i am somewhat really freaking out

I’m working on a wedding present and I really like how it’s turning out so I thought I’d share. This is about halfway finished, and I have so much more to do! The wedding is THIS Friday so I’m slightly freaking out. I know it won’t get done in time. But I can try!

Also, since I am working on this in all my free time, this is why you all haven’t gotten a story update. I’ve been jotting down my ideas and sketches to keep those inspirations fresh for the moments I do have to write!

I am freaking outttt

Okay, so I have literally wanted to share this for two and a half hours so I apologise if it comes out as complete nonsense. So, I have just been to a performance by the Britten Sinfonia of the St. John Passion at the Barbican, which was absolutely incredible. However, I was somewhat distracted by the presence of JEMMA BLOODY REDGRAVE who happened to be sitting on the SAME ROW as me! I honestly thought I was going to scream when I noticed her and I had to try so hard not to stare at her for the entire performance. I was too nervous to speak to her and I don’t think I would have been able to form a coherent sentence if I had, but our row was separated by the stairs and I shit you not, when it finished I walked NEXT TO HER the whole way up the stairs! She was by herself so she left straight away but I was actually overjoyed to walk next to her. She is just as beautiful in person as she is on screen and she made a simple shirt and jeans look absolutely stunning. My day has been well and truly made

so let’s talk about this “cheeky cheeky idea” dan mentioned recently on his live show.

i have seen people either shrug it off or flip the fuck out thinking that it’s him coming out or some shit like that and honestly some people are taking it way too far and getting into fights with other people about what this video is about on different social media platforms. here’s the thing. dan announced this out of the goodness of his heart and there are fans taking advantage of that little thing he said and blowing it up into something much bigger. and it’s gotten a little out of hand so i just wanted to make this post before people went bat-shit crazy. it’s alright to ship phan, it’s alright to not ship phan, it’s alright to have your own opinions about this “long time coming” video. i’m not saying you can’t. but what i am saying is that while you have your own opinions, don’t get butthurt when other’s disagree with yours. if you think it has something to do with his (and phil’s) personal life that’s great!!!!! if you think it involves his professional life, fantastic!!!!! but don’t freak out and be so quick to fight people that don’t think the same thing as you. the phandom can be a really really sweet place full of nice and caring people that help each other out but things like that are making us get a bad rep and turning things somewhat sour. and the boys don’t want their fans fighting or flipping shit on each other, imagine how that would make them feel knowing that that’s what their fanbase has come to. so please, take this rant into consideration and spread the word. RESPECT EVERYONE’S OPINION AND DON’T BE SO QUICK TO PICK A FIGHT WITH PEOPLE. thank you.


Seriously though I am seriously obsessed with Sin and her daddy blog like??? She got me into daddy hell??? Got me low-key thirsty with her replies and ficlets and drabbles and she has to be like the only harry potter blog I follow that updates daily, or at least not every other day and she has decided to grace me with a follow and notice me and senpai is actually noticing me gosgwogirnai I really aM SQUEALING HERE NOW SOMEBODY PINCH ME–


somewhat? (*sweatdrops at self because most of my posts are about mystic messenger and I don’t reblog sin because my friends freak out*)

… SOMEWHAT. *excitedly glomps sin in all of her glory*

striders, bfs, and cleanliness

karkat and jake bond over what fucking utter pigs the striders can be. jake’s room is sort of a sty but nothing compares to dirk “I have vague piles of somewhat similar objects” strider or dave “I strung cords into a spiderweb and told everybody it was for irony when really I am just bad at organization” strider. jake has hoarding tendencies but when given space for his shit that is bigger than one room finds it easy to spread his shit out and keep it at least a little clean – he’s not grandpa age yet, after all. karkat, meanwhile, we all know karkat is the universe’s biggest fucking neat freak. he is constantly complaining about how dave lets garbage pile up and one day he and jake go through and clean up the house to the wailed “I HAVE A SYSTEM” of dirk and the eyebrow-furrowed befuddlement of dave.

