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#8 -“I mean, there’s no way you could be Spider-Man, right?” - Peter Parker One Shot

Summary: You’re walking through the city at night when you end up in some trouble and get stabbed, blacking out in Spider-Man’s arms, but you could have sworn it was Peter under the mask.

Pairing: Peter Parker x Reader

Requested: Nope

Warnings: Stabbing, blood loss, blacking out.

A/N: I was going to wait to write this until Homecoming came out to celebrate its release, but I couldn’t wait any longer. Hope you enjoy!

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One thing you have learned about yourself is how much you love living in a city. When your parents told you you’d be moving to New York City, the idea daunted you for some time. You had remembered going into the city when you were a child and hating the hustle and bustle of the place. There was always so many people on the sidewalk who didn’t seem to care if they pushed you or temporarily separated you from your mother, and there was always so much noise that you could barely hear yourself think. But, once you moved here, you realised it wasn’t so bad.

You guess, in part, that has something to do with the friend’s you’ve made since moving here. When you started at your new school, you hated the idea of being the “new girl.” You’d never actually been the “new girl” before, but you’d seen so many movies and television shows to know it didn’t sound like such a good label. However, much to your surprise, a group of kids took to you quite easily. Michelle was the first one to approach you. Apparently, the two boys she’s friends with were too nervous to do so themselves, so she had agreed to make the first move. When you first got talking, you found her a little strange, but in a harmless type of way. She had a really dry sense of humour which reminded you of your grandfather’s – and whilst you didn’t know if that was a good thing, it made you feel more at home. Breaking the ice wasn’t so difficult because you soon realised you had a lot in common, and eventually she introduced you to the two boys she had mentioned earlier – Peter and Ned.

You could tell they were a little bit nervous, which you found a little awkward, as you had no idea why they were the nervous ones. It made you worry that they didn’t like you, and that you’d end up being isolated from that friendship group. It turned out to be quite the opposite…especially with you and Peter. Michelle had pretty much explained in her sense of humour that the boys were inexperienced in being around “pretty girls like you.” You thought she was being ridiculous, because you thought she was the most beautiful girl you’d seen in a long time. Natural, and not overly made-up like a lot of the other girls you knew. Not that you thought that was a bad thing – you’re down for girls wearing a lot of make-up if it makes them feel good about themselves – but Michelle’s attitude to that sort of stuff inspired you in so many ways.

Anyway, you went along with Michelle, and teased the boys a little for it. It was all fun and games until Peter snapped at you. You had worried you had taken things too far, and ended up having a breakdown in the girl’s toilets about it. Michelle had to coax you out of the cubicle by threatening to tell Peter that you had a huge-ass crush on him. You didn’t speak to the boys for the rest of the day, but you felt terrible after school, so you went over to Peter’s apartment later on. His Aunt was the only one home, but when you explained why you had turned up on her doorstep, she invited you in to wait for Peter returning from wherever he had gotten to.

He stumbled in from his bedroom, rather than the front door, which took both you and his Aunt by surprise. No-one was as surprised as Peter was to see you at his apartment though. He took you into his room to talk after insisting he “tidies up” – despite his Aunt claiming she’d tidied the room whilst he was out - but left the door slightly open, “house rule” he had claimed. You had taken a deep breath and apologised for upsetting him earlier in the day, but he surprised you yet again by assuring you that you hadn’t upset him and he was only playing with you the same way you were him – he had no idea you had cried in a toilet cubicle to yourself afterwards and he felt really bad. The two of you burst out laughing when you realised how ridiculous the whole thing was – but then you accidentally let slip you were so distraught over the thought of upsetting him because you thought you could end up quite liking him.

Your admission wasn’t far wrong – skip to a year later, and we’ve been dating for ten months. You’re the “school sweethearts” that everyone seemingly adores. No-one fusses over you the way his Aunt May does. You are literally invited to their place for dinner so many times that you have to keep subtly reminding her that you do have a family of your own that enjoys spending time with you. Peter gets really embarrassed by her eagerness, but you think it’s sweet that you get on so well with her. You know how important she is to Peter and how much Peter values her, so the last thing you would want was for her to hate you.

All in all, the relationship is pretty much perfect. Except…for one thing…and you think it’s fairly minor, but when you’ve brought it up to your mom (who you tell pretty much everything), she told you to be cautious. That one thing is that he’s always sneaking off places he can’t tell you afterwards. “So, where were you this morning? I was caught up in a bank robbery and I could have done with a shoulder to cry on when it was over.” “Oh…uh…I…um…I was…I was…would you like some of my Aunt May’s date and walnut cake? It’s really delicious, I’ll go and get you some!”

It bothered you a little bit, but that didn’t subtract from how smitten you were with him.

“I’m on my way home now.” You tell Peter from your end of the line, as you walk through the empty streets of Brooklyn towards the subway station. You had gone to the library to work on a project you’re doing with a couple of girls from school, and now you’re on your way home.

“Are you sure you don’t want me to walk you home?” He questions.

You furrow your eyebrows to yourself, “Peter, I’m in Brooklyn! You’re in Queens! What would be the point in you coming all that way to walk me to the subway station that is literally five minutes away from where I am now?”

“I don’t mind. I can be by your side in no time. Just tell me where you are and I’ll be there soon.” He practically demands.

You roll your eyes, “You are so over-protective!”

He pauses, “…is that bad?”

You laugh at how cute you think he is, “No…no, it’s not, it’s just…”

Your voice trails off when the sound of voices takes your attention from down a side street you’re approaching. “(Y/N)…(Y/N)…are you there?” you vaguely hear Peter say through the phone. You take a look down the small ally-way to your right to find two figures – one of a man pressing a woman up against the wall by a knife to her throat.

You let out as quiet of a gasp as possible, before hiding just around the corner so the attacker won’t be able to realise you’re there. “Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, oh my God…”

“(Y/N), what’s wrong?” Peter asks, seriousness in his voice.

“There’s…there’s a guy holding a woman at knife point down an ally-way. I don’t know what to do.” You explain as best you can.

“I do!” Peter explains, and you could have sworn you could hear something clatter in the background, “Get the hell away from there!”

“Peter, I can’t just let this poor woman have her throat slit without doing anything!” You whisper-shout to him.

“You won’t be!” He argues, “Spider-Man is probably on his way to the scene right now, which means you can leave. NOW GO!”

You’re surprised by the sudden raise in his voice, and it only makes you angrier. “No, I have to call the police or something.”

“I’ll do it, you just get home!” He continues to argue, as more noise of something clattering in the background becomes more and more noticeable.

“Peter, are you okay?” You ask him, “It sounds like you’ve fallen over or something.”

“Don’t worry about me, just please leave, okay? I couldn’t cope if something bad happened to you, so please just get to the subway and get home. Don’t make me call your Dad.”

You roll your eyes, “Peter, nothing bad is going to happen to m-“

Your cell is suddenly removed from your grip, and is thrown on the floor; shattering into a couple of pieces. Your heart rate begins to pick up as you turn to face a scary man staring down at you – knife in one hand, woman in the other.

“Are you sure about that princess?” He snarls, “Because I don’t take too kindly to eavesdroppers.”

You gulp, “I…I…I wasn’t…I was just on the phone with my boyfriend…I didn’t even know you were there…I swear.”

“Boyfriend, huh?” The guy laughs, “Sounds like he’s a bit worried for his…little lady.”

You look down at the knife he’s holding with a tight and secure grip. If you could run, you would…but you’re too petrified to move. It’s like you’re staring death straight in the eyes and not even trying to fight it off. You’ve just given up trying.

“Yo knife guy!” A voice calls from behind you.

Too scared to look back, you watch the guy’s reaction. To your surprise, he looks somewhat scared. As though Spider-Man – who you have concluded must only be young himself – is the worst possible outcome for him.

“D’you wanna take it down a notch?” The voice continues in the same exact tone of sarcasm you’re sure you’ve heard somewhere before.

The guy’s mouth falls into a smirk, “Not really, spider-dude.”

What happens next happens so fast. The harsh sensation of a sharp object hits your hip, and you let out a gargle as you begin to feel blood pouring out of your hip, and you begin to black out as you fall to the ground…

…you don’t really see much of what happens after that, your sight has become a bit of a blur, but you’re aware that the guy ran off and let the other girl go. A red and blue figure appears above you.

“I need you to stay awake for me.” Spider-Man tells you, “Please just…please just stay awake.”

A few moments pass by, and he begins to speak to himself, rather than to you.

“Please (Y/N)…I can’t lose you like I did Uncle Ben. I just can’t. There are only five things I care about in this world right now. Aunt May. Ned. Michelle. This City…and you. I can’t lose you, please…”

He lifts up his two hands and removes his mask from his face. Familiar brown eyes stare into yours, and the inch of adrenaline left in you shoots through your body.

“…Peter?” You whisper faintly, before completely blacking out.

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The sound of someone flicking through a newspaper beside you becomes more and more irritating the more conscious you become. You carefully move your head to your right to find your Dad sitting beside you, face out-of-sight due to the newspaper covering it.

“Hello, sweetie.” A soft voice speaks from the other side of you, as a hand strokes your forehead.

You turn to face your mom, who is looking back at you with the kind eyes she used to give you whenever you fell over as a kid. You give her a faint smile, but then realise she probably can’t make it out due to the oxygen mask covering your mouth and nose.

“Finally, you wake up. I always knew you were a lazy-bones!” Your Dad jokes, putting down the newspaper to give you his full attention.

You reach up and remove the oxygen mask from your face, “What happened?” You croak to your Dad.

He looks to your mom, before slipping his hand in yours. “You were stabbed, sweetheart…but it’s okay, the guy who did it has been caught and the nurse says you’re going to be fine. I don’t know what we would have done if Spider-Man hadn’t got to you when he did. He saved your life, angel.”

Whenever Spider-Man is mentioned, you have always felt a bit excited…but this feels different. Instead of excitement, you get a strange feeling in the pit of your stomach. And that’s when a certain memory from last night hits you hard…

“I need you to stay awake for me.” Spider-Man tells you, “Please just…please just stay awake.”

A few moments pass by, and he begins to speak to himself, rather than to you. “Please (Y/N)…I can’t lose you like I did Uncle Ben. I just can’t. There are only five things I care about in this world right now. Aunt May. Ned. Michelle. This City…and you. I can’t lose you, please…”

He lifts up his two hands and removes his mask from his face. Familiar brown eyes stare into yours, and the inch of adrenaline left in you shoots through your body.

“…Peter?” You whisper faintly, before completely blacking out.

A lump forms in your throat when you come to the realisation that Spider-Man isn’t just a random guy in the neighbourhood…

Spider-Man is your boyfriend.

Your thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the door. You and your parents turn to find Peter stood there, flowers in hand.

“We’ll give you two a minute.” Your mom smiles, giving your Dad a knowing look, before the two exit the room.

