i am so excited for this live action scene kill me

13x02: Dean is John

Fairy Goddabb (and team) coming at us, waving his wand and textualising that Dean is John in a season all about fathers… Forget hail Mary’s I’m giving hail Dabb’s this year.

In 13x01 we got Grieving!Dean, canonically upset and nihilistic over the loss of Cas and Mary and the others. First every time though was Cas.

In 13x02 we are now seeing the fall out from this. Namely that he is mirroring both John’s life long grief over the loss of Mary, the grief that led him to act towards Sam and Dean in a way that led them to have so many issues that they are now overcoming, and also mirroring season 1 Sam through his grief over Jess.

We have already seen Dean drop to his knees next to Cas’ body just as Sam did at Jess’ grave and Mary did over John’s body and we had the scene where Sam pulled Dean back from Cas just as Dean pulled Sam back from Jess.

I then said here that I was expecting at some point mirroring of the scene from 1x02 where Dean offers to let Sam drive to take his mind off Jess (check!) and references to Dean not sleeping (check! - the “you were hallucinating sheep” conversation) but to get them both in 02 was fantastic :)

x x  Honestly, I want to keep a checklist of these things… I am so overjoyed!

Next is 1x04′s:

Sam “I’ve gotta find Jessica’s killer, it’s the only thing I can think about”
Dean “All that anger, you can’t keep it burning over the long haul, it’s gonna kill you”.
Sam “How do you do it?”
Dean “We help others, it makes it more bearable…and killing as many sons of bitches as we can”

Perhaps next week? In 13x03? When they go out to help someone else on a “normal” MOTW hunt? Who knows, I can hope. I can’t help NOT hope given we’ve been given so much else so far on my wishlist in such timely order. 

So anyway, yes, it’s established that Dean is GRIEVING. He is a MESS. He’s also perfectly mirroring both Sam in season 1 after Jess’ death and John his whole life after Mary’s death.

I wonder what could possibly be the link here? Hm. 

Originally posted by castielsprofoundbees

*we just don’t know*

So then yes, Dean is mirroring John. THIS IS NOT TO SAY DEAN IS LIKE JOHN. You can mirror someone without being exactly LIKE them. Look at Jack mirroring all of TFW. It’s just a way to expose a storyline and emotional motivations for someone’s actions. OK? I am not saying that Dean is John. It’s just a link to the story of the past to show the story of now and how parts are mirrored to be ADDRESSED and SUBVERTED.

This then makes total sense when we look at Dean’s interactions with Jack. Yes he is harsh and struggling with him right now, the cause of Cas’ death, the potential big bad, because he’s grieving and a mess. Just as John was. 


There is going to be so much symbolism around John in this season and frankly seeing Dean mirroring him makes me so HYPED because this means we really should see some amazing exposition of Dean’s feelings towards John and himself in relation to John and I cannot help but hope for CLOSURE on this now. 

Then we have Jack who is a huge mirror for Sam. Sam who was the reason Mary died, though of course it not through his own fault. Mirror wise, Dean is John and Cas is Mary, Jack is Sam. 

Original story: John/Mary - Sam.
Season 13: Dean/Cas - Jack.

Still with me? OK.

So now we need to see this subverted. The ORIGINAL STORY.

Where Dean and Sam’s lives were ruined and turned upside down by all this, by the yellow eyed demon and Lucifer’s plan, by Heaven’s orders. 

The terrible original story of how everything started seems now to be mirrored and subverted into a (potential) end (but at least a later story) where everything is ‘fixed’. 

In the original story everyone was manipulated. Mary and John were manipulated into falling in love (versus Dean and Cas who fell in love DESPITE Heaven and everything against them). Sam and Dean were fated to be the vessels of Michael and Lucifer but they chose free will.

Everyone tried to manipulate Sam and Dean down a certain path. Their whole lives were a manipulation up to the point they chose Free Will. 

Now JACK has to choose FREE WILL thanks to their guidance and help. Through mirroring them and their story and through them helping him choose the righteous and free path.

Originally posted by godshipsit

He has to be the catalyst and mirror to subvert this story, to allow the metaphorical John and Mary (Dean and Cas) to LIVE and have a happy ending. For the metaphorical Sam (himself) to NOT grow up into the demon blood arc, and for the real Sam to move past this, accept the past and move onto a brighter future, to let go of his guilt over it by helping Jack past this too. For Jack to do just as Sam did do in the end in season 5 and fight back thanks to support from his family.

Jack’s story is a chance to subvert all the horrors of the start of the story for Dean and Sam, but first their story has to be mirrored for this to work.

This is what we are seeing happening. This is the set up.


Skyline {III}

Originally posted by coolbackflips

Warnings: Blood

Pairing: Peter Parker x reader

Word Count: 3.2k

A/N: You guys!!!!  I can’t believe you are all so nice honestly!!!!  I hit 500 followers today so as a thank you, here is pt. 3 a day earlier than expected!!  Forgive me if there are any mistakes, as I stayed up late to finish it (I have to be up in six hours for work oh lord) and I really hope you guys like it.  There most definitely will be a pt. 4, and possibly pt. 5, as this scene became longer than expected, and I decided to split it between two chapters.  Again, thank you so much, guys.  All my love.

{part I} {part II}

As the end of August neared, you began to fear the return of school.  Not because you hated it—in fact, you were fond of school.  You liked learning, you liked seeing your friends from certain classes, and you even missed some of your teachers. However, with the return of your school came the return of Spider-Man’s school.  He had explained to you how difficult it was to balance the responsibilities of his civilian life with the responsibilities of being a superhero. Between those tightropes of time management, you doubted there would be any hours allotted to visiting you.

You knew that you had no right to be sad about your predicament.  The right thing to do would be to not think selfishly, and just be happy with the time you were given with someone who doesn’t normally share their world. But, no matter how many times you had a talk with yourself, you still couldn’t bring yourself out of your melancholy thoughts.

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A Matter of Time

Originally posted by yourboi-steverogers-imagines

Summary: (Soulmate Timer AU) Steve awoke with a start. A baseball game was playing softly on the radio. He sat up, incredibly disoriented. He looked to his right arm. 3 Years, 84 Days, 2 Hours, 0 Minutes, 5 Seconds. He’d woken up 70 years in the future. 

It was a surprise for Mr. and Mrs. Rogers, when on July 4, 1918, their son Steven was born with ‘95 Years, 14 days, 10 hours, 22 Minutes 35 seconds’ on his forearm. Steven Grant Rogers, sickly boy that he was, wouldn’t even meet his soulmate until well into old age.

Steve did his best to not let it bother him. Ever the optimist, he believed that it just meant that whoever he would meet in 75 years would be so special, they’d wait their whole lives to find one another.

Bucky had a different outlook. As one of the rare few without a timer, James Buchanan Barnes was basically the definition of ‘playboy.’ He saw it as 75 years for Steve to be with whoever the hell he wanted without having to settle down. The two friends weren’t really that alike when it came to matters of the heart.

Both philosophies faded into the background when they entered the war. Steve gave up the theories of finding love in favor of striving to survive. After the serum, Steve had more women (and some men) throwing themselves at him than he’d ever thought would.

The only person he even thought he might have a shot with was Peggy, but after Bucky fell he was far too consumed by his grief to do anything. As his timer slowly ticked downwards, he fought the good fight. His last hopes were winking out as he flew the plane into the ice.

Steve awoke with a start. A baseball game was playing softly on the radio. He sat up, incredibly disoriented. He looked to his right arm.

3 Years, 84 Days, 2 Hours, 0 Minutes, 5 Seconds. He’d woken up 70 years in the future.

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The Gifted’s Polaris

Well done Marvel, well done.

Allow me to express my thoughts on the amazing T.V. show as we know it, The Gifted :)

Last night I was working but I did have my uncle record the show for me. First let me say how exciting this show was. It was one of the best X-Men shows I’ve ever seen in my entire life. Even though the first episode was just an introduction, introducing us, the audience, to the good guys, the bad guys, and the random family element, I thoroughly enjoyed it. It was nice to see an “action” franchise go a little less action and add more drama. They actually mention the X-Men and the Brotherhood several times, unlike Legion. Clearly this was nothing compare to “Heroes” and certainly was better than Inhumans.

The show started with Blink running away from the police while Polaris, Eclipse, and Thunderbird were trying to recruit Blink. Sadly Lorna was captured too soon but she was still having major screen time. She must, because she’s the main character here. I know some of you think the Strucker family are the main characters but I consider them more as a plot device (don’t get me wrong). Lorna is the main. No, I’m not lying or speculating. I never do.  As a matter of fact here’s a page for ya.

Don’t ask me why Lorna has 6 episodes (because it’s obvious) and why the rest have less. Better ask me how I was right about Lorna’s being put as on a high pedestal. Usually the first cast’s names are the main. This is why y’all gonna get more Dane :) Back to the subject and quick jump to the scene where Lorna and her crew were trying to run away from the cops.

Polaris showed off her powers well. Oh my, but what an amazing Lorna we have here. Love her new perspective. I love how she knocked out the lights, clashed police’s cars, stopped bullets, and even grabbed a cop and hit it against the dumpster for shooting Eclipse. She did not kill the guy but as she said “Believe me, If I wanted those cops dead, they’d be dead” lol. What a badass thing to say. As well as when Blink asked the crew who they were, Lorna told her (after she took the object away from Blink) “We’re just a couple of freaks, same as you” lol. Lorna was so captivating. It was crystal clear she was the powerhouse as usual. Lorna was extremely amazing, period. I love the part where it shows Lorna’s power coming out from her shirt or something :)

The most interesting thing about the whole show was Lorna’s pregnancy. The pregnancy was an unexpected wrinkle. Hopefully, the writers will let her keep it. Although it seems from her reaction that she either didn’t want anyone to know or doesn’t want to be pregnant. I assume she thought they might use her child against her which makes more sense as to her reaction. She might keep it since Magneto needs some grandkids, lol.

Bryan Singer has always handled the X-Franchise (not quite) better than anyone else (but not like Marvel), so I have high hopes for this show’s (and Lorna’s) future. The family of a prosecutor who handles high-profile Mutant cases suddenly dealing with TWO Mutants in their own family is a really interesting subplot, and I am eager to see where that goes. Too bad he got captured at the end of the episode. Although the previews show him in an adjoining cell, and communicating with, Lorna. I’m sure he will tell her that her friends and his family will break them free. Blink, you fucking better hurry up and get them out, lol.

Overall, FOX and Marvel Entertainment did fantastic. I’m very happy and excited to see Lorna’s live action. Emma Dumont definitely captured Lorna’s personality. I’m glad the writer didn’t go with some of Claremont’s old stuff. It was a new fresh start for Lorna and this is exactly what @cullenbunn is doing. What people might not know is that the Gifted show is filling some holes from DOFP, IMO.

So that brings us to the speculation portion.

Let’s end the speculation and yes, I’m talking to all of y'all. Remember how I stood on my both feet saying the littler Princess from DOFP was little Princess Lorna Dane, aka Polaris, aka Mistress of Magnetism? Ok, let me ask this…  Is The Gifted connected to the X-Men films in any sort of literal sense? Probably not. But in a more general sense, does it take place in the same world as those films? Yes! Nix (writer) didn’t deny the connection, but said if a world exists in which mutant kids coming into their powers are forced to go on the run, “established mutants are going to have something to say about that.” So, what does that say?

In DOFP, Princess Lorna was from the past and Blink from the future. As you saw Blink from the future looks much older and experienced with her abilities. In The Gifted, she looks much younger and inexperienced. Obviously Blink from the past was more comparable to Lorna’s age. In The Gifted they’re both adults except Lorna is more experience than Blink is. Bryan Singer also stated that The Gifted is going to be related to the X-films. Considering she is eventually going to be introduced in The Gifted as Magneto’s daughter.

Eclipse confirmed that they don’t know if either the X-Men or Brotherhood of Mutants exist. Sounds like they knew about them. If they don’t exist it is because they are either captured, dead, hidden, or retired. Professor, who sought mutants that were in trouble, doesn’t exist. In speculation, maybe he’s dead (considering in the comic he IS dead). I was right! I was right the whole time. I guess I was the first one to discover the relation between the film and show. Well, what the hell, I’m a huge fan of Lorna Dane.

Behind The Story S2 | Pt. 17

Summary: The reader and Jensen fly together back to LA,

Author: sleepywinchester {prev; deanwinchester-af}

Characters: Jensen, Reader, Jared, Gen and Cast Cameos.

Pairings: Single!Jensen x Actress!Reader (Nina Dobrev = Faceclaim)

Words: 1.3k+

Warnings: Angst.

Beta: @waywardlullabies


Note: Hope you guys like this one!!!

Title: For Our Daughter’s Sake


Instead of having your mother fly to San Diego with JJ, Jensen traveled back to Los Angeles with you. Having JJ around wasn’t the smartest idea with all the media that was in San Diego.

It felt weird being next to him for the short flight. There was so much history between the two of you, yet neither could form a non-awkward sentence.

“Do you think we can make this co-parenting work?” Jensen broke the silence.

You looked at him, “I mean… We have to. For JJ.”

Jensen’s eyes lit up at the sound of her name. “Yeah,” he smiled slightly. “I miss her.”

“She really misses you,” you said. “She always says da-da all around.”

He smiled, glad his daughter haven’t forget about him. You guys didn’t talked much the rest of the flight. Once in LA, you two drove straight back to your place.

