started shouting with happiness, even you did that. You looked at your boyfriend that was also celebrating. But then Bayern got a penalty and Robert scored and the game was now at 1-1. Both teams were equal, and Dortmund needed to win. 

It was almost in the end, a few seconds to the end when Auba decided to score another goal giving Dortmund the advantage. When the last whistle blow sounded we were holding our breaths waiting for it, and when it came, well ever heard of that quote “Hell broke loose”? Because it happen, screams of happiness were could probably be heard everywhere. It was a nice game, but Dortmund won. Your team won, your boyfriend won.

After a few minutes the players started leaving the pitch, fans started to leave. You had to wait to take your boyfriend home, so you walked out of the stadium towards your car waiting. Fans could be watched waving their yellow and black flags and scarfes. The Bayern fans were doing the same, even if their team won, it didn’t stopped them from celebrating a great game. 

A few minutes passed but the fans could still be heard, a little far away but still. You looked at the stadium exit and smiled when you saw Dortmund’s team leaving and saying goodbye to each other while they made their ways probably towards home with their girlfriends. You couldn’t stop smiling when you saw your boyfriend. He was smiling back, when he walked towards you first thing he did was put his things down and wrap his arms around you kissing you.

  - Hello there champ. - you kissed him back.
  - Champ? Did you saw the game, I let one ball in.
  - It was a penalty.“ A penalty is a cowardly way to score.”
  - Where did you heard that in the first place? - he asked laughing.
  - Pelé, The Autobiography. So it doesn’t matter, we won Roman, that is all we need to think now.
  - It was a hard game.
   - And we won, now lets go home and celebrate shall we?
   - Yes we shall. - he smiled getting inside the car.
   - “The more difficult the victory, the greater the happiness in winning”
   - Another Pelé quote?
   - Yeah. I love you champ.
   - I love you too.

It was a hard game, it was a stressfull game. But they won.

Most of us guessed that Navy would end up betraying everyone by the end of the episode. 

I don’t think most of us expected that having her go from this:

to this:

would be really good for Lapis’ mental health.

And despite certain people’s fears about certain story boarders… this was actually very much in character for her. I think it’s pretty safe to assume that Lapis has always been cynical, even in her pre mirror days. After she escaped she went from cynical to detached and apathetic. Not an unexpected defense mechanism for someone who was trapped in an inanimate object for 6,000 years. But she has made progress. She trusts Steven and Peridot. Enough not only to express her concerns, but to essentially make a confession.

Life on Earth is really confusing. It took me a long time to get use to it. I’m still getting use to it.

Given everything that’s happened to her on Earth, it’s only natural that she’s having a hard time adjusting. But she’s just confessed her biggest insecurity: she knows she’s having a hard time dealing with what she’s been through, while having to get use to to living a normal life on the planet where her greatest traumas happened. Before the rebellion she would have done her job and left for the next planet, Earth having been a distant memory by this time. But now she can never leave. Earth has to become home. 

She wants to move on, but feels guilty about how difficult actually doing that is.

So here comes this I-Insta-Love-All-Things-Earth ruby, who seems freakishly well adjusted from the moment she crashes face first into the planet. Never mind that she was lied to not once, but twice, by the crystal gems. Never mind that she was blasted out into space and abandoned while they stole her ship. All is instantly forgiven and she just wants to be a part of their happy family.

Worse yet? The people Lapis cares most about just buy it. They go right along with it as though Navy’s behavior is perfectly normal. It took time for Lapis to even begin to be okay with the idea of living in Earth and forgiving the crystal gems- she’s still working on it, and it’s painful. She’s worked so hard for every inch of progress she’s made, and here’s someone who’s seemingly able to move on the same day they got to Earth.

I just don’t get it. Why is it so easy for her when it was so hard for me? 

So when the perfectly well adjusted Navy turned out to be a gleeful sociopath  gleefully hell bent on revenge, everything fell into place.

Navy’s sudden but inevitable betrayal was the best thing to happen for Lapis’ mental health to date.

So what’s the take away from this? 1) People react differently to trauma. 2) Just because someone seems well adjusted doesn’t mean they are. 3) It’s okay to take a long time to heal from your traumas. It’s okay for it to be a constant work in progress. It’s okay not to be okay. 

And at the end of the day, that realization can almost feel like happiness. 

Too late…


Dedicated to certain members of the skk discord group (you know who you are) who have been screaming for crying Dazai since weeks ago

p.s. I made my own insta (yulicechan) so don’t repost my art without permission anymore T_T

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On the ninth day of christmas my true love gave to me

nine volleyhomos

eight crows and kittiesseven ushiwakas, (a) six foot tall russian, five volleyballs, four seijou darlings, three ugly sweaters, two stupid volleybirbs & the greatest brotp

2. A Hot Kiss (from this list)

for anon, who requested #2 with adrinette! i hope you enjoy this, lovely ♥

“Hey, Felix?”

It was a play.

“Yeah?”

It was just a play.

“Do you believe in soulmates?”

It was just play-acting for the crowd at their backs, and it meant nothing.

And if he told himself that enough times, Adrien thought as Marinette reeled him in with her eyes alone, then maybe, one day, he’d start to believe it.

He didn’t have ‘one day’ though; this was the one and only showing of the play the drama club had worked on all year, and like hell was Adrien going to fall out of character just because Marinette was spectacularly talented.

He somehow remained stoic enough to pass for ‘Felix’ as Marinette tiptoed up to him, those blue eyes glowing radioactive in the stage lights.

“Do you ever just… meet someone?” she murmured, just loud enough to be picked up by their microphones, making every hair on his scalp stand straight up as she trailed her fingertips from the corner of his jaw to his chin. “And think… ‘I was waiting for you’?”

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“With bros like Jack, who needs enemies?” @therealjacksepticeye @pewdie

An inverted drawing i did today and man was it hard

I am so looking forward to Scare Pewdiepie S2, especially with these two together!!

okay but i wanna talk about this, because, i have a lot of feelings about this:

this little moment they have is right before they’re kissing against the wall. this little moment. it’s so sweet? and so playful? there’s very clearly tongue action going on, but, even then, it’s SO SWEET? and … yes i’m gonna use THAT word, domestic? like, these 2 haven’t kissed in SO long, and this is literally like one of those kisses you see where you’re kissing SO much that you’re literally tilting your head all the way, like isak is doing here, because you just don’t wanna BREAK the kiss? because isak’s missed even SO MUCH, he doesn’t wanna stay away ANY longer. 

and to some, this may look like such an AWKWARD angle? like, super uncomfortable and just really … yeah, AWKWARD? but, i LOVE that it is so … because it’s so SO much more … realistic? i don’t really believe much in “perfect kissing” and “perfect kisses” where your nose is at a 48.763 degree angle to the other person’s and yada yada,, because, fuck man, when does that kinda stuff ever happen in real life? 

kissing is MEANT to be all awkward angles yet still kissing DESPITE being in those awkward angles because you don’t wanna break away, and kissing is, stumbling backwards, but CONTINUING to kiss anyway. and kissing is “i’m gonna bend my head all the way even if it means straining my neck as much as i can because i simply wanna KEEP ON KISSING you”, just like isak is here.

and ugh, i just have /A LOT OF FEELINGS/ about this part.

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More Pabbi!Glæpur Au which is what I guess I’m calling it, b/c I have a basic outline down, and I am self-indulging like no tomorrow, and I cannot even begin to regret it.

do not think for a second a baby would slow this boy’s crime

I’m sorry I could never be the daughter you wanted

People always like others better than me. I’m not needed on this planet why the fuck am I here..

I couldn’t resist.

@stardefiant @skammmed