immediately after, jake leaves to clean up and dave is still busy working on some music so dirk and karkat get to talking. initially they were uncomfortable as fuck with each other but as time has gone by and they’ve both figured out the other one is mostly pretending at competence, they’ve gotten to like each other. 

dirk jokes that he has no idea how jake is going to know what to do in the shower since there’s like 50 bottles of product and he has only ever used a washcloth and a single bar of soap. karkat finds this hilarious and tells dirk that he is pretty sure dave never even used scrubrags until karkat got on his case for not doing so. this turns into a beautiful conversation about their boyfriends’ respective thickheadedness w/r/t hygiene. karkat doesn’t entirely follow when dirk starts pontificating on the difference between cleanser and moisturizer. doesn’t matter. they bond over this the same way jake and karkat bond over the striders being messy as fuck.

(similarly, jake and dave bond over how weirdly neurotic their boyfriends are – while jake mostly talks about how vain and fucking precious dirk is about his appearance, dave talks about how karkat flips out if there is even a speck of dirt on the rug, but the bonding happens anyway)

anonymous asked:

hi!! ok well recently i found out that my crush likes me back and at first i was really excited. but now i am just worried that i'm not ready for a relationship and im just a little freaked out in general. i realized that this usually happens whenever i date a girl because im still somewhat ashamed to be gay and i don't want a lot of people to know and it just freaks me out. in the past i have acted ashamed to be dating a girl and freaked out when i was around them in public and idk wat to do

Idk tbh just explain to her what’s happened and how you’re slowing coming to terms with yourself

when am i gonna grow up and just be chill. like one of those boring people who just dont really freak out or unnecessarily get excited or get mad. like just a chill adult who knows at least somewhat what they’re doing. when am i gonna grow up to be like that like.

Skyping the Parents: Dan Howell

Thanks to the anon for the request, sorry it took so long.

Rain pattered against the glass of the windows as I scroll aimlessly through tumblr. It was simply another dull Tuesday afternoon, and I laid on my stomach with my laptop in front of me. Dan, my boyfriend, rubbed circles on the back of my calf as he did the same–scroll. 

I jumped when the tone for an Incoming call on Skype sounded through the room and I saw my Mom’s failed attempt at a selfie as the profile. 

Smiling, I answered. “Hi Mom!” I said once it connected. 

“Can you hear me? Hello?” she yelled through the computer.

“I can hear you fine, Mom.” I laughed and Dan’s hand stopped rubbing circles. He must be nervous about meeting my mother. I just won’t mention him unless she asks.

“Where are you? That’s not your apartment.”

I spoke too soon. 

I laughed nervously and looked over at Dan. His face was tense, but he held a certain happiness to it as well. A smile spread across his cheeks and he shrugged, signaling to me it would be fine for me to tell her. 

“Well, don’t freak out, but I have been kind of seeing this guy,” I said, somewhat cringing,waiting for her screeches. 

“Oh my goodness! Really? Where is he? Can I meet him? Oh let me go get your father,” and she swiftly jumped from her desk and scurried off to get my Dad. 

I turned to Dan, pulling my eyebrows together, “Are you okay with this?”

He smiled down at me, and kissed my forehead, “I am perfectly happy with it. Seriously, like, I have wanted to for a while, I just didn’t think I would be in my Pokemon shirt. 

“Is that him?” my mom screamed through Skype, with my father now sitting next to her, squinting at the screen.

“Mom, Dad, this is Dan,” I said, pulling Dan into the view of the camera. 

“Oh, he’s so cute!” she said, clasping her hands together.

“Hi, Mr. and Mrs. (Y/L/N), it’s nice to meet you.” Dan said polity.

We all talked for a while before my mom said she was late for her Book Club, so we said our goodbye’s.

“I think that went really well,” I said, turning to Dan after. 

“What can I say, I am the type of guy you would bring home to your parents,” he said, tucking a strand of my hair around my ear, before leaning down to kiss me.

“And you’re humble too,” I said, smiling against his lips.