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Yep, another picspam review. I mean, with this episode, how could I not? I was broken for a full two days, so of course it warrants me repeatedly smashing my face into the keyboard… which is pretty much what this entire post is. Face smashes and screencaps. (And boy howdy, do I mean screencaps. There’s a LOT. *rolls around in all of the caps*)

I actually did not have all that much time to get online yesterday, so this time around I don’t believe I’ll be unintentionally quoting any of you guys. \o/

First, I will share this… I get my legal digital copies from Google Play (I have Android everything, including a fucking television that’s running Android… of course I use Google Play and also ‘cuz fuck a whole lot iTunes). Someone at Google knows exactly what they’re doing because THIS is the picture they decided to use as the thumbnail of this episode. And I am DYING because this exact moment is when Cas says, “get out” and Sam is just staring like, “omg mental note do not fuck with Cas right now.”

Yah, that’s perfect. YOCKEY: I am Cas. Get the fuck out, you broke me. I am also Sam. I cannot believe you just did that jesus fuck.

(Side note: that picture is taken with my Android phone of my Android TV.)

That said.

Number of Obligatory Dean Wall Slams: TWOOOOO!!! Yockey, you speak to my heart.

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Does anyone else get emotional at random moments about how Dany has never really belonged anywhere?

Like I was just thinking about how I came home today from overseas and how relieved I am even though I enjoyed being away. Then I logged onto tumblr only to remember that Daenerys has never had a home of her own. Under the cut because I got a little carried away with my feelings as per usual. Basically just a post to remind myself of another reason why I’m rooting for Daenerys when the antis hate on her. With gifs because of feels.

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Brotherly Love

Pairing : yoongi - reader (as siblings) and jimin-reader

Genre: angst, angst , angst oh and did I mention , ANGST

Warnings: It has some triggering topics but I don’t want to ruin it for you but just be warned.

Word limit: a lot lmao I can’t even count


Min yoongi and y/n were your average cheeky,annoying, bratty twins who lived in the simple town of daegu. They caused mischief and trouble to all locals but no one had the heart to scold them after seeing y/n’s cheeky grin or yoongi’ gummy smile. Sure, there was the usual catcalling, hair pulling, and kicking, but both you and yoongi loved each other.

Because you were overweight, you were bullied often but young min yoongi was always there to save the day. Also, you both had a common love and passion which brought you closer, music. From the age of 2 when you both first learned your rhymes, to the age of 5 when you went around singing Christmas carols door to door during mid June , to the age of 13, when you both discovered hip hop and had passionate rap battles, music was one thing you both cherished equally.

“Yoongi, you know I was reading the newspaper and I read about this woman who jumped from the Banpo bridge in Seoul. I mean that’s so stupid. Why would anyone lose their life willingly?” A young you asked yoongi

“I don’t know, raindrop, but I have heard that sometimes people’s lives become so unbearable and painful that losing your life is easier than waking up every day ”

“What if my life becomes too painful in the future”

“Don’t you ever think about that y/n. I will kill the person who even dreams about hurting you, understand?”

“Hmm” you nodded agreeingly.

“Now give oppa a kiss” he asked with a pervy expression.

“We aren’t in game of thrones. Calm down on the incest. Plus, you’re not my oppa you were just born 2 minutes earlier.”

“Still your oppa tho.”

And they both giggled, and laughed away through their preteen years. From first love interests to first kisses, both shared everything with each other because there was trust. It was all good. But all good things must come to an end. And their end was destined in the city of Seoul where their parents had been transferred. Seoul, the city of dreams became the city of nightmares for them.


January 1: First day of school

“So, here it is. It’s not different from the Daegu school is it?” Yoongi chuckled while looking at the new school in awe. “I- I don’t know.. this place just seems different ”. “Don’t worry raindrop, everything will be fine.”

It wasn’t.

From the moment you had entered your new class, all you were met with were scoffs and looks of disgust. You didn’t whether it was because if your weight, or your evidently cheap clothes, or both, but your offers of friendship were rejected by all your fellow classmates. Earlier, whenever you were in trouble, Yoongi had saved you. Maybe that’s why you had forgotten how to protect yourself. ‘It was a pity Yoongi wasn’t in your class’, you thought as you sulked away in class.

On the other hand, Min Yoongi had instantly become a hit in the new school. His fit and toned body and, perfect jawline along with godly looks had made him the new target for all the male preferring people in school, including ‘queen bee’ Song Aeri. Apart from this, with his vibrant personality, he had acquainted himself with all the popular kids in the school. Being in demand and receiving attention gave Yoongi a rush ha had never experienced before. Going a day without having to protect his sister, yoongi realised how relaxing and peaceful it was to not have to fight everyone who bullies her. Min Yoongi was feeling content with his life at that moment of time.

After dodging the stares of passerbys, you manage to save a seat for you and Yoongi in the cafeteria. Recalling your experience in class, you managed to ignore the negativity, and thought about the boy sitting in front of you, Park Jimin. A boy so heavenly, you had to control yourself in order to not drool. Smiling to yourself, you went on to day dream a little more when your peace was interrupted by none other than Song Aeri and her army of skanks (a/n: yes I did that).

“ Well look who this is? An elephant in the middle of the school cafeteria!” Song Aeri exclaimed while the canteen roared with laughter and jeers. You tried to avoid eye contact while your lips, trembled, praying to god that Yoongi would come and get you out of this mess. “Did you get lost while on your way to the zo-” she went on before she was interrupted by yoongi who came panting in.

“Don’t-don’t do that Aeri”,He said loudly. Finally, you gave a out a sigh of relief. “Why, do you have a problem Yoongi? Are you her saviour or something?” 'Well I wouldn’t take it that far but yes he will stand for me’,you thought to yourself

“NO-no….I don’t know her.”

You swear you heard your heart break at that moment.

“You are new here aren’t you Daegu boy? Let me show you how things are done here in Seoul. Come on- beat the fuck out of her and show me how capable you are.”

You and Yoongi looked at each other. He could see the tears streaming down your face and you could see the hesitation and fears in his eyes. Maybe this was all a bad dream and he would come back. But he didn’t. Min Yoongi let his demons win.

He whispered a sorry to your ears before picking you up by your collar and throwing you at the trash can.

Along with your physical body, your happiness, hope , sanity, trust and relationship with Yoongi also went in to the garbage that day. That was the day it was over .

Yes you you were heartbroken and nothing ever felt like the same. Yoongi and you went to school and came back separately. Even at home, he refused to write music with you anymore or even play the stupid video games. He was embarrassed to be your brother and that hurt you the most. You stopped eating altogether and things were leading to a downward spiral.

The bullying got a lot worse but Yoongi just stood on the side and watched you get beat up, occasionally joining in to beat you. Even Jimin tried to help you sometimes but it was of no use.

It got even worse when you started cutting yourself.

“Hey fatty! Why does the sink have blood all over it?” Yoongi shouted at you.

“Um..I-I’m on my period.” You lied as you tried to hide the blade in your fists behind your back.

“Oh right.. I forget sometimes that you are a woman, my handsome and manly brother”, he sneered as he mocked you. You didn’t give him a reaction and ran away to your room and cried yourself to sleep, something you had been doing quite frequently now.

Throughout this period the two things which kept you sane were listening to the music you and Yoongi had written when you were younger and the second thing was Jimin. After becoming best friends with him, he had finally asked you out on a date. And suddenly you felt as if everything would become better.

He was the only one there for you and he understood everything you were going through, because he was bullied too. You both helped pick each other up and give a shoulder to cry on.

Yoongi had also started dating - Song Aeri. He allowed himself to get corrupted by her. While on a date with her, he accidentally left his phone behind and she managed to read his chats, specifically the one with you.

Song Aeri was pissed. She assumed you were just another girl trying to hit on yoongi, and not a sister worried about her brother’s safety. She decided to ruin your life, more than she had already.


26 August.

You were walking to school, excited for your anniversary with Jimin. You met him at the front gate. But he looked pissed, very very pissed. He stomped towards you and spoke words which broke you heart for the second time this year.

“YOU FUCKING SLUT! HOW DARE YOU! You know what , everyone was right about you. DONT.EVER.TALK TO ME AGAIN”.

The crowd around you both seemed to be amused by that drama brewing. But you had no clue what was happening.

“What do -do you mean-” you whimpered .

He whipped out his phone and played a video of you having intercourse with a stranger. You tried to explain to him that you were not the person in the videos but he only slapped your cheek and stomped away.

At the same time, Yoongi went and held Aeri’s collar, threatening her to tell him what she did. He had never been more angry and the consequences of his actions were finally weighing down on him.

“Calm down babe. Its just a photoshopped sex tape of that elephant with some guy” she chucked , “Classic ”

Yoongi slapped her as hard as he could . He would have killed her then and there but then he realised that you were missing. He panicked and started looking for you.

Then it all clicked to Yoongi. Banpo Bridge. (A/n: if you don’t remember then read the first paragraph).

Yoongi drove at the speed of light, jumping atleast ten redlights, when he saw you standing on the edge of the bridge, all alone.


You turned around to see Min Yoongi, finally there for you.

“Oppa, don’t I look pretty?” You asked, pointing to the dress you were wearing.he had gifted this to you on your 12th birthday, nearly 7 years ago. “ I lost so much weight that now I fit my childhood clothes. But why isn’t my life better? But did you even notice me or look at me?” Do you remember the last time you called me raindrop and not elephant or fatass?“you asked Yoong, tears in both your eyes.

“Y/n please. You know I was and am a dumb idiot. Please don’t do this. I swear I’ll correct my mistakes and you even have a bright future ahead of this. We will grow up to be idols together y/n” , he pleaded.

“After that video released, I’ve been blacklisted from all companies. My life is over Yoongi. Besides, I only had 3 things to live for: music, jimin, and you. Music and Jimin are over, and as for you, I lost you the moment you told Aeri you don’t know me.”

Yoongi’s pleas couldn’t be heard by you anymore.

“But that’s okay Yoongi, I forgive you. My life wasn’t worth living and this is my choice. When you grow up and become an idol, I will listen to all your songs from above and be your number one fan. I’ll tell you that you did well.”, you said as you moved one step ahead, almost falling, before Yoongi grabbed your hand as you dangled from the edge of the bridge.

“Ple-please y/n , hold me tight and trust me.” He cried as he looked at your helpless body.

You chuckled with tears in your eyes and gave him the biggest smile you could, before jerking your hand away from his grip and falling like an autumn leaf, peacefully into the water.

This image haunted Yoongi for the rest of his life and he never forgave himself.


6 years later:

After therapy and rehab, Yoongi returned to the correct path. He was now a part of a three member rap group called dream which was soaring on all Korean and worldwide charts. He donated most of the money he earned onto anti bullying campaigns and raised awareness about self love in his songs. He took most of his inspiration from you and used the tunes you both had composed as kids.

For the last leg of their tour, they had gone to Daegu. After finishing their last song , he saw a 15 year old you clapping your hands loudly, even when the rest of the people had finished their applause.

You shouted, “ You did well Yoongi oppa!” Before turning into a million butterflies and flying towards the sky.

“I love you raindrop.”

Lawlight + Tropes

Another tropes combo. This time, Death Note’s handcuff duo, L Lawliet & Light Yagami.

1. Adorkable: 

Light His usual charm can sometimes come across as this.

L  During the few times where he’s not giving the Kira case his undivided attention, he’s this.

2. Allergic to Routine:

Light Now if Light could have found some other intellectually engaging hobby the entire plot probably would not have happened.

L Very easily bored, and even prolongs the Kira case just for the rush.

3. Ambiguous Disorder:

Light  He’s undeniably insane, but it’s never clarified where exactly it comes from. Between his monstrous god complex, inability to cope with any perceived evil, and constant manic laughter, there’s definitely something wrong with him; that’s all without even discussing the fact that he picks up mass-murder like a new, exciting hobby. For the record, Word of God states that the reason Light went off the deep end was because he was a perfectionist and couldn’t reconcile that with the fact that he had unintentionally murdered someone except through Insane Troll Logic. Given all of this, it’s very likely he has Narcissistic Personality Disorder and some symptoms of sociopathy.

L He has odd mannerisms and shows zero interest in confiding in others or romantic relationships despite being a Chessmaster who is very good in manipulating facts and people. If anything, L displays most of the characteristics of schizoid personality disorder.

4. Anti Hero:

Light The TV Drama puts him here during the first few episodes as an Unscrupulous Hero, as he used the Death Note to protect others at that time

L  Not exactly your ideal type of hero. While he does try to capture Kira because he’s a murderer, his main motivation is because he sees Kira as a challenge and willfully prolongs the case, endangering countless lives in the process, simply to have more fun with him. Furthermore, he strongly detests physical contact with anyone and is close to emotionally dead. As far as his morality is concerned, he is willing to achieve the good goal of capturing Kira (Light) with evil means, such as kidnapping, not preventing murder, invasion of privacy and torture.

5. Awesome McCoolname:

Light “Light” is written with the kanji for “moon” and “Yagami” is written with the kanji for “night” and “god”.

L: The Gothic font helps

6. Awesomeness by Analysis:

Light • This is his forte; quite a lot of his scenes involve a running inner dialogue where the audience hears him analyzing the scene around him, taking stock of his circumstances and options, and planning his next move. And of course after his genius plans come to fruition, he has to go over them in detail so that the audience has a chance to figure out what exactly just happened.

L  In the second episode, L is able to deduce several different things about Kira from one televised broadcast. Throughout the show, L is also shown assessing situations, analyzing happenings and their effects, and planning his next move.

7. Badass Bookworm:

Light • He’s the top ranked student in the country and his room is filled with books - though he’s only interested in one book in particular.