Peter takes the seat your Dad was sitting in and places the flowers on the desk next to your bed. “Hey love, how are you feeling? You had me worried sick!”

“Peter…” You speak, ignoring his question. “Where were you last night?”

He shuffles in his seat, “I…I was at home with my Aunt May.”

You nod for a second, “Because I could have sworn that…just after I was stabbed but before I blacked out…that Spider-Man took off his mask and…and it was you under there!”

You watch as a look of panic on his face tries it’s best to turn into a laugh, “Are you serious? Me? Spider-Man? Come on, I know you’ve lost a lot of blood but surely you can hear how crazy you are?”

When you give him an uncertain look, he relaxes and holds your hand.

“Look, love…” He begins softly, “I would love to be Spider-Man. It must be so crazy for that guy getting to do what he does…but that’s not me in that suit.”

“But…I remember saying your name.” You persist, “It was the last thing I said before I blacked out.”

A subtle blush appears on his cheeks, “Babe, that’s sweet, it really is, but…you lost a lot of blood, and you were blacking out. Anything you think you saw, or anything you think you heard…was probably all just a hallucination that comes with blacking out due to loss of blood.”

You stare him out for a moment longer, before nodding your head in defeat. “Yeah, you’re probably right…I mean, there’s no way you could be Spider-Man, right?”

He laughs, “No, love. Absolutely, no way. Sorry, love.”

You bite your lip to hold back the tears that are about to fall. You don’t know what hurts more…the fact he’s been lying to you all this time, or the fact he’s just looked you in your eyes and lied to your face.


PART TWO

Rose-Red City as Old as Time

This is my entry for the prompt: Out of Place for the the Olicity Hiatus Fic-a-thon organized by the @thebookjumper.  Set after 5x23.  Thanks to @candykizzes24 for the amazing edit and to @missyriver and @nalla-madness for reading and encouraging.. I hope you like it!


The camel jostled back and forth, and Felicity was having a hard time dealing with the swinging motion.  After the first hour, her body was still not becoming one with the large animal underneath her, the rocking gesticulation was making her nauseous.

Scanning the narrow path that is the Siq, she noted that their caravan was now walking in a fissure made up of continuous walls of pink layered rock formations separating two tectonic plates; Felicity felt dwarfed and very claustrophobic.

Her gaze wandered to her right, meeting intense blue eyes.  It was ridiculous how good Oliver looked sitting astride his camel.  He just totally fit within the element. Watching him in his khakis and white Bedouin head cover was like seeing her own version of Rick O’Connell ready to conquer the desert. His golden tan, and the way his hands held the reins, his body one with his ride, you would think he grew up in this part of the world.

Felicity giggled, there were no mummies or secret treasures on this adventure, Petra was a city carved from rose rock under sea level, eternal, beautiful and alone, it offered the perfect solitude their crazy life was lacking!

Being in the heart of Wadi Rum, she never thought she would feel more out of place, the desert reminded her of Vegas.  The worn rocks on either side were reminiscent of the Grand Canyon and the incessant sun and heat was just as scorching.

“How much more?” she asked the little guide who held the reins of her camel.

“One hour!” he replied in a heavy accented English.

After their impromptu wedding, they decided to continue their world tour for their honeymoon.  Felicity wanted to see Petra, and the Red Sea; and although she had read the brochures she had no idea how much tourism websites failed to address how extraneous the journey was, as what they considered part of the mystery.  Apparently, after a four-hour car ride, they had to ride horses for two hours just to get to the entrance of the treasury, which was where Indiana Jones had filmed the last crusade, then it was camels for two hours more to reach the museum, then there was a trek up 365 steps to reach sea level so she can see the infamous split between the two continents of Asia and Africa and the promised Red Sea. As much as Felicity was looking forward to sight seeing, she was dreading this gigantic effort in the midst of summer heat.  Maybe this was a bad idea after all!

Felicity was flushed, even with her straw hat, tied under her chin with a wispy scarf, she had to admit she was wilting!

“How are you holding up?” Oliver asked

“Oh, you know, other than hot sweaty and soaking wet, I am completely fine!”

Oliver met her with a smirk and a raised eyebrow,

Realizing how that sounded, she was about to take it back with a massive babble, when the path opened to a great plaza and the caravan stopped.  It seems they were to pass some inspection point by the local authorities.

Two police officers with visible side arms approached them asking for their passports.  After scanning Oliver’s passport, the officer glanced up meeting what Felicity classified as the Green Arrow glare, then whispered something to his companion in Arabic.  “We need you to come with us,” they told Oliver.

“Is something wrong officer?” the officers exchanged looks,

“Would you please step down from your camel?”

Oliver and Felicity exchanged looks, Felicity was starting to get concerned. Oliver stepped down and stood towering over the officers who placed their hands over their weapons in response to his threatening stance.  Felicity was seriously worried now, this was no time to play the Green Arrow, they were unarmed and Olivers bow and arrows were safely tucked in their duffle bags strapped to the camels, plus did Oliver really want to cause an international incident at a famous world tourist site?

She motioned to the boy to bring down her camel.  As the camel squatted down, Felicity squealed.  “Oh sorry, I don’t know how anyone can get used to this” The officers were frowning now.

The officers looked at Olivers passport again, “Please calm down Mrs. Queen”  “We are just doing our jobs, please don’t resist this arrest”

“Arrest”? Oliver glowered, “On what basis?”

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anonymous asked:

Dad my ex bf cheated on me what am I supposed to do now 💔

Queen here, King passed this along to me as I have unfortunately gone through this (before I met King)
First off… Fuck that guy (but not literally). I’m sure you’re feeling a lot of emotions right now - sadness, anger, confusion. But first and foremost, know that this isn’t your fault. He didn’t see how good he had it with you and decided that coal was better than a diamond. Yes, you’re gonna feel sad about this but in time, you’ll realize you’re much better off without someone who’s stupid actions left you hurt.
Don’t rush into a new relationship, take time to heal - cry, eat a bucket of ice cream, watch a sad movie and cry some more. And when you can’t cry anymore, get mad. Remember what he did to you and how it made you feel and when he comes crawling back asking for forgiveness… Remember that feeling and tell him to never get in contact with you again.
You will find happiness in yourself and in your life and one day, you’ll forget about the douchebag that did this to you.
If you ever want to rant some more, please don’t hesitate about reaching out to me on my own personal tumblr (@stolenkisses-prettyylies)
Stay strong 💖

anonymous asked:

A random person mistakes Lu for a child and tells Ciel that he has a "cute daughter". Lu is not amused. Ciel asks if she wants some cookies and milk before her nap time.

“I am not your daughter!” Lu fumed, literally stomping away from the unfortunate person who’d dared assume her age.  Everything about them was in the past tense now.  Lu’s gauntlets were stained with their blood.

Ciel followed her with a smile.  “Oh?” he teased.  Lu glared up at him.

“I’m a demon queen, the steel queen-”

“of sourcream,” Ciel rhymed, and couldn’t keep the grin off his face as Lu shrieked.

“You’re hopeless!”

“Sounds like someone’s cranky,” Ciel teased.  “I think you need naptime.”

“Ciel-”

“Would you like a little snack before you go night-night?”

Lu went silent, her tail twitching in annoyance.

“I want cookies. But no naptime,” she said sullenly, and only pouted more when Ciel couldn’t hold back his laughter any longer.

Clarke and Lexa fight:

Clarke: Lexa, we need to talk…
Lexa: Clerk, OMG not now I’m just about to open this CANDLE package that I ordered from Amazon!
Clarke: What is your problem Lexa?! All you do is talking about those STUPID candles! 
Lexa: What…did you say?
Clarke: I am trying my best here and all you do is candles,candles,candles..
Lexa: Well, maybe I would do YOU if you took a fucking BATH! Your hair is greasier than burger at McPolis!
Clarke: OH YOU DID NOT JUST GO THERE SISTA! You are such a DRAMA QUEEN! Literally Roan was there fighting you and you layed on the ground all dramatic when literally you could stand up in 0.3 seconds and kill the shit out of Roan with your bare hands!
Lexa: Well at least I DID NOT DO IT FOR MY PEOPLE!
Clarke: Well I am not the one who cut her NIGHTGOWN up to my fucking right lung and put GLITTER on my fucking neck in order to get laid!!!
Lexa: Oh whatever, I need someone whose gonna understand my PICK UP LINES anyway!!
Indra: WOULD YOU TWO PLEASE STOP ALREADY
Titus: PREACH GURL

FF#52: Opposites Attract

Opposites Attract
An Olicity Flash Fic One Shot

FF#52: Coitus Interruptus

So, apparently, he was an ear man.

And, no, that wasn’t a mistake, and it surprised no one more than Oliver himself.

Before having been presumed dead for five years, Oliver probably would have described himself as a legs man. He gravitated towards tall, willowy women - girls who, despite their height, were almost… delicate. The skinnier they were, the more masculine Oliver felt. Now, looking back at his younger self, Oliver realized how stupid that was, how stupid he was. Rather than trying to find someone he was physically, mentally, or even emotionally attracted to, his pre-island self had slept with women who made his ego feel better. Now, after being back in Starling City for a little more than a year, Oliver was trying to figure out what he really wanted, what he really liked.

At first, he had refused to date. Although his father sacrificed his own life in order for Oliver to survive and right his wrongs as a husband and father, to be a better man, Oliver was hesitant to jump into a relationship. While he wanted to make his dad proud and prove to be a more positive influence for his sister, five years away and essentially on one’s own, surviving rather than actually living, was a lot to overcome. The city and everything that came with it - all those conveniences that Oliver had once taken for granted - were overwhelming. So, too, were the reactions he received from friends and family, let alone strangers. Everyone wanted to know his story when all Oliver wanted to do was move along from it. He knew that he couldn’t forget the five years he was stranded on Lian Yu… and he didn’t want to, because those five years helped shape him into the man he was now, but, at the same time, they couldn’t be his focus. He couldn’t stay in the past if he actually wanted to live in the present.

So, instead of immediately throwing himself into the dating scene, Oliver took the time to get to know himself and what he - not his mother, not his best friend, Tommy, not even his deceased father - wanted. As it turned out, while the endeavor should have been something Oliver was doing again for the second time, he quickly learned that it was a first. Maybe it had taken him twenty-eight years, but Oliver Queen was finally comfortable in his own skin, satisfied with his own plans and goals, and he knew what… and evidently who… he wanted.

And she had the sexiest ears he had ever seen.

Now, granted, her ears weren’t the only thing about her that he found sexy. He liked the way she walked. With ridiculously high heels and in those pencil skirts he still couldn’t comprehend how a woman could move around in, he could watch her for days on end. Sometimes, it was a saunter. If she was in a hurry, then her steps came across as more like a march. His favorite was when, if he didn’t know any better, he’d swear she knew he was watching her, and she’d take her time, swinging her ample hips as she sashayed.

