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I was honestly so angry at the people blaming Nina for Azazel’s plan failing last week.

But look at her now. She didn’t know anything about what was going on with Azazel’s plan. Yet he indirectly implied that she was working with the demons in his moment of desperation to save Mugaro. Nina was literally just at the wrong place at the wrong time. What was her response?

Apologize to Azazel and put the full blame on herself. She is incredibly selfless.

Quick Lucifer 2x18 photo interpretation.

What we know so far:
Charlotte wants the piece and Amenadiel refuses to give it to her. Same goes for Lucifer

At this point, I think we have the talk between Charlotte and Linda which ends with Linda’s critical condition later on

I firmly believe that Linda will be fine. But at that point, I think that she gives Lucifer the cold hard facts and actually tells him, get some orbs and get it on with Chloe. Don;t be afraid and you are an ass by the way. Also, she might confess that she was baaaad cookie and that she worries about her end. 

The above pictures are obviously from Dan’s imrpov which I believe that Dan is now improv Amenadiel instead of Lucifer thus the heartfelt goodbye.

Here Lucifer realises that he cannot always plan alone. Maze was right so they plan together. Yet I guess that Maze told Trixie that she was hurt (due to LInda) and the little girl took it a bit too literally thus the hilarious scenes above. 


Here I believe that Amenadiel has told Dan that Mum is coming with him so Dan follows them and that is why Charlotte is so calm. I don;t think it’s the sword that makes her react that way. If it is the sword then she realises at what emotional cost for Lucifer, the sword is ignited. 

Now am I the only one who wonders why Lucifer ignites the sword in front of so many people??? All I can think is that it’s an accident. Not to mention that the sword is no longer small. Also, Lucifer’s face is one of astonishment. What is stronger than pain? What is the emotion Lucifer has avoided more than pain and hurt? What is blended perfectly with pain and hurt? Love… 

In this photo, I believe that Lucifer is seeing something behind Chloe. Also, his face is vulnerable., hopeful, full of humanity if you like. It also seems like a great burden had been removed from his shoulders. I believe that Dan contacted Chloe there and that this scene is NOT at the end of the episode… 

Now you will be surprised but I’m covinced that this scene is after her meeting with Lucifer. Then she has a new resolve, she goes to find him and the BIG finale comes. Something life altering but I’m still not convinced that she will find out. Even if that’s how the show will end on Monday I don’t believe that Chloe will find out just yet. 


So that’s it. What’s your opinion?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BIJOU SENPAI @juzbijou

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Happiest of days to you, senpai! For all you do, for everything you will do with your precious days, may they be full of light, love and the pursuit of Nico Meier

I mean happiness (with Nico) :V

You are so very important and I am so so humbled to have you. Thank you for being here. You are forever precious and loved. The world is a better place with you in it. My world is infinitely better with you in it.

I hope that today is filled with lots of laughs and smiles. I hope this Nico will be a source of joy for you now and always. I love you lots, senpai! Lots and lots!

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okay so full disclosure: i’m not sure what this blog is going to look like as i am in treatment; i could sit here and say ‘i’m not going to blog about it!!! i’m not focusing on all of that blah blah blah’ but the reality is, it is inevitable (for me, someone who excessively blogs about their day lmao) to post about life and and this is is my life rn

having said that, i still want to maintain self-awareness and not hyperfocus on all things treatment related. and i’ll tag ‘treatment post’ bc i know it is a weird thing for a lot of ppl to hear about, myself included at times.

i don’t want to document all groups and meals and ‘today i got to walk outside! #grateful for sunshine!’ or ‘fuck body image :(((( refeeding :(((( meal plan increase :((((’ but i do want to use this as a space to reflect

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taehyungisbaesthings  asked:

Please do another Haikyuu Idols au but this time with all the setters 🙏

Haikyuu Setters Idol!AU

I’m sorry it took so long. I didn’t know that the setters would give me difficulty imagining them as an idol group. (Also because you said all… OTL.) BUT HERE IT IS!!!! ( I included members who are setters but haven’t been animated yet… so I guess this contains spoilers?)

Disclaimer: Once again, my references are from K-pop, than J-pop, since I know more about that. Concepts and songs were by groups I am familiar with. If the captain’s one had been done while I was crying about Boys24, this one is brought to you by PD101S2.

