i am not tagging so many people

dangerous-stain-builds  asked:

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1. “@” people you want to be friends with
there are plenty of people i wanna be friends with!!!! there are some that I am acquainted with, but none that I talk to on a daily basis, ya feel? but tbh i’d L O V E to be friends with @peonypyxels @tea-sims @bratsims @kismet-sims @woold (she’s the reason why I started a simblr, i’ve always loved her sims 3 screenshots) and tbh, there are sooo many people that I haven’t tagged but i rlly wanna be friends with!!!!!!!!!! i wanna be friends with everyone, honestly

2. screenshot the tabs you have open 
oops i legit just got home so

7. tell an embarrassing memory or story 
when i got my period for the first time, i actually thought i was dying. i was crying and crying and crying because I didn’t want to die, and I asked my mom if the “blood in my pants” really meant i was gonna die, and she said “you’re a woman now, kyla!!!”. i was really pissed too, bc here I was dying, and my mom was happy that i was becoming a woman. smh.

Hey look at you, kid! Now in a fandom that has a confirmed, canon, aro ace character.

I bet you are ready to jump into that trash pile of a TV show now! Wait, the writers are queer baiting both the bi, ace, and aromantic community? Well, 2017 is a series of unfortunate events, isn’t it?

You might not know me, I pre-date “THE DISCOURSE” and I know all too well both who keeps certain fandoms alive and who tries to come in to bully binary breakers. If you (luckily) missed out Dragon Age bull shit because you were happily reading comics, I’m here to help.

To prevent assholes from pissing on your enjoyment I suggest the following. Aphobes know what they are doing. This isn’t years ago, where you kindly explain their bigotry, or aggressively point out all the -isms they are doing. They’ve doxed people, they’ve suicide baited, they’ve stalked, so on, and so on. This is 2017. It’s nazi punching season, don’t go into anything thinking you can convince them off their bigoted rock.

If you want to engage, do so. But please mind the emotional wear. If you were using the comics or the show as escapism, don’t pick this battle with them. There are so many battles to be had. I’m not here to demand anything, but I am here to tell you how to avoid the thing you love being painfully and forcefully ruined on you.  

Step 1: No platform the assholes
Don’t engage. They want your attention. They like seeing people hurt. They are in the ace positivity tags because they want to attack you.

Step 2: Block the assholes
Here’s a list. I’m normally the last to block people, but those who uphold oppressive systems attack from all sides. You don’t owe your attention to anyone. It’s far too easy to see 50 shades of bullshit by breakfast.

Step 3: Block nasty anons
If they came into your ask box, they are asking directly for your attention. Deny them it. Tumblr lets you block anons. Do so.

Step 4: Remember that Jughead is canonically aro ace.
They are the ones with the theories. They are the ones without confirmation. They are the ones ripping labels off queer characters to apply their own. Fuck what they say, this character is yours. This isn’t to embolden you, this is a reminder not to fight those who have no power in this situation. If you are in a fighting mood, attack systems, not their people.

Stay safe, I’m rooting for you.

samwiseofficial  asked:

Hey Alan! I just saw a post about different types of allistics on my dash... one of them was "The 'Ally'™". I'm allistic and I want to know how I can be a good ally, so I thought I'd ask about certain things mentioned in the post so i can avoid doing them! What are person first language and functioning labels and what can I do as an allistic to be an actual ally (not an “Ally"™)? Thanks so much!

okay, first of all, I’m going to assume that you meant [this post]. If not, sorry. Second, I’m not going to get this perfect. I’m viewing this as a bit of a first draft, which (note to self) I will edit at some point.

definitions: person-first language is “person with autism” as opposed to “autistic person”. Please use “autistic person”. I dealt with functioning labels later in this disorganized hell-post. 

So here’s my stab at allistic ally 101

1) You follow the same rules as if you were an ally for any other group: [Here’s a pretty good ally 101 article], but it’s not the end-all-be-all. Keep listening to autistic voices, and if we contradict the rules hold our voices higher. 