He liked her mouth and all of the smart, funny, and sarcastic things she said with it. Never before had he actually liked a woman for something other than what she could do for him, and, now here he was, gone for a girl who spoke so quickly and used words he’d never heard before, and, yet, that intelligence captivated him, made Oliver want to learn more and be better… not because she made him feel dumb or because he felt like he needed to change himself to be worthy of her but simply because she inspired him.

He liked her blonde ponytail, because, even when it sometimes felt like she was the shortest person in the room, he was always able to spot her as it bobbed along when she worked the crowd. He liked her shoulders. They were petite, and perfectly rounded, and they looked so unbelievably smooth to the touch that his hands actually itched to reach out and just… feel her skin. But he didn’t. Yet. However, the revelation that Oliver could feel attraction to a woman simply because her arms were bare finally explained why, in high school, girls weren’t allowed to wear sleeveless shirts. He had never understood that… at least, not until her.

He liked how expressive her hands were, how she talked with them, and how her nails were always a different color. He liked her nose and how it would scrunch up when she laughed or smiled. And he liked how she could reprimand someone - even him, most especially him - with a single lift of a finely shaped brow. It showed sass, and he liked her sass.

But, most of all, Oliver liked her ears. On the surface, the obsession seemed strange. He was man enough (now) to admit that. But, after thinking about the attraction, Oliver had come to realize that it was more about what all her ears represented and less about the ears themselves. Granted, they were cute ears, but he liked how, though she was always dressed conservatively enough at these events when he saw her, the long, dangly earrings she wore and the industrial piercing she sported showed that she had a small rebellious streak. Plus, because of her job, she always had one of those bluetooth earpieces in, so her hands would constantly lift to touch the device… so much so that, even when she didn’t need to use it, Oliver spied her nervously doing so out of habit. Without that quirk, that tell, she would have seemed too put together, too perfect, but the anxious tendency was relatable. It made her seem more human. And that - feeling unsure, having an idiosyncrasy or two, and feeling far too human sometimes - was something Oliver could sympathize with.

It was the only reason why, when he first found himself alone with her, he was able to locate the courage to not only approach but also strike up a conversation.

He was hiding.

There was no way to deny it, to sugar coat it. While Thea seemed to thrive under the spotlight and media attention that came along with their mother’s run for mayor, Oliver hated the additional scrutiny. Six years ago, it would have made him preen, but now…? Now, it just made him feel like his skin was too tight. Whether it was a political fundraiser, a campaign appearance, or, like tonight, a debate, the rooms were always just a little too hot and the people far too many. Oliver would not be able to take a deep breath again until he was once more in the safe and private confines of his apartment, and he, unfortunately, had hours to go before he could escape.

“Oh my god, I’m too young for this!” The exclamation was announced by a loud entrance and punctuated by the loading dock door slamming closed behind the sudden exit.

Oliver couldn’t help but smile. The words were overly dramatic, made even more exaggerated by the huff that came with them, but what made him grin was the identity of their owner. He recognized that voice. It was her. From where he was leaning against the edge of the building, his eyes previously glancing out into the empty and dark alley located behind the Starling Grand’s ballroom where the night’s debate was taking place, Oliver twisted his neck to the side to meet the sheepish gaze of the new arrival. He wished he knew her name, but, unfortunately, she never wore a nametag, and it wasn’t like he was going to ask anyone - and reveal his interest - for it. Hazarding a guess at what had her so agitated, he asked, “politics?”

She giggled. From the orange glow of the overhead emergency lights, Oliver witnessed her former frustration be replaced by amusement - amusement he put there. If he suddenly stood up a little straighter, his shoulders rolling back a little farther, he felt the pride was justified. “No. Hot flashes,” she responded. He must have looked confused, because she was quick to explain herself. “I mean, not literally, because obviously I am too young for hot flashes. Not that having hot flashes makes you old. I’m sure your mother has them, and I’d call Moira Queen a lot of things - maybe not to her face, mind you - but definitely not old.” She flushed, embarrassed Oliver would guess, and seemed to give herself a little shake. “And I’ll be shutting up now, because… awkward.” Biting her lip, the woman he’d secretly been watching for weeks at all of the bigger campaign events (she only seemed to cover the ones where both candidates were in attendance) apologized, “sorry about… that.”

While his own moments of self-consciousness were never caused by saying the wrong thing - not that she had in his eyes, Oliver wasn’t a stranger to the feeling of social discomfort, so, rather than dwelling on the moment and trying to make her feel better by reassuring her that he took no offense at what she said, he decided to simply steer them away from what she was viewing as a verbal misstep. “It is uncomfortably hot in there,” he agreed, nodding his head back towards the ball room. “You’d think a place that has been in business for as long as the Starling Grand has would know how to regulate its thermostat a little better.”

“From your lips to City Hall’s ears! I know it’s fall, and politics is a serious business, but I might just say ‘screw professionalism’ and wear a sundress to the next debate.” Okay, so now maybe Oliver wasn’t hoping for better climate control at these campaign events. “My dry cleaners will thank me.”

“The candidates should provide everyone in the audience with one of those handheld fans that also spray water.”

She groaned. She actually groaned at the idea, and, speaking of dry cleaners, Oliver’s dress pants all of a sudden were feeling a size or two too small. “Oh my god, that would be amazing, but, while your mom’s campaign can afford that, Mr. Diggle’s can’t.” While he hadn’t read any articles that claimed his mother’s opponent’s campaign was struggling financially, the reveal didn’t surprise Oliver either. John Diggle was a former army officer turned public servant who really did seem to be running for mayor because he wanted to make Starling a better place for everyone. He was a family man, a father, and, if Moira Queen wasn’t Oliver’s mother, he’d probably vote for John Diggle himself. The woman beside him suddenly shivering pulled Oliver away from his thoughts. “And it is now offical: my body is bipolar. I’ve been out here less than two minutes, and it’s gone from ‘get me naked now’ to ‘layers! I need more layers!’ I’m suddenly freezing!”

And as he looked down on those dainty shoulders that looked so smooth and soft, Oliver noticed that she had tiny, little goosebumps all up and down her arms, neck, and what was modestly exposed of her chest by the classy dress she wore. “Here,” he quickly offered, shrugging out of his suit jacket. Before she could protest - which Oliver could see she was about to do, he was already slipping the fabric around her small frame.

“I really shouldn’t,” she said, but, at the same time, he watched her pull the coat further around her body and… did she just subtly inhale his scent? Before he could fully absorb what he believed had just happened, she was saying, “now you’ll be cold.”

“I don’t really get cold. Not anymore.” It was a reference to his time away, and, yet, despite his family having to badger and cajole information about those five, lost years out of him, Oliver simply volunteered such personal insight to her freely and without provocation. The best part? She didn’t tense up, or ask for clarification, or demand more from him, or even wince sympathetically like every other person he’d ever talked with about the island. Instead, she just smiled at him and seemed to snuggle even deeper into his jacket. Encouraged by the moment, Oliver found himself flirting with her, “but, since I did do something for you, I think it’s only fair that you return the favor.” In response, she gave him one of those eyebrow quirks he found so intriguing. “You know who I am, and you’re wearing my coat, so it only seems fair that you tell me your name.”

“It’s Felicity,” she told him. Oliver could hear a soft, distant buzzing coming from her earpiece, and he watched, disappointed, as her hand lifted to the tiny piece of tech. He knew the interruption meant their moment together was coming to an end. As she slipped the suit jacket from her shoulders and handed it back to him, she added, “Felicity Smoak.” And then she was gone.

The second time Oliver spoke to her, to Felicity, came at the second debate. During the two weeks that had passed since their previous encounter, he’d noticed her several times at other, large campaign events, but there were always too many responsibilities and too many people between them for him to approach her. Plus, Oliver tried to be respectful of the fact that she was there to work and not to talk with him. The fact that the world and people in it did not revolve around him was perhaps the very first hard lesson he had learned while stranded on Lian Yu. Plus, while Oliver didn’t need to work in order to live like most people (one of whom he assumed was Felicity), he took pride in his career nonetheless and wanted to show that he recognized Felicity’s. In the past, both he and the press had often times taken advantage of each other. Though, now, they were certainly far from his favorite aspect of being a Queen, he couldn’t find fault with Felicity for being a journalist either.

As he slipped away from the crowds and made his way outside, Oliver found himself hoping that maybe Felicity would need a quiet, cool moment to herself, too, and, while he was out there, they’d be able to spend a few moments together again. When he first started to join his mother on the campaign trail, fulfilling his political duties as her loving son, her campaign manager and staff had fought Oliver on his ‘breaks.’ They wanted him front and center at all times but quickly learned that, whether they liked it or not, he would find a way to disappear for a few minutes… even if he had to dodge the security they insisted upon. So, they had quickly compromised and, as long as Oliver promised to come back (and he always did), they allowed him his fleeting moments of freedom.

However, as much as he wanted to see Felicity, he would have sacrificed the opportunity to ever spend time with her again if it meant she wasn’t already outside, struggling to breathe, and in the middle of what was obviously a very painful and very serious panic attack. So lost in her own fear and agitation, Felicity never heard Oliver come outside, nor did she notice his approach. She was doubled over and wheezing, clawing at her own throat and trembling. Despite his own traumatic past, Oliver didn’t hesitate to touch her.

Kneeling down in front of her so that she could see him… though he found her eyes tightly pinched shut, Oliver calmly spoke. “Hi, Felicity. It’s Oliver Queen. I don’t know what’s wrong, and I don’t know what happened, but you’re going to be okay. But we need to get your breathing under control again, alright. So, I’m going to stand up, and I’m going to walk around you, and I’m going to wrap my arms around your waist and pull you up so that you’re leaning against me. And then I want you to try to match your breaths with mine, okay? We’re going to count, and we’re going to breathe, and you’re going to be fine.”

As he did exactly what he had explained to her, Oliver was surprised to find how desperate he was to not only help Felicity but also to protect her. Even before all of the changes that had come with being lost at sea and then rescued five years later, Oliver had always been a kind person. Selfish, sure, but never maliciously so. Pre-island Ollie would have helped Felicity, too. However, once she was alright again, he would have walked away without a second thought… unless she wanted to give him her number so that she could later show him her appreciation. There would be no walking away tonight, though… at least, not emotionally.

Whether Felicity said she was alright or not, he’d still worry about her, and Oliver wasn’t sure how he’d push down the absolute need he felt to find out what had happened to upset her so much so that he could hunt it down and prevent it from ever hurting her again. The only person he’d ever felt so protective of before was his little sister, but how he wanted to shelter, to watch over, and care for Felicity was nothing like how he would treat Thea.