L He’s a brilliant detective, and quite able to hold his own in the occasional fistfight with Light.

8. Batman Gambit:

Light He’s a master at manipulation. His entire period of amnesia and what followed is a clear example.

L  The Do Not Adjust Your Set one being only his first in the series. He was counting on Kira’s ego being bigger than his reason.

9. Big Good/Big Bad:

Light Of the whole story. While he is the protagonist of the series, his use of the Death Note quickly turns him into a power-hungry maniac whose murders become the all-encompassing threat to L and the Japanese Task Force and the hunt for him proves the challenge of the work.

L He fulfills this role as the one heading the Task Force, despite being an Anti-Hero.

10. Bishonen:

Light Very much so. Though his features do coarsen a bit as the series progresses as he becomes older and nastier.

L What with the odd mannerisms and dark bags under his eyes, L was intended to be an inversion or aversion of this trope. The legions of fangirls he has don’t see it that way, though…

  • The contrast between Light and L (and their respective fangirls) are even lampshaded a bit in Episode 9, when they’re giving a university entrance speech together:

Girl 1: I sure like the guy on the right (L).

Girl 2: What–?! You’re weird. Most people would choose the one on the left (Light).

11. Big Sleep:

Light In the anime, at least. When he was killed by Ryuk in front of the police in the manga, he Dies Wide Open.

L When he dies in the episode “Silence”.

12. Brainy Brunette:

Light A brown-haired Evil Genius.

L Subverted. His hair is more black than brown, but he’s still a Smart Guy.

13. Brilliant but Lazy:

Light In the first volume of the manga it seems people think he’s this-Light’s teacher throws chalk in his face for spacing out in class. Justified in that he’s worried that he just killed someone. Also normal high school subjects probably aren’t that interesting to a super-genius who already knows the subject material.

L Sometimes. He apparently takes 2 months off of his own investigation and refuses to work on it again until Light points to the Yotsuba Group as potential suspects.

14. Catch Phrase:

Light Say it with me everybody…

L  "I am JUSTICE!“ (Both he and Light have this catchphrase.)

15. Celibate Hero/Villain:

Light Or rather, Celibate Villain. Zigzagged: In the manga he dates as many as four women at a time to deflect suspicion, and has romantic trysts with Takada after becoming the second L in order to manipulate her into doing his bidding. However, he doesn’t really care about romance or sex, so played straight in that regard.

L   He was never interested in romantic relationships.

16. The Chessmaster:

Light He manipulates and uses pretty much everyone he comes into contact with.

L  See Awesomeness by Analysis.

17. Color-Coded For Your Convenience:

Light Official color seems to be red. Also wears a lot of black and white.

L Official color seems to be blue. According to Obata, his assigned color is gold. Grey also seems to be a recurring color.

18. Composite Character:

Light In the live action series, he is burned alive like Takada was in the manga and anime.

L In the films, he ousts Light as Kira and assesses him, much like Near.

19. Consummate Liar:

Light:  L asks Light if he seriously considers himself to be the polar opposite of this while the audience understands that Light is actually this:

L: Tell me, Light. From the moment you were born, can you honestly say you’ve never lied?

L To the point where no one can be sure if L is telling the truth, or lying.

20. Crazy Prepared:

Light: Played with. When he starts acting as Kira, he rigs his desk to burst into flame if anyone tries to find the Death Note, has three different ways to tell if someone has been in his room - even before gaining the notebook - and is shown spending hours going over his past actions and future plans, as well as what’s been reported in the news. He looks for mistakes and possible holes, and memorizes what has been reported, so L can’t trip him up. Later, due to his raging god complex and his sense of complete superiority, he starts to view himself as invincible, and stops being so well-prepared. It doesn’t end well for him.

L He’s prepared to use any tactics. He has money and resources set aside for every scenario imaginable… and some not!

21. Dark is not Evil/Light is Not Good:

Light No pun intended.

L His appearance is a bit… chilling: he is extremely pale, Looks Like Cesare and has Messy Hair. He’s also very stoic. However, he’s still on the justice’s side.

22. Determinator:

Light  "Childish and hates to lose.”

  • Light as Kira is (from his perspective) on a holy crusade against Evil. He’s never going to quit his mission for the sake of his friends, family, or “true love.” Sorry Misa and sorry fangirls.

L  He hates to lose.

23. Did you Just Scam/Punch out Cthulu: 

Light Light manipulates Rem into killing L and Watari in order to save Misa. Because this deliberately lengthened Misa’s life - a big no-no for Gods of Death - it ensures that Rem will die as well.

L How he’s introduced. He basically goes on television and tells Kira through his stand-in Lind L. Tailor where he can put his justice. Kira, of course, kills Tailor immediately, thinking that it’s L. Then, L keeps on taunting him anyway.

24. Do not Adjust Your Set:

Light He and Misa set several of these up throughout the course of the series, sometimes on national TV, sometimes on private laptops.

L He sets up the initial one of the series, identifying himself as Kira’s sworn enemy.

25. Et Tu Brute:

Light When the taskforce begins to turn against him in Season 2, it’s clear he sees it as a betrayal. Also the end of the series, “Matsuda, I thought you understood!” The manga finishes it up with Mikami screaming “YOU’RE NOT GOD!!”

L He realizes that Light, the person he is working alongside with, is once again Kira, moments before his death.

26. False Friend:

Light A mutual example with L. Their supposed friendship is completely insincere on both sides.

  • His relationship with Matsuda is probably closer then any of the other detectives since he believes that Matsuda is a Black Shirt who believes in Kira’s justice. He was wrong. And of course, Light didn’t hesitate to have Matsuda killed along with the other detectives.

L   To Light and Misa. Word of God confirmed that. He always lied.

27. Friendless Background:

Light Though he’s very popular Light doesn’t seem to be particularly close to anyone. This varies somewhat from the manga to the anime. In the manga, Light is seen casually joking while walking home with friends, while in the anime, Light is shown pointedly declining an invitation to hang out and eating lunch alone. He had many friends though, and he was able to get a large group together when going out looking for the Second Kira.

L L has no friends.

28. Gut Feeling:

Light Among other situations, if Light hadn’t felt this about Naomi Misora, the story would have had a very different ending.

L He is suspicious of Light from the moment he meets him. Guess what, L, you were right.

29. Hates Being Touched:

Light Misa never catches on.

L Zig-zagged. He tenses up and trembles when Aizawa roughly grabs him by the shoulder in one instance. But in another, when Misa kisses him on the cheek he responds rather positively to the gesture, blurting, “I could actually fall for you.” It might depend on context.

30. Hero Antagonist/Villain Protagonist:

Light To L’s Hero Antagonist.

L  As opposed to Light.

31. Hero with Bad/Villain With Good Publicity:

Light • As Kira, Light gradually gains more and more public support. In spite of being a mass murdering vigilante, he is admired by many for reducing crime rates through fear and power as if he were some deity smiting the wicked (which happens to be exactly how he sees himself). During the Time Skip, entire nations announce that they endorse Kira.

  • Light, as Light, is actually a straighter example; he’s a popular, intelligent, charming ace son of the police chief, who’s revered and admired by the people around him… who also happens to be a crazySerial Killer Magnificent Bastard.

L  The public and the police don’t trust L because he hides behind a computer screen.

32. Heterosexual Life Partners:

Light Also fakes being this with both L and Matsuda whenever he benefits from it. It’s mutual with L, but Matsuda genuinely believes them to be best friends.

L A completely falsified version with Light. They attend the same college, are constantly hanging out and later on begin living together, with L calling Light the only real friend he’s had in his entire life. In reality, all of this is a sham and both are simply playing mind games with the other to further raise the stakes of their battle.

33. Hypocrite:

Light • He considers all killings to be crimes, even if he carries them out himself or they’re done on his orders…though he still thinks he shouldn’t be punished for killing people himself. Especially since his victims include plenty of innocent people, killed to tie up loose ends, because they were trying to stop him, or in one case when they used the Death Note to kill people for profit - even though he gave it to them and expected them to do exactly that.

  • When Misa is introduced, she’s killing innocent newscasters and police officers for simply speaking out against Kira; Light is anything but pleased with her for doing so, but he himself did much the same by killing FBI agents. Misa even lampshades it, defending herself and retorting, “Isn’t that what you did?”

L • He tells Light that it’s illegal to murder outside of the law, but he does plenty of illegal things like spying and kidnapping in his efforts to catch Kira.

  • One potent example: when Light asks L to isolate him from the outside world to prove his innocence, L turns him down, explaining he “can’t deprive (Light) of his basic human rights,” and besides “it’s complete nonsense for an investigator to take suggestions from his suspect.” Guess what he ends up doing just a few episodes later.

34. I Am the Noun “I Am Justice”

35. I Did What I Had To Do:

Light • Light clings to this belief throughout the series.  

L Many times

36. I Have Many Names:

Light Light Yagami, Kira (the Saviour, the Messenger from Hell, etc.), Light Asahi, “Mr. A an office worker”, L (number two), God.

L Besides L, he’s also known as Ryuzaki, Eraldo Coil, Deneuve, and Hideki Ryuga. In Another Note, Mello estimated the amount of aliases that L possessed to be in the three digit range, and wonders which one of them finally killed him (not knowing that it was none of them), or if L himself even knew.

37. The Insomniac

Light though he’s easily overshadowed by L in this department Light often pulls all-nighters to keep his plans running smoothly.

L Aizawa: So, when does Ryuzaki sleep?

Matsuda: I once saw him sleeping in a chair in that position … No, really!

38. Insufferable Genius:

Light  It’s mostly well-hidden, but Light is not only well aware of his brilliance, but considers himself to be superior to most people because of it. We mostly only hear about it internal monologue, but every now and then, it slips through the cracks and is shown briefly to the other characters, too. It gets more prominent just before Light dies.

L He seems confident enough in his abilities that he thinks he can keep a supernatural killer an arm’s length close to him. This is taken Up to Eleven in the TV drama, wherein the pilot episode has him behave impolitely to Soichiro’s face.

39. Kick the Son of the bitch/Kick the Morality Pet:

Light Light and his family.

L L only reserves his justice for people he sees as evil, and to be fair, his accusations are always correct (Light, Misa). Moreover, while L does order the deaths of a few criminals to help further the investigation, these criminals were on death row anyway.

40. Lighter and Softer:

Light • In the television drama, the pre-Kira Light is much more extroverted and friendly (opposed to his reserved and somewhat brooding anime/manga counterpart), is so disgusted with himself over the first murders that he nearly commits suicide over them, spreads out the subsequent deaths at a much slower pace, and genuinely cares enough about Misa to deliberately target the man who killed her family.

  • Played straight in the neflix movie

L His film counterpart

41. Manipulative Bastard:

Light Whoo boy. Deceit and manipulation pretty much define all of Light’s relationships. The crowning moment of his manipulations is when he manages to get Rem to kill L in order to save Misa’s life, thereby ending her life as well.

L Undeniably. L has no problem using people to get the job done. Light of all people calls him out on it when he loses his memories and refuses to go along with L’s plan to manipulate Misa.

42. Meaningful Name

Light Done ironically seeing as Light is (probably) not good. Also Yagami (夜神) means “Night god” or “Dark god”, so his name is “Light Dark God”. But the important thing is the god part.

L His last name Lawliet, which is pronounced “low-light.”

43. Nice Guy:

Light: Not very much after he picked up the Death Note, but when his memories are wiped during the Yotsuba arc, he reverts to the way he was/would have been before picking up the Notebook.

L An odd example. Despite his poor social skills and Anti-Hero status, he’s fairly polite, accessible and civil. That, and his soft side with children.

44. Not So Different:

Light: Frequently lampshaded. Both he and L are genius Chessmasters that hold vast power by remaining anonymous- L solves criminal cases behind his computer screen, Light judges humanity from the comfort of his bedroom. They’re two sides of the same coin: Light has great ideals and no integrity. L has great integrity and no ideals.

L Frequently lampshaded, especially with his true name: Lawliet, which is pronounced like “low light.” The Great Detective L is a nameless, anonymous force of justice / retribution that may strike down when your least expect it. Sound familiar? Sucks to be you, Light.

45. Out Gambitted:

Light By Near at the end thanks to Mikami’s screw up.

L By Light; essentially what his death came down to, although he had no way of knowing Rem would kill to protect Misa.

46. Pet the Dog:

Light He often helped Sayu with her homework, but this was partially done to throw suspicion off him.

  • His possibly genuine love for family might count. This changes later with he didn’t seem to care about his father’s death and thought killing his sister would put more suspicion on him. He never seemed interested in hurting his mother, however.
  • When his memory is erased and he’s helping with the investigation, he notes that Kira never killed anybody who had already served their sentences, displayed genuine remorse, or had seemingly justifiable reasons for their crimes.

L: His way with kids

47. Properly Paranoid:

Light After all, they are all out to get him.

L Light is Kira, Misa is the second Kira, and they really are out to get L.

  • In Another Note, Mello explains that the reason L doesn’t go out much or interact with many people face-to-face is that L’s life is perpetually in danger due to his line of work.

48. Red Oni, Blue Oni: 

To each other. Light and L, respectively.

49. Stalker without a Crush:

Light: Towards Naomi Misora

L Towards Light and Misa.

50. The Stoic:

Light: Whatever else you may say about him, Light has a great poker face. This serves to give his Not So Stoic moments even more of an impact.

  • Lampshaded by L. He kills criminals without even changing his expression.

L: Remains calm in very bad situations.

51. Strange Minds Think Alike

Light: With L, and Mikami.