Note: No Oikawa or Moniwa. They’re over here with the other captains and other random things


The Group in General

-       What can I say, this group is just full of pretty people. ALL ULZZANGS I TELL YOU!

-       This group also consists of mostly people who project quiet, chic, and sassy image and they have been called the ‘Flower Boy-dols’, ‘Model-dols’, ‘Sassy-dols’ and all other variants that people can think off just to emphasize how beautiful (and sassy) they are.

-       A lot of buzz had already surrounded this group even before their debut, because some of them have experienced fame in different forms. Fangirls are easily baited. One look at the boys and they never looked back.

-       However, this was kind of a double edged sword, because most people thought that they’re all just pretty faces with no actual talent to back them up. (Haters do say the meanest things. They are most DEFINITELY WRONG of course.)

-       But that was all behind them now. Their fanbase is as strong as ever and they’re gaining more as they promote.

-       So like, I kind of visualize that their company introduced the members of the group by dropping little hints/’facts’ about the member all throughout the day, and will end with that member’s teaser video and picture that details his profile.

-       Then surprise, surprise! After that short teaser video, they actually have a short intro video, recorded with V-Live.

-       Imagine being a fangirl and doing this for 10 days, every other day, just to die and resurrect again for the rest of the members.

-       Then they update with the album highlights, and MV teasers up until their official debut.

-       When the MV had been released, and all of them have been introduced, they do a group v-live to formally introduce themselves as a group, inviting the support and love of the people.


The Members

Semi Eita – Eita is the Leader of the group. He also serves as the lead dancer and is mostly responsible for overlooking the member’s activities. Eita started his career as back up dancer to some solo female artists, but he didn’t hesitate to join the agency when they recruited him. He’s the kind of leader that doesn’t really step into the spotlight and is just content with letting the other member’s do their thing but knows when to put his foot down. Always thanks fans for their gifts and for watching their live performances.

He’s like EXO’s Suho mixed with Ikon’s Junhoe. (IDK why…)

Sugawara Koushi – Koushi is the actual eldest of the group and serves as the lead vocalist as well as the Face of the Group. Started as an ulzzang with an already good amount of followers, and he has the largest fanbase among all of them because of this. He was discovered when he heeded the request of a fan to sing even just a short line of a song. But since he likes to go the extra mile, he also played the guitar. Though he may look innocent, fans are well aware of how much sass this boy possess, apparent with his responses to fan questions over twitter and during fan meetings.

EXO’s Luhan is who comes to mind for idol!Suga

Echigo Sakae – Echigo completes the hyung line. He is the main vocals of the group because of his smooth RnB vibes. Echigo competed in a singing contest organized by the agency and he won 2nd place over all, but it was enough to secure him a spot as a trainee. He’s a man of few words, but do not mistake his quietness for he is a certified deadpan snarker, to his members as well as the fans. He also likes to tease the ‘middle children’ line, especially when their maknae does evil things to them.

Echigo is based off of MBLAQ’s G.O, mixed with Big Bang’s Taeyang.

Akaashi Keiji – Keiji is the main dancer of the group. Develops their group’s choreography with Shigeru, with Semi occasionally lending a hand. Has quite a following, especially when he made waves as the ‘boy who really danced well’ in one of the biggest dance studios dance class video. It took a while for agency reps to scout him since he doesn’t really want to become an idol and was content in dancing, but when he assisted one of the dance instructor for another idol group’s choreo, somehow changed his mind. The long suffering responsible brother, despite being the actual youngest in the middle children line.

I would liken Keiji to EXO’s Kai.

Kozume Kenma – Kenma is the shy and young, lauded by fans as ‘genius producer-dol’ of the group. He’s very skilled in song writing and composing, and most of the group’s songs are produced by him, with members lending their hand in the lyrics. Sometimes, it’s the other way around. The members collaborate with writing the lyrics, then Kenma makes a song out of it. Mostly works with a piano, but asks for Suga’s help for guitars and Shirabu’s help when it comes to percussions. If he had the choice, he would just stay inside the studio and make songs, but such is not the case, so he serves as a sub-vocal (only because he doesn’t want to be in the center of performances as much). He’s close to Keiji because he’s the only one who’s is warm but quiet among his same age peer.