“That’s it. Breathe in. And then hold it. One, two, three. Now, exhale. One, two, three. In. One, two, three. Out. One, two, three.” After several minutes, Felicity joined in. Though Oliver would still direct her in what to do, she’d count with him. Eventually, her breathing was back under control, and her shaking stopped, but, still, he didn’t let her go. And Felicity didn’t seem to want him to let her go either. Where his arms were wrapped around her waist, she held onto his wrists, and, somewhere along the way, she had tucked her head into the crook between his neck and shoulder underneath his chin.

“It seems like I’m always making a fool of myself in front of you,” Felicity whispered. Her eyes were closed tight behind her square, two-toned glasses, but that did nothing to prevent Oliver from seeing the mortification written across her fine features. “You know, normally, I’m pretty put-together. I’m hard working, successful.”

“You don’t have to convince me, Felicity,” he reassured her. “I see the woman that you are, and she’s… remarkable.” This time, when a soft pink colored the apples of her cheeks, Oliver hoped it was from pleasure. “The fact that you let yourself be so open and honest with me? I take that as a compliment. I like to think it’s because you trust me.”

She pulled slightly out of his arms, enough so that she could turn around and face him. “And not just because I have a lack of a filter?” Oliver shook his head to negate her suggestion, and she grinned. “I think it’s because I don’t have a filter, but I like your version better, so let’s go with that instead.” Unfortunately, the brief bubble of humor disappeared almost immediately. Biting her bottom lip, Felicity looked up at him. “About what you just walked in on….”

“Felicity, you don’t need to say anything.”

“But…” she tried to interrupt him.

However, Oliver refused to allow her to do so. “As far as I’m concerned, what I saw was somebody who needed a friend, and I’m glad I was here for you. If you want to confide in me, know that I will always listen to you, Felicity, but don’t feel like you have to tell me anything.”

“It’s….” She blew out a harsh breath, rocking back on her towering heels. “It’s a really long, really complicated story.”

“Considering the fact that my long story takes place over five years on an island whose name translates into ‘Purgatory,’ it’s safe to say that I understand.” Again, Oliver found himself voluntarily talking about his ordeal with her, even in loose terms, and it just felt… natural.

Rather than commenting upon his confession itself, Felicity made one of her own. “You are nothing like what I expected, Oliver Queen.”

“Is that a good thing?”

“I think so… for both of us,” Felicity answered. And then she did this strange blink… which Oliver guessed was supposed to be a wink. It was awful and, consequently, adorable. “However, right now, neither of us have time for a long story… let alone two. We have a mayoral debate to listen to, but maybe….”

As her words trailed off, Oliver found it his turn to grin. Agreeing with her, he simply said, “maybe,” before they both turned to go back inside.

If Oliver ducked out for a break earlier than his body necessarily needed, he felt like he was owed the concession. For more than six months, he’d played the dutiful son. There were weeks when his life felt like it belonged more to the public than it did to him. His schedule had been so solidly booked that the only baseball he’d been able to take in that year had been over the radio while at work or in the car while driving to an event. In his opinion, the only good thing that had come from his mother’s mayoral run was Felicity Smoak. After yet another two weeks of only getting to see her from afar - never talking and certainly never touching, he was hoping tonight would follow the same pattern as the first two debates, and he’d run into her outside in the alley before the event started.

Despite their vast differences and even more varied backgrounds… or perhaps because of them, the two candidates for mayor, his mother and John Diggle, had together incited quite the political fervor in Starling City. While Oliver had never been one to pay much attention to elections, his knowledge usually limited to his father’s grumbles, gripes, and glad handing, the press had been quite vocal about how important this election was and had reported record numbers of voters coming out for events, particularly the debates. That’s why, for the third debate, Oliver found himself at the city’s indoor arena… only, unfortunately, he was not there for a sporting event.

As he stepped outside, silently closing the loading dock door behind him (the one benefit of being a candidate’s son was that Oliver had free reign to the places at these events that were not open to the public), he found Felicity leaning against the railing on one foot, the other she was twisting at the ankle in circles and flexing back and forth. “Tell me again why I wear such high heels?”

He didn’t know how she knew it was him, but he also didn’t waste the time in questioning her either. Deciding to be frank and taking the opportunity to jump right into flirting with her, Oliver answered, “because they make your legs look amazing.” While he now knew he wasn’t necessarily a legs man, that did not mean that Oliver didn’t appreciate Felicity’s legs, especially in her professional dresses, especially in her aforementioned heels.

“Nope,” she contradicted him. Dropping her right leg down, she started to balance on it while lifting her left and repeating her same stretching actions. “It’s because of how they make you look at my legs.”

Well, he certainly wasn’t going to argue with that. Instead, he instructed her, “come here,” nodding over to the part of the loading dock that wasn’t railed off. Before listening to his directions, Felicity watched him hop off the side of the elevated concrete slab. With a puzzled expression on her face, she just stood there, unmoving, while Oliver, meanwhile, shrugged out of his suit jacket.

As he went to spread it onto the dock for her to sit on, she yelled out, “what are you doing? You’re being dirty… I mean, you’re going to get all dirty. If you do that.” He ignored her protests. “Which you already did.”

“Sit.”

Felicity rolled her eyes. “Well, since you asked so nicely….” He could tell by her twitching lips that she wasn’t really annoyed with him and, instead, was actually fighting a smile. Initially tucking her legs underneath her, she lowered herself down gracefully onto his coat. “You have me where you want me, Queen, so, now, what are you going to do with me?” Felicity’s eyes widened at her own remarks, but she also didn’t take them back.

Wordlessly, Oliver reached for her legs. Grasping them by the calves, he pulled them out from under her and then around so that they were hanging off the edge of the loading dock. Locking their eyes together and then refusing to break the contact, he stripped off first her left shoe and then her right, carefully placing them together beside her. She watched him avidly, her only physical response a quick dart of her tongue out to lick her full, fuschia lips. Lifting her left leg by its narrow, elegant ankle, Oliver extended it outward. As Felicity held it up for him, he wrapped his hand around her foot and, starting at the ball and working his way down the arch and to her heel, he kneaded the sensitive flesh.

Just as Oliver was about to switch to her other foot, Felicity released a deep, satisfied, extremely erotic moan. “It wasn’t until you actually touched me that I realized that, while I ache, it’s not my feet where I want your attention, Oliver.”

The admission was blatantly sexy, but, somehow, Felicity made it seem sweet as well… probably because it surprised her more than him, and, if he had been half aroused since he first saw her earlier, he was now painfully hard. As he dropped her foot, Felicity simultaneously opened her legs so that he could step between them. Starting at her ankles, he slid his fingers up, up, and up. Fast. Though Oliver would have liked to take his time, he had no idea how long they would have together. Granted, it was just the two of them at the moment, but somebody could come outside at any second, looking for either of them. While this wasn’t exactly conventional dating or the right way to start a lasting relationship, he had wanted Felicity for months, and maybe unconventional could be their thing. After all, his past was certainly atypical, and Felicity was the most singular, extraordinary - in a good way, in the best way - woman he had ever met.

In a matter of seconds, Oliver had his hands wrapped around Felicity’s hips, and he was pulling her towards and then off the edge of the loading dock, its height too high for what, without a conversation or discussion, he knew they were about to do. As he brought her towards him, he also pushed the skirt of her dress up to rest around her waist, and Felicity, seemingly reading his mind, wrapped her legs and arms around him, holding on tight. Oliver made quick work of unbuckling, unbuttoning, and then unzipping his fly, while Felicity made quick work of locating his wallet from his pocket, searching through it for a condom, and then exclaiming in triumph when she found what she was looking for, what they both so desperately needed her to find. And their team work only continued, because, as Oliver pushed her lace panties out of his way, Felicity sheathed him with the protection.

And then he was blissfully, deeply, fully seated inside of her.

It wasn’t until Oliver was already pulling out of her tight, scorching body and thrusting searchingly back in again that he kissed her. With Felicity already panting, Oliver was able to deepen the kiss immediately. It was wet, and sloppy, and kind of clumsy, but it was glorious. He was lost in the blur of desire and satisfaction surrounding them until Felicity ripped her mouth away from his and cried out, a note of pain mixing with her pleasure and making him realize that, in their haste and their haze, he had backed them up to the point where Felicity was leaning against the concrete of the loading dock, what was bare and exposed of her fair and lovely skin scraping against the hard and porous surface with every thrust of his hips up and into hers.

He didn’t stop, however; he couldn’t… unless she asked him to, which she didn’t. Instead, Oliver lifted his hands from where they were holding her hips and wrapped his arms around her back, not caring if, by the time they were both finished and a satisfied, sweaty mess, his arms could very well be bloody and raw. He didn’t feel a single abrasion either, because the slight shift changed their angle, and, now, every single time their hips met, Felicity would gasp just a little bit louder. Each beautiful, sensual sound she made drove him that much closer to his orgasm, so, luckily, he could tell - he could feel, and hear, and see - that Felicity was even closer.

Suddenly, her gasps turned into words. Lifting his gaze from where it had been staring possessively at the very spot where their bodies were intimately joining, Oliver was at first confused. “Yes. … Fine. … Just. … Steps. … And. … Walking. … And. … Wow. … Exercise.” While just seconds before both of her hands had been on him - one pulling on the short locks of hair at the nape of his neck and the other using her nails to bite into the skin of his right shoulder through his white, dress shirt, now, only her left arm was wrapped around his neck, while the right was touching her ear. Touching her earpiece. “Yeah, I… know, Digg. You have… no idea… how much… I… needed… this workout. I mean,… a workout.”

Despite the words, Felicity’s body was still very much in the moment. However, Oliver froze. Even when she tried to use her legs’ grip around him to encourage him to return to their previous movements, he couldn’t. Because he finally registered that her earpiece wasn’t a bluetooth device but, instead, a comm unit, and, during the entire time they were having sex, she must have been connected to….

“John Diggle,” Oliver realized, pulling entirely out of her. Though Felicity grumbled at his withdraw, he knew that the sudden disconnection didn’t hurt her. He made sure to carefully put her back onto his jacket which was still spread out on the loading dock. Loose and still obviously aroused, Felicity watched him in bewilderment as he briskly pushed himself back into his pants, condom still on and their combined juices making both his slacks and his hands a mess. Although Oliver would find a bathroom and clean up as much as he could as soon as he could, he was going to be uncomfortable for the rest of the night… not to mention on edge and unsatisfied.

Eventually, Felicity confirmed his suspicions. “Yeah. I was talking to John Diggle. We’re friends, though, so I call him Digg.”

“So, that’s why you’re always at these events?”

“Well, yeah, I guess I come to support him, but I’m also here because I’m kind of his campaign manager, Oliver.”

Spinning away from her and beginning to pace away, in his agitation, Oliver almost ran his hands through his hair until he, thankfully, remembered that he couldn’t. “You have to be kidding me!”

