i am so happy of myself!

I just saw this video by Trisha where she talks about body shaming and how from the age of 8 kids used to call her fat, ugly and disgusting and I am crying so hard right now because it started when I was 8 too. 

And then for 7 years of my life I had to part myself between school and having perfect grades to dancing class and swimming classes so that I could be thin. At fucking 8 years old I started to worry about how to lose weight so that people won’t judge me. A child that small should NOT worry about their body, they should be happy and living their lives not living a hell like I did. I got skinnier but they still called me names so I just gave up. Dancing was my passion but seeing how no matter how thin or how many shows I had or awards won, kids in my school would still avoid me and call me fat and ugly all the time, made me stop doing anything.

Then I got back to my big self and those 4 years of highschool were A NIGHTMARE, I am in a very good place mentally right now but looking back at how I was treated back then, I am surprised I didn’t kill myself and stop it all.

SO NEVER EVER IN YOUR LIVES CALL SOMEONE, ESPECIALLY A CHILD FAT AND DISGUSTING. They will live with it for the rest of their lives and it will hunt them forever. Your 5 seconds of fun and jokes are the equivalent of a lifetime dealing with insecurities, trust issues and eating disorders for the person they are making fun of.

anonymous asked:

Just finished part one of the Rivals series. While waiting for the next part excuse me while I go listen to all the song lists, listen to the podfic, read all fics inspired by this masterpiece, and cry myself to sleep. Thank you so much I am actually genuinely appreciative of you ruining my life I mean this is all I live for now rly 👍

I’m happy to help ;)

SourceFed

I’ve been watching SourceFed since almost the beginning and SourceFed Nerd. And I just watched most of the live stream today and managed to keep myself together without crying.

But then someone liked a screen cap I took four years ago of an old comment commentary and I ugly cried all over the place.

I adored watching the SourceFed channels. They were one of my inspirations for starting my own channel, I have always adored the work they did, and was constantly jealous of all the cool content they made. (But jealous in a good way.) Those channels were one of my go-to happy places during my shitty high school years.

And I’m so, so sad to see it go.

Since I myself am trying to make a successful YouTube channel, I couldn’t not acknowledge the end of a channel that has helped shape my goals in life.

(Also if anyone wants to help me create a knock-off SourceFed hit me up.)

coming out

i finally came out publicly on twitter and instagram and it’s never felt so good. tumblr has been my secret little world where i could be open with myself with no fear of people finding out. but i’ve accepted myself and im finally completely out of my closet that’s been hiding who i was for such a long time. i’m
so happy to finally be open with who i really am.

Even if no one actually reads this…hi, I’m Maddie. Recently I have found the strength to let go of all the weight from my past. I lost myself while trying to be perfect for someone else. It took some time, mistakes, and acceptance to finally return back to the happy girl I once left behind. I’ve learned so much, and I am so proud of the girl I have become. It takes a lot to let go of what once was and accept the fact that some things just aren’t meant to work out. Today, and everyday I will never forget to love myself first.

anonymous asked:

Hi there! Here I am, with almost 27 years and it just hit me recently that I might be bisexual. I´ve never had a relationship what so ever and I still have to overcome some self issues. But can I tell you, I am so happy, that it hit me now and not in my teenage years, because I can be so chilled about it and actually enjoying explore that, without having trouble getting comfy with myself. Stay happy, Hana! <3

That’s amazing ❤❤❤ I hope you find your happiness :) 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

anonymous asked:

Can I get a ship please? I love music and I love to dance. Both music and dance are my passion. I still am very confused with on what my dream is because I am very insecure. I doubt myself too much. I am very shy but once you get to know me I am SO weird and crazy. I love animals too and I have a soft heart but gosh I curse a lot. I sleep a lot. Sometimes I can be very competitive. I am the type of person who sacrifices her own happiness for the happiness of others. Thank u~ I love ur blog btw!!

I ship you with Hoseok!

Originally posted by hobipd

Hobi would always be there to support you, no matter what your ambition might be. He would remind you time and time again that you have no reason to doubt yourself, his sunshine smile lifting your mood.  He would also appreciate if you show him your weird and loud side, adoring you for all the sides of your personality. You two would make everyone around you happy, since you’d keep each other in check making sure that when one feels down or sad the other would always be there to cheer them up!

-Moon

Hi tumblr! I’m not very well known around here and I have been pretty inactive in terms of posting my art but I am in a very sticky situation and I could really use some help.

Through a combination of going through a rough financial time at the moment and through not planning my spending accordingly I am finding myself struggling for money. 

So I would really hope that some of you lovely people would consider taking one of my £5 commission slots. I encourage you to lookthrough my /own-art tag on my page to see more of my work.