The best reference I have for Kenma is EXO’s D.O

Yahaba Shigeru – Shigeru acts as the group’s dancer and their unofficial variety representative. Before this though, he was thought to be the second Koushi, because he exudes the soft grace, that isn’t far behind his hyung. All this was shattered when they guested at a variety show and became a complete fountain of laughter, because of his witty comments and clever comeback lines. Often ‘butt’s heads’ with Shirabu and created the Wise Guy to Shirabu’s Straight Man. And they have created memes fans call the “Shi-Shi’s” because of this. He is also game with cross-dressing, since he admits that its part of his charm.

SHINee’s KEY is my reference for Shigeru.

Shirabu Kenjiro – Shirabu comes from a family of actors, and was actually a child actor before he made the decision to train and become an idol instead, in his desire to create a name for his own. It wasn’t unexpected for him to be in the spotlight with the rest of his family, but people mostly expected him to follow his parents’ and brother’s footsteps. But since his history with acting is not forgotten, he’s often tapped to act in productions but he’s only accepted minor roles, since he wants to focus more on his idol activities. He blends in well with the group and lends his support as vocals.

Think of Infinite’s L, as the image he projects, but he actually has BTOB’s Sungjae’s playfulness in him.

Miya Atsumu – Miya is the main rapper of the group and the one that completes the middle children line. Has a love-hate relationship with fans because of his resting bitch face that he uses to tease them with. But his performance on stage is something they all love about him. Has a twin brother, who is his complete opposite and wants to be far away from the spotlight as possible. Ever since the fans learned about this, and how mature his brother is, they found a way to tease him back and called them “The Prince and Pauper”, with Atsumu being the pauper, much to his annoyance.

I think the resting bitch face is a clue enough that EXO’s Kris is my reference for Atsumu.

Koganegawa Kanji – Kogane serves as the second rapper of the group and is actually the older of the two members of the maknae line. He is the tallest among the group, earning him the nickname ‘Super-Sized Maknae’. He’s also painfully new in the idol industry, but his enthusiasm and willingness to learn, as well as his hyung’s support, helped him become more confident in his skills, as well as his presence in the group. Another variety representative, because of his naivety and simple mindedness. Considered a 4D member by the fans, but despite this, they all find him lovable because of his energy and determination.

Kogane reminds me of MBLAQ’s Mir.

Kageyama Tobio – Tobio is the other half of the maknae line, and is the actual maknae of the whole group. But fans often mistake Kogane to be this, because Tobio is often too serious, and doesn’t display maknae tendencies. Absolutely hates doing aegyo and claims that he doesn’t know how. Its cringe worthy whenever he tries (and he tries really hard), but when he’s not thinking about it though, it shows. Fans especially finds his squinting-pouty face adorable. The official visual of the group, and not to be confused with Koushi’s Face of the Group. They’re both considered visuals, but with different image/projection (Koushi is the warm to Tobio’s cold). He’s a dedicated all-rounder, although he usually plays more vocal parts.

Tobio’s reference is Nu’est’s Minhyun (and I swoon)


Concept/s and Songs

-       This group started out safely enough with songs that are influenced by jazz, like B.A.P’s Coffee Shop and Where are You, What are You Doing.

-       Then they delved into the more ‘pop’ side, with concepts centered-around chic style and synchronized dance. Like Infinite’s Dashi Dorawa; BEAST’s Fiction; EXO’s Call Me Baby.

-       The song that I seriously think fits them the most is C-Clown’s Shaking Heart. I don’t know why but it just does.

-       Other songs: Winner’s Really Really; VIXX’s Error; Super Junior’s Devil.

-       Of course, they couldn’t escape doing cute songs like SHINee’s Replay and Hello; Got7’s A; Astro’s Breathless; Seventeen’s Mansae; lighthearted songs like iKon’s #WYD; Super Junior’s No Other and Why I Like You

-       For feel fest songs they have: BTS’ Spring Day; Boys24’s Starlight; Infinite’s Paradise; Nu’est’s Hello and Good Bye Bye; Winner’s Fool; and VIXX’s Only You.

-       Yeah… I guess that sums it up. Also note that they’ve done plenty of share of covering girl group songs. Shigeru for some reasons were able to rope most of the group, especially Suga. Once Suga says they do it, they do it. They can’t refuse. It will be their end.