“Oliver.” When he didn’t turn back around to face her, Felicity demanded, “Oliver, look at me.” And he did. He wasn’t sure why, but he listened to her. No, scratch that; he did know why. He listened to her, because he was hoping she could somehow make this better. He needed her to make this better. “Why did you think I was here?”

“I thought you were a reporter.” He gestured to what he now knew was a comm device that always kept her contact with her candidate, the candidate who was his mother’s very electable opponent. “That you were always talking to your producer or your editor on that thing. I never imagined…. But you knew who I was,” he accused her.

“I did, and it didn’t matter to me, Oliver. After the night of the first debate, you weren’t Moira Queen’s son to me any longer; you were a sweet, really hot guy who I liked. A lot. And, after I told you my name, I figured you felt the same way. Well, not that I was a hot guy, but that you liked me for me and despite us being on opposite sides of this election.”

“I… I didn’t know.”

“Yeah, that’s now glaringly obvious,” Felicity quipped. “I’m not sure if I should be insulted that your mom and her campaign staff think so little of me that they didn’t even see the need to tell you who Digg’s campaign manager was or if I should use the fact that they underestimated me to my advantage.”

Unable to just hold his hands out in front of him any longer… like an idiot, Oliver shoved them into his pockets and then shrugged. “Maybe both,” he suggested. She smiled at his response, nodded in acknowledgment, and then slipped her shoes back on. Without prompting, Oliver went up to her. Wrapping his hands (they were at least dry now, and most of the fluids had been wiped off on his own pants) around her tiny waist, he lifted her off the dock and planted her back on her feet directly in front of him. “So, what now,” he asked her. And, then, recalling exactly where they were, who he was with, what they were doing there, and who he was about to have to go inside and face, Oliver groaned. Unfortunately, it was nothing like the sounds Felicity had previously made. “What am I going to tell my mom?”

“Tell her the truth,” Felicity resolutely stated, patting his chest once in reassuring tandem with her advice. “Tell her that you just had coitus interruptus with her opponent, the next mayor of Starling City’s, campaign manager and that, next time, you plan to see it through and better not leave a girl hanging.”

Any and all apprehension Oliver had previously been feeling disappeared when he realized that Felicity wanted more from him than just a quick fuck in a back alley to relieve some pressure. Sure, he had known that he wanted more, and he didn’t think she was that type of woman, but they had made no plans with, no promises to, each other. They were still standing toe-to-toe when he smiled down upon her, asking, “next time?”

“Well, yeah,” Felicity responded, chewing on the corner of her bottom lip. “At least, I’m hoping there’ll be a next time… after this seemingly endless campaign is over. I can’t tell you how nice it’ll be to go back to just one full time job.” At what must have been his confused look, she explained, “I’m not a professional politician, Oliver. I actually work for your family, in QC’s IT department. I volunteered to run John’s campaign, because I believe in him, he’s my friend, I knew he couldn’t afford to pay someone, and no one would work harder to get him elected than I would. Starling City needs John Diggle.”

Sadly, considering he was at the debate to support his own mother, John Diggle’s opponent, he believed Felicity might be right about who the city needed at its helm. But that was not what Oliver wanted to focus on, because his interest in Felicity was not dictated by who would eventually win the election. “So, until next time, then?”

“Yeah… next time. With a bed… and a ceiling over top of it. And dinner would be nice as well. Maybe a date. That is, I mean, if you would… want that, too?”

“Felicity, honestly, I’m not sure if I have ever wanted anything more.”

“You know, if anyone in your family should be running for office, it’s you,” Felicity shocked Oliver - both with what she said and with the rapid change of subject. That was another thing he liked about her: how Oliver always had to be vigilant around Felicity Smoak, how she kept him on his toes.

However, that didn’t mean that he necessarily agreed with her. “I highly doubt that, Felicity.”

“No, I’m being serious,” she proclaimed. And the sincerity in her voice kept him from rolling his eyes or pulling away from her. “Think about it, Oliver. You are the ultimate redemption story.”

“I didn’t do anything special, though - nothing that anybody else in my situation wouldn’t have done as well. I just… survived.”

“You did more than that, Oliver. You took a horrible situation and made the most of it. When you came back, no one would have blamed you for being angry, or bitter, or jaded, or intent upon making up for lost time, but, instead, you renovated your family’s old steel factory to create a youth center and homeless shelter in your father’s name.” Pausing long enough to make sure that he was meeting her gaze, Felicity then shocked him even further when she said, “while I might not be a professional politician, I can read opposition polling, and you, Oliver, are the reason why your mother has gotten as far in this campaign as she has.”

“I… I don’t know what to say except… thank you.”

“There’s no need. I didn’t do anything besides read the research that you wrote. Well, not literally,” Felicity conceded, rolling her eyes slightly at her own expense. “My programs compiled the research that others wrote about all of the things that you have done. But you did them, Oliver. Not the press, not your mother, not my programs, and certainly not me.” Then, throwing him for another loop, she confessed, “you know, we still haven’t selected a deputy mayor yet.”

At first, Oliver wasn’t sure why she was telling him this, but then he realized that it must be something that was worrying her, weighing on her, and he was both grateful and gratified that Felicity felt like she could confide in him. Maybe they hadn’t gone on their first date yet, but they already felt like a couple. Leaning forward, he dropped a gentle kiss against her forehead. Once he had pulled away again, Oliver attempted to sooth her concerns. “You’ll figure it out. I have complete faith that you’ll pick the best possible candidate, Felicity.”

Neither of them mentioned that, by admitting his faith in her, Oliver was also admitting that he believed John Diggle would win the election. Felicity beamed up at him. “You know, I think you just might be right.”

“Come on,” Oliver nodded towards the stairs off to the side of the loading dock that they’d need to take to get back inside. “The debate’s going to be starting soon.”

Felicity didn’t protest, so Oliver stepped away first. He could hear her following him as her heels clicked against the alley’s pavement. However, just before he could place his foot on the first step, he felt her much smaller hand slip into his and tug him back. “Oliver, wait,” she beseeched of him, and of course he did just that. Turning around, he was surprised to find deep lines of apprehension and uneasiness on her brow, wrinkling the bridge of her nose, and pulling down the sides of her mouth. Once they were facing each other, she locked together both sets of their hands, weaving her slender fingers through his much larger digits. “I need you to do something for me.”

“What? What is it?” Attempting to reassure her, he promised, “anything.”

“After the debate tonight, I need you to go to your mother and tell her that, if she’s keeping anything from you and your sister, then she needs to confide in you. Now. Before it’s too late.”

“Felicity, you’re starting to scare me here. Just tell me what’s going on.”

“I can’t. Or, at least, I shouldn’t. What I know, Oliver, it should come from your mom, not me and certainly not some opposition research that the other side, my side, leaks to the press a week before the election.” Taking a deep breath, she pushed onward. “But if she refuses to tell you, or you feel like she either lied to you again or held something back, come to me, and then I’ll tell you. You and Thea both deserve the truth, Oliver, and I care too much about you to allow you to find out your mother’s secrets from some shark of a reporter… even if it is technically unethical of me as Digg’s campaign manager. What’s more, I’d feel like an even worse human being and definitely a horrible maybe-girlfriend.”

“Wow.” Oliver had no idea what to say. “So, this is really bad, isn’t it?”

“I mean, it’s not great,” Felicity remarked, wincing. “But, if it’s any consolation, I know already, and it doesn’t change the way I feel about you.” With a quick shake of her head, she edited, “I mean, what I think of you.”

He decided, at least for the moment, to savor the progress he and Felicity had made that night and not focus on whatever bombshells his mother was hiding from him and Thea. Instead, he’d worry about his mom’s secrets tomorrow. After all, she was going on stage for a televised, political debate in less than ten minutes. There was nothing he could do about Felicity’s cryptic warnings now anyway. “As my definitely not horrible definite-girlfriend, I think you can say feel, Felicity.”

To support his statement with action, Oliver leaned in to kiss her one last time before they had to go inside. However, just before their lips touched, he could hear her comm unit come to life. While he still liked Felicity’s ears, he suddenly really hated that piece of tech. “Not now, Digg,” Felicity mumbled to the man on the other line, grinning up at Oliver as she looped her free arm around his neck. “I’m busy kissing your deputy mayor.”

Felicity was giggling when her lips touched his slack and stunned mouth. It took Oliver what he felt to be an earned and justified moment to adjust to her revelation, but he quickly pushed his shock aside, because, while perhaps he didn’t know how he felt about serving as John Diggle’s second-in-command, he did know exactly how he felt about kissing John Diggle’s campaign manager. He liked it. A lot.

He liked kissing her mouth, of course, but he also liked kissing her fingers, and her nose, and her bare shoulders. And, when Felicity tried to walk away and head back inside, Oliver found out that he liked to kiss the back of her neck where her bouncing ponytail could tickle against his face. As for her ears, well… he liked to take their lobes, their top ridges, and even her industrial piercing into his mouth and bite down… almost as much as Felicity seemed to like it.

Needless to say, they were late for that third and final debate… at Felicity’s insistence. And perhaps that’s what he liked about her most of all: that, in liking her, he had the ability to make her happy.



A/N: So, I know what you’re thinking when you see this one shot. You’re thinking that I should’ve been working on Bake for a Date with Oliver Queen. And you’d be right. But, on my way to work yesterday, this idea popped into my mind, and it wouldn’t leave me alone. It was good timing, though, because a friend of mine gave birth yesterday, and she declared that, in return, I needed to provide her with something new to read. Well, consider my small role played. As for Bake for a Date with Oliver Queen, I make no promises, but this is a long weekend, and my plan is to work on that story as well. Finally, you’ll notice that this one shot is entitled as a flash fic. While the prompt was indeed a flash fic prompt, this was definitely not written in an hour. I can write fast, but not thirteen pages in an hour fast. Several hours worth of writing time elapsed after my alarm sounded, but I don’t think anyone will complain about a story being longer than it should’ve been. At least, I hope not. Anyway, that’s it. Rambling over. Now, I hope you read and, hopefully, enjoy!

~Charlynn~

Fic: Fuck the Princess

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for @evergrove

Summary: Emma’s not the pretty princess she thinks her parents want. Regina likes her that way.

Preview: 

Finally, Emma’s voice came, sounding a bit rusty. “My parents have a literal fairytale marriage. Twice, now. And here I am this giant fuckup who had a kid out of wedlock and went to jail and now I’m like not- married to somebody with a rap sheet a mile long who’s the second best thing that ever happened to me.”

“After Henry,” Regina agreed with a little chuckle. “But Emma, you’re not a fuckup. There’s nothing wrong with you having a different life than your parents. You don’t need to feel bad about any of that.”

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“I’m a party man who has multiple girlfriends but who cares I love booze and women.”

