i am so distressed rn

bc of BPD I have this awful fear of abandonment whether real or perceived and so a lot of times when I tell people to leave me alone and they do for an extended period of time I go into Panic Mode and think that they’re abandoning me and I just Split More and 1) lash out bc they’re leaving me or 2) put up a protective barrier or 3) both! at the same time!

i finished… kings rising…

it is everything i could have ever hoped for and more

now im like? what do i do with myself??? now that i know the ending to one of my most anticipated releases in like… 5 years… 

after the short stories there’ll be absolutely no more captive prince and it makes me SO SAD