  • With Misa, as well, considering their opinions on how to go about creating a New World. “To defeat evil, there must be sacrifices, right?”
  • Also with Ryuk in the first episode when they both contemplate how rotten their respective worlds are.

L Light and L will often be shown to be thinking the exact same thing.

52. Tautological Templar:


Light: “Me? Evil? I am justice! Those who oppose me — they’re the evil ones!

L: His methods, including violations of privacy, unlawful imprisonment/kidnapping, and physical and psychological torture, seem to be justified, both in-universe and out, because he’s the one doing it.

  • In the case of Misa’s imprisonment given that he knows she can kill with just a person’s face, but does NOT know that she has to have the Death Note to do so, you could say that it is a case of Desperate Times Call For Desperate Measures

53. Teen Genius:

Light: He’s the top scoring student in all of Japan. Not to mention that he manages to stay on L’s level and focus on school-work.

L: He’s several years past his teens by the time of the series, though you have to assume he started that way.

54. That’s what I Would Do

Light: He freaks out his father pretty badly when he voices this to L.

L  He tries to think of Kira’s next move using this reasoning.

55. Together in Death:

Light: With L, at the end.

L: With Light, at the end. In the anime, he is the last thing Light sees before dying.

56. Trademark Favorite Food:

Light: Potato chips. Barbecue to be exact. He exploits this by hiding a mini LCD TV in a bag of barbecue chips because he’s the only one who eats that flavor.

L  Cake and really sweets of any kind.

57. Tragic Bromance:

With Light during the Yotsuba arc.

58. TV Genius:

Light: His cleverness at times reaches beyond the plausible. (Not as extreme as L’s, though.)

L: He often seems to deduce things almost out of thin air. As a general rule, he’s never wrong about anything.

59. Took a Level in Jerkass:

Light: Believe it or not, he Used to Be a Sweet Kid before finding a killer notebook and it just keeps getting harsher from there as he shifts his focus away from his vision of ”a perfect world“ to ”not getting caught.“ After the time skip his standards have slipped considerably.

L: In the TV drama, he’s noticeably more arrogant and stuck-up than his original counterpart. He even installs the cameras and microphones without telling the investigators involved, especially Soichiro.

60. Took a Level in Kindness:

Light: When he relinquishes his Death Note memories during the Yotsuba arc. It doesn’t last.

L: In the films

61. Ugly Hero Good Looking Villain:

Light: Light is the handsome villain to L’s more… unique looking hero.

L:  L is the strange-looking hero to Light’s handsome villain. However, his legion of fangirls disagree.

62. Voice with an Internet Connection:

Light: As the second L.

L: To everyone at first, until Light forces him into a situation where he needs to come out into the open to Light himself and the Kira taskforce members.

63. Workaholic:

Light: During the first arc, Light devotes all of the time that he’s not working on work for school or cram school to killing criminals as Kira; in the anime, he turns down offers to hang out with other students, something Ryuk comments on. And let’s give the kid some credit: keeping up four girls at once isn’t exactly easy, even if it is for a relatively brief period of time.

  • And in the second arc, when he’s balancing his jobs as L and Kira, he often goes without sleep to keep his schemes running smoothly. At one point, Matsuda calls Light’s ability to work endlessly "amazing.”

L: He spends all his time solving cases and eating candy. He rarely sleeps.

64. Xanatos Speed Chess

Light: He’s a master of this.

L: He’s a master of it, as shown when he saves Matsuda from being discovered by the Yotsuba group by having him fake his own death.

65. Young and In Charge:

L: He’s 24 at the beginning and the world’s greatest detective with control over the world’s police forces. It’s suggested he’s been this for several years, back into his teens and possibly even his childhood. In-series, the middle-aged cops of the taskforce answer to him.

Light: He is 18 when he assumes L’s name and control of the Japanese Taskforce after L’s death, and even at twenty-three in the second season he remains both its youngest member and leader.

Total trope count: 65 (So far a record!) Sourced from TV Tropes.

Austin Nights - Part 3

Pairing: Single!Jensen × Reader

Word Count: 3070

Summary: The reader lives in Austin and unknowingly runs into Jensen at a bonfire and sparks fly. Part 1 After abruptly leaving the party, the reader hopes to run into Jay again. Part 2

Warnings: Language, Implied Smut? (not sure if that’s a warning or not)

Obviously I intend no hate or ill wishes to him or his family. This is purely just for writing and wasting my time.

This is purely for a hobby and my enjoyment. Maybe some of you will enjoy it too. I am by no means a writer so I apologize in advance for any mistakes or grammatical/spelling errors.


Everyday had become an anticipated wait until your next ‘Skype Date’. They felt awkward at first, you weren’t really sure what to say, how long they should last, and an underlying desire just to touch him. But they soon became a familiar and comfortable part of your relationship. You built on depth and connection being denied the physical aspect. Part of you knew because of his status and profession, your relationship would not likely last long but you told yourself you were going to enjoy the ride while it lasted.

The hardest part was keeping it all from Angie. Jensen had discussed how he liked privacy and you agreed with his reasons. But if you told Angie, even though you loved her to death, it would only take one drunk night for her to start spreading it like wildfire.

Due to both your schedules and the time difference, dates would sometimes be at odd times or cut short if he was needed back to a scene or walk through. Tonight he seemed to be running late. You kept your laptop open and volume on high so you wouldn’t miss him. The rumbling in your stomach could not be patient any longer and you eventually found yourself with a bowl of ramen noodles as the familiar sound of Skype rang. You immediately answered despite the noodles hanging out of your mouth as you paused slurping. Jensen looked as perfect as ever wearing a backwards baseball cap. He immediately threw his body back in laughter as your image popped up on his side of the screen.

After a final slurp you defended your actions. “What? A girl’s gotta eat.” He continued laughing. “You are not my only priority believe it or not Jensen Ackles.”

“Ah, man. I wish I would have captured that.” He teased regretfully.

“Oh, don’t worry, I gotta better one for you.” You played back as you used chopsticks to dangle the noodles above your face, dramatically slurping them from above.

Jensen grinned from ear to ear at your antics. “You’re one of a kind, Y/N.” He continued to tease. “What is that anyways?” He asked more seriously.

“Um, Ramen,” You said as if it was obvious.

“Hmm, how did you make them?” He said trying to get a better view of the bowl.

“It’s like a .25 cent packet, you dork.” You laughed. “No culinary experience needed.”

“Are you short on money?” He asked concerned.

You rolled your eyes, hating when he brought finances up. “I am fine,” You assured. “Just trying to put some money aside, that’s all.”

Jay pondered trying to imagine what you would be saving for. “When are you someone to save money?”

“Not that it’s any of your information, but I do have a 401(k) and do know a thing or two about finances… why have you become so inquisitive?” You raised an eyebrow.

“Gotta make sure my girl is taken care of.” You blushed at his response. “So, what are you saving for?”

You pressed your lips together. “It’s a secret.” You smiled slyly.

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Our latest ‘FOCUS ON’ feature interview is with  Australian actor John Harlan Kim. Kim has journeyed from the familiar sights of Ramsay Street on Neighbours, to become a valued Librarian on the hit TNT show, The Librarians.

Hi John, how’s your visit home been?
Unreal! Always good to get home for the Summer and see all my mates and the family. Mom was stoked to have me back but now I’m pretty sure she’s getting over it and probably ready for me to head back to the States!

We’ve just seen the season 3 finale of The Librarians. Talk about an emotional rollercoaster. Your character Ezekiel has grown over the years, matured, what’s the journey been like over that time?
It’s weird. Here’s a character I never thought would grow. It was apparent that he suffered from some type of Peter Pan syndrome. But over the seasons we’ve seen more and more that it’s just a guard he has set up and I think people can relate to Ezekiel in that way, that having walls up is a normal human thing to do. He has the most to prove yet he acts like he doesn’t care but we’re seeing more and more that he truly does care, especially about his new family.

Can you relate to Ezekiel in any way?
I’ve grown up with the show myself so that’s probably one of the coolest parts, to not only see Ezekiel grow up and mature with each script but also needing to have to do that myself albeit on a less grander scale because obviously I’m not fighting dragons and minotaurs in my personal life. My problems are a little more realistic like trying to score a date or not over-cooking my eggs.

Has there been an episode that stood out as a favourite?
Point of Salvation. Hands down. The cast were so supportive that ep as was Jonathan Frakes and Jeremy Bernstein. They put me in an environment where I felt confident enough to make choices and take creative risks. I think it all came together really well in the end and I couldn’t be prouder.

Tell us about your relationship with the other Librarians.
Lindy [Booth] and Christian [Kane] set great examples for me, they’re always there for me (Lindy & Rebecca have even housed me at one stage) and they’re just good people to be around. And with Noah [Wyle], I couldn’t be more amped to work with. He’s phenomenal at what he does and I have a lot of respect for the way he handles the pressure whether as an actor, producer, director or writer. He’s awesome. I really couldn’t be in a better position with the cast I have.

And the dynamic between the Librarians and their Guardian, as well as Jenkins? It’s a great technique, incorporating different roles to cover a variety of plot lines.
Rebecca Romijn and John Larroquette make it way too easy to play! They’ve both had long and successful careers in the industry and it was easy to see why from the moment I got to Portland. I love working with them. It’s fun because you’re right, when we have such a wide variety of plot lines to cover splitting up the team becomes necessary to keep on top of it all. Every script I get, it’s exciting! One day I’ll be sitting on a magic council with Larroquette, the next I’ll be beating up zombies along with Romijn!

The episodes are always so unique and interesting, when you first read each script how do you feel? I’d imagine much like the audience, fascinated, but excited as your character experiences it.
One of my favorite parts about the whole thing is getting the next episode’s script. The writers on our show are top flight and they do a spectacular job in conveying their vision onto paper and keeping things fresh and interesting! Like I mentioned, you don’t know what you’ll be doing or where your character will get to travel to, all you know for sure is it won’t be boring!

There are some harder themes, for example in season 3 the team deals with the resolution of Cassandra’s tumour. In contrast, what was it like filming those scenes? As a viewer it was tense!
To an extent, it definitely felt like a shock to the system! Showing up that day was such a different type of shooting day for us. I wasn’t used to coming in and filming something so somber but being the incredible talent she is, Lindy absolutely killed it!

Were there any other scenes that presented a challenge in terms of emotional response? Like the finale?
Yeah I mean Flynn’s ultimate sacrifice was rough. And I had already read what was going to happen and I still got anxious watching it! That and Charlene’s goodbye. Jane Curtin’s a star, I loved having her around.

And what about training for the more physical combat roles, what was that like? Did you enjoy it?
Definitely. I got to live out a bit of a youth dream with that vampire ep. And to do it alongside Christian Kane who is well-versed in vampire combat himself. I mean, come on! How lucky am I!? Our stunt guys Tim Eulich and Buster Reeves were a dream to work with and they’re absolute legends as well.

Over the seasons, what’s one of your favourite moments working on the ‘The Librarians’ set?
My first day. Noah Wyle and the jewel theft scene. It still feels like a dream, such a surreal moment. I haven’t lost that feeling yet and I hope I never do. I never want to be jaded.

Do you have an idea as to what The Librarians will go through in the upcoming series? What would you like to see happen next, for all the librarians and specifically Ezekiel?
Zero idea. They’re good at keeping pretty secretive about all of that stuff. I’d love to see Ezekiel continue to evolve into the Librarian he’s going to be someday. He’s far from being fully-realized and has the most growing up to do so to see him take that next step would be awesome.

The Librarians has been renewed for a fourth season, what do you think makes the series so successful?
Our showrunners. John Rogers and now Dean Devlin. They’re the pulse of the show. I don’t really need to say anymore, they’re extraordinary at what they do and they’re two of the best men I’ll ever come across, by every measurement of the word.

Is there any other role you’d like to take on from a book or comic? Or another series you’d also like to be a part of?
Amadeus Cho. I’ve always wanted to be a humungous, green giant.

Did you always want to be an actor?
I decided at 15 I wanted to be an actor so I took a class, auditioned for my first gig and booked it. I then took that pay check from my first acting gig, coupled that with money saved from working at a charcoal chicken store and flew to New York in my school holidays. I knocked on the door to a film school building in Manhattan and told the concierge I wanted to be an actor and he told me to go find my parents. I think he thought I was lost.

On your down time what other things do you enjoy doing?
I love shooting hoops, hitting the water and playing video games. I picked up boxing a few months ago too but my heads so big, it makes it ridiculously hard to dodge punches.

How does working overseas compare to working here at home in Australia?
The biggest difference I’ve found is the pacing. I can’t speak for either industry as a whole but my experience on Neighbours was a much more fast-paced environment than something like The Librarians. It was actually a fantastic way to learn to nail your first few takes and within that, I found preparation was key so I make sure to show up to any set now with my lines absolutely ingrained into my brain so that the real fun can begin once you start shooting.

What advice do you have for actors, especially Australians wanting to make it in the industry and overseas?
Trust your choices. It’s so easy to second guess if you’re on the right path or not but just back yourself and everything else will fall into place.

And finally, what can we expect from you next?
I’m actually in the middle of editing my first project right now so I’m hoping to complete that before we start work on Season 4! Way too excited to see that finished and then to get to go back to work with Dean & the gang is going to be an absolute blast as always!

Thank you so much for your time John. We can’t wait to see you on screen in 2017!

The Contest-Part 23

To celebrate Supernatural’s 15th season, the producers have decided to hold a contest to cast an unknown in a recurring role as Sam’s rumored love interest.  They are doing open casting calls all over the country.  Your best friend Nikki wants to go and she drags you along.