“So I saw my wife with another woman and man I can’t believe she’s bi, what am I gonna tell the kids.” With the sequel, “I, a drag queen, dressed up as your wife’s best friend to have sex in the car.”

“I took my best friend’s wife and now I’m scared my best friend will beat me.”

“Men and women should be together, not two men.” (Believe me if I could find that shitty song on YouTube and not a goddamn CD I would be dragging it RN as we speak.)

“No one has to know if you dance with me and do more since we both have people waiting at home.” (There are multiple songs so I can’t stick to one???)

Most if not every single Ravi B. Song

Majority of songs are about cheating and that’s totally *valid* even if in the end you get caught it’s the other person’s fault.

I stress this on the guy singers than the girls because the girls have some decency??? Also because Zola’s Wine on Me is a fucking bop and you can’t tell me otherwise.

There are other stuff but tbh, I’m tired listening to these old “songs” so I leave you with this.

um...

watching the view (which i never do) and tey have prince’s former grilfriend on and singing her “new song” which is literally her singing the pledge of alliegance…and with recording of other activist like……….WHAT? that’s your original song? cause that doesn’t sound so orginal to me…

i was literally watching something on my laptop and was like “wait am i hearing the national anthem right now” like im still not sure of what i just witnessed…

@rainbowmusictime @rebeccakofficial @paulstanley-fan4life @starchildluver @stardust-daydream @headlight-queen

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ONE JIMIN FIC, COMING RIGHT UP

FROZEN DELETED SONG - COOL WITH ME

So this next song is my absolute favorite and it has nothing to do with the fact that Elsa raps in it. It’s presumably called ‘Cool with Me’ and of course plays on Kristen’s love of puns and double-meanings since this is the song that takes place where the For the First Time reprise is, when Anna confronts Elsa in the castle. But in this version of the film, Elsa is the villainess Snow Queen and Anna is at the palace because Elsa has kidnapped her during her wedding ('Life’s too Short’ which is on the deluxe soundtrack was also another song meant for this scene). Anna gets a bolt of ice in the heart, but in this version, Elsa does it on purpose. Anyway, this song is absolutely amazing and would play out beautifully on the stage so story issues aside, I would so love to see it be reworked and added to the Broadway musical. It just has to be heard to be believed. And oh, did I mention Elsa raps in it?

(Elsa opens the palace door to greet Anna)
E: So what’s new? How are you?
A: Well I’m mad you decided to kidnap –
E: Yeah, sorry 'bout that.
E: How is town? A: Okay.
E: How’s my crown? A: Hey!
A: Is that what this is all about?
E: Let’s have a chat!

E: I wanna make peace between you and me A: Oh yeah?
A: You got a funny way of showin’ it!
A: I invite you to my wedding E: And I came, are you forgetting?
A: Then you trash the church and freeze the guests and ruin it!

E: You’re not here so we can have a fight
E: Air our dirty laundry and spit out our spite
E: Oh no, forget the tension, there’s no need for descension you see –
E: I wanna make you cool with me

(Elsa brings Anna into the palace, Anna is in awe of Elsa’s growing power)

E: Yes, I know, have some snow
A: No, thanks, I should be getting back –
E: I think you should stay (slams door shut) A: (spoken) Elsa?!
E: Elsa’s dead, now instead, you’ll address me as the Snow Queen A: (spoken) Nah, no way!
E: I got a gift, I’m a superstar A: (spoken) And your point is?
E: That people should revere me!
A: Yes, you’re really quite the showman with these mean and mutant snowmen –
E: Hey, if no one wants to love me, they can FEAR me!

E: You’re not here so you can be afraid
E: I want you to begin with all the friends I’ve made
E: Okay, you’re gonna love’m, you’ll become one of 'em, you’ll see
E: You’re gonna be cool with me

E: Svensen is cool with me, Jensen is cool with me. Jorgen and Fjorgen and Bjoergen is cool with me. Gunthar and Gunnar think I’m okay. Diedrich and Friedrich and Jose. And Olaf’s my first one, he’s kind of my worst one (O: I have a perfect physique!) I find jobs that’ll suit him and always include him and NOBODY calls him a freak.

E: We’ve been falling out for way too long
E: So let’s forget I’m right and forget you’re wrong
E: Okay! Let’s try forgivin’, maybe we could live in – harmony
E: We could really have a ton of fun
E: If you could just chill out! and say what’s done is done
E: Okay! Let’s not be bitter and that’s why I am liter-ally
E: Gonna make you cool with me!

(Elsa intentionally shoots a bolt of ice into Anna’s heart so she can feel what Elsa feels. Olaf takes Anna into her chamber)

E: Poor pathetic little perfect queen
E: Didn’t think your sis could be ever this mean
E: Now you’re on your own and you’re gonna feel alone as can be

E: Cool with me, cool with me

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Day 8- Coming out


It was getting late and Emma had a pretty strong feeling she should have went home hours ago. Somewhere around the first glass of cider, just after Henry came into Regina’s study to say goodnight to both of them. But Regina didn’t ask her to leave, she never even suggested that it was late and her couch was so comfortable and the combination of the delicious dinner and the cider made Emma all mellow and heavy and it was just easier to accept the offer of a second and then a third glass.

By the time they were finishing their third glasses, Emma was curled around a cushion, her knees brought up to her chest and Regina was opposite her on the couch, her bare feet tucked under her as she sat with an elbow propped on the back of the couch. The brunette’s hair was a bit tousled from her hand that ran through it from time to time and Emma’s eyes couldn’t help but follow them every time, feeling envious of those fingers. Not that she would say that out loud anytime soon because they didn’t talk about anything like that. They were friends and friends weren’t supposed to want to run their fingers through the other’s hair and maybe just maybe gently fist a handful as they pressed their lips against the other one’s plump, red, inviting ones… Woah, get a grip, Emma!, she scolded herself.

The fight against the Evil Queen and then defeating Hyde made it impossible for Regina to really concentrate on losing Robin Hood but now that life slowed down a bit, she had time to deal with everything and Emma was incredibly happy to say that after months of grief and sleepless nights and crying, her best friend was finally feeling better. Much better, if her current rant about being unable to find a date because of the Queen was any indication.

“I mean, seriously Emma. Nobody would even consider going out with me. And it’s because of her.” Regina huffed in annoyance.

“That’s silly Regina. Everyone knows that’s your past. You are not her. I mean literally, you’re not her.” Emma argued, her words just the slightest bit slurred from the alcohol.

“People won’t realize that. They see me, they remember her. How am I supposed to find a partner now?”

“Robin knew about your past…”

“Yes but he was my soulmate. That’s different. I knew he would accept me, I knew because of the…”

“Yeah I know, I know..the pixie dust thing.” Emma cut her off, for some reason feeling uneasy with the whole soulmate subject. With the whole Robin subject. She didn’t like him, it was ugly and rude to say, especially after the man died, she knew, but her mind was a bit blurry from Regina’s cider and it wasn’t like anyone could hear her thoughts, she was free to think whatever she wanted.

“So here I am, stuck in a town where nobody would dare or would want to go out with me. I’ll totally die alone…” Regina pouted a bit and Emma grinned at how adorable the other woman looked.

“Look, the Evil Queen wanted to murder my parents, almost succeeded the last time too, so nobody has more reason to hate or fear her than me. But I’d totally go out with you if I didn’t know for sure you were straight.” Emma assured the brunette vehemently, only realizing what she said once it was already out of her mouth.

Regina’s surprised brown eyes snapped to her face and Emma felt a blush creep up her neck as her mouth opened and closed, not finding a decent explanation for what she just admitted.

“I…eh…I mean…” she stuttered awkwardly.

She and Regina never talked about their sexuality before. It wasn’t like she wanted to keep being a bisexual a secret, she wasn’t ashamed or anything, it just never came up. While she was with Hook it was never mentioned and if she was honest, ever since she came to town, she only had eyes for one woman. And that certain brunette was sitting across from her on that very couch, blinking at her  with utter shock and something like… was that amusement in her eyes?

And Regina, well, Emma knew about Daniel, Graham and recently, Robin. Regina never showed any interest in a woman or talked about any other lovers from the Enchanted Forest so Emma just assumed…

However, judging by the way Regina’s brown eyes glinted with something predatory in them as she suddenly eyed Emma, maybe she assumed wrong?

“And might I ask, Em-ma, what made you so sure I was straight?” Regina basically purred, putting her glass on the coffee table as she crawled over to the blonde on the couch.

“Well from your surprised look, I’d say until now, you thought I was straight too.” Emma shot back, heat curling deep in her stomach as she let go of the pillow, leaning forward to get closer to Regina.

“You were with Hook.” Regina hissed his name, not even bothering to hide her disapproval.

“And you were with Robin.” Emma muttered, their faces now only a few inches apart.

“Apparently you haven’t heard enough stories of the Evil Queen darling.” Regina growled. “I might be a different woman now, but we do still share some… qualities.” she smirked before letting her eyes trail down to Emma’s lips, licking her own and making the blonde’s breath hitch.

“Like?” she squeaked.

“Like taking delight in devouring beautiful blonde women.” Regina whispered then she didn’t wait any longer to close the distance between their mouths, sealing her lips against Emma’s in a wild, sensual kiss.

Emma didn’t hesitate to return it with the same eagerness, both of them moaning when her hand found the back of Regina’s head and slipped between the silky strands, her other hand settling low on the brunette’s back, pulling her impossibly close to herself.

“Oh… Women?” Emma panted against Regina’s lips with a grin when they broke apart for air for a moment, an eyebrow raised challengingly.

“See dear, that’s where she and I are different.” Regina breathed with a heaving chest as she gazed into Emma’s eyes with a mix of smoldering passion and utter adoration. “I only want one.”


And that’s the last one…. It’s been a blast everyone! Thank you so much for reading and all the likes and reblogs! They made me very happy! You guys are the best! Swen ROCK!!!

Alright.

Let’s recap a bit.

- Sara died but doesn’t really get justice as her KILLER assumes the mantle of Ra’s Al Ghul.
- Nyssa is cheated out of her birthright AGAIN by another White dude. Go figure.

- Sara’s death was entirely pointless and Laurel didn’t even get to really grow from it. Her character arc was still butt af.

- Felicity quit her job as VP for a dude. JFC.

- Felicity was able to fly Ray’s suit after Ray struggled the ENTIRE season trying to fly it himself.

- Felicity and Oliver literally. drove. into. the. sunset. What the ever loving fuck.

Look y’all.

I don’t care if Jesus himself comes back and personally asks me to watch the next season of Arrow. I am going on the record as saying that I will never lift a finger, key, anything to watch Arrow ever again.

The DISRESPECT that all of these characters (especially the female ones and INCLUDING Felicity and Oliver, but that is another conversation I need to have entirely) were shown is over 9000. I literally don’t know what to say right now. All I know is that I am so pissed.