Also, above all, rule #1 of allyship is don’t be a shithead–come to conversations with the intention to listen and learn first and treat us like human beings (this is particularly critical with disability rights)

2) Our voices are the important ones: this is important with being an ally to any group, but autistic people often struggle to communicate or express ourselves. Be patient. Ask people how they’d like to communicate and be prepared to be a bit flexible.

Some autistic people use AAC (Alternative or Assistive Communication), and their voices matter just as much as verbal people’s. You don’t have to learn ASL or anything, but don’t assume that because someone’s not communicating verbally they’re less intelligent or competent. And, even if someone can’t communicate using language (or communicate at all) don’t assume that they don’t have thoughts, feelings, and needs.

3) Nothing about us without us: knowing an autistic person doesn’t make you an expert on autism. BEING an autistic person makes you an expert on autism. If you see anything claiming to help autistic people that doesn’t prominently feature Actual Autistic People, don’t support it (unless Actual Autistic People are telling you to support it, see #2)

This goes double for any charitable organization focused on autism which leads me into point number 4 (also from here on out things are a bit smaller-scope, that doesn’t make them less important):

4) Autism Speaks is trash: [and] [here] [are] [some] [sources

If you want to support charities try ASAN and The Autism Women’s Network

5) Please don’t try to “cure” us: I’m dealing with some internalized ableism with this one, so let me turn you over to  Anya Ustaszewski who in [this article] writes:

My autism is part of who I am. It is not something “extra” that can be taken away from me to suit the agenda of an intolerant society. My abilities, challenges and perception of the world all go hand in hand. If I were to be “cured” of my autism, the person that I am would cease to exist.

so yeah cure = bad, acceptance and accommodation = good

6) Celebrate the things that make autistics unique: lately, tumblr has gotten a lot more stim-positive, but stimming isn’t solely a pretty, paint-mixing or slime video (in fact, stimboards are rarely tagged and can overstimulate the SHIT out of me). 

A lot of time, stimming is viewed as ugly, distracting, loud, disgusting, or socially unacceptable. Support your local autistics, don’t expect people to stop stimming and try not to stare or comment (many autistic people have to work very hard to reclaim stimming after childhoods of expecting to suppress it entirely).

Also, try your best to support different cognitive styles and processing issues. Try to keep your websites accessible, provide image transcripts, try not to make posts that are entirely text in images (like screenshots of twitter posts), and help to subtitle videos if you can. <- these things also help d/Deaf people and anyone who accesses the internet via a screenreader

7) steer clear of stereotypes: I’m not rain man or that dude on the big bang theory or your cousin’s dentist’s sister’s younger brother’s son. The ‘idiot savant’ stereotype is almost never true and puts unreasonable expectations on autistic people. Also, not all of us are good at math or science, have incredible memories, etc. Fitting or not fitting stereotypes don’t change the fact that every autistic person is human and deserves rights and respect.

8) functioning labels are fake: never listen to anyone who describes autism as “high” or “low functioning”. Every autistic person has struggles, and putting labels on functioning basically sorts people into “can be ignored” and “subhuman”. [here’s about a million posts about why they suck because if I put it all here this post would be five times as long]

9) ABA is trash: this is trigger territory for a huge number of autistic people, so [here] and I’m not going to say anything else just take my word on this one

10) If it has puzzle pieces on it, run: if you’re looking to see if a group is okay, look for the rainbow infinity sign. The puzzle piece is a huge red flag. Please don’t support anything with puzzle pieces on it. Please. I’m begging you.


Okay that was WAAY longer than I meant it to get, sorry. Also, I’ve missed a bunch of things, but I’ve been working on this for an hour and I don’t have the energy to add more. I’ll throw this in #actuallyautistic and hopefully someone else can add anything important I missed.