A/N: My inspiration for Nikki is the one and only Red, AKA@oriona75.  So I am actually telling two stories here, Jared and Readers, and Sam and Gemini’s.  It flips back and forth, so try and keep up! :)

Characters: Jared Padalecki, Reader, Best friend Nikki(OC) Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins, Mark Sheppard, Mark Pellegrino, Rory Montgomery (OC), PA Emily (OC) Cliff, Other Supernatural cast and crew

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Part 1 (all parts are linked)

“Okay, if I tell you, you have to PROMISE not to get mad.  I took care of it.”  I told Jensen.

“I’m listening.”

“I confronted Rory about the crap he pulled at the party, and he said I was jealous and then he kissed me.  The yelling you heard was me telling him Jared was gonna kick his ass.” I looked at Jensen, trying to gauge his reaction.

“Jared can get in line,” Jensen said angrily, clenching his fists.

“See, this is why I didn’t want you two to know.  Hasn’t there been enough drama? I handled it!  Rory is a straight up douchebag, and I won’t have either of you getting in trouble because of him.  So can we just drop it, please?  You know Jared will want to beat the crap out of him.” I gave Jensen my best puppy dog eyes. Jared had rubbed off on me.

“FINE.” He snapped.  “But if he so much as looks at you funny, I’m kicking his sorry ass, no matter what you say, AND telling Jared.”

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The Joker x Reader - “Mother”

The Joker doesn’t have a past: nobody knows who he is or where he came from. But he has a Mother and God help the ones finding out the secret: they won’t live to see another day. Even if she is a mystery herself, The King of Gotham wouldn’t trust anybody else because a long time ago Mother proved him wrong when he thought nobody cared.

“So what do you say, Mister J? Would you like to close the deal?”

The Joker takes a deep breath, pretending to weight in the offer, then swiftly answers:

“I don’t do human trafficking.”

“Oh, come on Mister J, there’s such good money from it,” Lex points out towards the piles of $100.00 bills scattered on the negotiation table. The other 6 men in the room nervously watch The King of Gotham, hoping he will change his mind.  They need his territory to expand the business.

“Allow me to show you something,” Lex continues, signaling Jase and the gangster leaves for a couple of minutes, returning with a woman he pushes inside the room, cussing at her as she fights his grip. J is silent, observing the scene without any trace of emotion on his face.

“Take this one for example,” Jase slams you against the wall, telling you to behave. “We got her last night. A little bit on the older side, looks like she is in her mid 30’s, but you know, some clients would still prefer her over the younger ones: she’s beautiful and we can get a few productive years out of her.”

You shiver, disgusted, being so cold you can barely think straight.

J stares you down and the mobster keeps on going:

“One of my men wanted to sample the merchandise this morning and she knocked his lights out. As a punishment, we kept her in the shed outside for hours; almost below zero in this crazy weather. That ought to teach her who’s in charge! It usually does the trick, ain’t that right, honey?” he winks and they all laugh, except The Joker.

You bite on your blue lips so you can feel them again: you were in that shed for so long without a coat, just jeans and a sweater. Frozen to the bone, you can’t control your shaking. You hug yourself in a faint attempt to warm up.

“Cat got your tongue?” another one snickers, thrilled at you present situation. “Mister J,” he turns towards their guest,” would you like to evaluate the assets before you say no the deal? She needs a lesson and you are perfect for the task: do whatever you want with her. I bet you like the feisty ones, don’t…you…?” His smirk turns into a grimace when J gives him a demented glare.

“And how the fuck do you know what I like?” The Joker growls, displeased with the assumption while tapping his fingers on the table. “I’m not a rapist!” he snarls, cracking his neck.

The guys are all fast to talk, realizing they upset him; they had no idea this will take such an unexpected turn.

“No way, Mister J!”

“By all means, we didn’t mean to offend you!”

“She wants it for sure: it’s her job. That’s what whores do!” Jase concludes, trying to convince J of their goodwill.

“And how do you know she’s a whore?” The Clown Prince of Crime smacks his lips, sighing with annoyance.

“Sir, you know that…”

J interrupts, muttering through his clenched teeth:

“The fact that you kidnap somebody and force them into prostitution doesn’t make them a whore!”

The wannabe business partners have no clue on how to reply and why this is sliding on such a dangerous slope so fast: they thought they had it figured out.

“You there!” The Joker shouts, making you gaze his way. “You wanna have sex with me?”he bluntly inquires.

You nod a no and a confirmation is expected:

“Are you sure?”

“Y-yes,” the reply fallows without hesitation.

“She said no,” J becomes even more imposing as soon as he adjusts the collar of his long, white furry coat. “If I force her it’s rape and I am not a rapist,” he underlines the last word, getting pissed.

“Mister J, come on now. We just thought…”

“You thought wrong!” he raises his voice and gets up from the table, stepping towards you, not excited about this stupid evening.

He stops in front of you and takes the coat from his shoulders, placing it around you.

“Are you OK?” he asks, looking you in the eyes.

“U-hum,” you sniffle, already better since the fur is so cozy.

“One of these days you’ll get yourself killed, or worse…” he leans over to whisper in your ear.

The men are getting impatient; something is off.

“The girls are here,” you announce in a low tone, resting your forehead on his chest. “All my children are here; I saw them last night when I was brought to this place.”

“What’s going on?” Jase moves his chair and the others follow.

“SIT. YOUR. ASS.DOWN !!!!!!” J commands with such ferocity they have no choice but to execute his request.

“Who…who is this, Mister J ?” Lex suspiciously brings up the concern they all share.

“This, gentlemen,” he promptly turns towards them, softly caressing your back, “is my Mother. THE Mother,” he emphasizes the statement and it suddenly makes you warmer. It’s the first time in so many years he referred to you as his Mother.

The gangsters exchange quick glances, panicking.

“This is Mother?” Lex holds his breath, hoping it’s all a misunderstanding.

The wild grin on your face and the fact that The Joker admitted to the connection between the two of you confirms their fear: at this point they know none of them will live to tell.


Nobody knew where you came from. Almost 26 back then, you already had a whole underground network going. So much mystery and secrecy surrounding your existence, so many rumors and assumptions about who you really were. Not a single soul was even aware of your real name; everybody just called you Mother.

Why? Because you helped and cared about those that didn’t matter: the ones living on the streets, the ones abandoned by society or deemed to insignificant to take into consideration when they were abused, went missing or forced to perform unspeakable acts simply because they were considered worthless.

You worked bellow the grid and often used less than orthodox methods to accomplish your missions. Even the authorities used you when they had no leads for different unsolvable cases, especially regarding human trafficking. All done behind closed doors, of course: Mother’s name never came up in any reports or in the news when there was an unexpected breakthrough. How could they admit they got help from someone like you?! It would have been such a scandal if the public knew the truth.

Many times you would go undercover yourself, having your crew ready to take action when you gave them the signal. Some other times you would actually be the bait, walking alone at night in less than respectable neighborhoods, especially districts with high volume of kidnappings, allowing yourself to be abducted if the occasion arose.  

It was an opportunity to infiltrate the complicated maze of human smuggling in order to try and save as many as you could. It was your choice and you had your reasons, despite your team’s efforts to make you change your mind.

What you did was very dangerous, that’s why you changed your physical appearance very often: you never looked the same for more than a few days at a time, never stayed for too long at any hideout. Always on the move, hardly traceable or recognizable if you didn’t want to be.


The first time you met him was on a Friday. He hesitantly stepped inside your office at your main hideout and looked nervous noticing all the security around the place. You were sitting at the desk and Kai was standing to your left; he wouldn’t have abandoned that spot even dead.

“How old are you?” you asked the young man, trying to figure out what’s going on with him. He had long brown hair back then, almost elbow length and his blue eyes were a lighter shade than today.

“22…” he muttered.

“More like 19-20,hm?” you called him out on his obvious lie. ”Anyway, what’s you name?”

He struggled to answer.

“I need a name, I don’t care if it’s your real one or not. Make up something!”

“Umm…Jack,” he shortly replied.

“Jack in the Box!” you snorted, amused by the first thought you got when you heard the name. Definitely not the real moniker but it was fine.

You took out a cigarette from the pack and Kai was quick to snatch it.

“You have enough bad habits, Mother,” and he put it inside the jacket of his suit, knowing you are not going to be happy.

“Are you kidding me?! Give that back!”

Kai pretended not to hear and you weren’t excited:

“You’re fired!”

“No I’m not,” he calmly replied and you were about to start giving him a piece of your mind when he just took your hand and kissed it to shut you up. It worked.

“Stop it…” you grumbled, returning your attention towards Jack that was watching the scene without any clue on how to react.

You exhaled, frustrated.

“What do you need help with?”

“Umm…I need a place to stay…”

“Runaway? Bad home?” the interview kept on going and he felt uncomfortable. “I can always tell anyway, no need to confirm,” you cut it short. “You don’t talk too much, do you?”

He really didn’t back in the day.

“I’ll help you as soon as I can verify your story,” you signaled him to get out. “Can’t afford any spies around.”

“I’m not a spy…”

“Said no spy ever,” you sarcastically smirked.

Jack didn’t say anything more before exiting the room.

“What do you think?” you addressed Kai and he leaned over to kiss you.

“I’ll have someone check, babe,” and was already reaching for his cell when you stopped him.

“First give me back my cigarettes!”

“Nope,” and he dialed the numbers while you got pissed.
“You’re fired!”

“You can’t fire your boyfriend,” Kai winked and you kicked his leg, annoyed.

“Never say that laud, you know the rule!!!”

“I’m sorry, Mother, don’t get mad,” he mocked and you really wished you could have fired him but you loved that man too much anyway.


Jack wasn’t a spy; far from it. His background check brought up a bunch of unfortunate events that ending up with him requesting your help. Who else but Mother would have cared about somebody like him? He was actually a bright one, just stubborn and defensive: typical for those having it tough at early ages.

He mostly ran errands and commissions, being quite trustworthy as a courier to your own surprise. Jack also got a place to leave at one of your shelters, away from the past he was trying to escape.

The first encounter with the brutal reality of what it meant to be the Mother of Gotham occurred about after 5 months you took him in. He happened to be there when your crew was able to recover some young girls that disappeared without a trace. They never made it back to the orphanage you placed them at after school. But you didn’t let that slide: you never turned a blind eye to such things.

When your people opened the back of the truck and you saw them, your heart stopped: they looked beaten up and scared to death, clinging to each other like it was the last thing they will ever do. After a few seconds they realized it was you.

“M-Mother?…” one timidly uttered, not believing you were real.

You opened your arms, waiting and then another girl cried out:

“It’s Mother!”

“Mother!” they got the courage to move and jumped out of the vehicle, rushing in your arms while you tried to comfort them: seven girls between the ages of 14 and 16, finally finding some reassurance after being through hell.

“My poor children,” you kept on whispering, distressed, attempting to reach and embrace all of them. “What happened to you?”

A few began to sob and some averted their gaze, whimpering and you just knew.

“Goddamned assholes,” you gasped for air, staring at the grey skies.

“Mother,” Kai approached to report and you signaled your men to take the orphans to the SUVs parked on the side of the road. They were desperate to stay close to you but you convinced them to obey. “They were planning to move them on the West Coast tomorrow morning; great market for the young ones there. We managed to catch a few of them,” he briefed you, showing you the armed van a few steps away.

You stomped and opened the heavy doors yourself, glaring at the men inside, all tight up with gags in their mouth.

“You like innocent young girls, hm? You think because they have nobody you can do what you please with them? In case you didn’t know, they are not alone: they do have a Mother !!!!” you yelled, rabid and panting with indignation. “Grenade!” you requested one from the men close to you. He handed you a hand grenade and you were fast to pull the pin and toss it inside, quickly sealing the door. The detonation was quiet, the armed truck containing the blast. Blood started dripping from inside and you just barked at the goons:

“Make sure this disappears!”


One night you were traveling between hideouts without escorting cars; so rare for you to do that but you were in a big hurry. Kai was driving and he noticed you were being followed.

“We have several tails,” he accelerated and you called your men for an emergency intervention.

“We are being followed: deploy a convoy right away. I’m on Mulberry Hill, heading west! Hurry up!!” You barely finished when two cars coming from the opposite direction slammed into your van, then the ones behind crashed your vehicle, forcing it off the cliff. Everything happened so fast you didn’t have time to say a word; Kai died on impact and you almost lost your life also, but your people found you in time. You didn’t wake up for a week: you had five broken ribs, a punctured lung, several fractures, bruises and cuts on your entire body.

Your crew turned one of the hideouts in a clinic since you couldn’t be taken to a regular hospital. While unconscious, so many came to see you, worried about your health: hundreds of souls you helped and still helping, aware that if you were gone, there was nobody left to fight for them. Not in the way you did anyway.

Jack has seen nothing like it before, finding himself admiring and envying the respect you were given.

Your most trusted men and women were there when you called upon them after you woke up. Jack and some young ones were summoned by the crew also, awaiting orders. You were in such a bad shape you could barely speak.

“Kai…is…is…dead…” and you started crying, heartbroken at the news you had found out upon your awakening. “And they couldn’t…” and you gulped, heartbroken, “…save my baby…”

“Mother…” Richard took your hand, holding it and you didn’t even feel it. The others were silent, grieving your loss too. Jack had no idea you were pregnant, just a few closer to you aware of the secret.