Am I troyesivan yet?

Lol. having a moment right now. A mini freak out I suppose. In a good way. I usually am somewhat satisfied in how I render hair. It’s a long time struggle of mine. The bane of my existence….but right now I’m actually really pleased with how it’s lookin’ so far… ahahaha
ft. tiny doodle of saitama. started reading one punch man after I started watching it, it’s hilarious and the art is reaally noice

The Zoo

Based off of this ? because Honestly i am so done & tired of this drama so i’m just going to make it into a joke. 

“Why are we at the zoo, Liam?” Niall asks, somewhat timidly. Liam had a tendency to take Niall to do these kind of childish things whenever bad things happened. Like last time, when Zayn… left (it still hurt for Niall to even think the words) Liam took him on a safari. 

Not that Niall didn’t love doing it, because Niall really really loves animals, but he was just a little freaked out at the moment. Niall had his fingers crossed in his lap during the entire car ride, silently praying that something terrible didn’t happen again. 

Liam spares Niall a side glance from where he’s sitting in the drivers seat, putting the car into park. “Don’t you love the zoo, Niall?” Liam asks, sounding a little bit wounded and Niall is quick to reassure him. 

“No! I Mean, Yes! I love the zoo, Li, but why are we going?” Niall asks, face scrunched up in confusion. 

Liam’s face goes blank for a second, and Niall recognizes it this time. The exact same face that he pulled whenever Niall questioned him during the Safari. Niall’s face drops immediately. 

Niall’s lower lip pouted out immediately and Liam’s eyes widened, jumping to put Niall at ease before the blonde began crying. “I just want to do something fun with you Ni!” He says excitedly, and Niall nearly believes him. 

Niall’s face doesn’t change and tears begin to form in his eyes. “Harry isn’t leaving, is he?” He says, his voice quivering and his face crumpled. 

Liam jumps forward, gathering Niall into a hug, “Niall, no, Niall!” Liam exclaims, hugging the Irish lad tightly to his chest from the drivers seat. “In fact, if you get out, I think you’ll be a lot more excited about today…” Liam suggests and Niall is already out the door, still sniffling and shaking a bit. 

Liam gets out as well, taking Niall’s hand in his own as he drags the boy over to the other side of the parking lot. Niall seems confused, eyebrows furrowed until he sees the familiar black range rover.

Niall’s eyes light up and he squeals excitedly dragging Liam over to where Harry is leaning against his car, Louis next to him. Both of them have somewhat solumn looks on his face. Liam gives them a knowing look whilst Niall just assumes their grumpy faces were because they hadn’t seen him yet. 

“Harry!” He calls, positively beaming at the long-haired boy as he leaps into his arms. Harry’s sad face breaks at the sound of Niall’s voice, instantly grabbing the blonde into his arms and lifting him off the ground. 

“Niall!” He calls right back, even though the Irish boy is already in his arms. 

Louis lets out an annoyed sigh, “What about Louis, where’s my hug, Nialler?” 

Niall lets out an excited laugh, jumping from Harry’s arms to Louis’, exclaiming, “Sorry, Lou, but I haven’t seen Harry in ages. I missed you too though, even though its only been a day.”

Louis concedes, loosing his angry demeanor at Niall’s genuine words.  “So, we going to do this thing or what?” He asks, gesturing to the zoo’s entrance. 

Niall laughs excitedly, practically buzzing as Harry grips his hand tightly and runs towards the entrance with the blonde in tow. 

“You were right. This was a good idea.” Louis nods as he and Liam walk after the two younger boys. 

Liam grins. “Better than taking away his phone without any explanation.” He agrees. Louis laughs half-heartedly and Liam pauses, “You’re alright though, right?”

“Yeah.” Louis says truthfully. “It’s fine, we’ll get over it eventually.” He says hopefully. Liam nods in agreement. “We’re best friends. All of us, we’ll get over it.”

They both smile as Niall begins calling their names exasperatedly from the toll booth, were he and Harry are waiting impatiently. 