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Trump tried to go after Sweden last night telling the world that we are living in some apocalyptic war zone after letting in a lot of refugees (Sweden has taken in about 100 000 during the last two years and we currently have a population of ten million. Only Germany has accepted more in Europe.) and let me tell you I am hella proud of that!! And so many other swedes are too. Almost every politician, journalist, etc has taken it upon themselves to make sure that this doesn’t go unnoticed. People are pissed. Trump was never popular in Sweden but if there is something swedes are good at it is being passive aggressive and holding a grudge (see the very ironic hash tag #lastnightinsweden). He will not get away with this. Just letting all you americans know that you’re not alone, we’re in this together. And together we are strong. In the words of Sweden’s former prime minister, America “don’t mourn, organize!”.

i just made a wiki account specifically to change holly short’s wiki because it said she and artemis were a couple lol can you nasties just fuck off shes a grown woman!!! dont let colfers dumbass teasing make you think its okay to ship them!! im tired of it! thats literally pedophilia! you aint getting around that ever!!!

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Haikyuu!! + @ao3tagoftheday

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This is for the people who said my art was adorable! I am on mobile rn so I cannot add your comments in…I am sorry. Thank you so much, I love you all. Don’t be shy to leave tags or send a message…I read as many as I can because I love to see what you all have to say.
Thank you so much for the 700 followers! Please do not be shy, I always look forward to what you all have to say. 😊

I just discovered this hellhole of a tag and have a few questions…

So from what I am seeing here is that people feel like heteroromantic aces shouldn’t be in the LGBT+ community.

The most common reason why that I see is “They benefit from straight privilage” and yeah, I can see how that would be generally speaking. Many hetero trans people would also benefit from straight privilage would they not?

Another rebuttal I see is “They don’t face the same level of violence for who they are” which is oppression olympics but okay. I would argue that people who are ace face repression more so than oppression. Which is still caused by society being shitty and is totally valid.

 Also this societal thinking can lead people to have sex when they don’t  want to, which is just awful. And obviously bullying and teasing for not conforming to societies expectations sexually. Not to mention asexuality having been pathologized as a disorder forever and being perceived as LGB for not partaking in hetero sex.

The last one I believe is important because I think it is why people who are heteroromantic ace are in the LGBT+ in the first place. You can argue that it’s just a perception so why are they here but perceptions are powerful. The LGBT+ comunity wouldn’t exist without other peoples incorrect perceptions. 

For example, LGBT+ people in general are perceived as evil creatures by a lot of religious groups. They are perceived as broken and wrong and in need of fixing (ace people experiance this too). They are perceived as a danger to children. They are perceived as deserving of death. Their existance is debated in wether or not it’s evolutionairly logical/helpful to the human race (ace people experiance this too). This is why the community came together in the first place is it not? To combat these toxic perceptions?

Many people in this tag do not understand why ace people belong in the lgbt community simply because they don’t understand the more nuanced and repressive struggle that ace people face in their daily lives. Even though a lot of LGBT people who live in more accepting countries are already in a similar nuanced and repressive struggle.

I really don’t get why there is a debate besides misguided distain at people you… perceive as “straight”

I have just finished binge watching “13 Reasons Why” and if you have no idea what I am talking about, this post might not make much sense to you. So, if you have not, I highly recommend you stop everything that you are doing and go watch the series for yourself. 

If you have, then here we are. We have both witnessed what was waiting at the end of tape number thirteen. Some of you may not agree with or like the outcome that the show brought, and some of you will. I am not here to dispute any of your feelings.

I am here to say this: Hannah Baker is so important. Not because she is the main character of the show. No, it’s something much deeper than that. Unless you have been placed in the same pair of treacherous shoes that you are forced to walk day in and day out, you might not understand where I am coming from.

I am not here to talk about the tapes, and I am not here to discuss whether her actions were right or wrong. I am here to talk about Hannah Baker’s last day on earth. 

As I watched “Tape 7, Side A” I could feel my stomach churn with every flashback of her final moments in Crestmont. I could feel my heart break with her vocalized hope of “giving life one more chance,” even though it was still causing her pain on the inside.