“I can’t have children … anymore…” you continued to mumble, “…but I’m not childless…I…have so, so many children…Every single one I help…is my child…” and the doctor injected your sleeping medication because you were in so much physical and mental pain. Your eyelids got heavy and Elsie encouraged the team to get out and let you rest. Jack lingered behind for a little bit, gazing at the broken Mother. He didn’t know why, but he remained by your side, planting a soft kiss on your swollen lips and whispered before heading out:
“Try not to die you horrible woman.”

It took a few months for you to recover but you weren’t able to do anything afterwards.You locked yourself up in one bedroom at your penthouse and refused to see any faces. You couldn’t get over your despair of losing the man you loved and your baby. From time to time you would open the door and asked for food or cigarettes, your bodyguards noticing a lot of Kai’s clothes scattered around and baby garments you would hold to your chest. You were in such bad shape they were seriously concerned about your wellbeing.

“Bring me a pack,” you would ask, rubbing your red eyes. “He can’t tell me I can’t smoke,” and you would close the door, bursting into tears and cry yourself to sleep.

So many needed help and you didn’t care. Your crew tried their best yet Mother was desperately wanted back.

** “Mother,” your henchmen would knock at the door. “Some of the young ones left: Jack, Kailey, Brian and Lara. They said they are getting out of town. We need new couriers; who should we hire?”

“I don’t give a shit! You can all go to hell!” you would hiss and they had to make it work the best way they could.

** “Mother, young girls and boys are missing from District 7! We got a trace, do we have green light to move?”

“I fucking don’t care!!!” you would shout, pissed they bothered you.

** “Mother, Mister Bruce Wayne is here!” someone would announce.

“He can go to hell too!!” you yelled and he heard since he was a few steps away. You liked to use the orphanages under his patronage to place your children in, they were the safest. Under the radar, of course, not too many knew about your connection.

“I’m so sorry sir,” your people would apologize, “She’s…not feeling well.”

“That’s fine,” he nodded in acceptance, aware of what’s going on with you. “I’ll be back.”

** “Mother, Taysha is here, she needs help.”

“Don’t care!!!!”

But the 10 year old started whaling at the door, pounding with her little fists against the heavy oak door.

“Mother!!! Mother, please!!!! My sister is missing, I didn’t see her in a week!!! Please, Mother, help me!”

There was no response and they tried to take her away while she was screaming and fighting them.

“Mother!!! Mother!!!!” the little girl didn’t give up and you finally cracked the door, telling them to let her go.

“Where was she last seen?”


You slowly went back to what you were doing since you had no choice: no one else willing to take your place or aid those that nobody cared about. A few years went by and one night you were watching the news, when something got your attention: they were talking about The Joker, a criminal emerging from out of nowhere, accused of several acts of violence, arson, blackmail and robbery.

“Hm…” you tilted your head, deep in thought. “Kind of looks familiar…” and you held your pillow tighter, debating. “Oh my God!!!” it clicked. “It’s Jack in the Box! Honey, it’s Jack in the Box!” you turned towards Kai’s side of the bed, smiling. From time to time you placed his favorite suit by you, pretending he’s still alive and talked to him. “Remember the kid with long hair and blue eyes running errands for us? He looks sooo different but it’s him! You know I never forget a face!” You were pleased with the revelation and hoped you can twist it in your favor. You caressed the tiny yellow onesie on your tummy, a small token of your lost baby that you couldn’t part with:

“I wonder what happened to him…”


Your first encounter was at a strip club where you infiltrated as a dancer, your sources telling you The Joker would be there that week. He showed up one night and was heading towards the VIP room for a meeting when one of the girls lined up for the customers got his attention. You gazed at each other for a few moments and he just knew: that was Mother standing there, playing with her pink, neon hair while giving him a small wink. You looked so different but he never forgets a face.

“I want a private dance first,” he sneered, halting in front of the dancers, pointing his cane towards you. The young girl besides you froze: no older than maybe 15, hardly holding in her anxiety: he didn’t seem friendly to say the least. Not that any of them ever did.

“Don’t worry, it’s not for you,” you talked loud enough for her to hear you over the blasting music and she swallowed the lump in her throat, relieved.

“I want her in the Gold Room,” The Joker made his request known and he got what he wished for.

“Of course, Mister J,” they obliged and you followed the green haired man in the private room, parting the colorful beads as he sat down on the chair in the middle, waiting.

You kept a fake grin on your face, not breaking eye contact while kicked his legs opened to get in between and started to dance for him.

“Hello, Mother,” J growled under his breath, enjoying the show nevertheless.

“Well if it’s not my favorite son, alive and breathing,” you grabbed his hands and slid them down your hips.

“I was never your favorite,” he sighted, annoyed.

“True,” you admitted, sitting in his lap. “Don’t blow up my cover; they have 2 cameras in here,” you pulled on his bottom lip, making it all seem normal since they were watching for sure.

“I will have to kill you since you know too much about me,” he yanked at your waist and there was such darkness in those eyes he probably meant it.

“Not if I kill you first,” you replied with such determination you probably meant it.

“Mister J, are you well taken care of?” one of the club owners peeked inside and you quickly squeezed J’s cheeks together, kissing his puckered lips.

“Yeah, I am. Get out so I can enjoy my dance!!!” he angrily threw his cane towards the man, making him apologize and back out in a frenzy.

“They brought in a shipment two days ago, the youngest girl 13 and the youngest boy 14. I came in so I can confirm for my team standing by for my signal. This time we have FBI coming in the next 30 minutes. Anonymous tip, of course, “ you stroke his pale forehead, playing your part. “Don’t go to your meeting, just leave after I’m done.”

“Why are you telling me this?” he sucked on his silver teeth, debating.

“Because I believe we can help each other. You know who I am and what I’m capable of. And you have connections I might have to add to my list. I don’t give a damn about what you do as long as it serves my needs. OK?”

“I’ll think about it…” The Joker slapped your butt and stuck a few hundred bills in your lacy thong when you got up and bent over in front of him:

“Don’t push it!” you grouchily admonished.

“You told me not to blow your cover. Make up your mind!”


“Are you better now?” J hands you over a glass full of whiskey and you close your eyes as a yes, sipping from your drink and watch the flames burning in the fireplace. You wanted to go to his penthouse after tonight’s incident and finally feel warm; you were so cold for so many hours.

“If you catch pneumonia and die, can I inherit your fortune?” J huffs, piling up a bunch of blankets and furs in front of the fireplace.

“No,” you snicker, crawling over on the made up bed, exhausted.

“Humor me: if you die, what am I supposed to engrave on your headstone? I need a name.”

“Mother is fine,” The Joker gets his elusive reply.

“You give me no choice: I have to kill you for talking to me like this!”

“Not if I kill you first!” you gesture for him to join you and he complies.

You snuggle to him and he’s silent before reprising his usual comeback:

“One of these days we’ll have to have sex so we can get it out of our system.”

“I don’t think so,” you roll your eyes and cover his mouth. He takes it and kisses it, purring.

“You borrowed one of my t-shirts and boxers tonight, I need payment.”
“Ughhh, I liked you better back in the day when you didn’t talk too much,” you elbow him and turn away, getting comfortable.

“Hey, what about a quickie?”

“No,” you chuckle and he hugs you from behind, upset:

“How dare you ??!! I really have to kill you now!”

“Just try,” you yawn, “ keeping his hand captive, “ I’m telling your girlfriend you’re hitting on me”.

“Don’t start anything ! Women always side to get a guy in trouble,” he sniffles, outraged. 

You probably would tell her.

“Then let me sleep and she won’t hear a peep out of me.”

“Fine, you teasing cougar!”  

You burst out laughing, amused.

“Wooow, nobody ever called me that, at least not to my face,” you keep on laughing, repositioning yourself in his arms while he smells your hair, irritated.

The Joker doesn’t have a past: nobody knows who he is or where he came from. But he has a Mother and she is the only one to keep his secrets. Even if she is a mystery herself, The King of Gotham wouldn’t trust anybody else because a long time ago Mother proved him wrong when he thought nobody cared.



An Interview with Darkiplier

It’s the bubblegum boy’s birthday! 5 years of Warfstache and I couldn’t be happier with him, although I feel so bad for him after everything he’s been through and just want to hug him, even if it kills me. This is a longer one because I had the idea and just couldn’t stop writing it.

As always the art is mine (and thematic for the story), which is posted here

Will didn’t want anything big for his birthday shockingly enough. He didn’t want a huge party with him as the centre of attention, or for everyone to be bringing him gifts of every size. All he wanted was for Dark to live up to a promise he made a few years ago.

“Oh Darkidoo~” Will called in a sing song voice, “do you know what day it is?
“It’s a Thursday,” Dark smirked to himself as he straightened his tie in the mirror, cracking his neck to reset the broken bones of his stolen body.
Will was currently up in Dark’s office, lounging on top of his grand piano as he practised a few questions he would be asking for today’s interview, which was very special indeed. Dark hadn’t given Will permission to even be up in his private room, but then again, Will was the only ego he couldn’t be mad at for long. When Dark emerged from his bathroom, Will jumped up excitedly.
“Today’s the day! Finally I can interview you!” he was bouncing on the spot like an excited child, clapping his hands and fidgeting with his bow tie.
“Life is ours to choose, and I guess I chose wrong,” Dark rolled his eyes and straightened his suit jacket, “are you ready?”
“I’ve been ready for 5 years Dark, let’s get this started.”

Down in Will’s studio, some of the other egos had gathered in the audience to watch the long awaited interview. Those who didn’t show up were still in their rooms, ready to watch the live stream of the entire event. The Jim twins were backstage, ready to operate the lights and sound effects prepared, whilst Bim nervously wrung his hands as he waited just off stage. He was going to be introducing the show, and this was by far the biggest thing Will had ever asked him to do. The Host was also on the scene, ready to narrate about Will’s interview and game show host career before the show officially begins. Today was his birthday after all and they had prepared a compilation of ‘Warfstache Best Moments’ to celebrate his crazy life. When it was time to go live, Host sat down at his makeshift radio booth, adjusting the audio levels. Being a radio host meant he was familiar with the equipment and more than happy to contribute to the show. The lights dimmed, the projector started up and the clip compilation began to play.

“Greetings everyone and welcome to a very special episode of Warfstache Tonight! The show is live from Egos Inc, and on this very special day, we are here to celebrate 5 years of the man you all know as Wilford Warfstache. He’s had a busy life, from interviewing characters from popular games to interviewing Markiplier himself. He’s gotten into trouble, but what’s Wilford Warfstache without a bit of madness. Now, The Host would like to ask that everyone take a seat, make themselves comfortable and enjoy the show.”
When The Host’s introduction speech and the clip compilation ended, Bim stepped out on the stage, a round of applause erupting from the speakers thanks to the Jims backstage and the few egos who came to watch all cheered.
“I’m Bim Trimmer and you are watching Warfstache Tonight! where we have a very special guest. Many of you have requested for him to appear on the show, and finally the day has come. I hope you’re all ready for the demon behind the channel and the manipulator you all love. This is an interview with Darkiplier.”

The curtain lifted to reveal Will sat in his a huge pink armchair and Dark perched on the end of a plain, wooden chair from upstairs in the kitchen. His arms were neatly folded on his lap and he was holding his head higher than usual as if to look intimidating. Will introduced the show in his typical fashion and introduced Dark with a wide grin on his face. Silence fell in the studio as Will prepared to ask Dark some very important questions. He’d been preparing for years.

“So Dark, to start everything off,” Will took a deep breath, “is there anything you regret?”
Dark glared at Will, his eyes glowing blue and red for a second as his shell threatened to shatter, but he managed to compose himself with a neck crack.
“There is a lot in my life I regret, but at the same time, I wouldn’t change my actions if I was given the choice to. I would never want to give up where I am now just to change a few silly mistakes of the past.”
That wasn’t the answer Will was expecting. He was expecting something more emotional, but Dark’s face was neutral and his answer was professional and logical. This wouldn’t do at all. Where was the fun in logic?
“How far have you taken an argument?" 
‘Finally, a real question’ Dark thought to himself, relaxing more and once again cracking his neck.
“I once threw a man off the roof because we had a disagreement” Dark paused as Will nervously rubbed his neck, remembering that day, “and everyone here knows I can hold a grudge for an eternity. Take Bim for example.”
Dark gestured to the right side of the stage where Bim jumped and started to fidget with his tie. He knew exactly what Dark was referring to and was honestly shocked the monochromatic ego still remembered that.
Dark continued his story, “April 1st of this year, whilst Google was off making his special video, Bim was able to sneak into my office and steal one of my ties because he’d ruined his after his own ability literally blew up in his face. I have not, and will not forgive him for lying to me when I confronted him about it the next day.”
Bim scurried off back stage, suddenly terrified for his life, whilst Dark smirked. Some of the egos were so naive and had no idea about Dark’s hidden security cameras. He didn’t need the Googles to keep an eye on everyone, he just found it more fun that way.

There was still no real reaction from Dark, or at least not the kind Will had been hoping for, so he decided to question more personal things.
“Do you hear the ringing too?”
Dark seemed shocked by the question, like he wasn’t expecting it, but like always, he composed himself quickly. Leaning forward, Dark gestured for Will to come closer. Quietly, but close enough to the microphone so it could be heard, he whispered in Will’s ear.
“It drives me insane.”
Now that was unexpected. Will was actually curious as to whether Dark could hear his own ringing, but he didn’t ever expect that his good friend would have to go through that every day.
“Oh my, now we’re getting to the nitty gritty” Will dramatically wiggled his fingers in typical Warfstache style, and Dark continued to smirk.
He wouldn’t admit that he was enjoying this, but it was true. Will was happy, the attention was on Dark and maybe now some of the other egos would learn to shut up since he already had to deal with the constant ringing in his ears, he didn’t need screaming egos to add to it.