“You did take away his phone right?” Louis asserts as they make their way to the two waiting boys. 

Liam scoffs, “Of course I did.” 

* * * *

“And– Holy shit! Giraffes are amazing I love them all they’re my favorite.” Niall shouts, pure happiness laced in his tone. 

Liam laughs along with the others, “Niall you said that about the Lions, and the Elephants too.” 

Niall playfully glares at him, settling his back against Louis’ snugly. The zoo was pretty dead because it was the middle of the week, so they weren’t particularly worried about any unwanted photography being taken. “I can have more than one favorite.” He grumbles. 

“Yeah, Liam, let the boy live a little, geez.” Louis goads, grinning behind Niall. Liam shakes his head, raising his hands in defense. Harry bounces over pulling Niall away from Louis, who sticks his tongue out at him, and presses both of their backs against the barrier that marks the giraffe habitat. 

“Smile, Ni.” Harry encourages, pulling out his phone and readying himself for a selfie. 

Niall’s face scrunches once more, his accusing gaze turning to Liam. “Wait, why is Harry allowed to have his phone?”  

Liam sputters, as Louis groans, knowing that the jig is up. Niall immediately recognizes the guilty faces and he pouts once more.


“No! Tell me what happened this time. God!” Niall exclaims, his face screwed up in fury, “Why don’t you guys ever tell me anything, I never get to know anything until it doesn’t even matter anymore and it’s just not f-” 

Louis sighs heavily, “Niall, calm down.” He orders, and Harry grabs Niall from around the waist in an attempt to calm the boy. Niall frowns but allows Harry to hold him, and stops rambling. “Look, it was just a twitter fight that I had with he-who-shall-not-be-named, and Zayn might’ve cut in and said something back to me.” Louis says quickly. 

Niall’s face is marred with confusion. “What did he say?” he asked, not understanding what Zayn could’ve said that was so bad. The last Niall heard, Zayn was only saying kind things about their band. After all, it was Zayn’s choice to leave. Why would he be meaningfully cruel to any of them?

Louis shakes his head, “Just told me to back off and stop bitching about his life, really.” He says, not wanting to look at the hurt look in Niall’s eyes. “Niall, I was bitching about his life, plus he probably didn’t really mean it and it was directed at me not anyone else, so-”

“He took he-who-shall-not-be-named’s side?” Niall asks in a small voice, leaning against Harry’s chest with all of his weight. 

Liam stood at this. “It’s not about sides, Niall.” He makes his way to the teary blonde, taking his hands in his own as the blonde sat in Harry’s lap. “We have to respect what Zayn’s doing in his life, even if we aren’t a part of it. Honestly, none of us have done a good job of it. I’m not saying we have to be nice to that asshol- he-who-shall-not-be-named, but we have to support Zayn.” He says firmly. “He’s still our fifth member, alright? No turning back on him, not now, not ever.” Liam says, and then they’re all in tears. Four grown men at a zoo, one sitting in another’s lap, all tearing up and getting emotional over a fight they’re having with a friend. 

Niall laughs shakily. “I love you guys.” He says, pressing his face into Liam’s shoulder, wet cheeks dampening Liam’s shirt. 

Louis laughs along with him, voice suddenly thick and gravely as well. “Seconded, lads.” 

Harry doesn’t say anything, just clings onto Niall’s waist, cheek resting on the blonde’s back as he grinned at Louis and Liam. Niall then struggled for a moment, all of them breaking apart from each other as Niall continued down the path, “We’re loosing daylight, boys, we still have to see the tigers!” He giggled childishly as he skipped down the pavement. 

The others rush to keep up with him and then skid to a stop as he turns on his heel. “But seriously, next time can we just talk it out and then go on fun bonding trips? I really hate being the oblivious one of the group.” Niall says, and the other boys agree, each nodding even though they’re positive that any time anyone says anything remotely unkind about their band or Niall himself, that he will “loose” his internet connection until they get the damn person in line. 