When she sought out the one person who was supposed to be able to provide answers, pushing through the torture of speaking the honest truth and praying for that person to take the reins and bring everything to a pause only for them to make her feel worse than she did going into the conversation. How she stood outside the door, hoping that someone would come after her and take control of the situation but they never did.

How she straightens up her room so she is no longer an inconvenience to her family whom she does not want to upset anymore. When looking in the mirror for the last time and not being about to cry because her body is exhausted from fighting against the storm, having no reaction or attachment to the image staring back. Holding the razor blade in between her fingertips and knowing what she is doing is wrong, but having it be the only option left because every other cry for help has been silenced or overlooked.

And last but not least, the silence that she has been desperately longing for but hating at the same time, filling the room once she has made the deep cuts to her veins.

This episode isn’t fiction. You should consider it a biography. While the people go about their lives living just another day, I have experienced this side of Hannah’s tape far too many times to keep count. Feeling completely numb inside because you already prepared yourself for no one to do a goddamn thing to truly help you, all while mentally scolding yourself for even entertaining the idea of a “chance” in the first place.

Hannah Baker is important because she is just like me. She’s the girl who’s place I’ve stood several times in my life. She’s the girl that I identify with way too much still to this day. When I first watched this scene, I couldn’t breathe. I was nauseous and wanted to skip ahead, but something in my head told me no. That I couldn’t because this was what the twelve episodes before had led up to.

For someone who has previously attempted suicide, I think the show did an incredible job of capturing the final moments of someone’s life and bringing awareness. It’s almost refreshing because, for a very long time, there has been nothing that deals with suicide, rape, etc. blow up in such a “trending” way. The show does not make the situation more light-hearted by having the person be rescued five seconds after making their final decision.  

It was raw.  It was real.

I once publicly posted about my decision to check myself into a mental hospital to seek help for my high-depression after almost driving myself off the interstate and nearly slitting my wrist open all in one night. And I desperately wish I could say it was a success story and I’ve never thought about harming myself again. The truth is, the people who worked at the facility never followed up, and when I personally called seeking more information and help, they never returned my phone calls. The truth is there is not a day that goes by that I do not think about it once. I don’t think it’s something that ever really goes away. 

But I think the worst part about the situation was that many people in my close circle knew from gossiping lips and had the “bless her heart” effect. No one wanted to talk about it. No one asked questions. They just accepted the fact that I wanted to end my life and went on about their business. It seemed like these people in my circle truly believed that talking about suicide would make it happen. And that they were here for me, but only at arms’ length.

This post is not meant to scare you away from viewing the show. It’s not meant for you to have negative thoughts about it either. The show has many layers, Hannah’s suicide just being one of them. There are backstories and evolving characters that guide you through an eye-opening journey through discovering the truth. A real life look into some of the issues throughout schools across the world, and how little things can still have a tremendous effect on someone.

The show is meant to educate. To call for action before something like this happens again. To stop the only efforts for change being posters that say “don’t kill yourself” and start an actual and purposeful conversation. Suicide is such a taboo subject, yet it is the 10th leading cause of death in the United States. Every day, approximately 105 people take their own life. Every thirteen minutes, someone chooses Hannah Baker’s ending.

Over the past few days since the release of the series, there have been many posts in the media claiming that “13 Reasons Why” romanticized suicide and that Hannah Baker is a selfish, self-centered teenager. And sure, people have every right to think that. But through my countless hours scrolling through the tags on social media platforms, it’s comforting knowing that I am not the only mentally-ill person who gives this show a thumbs up.

I guess my plea here is simple. Do not go into the show with preconceived notions that this show is “messed up” and unrealistic. Be aware of trigger warnings at the beginning of episodes and make a judgment call on whether or not you personally can handle a scene. Please keep in mind this scene is how it sometimes goes for some people and is important to some. 

And the last thing on my soapbox, there are so many Hannah Baker’s in the world who need your compassion more than your urgency to get finished with the conversation so that you are able to move on. Don’t be afraid to talk about suicide. You never know who is needing you to speak up the most. 