I guess this is it?

anonymous asked:

I am curious where life ended up taking you–what do you do for work?

I work full time at a bakery. I’ve been there for almost 3 years now!

I started as a clerk for the first two months and then I alternated between decorating and clerking for another 5 months or something. I was kind of a fill-in person on our work schedule, so that training helped me be more versatile I guess

now I’m a full time baker. I run the ovens and bake stuff like bread, rolls, pies, pastries, and cookies. they trained me to mix dough too, so I can make bread and rolls from scratch, but I’m their primary baker right now and I only mix if they really need me to cover for someone’s shift. it’s been very rewarding and it’s given me experience in a lot of areas. I’ve been able to live comfortably doing something I love and I could definitely make a career out of this!

anonymous asked:

I've seen some blogs that support trans people but dislike any other nonbinary identity, they say that nonbinary people "ruin the sanctity of the transgender spaces and experiences that people have actually lived through and experienced" . What's your opinion on nonbinary identities?

So, full disclosure off the bat: I don’t really interact a whole lot IRL with the transgender community. Like, I’m out to a handful of people, and I’ll be coming out to a handful more out of necessity but if living completely stealth was an option for me - which it currently isn’t but may be someday - that’s the route that I would personally take. I mention this only to say that I’m not really sure I am the person to be asking about the “sanctity of transgender spaces” whatever that means. 

I have nonbinary friends who I love very dearly, but as I’m not a nonbinary person and have never identified as such I’m pretty sure that I lack any of the necessary knowledge or subjective experiences to hold any opinion beyond, “You do you, friend. I’ve got your back.”

I have an opinion on precisely one gender among the billion variations that exist from person to person and that is my own. I don’t understand what it is to be a nonbinary person because I’m not one, so it would be pretty shitty of me to offer a comment on the validity - for lack of a better term - of the distinction. 

It seems to me kind of like if I were a cisgender dude and someone asked my opinion on whether trans guys were in some way affecting the “sanctity of cis men’s spaces.”  We’re both men so we share spaces but our experiences are going to differ pretty staunchly in certain areas. That doesn’t make either of us a less real person who’s had less real struggles, it just means that they don’t always look the same. 

TL;DR: I don’t know about trans spaces in general since I don’t really interact with many of them but any space that is mine is technically a trans space, so like, this blog for instance. I welcome nonbinary trans masculine folks to laugh about anywhere our experiences overlap and have some shared humor and to (hopefully) benefit from the places that our struggles share a face as well. 

If you disagree, that’s your prerogative. I’m not here to tell anybody what they should or shouldn’t think, I’m here to draw dumb pictures of myself when I get sad and share them with the internet in the hopes that maybe someday some other sad guy or masculine type person will benefit from finding a little bit of humor and solidarity in it. That’s it. I’m not interested in a debate so any arguments/discourse addressed to me will probably be ignored, just FYI.

I’m also kind of an anachronistic old man so I’m not hip to all the gender lingo, but if I’ve fucked anything royally up let me know and I’ll do my best to course correct going forward.

i just realised something… every time the universe didn’t give me what i wanted it was because i would get something better in the future. i was sad when i didn’t get a room in a house full of strangers, but now i live with three friends. i never had a real romantic relationship but i am so happy i didn’t because i never really got hurt, now i have a fulfilling and perfect and dramafree and real relationship. i don’t know i just feel like i am getting all these amazing experiences for free from the universe and sure, sometimes things happen that are not nice or that feel completely useless but truly, right now, everything is good.

anonymous asked:

Lmao why am i surprised about being sad there were maybe 10 trainees after the first elimination that i didnt know

At the first elimination I was sad but it didn’t hit me as hard as it has now. I knew the full name of every single person who got eliminated. I knew their birthdays, I’ve watched their videos, I’ve read fan accounts of all of them, I’ve seen them grow from episode 1 where no one really knew what was going on- to being able to pull off amazing dances and songs. 

I am so so proud of them for all the did on the show and I’m forever going to be angry that many weren’t able to fully showcase their talent. Maybe they didn’t get enough votes but that doesn’t mean they didn’t impact the viewers. They made us laugh and cry and I’m being a HUGE sap (it’s my nature) but I’m honestly emotional over all of them. 