How do you tank the whole of your show to pander to a SHIP? A SHIP! DID WE NOT LEARN FROM SMALLVILLE. BECAUSE I DID.

To all the people who I recommended Arrow to and thus had to sit through this butt ass, garbage ass, disrespectful ass season, I am truly, truly sorry.

I regret everything, smh.

Royally Yours: Part Three

Bucky Barnes x reader

Summary: You’re unwillingly engaged to the Crown Prince of another kingdom, whom you had known as a child but then lost contact with. Time, deceit, and politics brings you two back together, but it’s a dramatic stretch to the ascension of the throne.

Characters: Bucky Barnes, Grant Ward, Steve Rogers, Natasha Romanoff, Pepper Pots, Peggy Carter, Bruce Banner, Lincoln Campbell, Betty Ross (more to be added)

Word Count: 2.6k

A/N: Grant…wyd babe (;

PART TWO  PART FOUR

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Originally posted by stanxstan

   “Your Majesty,” the maid says, taking a step back from you and allowing your dress to fall at your sides. “Your dress is gorgeous.”


You bring yourself to smile at her compliment, running your hands over the laced fabric of the red and gold dress. “Thank you.”


She bows to you, and exits your chambers, leaving you to the silence you’d woken to. Your mother had visited your room moments before you’d returned from the fort’s look out, leaving Prince James and his lover to their privacy, and you had managed to evade her when the guards had sent her on her way in your direction.


Grant had not visited you since he’d left you in the evening before, which was not usual of him to do, but you had refrained from asking Bruce or Lincoln if they had seen him. Even you had to respect his distance if he was making it.


“Your Grace,” Bruce says, stepping into your room. “Princess Rebecca.”


The young, long haired brunette girl walks into your room, thanking Bruce and approaching you. She smiles as she looks around the room.


“I remember playing hide and seek with my brother when we were young in here,” she begins to say, and motions to the sofa parallel to your bed. You give her permission, and she sits.


“What can I assist you with, Princess?” you ask her, folding your hands together as you sit across from her.


“Nothing, really,” Princess Rebecca replies, hands grasping each other in her own lap as well, “but I wish to know if you would join me to eat breakfast.”


Your stomach clenches at the invitation, and she seems to notice your displeasure because she adds, “I will be your only company, Your Majesty. Our parents have already eaten and my brother is hunting.”


“Hunting?” you ask.


“He’s an excellent marksman,” Rebecca tells you. “The best in the kingdom.”


“Really?” you respond, slightly interested in this discovery. You can recall the temper tantrums Prince James had once exhibited as a child for not being able to aim rocks correctly to hit the crows that had perched in your favorite climbing trees.  


“Yes,” Rebecca nods, starting to grin. “Bucky can shoot arrows and hit targets like no other.”
You smile to yourself. “Bucky?”


Rebecca blushes. “That’s what I call him, Steve too. James is too formal for us.”
You chuckle, and rise to your feet. “I would enjoy being your company for breakfast.”


“Wonderful,” Princess Rebecca grins, and takes you by the hand, pulling you out of your chamber doors, laughing.


You run to keep up with her, feeling a certain sense of childishness in your chest as her giggles and youthful gleam engulfs you in her wake, making you smile again, the only reason you have smiled truly this morning.


The princess brings a feeling of escape from the real world as she takes you away from the halls that lead you away from the throne room and instead deeper into the castle.


“Where are we going?” you ask when she slows to look around.


“The kitchens,” she replies, and then tugs you by the connection in your linked hands to the right. You come upon a servant, who yelps at the sight of you both.


“Your Highnesses,” the young woman gapes. “What are you doing down here? This is no place for royalty!”


“Relax Betty,” Rebecca shushes her. “We’re here to find Pepper.”


“Pepper?”


Rebecca winks at you, and pulls you past Betty, nearly tripping you on the stone floor as you struggle to keep up with her.


“Why are we going to the kitchens?” you question, and Rebecca doesn’t respond until she’s stopped in front of an open doorway, the kitchen staff working beyond the small threshold.


“Pepper always makes pastries in the morning,” Rebecca explains, “and she always saves a few for me in case I miss breakfast, like today. So, I decided I would share my special secret with you in turn for your friendship.”


Your words have been stolen from you as Rebecca guides you through the workplace smiling at every person you pass together, until she’s finally stopping near the back of the giant room, the grassy yard beyond the back entrance to the kitchens.


“’ello Pepper,” she says to an older woman, and the blonde haired lady whirls around, flour all over her frock and a shrewd expression on her face.


“Rebecca, what have I told you about coming down here?” the woman questions, and you raise an eyebrow at the way she speaks to the princess.


“Not to,” Rebecca shrugs, “but I missed breakfast today and so did (Y/N), so it’s an exception.”


Pepper glances at you, her pursed lips and analytical gaze unwavering. “Your Majesty.”


You nod to her, and she turns around, handing Rebecca a small carrier covered in a white napkin that looked more like it belonged on the table of the king rather than covering the contents of a wicker basket.


“Now get out of here, you little pest,” Pepper says, waving Rebecca along and you try not to chuckle at the woman’s negligence to address the princess with her title.


“She is something,” you say to Rebecca once you’ve both exited the kitchen from the back entrance.


“She’s glorious,” Rebecca responds, smiling as she sits in the grass under a willow tree. You sit beside her as she removes the napkin from the basket, and offers you a pasty. You take it gratefully, not realizing how hungry you were until Rebecca had revealed the treats, and nibble at it.


“I think they’re blueberry,” Rebecca comments, chewing a large bite of the pastry.



You chuckle, and bite your own, savoring the food as the flakes melt in your mouth.


“So is it true?” Rebecca asks after a moment.


“What?”


You glance over at her, seeing her delicate expression as she fiddles with the sugar stripes on the top of her pastry.


“That you’re married to my brother.”


You let out a long breath, and set the rest of your breakfast on the napkin Rebecca had thrown aside. “Yes, I suppose it is.”


“But Bucky doesn’t love you,” Rebecca responds.


“And I don’t love him,” you reply.


“Then why did you marry?” Rebecca questions, becoming defensive.


“Our parents forced us to,” you tell her, not seeing a reason to lie to her. “My mother had sent word to James about me requesting his hand in marriage, which I did not authorize.”


“Why would she do that?” Rebecca asks, brow creasing.


You let out a puff of breath before bitterly saying, “The former queen believes that in order for me to rule Sokovia powerfully, I must have a man at my side, and she chose Prince James for me, not listening to me or respecting my choices.”


“But, you are the Queen, and she is not,” Rebecca says slowly. “Why can she still have that kind of control over you?”


“My mother forged my signature on a marriage document that our parents brought before a priest earlier yesterday evening,” you inform her. “The king, I assume, did the same for James’ own name.”


“They literally signed away your freedom of choice,” Rebecca murmurs, looking at you with a deadening amount of pity. “I am so sorry.”


“It’s already happened,” you breathe. “There’s nothing we can do now, except keep living.”


“Our parents are already planning a wedding,” Rebecca reveals. “I overheard them this morning speaking on their way to the dining hall. They plan to have you and Bucky publicly wed in three weeks’ time.”


“Fantastic,” you mutter, picking at the grass near your feet.


“How are you not more displeased?” Rebecca asks you. “Don’t you love anyone enough to fight for?”


You chuckle. “Rebecca, I was taught from a young age that I would marry someone I may or may not love, but time would change how I feel for that man.”


The princess stares at you. “And you believe you could ever love Bucky?”


“I do not know.”



When you find Grant, he hugs you closely, mumbling apologies for his temper into your hair and holding you so tightly you fear he’s afraid you will be ripped out of his grasp.


“Grant,” you say, pulling away from his closeness and creating space between your bodies. “Your behavior was not out of line.”


“It was,” he shakes his head. “I should never have acted like that in front of you.”


“You speak as if I have never seen you angry,” you chuckle, holding the sides of his face. “I know what is happening irritates you, but what is, is. This is out of our control now and we can all only follow along with it.”


“You will be unhappy,” Grant argues, not backing down. “You don’t love James nor this kingdom. To be happily wed, you must know the person you are marrying and be in love with more than just their beauty.”


“I have faith James and I will reconnect and be able to join our kingdoms willingly,” you respond, hardly a truth as you become wary of Grant’s rage yet again. “In our minds, at least.”


Grant scowls, and backs away from you. “I am not speaking to you as your advisor, (Y/N). I’m speaking as your best friend that loves you. Dearly.”


You stop, your mother’s words resurfacing in your memory: And you believe Grant has those best interests in his head alongside you, as your advisor? He is blinded-


Grant waits for you to speak, but when you don’t, eyes only remaining on his face, his shoulders lower.


“You being married to another man behind all of our backs pains me,” he admits quietly. “I have loved you for so long, (Y/N), and I have waited for you to tell me that you love me in return, but if least of all I can’t have you, then I want you to be with someone you do love, even if that isn’t me.”


Your lips part and you inhale sharply. “Grant-”


“Don’t say anything,” he cuts you off, grasping your shoulders and squeezing them. “Please, I beg of you (Y/N), do not say anything.”


You still try to speak, but you can’t find the words to use.


“Let me escort you to the dinner,” he says, taking your arm. “Let me escort you at least once while you know I love you before everything changes.”


Your body is not in your control as he guides you through the too long halls and turns, back into the dining hall. You do not meet his eyes when you feel his gaze on your face, and you release him as soon as you are close enough to your seat across the grand table from Prince James.


Grant dismisses himself as you stare in utter shock at the silverware before you, still not able to be certain that the conversation you’d just had was actual. Your mother is in the seat beside you, and the king and queen on opposite ends of the table, their children sitting where you and your mother are not. There is food in front of you, but your plate remains empty as the royals around you begin to eat.


“(Y/N),” your mother says, and you look at her for the first time since you’d left the conference chambers. “Are you feeling ill?”


You swallow, and realize you do feel unwell, but instead of answering her, you stand. Your chair makes a loud grating noise on the stone floor, and you manage to find your voice as you say, “Excuse me, your Majesties.”


You informally dismiss yourself from the hall, rushing down the corridors and towards the fort.


You stumble as you reach the courtyard, grabbing the wall of the castle before you push yourself out the exit doors, running to the fort like wolves were on your heels as you climbed the stairs to the watch tower, holding your skirts as your chest tightened with oncoming tears.


A sob rips through your lips as you burst out onto the top of the fort, the ocean’s spray dampening your face to hide the tears that begun to spill from your eyes.


“O-Oh my-y God,” you tremble, body shaking. Grant loves you, he loves you and it terrifies you more than anything. Only last night you’d admitted to yourself Grant was the only man you would ever willingly take as your king, as your husband, but now, knowing the truth of his feelings, this realization was thrust into your face, forcing you to think of your own feelings.

