I tell people, sometimes, when the topic of fraught identity comes up
as I child I am never Jewish I am
so effectively has my grandmother erased herself
and yet what I mean is
one-quarter Austrian Holocaust survivor
because she never does erase it
never Jewish: I read books
of children in the Holocaust
I write myself in as the non-Jew
the daring non-Jew who saves those
this, despite the fact that
I had realised that if it happened today
it would happen to me
when I talk to the rabbi
he tells me I am Jewish and corrects me
again and again
when I introduce myself as a girl with a Jewish grandmother
I should have known it is about more than religion or how you are raised
after all, the Nazis did.
I am angry
so much of the time
all of the things I have lost: I am
not Jewish: never will be, not in the way my
Jewish friends are
there are ways
our Jewishness has survived
in the shabbat candlesticks mum hauls out one day
- my grandmother, unable to keep them
unable to cast them away,
filled them with plaster of paris
and made them into lampstands -
in the way my mum dredges up old Yiddish
for use on my dad
in the prayerbook we find in my great uncles attic
with my grandmothers name written
not-Jewish with Jewish remnants and an inability
to make sense of them
and I will never really know
how to be Jewish and how to be
or whether it is possible to
Hey guys so, I was hoping it wasn’t going to come to this but we’re probably going to be shutting down the blog here soon. There’s multiple reasons why but the main one being that with the current silence in the face of what Pewds has done and the fact that people are still being silent in the face of his non-apology we just feel sad, disgusted and really really disappointed in the Youtube community as a whole.
As I myself am a person of Jewish descent this whole thing has hit me hard. If it weren’t for my family fleeing anti-semitic persecution in Europe I would not be here talking to you today from the states. Boss themselves is of Ukrainian descent and their family was affected by WW2 as well.
Now before anyone gets on our case about the whole thing being a joke or bringing up freedom of speech:
Saying that something is a joke or that someone is just expressing their freedom of speech isn’t a free pass to say things without facing criticism. This isn’t about being “triggered” or being “butthurt”, this is growing anger over a problem that has been growing and growing and the fact that youtubers are not holding themselves or each other accountable for their shitty behavior. This is Youtubers ignoring the legitimate criticisms of their fans and encouraging the silencing of criticism under the guise of spreading positivity.
Spreading positivity is great, wonderful and awesome, but not when it’s used to silence people who have legitimate concerns over racist, sexist, etc behaviors. And that has been a growing problem for awhile. And while others are not responsible for his actions of course to just stand idly by in silence and to continue to support him is not something we can condone.
Watch who you want, do what you want, but we’re pretty much done. We can’t sit idly by and support people who support those who don’t give a shit about how what they do can affect others. The lack of compassion and empathy shown is depressing to say the least.
And hey maybe if things get better we’ll be back. Keep your fingers crossed yeah?
We really adore you guys and we really have appreciated all the warmth and support you have shown us over the years. There have been a lot of ups and downs but I don’t regret starting this lil project. We made some amazing friends and we are eternally grateful for them, and for all of you who have supported us.
Woo and Boss
We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.
“The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference.”
Seeking a Jewish sensitivity reader for a short fic
So, I received my assignment for @purimgifts today, and (without going into potentially revealing detail) my recipient has requested something that would involve discussion of some specific Jewish legends in what is basically an urban fantasy context. I would really like to give this recipient what they have requested, since a search of the fandom indicates that no fic remotely like that exists. However, I am not Jewish myself, and don’t have the background needed to ensure that what I write is respectful of the legends in question.
Therefore, I am looking for a sensitivity reader. If you are Jewish, and would be willing/able to check over a short fic (under 1000 words) sometime in the next few weeks, please let me know. I am happy to repay you, either with equivalent beta services in an area of my own expertise, or with a ficlet or short podfic of your choosing. Thank you!
i missed the blackface, and i hadn’t heard that, but i believe you, and that’s absolutely unacceptable. i don’t know how i missed that but that’s genuinely awful, and i’m not going to excuse or defend that. i don’t mean this as a “gotcha” or as a way of saying i don’t believe you, because i do, but what scene did they do blackface? i do believe you, i’m just curious, because i should check myself if i was able to miss something that awful
i am aware about olaf– being jewish myself, i am more than aware of olaf. i’ve posted a few criticisms of that, actually, if you go through my blog, you’ll see that, and you’ll even see me saying that the author himself and the baudelaires being jewish doesn’t excuse the depiction of olaf. i genuinely thank you for raising awareness of antisemitism and listening to us jews who have said something over it, i’m being genuine when i say that it means a lot
these elements are less prevalent in the books, (blackface isn’t there at all to my knowledge,) which was what i had been talking about in my asoue post, which i assume is why you’re here, but there’s no excuse for them being in the series, you’re right
v: chains of gold (Harry Potter AU - set during Grindelwald’s reign)
In which Erik is a half-goblin, half-human, and was plucked up by Gellert Grindelwald at the age of thirteen or fourteen for his incredible affinity for magnetism. His goblin heritage would normally have sentenced him to death under Grindelwald’s regime - his powers were the only thing to save him. Over time, he became loyal to the Dark Lord, essentially functioning as an extension of his will and power. But sometimes, when Erik hears the screams of the magical creatures and people Grindelwald torments and butchers… he wonders if there isn’t a little rebellion in him after all.
