i am now complete

kazama-hime  asked:

Brutally honest opinion on Zutara please ? :D

Ahahah, oh man, you’ve been around long enough to know this is my weakness. 

Long ago, before Hakuouki attacked, I was (still am honestly) a huge fan of Avatar the Last Airbender and anyone who knew me then that’s still hanging around here now knows I am complete and utter Zutara trash. Unashamedly.

I know for many of you AtLA would’ve been something you watched as a kid but I was in my early 20s when the series aired and I didn’t catch it until the end but I remember it completely blowing away my expectations. At first I really didn’t ship anything though since you’ve got a group of 12-17 year olds fighting a war so romance seemed a little awkward, but upon subsequent rewatches I began to really be drawn to the dynamic between Zuko and Katara. This will always be the thing that haunts me probably lol. 

I’ve been through far too many fandoms by this point in my life and thanks to Avatar I have had more than enough of shipping wars to last me a life time, but I will never stop shipping Zutara. I don’t care what the creators insist or what other horrible comic they come up with to try to shove their canon down my throat, I will go to my grave still mildly bitter that Zutara never happened. AtLA has one of the most expansive and incredible collections of fanfic of any fandom I’ve been a part of and so much of it is centered around Zutara, it even compelled ME to start trying to write fanfic, though I quickly got over that because I suck XD 

Anyway, I guess I should explain why I ship this… I’ll try to be brief… ^^;;; 

The misconception has always been that the appeals mostly lies in some kind of opposites attract or good girl falls for the bad boy trope; while that may be true for some people for me it was a little different. Actually, Zutara has always appealed to me because of their similarities. Katara is a character I relate to on a level I’ve rarely experienced and so maybe I’m a little more defensive of her than I should be but for someone who is always taking care of others it is so important for her to have someone who is taking care of her. I don’t think she got that in canon. The few times Katara has really allowed herself to break down or be in a vulnerable position have been around Zuko and he’s only ever encouraged her to do what she needs to do without judgement or some sense of making her fit into some preformed image he has of her. 

God, I could go on about this forever. I have written many a meta on this too and I have plenty of them from others hiding in my likes that I haven’t reblogged because I know people always expect me to just be about Hakuouki heh. So it feels kind of good to be talking about Zutara again. Thanks for that! n_n

I just want to be honest with you guys. 

Tonight, I was really struggling with my self-worth. I’m in LA, away from my friends and family, when tonight would be a night I would normally try to surround myself with them. Yet at this low moment, so many of you have written me kind messages, shared lovely stories, and created magnificent works of art… and now I am completely overwhelmed by this love. 

I am a ball of tears this evening, just a complete and utter mess. I truly don’t know what I possibly do to deserve the support you all bring me, but I just hope you feel this same support you bring to me. You all are so capable of changing someone’s heart around, of making their day. Don’t ever underestimate yourselves. I love you so much for this “sob of joy” I am having tonight, and I wish you the happiness that you have chosen to bring to me. Honestly, your love will never ever go unnoticed. Thank you for making me feel better.


from a mountain in the middle of the cabins // panic! at the disco

Everything I ever write to you starts with I’m sorry, but I have nothing to be sorry for. It wasn’t our fault, we never wanted it to end this way. For so long I thought you didn’t care, that you never did. I know now that it was the complete opposite. What I am sorry for is that our timing wasn’t right. Maybe if the leaves weren’t falling and the world was alive instead of dying we could have been right.
—  You’re never going to see this but I want you to know, I forgive us// 4am

I’m crazy into black dusty backgrounds, the mother-son dynamic of Princess Leia and her son and Daughter lyrics … So I combine that shit.

So last night was a mess, I danced and sang in front of the camera until I puked but otherwise it was fine and dandy and fun, so thank you my friends for hanging out with me while i was drinking alone! <3


I was feeling terrible because I forgot to commemorate my cat’s eighth adoption anniversary, but I just learned that tumblr will make gifs from videos! So here are some pics of my imperious kitty while he’s trying to go to sleep despite my interferences.