Harry slings an arm around Niall’s waist and Liam places a comforting hand on Louis’ back as the two blue eyed boys link hands. Their hearts heart a little bit, trying to heal the Zayn-shaped piece that was a bit cracked and a little burnt, but they had faith in their Bradford boy. Hopefully, they’ll fix up all of the tension within the next few days, this time over the phone rather than publicly on Twitter. 

Niall sighed happily against his boys that night as they all cuddled up to watch a few Disney movies, knowing that they would be just fine. 

I hope none of you guys hate Zayn.

That’s all I will say about the matter. I want to keep including Zayn in my writings, and I really hope you guys will still read and enjoy them because I honestly am just staying out of the boys’ personal business for now. They’re best friends and best friends fight. Remember that you guys. 

I won’t be writing about this fight or anything like it after this fic, so yeah I will just be going back to pretending everything is just fine and dandy as always :) 

I know this wasn’t very good, I’m having a lot of trouble writing this week and I am SWAMPED with work. Good news: I’ll be done by May 29th Bad news: I won’t be updating much until after then. And maybe a bit more because I’ll be traveling after that. I’m really sorry and I hope y’all will stick with me through these tough weeks ;_; 

Prompts are open! You can prompt me any Niall-centered relationship/fic (I do baby!Niall and AUs as well as smut prompts) I do any OT3, OT4, and OT5. You can see my previous writings here! You can see my face .0. here

anonymous asked:

Personally, I disagree with the anon who says the likeness between you and Tom isn't massive. I think you really capture your features and enhance them perfectly! You're a huge role model to me in my Loki cosplaying and pray that you feel as proud of yourself as I feel of you ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you!
I think it’s absolutely subjective, to be honest. I CAN’T see it, but others point it out often, and even Tom said that we should make the same expression to freak people out, so I am not sure what to think/see/agree with.

This is an example with my improves make up, compared to Tom. I personally think I only have a similar nose and a very close jaw line and the rest is totally different, but with make up and Loki-hair it’s close enough to look somewhat like him?!

I think I manage to look “Loki”-ish when I want to, and that’s all I really aim for, I don’t really aim for Tom-Loki, but Loki-Loki. If that makes sense?!


In honor of getting to 500+ followers on this account I wanted to do another follow forever; I have now had this account for 2 months and 10 Days and I could not be more thrilled to have such great, supporting and darn right lovely followers who with some I have become quite close with; I am honestly so happy that I have gotten this far so quickly and I hope I am still doing Lydia the real justice she deserves.

Here is the reasons why you are either on or are not on my follow forever and just remember I love you all dearly:

Now below are all the blogs that I love; have interacted with in or out of character…blogs highlighted in bold are either blogs I love and stalk cautiously from afar or I have only had little contact with and would love more; before I make the list there are 2 people I want to give special mention to as they have been very kind to me on my writing and OOC talking and for that I love you: 

bringaladder- Although both of our replying goes at a snail pace (due to our very busy and sometimes procrastinating lifestyles (mainly me on the procrastination)) I would like to say thank you for starting up a conversation in the silly little tags at the bottom of each of your replies; without them I probably would not be freaking out about the many TV shows we both watch and I would not be so comfortable in the Teen Wolf community if it wasn’t for you, and for that I am very very grateful and you may not know it yet (Sorry, this is starting to sound like a bible so I shall stop) but I love you. 

scaredeverything- We only really talk occasionally but our occasional burst of feels due to our threads and conversations really keeps me happy (although they are somewhat heartbreaking at times) Thank you for giving me ideas for my YouTube videos and commenting on them; it really helps me build my creativity and you are just great! 

Now to everyone else who I love and care for just as deeply:


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All of the above names are my follow forever’s; I would love more than anything to put all my followers here but I can’t so I narrowed it down. But to everyone thank you so so much for making me feel welcome as Lydia and for joining me for this long! I am forever grateful. I love you all.

Anyone I could not tag have been taken from the list (as I have incredible OCD at times and are situated in the tags)