(can be adjusted for modern AUs, but I’ll type that up later.)
DISCLAIMER: The idea of Erik being half-goblin in this verse was first posed to me by @absintheabsence and her wife, both of whom are are Jewish. I myself am in the process of converting to Judaism, too. JK Rowling is responsible for the anti-semitic Jewish allegory present in her writing of goblins - we’re just reclaiming them.
@roachpatrol‘s recent post made me think of Jewish representation and my own Jewish identity, so brace for the incoming ramble.
I myself am Jewish in a but-you-don’t-look Jewish way, with lank, meh-colored hair and a nose that’s more potato than hook. I inherited none of my great-grandmother’ powerfully sharp, witchy features. I did inherit her chin hairs, which is a whole different kind of unfair.
But I grew up in a school that was very informally Jewish, spent twelve years of my education in the red-brick building where Captain Ocskay hid two thousand Jews from the Arrow-cross militia. Not all teachers were Jewish, not all students, but many of us were: reform Jewish, non-observant Jewish, kinda-sorta-somewhat Jewish with an ‘it’s complicated’ relationship with the whole identity. Point is, I grew up befriending and playing with and learning from and competing with lots of Jews, girls named Sara and boys named Benjamin. Our Jewishness was a shared thing, an unfunny joke that becomes funny if you repeat it enough times. Seriously, one year it became a running joke to greet our Vietnamese classmate with anti-Semitic slurs, on account of how he was the only person we knew for sure wasn’t Jewish. (Of course, thinking back, he technically could have been.)
There are traits and features I learned to love before I learned to hate. Big curly baa-sheep hair, thick sideburns, big curving hook noses, prominent chins, hands that are always moving and gesturing and explaining: I held all these things in a fond, familiar affection long before the slow and queasy revelation that they belonged to a hateful caricature. Even now, when I look at an anti-Semitic image, I feel this strange ambiguity: I feel anger, but also recognition. Hey, that fat exploitative merchant looks just like my literature teacher, the one who got overexcited every time he read 19th century poetry aloud. Hey, that well-poisoner is the upperclassman I had a miserable crush on, throughout middle-school. And that sulky woman next to him, I studied English with her, every afternoon for years. Friends, teachers, rivals and annoyances, I know them all.
I try to hold on to this - just because some features have become excuses for dehumanizing hatred to hold on to, doesn’t mean I stop loving them, doesn’t mean I’m allowed to stop. They don’t get to take our faces away, they don’t get to reinterpret our bodies. So even when that familiar face is contorted in an evil, smug, covetous sneer, I force myself to recognize it. I think of my friend G, with a face right off the vilest Ewige Jude posters, and I think that one time in high school, a school excursion went wrong, when I’ve had to row in the rain for hours, then carry barrels, crying with cold and exhaustion. I remember his triumphant grin as he pulled out a flask of vodka he stole from the headmaster’s backpack, his voice as he says ‘take a swig and get back to work.’ How could I hate this face?
First of all, he’s amazing. I feel a lot more comfortable talking to him than I ever have any other religious leader or officiant ever. That shouldn’t be surprising, but it kind of is.
We talked about the process then I’m going to go through, my classes start in September, and if all goes well, as I’m hoping it will, in February, I will be an official Jew.
One of the things that he told me, is that he wants me to start referring to myself as a Jew. That he wants me to start wearing a Star of David (for example) or to start referring to myself as Jewish if someone asks what my religion is, or anything of that sort. To start truly thinking of myself as Jewish, to start understanding what being Jewish really means.
This is not to say that I am going to refer to myself as officially Jewish, until February anyway, but don’t be surprised if you see me simply refer to myself as a Jew in posts from here on out. I trust that those of you who follow me will understand that I am doing what I was told to do by my Rabbi, and why I was told to do it. He told me, hey, get used to being called names, get used to dealing with the anti-semitism, and also look upon the achievements of your people that you are choosing and take joy in them as well. On that, and make sure you really want to own it before we dunk you in a mikveh and there’s no way out.
I like his sense of humor.
So anyway, things went really great. I have new books to read. Of course I do.