I’m going to continue following as many as I can in every way I can and I encourage you and others to do so, too. 

(btw support Namhyung and his amazing hair here and here).  

So......

Spent an hour with the kinesiologist and got all of the program information. She did a full physical health assessment and yikes am I out of shape 😳. I also had to do a bunch of paperwork for the dietician and psychologist. It’s really hard facing what you actually think of yourself when you are as adept at covering it up and putting on a good face as I have become. It was really tough to admit that I hate how I look and that I have considered suicide and that although I have an actual plan I would never carry it out. It’s like a comfort thing for me.

She admitted she will have to make some adjustments initially to accommodate my elevated heart rate and my knee issues but says those accommodations won’t have to be forever. Looking at the actual program it is going to take some serious commitment. More than I even really considered or realized because I am bound to specific times to attend classes and the gym. Miss two classes of any combination unless you are majorly ill and they consider you done. I was proud of myself though because I know I have conflicts in my schedule so I asked if there was a way to work around that. She gave me the other groups schedule and said to use both of the consecutively to get my classes in and to email her if I use classes run by the other kinesiologist. She actually complimented me in thinking and planning ahead to try to make sure I stick to the program. So I have this weekend to kick back and relax and then Monday we start full throttle. No quitting no failure!

@imladris14

So this isn’t writing related, but my partner’s band just released their first full length album and I am SO INCREDIBLY PROUD.  This man supports my writing and gives me time and space to write whenever I ask for it.  He has worked so hard on this music and I’ve been lucky to be there for a lot of the process to see just what goes into making an album and making shows successful.  

If you like punk rock, hard rock and a little bit of hip hop, give it a listen, it would mean the world to me.  

My babe is the one singing lead vocals <3

flowerpowerprince  asked:

Heyo for the ship thingy ~ My name is Lisa, I am full time optimist and hugger (i love hugs a lot), I am gender queer and pan - pride is my favourite time of the year by far! I believe I'll become a teacher or a full time writer in the future. I collect notebooks and they are close to holy for me... aaaand I am a huge nerd if you haven't figured that already! I love to love people - it it awesome!! Thanks, you are fudging BRILLIANT ~♡

I ship you with Eliza Schuyler! The bright and shining stars in a dark world, you both would be an unstoppable couple. Warm, affectionate and kind, you both would balance each other out perfectly. She’d always buy you new notebooks and support you no matter what! 💗

(Thank you so much, darling! You are the brilliant one! 💗)

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Some day I will look back on this and think: “Well, this is embarrassing”
But today is not that day!!! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

Sundays
Or more accurately, a poem about The Love Of My Life.
I believe it was this past weekend when I told you that I loved Sundays
And I do love Sundays, but that’s not the point
I told you I love Sundays because they remind me of home
That the whole concept and feeling of Sundays feels like what home would feel like
But have I told you that when I’m with you I get that same feeling?
Have I told you that you make me feel like I’m at home?
Have I told you that you make me feel like it’s Sunday?
You make me feel so safe and so secure
You make me feel like tomorrow’s Monday and life’s coming at me so fast
You make me feel like morning cartoons and full bowls of cereal
You make me feel like maybe everything will be okay
When I am with you time is an afterthought, something I don’t even believe in
A concept
When I am with you I feel like maybe father time speeds up the clocks
I feel like maybe he can’t stand to see us so in love and so happy together
Because he himself cannot be in love with the one he truly wants
How can you possibly love a concept?
My favorite part about this poem is that it’s hypocritical in itself
How can I love Sunday if time doesn’t exist? If it’s a concept?
But then I have to ask myself
How can I know I love you?
Isn’t love a concept along with time?
I know I love you because when I see you smile or laugh or chuckle
I feel like Sunday.
—  conejaaa 

Robert: “Is it mine or Ross?”
Rebecca : “I can’t…”
Robert: “Are you going to tell Aaron?”
Rebecca: “ That’s all you care about?”
Robert: “yes”
Rebecca: “it’s yours”

me:

You wanna know what I find real cute?