I am happy to draw from whatever fandom you choose and of course any original characters you may have! Or even a portrait of your fine self. 

Even just a reblog to spread this post around would be really appreciated. 

If you’re interested just shoot me an ask or email me here: k.richmond.9@gmail.com

jadaxmarie  asked:

Once you get this you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly, And then send it to TEN of your favorite followers! <3

Thanks for sending this and thanks to the Anon who also sent this in too!

  • Gamer - I’m a massive gamer and I love that I am! I don’t know why, it’s just something I really like about myself. I’m super into video games.
  • Eyes - My most favourite physical feature. I got big hazel eyes!
  • Positive - I’m a pretty positive person. I’ll do my best to think about the better things rather than about the bad.
  • Optimistic - I’m in university studying Film and I plan on editing a Hollywood movie one day. Gotta dream big!
  • Happy - I’m at my happiest right now. I’ve never been this happy before and I’m just really appreciative that I can be so happy about who I am and where I am right now. I mean I was happy before, but this is a whole other level.

anonymous asked:

i was sexually assaulted for years as a kid and i still have bitterness and anger and i've been trying to work on my self love. if you have any tips for relieving anger and/or to help with self love that'd be very kind xxx

I am still trying to work on the whole forgiveness thing myself. The thing that sort of helped me was channeling my anger into something positive- ie that I would like a good and happy life just to spite them. I’m a really stubborn person and i channeled that into not accepting anything less than happiness and self love, so that I wouldn’t give them the satisfaction of taking my life away from me when they had already taken so much. Good luck lovely, I’m so proud of you ou are very brave 🌹

Casually adding this to the list of things that I wish had happened

MADDOX-RIDER; 2016 ART SUMMARY

You can say I spend majority of my year with Dan & Phil. I am so glad that the phandom welcomed me with open arms. I made a lot of new friends, did fun projects and achieved many goals that I’ve set for myself; like having an entire art summary filled with colours+digital and completing inktober. To me, it was been a very successful year. I may or may not still be in the phandom but where ever my art takes me, I hope to create new memories in 2017 like this year.

Jan: Kiss Me
Feb: Phamily
Mar: Dentist Kink
Apr: Shibes!
May: Love Me Like You Do
June: If I lose myself 
July: Majestic Pastel
Aug: Team Mystic
Sept: Only one
Oct: TATINOF
Nov: Phanime
Dec: Secret Santa

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“When the moon fell in love with the sun
All was golden in the sky”

anonymous asked:

Jw why do you hc lance as dyslexic? I don't want to seem rude and I'm not dissing your hc, I just wanted to know why (I'm really hope this doesn't come off offensive, I'm just genuinely curious)

not offensive at all! i’m happy to explain why i headcanon him as dyslexic :D

for one thing, i myself am dyslexic so i can spot the traits in Lance that give off a dyslexia vibe

exibit A) flying a spaceship simulator is hell because there are buttons all over the place and it’s easy to forget what each one does/easy to misread the labels and mix them up, no wonder Lance always crashes it

(one can argue it’s because Lance gets easily distracted, i think it’s a mix of both)

exibit B) math is confusing af and its really easy to get numbers that look/sound the same mixed up. it’s also easy to get your basic addition, subtraction, multiplication shit mixed up too

lmao shut up keith he knows that, he just gets it mixed up

exibit C) weird af motor skills when there’s a lot goin’ on at once

exhibit D) celebrates the tiny wins bc he doesn’t win a lot

exhibit E) disliked school enough as a child to pretend he was sick to get out of having to go, and if you’re a dyslexic who hasn’t been diagnosed and put in a special learning class to aid your learning disability yet, you are going to hate school with a burning passion and will try to avoid going in any way you can

exhibit F) clever come backs on the spot????? who???? bitch i need time to think of a clever response you don’t just come up with something witty to say right off the bat

exhibit G) insecure af??? he thinks he’s pathetic??? feels like a 7th wheel??? doesn’t think he has a “thing”????? doubts his capabilities?????? has a shit self esteem???????? all these are common things to feel for people with dyslexia because they struggle so much

literally fuck you Iverson. how dare you attack his self worth like that

also, i want to refer back to a quote i once read from an official website on the learning disorder, which is “the most consistent thing about dyslexics is their inconsistency”, and i think that ties in really well with Lance representing water, which is also inconsistent af. i think that’s one of the key roots to Lance’s “i feel like i don’t have a thing” insecurity. 

so yeah, this is why i headcanon Lance as dyslexic. as someone who has dyslexia myself, i see a lot of myself in Lance’s behavior, and can relate to a lot of the things he does/says/feels. 

thank you for asking!