Tag a quality blog

You’re it! Quality doesn’t means that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how many followers you have. Send this to 15 blogs who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them ♡♡♡ *nudge nudge* hi.

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I was tagged by the lovelies @magnetobsessed79 & @deathbyukmen and am screaming with joy!
As you may or may not know, my tastes have changed lol, so I’ve taken the time to go through who I follow, and mention some of my fave blogs who may not even know I exist! lol

My favourite blogs are self explanatory - @avenger-nerd-mom @olyphantss @evansrogerskitten @noclevernamelbr @2glassesofchianti @magnetobsessed79 @imagine-assembling-the-avengers @devikafernando & @mintmintdoodles I also want to mention a few others I don’t see on the list, but basically have on notifications -  @deathbyukmen @prtypooper @harleycativy @inkinterrupted & @toc1985 xx

My favourite eye-candy blogs are dispersed to my sideblogs and are as follows:  @hawaiian-jesus @favejakepics
@kendaspntwd @negans-dirty-girl @deanmaniac @dailytylerhoechlin @henycavil @mcavoys @pine-farr @all-things-i-cant-have @chrisprattdelicious @hoechlin Ty for providing such awesome content!! 

Currently, my favourite porn blogs are: @monsieur–f @unsirpassed @wildhuntsman @mensblog @i-deserve-to-be-spanked @32bored32 @penelopepussycat76 @yessiraustralia @vicarioussubmissive@latent-thoughts-raunchy-edition which are also reblogged to a sideblog. You guys have PHENOMENAL taste and are very creative! As a writer, thank you for your prompts! xx

Finally, my favourite writing blogs are: @heywriters @neil-gaiman @write-like-a-freak @thewritershandbook & @the960writers. I take your posts very seriously and you help keep me on track! xx

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So.. isn’t all this “sudden” Anti talk a little bit weird?
Maybe I’m linking dots where there are none but we’ve seen Jack talk a LOT about Anti lately and in a very witty way too. For example, in the Outlast 2 series and in the Pinstripe stream he reached out to Anti like “Anti, is that you?” followed by a vague laugh.
Now we’re seeing more details about tags and lore in general. What about Prey’s video’s thumbnail? Many people have pointed out that it looks like Jack’s somehow infected; I know that he probably just wanted to replicate the game’s character’s freaky symptom, but still! It’s a weird coincidence.

So.. is Jack perfectly aware of Anti now? Does he know what happened to him on Halloween? Is Jack sorta taking a piss at him by straight up exposing him like that? Am I imagining things? Haha

Y'all, I just wanna take a second to talk about someone awesome. 💕

So everyone in the TJLC community probably knows Steph over at @inevitably-johnlocked. But I always wonder if some people know how heckin rad she really is.

I am thankful for, grateful for, in awe of, and constantly inspired by Steph. She has more dedication than almost anyone else I’ve seen in TJLC. Her metas are exhaustively researched, meticulously tagged and linked, and best of all, she gives credit where credit is due to the many other amazing meta writers, showing that our understanding is a collective effort.

She’s also hella kind and friendly and helpful. When I joined TJLC, I was looking at many people that were the complete opposite, making the community seem like a very unwelcoming and harsh place for newcomers. I remember messaging Steph with silly ideas for a Johnlock video when I still barely knew my way around and barely knew anyone, and being so intimidated, which she instantly shot down by being hilarious and sweet and insanely helpful.

I owe her a ton of credit for my place in the community and for the kindness she welcomed me into the community with. (lmao Steph I was so alone and I owe you so much) Thanks in large part to her good natured responses, which I see her extend to everyone who has a question or needs help, I reached out to more TJLCers, felt confident in putting content into the community and participating in discussions, and made tons of amazing friends. I love all of them, and am so grateful for our shared journey, but Steph is exceptionally badass.