Just this morning, Rebecca asked you if you loved anyone, and you had told her no, but now, with your thoughts so disarrayed and your heart pounding with something other than fear, you couldn’t be sure.


“(Y/N)!” You hear your name called over the wind from the sea, and look back with blurry vision at the approaching figure of the Crown Prince.


“James,” you breathe, and pick up your skirts to get away from him, but he catches your arm, having run the rest of the distance between you two.


“Are you mad, coming out here while it’s storming?”


You didn’t realize rain had begun to fall, thinking it was the spray of the ocean, and you curse yourself for being so stupid.


“He loves me,” you blurt, and James stops, looking at you.


“Who loves you?” he questions.


“Grant loves me,” you tell him, and he gives you an estranged look.


“Who the hell is Grant?”


“My advisor,” you tell him, pulling your arm away and running your hands through your hair. “My closest friend.”


“You didn’t know?” James asks over the wind, head tilted. “I thought it was pretty obvious.”


“Obvious?” you repeat, eyes wide. “I didn’t know!”


“You always were pretty naïve,” James mutters, his voice carried to you by the wind, and you glare at him.


“This is not a joking matter!” you shout.


“You’re married to me, (Y/N),” James replies loudly, “There is nothing that can happen between you two anyways.”


You take a step back from him. “Really? Nothing can happen between Grant and I, but you can have a red haired lover?”


James’ face goes hostile, and he straightens his back. “She is not my lover.”


“I don’t care who she is, James!” you cry over the gusts.


“Then why did you bring her up?” James demands, confronting you. “Why did you tell me about Grant? I don’t care about him the way you don’t care for Natasha.”


You grab James’ arms, finding it hard to stand on your own. “We are married, whether we like it or not, and whether it be our choice or not. We do not love each other, and we do not know each other the way we used to, but we are trapped together now.”


“I know,” James snaps, holding one of your elbows as the winds become stronger. “We cannot annul our marriage, but that does not mean we have to consummate it.”


You stare at him, rain beating down on you both, until you look away.


“What do I do about Grant?” you ask him, finally.


“Why are you confiding in me about this?” he questions, and you laugh bitterly.


“Because are my husband, and we are meant to share our thoughts with each other,” you respond, “and you were also once my dearest friend, and I wish to reanimate that friendship, if I must remain at your side for the rest of my life.”


“Do you love him?” James asks, accepting your response.


“I don’t know,” you respond, gripping the Crown Prince’s arms.


“If you don’t love him, then tell him, but if you do, tell him you don’t,” James advises you. “Loving someone outside of our marriage is dangerous.”


“Is it a risk you are willing to take?” you ask him in return.


“I love Natasha,” he responds seriously, “with everything I am.”


“Is that why you met with her last night?” you question him, and he stares at you for the longest time before nodding his head.


“I wanted to elope with her,” James admits. “Before I got your mother’s message.”


“I’m sorry,” you say to him, holding onto his shirt. “James, I am so sorry.”


He shakes his head, and pulls you towards him as the wind pushes you closer to the edge of the fort, and shields you from the intensity around him. As he leads you back in the direction of the stairs down from the watchtower you hear him say,


“It’s not your fault.”


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Seriously people wonder why I love Jan: Look at how freaking competent she’s being. Simon’s all “oh no he hurt Wanda!” and Vision is like “I come from your same brain patterns so I too am going to be dumb about this” and Hank’s being all “I’m literally going insane right now look at my wonky text bubble” and Jan is like “you idiots the villain is MONOLOGUING let’s get him to keep this up GEEZE do I have to do everything by my perfectly manicured and fabulously outfitted self??”

I want to know what is going through your mind right now. Like I can’t even try to make up excuses for you because I can’t come up with any, and that is shocking because I am the queen of making up stories. I am trying so hard to give you the benefit of the doubt but it’s ridiculously difficult to do so when you are giving me nothing to work with.

It’s like I’m going crazy trying to think of scenarios. I am thinking the worse of the worse and it’s driving me insane. I am literally standing on the edge of a cliff right now, and not knowing will eventually push me off. All I can think about is, “What happened?” Do you even know yourself? Because I can’t come up with an answer. I always have an answer to everything.

My phone is on ‘do not disturb’ right now because my heart can’t take not seeing your name on it. When it was on vibrate, every time I heard it or felt it, my heart would either skip a beat or beat rapidly hoping it would be you (even when I know it’s not). And at this point, I have stopped hoping to hear from you. But every now and then I stare at my phone and I want to pick it up and call you. And you know what? I almost do.

Even my best friends questioned what happened and what changed. And I do not know what to tell them but all I can think of is how this is how it always is. Things change and I am the last one to find out. Don’t I deserve to know, too? I mean, you can’t make me fall for you and then change your mind without telling me. That’s not fair. I thought we weren’t going to play these kinds of games.

I told you once I stopped crying because it made me feel weak. I told you that in the past few years, I have learned not to get attached and develop emotions, and I have taught myself to not cry for people who do not deserve it (which is anyone who makes you cry because no one should do that). I told you that I couldn’t even cry sometimes even if I wanted to because I couldn’t bring myself to. But look at me now. I have developed the feelings I promised myself I wouldn’t have and I haven’t felt so out of place in so long, till now. I don’t remember the last time I cried in the shower. I don’t remember the last time I sobbed, unless it was during a movie or a novel. I cannot recall the last time I really let the tears free fall, but you did it. You did it, alright.

I applaud you for getting to me.
—  Ming D. Liu, Things I want to say to you right now (II)
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The conversation Marni (shinyarchie) and I had a little bit before, during, and after i spoke to catbountry, this is to illustrate what the affects of catbountrys behavior were on them and also to show more of what cat bountry said to Marni that Marni told me about. the pics are continued below and there are 41 of them. Again exercise caution there is reference to self harm, suicide, manipilation, misgendering, dehuminazation, dissociation and abuse

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anonymous asked:

You know what's laughable you honestly thinking SQ is endgame, boy are you in for a rude awakening by the season finale. Let's just say Regina and Emma finally succumb to their feelings for both their guys. Enjoy and call it the "penis" parade all you want. :)

Hello, tactful anon.  Pleased to make your acquaintance!  I’m not out to get into any ship wars of any kind.  I’m very much a “ship and let ship” kinda girl, so I contemplated whether or not to even respond to this.  Please keep in mind that anything I post is MY opinion (which I am entitled to, by the way) and just because it doesn’t match with your opinion doesn’t make it any less valid. 

Okay, now that that’s out of the way.  What makes you so sure that SQ *isn’t* endgame?  A&E once said that when they originally conceived of this show, the rough idea of it contained an Evil Queen, her curse, and the Savior who was the only one who could break it.  There was no mention of Hook or Robin Hood.  These characters were literally thrown into the show in Seasons 2 and 3 respectively, coincidentally as the Swan Queen fandom’s influence began to grow exponentially.  There are any number of reasons these male LI’s were introduced, which I will save you from hearing about because there are literally dozens and dozens of metas which already expound upon this at length, but I would ask you if the rapid push to make CS and OQ canon seems a bit like a distraction from the original jumping point of the series, which has always been about Regina, Emma, and their relationship to Henry and one another.  It certainly seems that way to me.

We have already seen numerous theories that RH is working with Zelena to get Regina’s heart for any number of reasons (to get his wife back, to protect Roland, etc.) and they are supported by actual events that have transpired on the show.  Jane Espenson has reiterated that Regina giving her heart to RH as prematurely as she did was out of character.  I’m sorry, but the way this forced “romance” is being thrust at the audience does not have me convinced that it will be anything less than a plot device to advance Zelena’s new curse.  It breaks my heart in the sense that Regina is being put through senseless torture AGAIN, but at the same time it is nice to see that she is finally letting her walls down to someone, because I think that will eventually allow for her bond with Emma to grow stronger and potentially one day allow her to love her in a romantic sense.

As for Hook, Emma’s mannerisms when he is around do not appear to me to be one of a woman who is interested in his advances.  I do think the writers are trying their damndest to make him into a more likeable character by showing the good that he is capable of, but Emma (and we, the viewers) have already seen that Hook’s self-centered ways are still very much alive and well: “If it can be broken, that means it still works”, anybody?  He’s delighted that Neal is out of the picture and has no qualms about letting Emma know he doesn’t care that she’s heart-broken.  Why would this appeal to Emma, who we have all seen evolve from a character who once only acted in self-preservation, but now acts to protect her son and her family first?  She is someone who has grown roots in Storybrooke because of Henry, and Hook?  Hook has all but been reduced to a root-less, whining, puppy-dog pirate. 

And then we come back to Swan Queen, the two women who A&E recently said were so alike in their tendency to build up walls against love?  The two women whose plot lines are mirroring one another’s even more with each and every passing episode?  As I said before, while I’m perfectly aware that CS and OQ are playing out before us right now, I do not believe either of these ships will be endgame for all the reasons I stated above.  And when the relationships end and both women are as confused and hurt as before, who do you think they will turn to?  They are flip sides of the same coin.  They both have had their lives’ destinies pre-determined by forces greater than themselves, which has left them without the option of choice in virtually every aspect of their lives, love interests included.  I believe that the real “true love” of both women is Henry, and that he will bring them closer as he always has in the past.  In choosing Henry, they are choosing each other.  Whether that means closer in the romantic sense, or closer in a platonic co-parenting sense, I don’t know yet.  But TPTB would be missing out on a fantastic opportunity to tell the most revolutionary fairytale re-telling of all time if they chose not to make the Savior be the one to tear down those walls Regina so carefully built up; the Savior, born of the very woman who unwittingly took away Regina’s true love, seems destined to be the one to give that love back to her.  We have seen Emma and Regina make magic together that literally transcended realms, and we know that Rumple said that true love is the ONLY love capable of accomplishing that feat.

So now I beg of you, dear anon - when’s the last time CS or OQ transcended realms, moved the heavens, or saved an entire city with their “love”, hmm?  Please do tell!  In the meantime, enjoy your penis parade…it ain’t gonna last long.  ;)

anonymous asked:

OMG you are truly the Queen of all dirkjake fanart. i am literately fangirling right now! you're such an amazing artist i love all of your art. i think i look at your blog like everyday or something, (hope im not being kind of a stalker here lol) but yeah you are so amazing tbh you are my fave artist on tumblr. not joking. have a good day ;3

sdkfj thank you very much!


Anon:OMG I saw your post of DirkJake pics and I wan’t paying attention,and the third one looked like Jake had a Bugs Bunny tail.  Know I know Jake is part bunny.

omfg hahah what’s up doc

Anon:omg i love the way you colored the first picture in that dirkjake photoset!

Anon:I really like the comic booky style of that first dirkjake picture! It’s super cool :3

thank youu! it’s mostly about the outlines, I like drawing them that way sometimes 8’)

Anon:DOES JAKE HAVE A HICKEY

how did u notice but yeAh probably lmao