“Why do you always wear the same suit?” Will grinned, finally reaching the question he knew would make Dark snap.
“I don’t,” Dark’s reply was calm, “I have multiple suits. You were literally looking in my wardrobe this morning when you thought I wasn’t looking at you.”
Will blushed. He didn’t realise he’d been caught snooping, but now was nothing the time to get flustered.
“Yeah, but why do they all look the same?”
Dark growled to himself, too quiet for the microphone to pick up but loud enough for Will to hear.
“Because they are the same. I thought that was obvi-”
“What about a bit of colour?” Will interrupted.
Now Dark was getting annoyed. His shell started to flicker like a light bulb, switching between red and blue.
“You know how my aura works, Will,” there was a dangerous tone to his voice now, a warning for Will to stop this pointless list of questions, “most colours just disappear when I wear them, with the exception of some shades of red and blue.”
“You’d suit some pink”
“Stop trying to turn me into you”
“How about a hat? Maybe a moustache or some glasses?”
Dark snapped. His voice remained the same, but his shell split open to reveal two versions of himself screaming silently. Will was treading on thin ice.
“You’re living in the past now.”
“Maybe a bow tie like me?”
All of a sudden, Dark was a different person. His aura receded and his voice wasn’t echoing. Even the high pitch noise seemed to vanish momentarily.
“I won’t touch a bow tie after what happened,” spoke a familiar male voice, followed by a familiar female voice, “and you know that.”
Will realised he’d gone too far. He saw his old best friend and his former love for a single moment, both pleading for him to change the topic. Keeping his cheery, energetic appearance up, Will chose to move on and Dark returned to normal.

The interview continued with silly little question Will had thrown together, but after nearly an hour, Dark nodded to signify he was ready to stop.
“One final question, if that is ok with your Highness?”
Dark now hated that smirk on Will’s face. A long time ago he used to love it, but that particular expression could only mean one thing. Dark reluctantly sighed and nodded, impatiently tapping his finger on the armrest of the chair.
“Are you in love, or is there anyone who’s caught your attention?”
Yeah, that’s what Dark was expecting. Will was obsessed with knowing details about people’s crushes and relationships. He was the first to know that Mark liked Amy because of his pestering.
“I was once in love, a long time ago. It’s a feeling I remember, but it’s just an echo of who I once was. I tend to stay away from complex emotions now because they only limit what can be achieved by oneself. Thank you for the question, Will.”
That hurt Will much more than it should have. No one else would understand what Dark had been referring to, but Will knew. He knew everything, and it took all of his strength to stop himself from either hugging Dark or letting a few stray tears slip down his face.
“Well that’s it for the interview ladies, gentlemen and of course all other configurations of being. This has been Warfstache Tonight!”
The curtain fell and the recording was cut.

Everyone loved the show, and the egos who hadn’t been in the studio came to wish Will a happy birthday. Once everyone had gone, Will turned to Dark and finally gave in to hugging him.
“Thank you,” he spoke softly, “this is all I ever wanted for today.”
Dark didn’t hug his friend back, but he smiled, “happy birthday old friend.”
The two of them split off, Dark back to his office to think about everything Will had brought up, and Will to see some of the other egos so he could invite them all to his birthday movie night later on.

[A/N: Thank you everyone who contributed! You guys had some great questions that made this even better]

khrfanatic  asked:

what do you think why Real!Ciel returned home? is he want to take the revenge on young master??... although I am excited with the revelations, it made me scared too for what comes next

Hmmm, if real Ciel /is/ the ultimate bizarre doll Undertaker was talking about in ch84, it means that he had a lot of ‘future episodes’, i.e. a very strong longing for future.

For example, these students from Weston were turned into BDs by Undertaker and they mumble stuff like

“Cricket game” and “Christmas break”, which means that they were thinking of those things in the moment when they died. So if what you thought of in the last moment of your life is what define your actions as a bizarre doll, I think there’s the chance that real Ciel thought of his bright future as the next “Earl Phantomhive”, i.e. the life he would have lived (had he been not killed by the cultists). Hence, he came back to the Phantomhive manor and claimed he is the real “Earl”.

↑↑ Okay, that’s the somewhat logical part of my answer and the following is just my wishful thinking lol ↓↓

Undertaker said more or less that “BDs don’t tell any lies” in this scene

so if we take real Ciel’s words in chapter 129

“You don’t have to worry anymore. I won’t ever leave your side.”

at face value, I think there’s a chance that he also came back for our Ciel’s sake. I really believe that the twins got along well and that real Ciel was protective of our Ciel (ch90), so maybe he thought of his little bother as well when he was killed.

Again, that’s just my wishful thinking, but at the moment there are so many mysteries and unanswered questions regarding real Ciel, bizarre dolls and Undertaker anyway, so I guess anyone is allowed to come up with a crack theory haha! (≧▽≦)

4x04 Personal Highlights

So I know that there has been a lot of negativity surrounding this past episode, but I would like to point out that it was far from being all bad and I would say it was a hell of a lot better than episode four from LAST season (aka. my least favourite episode of this show, ever) there was actually some good shit buried in this episode that I would like to address.

Never too much positivity, right fam?

Okay, I’ll get to it.

1. “Bellamy should be back by now.”

I mean, it’s self-explanatory. Even the C/exa queen is writing us some Bellarke shit .. hmm, I wonder why? Maybe cause she has to? Maybe cause Bellarke is becoming canon? Huh, weird.

2. Monty being a total babe and trying to comfort Clarke

It only serves to make the absence of his name on The List that much more painful, but I love seeing Monty trying to cheer Clarke up. He’s such a beacon of light. @the-ships-to-rule-them-all and @abazethe100 talked on their podcast about how its not just Monty’s brain and skills that make him invaluable, but who he is at his core - a source of optimism and support. He holds people together. I thought it was worth mentioning because @theskyboxpodcast is always good, but I especially loved that bit.

3. Devon’s acting

The writers truly could not have picked a better actor to play Jasper. He kills it, over and over and over again. Devon is the perfect mix of humour and tragedy that makes Jasper so heartbreaking and unique. He brings life to this character in a way that few actors could. That scene in the rain perfectly demonstrates this.

(UNRELATED: I’d love to see how Jaha was managing out on that lake when he heard about the acid fog. The possibilities are never-endingly humourous.)

4. Kane calling out Octavia

This scene was soooo validating because its the first time that Octavia’s actions have TRULY been called out. And it wasn’t just a brief call-out, it was an entire lengthy scene dedicated to why Octavia’s actions are NOT being supported by the narrative and are NOT right or honourable. 

“A warrior knows when not to kill. Lincoln taught you that. You seem to have forgotten.”


And to those of you who were screaming about Octavia never dealing with the consequences of her actions after … what? 4x02? YOU COULDN’T WAIT TWO EPISODES??? WHY DO YOU JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS WHY DO YOU TORTURE YOURSELVES? Short rant concluded. This was a top-knotch scene. 


She is so gorgeous and her voice is so soothing. She makes every episode better just be existing.



7. Jackson being a total babe and helping out Raven this episode/showing compassion and concern

So I’ve seen people shipping it and I am … oddly, not opposed??? I mean, he’s sweet and that banter was nice and he’s a doctor which means he’s probs smart and also can help her out with her pain (kinda) and it will never happen but I CAN DREAM OKAY? 

Also, Jackson is Jackson’s only name. I’m sorry, I don’t make the rules. You will never hear me referring to Jackson by any other name. #dealwithit

8. “Save us all” sounds like “keep us all clean” in Trigadesleng because apparently Grounders know their priorities

I guess this explains why L.exa had that deep conditioned shit last season while Clarke was progressing through her slow but steady evolution into a dirty mop

9. “I’ve never met a line I wouldn’t cross.”

Richard you get the best lines. And you slay them every time.


I’M SO EXCITED. Lindsey and Richard are both a thrill to watch and they’re both so sassy and their history is just … WOW. They haven’t had many scenes together ever since that KILLER scene in the dropship where we learned Murphy’s backstory which is a total crime because THEIR CHEMISTRY SERIOUSLY FLIES THROUGH THE ROOF.

I do think Murphy was trying to get on Raven’s good side when he grabbed her and helped her to safety and it was definitely for his personal motives, but I do also believe that a large part of him wanted to do it as an attempt to make up for fucking up her life so bad as well. It’s such an interesting dynamic to watch.

Just want to clarify that I don’t ship it because … y’all he literally shot her and paralyzed her why do you do this?? But I definitely want to see more of them on my TV screen

11. Dad!Kane cupping his son’s face

Need I say more?

12. “Warriors don’t reveal their secrets.”


13. Ice Nation is SO much more interesting than Trikru


14. “Remember that time we welded your dad’s furniture to the ceiling? Now THAT was a prank.”



15. “You’re not God, Clarke. You don’t get to decide who lives and dies.”

Hmm … that’s an interesting line. Almost like it might be … I don’t know … A major theme of the show or something?

Also A++ delivery Devon. Kudos.

16. This show is SO GOOD with moral dilemmas

They truly do bring their A-Game every season. The List is just one example of these so-called moral dilemmas. There truly is no right choice. Clarke was pragmatic, everything she did made SENSE. But was it moral? Was it humane? That’s another story, and it’s one these writers are not afraid to tell.

17. Monty and Clarke’s interactions are all so on point

“You’re the one going too far and using the same old justification: it’s all for my people.”


Monty is spilling the tea this episode and while I understand Clarke’s mindset and sympathize with her for dealing with the pressure on her shoulders, everything that Monty said in this scene was absolutely 100% true, and it’s going to come into play in Clarke’s character arc this season, I am sure.

18. Raven’s struggle with her leg is so real

Kim perfectly captured the struggles that Raven has to deal with and how her leg, while limits her physical ability, certainly does not limit her determination, her skill, and her brain. 

19. “What if the fight is all we are? We torture, kill, betray. We pretend we’re more than that just to make ourselves feel better, but it’s a lie.”

I love this line so much. This episode encapsulates so many themes and big ideas of the show (and it grapples with morality in hugeeeee ways) and I’m loving it.

20. “You’re not a prisoner, Luna. You have a choice.”

Raven putting her gun down and saying this to Luna is SO important, especially when you think about how Clarke tried to force the flame on her in 3x14. Free will was a major theme last year and I’m glad to see it paying off now.

21. Jaha swooping in and stealing that crowd

Listen. I know that there are many conflicted opinions on Jaha and I know that lot of people hate him. But I have never been more intrigued. His story this season is sooo interesting. I have no idea what to expect from him. I feel as though he is so disconnected from the other characters at this point in the narrative that he’s a complete wild card. Do I trust him or not? Should I? What are his motives? What knowledge does he have that the other characters don’t?

He’s so fascinating to me in that he is completely unpredictable. His story this season could break off in just about any direction. 

This scene was really fun to watch. Clearly, Jaha’s years of being a Chancellor comes in handy with a crowd. He knows what to do, what to say, to sway them. It reminds me of Bellamy, in a way, actually. Say what you will about Jaha, but he has a way with words and he knows how to inspire people. I can’t wait to see how this goes. 

(I totally think that lottery is bullshit and I think that Jaha realizes this, but he’s manipulating the crowd. We’ll see how this blows up in our faces later.)

“The people need to feel like they have a say in their fate.”

Another interesting line that I enjoyed. Just wanted to point it out.

22. “It’s the only choice you gave yourself. If you think you have the best idea, you have to convince people, not lie to them. Or lock them up.”

So choices and free will and truth and morality are all big focusses of this episode. People seem to overlook how much great thematic stuff is in 4x04 but there’s a lot and it’s great.

23. Becca’s lab is bomb AF


25. “Take me home.” 


Shay Cormac x Reader: The Irish Father

Originally posted by marishash

[Request for @brookie4cookiesThe reader ends up a widowed mother with her little girl to think of—running into Shay Cormac a few times through her living in the American Colonies with Shay becoming close to the reader and her daughter in the process.]

Your name: submit What is this?

Your child’s name: submit What is this?

Your husband’s name: submit What is this?

The night was cold, but you expected no less when it came to the weather of New York. Honestly, you wouldn’t be out in it much longer. You had everything you needed for dinner tonight, and now all that was left was to get home—back to the warmth of the fire and to the welcome embrace of your husband, H/N.


It was a voice as pure and innocent as heaven itself. Your little girl, only four-years-old, was hurrying to you with her favorite, handmade doll tucked away in her arm. Her small hand grabbing at your dress, she tugged upon it even if your gaze alone would tell her you were attentive to her needs. “What is it, C/N?” you asked, moving one free hand to the top of her head while the other kept the basket of food you needed for dinner.

Just as she was about to respond, the both of you were caught off guard by the sound of a man falling out of the nearby alleyway with another swooping down on top of him like a predator that had found its prey. Breaths caught, you instinctively outstretched your arm to keep your child safe from harm as you saw a hooded man hovering over the unsuspected stranger with a blade, which was jetting from under his wrist, engaged.

Seeing the blade shining in the light of the night made you feel weak in the knees at the thought that you and your poor innocent child were to see someone being murdered. However…your little girl’s scream pierced the night and caught the hooded man’s attention.

He looked to you then, but it was hard to see him clearly from under his disguise accompanied with the veil of night. His hand with the blade stalled as he obviously was startled by your presence alone and…your daughter (as he appeared to be gazing at her the most intently).