I find it reeeeaaal cute that all of these aphobic exclusionists (especially the ones that aren’t actually ace themselves, pfsshh) like to spout that, “If you are Ace and are ‘Actually Lgbt+’ then we’re not talking about you, hon. You are Lgbt+ but only for your same gender attraction/non assigned by birth gender identity. The lack of sexual attraction isn’t a true orientation worth protecting. It’s a TMI modifier, you’ll see in time, you experience no real discrimination for being ace. Only for your real Lgbt+ identity! ”, thinking it’s a flawless, righteous thing to say to the “actual Lgbt+” people who are Asexual that they claim to care about and want to protect.

Honestly, not only does that type of answer sound condescending and doesn’t make any of their aphobia hurt less but do you know what it sounds like to me? DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT SOUND LIKE TO ME, A DEMI-PANROMANTIC ASEXUAL WOC?!

IT SOUNDS LIKE WHEN WHITE FEMINISTS WHO IGNORE INTERSECTIONALITY SAY, “WE’RE ALL WOMEN AT THE END OF THE DAY AND OPPRESSED HARDER FOR BEING WOMAN SO TO TRULY FIGHT FOR FEMINISM YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR WOMANHOOD BEFORE YOUR ETHNICITY AND LEAVE RACE OUT OF IT”, AND JUST LIKE WHEN BLACK MEN WHO CONTRIBUTE TO MISOGYNOIR SAY, WE’RE ALL BLACK AT THE END OF THE DAY AND OPPRESSED HARDER FOR BEING BLACK SO TO TRULY FIGHT FOR BLACK EQUALITY, YOU HAVE TO LEAVE YOUR GENDER AND YOUR FEMINISM AT THE DOOR.” THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT THE FUCK THE WHOLE, “YOUR LBGT+ IDENTITY AND ASEXUAL IDENTITY ARE/HAVE TO BE EXPRESSED SEPARATE(LY)” ARGUMENT SOUNDS LIKE TO ME!

And I’m about to tell you why arguments like that are ignorant and harmful and full of shit, if you’re one not smart enough to put two and two together.

I AM A BLACK WOMAN, A WOMAN WHO IS BLACK. IF I GO INTO A FEMINIST EQUALITY SPACE, MY BLACKNESS DOESN’T DISAPPEAR. IF I GO INTO A BLACK EQUALITY SPACE, MY WOMAN-NESS DOESN’T VANISH. I’M NEVER ONE AND THEN THE OTHER, I’M BOTH AT THE SAME TIME AND THAT’S NEVER GONNA CHANGE OR NOT AFFECT HOW I’M TREATED BY SOCIETY!

Similarly…

I AM PANROMANTIC AND ASEXUAL, AN ASEXUAL WHO IS PANROMANTIC. WHEN I’M FIGHTING FOR LGBT+ ACCEPTANCE AND VISIBILITY, MY ASEXUALITY DOESN’T DISAPPEAR. WHEN I’M FIGHTING FOR ASEXUAL ACCEPTANCE AND VISIBILITY, MY PANROMANTIC-NESS DOESN’T VANISH. I’M NEVER ONE AND THEN THE OTHER, I’M BOTH AT THE SAME TIME AND THAT’S NEVER GONNA CHANGE OR NOT AFFECT HOW I’M TREATED BY SOCIETY!

Holy shit!!! Why is that so hard for so many people to get??? Oh wait, I know why. IT’S BECAUSE QUITE A FEW OF THESE APHOBES AND EXCLUSIONIST ARE NEITHER WOC NOR “REAL LGBT+” ASEXUALS. THEY DON’T HAVE EXPERIENCES BEING TOLD SHIT THAT’S BASICALLY EQUIVALENT TO, “NEGLECT AND LEAVE HALF OF YOUR IDENTITY AT HOME, YOUR EXISTENCE COMPLICATES THINGS AND MAKES PEOPLE UNCOMFORTABLE”. THEY DON’T KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO EXIST AS EITHER. HOWEVER, THEY STILL THINK THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO IGNORE INTERSECTIONALITY AND TO SPEAK DOWN TO PEOPLE WHO ARE BOTH WOC AND ASEXUAL, LIKE ME, TO MAINTAIN AND ENFORCE THEIR OWN VIEWS AND IDEAS OF WHAT THE LGBT+ COMMUNITY LOOKS LIKES AND INCLUDES.