I have never once seen Steph respond negatively to someone who didn’t thoroughly deserve it, and even then, it’s done with way more class than even I can extend to antis and trolls. She goes out of her way to not only write excellent meta, but truly help people understand it and find it. She hosts community watchalongs, shares content from tons of people who wouldn’t have exposure otherwise, has badass fic rec lists, is humble and learns from mistakes, answers more asks than anyone I know, and is funny and dedicated and legit.

I get to meet her in a few weeks at 221bcon (and other awesome people, ahhhh basically it’s gonna be an amazing time) and needless to say, I’m hella excited.

All of this is not to discredit the many wonderful people in TJLC who contribute, interact, and are helpful or kind or awesome. But Steph is just fantastic all on her own. She’s the one who helped me along the most in TJLC, and I know that I and most/all of my close lovely friends on here think she’s just the greatest. 💕

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FAVORITE BISEXUALS | Raúl Esparza

“I do not regret being who I am, being as open as I’ve been. And I am proud of myself for not apologizing for it. I don’t fit into any of the boxes that so many petty-minded little motherfuckers love to put me in, and I don’t really care.”

a couple people i follow here that write or make art seem to be feeling a little under the weather, mentally or physically. i feel that pretty deeply right now, so i wanted to make something a little lowkey with two skeletons i particularly enjoy and know that some of those people do as well.

ah, full view definitely looks best on this one, by the way.

(if you think this is about you, it probably is, haha. i don’t have terribly many followers and love each and every one that i do. <3)

♡ WOOP

Yesterday I hit 1k followers, which is so mindblowing for me, because I run this blog for only 7 months and I never thought that I will gain that many, but here we are!I appreciate and love all of you so so much, for sticking around with me for that long, it means a lot!!

So, I decided to make a follow forever, where I will basically tag some really nice people which I love and appreciate, to say thanks!

I can’t tag all my mutuals bc it would have been huge, sorry, but if I am following you and you are not here ily ♡


Also, my loves @therealjacksepticeye , @danisnotonfire , @amazingphil

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Free My Spirit (Bucky x Reader)

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Bucky Barnes x Reader Oneshot 

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Just a quick something I hate-wrote down at two in the morning. It’s probably shit. But I hope you enjoy it anyway :) This isn’t proofread at all, so please point out any mistakes. Thanks!

Word Count:1510

Warnings: mostly angst, some fluff, cursing


It was hard sometimes. Pretending to be happy, when in reality all you were was a broken shell of a person. Ignoring the ache for acceptance was becoming easier and easier, but sometimes, there were days when your spirit cried out in agony, wishing to be freed.

Others envied you, thinking that you were living ‘the life’ – a lavish, carefree life filled with flowing wines, expensive dishes, silken sheets. In a sense, that was true; you had more than enough tasty food to eat, an overflow of beverages and drawers of delicate materials that felt like they swam over your skin. But were you happy? No.

Being part of ‘The Avengers’ sounded like an exclusive and important job. All of a sudden, shops sold your face on birthday cards, little figurines of you for children to play with, magazines with your face disgustingly dolled up and photoshopped onto the front cover. People aspired to be like you, their faces filled with admiration every time they saw you. They called you a ‘hero’ and idolised you endlessly.

But you knew you were no hero. You were a coward.

A hero was someone who went through pain and still came out strong, not someone who is afraid of their own feelings. A hero is someone who opposes evil, who resists darkness. A hero is someone like Bucky Barnes.

You admired him not only because of his impressive physical strength and his friendship with Captain America. You admired him because he was broken, just like you. Yet, he still fought, trying to get the world to see him for who he really was, not who he was forced to be for decades.

God, you loved him, so damn much that it hurt. It was hard not to, with his charming personality and stunning good looks. He was always so sweet and kind, making your heart melt. He was one of your closest friends, always there for you when you needed him. You were happy, because Bucky was the light in your life, your safe haven.

It pained your heart to know he’d never be yours.

You were nothing compared to Natalia Romanova. Her fiery hair and sexy lips were enough to win any man over. Not to mention her natural grace and sharp wit. Oh, and her large bosom.