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My Worlds recap

Here I was, on March 30th, in my hometown Riga with bus and ferry tickets and most importantly - tickets to Ladies practice and Short Dance in my pocket. I could not believe I was going to Worlds after many years of living and breathing figure skating. This was a dream of mine that I thought would never come to life. It felt so surreal I had to pinch myself a few times. 😅

When me and my mom made it to the arena at 8 AM on March 31st, it was so difficult to hold back tears ( i am literally tearing up as i’m writing this 😂). Watching figure skating has been one of the biggest parts of my life for five (!!!) years now and I don’t think I can put my feelings towards it in just some sentences. It is better than all the movies because it’s the real life - but with the spectrum of emotions I only get to see in the cinema. It doesn’t only show “the movie” (aka the performance) but also every behind the scenes action (like the emotions before and after the performance, the training process, the challenges along the way) which makes it so much more interesting. So when I walked in the arena it felt like a dream come true. They didn’t have doors heading to each sector, but a curtain instead (to not make a sound every time someone enters or exits) and because it was the practice time for Ladies the curtains weren’t closed but fully open instead. So even when I had just come in the arena, I could already see a glimpse of the ice rink which felt so surreal and that was the first time it hit me so hard that I was actually really here - at the World Championships.

It felt fantastic to see stars like Ashley Wagner, Kaetlyn Osmond, Gabrielle Daleman, Evgenia Medvedeva, Anna Pogorilaya and Carolina Kostner skate so close to me (we were seated really close to the ice), to see their determined faces and to live through their great performances. Incomparably mesmerizing.

Before the short dance there was some time to kill so we just walked around and enjoyed the atmosphere which is SO unique! There is this buzzing feeling which makes you feel warm and welcomed and everyone looks nervously excited. We walked through every booth/shop there was, I even got some beautiful postcards from John Wilson Blades booth (they were handing them out for free?! 😧) with Ashley, Patrick, the Shibs and Chock/Bates. There I met a lovely French fan and we had a brief talk about our journeys as fans and let me add that it feels so weird to actually talk with someone about figure skating after you’ve mostly only shared your opinions online and have never had a legit conversation live??! 😂

Then it was the time for the short dance (oh my, hearing the ISU fanfare live was hands down the best experience ever 😂😂😂) . I have been a massive ice dance fan since forever and I am a big supporter of Tessa&Scott. They are the main reason I was actually here - I can’t put into words what they’ve done to me in these past years - they have held me up every time I felt down in various ways - with their performances, life stories or just small interviews. I just wanted to give back to them a little with my heartfelt support. However, I joined the V/M fandom in 2012 when everyone was furious about D/W and their success (which would happen in 2013 and 2014) and I quickly learned to be as bitter as everyone else. It feels sad to look back now and think that we used so much time to just talk about Meryl and Charlie - more than about great things of Tessa and Scott. I only understood this after T&S took a break after 2014 and I just became this casual ice dance fan who wanted to see the best in everyone and was listening to everyone’s stories of ups and downs. It was the same fantastic atmosphere - just without all the rage. During this period of time I really fell in love with Kaitlyn&Andrew, Maia&Alex and Gabriella&Guillaume. When Tessa&Scott came back I couldn’t believe how great I felt during the season - it was now 100 times more exciting as I had so many couples I loved and supported throughout (…well, i did love t&s a little more than anyone else though 😆) . And you have NO idea how much I loved the theme of this years SD. SOOOO much spunk and sass! I hope you don’t mind me saying that pretty much all of these were the best short dances I have ever seen from the top teams.

First of all, let me say a word about the atmosphere live. It is absolutely incomparable to the TV. The audience noises are lowered for about ten thousand times and are almost inaudible in the TV which is the biggest change. The ovations are so impressive you can’t believe them at first. Second of all, the skating skills and the speed is insane live. And thirdly of all, the costumes look SO. MUCH. DIFFERENT. (they are much more sparkly and colorful 😍✨).

I was actually worried that I might not last for seven freaking groups but the time went so fast. I still can’t believe the zamboni breaks. I swear to god they didn’t last more than five minutes 😅 (I always get cranky during the resurfacing breaks when I watch TV - feels like hours). From the first four groups couples that stood out for me the most were Smart/Diaz, Kaliszek/Spodyriev and Lauriault/Le Gac - they all had great stage presence and superb feel to the music.

Then the fifth group came. All of a sudden Tessa and Scott were on the ice and I was like one of these crazy Bieber fans who can’t stop their tears. I tried my hardest to bring the tears back but I miserably failed (I had promised myself that I would act NORMALLY NOT START CRYING ON MY FIRST OPPORTUNITY I AM SO WEIRDED OUT OF THE SUDDEN EMOTIONS THAT CAME OUTSIDE IN THAT MOMENT - I am a very reserved person who always puts herself together 😂). Tessa’s costume is SO much more beautiful live. I wasn’t a fan of it when I first saw it but DAMN she looked hot. Also the golden sparkles around the cutouts on the pants are basically not seen at all in the usual professional pics but they were actually unbelievably shiny. And Scott just has this amazing aura around himself. He seemed to ooze confidence but also some sort of humbleness. And OMG - they’re fast. But the thing that struck me the most was the non-touching step sequence. They did it once in the warm up and I legit thought it was some “easy version of this sequence without the hard steps just to get warmed up” and you can’t imagine how surprised I was when they performed it in the actual dance. It WAS the sequence. I swear it looked like anyone could do it. So light and easy. Now THAT was the moment I understood how superior they actually are. Everybody else’s StSq looked, you know, like a StSq should look like - a hard element hard to execute (don’t get me wrong - they were mostly done beautifully but it was visible that this is a hard element - which it is 😆). After the warm up ended I was probably still in shock so I have no recollection of the first two pairs in that group. Sorry. 😁 Then they came up on ice for a short warm up again while the previous teams scores were announced. And this includes the moment I think nobody has caught on camera (I don’t think I have seen any pre-sd videos at all which is such a shame). They were just gliding on ice separately with Tessa slightly in front of Scott. Then they started to slow down because they were coming to Marie France. And while they’re slowing down, Scott skates right in front of me with the biggest grin ever and his lovey-dovey eyes focused on Tessa’s back slightly in front of him. And that is the moment I calm down. His eyes bring the sense to me that everything is going to be okay and he is confident about it (i swear to god he’s a magician or whatever but that look was SO calming and surreal). And Tessa just turns her head, looks at his face and literally rolls her eyes with a smile on her face (okay i might’ve imagined the eye rolling but you all know that face when tessa looks at scott and thinks ‘god you’re such an idiot i love you’) and then they’re already with Marie France with last words before performance. The actual performance was unreal. They did their beginning moves right in front of me and that was SO sharp. Also when they did these moves there were quite few “eeeaaaww” kind of shouts or whatever the Michael Jackson kind of short screams sound. That was superb and I’m so sad NONE of them are audible during the actual recording. It gave a great atmosphere. Scott did the kneeling thing right before the end of the first section right in front of me which left such an impact. SOO much control. The blues sequence was hella smooth (and twizzles were ok but i was so scared about them) BUT THE LIFT. THE STADIUM FREAKING ERUPTED DURING THE LIFT. I felt as if I had wings and had been accepted into paradise. And then it ended and I was on my feet and there was an ocean of tears (whoops😅). It was an experience I will never forget.

Then it was time for Group number 6. I have to be honest - I was a little disappointed with Stepanova/Bukin. I’ve been a huge fan of their SD but seeing it live was a little bit underwhelming. It’s the way of skating - they skate “small”. However I still loved the choreography and their chemistry is certainly the best in the younger ice dancers field. If they can improve their skating skills, I’m completely on board.

Piper and Paul were a huge surprise for me. Even when they were warming up with everyone else, you could feel their presence the most. And let me just say this - Canadian men are superior dancers. Scott, Paul and Andrew all felt a bit similar to me. They makes themselves look extremely confident (i mean their skating skills also are 😍) and they lead their ladies better than anyone else - it just feels extremely natural. So, back to Piper&Paul. This was a huge hit in the arena (and for me!). The feeling was great throughout the performance and I just want to say it one more time - the skating skills (piper has improved so much)!! the twizzles! they took my breath. I have to admit I didn’t think this dance would actually work for me but it did.

Another team which surprised me in a good way were Bobrova&Soloviev. As the season progressed, I always felt as this program was a little “pushed”. They tried to bring the sass, but instead it came off as a vulgarity. However the forms they create on ice are very clean and blade work is beautiful so I was actually scratching my head after watching these two because I’ve never really liked them but somehow they look better live (I just don’t understand why?)

I was also delighted by Anna&Luca’s performance. That dress looked even more beautiful live and they also made me like them more than on TV. They just draw you in and you can’t do anything about it. I just wish they would be more versatile (but i still love them!)

The seventh group started with the Shibs who I think had the very close second short dance choreography-and-idea-wise behind T&S. I’ve absolutely adored this dance all the times this season and this was no exception. That lift was badass and man, those twizzles… I didn’t think that was going to leave such a big impact on me. SO sharp in every movement. Alex just needs improve his facial expressions a bit and then they’d be even more perfect (also maia is a literal goddess).

I have to say my sentimental favorites of the night were Kaitlyn&Andrew. Their skating on TV looks a bit like Stepanova/Bukin’s so I was a little bit worried that it would fall flat. It was the DIRECT opposite. I think their skating skills were second only to VM that night because damn, they skated with so much speed. And their chemistry just went sky high. Also that lift made the arena erupt (again😂). It looked so much more powerful than on TV. The move where Andrew just rolls Kaitlyn on his back was hands down one of the coolest of the night. I was just so happy to see them perform the best they can after some disappointing starts. It was truly wonderful and after they finished I was standing and in tears again. I thought they were terribly underscored, but oh well, #twizzles. (they are both also incredibly hot 😏🔥)

Gabriella&Guillaume were also amazing live. I loved that they did the most program to the blues music which I truly respect because it is so much harder to keep an audience interested with blues than with hip hop. But the slow section was amazing - the attention to details and the blade work was soooo smooth. I’ve got to say although Guillaume’s skating skills and dance moves are through the roof fantastic, he doesn’t “lead” his partner that well - the Canadian guys do it so much better. I don’t think he has any rivals in the “best male ice dancer by himself” category, but he has a lot to learn to be the best in the “best male partner in ice dance” nomination - he isn’t the full package yet. However I’m a big fan of hard work and dedication (and I’m sad people only appreciate Guillaume’s because he is the more gifted one) so I’m a big fan of Gabi, her personality and facial expressions during the performance. She sells everything better than Guillaume but I don’t think she’s being recognized enough for that.

Madi&Zach also surprised me live by looking far more polished than on TV. The movements were sharp and they’ve got this weirdly different blade quality compared to others that I can’t explain (but i liked it). I certainly was a bit cringey about the music at the beginning of the season, but I’ve got to say that crowd really appreciated it and I was also on board. I smiled so hard when the scores came up because I absolutely love it when underdogs show everyone what they’re capable of.

Last up were Madi&Evan and this unfortunately turned out the same way I felt about Stepanova/Bukin. I had also been a big fan of this SD all season but their way of skating didn’t seem to impress me. I had also liked how Evan just tossed around Madi various times in the program but live it just seemed a little too much? BUT I totally respect that they have worked so much with their chemistry because it was nonexistent some years ago but now they just scream the word “FIIIIREEEEEE”. 😉

Afterwards there were about a hundred of people making a crowd close to the door which skaters entered to go to the draw for the FD. Well, I think it’s not a very good way to get a skaters autograph. They are very tired after the competition and it’s not even over - there’s still the FD so they got to keep focused. I think a moment between a skater and a fan should be much more personal than just blocking an entrance just to get your autograph. I don’t know, it just made me a little uncomfortable when everyone was waiting for them just to come like they’re some sort of zoo animals or whatever. I didn’t want any autographs or anything, it was just SO hard to get through the far-too-excited crowd (to the exit of the arena) I decided to wait until they go away. I didn’t even register that I was standing right after the entrance to the draw (where it wasn’t crowded at all, in fact I was like the only person there) and the wall was from glass so you could see the skaters after they entered the “closed zone”. And then I turned my head and saw FREAKING TESSA AND SCOTT in the closed zone. About a meter from me there was this crazy crowd waiting for skaters and turning their heads in the other direction while I was enjoying my view of Tessa and Scott having a conversation. 😄 They were kind of afar from me though and I was trying my best not to stare ('they are not animals and it is rude to do that’ I muttered to myself) - I don’t think they even saw me because they looked completely in ease as the glass wall separated them from everyone. Then they left further for the draw and I couldn’t see them anymore. Tessa&Scott were already in the closed zone because they skated early but the skaters from the last group still had to come. I’ve got to say it was a bit sad to see the guards having a hard time taking the skaters from the crowd to the closed zone. People went crazy every time someone came. But I, still not accompanied by anyone, just had the best view of my life of skaters like Maia&Alex, Kaitlyn&Andrew, Gabi (Guillaume didn’t show up because he was getting his hand stitched) , Piper&Paul, Madi&Evan and Madi&Zach after they had gone through the crowd. Madison Hubbell actually turned around to see the crowd once again, laughed, then turned in the other direction, saw me all by myself, smiled and waved at me! 😎😱 I was so surprised but also very thankful for such a nice gesture! (jeez, but I hope I didn’t look like those weird, creepy stalkers 😁). The crowd finally went away and I got to walk out normally.

My journey was over but the memories were never going to fade. It was an experience I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world as it brought the whole spectrum of emotions to me. It was the best day of my life. I can never thank enough to my mom who came up with this idea and travelled with me. We had the most fantastic time ever. ❤️

(thanks for reading, this was suuuuper long 😂)