Damn ain’t that some shit, huh? In other news, I can’t wait for my point of view to be ignored and to be dismissed as just another “Angry Black Woman™” for bringing to light of how aphobes and exclusionists treat Asexual WOC like trash, regardless of their romantic orientation or gender identity. (Seriously, don’t even get me started on the amount of non-black exclusionists I’ve seen pull the, “Headcanonning Black female characters as Asexual desexualizes/oversexualizes them!!1!” card. They aren’t Black and they don’t know shit about the inner workings of Black politics or how misogynoir affects how Black women are view in relation to sexuality but they still act like they understand all and are helping, get the fuck out of here). So yeah, sorry not sorry for this long ass post but at first I was just tilted and now I’m hot about it. Aphobes and exclusionists are so fucking ignorant and counterproductive. Yikes.

I don’t usually make Pissed/Rant posts, but this infuriates me.

As many of you people know, I do conventions on top of youtube for a living. A really really good friend of mine does conventions and commission work for her living and has been doing this as a full paid living for years. (I am not going to say her name, she asked me to keep her anonymous so I will respect her request.) She does more conventions in a year, let alone several years, than I couldn’t ever fathom so her experience with conventions including El Paso Comic Con, is very broad. 

I don’t usually make posts like this or anything concerning drama, but I want this to be known out there and have there be an awareness of this issue, cuz what happened today at El Paso Comicon is wrong, and I just wish I was there to do something about it. 

The reason why I bring this up, is because today she faced a huge ordeal at El Paso Comic Con, and this is what I came to hear about today on her facebook, and over the phone.

——-

My friend’s words: 

“I don’t even know how to put into words what just happened to me. I am still physically shaking. Today at El Paso Comic con I tried to bring in a pasta because I was hungry and hadn’t eaten since yesterday. I was told by staff I couldn’t bring it in so I asked to bring it in anyway because I am vegetarian and can’t eat hotdogs and chicken salads.
They brought over their main supervisors and the head lady began to harshly try to put power over me saying “cons don’t allow food you can’t” she tried to discredit me by asking how many cons I do and how many let food in.
I began to explain again to the other person about how I cannot eat certain foods and as the conversation continued I began to feel an anxiety attack coming on and tears were already happening.
THEN THIS LADY TAKES OUT HER CAMERA TO FILM ME HAVING AN ANXIETY ATTACK.
I ask her to please stop filming me. She put her phone away but surely she still recorded the rest of my conversation without my consent.
The head of the con allows me my food in but at this point I am so anxious I can’t eat.
THEN I bring my food to my friend to give hers to her and explain what happened.
THIS WOMAN FOLLOWS ME TO THE TABLE to “call me out” on lying about being the only one at my table. (I am in full panic attack mode and very upset and not ok)
I explain (while still crying) that this is not my booth and I am giving her her food and telling her what happened. (she is the only one at her booth just like she told her, but this woman falsely accused her simply to destroy her.) 
She then tells me that I have to pack up my stuff and leave the convention. I tell her that I paid for my spot and am staying. (Not just as attendant but an exhibitor with paper work, paying for her spot) She begins to scream at me to “take a chill pill” and go back to my table.
Once I’m at my table I am in such a bad shape a friend of mine HAD TO GET A MEDIC. This panic attack lasted OVER AN HOUR and I am STILL shaking.

I am utterly humiliated and heartbroken. I loved this convention but I will not be coming back now. I have not had such a terrible attack in almost a YEAR.

This is something I am scared to post on Facebook but I know it’s important to let people know what’s going on. When my service animal can’t even help me because I have nearly stopped breathing, you know there’s a problem.”

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It’s not like me to make posts about this, the only other time I have is when the issue with UltimaAlmighty happened and even then I still don’t even think he deserved the ending he got despite me telling my share of the story. but this?.., is not ok. 

I want to contact the head manager or either the convention center, or of el Paso Comic Con and report this issue about the supervisor handling a situation that should have been dealt with care, and communication, not a power trip and following her with ill intent only to make hasty accusations that she is innocent of,- so far as to induce her with the worst anxiety attack where she literally couldn’t breath. (and her service animal for emotional support rendered useless). However, my problem here is that I don’t know how to contact the head of El Paso Comic Con. Does anyone know how? My friend was wronged, and I want the head to know about what their supervisor did.