You’ve seen the way they look at each other. Longing, heated gazes thrown from opposite ends of the room, touches that lasted a second too long, secretive smirks half hidden behind smouldering eyes. It was obvious to anyone that they wanted each other, the not-so-subtle signs were clear as day. Your co-workers only encouraged them, telling them to ‘stop playing’ and ‘finally get together, dammit’.

How could you ever compete with the Black Widow?

These thoughts nagged at you as you performed your daily activities. You tried your damn best at everything, you really did. But she always seemed to be better than you in everything. Hit a bullseye at the shooting range? She hits five. Lift a thirty-pound weight? She lifts fifty. Gather required intel in one day? She does it in an hour.

You didn’t mean to envy her, but you really couldn’t help it. Everyone you ever gave a damn about chose her, not you. It really got on your nerves after a while.

Hence why you were currently swigging straight from a bottle of Smirnoff at 1 am on the roof of the Avengers tower. A mission was underway, once again finding information about a presumed HYDRA base. The mission was delicate, requiring the agents to dress up ‘fancy’ and attend an elaborate party hosted by a suspected HYDRA leader. You had eagerly volunteered, hoping that this could be your chance to show that you were, in fact, capable of acting like a dame. You were desperate to prove that you, too, could be seductive. You were even more excited when you found that two avengers would act as a ‘couple’ and attend the party. Your heart stuttered with joy when you discovered that the designated male agent chosen was Bucky Barnes.

Your heart dropped to the floor and shattered once again when you were told that the designated female agent would be Natalia.

Once again, that gaze was thrown across the room, making a lump form in your throat. Of course. You should’ve known.

You would never be chosen for a mission like that.

Pretending everything was alright was harder than ever tonight. Pretending you didn’t care about them was even harder.

The liquid in the half empty bottle sloshed around as you took yet another long slurp, some alcohol escaping down your chin, not that you cared. You didn’t care about anything anymore. You didn’t care at all.

The sky was clear tonight, constellations of stars twinkling at you happily, mocking you. Gazing up into the endless dark blue void, you wondered if a world existed, just one world, in which you could be truly happy…

Quiet footsteps interrupted your pathetic daydream. Looking around, your insides plummeted with dread when you locked gazes with the handsome supersoldier, who was still dressed in his smart, this-outfit-kills-and-I-know-it clothes. Quickly grabbing the vodka and hiding it beside you, you tore your gaze away from James’s caring eyes.

“Are you alright, (Y/n)?” He questioned, slowly sitting down beside you. You shrugged nonchalantly in response.

“O’ course. Why wouldn’t I be?” You replied, trying to appear casual.

Bucky sighed. “That”, he motioned to the alcohol hidden beside you, “tells me otherwise. Now, what’s going on?”

You scoffed, your liquid friend making you much bolder than you actually were.

”Nothing’s going on. And why do you even care?”

Bucky frowned deeply at this, looking straight into your eyes. “I care about you because you’re my friend, (Y/n).”

Ah, there it goes. That disgusting boundary. Friend.

“Yeah”, you answered, rolling your eyes. “That’s all I am. Anyway, how’s Natasha doing? Is she just a friend as well?”

Bucky looked stunned. “What on earth are you talking about, (Y/n)?! Of course she’s just a friend. Why would you think otherwise?”

You grabbed your bottle and took another swig, eyes filling with hurt and longing.

“I’ve seen the way you look at each other. Why don’t you stop playing around and just fuck already?”

The brunet gasped, looking at you with a mixture of shock and anger. “Do you really think I’m that type of person? Nothing romantic, just purely sexual?”

You shrugged once again. “Well, the way you shamelessly stare at her breasts brings that to mind, yes.”

Bucky ran his prosthetic hand through his long hair. “That’s very offensive, (Y/n). Both to me and to Natasha. First of all, I do not stare or want to fuck her, as you so nicely put it. And second, Natasha is not the girl I want.”

Hearing this, your heart seemed to crush.

“Oh yeah?” You practically spat. “Then who is? Wanda? Sharon? Or just a random whore?”

Bucky growled at this, getting up abruptly. “You’re wasted, (Y/n). I’m not having this conversation with you when you’re this drunk.”

You got up as well, your legs slightly shaky, a fact you chose to ignore. “Is that so, Barnes? Scared to admit who you have the hots for?”

“Oh, for the love of…” Bucky spun you around to face him, his piercing blue eyes blazing. “It’s you, alright, (Y/n)?! It’s you! From the very start, it has always been you. You were always there for me, you always made me feel human again. I love you!”

You stood there, frozen, not daring to move a muscle. You had sobered up quite fast at the yelling, and you couldn’t believe what you were hearing. Bucky loved…you?

“Me?” You whispered, a single tear trickling down your cheek. Bucky’s expression softened immediately, his arms pulling you close to him.

“Yes, you”, he murmured. “No one makes me feel like you do. You make me feel like life is worth it. You make me feel like someone finally gives a shit. You may not believe this, but I love you.”

A choked sob left your throat. “I love you, too.” You hoped to whatever God was out there that you weren’t dreaming, that this wasn’t just some cruel figment of your own imagination.

Bucky smiled, gently brushing his large hand over your cheek. Your breath got caught in your throat as he moved closer to you, eyes moving down to glance at your lips. You froze, feeling his breaths fan over your face and watching as brunet shut his eyes slowly and brushed his lips over yours softly.

Getting over your shock quickly, you gripped his neck and crashed his lips onto yours, shutting your eyes tightly as stray tears fell down your lashes. You felt like you were finally able to breathe; as Bucky’s kisses were all you needed to stay alive.

He loved you. James Buchanan Barnes loved you.

After all, there was a world in which you could be happy. It seems that your spirit can be free at last.


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This really isn’t a joke. You guys might have noticed that I haven’t been doing requests much lately or barely even at all. But this is really an issue for me. I feel like I am going insane or something. I know that I am not actually going insane but there are so many things wrong with me and I have a full anxiety attack when I see a bug. I mean… I am not stable. I can’t sleep no matter how hard I try. Exams are on at my school right now. School in general is giving me so much work to do. I’m never hungry but like I never eat. I over work myself too much. I have to do things a certain way like OCD. I see things moving in the corner of my eye and it is just a shoe or something. I am so paranoid about bugs anywhere. I scratch my arms but sometimes I wake up with marks starting to scab on my legs. I get depressed easily and to be honest I have been thinking about suicide a lot. I know that not many of you guys are going to pay attention to me. My name is Lizzie and I am scared. I am worried that someone is judging me if there is something weird by the way I walk. I can’t act like I normally can anymore. I am not super close with my family and I would prefer to not talk about this kind of stuff to them because they would only just take away the things that make me happy. Just to say this I have ADHD. I need help. Please. I have never done this in my two years on tumblr. I need people to talk to. I should go to bed soon it is 11:11 pm. I have to wake up at 5 am to get ready for school. Honestly anyone please message me. Anon messages or real messages. Just please distract me. I am so paranoid. Keep an eye on me and check in and see how I am doing. That’s all I need is someone to do that. I’m scared. If you read this then thank you. I know many of you won’t message me but I need it. I am only tagging this post with the tags that I know will get seen for someone to help.

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Fandom:  Star Trek AOS (Soulmate AU)
Pairing: Reader x Bones
Word Count: 3,633
Rating: Teen+
Warnings: Injuries, blood, scary scenes 
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          Leonard had gone back to his business after his last projected thoughts, after his soulmate had wished him luck on his exam.  It was going to be a hard one, he was sure, and he nervously chewed on the end of his stylus as he waited for the instructor’s signal.  The exam appeared on the screen of his tablet as his professor indicated that they could begin and he bent over it, meticulously reading each question and answering carefully, his mind completely focused on his task.

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